Video Log 022: Just chatting

Talking about how to tackle and desensitize my anxieties and some of the passions of my kid.

[@timhsvwalkinsha]

Interested in the direction of causality re: depression and the nature or interpretation of one's thoughts. It seems you suggest the cognitive aspects led to a depression; why not the other way around or bidirectional? Apologies if I have misinterpreted.

[@brooceree]

Good point! I try to not philosophize too much on camera since I stumble over my words too much and haven’t really thought of it all the way through but there is certainly bidirectionality depending on how you want to see it. People can say that the genes I have are more prone to falling into depression meaning that it was ultimately my thoughts that led to this but one can go even further and say that my thoughts are ultimately created by my environment and say the bidirectionality doesn’t exist and it’s always the environment. My initial conditions happened to have plopped me into this state. The one innate trait that I most certainly had was my stubbornness so that dragged my depression out for longer than it had to be. For me, harmonizing between the multiple voices in my head broke me out of it.

[@brooceree]

But, I can imagine different worlds where, if I had different initial conditions within this system of earth that we’ve created, I’d run into the same situation where I’d start questioning. For me, it started with the “what’s the point?” If I were born rich, poor, middle class, I think I’d come to the same conclusion no matter what, so, to that degree, I guess I can call those my thoughts. My only conclusion was, if I wanted to keep living, I had to do self brainwashing to change them. It’s working fairly well actually.

[@rachael5611]

God loves you! He wants to have a relationship with you! Repent and believe that Jesus paid the price for our sins! He can give you so much mercy, joy, peace and love!💕