vlog | experiencing burnout, trying to look after myself + uni work

[@leahmegan]

good morning everyone 🌷 I normally don't leave a pinned comment, but I think I would like to from now on (: I have a few updates to share: ~ all videos from now on will have proper subtitles (CC) - I write these myself and didn't previously have the time to do so, but I'm going to make it a priority so that everyone can watch my videos, no matter where they are from. it is also more inclusive for those who are hard of hearing ! [also included subtitles for the text written on-screen, which I know KZbin automatic subtitles does not do!]. you can choose 'auto-translate' and it should accurately change to any language (: ~ I've left chapter timestamps in the description! not sure how many people will use these, but I think it will help to know how much of a video is left if you don't have time to watch a whole 25-30 mins in one sitting! those are my updates . as for me : I'm trying my best every day and am so happy to share these thoughts with you. this feels like my diary. it seems like a lot less people are watching my videos recently, but I'm trying to focus on being appreciative for everyone who chooses to watch them still (: please be kind to yourselves and focus on the positives this week 🤎🤎🤎 see you next time x leah

[@Ahmed-06srt]

Thank you so much lm from IRAQ❤❤❤ and you make your video more beautiful

[@helgyn995]

❤❤❤

[@heyoohayley7998]

I will be the one who will not miss your every single video！Your videos really helped me get through so many of my hard time❤ they means a lot for me🥺

[@soowpiiii]

i'm feeling the same Leah. I've been feeling like this for a month now and feel very guilty every single time. I feel like i'm stucked and trapped to something i don't know. We'll get through this! Sending love

[@leahmegan]

we can do it

[@seanmencik]

Completely understand the burnout Leah. I handed in my last assignment of this year and have 2 exams left and I just can't bring myself to care or study for them properly which is so frustrating. Its like my brain has decided that it can't handle any more input, even if its 'fun' things like reading or painting or watching tiktoks, I just end up staring off into space thinking about how tired I am. But better days will be on their way soon, and I'm very excited for them :)

[@leahmegan]

it really sounds like you are burnt out ): I hope it passes soon. it's the worst feeling in the world, and takes so long to go away!!! wishing you the best with your final two exams, you can do it

[@Daniel_Marazzato]

Dear Leah, I hope you feel better soon and your mental energy and physical energy get to their peak point as fast as can come, I have recently started to watch all your videos and honestly it has helped me out both mentally and physically, I see you push yourself continually and go to the gym to partake in physical exercise, which has impacted myself to do the same, taking my German Shepard cross boarder collie on a one hour walk attempting to set a new record each time, your not just someone to watch, your a friend in my heart, I graduated high school last year in December and have had no idea what to do with my life and the stress in almost too unbearable most times, as you say take the day by the day and you will end up where you want to be eventually, The one thing that I get extremely upset about is, the fact that when you venture outside at night time you have to dress “like a man” every time I hear that in your videos I pause it and take 2 minutes to just almost cry at how terrible this world is, I have 2 older sisters, so I know exactly what females have to go through in order to just have a nice time out, it’s honestly heartbreaking and I wish you well, Enjoy, take care! And keep your mentality and physical self strong with Positive energy, you have this 100% don’t give up and continue 😊💚.

[@celina4013]

"females" isn't correct in a sentence like this and dehumanises women because you're not talking about them as actual people but reducing them to their sex. Now I know this probably wasn't your intention but please say women. Thank you :)

[@chuntianlang]

It's okay to feel bad Leah. I just want to tell you that you're not alone and we'll get through this as we used to.

