Two Extremes of Rebecca (17)

Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Rebecca, a transgender woman on Skid Row. Here's a link to a playlist of all of Rebecca's videos on SWU: • Rebecca-May 2020 (3)
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[@KHX274]

Better than any “don’t do drugs” campaign ad I’ve ever seen. Best wishes for your healing, Rebecca.

[@StephanieJordan-qc7uu]

😐🌽

[@elenoreatkins6714]

Agreed

[@kiwiconnection3580]

Sort of. Drugs clearly aren't helping, but this is the extreme outcome of profound and prolonged abuse/neglect.

[@user-gv6kd9sv6j]

Drugs don’t make people like this though? I’m gonna bet that OP + the 156 people who liked that post haven’t actually done drugs before…

[@Anonymous-lq2bs]

I wanted to choke him out, because he’s just taking advantage of people and high as a kite all the time. He needs to be put in a mental institution until they deem him fit for society. He’s clearly a danger… in another video he was exposing himself in public.

[@RedeyedEm]

When mark said “stfu” I laughed so hard. We all know it takes quite a bit for mark to talk to someone like that. Bless his heart

[@aprilstorm]

Mark has got to be the most patient person I’ve ever seen! Rebecca spitting on my floor, calling me a bitch as I’m helping her, picking her feet in my car, yelling fuck-ah the whole time, I couldn’t have done 15 min of all that..

[@baublesanddolls]

It’s about time. Rebecca is so fucking rude, ungrateful, disrespectful, and self righteous, it makes me sick. I’m so over him. He’s a lost cause and is using the hell out of Mark. This video finished me with Rebecca. I would have wiped the floor that he spit on with his face!! Who the fuck does he think he is?. Then has the nerve to say, Give me this and that, Bitch. NO, it wouldn’t happen. You teach people how to treat you.

[@SteadilyGrinding]

​@@aprilstorm 15min? As soon as he spit in my car, I would've wanted to box lol

[@nikkis6065]

THE BEST comment from Mark😂

[@aprilstorm]

@@SteadilyGrinding yeah, I was trying to act like I could have put up with more than I can.. the dirty feet on my car seat, dash, all over and the skin being picked off in the car, among the other things, na I can’t do 15 seconds lol

[@sammysoulmate3450]

Something about Marks laugh is just so comforting .. thank you for treating Rebecca like a human being

[@user-yx2tp5hx2b]

He is just exploiting this chance for clicks

[@raymill54]

This is a human being? We are all dooooomeddddd

[@roilen8131]

​@@raymill54Yes, Rebecca is a human being.

[@user-gv6kd9sv6j]

I don’t feel he’s treating her like a human being, otherwise she wouldn’t mention twice that he’s complaining about her? He’s steering the conversation to how she needs to change, which she finds frustrating - is that how we should treat each other? He’s not respecting her right to live however she wants and is trying to manipulate her to live the “normal” way. Just because she has mental health issues doesn’t mean she can be told what is right for her.

[@Toonces666]

@@raymill54With people like you, yes indeed we ARE all doomed. Major asshole!

[@AS-dc3tq]

I. Have never. Heard Mark so comfortably say "STFU" before. You and Rebecca have such a special relationship. You bring out the worst/best of one another. Absolutely classic.

[@hbweezy1allday]

Perfectly said!

[@blaqfish]

Seems like love...or something profitable and romantic at least

[@PSmith-dl2hw]

When did he say that lol

[@PSmith-dl2hw]

18:20 found it

[@jakevingoe2879]

He used it the one time he should have though I’ll give him that

[@monseviteri4826]

I am praying that one day we will see a video with Rebecca finally getting some help before it’s too late. That transformation would be amazing to watch. Thanks mark for these videos.

[@StephanieJordan-qc7uu]

😐

[@jpmnky]

It was too late before Mark ever met Rebecca. But at least someone is trying to help. Poor thing never had a chance.

[@kristenpew1026]

Amen

[@Dydy-kv3yx]

Prayer doesn't work!

[@nikollenoel1514]

Amen 🙏

[@RosettaStoned462]

I've been binge watching these since i recently discovered Rebecca. It's so heartbreaking.

[@xiexie89]

Same. 😢

[@illumizzyt6637]

Same

[@goatcheese666]

Sames

[@dinafahmi9034]

Will Rebecca ever make it?😔

[@RosettaStoned462]

@@dinafahmi9034 I hope so but realistically, I doubt it. Either the drugs have made her the way she is or she has underlying mental issues, possibly a combination of both. She would need to get those addressed and that's going to require a lot of work.

[@bronerariel]

Hi Mark. I have been an opiate addict for 15 years. The last 4 years of my using I was heavily addicted to crack and fentanyl. I have been in the same mind set as Rebecca. The thought of never being able to do drugs again completely turned me off from rehab. It wasn’t until my parents told me to just give it a shot for a few months. What’s a few months out of your whole life. Maybe it would help when proposing rehab to her by saying she doesn’t need to commit to anything forever. Tell her she can try this program and if it ends up not being for her she can go back to her life on the the streets. Nothing to lose, but hopefully something if to gain. Luckily I ended up staying sober after the program and I have almost 2 years sober now. It’s scary to think so far into the future and not wanting to commit and disappoint anyone. That’s why they say to focus one day at a time. One step at a time. Ask her to just give it a try. Rebecca we are all rooting for you and know there is a better life out there for you. ❤

[@myriamcisse4814]

You are so strong. You can be really proud of yourself 🩷

[@MissDee40]

Hey you keep going.... You are in control not Satan.... I am also a recovering addict of a year and eight months. Not the same story as you but we are addicts.... I don't know you but I'm proud of you.... You just take it one day at a time... You got this we got this.... Everytime or if you think of doing anything....do some recovery work , pray pray pray, go for walks , cook , bake , anything to distract the thoughts. You have done an amazing job already it's a beautiful world out here show yourself love, love yourself be nice to yourself, breath Gods air, celebrate everyday you are sober..... Don't be scared.... Fear is just a feeling that you can crush to get to the best chapter of your blessings.... I see you, you are heard, you are not alone.... You are stronger than you think.... You are already a winner when you decided to do better.... God bless you God's beautiful creation...😊😊😊

[@lynnkalles2055]

Rebecca....your actually a good looking guy. I really hope that you discover your potential. Your also funny and with a little effort you could probably get a job as a comedian or even a model for an art class. You've got potential xoxo 😘and then seeing you 4 days later, it made me want to cry for you. Mark's right. Something really bad happened to you. I hope you take Mark's advice and try to get your life pointed in the right direction. The mother in me wants to just hug you and make everything OK xoxo 😘 ❤❤❤❤

[@bronerariel]

@@MissDee40 Thank you for the love! ❤️

[@rasheaelizabeth3549]

Great comment. Taking responsibility, while empathetic and compassionate, and a truth that can be hard to understand until its a life experience "one day at a time.". I did better the same way, by not forcing a promise on myself for life, doing it day by day, and one day I realized that Id made it through.

[@jamie40]

“I’ll be better I promise” absolutely broke me. I can’t imagine what it’s like to be living that way. Hoping for better days Rebecca 💔

[@elizabthharris6741]

It sounds like the trauma she experienced, from father maybe, was stopped when saying this. When fighting gives you nothing but more punches, you become small, and say small things. To stop the pain, to be forgiven. To not be looked at with such hatred. It breaks my heart to see what I could a been if I had stayed addicted and broken on the streets. Because I am bipolar and ADHD and not on meds because therapy got my broken ass to semi function. Still live in constant panic mode but it is a mild panic. Instead of high anxiety constant, I hurt for Rebecca.

[@lorrie5881]

I guess this is what withdrawals from meth looks like?

[@ScissorWhit]

@@lorrie5881lack of sleep probably. Idk …Meth withdrawals are mostly mental than physical. Your body rewards you when you stop meth. High anxiety and other mental discomforts happen but the physical healing feels really good imo

[@canadiantimbit]

I don’t know what happened to Rebecca growing up, but it feels like these apologies came from her childhood self.

[@luvyatubers]

I'm gonna guess she was super quiet as a child, hiding her thoughts and feelings. It's all coming out super loud now. I wish a family member would surface

[@brrrrrrrrit2663]

As a homeless shelter supervisor, your art here is so very helpful in creating a safe space for other people to view mental illness and substance use. The reality of progress and human change is so painfully slow but so incredibly beautiful.

