Cullen Bohannon Cries

[@goodtreasureministries9008]

When Cullen cried in this scene, the sound he made was the same sound I made when when my dad died. It was like hearing myself make a sound I’d never heard come out of me before. A pain I had never felt before in my life. For Cullen to have cried this way for this scene… left me speechless. It took me back to that day.

[@costacosti8494]

it was the same for me,friend.wish you well!

[@mat7083]

The slower the knife, the deeper the wound

[@johnwalls234]

Yup, made the same sounds when I found out my best friend died.

[@Relikaintcominback]

Same when my mom passed last year dude. Never thought I could sound like that.

[@tdk9518]

It's the sound of an actor though.

[@robertcorozza7212]

This scene shattered me. He had to kill his best friend, and for a man who doesn’t show his emotions like this - you absolutely feel ever bit of his pain. It’s a guttural, visceral cry from deep within him. I agree with every comment - this shatters me everytime I see it.

[@anwjuice]

In America climate these days there friendship should be taught in class.i know it's a show not real but they came from two seperate sides of life and became best of friends. The country could use this. But media rather portray other shit

[@anwjuice]

Also agree.the fact he doesn't show his emotion make the scene that much more powerful

[@alsimmons1650]

@@anwjuice The sickening thing is the media can't & won't portray it cause it loses the grip of power & corruption Truly a disgusting world.

[@thomaslainojr]

This scene was sad and I felt it.

[@kushpaladin]

it is quite a soul shattering thing to lose any friend. I haven't been through it, but I respect anybody who has. :( even though Elam doesnt like Trump, I forgive him.

[@MishaElRusito]

This is one if not the only one series where the main character is portrayed as a REAL MAN. Cullen is a man of honor, good manners, always does what he says, knows how to reason with people, hits you in the face if you do wrong, defends women and children, protects the weak and kicks ass when needed. One of the greatest shows ever made.

[@Law-Enduring-Citizen]

That’s exactly what it’s like when you never cry and that overwhelming wave of emotion physically manifests itself.

[@tiznonay7421]

Wonderfully done. He completely encompasses the character's lack of familiarity with that type of emotional catharsis.

[@dannysolid]

When men cry, it's something else... something primal... shattered misery upwelling from a guarded place. A world that tells men to "man up" and "be a man" and to "just take it"... when a man can finally release, it is something that breaks through... torrential.

[@AuGroupAZ]

Watching this episode live I cried with Bohannon. Anson Mount deserved an Emmy for this scene alone.

[@deedeefoster7950]

Me too, I cried for an hour. He didnt want to kill his best friend 😢😢😢. This scene had me in a chokehold

[@janehallenbeck2251]

Agreed

[@cullenbohannon1408]

This show is gold. The acting, the emotion. Gold!

[@Aviator-Chicken]

What’s important to note about this scene is that Cullen isn’t just upset he had to kill Elam. He’s upset that he had to give up on him when Elam never did.

[@lpshorsegirl21equestrian19]

I haven’t gotten to this season yet but oh my god he had to kill his best friend that’s literally so heartbreaking I’m on the part we’re his friend is losing his mind from the bear attack but this makes me sad to find this out I’ve seen this video but I didn’t know it was his friend in there

[@oldmansportsog2514]

Only time In whole show Cullen broke down, those 2 show how Men from diffrent lives can bond trying to conquer something

[@k.d.8924]

It's not just Elam, it's all of them. His family, Doc, Lilly. Elam was the wave that finally broke the dam.

[@N1ck8586]

Just got done watching this episode for the first time. I was not ready for it. Powerful scene.

[@THEFRATMAN]

Honestly this is how I've cried in real life before: being soft spoken, pushing people away, holding back tears until you physically and emotionally cant, then letting out every moan youve ever known and screaming until its consumed you. Anson mount did this scene justice in every way and im glad the show went on as long as it did truly one of the greats.

