Vlog 101. Rambling oddness as usual really.

i made this straight after the other one yesterday. It's just another catch up for ya, things iv'e been doing and what i have been thinking about . How i have been coping without Gilles. Sorry i can't express things properly, it is easier when not in front of a camera, it's like my brain stops working right when the red light comes on, so i act oddly because i am embarrassed about that.
I'm loving the bedroom, i'm loving the black curtains i bought (finally) i will have mentioned them before probably.
I started reading a book i got from a car boot sale a while ago about sociology. A someone that thinks about things and analyses things naturally, i find it very interesting and i'm thinking maybe i should have studied that at collage sociology and psychology can be so interesting. If you are like me, you like to try to put things into context and to break them down to understand their parts. I always think that i like to learn from the outside in. If i like something on the outside, i like to delve inwards , until completely imerssed in it. If it divides and sorts well, i like it even better.
Anyway, i try to say about how i was missing him so much and then i decided i was coping better and getting stronger. I always think that the the best person for the job should do it and i think Gilles is very capable, but when he is not here, i have to toughen up. I think he would like me to be that tough when he is there but i think i would lose some respect for him if that was the case. Doing everything i more fun when there is only you to do it. I think with a partner it should be shared. It seemed recently he was taking on more and spending more time with me. I really liked it. I hope after this ordeal involving his family death, we can get back on track.
sorry if it is boring, i might make a topic vid next, or get back to the alphabet for inspiration or to aid concentration on a topic.

[@LisaAlexia62]

I had to edit the first response some because I needed 520 characters! lol A movie comes to mind "LION KING" and in that movie is a song called "HAKUNA MATADA" which is a Swahili phrase roughly translated as 'no worries'. I know some things will be difficult and some easy so all I can say is enjoy life! YOU have been an inspiration to your subscribers or anyone that has watched your vlogs! Having watched your vlogs may I say my condolences to Gilles family.

[@juanito1975]

how can one heal the world is a good question that you posed. In a world as ugly as this one its good to bring in a little bit of light. the thing I try to do is help people who are going through depression. Whether it be talking about how I once was in that predicament, encouraging others. Maybe by me sharing a little bit about myself that those who are feeling that way can change the way they feel. I had a friend who didn't want to live any more. we were on msn for 3 hours chatting and I

[@LisaAlexia62]

Where do I start? Many positive comments to say! First you are you and I have never seen you being a B word! Heck I don't want to spell it out! The makeup video where you do the voice over was excellent! By commentating on what you were doing freed up your task of applying makeup. Gas leak? Nothing to fool with because here in America on the news I've seen entire homes explode! You're not liking big crowds (Aspergers?) kicking in and that is where Gilles should help when you're in need.

[@1knou]

keep us updated on lifes events

[@TheMonkeyrock77]

My eye's tend to drift when I'm talking to people. I don't look people in the face to much. I never really noticed though of what I look at when talking to people. I went out the back window of a car and landed on a barbed wire fence when I was 19 so I have scars on my face. I think people look at my scars when their talking to me. It was after getting scars that I noticed that all the bad guy's in cartoons and movies are scar faces. I have that to deal with in a social fashion.

[@Reporterreporter770]

Oy vay!

[@Reporterreporter770]

@bewareoftheleapard Aweeeeeee

[@markreilly52]

You are too hard on yourself. We have to do what is in our hearts to do, even if it turns out to be embarrassing. We all sometimes do things that could have been better, and then beat up ourselves up afterwards. But actually, other people really don’t spend THEIR time reflecting on what WE may have done less than perfectly. So we have permission to forgive ourselves and move on.

[@celestialsalamander]

you should make more videos about you brother.

[@juanito1975]

tried to encourage him that Life is beautiful, that we must cherish it, but he insisted about taking his own life. His girlfriend had left him and moved to another country, so he was angry at everything. after 3 hours he finally started to change his tune, but not entirely.

[@thierryroucourt]

when r we going out ? ;-)

[@celestialsalamander]

did you brake up with your boyfriend or something?