[@joannesimpson6814]

That’s so true took me 10 plus years to get there and it was only when I really wanted to get clean it happened and my Mental Health needed to be sorted too .. once I was put on the right meds the rest happened but what’s different like you say I wanted it Rebecca isn’t ready yet. Only when I reached my lowest did I want to help and now 10 years clean and a beautiful life I’m so happy and I actually love myself now and that took me a long time. I don’t think Rebecca will get help any time soon even her getting a job in fashion and a sex change wouldn’t be enough . I pray though she does get help sooner rather than later. i would love to see how Juliana is doing these days xx

[@eangie35]

Except there is no progress here.

[@joannesimpson6814]

That’s so true. I think your right and I think some tough love is going to have be shown here. I just don’t know what else to say x

[@cassieensor2458]

Possession is hardest to watch whenever victim is totally unaware! Which is , more often than not, the case. Addiction is just like a demon! U play with it at first, u “ entertain” it. U damn well KNOW it’s dangerous. U tell urself that u can handle it. Yeah, like somehow YOU will b the exception to the RULE!!??? U even feel urself slipping away and the demon taking over control, right at that exact moment is ur most vulnerable….. if we could just get a hold of/help people either b4 or right then…. Once that point, the point of no return, ur a slave to the demon! U follow blindly into the abyss! T. H. I. S. S. Is When Possession Addiction Is Not A Choice!!! Can one recover? It’s uncommon, Absolutely POSSIBLE! The point of no. RETURN I Speak Of…. There is no “ returning” NO Turning Back to ur old self!! To become free from this demon, this possession of ur full mind & body, even ur spirit is effected .. U have to become a totally different and brand new Y O U Very very very VERY Few can do it without an actual SYSTEM OF SUPPORT no one, not one… Can do it alone! It’s a thing of pure evil Therefore It takes thing(s) Of Pure Love & source of eternal light To Reveal The abyss, much less dig u out with ur own willingness and desire to b FREE. Then same source becomes Ur strength….. aiding & guiding u to strengthen and believe ur loved, forgiven 2…. To all u idiots saying Mark is enabling…. There is also keepin a human ALIVE just ONE MORE DAY…. Believing & Hoping. That Day is THE day!! It’s nearly impossible to actually ENABLE a homeless person, skid row is the last stop b4 death! Showing them some unconditional love, ( like Mark does) might b first they have received and last thing they will feel b4 actual death!!! Y’all just stay sitting on ur phones judging while doing absolutely NOTHING! Y’all r the exact same people who Throw folks outta stores for “ no appointment “, tell homeless to “ get a job” insteada giving them a few ones…. Ur change Cause BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOS… go I

[@horizonblack]

Thank you for what you do.

[@carlosmov]

The way she said “I’m sorry” after you mentioned what happened the last time at the hotel, you can tell when shes sober shes just thinking about how messed up her life is and she can’t handle how out of control she’s been. Shes ashamed. I’m praying for you Rebecca, you got this.

[@Pouthin]

yea, re-watching this after the latest video. It's heartbreaking to say there's no way for rebecca to come back from this.

[@catherinepatton8699]

Mark, you are not a therapist, what you are doing is not working. Video after video displaying Rebecca's anxt and addiction to the world is nothing more than a money pot for several, the show is entertainment for many the end result is the same old results nothing. Professional help as intervention may help but as of now you are providing a soap opera performance for rebecca. Look at the end result, is it working? Video after video of Rebecca's insanity of various degrees. It's not working, change the platform to intervention please it's worth a try. Catering to his mental illness is not working at all but for a few results are $$$$$ for you and a few others.

[@Itsjustkat1003]

​@@catherinepatton8699 he's a trauma porn pimp.

[@montaraebeck6996]

Mark has been more help to her than not. He's doing what his passion is and mentoring a lost soul. In the real world, she would be a discard to the human race. Look how much time he puts into trying to give her introspect time and time again. He may need to make money off this, but his good certainly out ways the bad. Marks a Godsend.

[@DSPsWifesBF]

Stunning and brave

[@TSho123]

Rebecca is the only one who gives us viewers an insight into Mark's life. He interviews Mark all the time 😂

[@amaamivlogs]

She*

[@Sammysmys]

*she, and a most accurate observation!

[@southafricanpowerbackovert8576]

Brilliance in him undeniable. No wonder he's strongly believe in him being a super star because he is

[@normn2915]

​@@SammysmysHE** stop playing with nature, he was born HE and that's that!!

[@normn2915]

​@@amaamivlogsHE** stop playing with nature, he was born HE and that's that!!

[@raccoonravine]

This hurt so bad. The second interview and when Mark said “Hey, darlin,” you saw her eyes light up. She loves mark and thankfully mark genuinely loves her too.

[@catherinepatton8699]

I am not sure he loves Mark when his eyes light up, Rebecca loves to pull people into his drama when Mark said hey darling he did just that. What a show ??? Is it helping Rebecca? Or is it another performance for the audience of two Mark and Rebecca. It's a costly display of trauma not properly addressed

[@rudynewman2040]

I agree. Mark may think he is helping Rebecca but he absolutely is not. Mark is too naive to keep up with Rebecca. Rebecca tells Mark he loves her and Mark sucks it up. But Rebecca just throws Mark some crumbs because he knows Mark has a crush on him and it keeps Mark's wallet open. He actually just told him he'd pay for a hotel for him permanently. Mark, that's what a lover would do. I know I've said this before but I think it's more than a crush.

[@rudynewman2040]

Either that or you live an extremely boring and empty life which makes me sad. Rebecca is your entertainment?

[@rudynewman2040]

This is actually Dolores Newman. Rudy is my son and this is our extra phone cuz I hate my phone

[@44LillPuffin]

He's the same with that woman with the tattooed face and is pregnant apparently with her half brother

[@reneetree]

It’s the quiet, vulnerable Rebecca that gets me every time…sending love to her.

[@ebass69]

That’s an act

[@kassiefisher6011]

Her constant apologizing is a sign of being abused. 😢

[@ebutuoy5088]

Him

[@IWannaGoMissing]

Yeah it’ll really help her situation if people also insist she’s a man and that she is wrong about her own gender

[@ebutuoy5088]

@@IWannaGoMissing man.

[@kaithoudek8410]

When she said “I’m sorry I’ll be better” and he replied “it’s okay you don’t have to be”…. Mark you’re an incredible human. Thank you for not giving up on Rebecca ❤️

[@ashiakarpinski1849]

Can we please stop using the word "enabler"?? It's not 1930 anymore. The opposite of addiction is connection. To have at least 1 person who just loves you for exactly who you are at this exact moment can & literally does save people's lives. And a person can't recover if they're d3ad. So Mark, thank you. Thank you for loving & supporting Rebecca for exactly who she is at this moment. 💜💜💜

[@kaithoudek8410]

@@blahblog4322 far from it.

[@kaithoudek8410]

@@ashiakarpinski1849 beautifully said. Addicts don’t need abandoned. Learned this from loving many and seeking out al-anon for myself (teaches you how to love an addict and support them without enabling and encourages healthy boundaries)

[@janetwarren]

​@@blahblog4322wow 😮

[@pbee.njayay444]

@@blahblog4322does it make you uncomfortable to see people who severely struggle receive emotional support and care? Does it bother you?

[@mikeodell6090]

I believe the interactions and the humanity of Marks dialogue with Rebecca is what gives these videos their unique quality ...they are simply the best insights into one persons full spectrum lifestyle with all its ranges ...the good, the bad and the beautiful ugly

[@katie9364]

facts! i wish more people could see this

[@kwood311]

Even if Rebecca is permanently physically and mentally damaged from the drug use, it is still possible for her to get sober. I, for one, will never give up hope for her. I love Rebecca! I am emotionally invested in her. Rebecca is wicked intelligent and mad talented. Her potential is endless! Thank you Mark for bringing Rebecca into my world! I love you and her so much ❤️❤️❤️

[@joelashadali]

What talent has she exhibited. What makes her so intelligent? There are plenty of people out there who need,want and deserve the help more. This is becoming a sideshow. I cannot in good conscience donate blindly anymore. I'd need to know who my money was going to. At this point it feels like enabling. Loads of people out there have potential.