[@outsiderrrs6382]

The way he cries makes me feel it was real 😱😱💔

[@2Good2BeTrue45]

There was a report I believe at the time the epidoe aired where Anson Mount said he improvised most of this scene and actually felt saddened that Common was leaving the show, as they had great chemistry and believed they created something special together. They had a true friendship and believed in the script. Saidd it was the only amount he wanted to Cullen to portray the full weight of heartbreak and despair

[@jeremymcclary3901]

🖤🖤🖤🖤💋🖤🖤🖤🖤

[@FlatEarthDisciple]

The most difficult scene to watch in TV history for me. Truly magnificent.

[@mblaster3D]

Cullen, since the beggining of The series, lost everyone and everything that he hold dear. He Lost his family, his wealth, the war and comrads of arms, besides he lost his second love, Lily. And losing Elam was, no joke, the final nail in the coffin. Was too much for even him to bear.

[@WheelBite0_0]

Elam was his best friend, but what really broke Cullen’s heart is the fact that this happened to Elam because he got attacked by a bear while he was looking for Cullen.

[@teo7621]

And he had to kill him.

[@JosephAdams97]

Exactly! Eva's words after wailing over Elam getting shot, "He went looking for you. " hit Cullen hard. I swear, this moment still shatters my heart. After this and Ruth's execution, Cullen couldn't take it anymore, hence his line "I quit" .

[@Greaser-zz7xo]

As someone who has had to bury his friends and family, this is a cry of the most upset, despairing, anguished sense. When someone who has seen death and destruction in the sense the Cullen has seen, you have time to grieve but only for a moment or two. Now that his closest friends have now died the emotion thats been inside of him since the start of the war in 1861 has come out, an emotion he probably never felt he’d tap into. Anson is a spectacular actor for sure and I will aways love Hell on Wheels for his performance on the show.

[@donnymcjonny6531]

You can see it pass over his face. He feels it coming and is unsure, almost confused by it. Then he lets a little bit out and he can't stop it. Like a tidal wave busting through a dam.

[@janehallenbeck2251]

One of the best scenes I’ve ever watched. My heart broke.

[@berenebairona4839]

This scene will haunt me for the rest of my life

[@KILLAWATTS804]

That scene got me bruh....can't lie. Didn't expect my man to die in the show.

[@AbsoluteDark]

When I first saw this watching the show, I cried along with him.

[@dl30wpb]

This was his breaking point. He bottled up his family dying but losing his best friend broke him emotionally

[@slighter]

Just one too much.

[@RogueSanta]

Can't take revenge on a broken mind

[@janehallenbeck2251]

When my mom died I cried and hugged my dad. When my dad died I fell to my knees because my best friend was gone.

[@MrGnastygnate]

I bet know one thought he would cry and the fact that he did this for one of his biggest rivals in the show spoke volumes. A well done scene.

[@BadseedGarden]

Elam was his best, and only true friend in his life short of maybe Doc, and not only did he die trying to save him, but then he learned elam didn't die, his mind was damaged and Cullen was forced to put him down for everyone else's safety. He's absolutely broken at the loss of one of the only real connections he's had since the world changed for him after the war.

[@janetteobuch5476]

I've cried like this 3 times in my life. A few years after my mum's death and my father's death. It was a realistaion that they were never coming back and the memories of them could not longer feed and sustain this illusion. It is really frightening for other people to hear. The other time was when I had had another very stressful time in my life. This crying is like no other, visceral, gutteral, primitive, totally exhausting mentally and physically and empties you out like a gutted animal. I don't know how Anson Mount replicated this so authentically unless he had experienced this in his own life. An Emmy and more to the man. Cullen Bohannan is the best anti-hero I have ever watched. The best written anti-hero part I have ever seen. I don't follow Sci Fi and never have, so Star Trek was never parrt of my constellation, call me a wowser, but nothing will surpass Mount's acting in "Hell on Wheels".

[@donaldpump3072]

Us men save those tears foe our loved ones. So when we let go everything comes out.

[@bigchief70]

I know the feeling from when my best friend died. So grief stricken you could just vomit.

[@AKAScooter]

One of the best episodes to show the weight of hard decisions.

[@7hpc545]

This is the only tv show ever to be able to pull off a heartbreaking scene like this and not even need music for it. it's just raw pain, and honestly this is how a lot of people react to heartbreaking experiences.... it happens, we go silent, and when everything is finally quiet, it all sinks in, and you can't help but cry/scream.

