vlog + opening up | living with body dysmorphia

hey GUYS sorry this is a little much but I felt as though I should share. I hope this helps others feel less alone in their fight. We are in it together
Rena Merch: serenas-supers...
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[@rena_serenaa]

Sorry guys I had to reupload because some of it got cut off and I’m also very nervous to put this out, but I hope it at least helps someone else out there feeling alone in this. We will get through it. The toughest obstacles are given to the strongest people for a reason ❤️ love you all

[@sogandkarimian6890]

If it means anything, I saw you post a new video and instantly thought to myself "finally someone worth watching" because I have been having a hard time finding newer videos to watch. You are incredible and body dysmorphia sucks and consumes the fuck out of you and you are so powerful by sharing your story. It is yOUR story and you can do what you please. You are AMAZING

[@adamkennedy4846]

♥

[@definedphotography]

Thank you for sharing Serena. Hope you have a better day tomorrow ❤️ Love your videos and your art - so talented!

[@eijnebromero9921]

Our minds are powerful for real and literally dictates the outcome of your day. Good for you, you held up, kept your composure, and an eye of the positive stuffs. At times, I also feel the same and know how it feels fighting off those demons. Anyway, i salute your courage of putting youself out here, you made those who feel hopeless, hopeful. May you help more people in their struggles. Thanks

[@hoppy1970]

Serena, speak to Marisa Peer. Email her and tell her who you are. I know you'll get what I mean when you discover her :)

[@celiomurillo3930]

Serena is mad fucking strong and I’m talking physically and mentally!!

[@EtienneYT]

Keep at it, homie. Glad to see you being more transparent about topics like this.

[@LewisPC]

Seeing other people open up definitely helps others who are struggling, There's no downside to venting when it helps yourself and others get a better grip on how you feel. Thanks for being wholesome because its a valuable thing!

[@maximusironthumper]

Thank you Serena, your message really was just what I needed to hear today. There are many of us prone to dark thoughts but we are not as brave as you in speaking out! I don't know it gets easier necessarily, but for me, over time (and with help) I have become much more skilled at coping with myself. The bad days will pass, here's to the good days! You're a true inspiration Serena, to myself and many others!

[@justingutierrez2283]

I had a bad day today... Failed some lifts, missed some school assignments... then I watch your vid, and now its a good day!! I hope this helped make your day the slightest bit better too.

[@BroncoBillyAW]

I feel more motivated to work arms now. It’s strange to hear someone else say how they feel nervous about drive-thrus. I am terrified of talking to anyone, it’s a struggle. Seeing you hurting at the end is heartbreaking. You are awesome and just be YOU. Body dysmorphia is a constant struggle. We’ll all slip at times, but we must persist and keep doing the best we can. You’re not alone. Be proud of who you are and how far you’ve come. I relate very much to how you feel on these things and wish you didn’t have to go through it. Have a blessed evening.

[@MamaSwole]

We're all here for you and support you love. Thanks for being so vulnerable and genuine. So much love for you

[@NichtBenni]

Seeing you standing there talking about this, telling us what you are dealing with while still working so hard (gym n big gurl stuff) gives me the impression that you are indestructible 💪🏼 Even when you cry, even when you scream

[@michaelmartinez1101]

Appreciate the rawness and "being real" keep going against the norm Serena, you're worth more because you have saved more lives than you can ever imagine. Thank you for your words of wisdom during these times - always been supporting and will continue to with whatever you do!