[@billj4525]

Definitely predisposed to mental illness, drugs alone wouldn't do this to someone who wasn't predisposed. I have seen very few addicts like this mentally, but I guess homeless addicts are more likely to have mental illness. Sad to see this honestly.

[@Richrags99]

You can’t help someone who does not want to be helped. Rebecca’s alleged drug use appears to be masking severe mental illness. It’s so sad to see people like Rebecca fall through the cracks. How extremely important these interviews are to show the harsh reality of what life really is like on the streets. Mark is truly the expert in the portrayal of this dire situation in our country.

[@TarkOG]

I don’t think her drug use is alleged, it’s real.

[@madidiamondhands]

In one of the older videos, Rebecca had recently been released from rehab, if I remember correctly. Maybe the hospital. I believe on that video she said she's bipolar. My x is bipolar 1 and I see so much of his mania and psychosis here. In that video you could tell Rebecca had been given anti-psychotics.. she was very soft spoken and appeared to be grounded and clear. Her intelligence came through so clear and held an actual conversation for the entire video. I hoped that it was the beginning of a new chapter but bipolar disorder never ends unfortunately. They say it only gets worse with age.

[@jaqikennedy9990]

Rebecca isn’t falling through the cracks…. She has PLENTY of help & has been offered the best rehabs, paid for by Mark 😞 She.’s having to much fun to stop & knows exactly what buttons to push & where to go when Rebecca wants a shower, a nice hotel for the night or two or three, a phone, new outfits…. “Mark”!!! Poor Mark is going to go broke trying to help these people that don’t want to help themselves 😞

[@emh8861]

Mark spoils her rotten. She loves drugs.

[@ChirpyMike]

"Alleged"? Are you serious?

[@christinaherrera2861]

Mark's care for Rebecca reminds me of the saying, "He who saves one, saves the world entire.". Humanity does exists.

[@catherineoconnor4846]

As a therapist, I see the power of unconditional love, congruence and acceptance every day. It is pivotal, together with consistency and patience in formulating trust. Over time, you will see how Rebecca will turn this around. The ups and downs, the push and pull, testing boundaries is all normal on this journey. Keep doing what you are doing Mark. Thank god she had you.

[@lucid_dreams420]

So, keep enabling Rebecca's self-destructive behavior? Continue giving him $100 for things like taking his glasses off, so he can keep getting high? Continue to pay for hotel rooms for Rebecca to be unsupervised and increase the already high-risk of dying from an OD? 😳😳😳 You're a therapist!?

[@theamziss]

​@@lucid_dreams420There's a fine line between 'enabling' and 'helping', which isn't always clear. What is clear are Mark's intentions; He wants to help Rebecca and wants Rebecca to get better. When you're dealing with an addict and trying to help, you inevitably end up indirectly enabling them occassionally because of what they do with your help.

[@lucid_dreams420]

@theamziss Money is the only thing you don't give to an addict you wish to help. You ask what they need and buy what you can afford. That's how you help an addict who doesn't wish to recover. Money=Drugs=Enabling. That's MY opinion, but I respect yours.

[@sarah.j.777]

​@@blahblog4322lol right?? not to mention promoting codependency by suggesting Mark has some responsibility to keep trying & fix Rebecca. Shit therapists are a dime a dozen.

[@iamchemadiaz]

this

[@AlainaRene87]

The way that Rebecca was self soothing by rubbing a small bit of the blanket broke me. Ive been there and would love nothing more for this sweet lost beautiful soul, to be freed of these trauma demons. Shes so haunted by her past, but healing is possible. We love you beautiful, and will never give up hope for you💜

[@Feminazi1dc]

I think she might be high functioning on the spectrum. My theory is that the autistic brain is just the second brain and a huge portion of the population are just struggling, wondering why they are the way they are, bc we as a society villainize the idea of being autistic so nobody knows anything about what it really is lol

[@isadon]

Mark, thank you for keeping us connected to Rebecca and your continued efforts to reach her. Patiently waiting for the day she accepts your help.

[@isadon]

@@blahblog4322 that’s your opinion.

[@RED_RUBY_DA_SLEEZE]

👁👁 😒 "MARK I'M ALWAYS HIGH AROUND YOU... YOU PAY ME MONEY FOR DRUGS" 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️ MARK: I'LL PAY FOR YOUR ROOM FOR A MONTH... NOW IF THIS AIN'T ENABLING... NOW I KNOW HE DEFINITELY DOING ALOT WITH THESE HOOKERS BEHIND THE SCENES 🤕🤒🤕💀

[@RED_RUBY_DA_SLEEZE]

@@blahblog4322 👁👁🤕🤒😷💯

[@ediesaffron3593]

Accepting Marks help might involve Lima… which ISN’T gonna end well 😢

[@SgtStang]

Him

[@rootvalue]

18:25 is an absolute legendary moment, thank you so much Mark. I’m glad you two have enough trust that you can speak without putting on airs of formality. 😂😂😂

[@jessicagallegos6228]

😂hysterical

[@cabal3508]

I love how Rebecca wanted to talk but refrain from doing it

[@kittytheflcatmom9566]

Of all of Mark's interviews, the ones with Rebecca are the only ones that consistently bring me to tears. I've never wanted sobriety so badly for someone I don't know. I agree with Mark that she was hurt very badly when she was a child. And I hate that so much!! Rebecca is intelligent, you can tell. And she seems to have a very caring heart. It makes my heart break knowing she has to be high on something to block out whatever pain she is experiencing. Rebecca, I pray for you to find the strength to get clean and stay clean 🙏 I know it's not easy. I'm a recovering addict myself, 5 years clean this past April. PLEASE let Mark help you!! 🙏🙏🙏

[@deigamohamed707]

I agree 👏🏾

[@KLara-ig7fr]

^^Ditto! Be well Rebecca!

[@MargauxNeedler]

Sometimes it's things we do too that we are guilty of and don't wanna face

[@cahleyv]

Congrats 🩷

[@joannglenn4802]

I STARTED FOLLOWING MARK, WHEN HE STARTED HELPING AMANDA ...RIP AMANDA

[@chloewagner8515]

I’ve never heard Mark tell someone to “shut the fuck up” 😂 that just shows how close him and rebecca really are 🥹

[@krystalized06]

One thing I love about her is that she's asking Mark questions too and is genuinely interested in his life.

[@Jackjohnjay]

*He. This is a man.

[@krystalized06]

@@Jackjohnjay yes ma'am

[@joseplaza9442]

It’s a he

[@QuinnieMae]

​@@JackjohnjayYou crazy leftists.... always trying to demand everyone else use your preferred language. Where do you get off?

[@Mrfrankblak]

Mark, you’re one of the best humans ever. Nobody would give this many offers for help. You are so soft and humble. Rebecca is blessed to have you in her life.

[@fishfire_2999]

Why are you saying her ? This is a dude .

[@JujuMama23]

@@fishfire_2999 how miserable are you that you reply the same disrespectful thing on every comment?

[@easytiger35]

well, his life. you said her. whoops

[@GiveMeYourNachosButthead]

It’s a “He” you scum!

[@MarzArmory]

His life. You can see his cock this entire video, Frank. You goofy, wake up

[@Handsi_Bae]

The light of love ignited in Rebecca at 21:10 when Mark says “Hello Darlin’” is pure and absolutely beautiful. I love you Rebecca. Please take Mark’s hand to pull you out of your emotional pain & addiction. YOU ARE SO LOVED. 💖💖💖💖

[@christonacouch5550]

Haha this persons mind is fried. Have you ever known been related to or lived with or around meth users before?? The guy “Rebecca” is more selfish than you realize.

[@meemster101]

TRUTH

[@XenaXOE]

I know! It was like a light came on inside of her for just a moment, ignited by the love felt in that simple phrase ❤

[@lu7609]

This is great. Mark has to be one of the kindest and most genuine people. Also… I shared this with my teenager as another warning to never get started in drugs.

[@kimprice9172]

First time I've heard Mark swear. I dont know how he has the patience to do what he does. He's so strong.