[@cjay6664]

I know this feeling, the feeling of losing your best friend and I dont wish it on anyone 😔 they did a great job with this show

[@ayeyochoc]

When my bestfriend/ Brother died, i didn't cry for a whole day due to shock but when reality set in, half my heart died and it left my soul just like this cry 💔, i agree i neve wish this on someone and hope they grow old together ❤️ 😢

[@wolfscotter]

never has a show or movie made me cry this is the only one, this scene just hit me so hard remined me of when my father died and the love of my life left me cried and made the same exact sound

[@DarthBanus]

Ive only made that sound twice in my entire life and have only heard one other person make it, one single time. That is the uncontrollable, gut wrenching wail a person makes when their heart breaks and a small part of their soul dies. Its a sound you hope you never have to hear and centainly one you hope never to make. The acting and directing in this show is absolutely top tier, they perfectly captured the sound of pure grief and despair.

[@KlassicKolt5612]

Even badasses like Cullen Bohannon need a good cry every once in a while. Don't be afraid to do the same, kings.

[@nippy3126]

Ik this pain all to real having to watch ur best friend die in your hands. Mine was in a car wreak, we were together he died I lived.....R.I.P my brother. Awesome show

[@ayeyochoc]

I won't lie to you, I know that same feeling, I almost had a heart attack 💔

[@brodhax6148]

Howd he not get an emmy for this scene? Phenomenal acting

[@jamesgonzalesusmc]

I have cried that hard before it tore me up inside to hear him cry like that

[@joshuahmitchell873]

When I lost my sister. I... I mourned over her for a bit over two years. And when I sat down in the park beside my house I, let it all out, and I cried so hard, for so long My voice croaked.

[@SirToasty070]

@@joshuahmitchell873 I'm so sorry..

[@ayeyochoc]

​@@joshuahmitchell873it's been 2 years since my brother left on his terms and it's getting worse for me 💔

[@ShellShock11C]

This show gets canceled but the Kardashians get countless more episodes. Thats the world we live in.

[@seancssu]

I don’t think it was canceled, I think they wrapped it up just in time. I would love a “hell on wheels” universe, explore the Indian wars, etc

[@PaulWeezy50]

​@@seancssuEnding felt a bit rushed tho

[@seancssu]

@@PaulWeezy50 ehhh yeah you right

[@kuatojones6950]

Yea but its a show about building the transcontinental railroad, it got built. I could see maybe one more season but there wouldn't be much to go on. And would we really need HoW to become walking dead and have 12 seasons?

[@theglowyoungbruceleeroysun1486]

@@PaulWeezy50 In contrast to cough cough the walking dead, I believe this is just one of those instances where some geniuses know when to call it quits.

[@raiderdanCA]

This is the most tragic, gut-wrenching scene in the five year saga. His pain becomes our pain. When I saw this, I wasn't worth a damn for the next few minutes.

[@Born2beSPRA]

I feel like this hits worse when you see flashbacks to moments in his life where he didn’t cry. I believe like losing his wife and kid or his second love (lily) Elam was his best friend that he really loved and counted on. Also makes it worse when he had terrible with coffin because he always had Elam help him

[@ryankeefe6222]

I think that cry was everything all at once Elam was just the final straw that finally broke him that cry is everything he lost at once

[@aak1992]

@@ryankeefe6222 well said.

[@MishaElRusito]

The saddest scene in the entire tv history. Cullen never cried throughout the whole series let alone show any emotion or any type of weakness. Killing his only friend broke him. Very strong scene.

[@mpumelelobeyers957]

Sadness is too much.. Lawd have mercy 💔

[@jasonkelley5605]

... after I saw this episode, I turned off the TV and went outside for a smoke and a moment of silence

[@donovananarruda]

I think his emotions were based on the uncontrollable circumstances of life that led to his best friend's death. Life is so cruel, and both of them had endured so much pain; that's why they could relate so much to each other. It was hard to watch this scene, as we got to see the cold view of reality that will always be relevant all our lives at any moment's notice.