[@jonahlevi3178]

what about the RAWRNESS

[@olivermay4033]

Dude she's been helping me battle my demons so much I was suicideal and now that I've gotten into lifting (because of her) I've been doing a lot better

[@joecool1561]

This made me cry. You summed up all my mental health issues in the end of this video. You're not alone. The social media life is hard, keep your real friends close

[@curs3dking883]

Usually. I never see it from the other side of the isle as a guy and its really eye opening to hear from a girl on this subject and it feels good to know you aren't alone male or female. I hope you feel much better in the future and are okay. :D

[@4lienaly]

Omg this vid came at a perfect time. i was having such a bad body image day yesterday. I couldnt even finish my workout without crying. You're so strong Serena, you inspire me. I feel less alone 💗💗

[@rena_serenaa]

AWW GIRL❤️🥺 You are not alone. Love you bunches and don’t let your mind be playing tricks on you 😭

[@xplicittalks6478]

This dark place you talk about can be really scary, I understand. But tbh you’re an inspiration. I knew you from snapchat and the progress you made is outstanding. We might not know exactly how you feel but it seems like you’re trying your best to keep things under control. You’re trying to tell yourself you got this no matter what despite feeling so hopeless. Respect to your hustle through mental crisis girl u got this

[@quinnmcdonald3763]

Serena's level of chill is what I aspire to be.

[@ambitiousmuslimrecordings3451]

You’re literally an inspiration of mine. A symbol of endurance and a key to perseverance.

[@TerryMarineBMF]

We love you, Serena. And you ARE a heroine to me. Whenever you feel depressed, remember you are stronger than depression.

[@12moeyo]

In our darkest of times, we must always focus on the light. Keep it up. Keep being you.

[@annaobrien4921]

Thank you for being so honest and open ❤️ I think a lot of people can relate to what your feeling. It’s good to know your not alone. I just try to remember that things always get better even if it’s just for a day you feel better, it’s encouragement ❤️

[@rena_serenaa]

Aw I appreciate that so much. That makes me feel so much better opening up. You’re amazing ❤️

[@alexlm161]

Good mental health is something that comes with time and practice. I used to struggle a lot with my mental health, and overall the bad days/weeks that I have now are so much fewer and farther between than they used to be. I relate a lot to falling out of love with lifting, I used to do weightlifting and lately I've found powerlifting has been much less tough on me mentally (not that it is for everyone, just because of some specific issues I was having). I took a month or two off before that and since lifting again I've been just focusing on doing quick sessions of stuff I enjoy, and I've found lifting with friends has helped a lot too. Hope you feel better soon, I enjoy watching your videos because you seem nice and really funny + tbh you are stronger than me.

[@annikamensik]

If anyone says anything mean to you I will fight them 😡 you’re helping so many people and thank you so much for this, I love you and stay strong 💪❤️

[@jimhealis]

I've got lots of love for you! I'm so glad you are sharing. I'm sure many have said this, but you are not alone. I struggle with many of the same things and am not nearly as brave to share with others. You make so many people feel stronger, even when you may feel your weakest. You give me a smile every time I see you. Thank you.

[@rena_serenaa]

Jim, thank you so much! Your support means more than you know. Really needed that. So much love for you and take care this week!!

[@leonidas540bc]

Amazing video. Honest. Our minds are our best friends and our worst enemies. I'm 49 years old - always fat - always felt unloved. This last 9 months I finally got my act together - I've lost 85 pounds and whilst I still hate how I look, I know I'm getting to the goal. You're inspiring - our own view of 'perfection' can not only motivate but also demotivate - the feeling of not being good enough is a symptom of that. You're young, beautiful and empathetic and you will be the best you can be - and THAT is what perfection is x

[@nimbuscycles2354]

It’s comforting to hear these thoughts and words come from someone else. Thank you for sharing.

[@mrbear86]

I watch alot of fitness youtubers and your the most down to earth and honest. Keep up the good work

[@MrComputerguy96]

Oof, I shed a couple of tears towards the end there.. I want to say it gets better, but I honestly don't know. Some battles will be fought all the way to the grave. Talking can certainly be therapeutic, and we're all honored to be a part of this journey with you. Stay strong Serena 💪

[@jamesstumpf75]

Wow this is one of the most courageous videos I’ve seen you make. And I know you’ve made some pretty hard-hitting videos about what you’ve gone through and continue to go through. But this coming out in being able to talk about what you’re currently going through and how then it’s not always the same thing is very difficult because anyone on the outside looking in can’t see or feel what you’re going through. So I just want to say thank you for being brave enough to post this! Superheroes come in all shapes and sizes!