[@FlatStan1l]

What time was that

[@gold.gorilla]

@@FlatStan1l18:17

[@vickijolley]

Oh Rebbeca 💔 I hope with all my heart and soul that you go to rehab and get off the drugs. You are so beautiful darling xxx

[@karliawareham245]

I am so scared that one day there will be a video saying Rebecca has passed. I truly hope she gets the help she needs and deserves. Rebecca you are an amazing soul. Mark thank you for being an incredible friend to her and for giving all you can.

[@deerheart87]

I agree Mark is absolutely beautiful inside and out he's darling X

[@Martharrose]

Rebecca constantly apologising is the second clip is heartbreaking for me. You do a beautiful job in how you speak to a person in this fragile state. I wish more people, especially medical professionals, spoke to those who are struggling with the compassion you do. Best of luck to Rebecca x

[@ravenravella1000]

Agreed!

[@denisejones1279]

It seems too late. 😢

[@ravenravella1000]

@@denisejones1279 Hope not, bet yes, serious situation

[@stephanie1339]

Omgggg. The vulnerability of the second half of this video is completely heartbreaking. 💔 I have never wanted to give someone a hug so bad 😢

[@gameofcobras4353]

I love how you just show her love without judging. You’re the only one in her life doing that. How sad is that. Thank you is what I wanted to say basically. Everybody needs love ❤️

[@manicmexican]

Thank you for loving her.

[@cyndimorgan9792]

This is exploitation to make money on KZbin you stupid dumb idiot. Get real.

[@throughtheeyesofachild61_45]

It’s a he not a her

[@StacyLightnerStudios]

💞💞💞

[@KidsWithGuns1992]

@@manicmexicanshut up dude

[@kimberlyanne434]

My heart hurts watching Rebecca, so young and so many drugs have affected the psychosis. I wish I could be this age again! I’m 61 and life is so beautiful and so precious and no one’s child should end up like this.

[@taylora6305]

Mark’s “Shut the f*ck up” at 18:26 was long overdue. Lol Sending he and Rebecca all the best on their journey to her sobriety…Mark, you’ve done good, kid.

[@StephanieJordan-qc7uu]

😐

[@ktay4042]

I laughed out loud so hard. He has so much patience with her and she finally got to him. Kinda like with my toddler. 😂

[@saraluna8370]

😂😂😂😂

[@i_love_games110]

​@@documentaryno.1802i don't think he keeps giving them money when they aren't improving though

[@Glaiket]

Just when Rebecca says ‘Do you know who Edie Sedgwick is?’

[@tamaragresh2476]

Thank you Mark, for your kindness and love towards Rebecca. Those two things are what every human should feel. I’m so glad that she knows your there❤️

[@sustew76]

The second half broke my heart. She seemed so fragile. Rebecca is struggling, I hope she choses help. Thank you Mark for everything you do for her!

[@FELIPE8226M]

He* smh

[@rose.kck.]

In this second part, Becca didn't know how to ask for some money for her next dose... I'm pretty sure... 🥺😢

[@jessicaavery751]

@@FELIPE8226MIf this individual feels more comfortable being called “her” then how much does it really impact your life personally? Not at all? Ok. Then it’s not necessary to comment. We can clearly tell what anatomy they were born with, that’s just what makes HER more comfortable.

[@jessicaavery751]

Same. I went from laughing at her telling Mark his hair looks awful today to almost crying. She looks so sad.

[@FELIPE8226M]

@@jessicaavery751 Well “He” has a mental illness then thus the drug usage

[@kazamencer]

Every interview with Rebecca is a masterclass of compassion, patience, presence, and unconditional love.

[@MR-vq1rp]

THIS - so well said!

[@jamieyoho2310]

Thank u.

[@1017vstheworld]

And wow that compassion is doing wonders for them isnt it 😊

[@gryffinberner]

⁠. It is unrealistic to have expectations for changing Rebecca. Rebecca needs to want to change. Mark has offered lots over previous interviews and this one but Rebecca needs to be ready. I saw and interview of Mark and he does help a lot of people but that happens off camera. His goal for this site is to document interesting stories of the state of America to inspire people to make systemic changes and to break down stereotypes.

[@leejennifercorlewayres9193]

Are you blind? This interviewer has no compassion in the ways people really need it.

[@brittneydease4040]

This video broke me. I've followed your videoing Rebecca for years now. Here I sit today, snot-crying in bed at her realizing she has no clue what she even needs at this point in her life. I have recently found therapy and just wow, what that could do for her. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, Mark. You are a true blessing.

[@HeatherMathes-uj1co]

"I wish I could help you somehow." I absolutely agree Mark, my heart breaks for her, and also for you. That helpless feeling is awful. She deserves so much.

[@91bt]

Rebecca is so unpredictable. I’m afraid this person is too far gone.

[@Pampilici]

Me, too. Sadly

[@Alwaysrightmemind-di8yv]

i dont thonk that true ..do you remember amanda how she csme out of her addiction a different person may she rip@@Pampilici

[@jessica2brook]

​@@Alwaysrightmemind-di8yvunfortunately Amanda was "too far gone" as well, physically, which is why she passed.

[@jaybeezy4843]

Yeah he's not coming back from his current state of mind.

[@BaylasWorld710]

You would be surprised what people can over come I've seem people be that bad off and still get better

[@EmilyandLiamsMom]

I always check for your Rebecca updates. These last two are hard to handle. Rebecca is such a beautiful soul, I wish that I could see her clean, sober, and living her best life. Mark, I love your patience with her. You are a godsend to someone like Rebecca. Please keep us updated.

[@nikkiahdowdell16]

Me too

[@j3ss1kaa1]

Same. Idk her, but it’s always a relief to see her updates. She’s so obnoxious and I love it, very truthful ❤😂

[@tamzenkarma]

Well U won't Not in this lifetime

[@hungariantornado]

Seriously without Mark many of us would not learn shit about these truly human individuals and we would remain distanced instead of engaged. He’s bridging these gaps and we should support him for doing this for us.

[@ORLYNN]

100%

[@acatinthecradle]

Agree! 💯

[@jeanghiberti9944]

Not really, we learned all that “shit” 5 videos ago. Those who continue to watch are nothin more than gawkers at a circus sideshow. Stop making videos about this individual. It makes you as sick as he/she is.

[@sodapp6730]

I grew up with mfers on the corner like this. You go stay engaged with em capN save a junkie 😒

[@hungariantornado]

@@blahblog4322 well, OK, perhaps not directkt engaged, but I have a lot more options to help her than I ever did 🤷‍♀️

[@Babyboffa2018]

As hard as it is to say; I don’t think this is going to end well for this tortured soul 😢

[@BabsOBRNC]

So fragile. So sad, such an awesome human being. She just won’t believe she is so talented

[@jess6735]

No one truly understands how frustrating and painful it is to see potential and brilliance slowly die, unless you’ve experienced it first hand. Watching Rebecca is so triggering for me at times. I watched my mother die slowly from drugs and she was a super talented poetess and artist whom I loved dearly. I so wanted to save her, but I couldn’t. I know how Mark feels, it’s such a whirlwind of emotions. Sending love to you Mark, take care of yourself.

[@suedouglas4041]

Cannot you.mark..become his legal guardian and take him to hospital

[@Luciaonlinee]

I'm an addict and I empathize with you darlin. It's not easy for either side but the families suffer way more. Watching your loved one whither away while they're so close to glory. It's agonizing. I'm clean and living much better thanks to my family. Some of us aren't as fortunate to see this disease through. My condolences friend. I don't know you from Adam but I know we've probably been through similar experiences. My heart goes out to you

[@noahalexander26]

Same. It is so sad

[@kendalllou4274]

My mother died due to her struggles with drugs, and it was always so hard to watch her struggle and not be able to save her.

[@barbmoore6587]

​@@Luciaonlineethat is so sweetly said...❤❤❤you too lucia🫂❤️❤️blessings and continued peace of mind ❤❤❤

[@amandacollins1369]

Rebecca, we don’t find you fascinating on drugs- it’s the vibrancy of your authentic self and the perseverance of your brilliant personality- even amid the drugs. It’s the amazing human behind the addiction we are addicted to!