[@Matt-O]

This is absolute perfect acting. My wife talks about how she's never seen a man cry and I try to explain to her that men aren't comfortable crying so when we do the sound is so heart wrenching you'll won't be able to forget it

[@cleverusername9369]

There's something poetic about the fact that Cullen struggled to get Elam's coffin off of the wagon. Even in death, Elam had to be his stubborn self and stick it to the white man.

[@rambofelix1839]

one of the saddest scenes I 've ever seen... gets me every time I see

[@NorthPasture]

I think everyone let’s it out like this at least once in their life.. a heart shattering scene with awesome acting. 😢💔

[@KarlPHorse]

The change from slave owner that rode under Nathan Beford Forrest in the civil war, to the unbiased, honorable, man Cullen became in the show, might be one of the greatest character developments in history.

[@Gangja717]

So Walter white doesn’t exist any more?

[@KarlPHorse]

@@Gangja717 I think that deep down, Walt was always the bastard he became. His true colors just came out more and more as the show went on.

[@theconsigliere5769]

Damn, i wasnt ready for this scene.

[@ssudzy3]

It’s been 10 years since this episode and it still hurts to watch. This scene still gets me

[@jasonbradley7516]

That wasn’t just a cry because of the loss of his best friend Elam that was a deep chasm of emotion that he had held in for so long he had held together when he lost his wife and his child when he was just beginning to finally let go of his past and let himself love again with Lily she was taken from him then his best friend when everyone else had forsaken him get lost everything else the one person that never left his side never turn his back on him never quit on him he had to kill him. All that emotion finally spilled over and he couldn’t contain it anymore it broke my heart

[@flyinglikethewind7680]

This broke my heart when I watched it. He tried so hard not to get his emotions involved. He cried for that black man That’s what happens when you truly love someone no matter what race or sex. Racism should be dead but... everyone isn’t the same.

[@dl30wpb]

Every race has it's racist portion. It will never go away.

[@nr1NPC]

@@dl30wpb Tribalism, it in our "genes"

[@tromboneman4517]

@@dl30wpb, racism will always exist. With that said, you’d be a fool to think that racism is a systemic issue nowadays.

[@Cr4cKf0x]

That cry hits you square in the feels don't it 😔

[@fsdirtbear926]

Ah man. This scene kills me still.

[@gorlab9549]

A confederate soldier, burying his African American best friend who died trying to save him. Yet behind it all, they were just two brothers trying to survive the world.

[@donaldpump3072]

You don't see color, ethnicity, etc when you burry a brother

[@lukelopez3364]

For a man who never cries much. Goddamn I’m shook

[@rhynoedits]

Damnit I’m just now watching this show and when I saw the episode coming up was called Elam Ferguson I knew something was gonna happen but Christ I fucking cried my eyes out

[@aaronvasquez4436]

I’ve rewatched this show probably 20 Times and that episode breaks me everytime. I start crying like a chick watching Titanic. The part where he’s telling Eoam “Your name is Elam Ferguson. Railroad police. Lawman. You and me... We had some times. Put down some bad men... We found your lost baby. You remember that? We even beat the hell out of each other one time. Friends always.” And than when the last scene when he’s starts balling like a baby, oh man that gets me crying everytime. I think because Cullen is such a bad ass and a tuff SOB to see him break down and really cry u know he loved Elam like a brother.

[@notevenow1610]

I just finished watching this, I'm speechless man

[@Jupiterxice]

This scene made me cry. Cullen was a former slave owner and after war befriends a former slave who turn be his side kick best friend. They been through rough times and now he has to bury him. Cullen feels at fault due his friend went to look for him. Thats the gravity of it.

[@masterzombie161]

Honestly this scene is up there with “I abandoned my child” from there will be blood. A moment that made me break down, feeling hopeless, broken.

[@bjornjoseph]

all these years alter. still hits hard

[@danieltownley7133]

PTSD in 30 seconds. Jesus Christ that hurts.