[@crabbostabbo278]

I don't know if u know, but I put a video of u while I was reaching out for help, soooo I am on therapy now :D inspired by u, soo, yea, there's that, u are not alone

[@rena_serenaa]

Aww that is amazing!! I’m so glad you’re getting the help you need❤️ sending you love!

[@ambitiousmuslimrecordings3451]

Mental health is dragged down to the pits of hell. Like you said, your good days outplay your bad days. You’re astonishingly strong for sharing this with others. Thank you 🤍

[@adrianyorke9322]

Hi Serena, please stay strong through the difficult days and push forwards regardless. I know it's difficult and I am talking from experience because I suffer from depression and anxiety issues. You're a very pretty and talented young lady with your whole future ahead of you. Keep doing what you are passionate about with your training goals and your drawing etc. PS I love your drawings, they are amazing! Stay positive, stay strong and keep doing what you enjoy the most and put it first before social media. Please don't listen to negative messages, those people are probably just jealous of you. Take care xx

[@lp343]

Im not really sad or depressed but i got injured so i cant lift heavy but i hope everyone who isnt having an amazing day can get up ake make that day its bitch. We're all gonna fucking make it together.

[@DunkInHerDonut]

She needs to be protected at all cost. She is precious and adorable. An inspiration, might I add, to me and a lot of girls who is into self improvement. Much love and respect. She remind me of a younger Sophie Arverbink.

[@b3rt223]

Stay strong, you have my support. Be in a state of love and peace.

[@jayworkman5792]

I hope YOU have someone to talk to and a support system to help. I can only speak for myself on the matter, but I don’t have any expectations on who I think you should be in videos (ie hero, survivor, etc). While it’s true that your journey from anorexia to bodybuilding initially drew me in (and personally inspired me to take better care of my own health), I don’t really think about that when I watch your videos anymore. I just enjoy watching an amazing person grow, cook, be a goof, or whatever. There’s no condition to be met or obligation to fulfill.

[@IanHex]

Hey Serena, The bravery you are displaying in this video is nothing short of astounding. For context I’m a 37-year old man, living in rural England. I’ve lived with, and suffered from, bipolar disorder for decades. Thankfully, these days, it’s somewhat managed with the help of Sertraline and constant CBT journaling, but the condition did lead me to a period of homelessness for a while. You are definitely not alone, and I cannot imagine the pain and darkness that your mind subjects you too. If there is any help I can give at all, it is simply: This, too, shall pass. The bad days don’t last forever, and as you point out they make the good days all the worth living for. You’ve already been through so much and you’re still so young, living through a tumultuous age of mis/information overload. I’m very proud of you, Serena. You have inspired me to get back into lifting once again (once lockdown restrictions ease). Take care.

[@kingrockkid]

I feel your struggle, some days you just fall into yourself. No matter what your vision or plans for yourself are, even acting on them is sometimes a battle, sometimes you don't even win. Doing what you are doing with this video and pushing through your comfort zone, that's how you win those battles. I've been going through that all my life almost, even without fully understanding my feelings. So please believe me when I say you aren't in the wrong for sharing your troubles and experiences, you are actually showing others what real strength is. Living on despite those struggles and doing it on your own terms, you and others aren't alone and you dont have to be anything other than who you want to be.

[@taesthetic9999]

i've recently discovered you and i'm soooo glad i did because you're such a huge inspiration you're so strong and beautiful thank you smmm

[@TyrooShino]

Never alone Rena, never had body issues atleast in that way. I feel the same way in the aspect of it always feeling worse and never better, I still can't find anyway in which it will get better. I've came into a physical illness too, holds me back from doing anything I wanted to do so I'm sort of aimlessly walking nowhere. . . But there's always a little bit of hope in there, I think you do the same. Cling to the ember, no matter the cost because you need to live on. Hopefully your life reignites, because your fans certainly love you dearly.