[@lvglec]

Nicely put❤

[@mollyram2997]

YES! I want to see her more clearly bc that personality is incredible

[@Jillionaire_]

THIS! this comment needs to be pinned ....Rebecca NEEDS TO SEE THIS!!! the op was able to take everyone's thoughts, the ones we couldn't find words for- and structured the most perfect comment. Idk if that even made sense but yall get what I'm saying rite lol

[@moonbathing2002]

Absoluty

[@tomsnowden6201]

What does that even mean?? “Authentic self”? What is that? You don’t know this person and what you’ve seen is shot and edited by someone you don’t know.

[@mariahwalter8997]

Mark I love when you said "shut the fuck up" and continued explaining what she could do to literally MAKE A LIVING and be safe.❤ I feel for you so much. Loving an addict is hard. So very hard, but they are hurting.

[@evil_applejuice674]

Years of watching and this was the most legit, loving "shut the fuck up" ive ever heard

[@WheelLoveTV]

Def. Agree its ok and normal to see his frustrations come out from time to time 💪🏽

[@tydusrain4476]

timestamp?

[@kristylee2834]

I felt the hurt and frustration, but love and concern, in his voice all at the same time.

[@janstarr50]

@@evil_applejuice674I came here to say the same thing!! It came from such a loving and caring place.

[@snazzygirl8671]

I know this is an older video but its the 2nd or 3 one where I see sober Rebecca. I think the drugs allows her to not give a crap about what people think so she can speak but sober Rebecca (likely due to childhood trauma) is not only soft spoken but seems soooo scared to say a word. I lost my son and baby grandson few years back so I've turned to praying every night since and Rebecca is in every prayer I say. She HAS to get better, the world needs her here, so many people would be devastated to hear she's passed. I sure hope today she is better or working on getting better (sorry if there is a recent video with her, just going thru all your older videos first as I am new to the channel). Keep up the great work Mark and Rebecca, you ARE so loved. We just need you to love yourself.

[@krissygoersch5942]

AMEN

[@lburke2002]

I have so much compassion for Rebecca. Mark did such a great job with this interview. I hope Rebecca is able to get some assistance and that life gets better. Recently, I asked on social media if anyone watches swu. I had no responses. I can't believe everyone isn't watching these videos. I have learned so much about life and understanding people and empathy. Mostly, I've learned, protect and love your children at all costs. Thank you Mark for helping and giving these people a voice! ❤

[@akbizzle1]

I swear, Mark, you are a saint. You are SO patient with people and SO generous. With someone like Rebecca, I really admire the way you deal with her. I sincerely hope she gets better

[@dtps_champion6016]

the society that calls this man a 'she' is complicit in deluding itself

[@kealeyjohnson691]

Rebecca is in so much physical pain it hurts me…..feet tired painful body exhausted mind needs a rest….we love her…praying for her sobriety and relaxation

[@baublesanddolls]

The disrespect, entitlement, spitting, swearing nonstop, get me this, get me that, etc., is pissing me off. I’m so done with Rebecca.

[@akbizzle1]

@@baublesanddolls I completely understand you feeling that way. Believe me, I sort of feel/felt the same way. It's just that ALL the drugs she's done and/or doing, or not helping her at all.

[@Sean.David.Artworks]

Why don't you help him?

[@tinerea7464]

When she says, "I'll be better , I promise," I saw Rebecca as a young child, saying this to his parents. Hurting her. Looking at them with those beautiful eyes, it breaks my heart to think of what her life has been and what she has seen and endured. Praying for you Rebecca darling. Please try and find the strength to get some help before it's to late. Please.❤😭🇨🇦

[@fdre3wsd]

I heard an inner child there too

[@amberblair8379]

I see that inner child too. Every time she says I'm sorry her eyes dart and she hugs herself tighter. She's expecting a beating. I see it in those beautiful doe eyes

[@baublesanddolls]

All I saw was a manipulative addict playing Mark. They all do it. Try living with one for a few years and I’m sure you’ll understand that they’re masters at manipulation and lying. I seriously wanted to slap him. There’s far too many other people who desperately want help who would be so grateful and appreciative. I’m so over Rebecca’s game!

[@johnthorp3649]

​@baublesanddolls5756 I get that feeling, too. Doesn't care a shit about anyone else, addiction or not.

[@Anonymous-lq2bs]

@@baublesanddolls well said. He needs to be put away … mental institution with all the other wackos. I refuse to support people’s delusions. I’m not doing the pronouns game… 2 genders; male and female PERIOD and that’s science.

[@gourmetgirl69]

My heart absolutely breaks for Rebecca. I swear if I had the financial means, I would do anything to help her detox, get therapy, and realize her dreams. Thank you for loving her Mark.

[@wanghaf_Gl0yper]

Mark is willing to do all that, not happening yet. Sucks

[@Ftybr57]

This person has been offered help. Choices that’s what witnessing choices.

[@Ftybr57]

I think a lot of people can see he’s acting. Yes, he’s using drugs but he’s clever.

[@micheletotton9342]

My heart aches for abuse victims, the poor souls that live on the edge of society, the tormented, to try to escape the clutches of addiction must be so hard. There but for the grace of God go I. It makes one wonder how we can truly call ourselves an enlightened and civilised society. Huge respect Mark

[@tinaborris8608]

What a difference a few days makes! Mark, you are so kind to Rebecca. When Rebecca is telling us non drug users to try drugs, to elevate our lives, I look at her and that is the reason RIGHT THERE, why I have never gone down that route. I hope she eventually listens to Marks advice!

[@thesandstonelotus]

The words that Mark says on the second part of the video bring me to tears. Thank you for being you Mark!

[@MissSeaworld8]

"I'm sorry, I'll be better" just breaks my heart. It sure has happend awful things in her childhood that has broken her as a person... Feel so bad for her. Really hopes she gets the help she needs one day and can live a better life as an adult. Stay safe Rebecca!

[@laurahage7141]

I saw an interview with Mark and Joe Rogan. Mark spoke about the incredible, unwavering, and unconditional love that his Mother had for him. He said (para-phrasing) he could have been gay, a drug addict, a criminal, and his Mom wouldnt have ever loved him differently. It felt like a softer, more private side of Mark, and he shed tears over this. He is walking in his Mom's footsteps, trying to give another human being the same love that he received. It said this is like a homage to his Mother. It was refreshing to see Mark behind the camera lens. I hope you get to a place where you tell Rebecca that you will not love her to death. Pure, unwavering, unconditional love is doing whats best for other people, even if it feels "wrong" or "bad". Mark, it sounds like your mother would have moved Heaven and Earth to make sure her son was healthy and happy. What do you think she would have done for Rebecca. If Rebecca was her son? Each video i watch brings me closer and closer to the decision that i would commit someone i loved, if it meant saving their life. Even if it meant they hated me for the rest of their life. I am in recovery, and my sister called me one time and asked me who i wanted in my family to make decisions for me if something happened. I dont know if they were close to commiting me, resigning themselves to my death, or if they meant in medical matters. I dont want to see Rebecca die. Shes clearly in a place where she cant make responsible and informed decisions for herself anymore. She would stay in the streets forever if she could. Beautiful wigs, dresses, cigs, and crystal meth would be all that she needs.

[@blondeferalgirl]

❤

[@igeogeoi9340]

Self-worth needs to be taught and supported in children. It takes a lifetimes worth of fighting to learn it as an adult. Sadly, due to the pain, people often get caught in rough lifestyles like this before they have a chance to figure it out. I think that's a cruel reality. The cliche has merit though, Rebecca can't get better until she wants it and feels she is worth it. Always be supportive of children. They are people.

[@TEM14411]

AMEN ❤

[@thematriarchy2075]

Self-love is something that is taught by others, that's why some don't feel it, because they don't have had experiences that made them feel loved. I always have a hard time with this self-love talk, because it seems rather unfair to say to people, i find. To add, i am a bit surprised that people don't understand that self-love is given by others, i mean, look at Mark's channel, a whole lot of people who were not loved as children. So, give people good experiences and the love will come, that's why it is so important to love each other. Mark has said something about the name of his project and how he would have named it something with Love in it, because the answer is obviously Love. ❤️ And i'm happy you edited the part about "taught" into your comment 😉😄

[@marthalouise701]

This…

[@Chickadeebunny]

What about children who never stfu? My friends child is at that stage right now and I literally cannot stand it, I don’t know how parents can deal with a child talking 24/7 about the dumbest shyt without just telling them to shut up.