[@gentlemansnake6931]

You can tell he's not used to crying

[@orlandobotney1359]

If I remember correctly, there was a similar thing Jack London wrote in either Call of the Wild or White Fang... I THINK white fang... where the wolf dog has never barked before... but in a desperate time of need, he barked. In the end, this scene is just our own emotions as humans who suppress it coming to the same head... guttural and full of emotion

[@jeremymcclary3901]

He had me at "Please go away" ....cause that is how ..."that shite" HAPPENS IN REALITY...ya'll....(FEEL ME!!!!)

[@mybocks3]

As a man, when he said that I knew what was coming.

[@Kenulas]

one of the only times a movie or show made me cry

[@LuistheABF123]

2:00 when you find out Netflix is taking Hell on Wheels off on December 31st

[@dbdistrash]

Damn

[@themanfromthesouth1861]

Fuck Netflix. Shitty selection and they keep removing stuff

[@necratis]

Such a good scene but I really hate the path they took for Elam, it was such a weird way to end his story, the character didn’t deserve that

[@mybocks3]

I might agree were it not for this scene and this scene alone. This was the most gut-wrenching piece of television I've seen in years - maybe ever. It's absolutely worth building up a character if *this* is the sort of payoff you get. Compared to the way TWD did Glen - all anyone felt for that scene was disgust. A main character went "mad" and had to be put down. It hurt so much because Elam was such a strong, powerful character who was like a superhero to the freedmen. There were a lot of deaths, but none hurt like this one. That's damn good tv.

[@necratis]

@@mybocks3 I agree with everything you said, however I still feel this was kind of out of left field and a quick way to end such a great character as Elam. For example, had they played out this going mad storyline over the course of the season and ended it this way, giving Elam more attention to the build up of his story I would have loved it more, but this felt very rushed, almost as if they begged Common to come back for one episode and he reluctantly accepted. Maybe something went on with his schedule behind the scenes we don’t know about.

[@copperdiablo2717]

He wanted off the show to presue other ventures,I think with his music. Otherwise maybe we wouldn't have gotten this gem of his death.

[@magnuslundberg9675]

The most emotional scene in all of Hell on wheels. Mount was brilliant.

[@alsimmons1650]

This is why Anson Mount will always Be Cullen Bohannon.

[@Movat_Prime]

Literally everyone he ever grew to love was taken from him over and over again, this time he had to do it himself. To lose so much is a nightmare, to lose your best friend is hell, to be forced to kill them yourself is unimaginable, and to do it in a world with no comfort is hell on earth.

[@theangrymick9743]

I know how it feels to bury a friend.

[@mattduran4774]

Me too man, me too. Ik the pain.

[@JMorrows]

One Question Where is the Emmy???

[@alcenjoyer]

realest cry in television history

[@mr.tobacco1708]

This is the where real cowboys cry...

[@teo7621]

Just because of the existence of this scene, Hell on Wheels is worth watching. So powerfull.

[@Drrayoldman]

Elam killed the grizzly then died in the mud. Seeing Cullen bury what was left of his friend, the only man he trusted showed that Cullen still had tears for those he loved!

[@erfahnh7127]

TV has never made me cry ever. This was the first scene that gave me teary eyes in my whole life. They never got to say a proper goodbye.

[@bradleybell3510]

I couldn't continue after this

[@limabravo6065]

This scene gutted me

[@cousinvinny2874]

I avoided this episode for so long... wish i would of never seen it

[@VandalsVideos]

Peak moment in this show I felt it closest thing to family he had

[@TheAttlier]

Losing a brother found cuts so deep it will have you make noises from you're soul.... That is were the pain is coming from... only a handful of things can cut a man this deep... When cut this deep, we are unpredictable wild animals with no reason... snapping at anything that perceived as a threat or any attempt at emotion. It is the wounded animal that may never heal. Losing a brother that was found hurts 1000% more than one born to you. They say you can't choose family.... That cut in my soul say's otherwise....

[@MelancoliaI]

Great acting here. That weird horrible moaning sound of absolute loss. I've been misfortunate enough to hear it in real life.

[@stephanieturmel2319]

Anson mount 👍👍👍👌👌👌

[@joshuahmitchell873]

You feel like life isn't fair. You think to yourself. What if it was me? Why did it have to be them? What if it was me in their place? But in the end you know that's not how it goes.