[@xultimatexartistx]

Bro the kind of people who need this, far outweighs the jerks who think this is lame or w/e, massive props for posting this!

[@Hurricanelive]

Be strong gorgeous. God is always there, always listening, always loving. Thank you.

[@martinsmith3847]

Ok real talk how can we actually help you what do you want what do you need? You are such a good person so nice so likeable you deserve so much... Sending lots of love🥰 The world truly is a better place with you in it.

[@swissbadass9882]

Your drawings are amazing. Honestly pure art.

[@dimariatrash5997]

I know what living with body dysmorphia is, I have to deal with that every single day of my life. I understand the feeling and I understand how threatening Can it be for your mental health. Lately, every time I look at the mirror i see myself and I only see flaws. But I’m also fighting that everyday, when i catch myself staring at my “flaws” I start telling myself that I’m human, I’m normal, I’m not perfect and I will never be. And it’s okay to not be perfect!! I know it’s not easier as to say “you just gotta live with it” but once you start understanding that your “flaws” aren’t really flaws but your mind threatening you, life becomes quite easier. You are normal, you don’t have flaws, don’t let your mind trick you. You’re perfect the way you are and please, keep fighting and don’t let those dark thoughts control you. Be free and live your life and do what makes you happy, and if you need help ask for it, you will NEVER be a burden to anyone ok? Keep fighting 💪🏻

[@AC-hg5id]

I noticed that when I have high spectatives I fall short to my ideal and if that happens over long periods of time I ended up hateing what im doing, be aware, dont be like me...distribute your expectations over various things

[@INDAMOMENTFilms]

Serena were here for you, your not alone in this. We will rise and defeat our own personal hell. We can only endure so much but at the end of the day I hope you find your inner strength to get through those tough days baby. Take it easy mate. - A KZbinr from down under

[@themilkman7043]

I hope you know how much videos like this help other people in similar situations. You’re doing a really important and brave thing by sharing your struggles and emphasizing the importance of mental health. Keep at it girl you got this!

[@kjeansson]

You are really brave for sharing this and opening up and I really hope that you felt a bit better after getting that out there and keep fighting you are awesome!

[@lilyanne5820]

dang girl your art is AMAZING!!

[@danielfoley6839]

Ur beautiful stop looking for flaws love urself say strong ur stronger than most ppl mentally and physically

[@zealottk]

Always remember that you are not alone. I live with some pretty bad anxiety I can relate to what you are going through. You got this and even if you don't, that's okay too. ❤️

[@ip9111]

You're great Serena, stay strong!

[@mannymirassol1724]

Keep your head up an yes mental health is a huge issue especially for people holding it in an you try making others feel happy an laugh like that about you an hope you feel better soon always here

[@poldenodink9520]

You are amazing Serena! ❤️ I am struggling with Anxiety/social anxiety aswell.. it’s really hard but we’ll get through it. 🙌

[@RandomjificationOfficial]

Your perfect in each and every way! You work hard and creative! Your a total package keep it up! SO BEAUTIFUL AND NOW I AM TALKING IN CAPS! AH SOMEONE HELP!