[@tattyk665]

@@Chickadeebunny The first step is to go to your loved ones around you, especially your own parents, and inquire as to how they tolerate you, and your incessant yammering about stuff nobody cares about. Carefully listen to their answers, and then apply that same knowledge. Once you understand how people can have compassion for you, especially as a child, you can hopefully learn how to have that same compassion for others. Good luck!

[@fufi859]

I just want to say that Marks daughter is one lucky girl. To have a father that is so kind, loving and giving must be wonderful. ❤

[@bossylady36]

Any daughter would be lucky to have a father like him, I know I wish I did

[@Hayden_Scott]

No way!!! No one is ever too far gone! I was a 15 year every day anything I could put in my vain junkie! Mark don't you give up on Rebecca, keep loving her. I would definitely help with the cost of wellness for her. Rebecca one day will have the best testimony to tell others on Skid Row.

[@gilyp4205]

Im a dude, a straight - heterosexual guy & Rebecca's story is one of the most amazing docs that SWU has. It breaks my heart to look into his eyes because in some ways, I see the pain shes trying to mask. I pray she gets the help she needs, puts down the drugs & deals with the emotions/pain that us as humans need to face to get sober & well. REBECCA, if you ever read this, youre an absolutely gorgeous & amazing soul. I really pray you make that money, blow up and take the world by surprise. Youre fabulous, youre glittering, youre awesome and very much loved by this GUY. Id love to have some coffee with you, chat and just laugh. You remind me of my cousin, an amazing soul. Love you girl! My prayers are with you.

[@angelazsz]

what does you being straight have to do with anything

[@ilrak87]

He said something nice guys, just let that be what it is

[@charmingheartphotography6758]

Which part is gorgeous? Picking his feet the whole convo? Demanding money and free stuff from "bitch" "virgin" Mark while admitting he loves being a mess. Or maybe its the part where he threw a whole box of clean, normal clothes away in disgust while demanding Mark take him shopping and buy him a house? Becca loves this life style and unfortunately a fix is the only love and the only future he looks forward to...hes entwined his life so deeply with doing wrong that it flows freely from him. His chaotic energy can be felt through a screen...that speaks volumes.

[@Yamyito]

Not saying she wasn't acting rude or lacked manners but she is on drugs bro you aren't in the right state of mind to be thinking clearly at all. She is an addict gone untreated so it's expected someone will act chaotic. Rebecca sober, or at least not this out of it, is what people really see if not she wouldn't have so many people wishing for her to get better or they wouldn't love/care for her this much. I stick by Rebeccas story closely as I feel her and Mark actually have a relationship it isn't only an interview but also a conversation. That shows she isn't entirely this disgusting thing you describe. A persons character can be much more charming than their appearance. Im sure Rebecca realizes how generous Mark is I just hope she also realizes that she needs to do her part too and build herself back up with the help of his generosity. If you were to be thrown onto streets and become an addict wouldn't you want people to consider who you are outside of that too? If not... thats speaks volumes. @@charmingheartphotography6758

[@justsomenobody889]

@@victormacs7897 oh who even cares

[@marytrausch5230]

My brother was an homeless addict when he was young. He hit his bottom when he went to jail. Went to AA. Now he continues going for support. And he tells his story in Salvation Army. He is a sponsor. To be among other addicts to stay sober . He knows how much better he feels and lives now. A complete turn around to his life. He appreciates life today. I Hope Rebecca gets help too. He does have potential. He could use a doctor's help to help his mental health

[@tamarakonczal7975]

So sick. So fascinating. Rebecca needs medication and therapy. But I enjoy hearing Rebecca's great intelligence.

[@growinhope7288]

Every time I see a Rebecca video I'm scared it will be the end of her story. I don't know how I have became so emotionally attracted to her. I hope I see the great story emerge and not a tragic ending. The second half brought me to tears, I just wish pure love could heal the sick, if that were the case so many people could be healthy. Love you Rebecca ❣️

[@catladykat__8381]

I feel the same for her! Everytime I see a post my heart stops and just hopes for the best but prepares for the worst. Love Rebecca so much

[@lynnhobby32321]

Sometimes it takes me a few days to get the nerve to click. 😢

[@milenamb5931]

Omg I feel the same way!!! I've been watching her for two years now and I'm just so scared that we get an update one that something happened to her. I pray for her every day😢❤️🙏

[@surferdude800]

why don't you losers get a real life instead of living in the fantasy world that this actor has created for you

[@justiceBustamante]

I would give anything in the world to know Rebecca's true life story

[@badieazzouz1352]

The inconditional love that mark has for Rebecca is powerful , and i love their unique friendship , with the silly comments they make to eachother ❤ we love you so Much, this Channel IS so raw and truthful .

[@unknown-lives]

I can see why people start to criticize Marks motives, this feels very exploitive. Specially after that last video of Rebecca walking around shopping. But maybe that was the point? People don't watch Rebecca because "she" 🙄is intelligent. This is going to sound harsh, but people like seeing a trainwreck, just like how people enjoy watching Jerry Springer, COPS etc... I know you're going to delete this comment but that makes me know you read it.

[@liamburns8554]

I am becoming more sceptical and tired of Rebecca. All the love is beginning to appear counterproductive. She needs reality and discipline..not enabling. And it is “unconditional” love….. well this sort of love means you need to be tough with her

[@styrofoampony]

​@@unknown-livesagree with u.. I feel like nobody would want to be seen like this..and if Rebecca is on drugs how can they consent? Idk. I have a lot of mixed feelings..

[@tihannabear]

​@unknownpmc5581 omg stop. It's eye-opening for many and those who have used get this and we wish we knew then what Mark brings to light now.

[@jaybeee789]

I wish him all the best

[@gSWG3R]

I hope Mark sees this comment: *Rebecca needs more than individual therapy - she needs for starters (which you know, and offer her constantly) - a serious and lengthy medical detox; but most importantly, for people like rebecca who clearly have serious trauma and very very serious addiction problems, Group DBT (Dialectical Behavioural Therapy) is most suited for her. It centres on treating emotion dysregulation as core to disorders like substance abuse, BPD, and those with severely suicidal intentions and behaviours. Rebecca needs this, and regular therapy won't cut it. Rebecca has very serious dissociation and impulsive behaviours, and cannot do therapy individually.* Sincerely, a psychologist who watches your content.

[@HitTheBricks89]

I disagree , though to match a therapist with which both parties could endure the long term feels very unlikely. I have been in therapy of one sort or another almost twenty times , it was only when I met the right therapist that I was met and understood and found acceptance , forgiveness , the ability to let go and reasons to actually love myself in less time than it had taken to even develop a working trust with others. There are therapists that could work with Rebecca , I agree she needs a detox and additional help but it's my belief that there is someone for everyone whether that be a romantic partner , a car mechanic or psychotherapist. I also wholeheartedly agree with a dbt, cbt based plan. Dbt was the game changer for me , having a system and a collection of exercises to help regulate my emotional reactions is what actually created the space in which I could do more work. primarily she needs to stop taking uppers , any change is unlikely until that is addressed.

[@Tallgirlsrock]

Is Rebecca a schizophrenic?

[@stevenf7752]

👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾

[@markkinkle7038]

I have been reading “High Conflict Couple”. It was the first-time, I learned about DBT. Are there any other DBT based books you would suggest people read?

[@user-mz6iv8ps6c]

If you’re so smart and a psychologist….you have surely spent the time studying science, therefore you would know there is only biological male or female. This is a male.

[@elenoreatkins6714]

This is one of the saddest things I’ve ever seen in my life. She is broken mentally and is in dire need of professional help Thank you Mark for everything you do! You deserve a humanitarian award!

[@MRSTEEL-fd7eg]

Him not she. Dumbass

[@titan1448]

He*

[@fhenderson8925]

She is a he

[@Toonces666]

Titan and Henderson, suck it.

[@fhenderson8925]

This, is, self inflicted. A choice. We all have choice he is a grifter

[@shivapazoki1881]

The second part of the video was absolutely heart breaking 😢😢😢😢

[@aoefeable]

I wasn’t prepared for the shift and can’t stop crying.