[@PSYCOMETAL]

1 - Emotional scene that was heavily overlooked 2- I'll never forgive the writers for killing Elam off the way they did. It was too out there if you ask me and with a character like him it should have been more emotional (like he came back just to die in Cullen's arms from his wounds). RIP Elam, you were one HELL of a great character!

[@stegarumihaita7201]

Very rough depiciton on the wild west .. People did die . Some scenarious maybe cut from reality . I don't think so many were expecting this act , me beeing one of them . He has lost so many people ... and after this more to come . I just finished this tv series and I'm not 100 percent okay with the directions they took .. however the journey makes sense . They made Cullen so damn unlucky in love ... every woman he loved , dead or lost . Everyone has their opinion about this but for me , Lily could have been the choice they could have went with for longer . The one thing I would have wanted for the character was to at least have Ruth as a friend or partener.. it was so damn sad what happened to her . I for one I couldn't watch that damn scene without tears in my eyes and i didn't think I could cry like that for a fictional character . Kasha Kropinski nailed that role .. truly amazing performance . All those decisions made Cullen go one the path he went . At times disturbing but at the end it made sense .

[@heisenbooger]

What makes it worse are his peers who made it seem like he had a choice in the matter.

[@zackplayzeverything2459]

The only part that made me cry😢

[@reesemontoya5318]

This is so real, he cried for his Friend

[@SylentVoidkeeper]

I know that Common wanting to leave the show affected where Elam's death would have been placed, but I still think *this* should have been the reason Cullen leaves the Union Pacific and goes to California. Maybe its just that I think Ruth's character arc was just really wimpy at the end (especially since her decision to essentially die like a martyr feels at odds with her not wanting to be like her father), but it didnt strike me as really affecting Cullen enough to leave in pursuit of his family. This scene, this beautiful scene, should have been the thing that made him want to go.

[@oliviaadan8208]

Omg poor fella

[@kreator-ys1yz]

Who do the other 2 graves belong to?

[@Nick-cp3mh]

People die everyday there, most likely that’s just where they bury people

[@kreator-ys1yz]

@@Nick-cp3mh just thought it might have been the grave of Miss Bell and the Doc, 2 of Cullem's closest friends. But maybe you are correct.

[@Nick-cp3mh]

@@kreator-ys1yz nah lily was buried in a flower field she liked way back when. I do think that would’ve been really cool thought if all 3 were together

[@kreator-ys1yz]

@@Nick-cp3mh ahh ok. I can't believe I did not watch this when it was syndicated. Glad I came around to doing so.

[@grozsee]

Damn

[@samuelz3942]

😭

[@KoKo-ye2ld]

Bu adamın yanındakiler çok yaşamıyor nedense

[@alsimmons1650]

I guess with the guilt of owning slaves and fighting a war to continue slavery and having to kill his best friend that was a former slave emotionally broke him down.

[@stevetrevor3413]

Go away with your SJW bs. This had nothing to do with guilt. This was very deep sorrow for the loss of a great friend.

[@NorthPasture]

@@stevetrevor3413 The sorrow could’ve involved guilt. He never admitted to him that he was his friend. But they both knew deep down that they were brothers.

[@vincentzahler4147]

There was no one on earth he trusted more than Elam. A friendship borne out of tension that became mutual respect that turned into trust then into love. It was one thing for Cullen to think Elam might have been dead but to be joyous for the thought of being reunited and then having bury him hours later broke him. A once in a lifetime friendship thats gone.

[@masonskidmore7070]

You’re so far from hitting the nail on the head that you must’ve lost your fucking hammer.

[@Greaser-zz7xo]

@Al simmons i think its more along the lines of all the death he’s seen as being a veteran of a conflict that killed 600,000+ Americans in the course of 4 years and 358 days, he hasn’t has time to mourn properly. Being friends with a former slave has literally nothing to do with the fact he has to put his friend down.

[@teslafulk8381]

I think I'm the only one who thinks the crying isn't very good. 🤷‍♀️

[@rufusgoldstein2655]

Your're the only one