[@jholl3357]

A little late to the video but just wanted to say that you are so beautiful both inside and out. Its really tough sharing the thoughts that bring you down. I struggled with sucidal depression for a couple of years before opening up to my closest friends and that took every ounce of mental energy I had. Always look forward to your videos hope you are having an awesome day! :)

[@hunterhale9000]

Hey Serena. Before I get into this I love your taste in Music. But on a serious note I’ve been dealing with insecurities all my life but now since I started to get into fitness it has just gotten worse because I can’t stop comparing myself to other people and I can’t get the motivation to workout or even go to school. Depression has been killing me. You know that feeling when you just don’t feel like doing anything that you love. I feel that same thing all the time too. I look in the mirror and see progress but because my thoughts are so negative I can’t even enjoy the feeling of being proud of myself. It sucks being trapped inside your own head. It also sucks when you know you’re healthy and young but you’re mind has got you down and depressed so much that you can’t even live life. I’ve been in this slump so many times this year and previous years and the slump that I am in now just feels like it’s never going away. I can’t focus or be happy at all. I can’t sleep right and I go to school exhausted and depressed and don’t get anything done and my friends see me as how I post on my Instagram and it’s hard having to live up that reputation when I feel like this. I have to pretend I’m okay so I don’t make my people uncomfortable. My childhood sucked so bad and I know how that can hurt you because it hurts me also. I grew up around so much negativity and I still have to live with it. Nobody in my family supports me or cared about anything I have to say. Fuck them. Negative people don’t deserve people like you. be yourself and do what you wanna do. I really understand what your going through and it sucks so bad. But just know that I am here with you every step of the way and we are going to get through this. You are absolutely gorgeous and you have come such a long way. But you are not alone at all. Just watching this video made me feel better and understand that i’m not alone. Keep pushing. You deserve all the love in the world.

[@extrasmack]

Hey Rena! This is definitely an important series you're starting. From an outsider's perspective, it definitely appears that you're doing all the right things for yourself and have a good handle on your situation. There will always be ups and downs, and sometimes the downs are really really bad but as long as you keep trying to move forward eventually all will pass. Keep doing what you do even when you don't really want to or when it all seems impossible. Prayers for your well being will be ongoing. I also pray that this vid and the subsequent series encourage and help anyone who needs to hear its message. Stay strong even when you don't feel like you are. Finally please DO make more drawing related vids. Your art is always awesome and unique.

[@thecrystaltide3757]

♥️♥️♥️ let's all get the help we need and know we deserve love

[@hcady2593]

thank you for sharing this. I appreciate you, you inspire me, and you're definitely not alone in this struggle

[@philipsvensson8279]

you gotta love yourself you are awesome and doing an amazing job and the fact that you found the strength to upload this video really shows how strong you are!

[@mateocaamal5677]

Hey Serena, Idk if you'll c this or read it all, but thank u for always being yourself, or from at least my pov it seems that way. But anyway it really is comforting knowing that there r other people out there suffering the same or similar fight as u r urself. Not meaning that I would want someone to suffer what I am going through, but more like knowing that I'm not alone, and hopefully we can all help each other out on our bad days, and be there for each other in an encouraging way. But yeah seeing videos like this really help, and my story is different from yours, but I do relate. I just hope you can hang in there and hopefully the people u love can b there for u during ur times in need, as I hope the same thing for myself, and anyone else suffering from similar issues. So yeah hopefully whoever reads this and relates as well knows that there r many people out there going through the same thing, and hopefully we can all help each other out as a community. Just like Serena does with her awesome videos, and wonderful humor on her ig, which always has me dying from laughter😂. Anyway thank u again Serena for everything and truly being inspiring😊. And hopefully like u said that people with negative comments keep it to themselves, but even if they don't hopefully u can just focus on the positive comments u get instead :). Much love to everyone💛😁. Btw I'm a super shy person usually, so doing this is really out of my comfort zone😅, but hopefully someone gets something nice out of it or enjoys it :).

[@coptst]

You really are inspiring. I have asked my daughter to subscribe. Thank you for continuing to keep this a topic that is ok to talk about.

[@BrokenAndStable]

Extremely hard to change a state of mind you have created for yourself, saying something positive to myself when i have negative thoughts and i just feel like i'm just lying to myself. Thanks for the video.