[@chuntianlang]

Forgot to say,thank you for recommending headspace cuz It has become an anchor point in my life, no matter how bad the life is, at least there is a calm and uncritical world. If you haven't meditated for a long time, continue this habit today❤

[@leahmegan]

[@milanatur3762]

I feel like I was dealing with the same feeling when I was on my first year of uni, I moved to my dream city and studied my dream profession in my dream uni but I wasn’t happy I didn’t even need to work because my parents and grandparents helped me but I felt like there was no point in doing anything and every small stress or negative interaction leaved me absolutely sad and anxious and just tired. Well, turned out it was depression and I needed a lot of time to get better (at first it became worse). I cannot tell that I’m completely ok right now but it gets better. I feel like therapy helps, I hope you will get better soon🤍

[@ingalazdina3785]

I am so sorry to hear that, dear Leah

[@leahmegan]

hi inga 💗 thank you so much for your comment. i’m sorry to hear you’ve been feeling down ): i completely agree with all of your suggestions, so i hope you can take your own advice and focus on these things that make you feel better 🥹❣️ thank you so much for watching my videos these last few months, i’m so glad they brought you some peace…. much love

[@GG-wz7gw]

Thank you for being so open and sharing your thoughts like this. It makes me feel less alone. I always try to remember that without the dark you won’t see the stars and it will be okay. I hope you are doing better now!

[@leahmegan]

thank you for sharing 🌷🌷 I am feeling much better already, thank you for asking! ✨

[@hina6221]

I've felt like this before Leah. What I found works for me is taking a trip somewhere even just for a day. Helps to bring perspective to your daily routine. When you can't bring yourself to do anything or talk to anyone, it might be that your body is telling you that it needs a reset. Personally, I find going on a walk or booking a facial makes me feel better and clears my mind. Definitely not easy I know, but trust that things will become easier. Sending warm hugs and wishing you all the best 💛

[@francescacascino1052]

I totally agree with your message at the end Leah, we all need rest, it's only temporary at the end, for me personally praying is a great way to just say thank you to Him, and that it reassures that the Lord is in your heart. Some won't believe but for me that has made me be at peace and remain positive during hard times and tribulation; sending lots of love to you all, we can get through this procrastination/ burnout season 🤍

[@leahmegan]

🤎 ✨ thank you for sharing

[@tami1468]

Hi Leah Seeing you sad made me really sad :( I just wanted to give you a big hug. I wish I could help but you've spoken my mind. This video was so real and relatable, I felt like I was watching my own self. I've been feeling like this for months now, always beating myself up and trying to be kind to myself but most of the time just failing to do so. I hope you feel better and like yourself soon Leah. Please hang in there, you deserve the world ❤️ and I'm proud of you no matter what you do!! 💌

[@squidward9]

sending all the love your way, leah. i admire you for how honest and vulnerable you can get on camera, that's something that not everyone can do, and you make it look so easy. you've inspired me to be okay with being more vulnerable, whether thats to myself or to a stranger online. taking our thoughts out of our minds and into the world is really important. i've felt the same burnout so many times and am currently going through one rn. i've been putting off schoolwork for weeks now, along with other super important tasks, and each day my guilt gets worse and yet so does my inability to care. but we'll get through this as we always have. you deserve to feel happy and at peace, all of us are so proud of you and we'll always be here to support your journey. sending you a big hug

[@leahmegan]

hi squidward (😅😅😅), thank u for ur comment ❣️ i’ve never found being honest on camera hard, i think if it was a livestream or something it would be different…. but there is that comfort that, if i choose to, i can keep things to myself! (but i very rarely do hehe). i’m sorry you’ve been feeling down too. i hope you manage to get some tasks done soon, no matter how slow. maybe even just tidying your workspace or writing a to-do list can help you feel better 💗 please remember to be kind to yourself and not be too strict with things - you clearly need and deserve this rest! all of my love to you & wishing you the best ❣️❣️❣️

[@squidward9]

@@leahmegan aw thanks leah! 💕 and that's true, filming a video and streaming are so different, at least you can edit videos or do several takes but on a livestream there's really no going back. also yes, i wrote a huge brain dump and made smaller to do lists from it, and so far it's been pretty helpful! and thanks to your videos i feel more calm and grounded. they really are so well done, i'm a huge fan of your artistic vision. keep up the excellent work!!