[@rskye11]

Just in case anyone was thinking about trying meth, you need to know that Rebecca here may or may not have been mentally ill before she tried this drug. Meth is extremely popular in the gay club scene, which is where I'm sure she was exposed to it. It can trigger something called Meth Psychosis, which presents almost identically to schizophrenia, which might be what we are seeing here . The worst part is that psychosis doesn't go away after discontinuing use in 40% of people. Meaning, if she wasn't mentally ill before, she is now because the way methamphetamine alters the dopamine pathways and serotonin receptors in the brain. It change your brain's structure, which is why it's so dangerous. I lived in Arkansas for a couple of years and saw how it ravaged entire communities. If you're going to do drugs, don't do this one. Not because it's illegal or immoral, but because your mind is all you have.

[@marytrausch5230]

Thank you for explaining this drug and it's effect on the brain. It' explains the damage that takes place. Especially with the user.

[@Cherryvelvettt]

Wow.😢

[@katiegraham6149]

Also, meth is super fun and physically hard to come down from. It’s easy to think you’ll only do it once until morning comes and you still have a little left, or it comes around again and last time you were fine, so why not? Just don’t do it.

[@marytrausch5230]

That is really important information , thank you for sharing this

[@minxy9029]

"Your mind is all you have" is a such a simple but powerful point.

[@mistyhatter5360]

For everyone who says she is too far gone, people said that about me too. 8 almost 9 years sober. No matter how much someone wants you to succeed and get well, YOU THE ADDICT have to want it more than anything. Your sobriety has to treated like a life and death situation. You have to change EVERYTHING.. While it seems so hard for those experiencing change, it's real simple at the same time. I hope she does get sober. I never ever say someone is too far gone for change, just like I never ever say someone has too much sobriety to relapse. I held onto hope for my father until the day he passed away from his own addiction. What are we without hope? We love you Rebecca ❤❤❤

[@ameenakhiggins]

I've been in NA in the past, consistently, for years. Depending on where you live.... all groups are different. But I believe that NA, in particular, is worth a shot and it helped me for a while as a stepping stone of sorts. What I've found is that therapists and psychiatrists have helped me in a much more useful and meaningful way, long-term. Sometimes we just need more personalized care! As a matter of fact, I feel we need more personalized care more often than not... For instance, I got knocked up with a dude I was seeing (who was also in the program) and we split cus I had an abortion - he had wanted me to keep the baby, but I knew better. Thank goodness. Unfortunately, he had been in the program longer and was more "popular" throughout the entire area...even region! On boards and all that. So everyone dropped me at the worst time possible - while I was still pregnant, and that was a lil devastating. Maybe I'm just so useless and that treatment was warranted...?? But I highly doubt it!! Lol Anyway, before he ever showed up at our meetings at all, the women in my main meeting group had established lofty plans to start a women's NA group that would follow after our general meetings. But as soon as I started going to meetings with the dude -- it was apparent that his reputation preceded him and it all went to shit. So NA is not a cure all! It's an Instrumental tool, though... ❤What I'm saying is, never put all your eggs in one basket! A multi-modal approach to recovery is truly essential!! (This all happened November 2012 through Sept 2013. So that ship has sailed. He is still a cheater, hitting me up 10 years later, while married & with a daughter now. But I don't have to deal with that, and neither does his wife have to deal with me, cus .... never again!! So ultimately, it's a win-win. 🥳 LOL)

[@ebutuoy5088]

He

[@belleprincess250]

If you’re still living, you can get sober. Hardcore addicts can and do get sober

[@user-qz6tm4sv7t]

Agreed! And good for you 💖 It's even harder when people have dismissed you as 'too far gone', having someone like Mark that still has hope and compassion will be the biggest component to Rebecca's success.

[@Noone-l6g]

Some time in a hospital bed, sedated enough to get rest and begin recovery would give this person a fighting chance. There’s a point you can’t come back from on your own without medical intervention. I think the only true demonstration of unconditional love at this point is a straight jacket and medical supervision. After a period of time, enough clarity emerges that you have the ability to make good decisions again, and you have half a chance of being able to make them. Anyone who thinks Rebecca can recover any other way at this point will be disappointed.

[@doeeyes2]

Thats how I got sober. I went to the hospital in Toronto and stayed 12 days. Security didnt let me leave for the first day and then i stuck it out. I wasnt out cold but heavily medicated. Even with the meds it was the worst teo weeks off my life. Luckily we have free medical detox center where they give you meds and help you wean off your drug(s) of choice. And then you go to a clean living facity for a few mnths and then you can do outpatient. I know not everyone has access to these types of centers. I actaully went twice to get off of opiates 15 years ago. And then 6 years ago to get off of alcohol. So im now 6 years sober from all substances and life is great!! I wouldn't have been able to get clean without the medical intervention.

[@Hopner44]

Thanks Mark for being the soft place for Rebecca to land...people need connection and not disconnection. She has so much potential, I hope she can see that in her lifetime.

[@asiajae6763]

I really just love the compassion for Rebecca in these comments.. I just wish this type of compassion was always this heavy we are truly all just humans dealing with the cards we’ve been dealt. I feel like grace and compassion is what we lack so much of in daily life.

[@caravanoflove4]

Imagine how different a place the world would be if that were our reality.

[@lynnecostantino5472]

Mark is the image of the fatherly role and Rebecca the snotty nose teenager. The dialogue between them is priceless!

[@quickstepqueen699]

I'm in tears. I can tell she's so close to realising the truth. I just want to hold Rebecca and tell her it's ok to be scared of her thoughts and feelings. That there are genuine people who can help her tackle her demons in a safe way. Yes, it won't be easy but imagine the freedom when she gets through the other side. A year of difficult therapy to have a lifetime of love, OR, avoid the difficult conversations but spend a lifetime on the streets with just a blanket? Change is scary but with professional treatment/therapy and a "constant" in her life i.e. you Mark she can light up this world even brighter.

[@i.molina4381]

Rebecca is so articulate, humorous, attractive, and brutally raw and honest! Sober she has so much potential. I pray she gets the help needed and addresses all the issues that led to drug use to escape n self medicate. I see so much potential in her beautiful soul. Rebecca people do care and are rooting for your success.

[@jessicaking8752]

When she came back my heart just shattered. She is so hurt. You are so so so incredibly loved Rebecca. Please PLEASE! You have no clue how much support you have. You are so smart and talented and quirky and could be so much. Make your dreams come true Rebecca. Get help girl. Mark and all of us will be right here ❤

[@user-lc7oy1qv8z]

My love for Rebecca has grown throughout these videos. She’s not “too far gone”. As someone who used to be an addict (in long term recovery) I have seen many people like Rebecca recover and go on to live full fulfilling lives. I can not wait till we get to see Rebecca healthy. I hope that day comes soon. ❤❤

[@user-lc7oy1qv8z]

mental health support (ideally gender affirming), some sort of rehab, and probably meds would all benefit Rebecca. I hope one day the trauma will not be fore-fronting Rebecca’s mind.

[@beththomas681]

I so agree. This is a beautiful person.

[@longdong3889]

@@user-lc7oy1qv8z "gender affirming", so keep his delusions going? Are you a patient too? 🤣🤣

[@SilentEchoes91]

Gone but not that far gone. I hope for all the good too, that's all I can do.

[@SilentEchoes91]

​@user-lc7oy1qv8z you'll never convince Rebecca to be a man but you also shouldn't convince Rebecca to get a sex change. Just leave this person be. There's no gender affirming anything. Rebecca just needs to get her s*** together because there's so much potential. She's so creative and had this unique personality. Rebecca needs drug rehab, not gender whatever rehab what a waste of time. And a psychologist and perhaps a psychiatrist would help.

[@lonewoolve2471]

Rebecca is so SO lucky to have a person like Mark relentlessly looking out for him, and addiction is no joke but I still can't help but get mad at Rebecca for not even trying to change his life. Mark can just choose to walk away, which he wont, but if he did...Rebecca's trly done for

[@JOECorsoNova]

Everything you said is dead on correct! Sad

[@christinas4528]

The second part of this--when you said "Heh darling" was absolutely heartbreaking. Rebecca looked about six years old, with all the fear and confusion of an abused child . I believe you are correct, someone really hurt Rebecca.