[@rawan1047]

Girl, i know TONS of girls will stand in a line to look like you. The good thing is that you realize this whole thing is mental/only in your head, it’s not reality. Your body’s job is to help you accomplish your goals, and you’re job is to keep it healthy. When these dark days come ypu feel like they will last forever and miss/wonder how you felt before, but just hang in there & it will def go away 👍🏻 stay strong, happy and healthy💪🏻

[@miderwr9363]

We need to stay extra strong during these covid times and also understand that things are extra hard on us right now. I thought I'd share my story regardless who cares to read it or not. All of my life I've been spending almost half the time every year of being depressed during the dark and cold season in Sweden, and ever since I was 12 I knew I wanted to move to a warmer and sunnier place. Not until I was about 20 I could do something about it so I started working and saved up money and got some friends with me to do the same to go to Australia for a year lasting visa when I was 22. When I came back I realized I just HAD to move there permanently and I was planning on a trip to various countries to work and save money to start University in Australia to get a degree which would allow me to get a job and stay there, so I started working again, fixed my visa for Canada to explore and work there and planned to get a visa for New Zealand after I've been to Canada and basically finally leave home from there on but Covid came right when I had my Canadian visa ready and I couldn't leave. Now I've been basically living on my savings in Sweden with no job for way too long and I'm turning 26 this year and feel like I've never aged faster and that my life is running out in the sand, and I bet I'm not the only one feeling like their lives are disappearing during these times.

[@hobgoblin6551]

Just copped that Rick shirt! You’re such a talented artist! Much love

[@RonJon4500]

You have helped so many people by being so open. Thank you!!!

[@kenahlifts]

Serena!!! I’m sure you get this a lot, but you’re literally my favorite account across all SM! We love you for ALL that you are!! You are the strongest and most beautiful person I know, in and out!!! Love you, queen!!

[@alexuspus]

Thank you so much for this video! It's very hard to be so vulnerable on the net but we love you through good times and bad times!

[@ambitiousmuslimrecordings3451]

1. You’re funny af 2. Your editing is on fucking point 👌🏼 3. You’re more motivated than a lot of people, of them me and I like to think I’m very ambitious

[@leophillips]

This is my second video of yours that I have watched and from what I can gather you are an amazing person that has achieved allot and by the looks of thing great things are on the horizon for you good luck

[@Keykers1]

We're here to support you Serena!

[@g405t]

Don't count the days, make the days count!

[@LS-LectoriSalutem]

Thanks for sharing. It's so important that talking about mental problems/ getting help is normalized and videos like this one really do help a ton Everyone deserves good days only, so let's make that happen! Wish you all the best

[@C-Thunder]

Man, I wish I could give this kid a hug. This world is just so cruel man.

[@amandaaraujo7615]

Thank you for keeping it real. I have those days too and it's fucking hard. Sending you good vibes Serena !

[@jackthe15headedmonster25]

I genuinely thought I was the only one that felt tense when it came to getting out of the house. Its just nice to know that I'm not the only one that gets tensed out when it come's to doing Social things/activity's. (P.S the only way to overcome your fears is by showing up and facing it, not facing your fears will only make your fears worse therefore making it harder to overcome your fear. That's something that I've lately learned and if your consistent on facing your fears by the time you noticed you've overcomed your fear. I'll leave you to decide what to make out of this advise but I hope it help's you out In a way, Cheers)

[@sarahm3596]

i hear you with the social anxiety and drive-thrus!

[@derdude16]

i wish you all the best!!! much much respect for putting this out on youtube. keep going forward. even one or two steps back today can lead to a better tomorrow.

[@sdfajbdakisjdgh]

I don’t ever leave comments. But you’re very pure, honest and true. You’ve helped me lose many pounds without ever knowing it. You are my inspiration to do good and not just through weight loss but as a person. You have a kind soul as well and as a 30yo man, I can say, I look up to a 20yo woman. Keep going, never give up, and don’t doubt yourself. You’re going to do great things

[@jacobgarcia5542]

thank you for posting this...i have not gone through the same things as you but the pain you expressed i could very much identify with. im so sorry you have to experience such deep sadness and self loathing, but i am glad that you have the strength to persevere and continue on. much love to you

[@brill34536]

your art is amazing!