[@abigailelenas]

the favourite way to start my saturday :))

[@leahmegan]

💛 thank you 🍀

[@heyimolivia]

i promise that when you feel sad you think it lasts forever but it doesn't- your thoughts lie to you! you have to override every part of yourself that is telling you that! it gets better- it ends. i promise

[@leahmegan]

hey olivia! you are so right ❣️ we have overcome these bad feelings before, so we can do it again 💗💗🥹

[@ppola70]

wishing you the best

[@leahmegan]

ahh thank you so much!! (:

[@sariany9794]

I feel this, Lea. The lack of stability in my emotions is a big deal and I do get overwhelmed by it. Reading helps a lot since it distracts me but it be honest therapy has been way more healthy and helpful since it addresses the root issue and tho it hurts, it helps. I hope you can acces therapy soon, if you feel like doing that. Love ya❤

[@leahmegan]

i am in therapy again now ❤️‍🩹 it hurts a lot but is so worth it. it’s a bad time for me to start (because i have so much going on), but i am desperate to work on myself. thank you for caring . i love you 🤍

[@sariany9794]

@@leahmegan so glad to read that, let’s keep on keeping on ❤️‍🩹

[@poppycalliope]

Hope you're feeling better now sweet Leah! When I feel this way I tell myself that it will soon pass and I completely agree with a comment I saw about our hormones, the female body goes through a lot every month and through our different phases. Sending you much love ❤

[@aimee8135]

I agree that it can be frustrating to have so much happiness one week and feel terrible the next, but I try to remember the different phases female bodies go through throughout the month that shape our energy and mood levels. Give yourself the grace, space, and love to have ebbs and flows of energy and motivation :) I wish everyone well 🩷

[@leahmegan]

thank you, aimee ❤️‍🩹 you are so right. i’m trying to trust that where i am right now is where i should be, and that things will be okay in the end 🪷 not everything needs to be so serious, though of course in the moment i do find myself thinking too deeply into things 🥹 thank you so much for your insight. wishing you the best

[@asiayasser12]

I want to tell you something.. I love you and I love your honesty with yourself. I hope you achieve everything you desire and that your life becomes easy and comfortable. When I watch your videos, I feel like you are my friend who shares my thoughts

[@leahmegan]

🥲🥺🥺 thank you so much 🌷 I wish the same for you.. much love ⭐️

[@katherynjimenez1650]

Hi Leah! I just wanted to say sorry that you're going through a rough moment but also wanted to say you're not alone and maybe nothing we say to try to make you feel will do it, but its always good to know you have people who supports you and will be with you on the way reminding you that you're enough. sending you lots of love❤

[@mathildescln]

hey Leah, hope you're feeling better now :) When i feel low for a certain time i am just reminding myself that it is totally okay and that i will be better soon. We have so much resilience and what we really need is enough self confidence to say : "I believe in myself and I know I will get better, it is just a question of time". Thank you for all of your videos, i have been watching them for a long time now and they always make me feel better about myself and my feelings. Sending love from France 💗

[@vidadeisabella]

I'm going through a similar thing right now, so this video couldn't of come at a better time. It's so comforting to know we all experience the same type of struggles & I hope we can get through this, sending you love

[@begumkaplan6957]

i feel completely same and i just wanted to distract mylself and seeing that you feel just like i do helps so much. thank you for sharing.

[@leahmegan]

hey, sorry you feel this way … but glad that you found solidarity here

[@Jsween876]

Wow. I’m feeling the same way right now. I have an important assignment due on Monday (today is Saturday) and it’s not ready and I have no drive to do it. I’m thinking about it and how much I need to get to it but I just can’t bring myself to actually DO IT. That I’m itself stresses me out. Life is hard sometime. It will get better though. It always does. Hang in there. ❤

[@AmyQuon]

Hi Leah ☺️ I feel the exact same and its more normal than you think. We seem to have similar habits and I am also trying to finish a dissertation (for grad school) which I know is important and actually something I really enjoy, but dont feel compelled to do. The fact that you know its burnout clicked perfectly for me. I’ve come to understand my body better and know cycle factors come into play as well (particularly, I think, because of lacking vitamins, water, and the need for more sleep). I notice really strong fatigue and the same tendency to get stuck in doing anything or nothing - just not work. In addition to typical psychological burnout, I also think my body has these mini burnouts. I’m glad you do little things for yourself, like buy a coffee and go for walks and make/edit vlogs ❤ I think other people might ensure they stay really busy socially, which I used to think, helps them stay distracted from feeling the ups and downs - but I’m wondering now if its not so much distraction but spreading out the things affecting our emotions across more people. I also very much enjoy time on my own, but I can see how there is a heavier weight to carry when feeling good almost always has to come from myself. Sorry to ramble. I hope you have a lovely day and week to come✨