[@loveitwhenyoudothat]

I adore their friendship. No-one speaks to Mark like Rebecca does 💗

[@MsLH208]

He needs to wear the dress properly

[@EuleneWages4644]

😢😢😢😢😢

[@digitalsalsas]

@@MsLH208 Lololol

[@loveitwhenyoudothat]

@@MsLH208 I said exactly the same on the last video when mark had bought her the dress. I want to see how it looks all zipped up. X

[@MargauxNeedler]

​@MsLH208 that's the least of concerns

[@mariahjane7969]

Im 5 yrs clean and when I was first clean I suffered from shaking and tremors, memory issues, pain from trauma I got on the streets. The list is long of all the terrible side effects I suffered but with time things do get better. I pray Rebecca will be able to heal. The damage done to your brain can be major and it might already be too late but I hope not. ❤

[@deirdregallegos]

Mark you are one of the most compassionate people I’ve ever seen. 😢

[@THEgothicqueen1882]

Rebecca breaks my heart. She is stuck in a loop that I don't think can be broken. I feel like she probably always had a mental illness of some sort and experienced many traumatic events growing up, which amplified the mental illness. Then when she added drugs to the mix, it became something that can't ever be fully healed, and most likely sealed her fate. What makes her situation even more sad is that she is just one of millions that are in her same situation. Nobody has the answer as to how to truly help people like Rebecca. Most end up dead, forgotten, or both. That's truly tragic because they are human beings and many of them never had a chance for a different life. It's so sad...

[@AlmostMiddleAgedASMR]

Mark, maybe you should sit down with Rebecca and pick out 100 of the best, most positive comments. Maybe do a video reading them to her? Because it might make a difference to realize that so many people are rooting for her!

[@longdong3889]

Stupid idea

[@SilentEchoes91]

I totally agree!

[@RayThomas-fl7fo]

I don't know. Can you fill a broken heart?

[@devolutionone]

You can see the constant pain she's in when she's sober, whatever happened to her must be so horrifying that only drugs can make it bearable.. I feel deeply for her, it is so sad.. What a tortured soul. I hope she finds peace somehow, thank you for being there for her and try to help her.

[@jaybeee789]

Agree. I wish him all the best.

[@CannibalisticSlit]

Ur one of the few ppl in the comments that’s actually being empathetic and not just saying “they are too far gone”

[@LuisaD93]

It’s become more unbearable because of her lifestyle. She continues to use to the point of oblivion and puts herself in situations that allow for her to be used and abused. She also is willing to do whatever it takes for whatever she can get out of it in return. Sad way to live a life. She’s too far gone and if you listen. She clearly enjoys the life as she’s said over and over again. Like in this video. She’s said and indicated it several times.

[@curtismorris8243]

"He" needs to be in an Asylum.

[@davechristian7543]

@@EmpatheticEmpress and that was going down from meth PMSL

[@karolanoble2858]

Thank you Mark for being that 'one' person who truly cares about Rebecca, no matter which Rebecca she shows ~

[@Kissthebottle68]

He

[@fianait]

​@@Kissthebottle68What a profound, constructive, helpful, compassionate, and Christ-like reply.

[@bryceharney5960]

@@fianaitChrist would tell this dumbass that he is indeed a HE. Christ would not feed the delusion(s) of the CLEARLY mentally ill.

[@bryceharney5960]

@@Kissthebottle68😂🤘🏻

[@ColdCreekB]

@@fianaitwhy do people like you bring Christ into it? You know he’s all about the truth, and not deception right?

[@kosher8720]

This is very sad. It’s unfortunate that our government doesn’t care about mental health or the homeless.

[@user-ll1nc2ru4t]

As out of it as Rebecca is she has moments that she quips back and ita hilarious. Mark: " your wig got messy" Rebecca: "yeah i live on the streets" 😂

[@christinabrown3222]

I know right? Her random phrases are insight to how very intelligent she is. And my favorite part was 'he puts the lotion in the basket' from Silence of the Lambs, not only for obvious reasons, but the fact that i am realizing she sat through that movie at some point in her life to be able to recall that very specific quote from the movie. She is very intelligent, just broken. Wishing the very best for her, what a unique soul.

[@tanyagonzalez8319]

Remember Rebecca's video right after getting hit by the car receiving the bad leg injury and being in the hospital for awhile??? That's been her best health I think. That shows that medical care of any kind or length of time helps tremendously!! She looked so good

[@marytrausch5230]

I didn't know how the injury happened on her leg. And how her recovery went in the hospital. That is interesting that you did. But she sure needs more care. Her addiction is so bad for her overall health. I sure hope she gets professional help soon.

[@chantelletrembath3345]

Yes, she looked a bit chubby and like a different person really 👍

[@taylordeaton6619]

Mark, I just want to say that had I had someone like you when I was spiraling in my addiction I may have gotten clean sooner than I did. Thank you for showing Rebecca such genuine kindness! I just wish she’d see what we all see & get sober.

[@jenniferphillips4765]

I'd would have to agree. But enough is enough. I used to think it was Entertaining but not anymore period I hope Rebecca gets help. He needs soon because I don't think you should continue to help her get whatever she wants when she wants and a room for a month. Wow, that's pretty nice of you. My boyfriend and I are gonna end up on the streets. Yes, we can't afford rent. So yeah he's pick it up especially fromy person like you you're so nice

[@redbonegurlarmywife7266]

What a beautiful human being. I pray he gets the help he needs😓

[@negativezero8174]

If you find this beautiful I seriously wanna know what's ugly to you

[@redbonegurlarmywife7266]

@@negativezero8174 what’s ugly to me is your comment. I clearly see he has issues. I choose to look beyond that and not judge a person of their outer existence. I’ve watch all his videos and I guarantee that if he wasn’t in this situation his beauty would shine through.

[@negativezero8174]

@@redbonegurlarmywife7266 lol

[@robertwithrow2900]

This is very difficult to watch. However, Mark you are a very kind and patient man! Thank you for making the world a better place.

[@KarmaFlight]

It really is a shame. Free will is a double edged sword...

[@jennysmedley4685]

Don't let your story end in tragedy Rebecca! You've got a light inside of you, don't squander it ❤

[@kimberlysmith7311]

Best comment. ❤ Right even in the condition Rebecca is there is something that shines thru

[@lorrie5881]

​@@kimberlysmith7311if you go back years to some videos where he is " sober" it's CRAZY...he's smart, clean, and probably has some talent in there somewhere. LA is the pit of hell.

[@jessicaavery751]

I’m at the end now & it’s heartbreaking. She almost looks like a lost scared child that’s in a lot of pain. Some of these comments are so disgusting, you have no idea what happened to this person & the ones saying such things have obviously lived a privileged life devoid of any kind of trauma. Some of us that haven’t been so fortunate understand. You’re what’s wrong with society.

[@Wildhoney501]

Mark is the most patient person ever with Rebecca 😂😂

[@allset9284]

Watching interviews with this person used to be interesting and heartwarming in respect to all the help that Mark provided but now it is just disturbing - I don't think it will end well

[@dellapel4728]

Exactly my thought

[@mellyo7262]

Yes I agree! Like the lights gone out….

[@CaptainRegular]

This either ends with Rebecca becoming a Tik Tok superstar, or a few more of these videos before one has an "in memoriam" at the end, and it's heartbreaking to realize that one of them is so much more likely than the other.

[@alexanderargead5430]

It's a sick society when becoming a "tiktok star" is considered a desirable or noble pursuit.

[@moriahkahler4140]

It’s just that tik tok/ Instagram is where there best fitting would be. Make up videos etc. especially starting off. I’m not sure if Rebecca understands that though…

[@jamiesalazarmysticmedium316]

All I want is to see Rebecca finally go to a rehab. I want to see that potential finally manifest. Sending love and healing. ❤️🙏🏼

[@justinstevenson3736]

Mark you are truly one of the best people in the world. These people may not show the appreciation and as thankful as you deserve but we (your viewers) realize how much you do. Love you man!

[@rhondaphillips6376]

OH Rebecca,,,,You are a sweet soul, Everyone appreciates the kindness and care Mark has for her !!! THANK YOU MARK !!!🙂💟

[@yoginikaltri333]

The ending made me cry…. a little boy trapped from childhood trauma… someone shamed him… you can see it… how sad and tragic. I Pray something happens and he gets the therapy and medications to stabilize. Love the Humanity & Art. Thank You Mark👁️🕉️🕉️🕉️🕉️🕉️🕉️🕉️🕉️🪬