[@aliciafenner3098]

First off, you are an amazing artist you are incredible and your artwork is incredible!! I completely understand how you feel and I am so sorry that you are having these thoughts, but just know that you are not alone and I still struggle with these thoughts all the time and I am in recovery from my ED and its been hard because I don't like how I look at all and some days are very hard, but when I saw your ED story you inspired me so much and you still do and you keep me going in my recovery!!! You Are Not Alone!! much love

[@Kerbalf]

Takes a strong will to post stuff like this. But it DOES help others so it's worth it! Good job, guy.

[@luke5402]

yep i feel your pain i am struggling with some sort of body dysmorphia as well keep your chin up your not alone :)

[@ArghIHateThisSuit]

I totally relate to the feeling of worthlessness. Ever since I can remember I feel like I'm inadequate and like I don't belong. That never really goes away, I guess. On bad days there it is, showing itself again. You do learn to manage it better as you get older though. I didn't know you struggled so much with body image issues. It broke my heart to see you cry like that but I completely understand the feeling. For what it's worth I think you're fucking great as you are. I wish I could give you a hug. Here's an internet hug for you.

[@hoos_ur_daddy]

You’re good Hun, you got this. I had a lot of anxiety especially when I was your age. Times might feel dark trust me the things you’re worried about will pass.

[@thebuffpanda1824]

Thank you for staying strong. You got this Serena!

[@A30_TKD]

And I'm glad that you feel comfortable opening up with your viewers

[@tallthor]

These are trying times, and you are doing great. You have a lot on your plate, and you are still killing it. Don't know if you believe in prayer or the meditation effect, but I will pray for you, and you have a whole community who loves you for being you.

[@johnathanwilks1429]

i feel the same serena ... honestly ...love ya just know we are here for you always ... love ya girly

[@molasorrosalom4846]

Girl we love you for you, know that.

[@hellstrjfe151]

I am really understand your problem. Its all about your mind, some voice in your head, the negative one. It is keeping telling you bad things and somehow your mind think that it was telling the true, that you are just a bad person, you aren't worth to live, your body is ugly. But the fact is it isn't, you are way better than that and deep down in your mind, you know it. If you feel too awful, too darkness in your mind, your life, just find something to relax or someone to share the problem with, like doctor therapy or someone you can trust, or just write your negetive thought down and set it private in somewhere. Hopefully, It will make you feel better somehow. You are the most gorgeous girl i've ever follow, so young, so passion, so strong and so beatiful. You have a wonderful body, everyone know that, you know that, be proud of that. Sorry for bad english but i just want to help you because i know how lonely in your situation. God bless you. Don't lose hope little girl. In the darkness, there's always a light, a persone somewhere that willing to help you, just don't give up. You still have a wonderful life to live.

[@shilohpowers1224]

I just started following you and discovered you and you inspire me SO much! I love your videos, you're so funny and so strong physically and emotionally !!! You are amazing

[@asdfqwerty5389]

really good that you are doing somthing about it! wish u the best. i've been takning duble scoops of kreatine and also alpha gpc and ashwaghanda for a while. boosted my training bit. less go

[@xrayz9612]

Been here for a few years now keep being you thats the reason i subbed in the first place you put a smile on our faces 👌👌

[@livigibbs7134]

Sending you so much love, you’re so strong and you’ll get through this gal!💕

[@jerryhall7779]

Your amazing girl never give up! One day you will reach all your goals and be at piece with your demons. Dnt give into those demons or temptations your worth so much more♡

[@armandolopez6302]

That’s art is clean keep it up hamie 🙌