[@oliviagrace5289]

love you! thank you for sharing such vulnerable moments ❤️ you're very inspiring and i hope you have less and less bad days! i always look forward to your videos, they get me through the week❣️

[@leahmegan]

thank you, Olivia 🥺 I'm grateful that everyone is here with me, each week, and I appreciate your comments so much 🥲🤍✨ wishing you a lovely week

[@lilia_casburn]

Your feelings are so valid and relatable, I have a levels in a month, and I really want to do more sewing and making outfits, but neglecting it because I feel I should only focus on exams, so I just end up doing nothing!

[@leahmegan]

that is the worst feeling... when you really want to do something (especially creative projects!) but don't have the time!!! wishing you the best with your a-levels, they will be over before you know it !

[@jr-bg8cp]

I know my favorite author‘s saying that everyone has an angel a day for each person. although we don’t notice it.

[@cecilefrederique]

Hi Leah, i have been feeling the same this past week. Your video made me feel like we could be sad together, which means we will also power through these moments together! lots of love and see you in your next video!! 🌺

[@leahmegan]

i hope you’re doing much better now ❤️❤️❤️

[@beth1591]

Omggg I’ve been feeling like that, and i couldn’t bring to myself to tell someone bc i don’t want to disappoint them. Thanks for sharing, really helped me feel seen

[@leahmegan]

hey beth, i’m sorry that we’re in the same boat 🥹 i hope you know that you’re never alone in feeling like this!! it’s part of the human struggle. i think if everyone was a lot more honest, we could all be much happier . 🤗 glad you find a safe space here… wishing you the best

[@cloudyblur]

Hang in there angel, it's all just temporary and yes you will definitely get better no matter how you handle the situation each day, love you sm girl 💗💗💗

[@leahmegan]

you are so right, these bad feelings are always just temporary & I feel so much better already 😇⭐️ thank you for you comment

[@Iamsenag]

Ik this vid is 6 months old but I’m currently experiencing the exact same feelings of being burnt out. I find mysled not cafe abt anything anymore, I used to be obsessed w getting the best grades possible and now in my final year of uni, I find myself feel so out of it. I still try to work hard but I just cannot care about anything and idk how to deal w this feeling. Thank you for this video ❤️❤️Hope ur feeling better xx

[@leahmegan]

it's unfortunately a very common experience, to go from stressing out & caring too much -> having no energy to care at all 💔 it is so hard to overcome & I found all that helps is to have some time to yourself and try to relax. obviously, when you're a student it feels as if life is always going fast fast fast, new assignments and exams all the time, so it's hard to have breaks without postponing your studies. I hope your final year goes well and you can have some relief soon 🩷🩷🩷 you are almost there!

[@yomnaal5409]

I think i know exactly what u r talking abt. Also me I've been thinking abt sth over and it can't get it out of my mind, land the whole thing is just pitiful bcz I wake up and sleep thinking the same thing and I can't find any solution and I don't do anything either.. What I want to say is that i hope things get better soon and We will be able to treat ourselves more kindly without cruelty! I really wish for you that❤️

[@AG-bq2zd]

Always look forward to your videos. So grateful for your openness, and the chilled energy and motivation. 💛 I’m half English living in Denmark, and I’m coming back to London for some A level exams next week. I’ve self studied for an A level in 3 months because of some unexpected bureaucracy, and I’m just so tired now. None of my tutors here understand that the exams are quite a big deal; exams here area all open book, on laptops, and we have many more subjects (approx same no as GCSEs in the UK), with exams over multiple years. The marking of exams is also far more subjective. The thoughts of others usually wouldn’t affect me, but I’m at a point where I’m exhausted now, and in the final stretch. I’m letting it hit my confidence. Stress also compounded by the fact that I have a uni entrance exam here in DK slap bang in the middle of my exam period, so driving here and back between exams. And then home to my danish exams! This has turned into a bit of a (massively long) vent (apologies), but I really relate to the burnout and also feeling a bit lost. I can’t use the A level for anything apart from extra credit (marine science lol) so it feels like a lot of time and effort for not very much.

[@butterflymood]

I don't know how to tell all this, i'm feeling same way...sometimes I feel exhausted mentally,I hate the pain my way of thinking causes,even want to disappear from this world. but I would say, maybe it's a coping mechanism for you to protect yourself, not to be so hard on yourself, don't attack yourself. Trust your energy,everything will be okay,love u❤ ( this is tentative advice,after watching your video, I'm really worried about your diet😢,perhaps by changing the recipe or taking some supplements. Vitamin deficiency makes us more prone to mental fatigue, restlessness and anxiety )

[@matildalaborante6121]

Thank you for not making me feel lonely because I also feel this way ❤

[@leahmegan]

🤎🤎 much love to you

[@Noorieke]

Very relatable. When I'm experiencing this it is usually overwhelm and anxiety. If I'm not doing what I dread most my mind doesn't allow me to do anything else either. The only thing that helps for me is to make my goals for that day realy small.

[@leahmegan]

thank you for your advice, it worked perfectly 💖

[@paisleejones5508]

You’re amazing! Hope you feel better lovely

[@leahmegan]

thank you so much

[@helenshields9279]

I understand how you are feeling. Your viewers are rooting for you. X

[@leahmegan]

thank you so much, Helen 💗💗💗💗

[@pisceesgirl]

hope u feel better now☹☹💗💗 such a pretty video, keep going

[@leahmegan]

I feel a lot better already!!

[@deniztheexplorer1141]

Hello Leah, I’ve felt before that you are feeling right now. The state of not doing anything. I promise you, it’ll get better. Everything is okay. Everything will be okay. ❤

[@leahmegan]

i trust you and know this to be true ❤️‍🩹 there will always be ups and downs, and what will change is how i approach them! trying to build healthier coping habits in the meantime ~ thankful for you and wishing you well ❤️‍🩹

[@supermanfan3806]

Happy Saturday Leah hope you have an amazing day your my favourite KZbinr always and my inspiration ❤

[@leahmegan]

thank you

[@tiantianliu6921]

thank you, take care :)

[@leahmegan]

🤎

[@actgirl1234567]

❤ i suffer from extreme anxiety and atm am aone and its bad, plus i have IBS and other physical stuff so it all makes it worse so i hope youre feeling a bit better, i know this is a bit old 🙈

[@lisaa430]

I sometimes feel guilty about feeling burnout. Other people did 100 and then experienced burnout. BUT I did just 10 and had burnout… Am i the only one who feel like this? Youe video always gives calm vibe and makes me feel i’m not the only one who have some hardtime.

[@leahmegan]

please don't feel guilty 🥺 we are all different. we all work differently. 🤗 much love

[@ASCENDED9]

You look lovely, 👽 life has its ups and downs. The weather is a conundrum for all of us. I really enjoy your content outside., ☺️...

[@leahmegan]

thank you 🤎

[@wgina39]

❤❤❤

[@isgreta]

💙

[@m2chan]

Megan 加油 !

[@noura.Ah.ja_]

Hi❤

[@leahmegan]

hello 💗

[@kennethwilliams4169]

I realised that being a knee-jerk reaction of my environment is tiring so I just turned the camera round onto me and found happiness without the world 😊

[@xiaowangzi030]

😢真实了，是emo的世另我了

[@shvasighi3420]

I don't know what to say that not hurting your feelings because I really care about you just like a friend. I talked to you in my diary channel and... I thought maybe it would be better to tell you this... I feel the same sometimes... I listen to borderline playlists... I carry Sylvia Plath 's books ... Feel overwhelmed eventually... But it'll pass. 100 % . I could get rid of those dark days and I know you'll do. I wish we could talk but... Don't know how. So...

[@nobumino]

Don’t feel the need to have a “disclaimer” about how your emotions aren’t as valid as others. I saw you do it in another video. Everyone’s emotions are valid even if they’re not as detrimental as others. I won’t ever judge how you feel 🤍