Vlog: Trying to do Med School From Home with mixed results | MED SCHOOL

[@53-nurjawahiri19]

I took 6 hours for 1 lecture today, not exaggerating. This whole restriction thing seems to start taking a toll on my mental stability urghh

[@nurulsyazwani1882]

Nur Jawahiri Azman sameee. I’m hoping that this will end soon 😭

[@sweetdia_med]

Don’t cry Kian you’re making me sad 😔 We all know how hard you’re working and we all support you a lot. Im also having a really hard time with online med school..I also take a long time to understand. Sometimes a lecture worth an hour long actually can take me up to 4 hours ;( All the quarantine is making things more depressing, but it’s okay! this too shall pass🙏🏻 And omg I just learned acid-base imbalances too haahaha

[@sunflowerbynight]

Me too, I quit my class there a moment, it was tough. And I will continue learning about it outside class now, and comparing it with the viruses and learn in real-time. Lots are ph related to covid19. Your response helps me too. I hope you do well too in class and in this time. Good luck too!

[@sweetdia_med]

Jiska Hachmer wishing you the best🥰

[@ninthusiva7546]

She believes the school should cater to her schedule. What a self-centered brat

[@morenaazulalvezmolina7975]

DOING MED SCHOOL FROM HOME IS THE MOST STRESSING THING I'VE EVER DONE and it probably is for every other student of every career there is out there too. Damn you 2020!

[@maitelechardoy7684]

pettyanon omg this year I’m a freshman in med school and I’m studying from home very stressful situation

[@morenaazulalvezmolina7975]

@@maitelechardoy7684 i totally get you! where are you from?

[@WeiYinChan]

I guess it's better than graduating from med school in 2020. Imaging starting your career as a doctor during a pandemic lol

[@antoniavaras9065]

we all feel that way sometimes, that we don’t deserve to be where we are, but always remember how hard you’ve worked to be we where you are and how much you have accomplished. I relate so much to all the things you said, specially these past few weeks, but we have to stay strong 💙💙💙.

[@easymedicinebytmd8247]

Motivation is hard to get during these times but hard work will always be rewarded! Keep grinding!

[@Mariamhamwi]

Easy Medicine by TMD yes! I don’t wait for motivation... self discipline is 🔑

[@taylorjohnson8102]

🍌 this video was so relatable with most schools now going online. Loved the positivity to wrap it all up though. Thanks for making realistic study content that doesn’t make it seem like you have to accomplish everything all the time 💕

[@samanthabromley8308]

I'm a second year vet student in the U.S. right now feeling the exact same way about how prepared I am for clinicals....and I keep telling myself that all we can do in this specific situation is trust the curriculum and the clinicians. We haven't REALLY been able to put the past two years' worth of information ALL together yet, so I guess it makes sense to feel unprepared. But once we get into clincs we have to believe that our hard work was worth it! Push through, you're not alone, YOU BELONG IN MED SCHOOL. You've gotten this far, there's nothing stopping you now!

[@stefxicilicitici6592]

I am doing horrible in this quarantine, I have completely lost my drive and even my motivation to shower. I need to change quickly, the last thing I want is to get bad grades.

[@anniepannie1955]

Bobblehead Stef oh honey

[@LTRLVRIFY]

I hope your coping better 💕💕

[@Stargemini11]

I’ve been working on a workplace wellness and mental health for my MPH program. This virus has caused a lot of stress and issues. I’ve cried so many times. My graduation was pushed farther away. My schedule wasn’t pushed back. I got laid off then called to work from home. Mentally it’s been up and down. We will overcome this virus and come out stronger than before! You go ahead and cry and we will cry with you! It’s okay to have your feelings and you will learn the material!!! You will do amazing. One step at a time. We love you 😍!

[@tiffany_lubrino]

banana!!! I am a pre-med student right now in college, and I always look forward to your new videos. I totally understand that feeling of not being in control, especially when you had everything all planned out and all of your plans were all changed. You inspire me that in the most unexpected times, you were able to keep an open mind and be flexible with these changes, and still stayed positive. Wishing you all the best for the end of your second year!!

[@ujhamayun1297]

honestly ur study schedules are so relatable and you still manage to stick to it without any procrastination

[@hayley-annjakubowski3936]

As someone who has known Kian for 5+ years, it’s so heartbreaking to see her cry (she doesn’t cry often) 😞❤️❤️ don’t cry my sweet Kiki we love you and you’re doing the best you can. ❤️❤️

[@anniehjalmarsson9676]

I'm totally feeling you! I do so little and still fall asleep in the middle of the day, I try and sleep, workout and eat well but its just extremely mentally draining and I really believe we need to be kinder to ourselves! We got this!

[@nxtgenmd]

I think you did a good job explaining how a lot of us are feeling right now. You're awesome though - everything's going to work out! :)

[@rushelsacopla2261]

omg. i cannot believe you're going into 3RD YEAR. i literally watched ur very first video during the summer before your FIRST YEAR. time literally flies

[@ellamarosvari2951]

Ugh.. I’m finishing my undergrad this year and feeling so unmotivated since moving to online. Only one of my professors is actively trying to teach online, but my others have done little to nothing to do anything helpful. I’m super stressed just staying home. I find that I am tired all the time with no motivation to do anything productive & no motivation to workout. I’m really hoping I can kick into gear but we just found out we won’t be having a commencement ceremony so that just adds to the disappointment with how everything is going 😅

[@sosti622]

BANANA BANANA!!!!!! it felt so relatable watchin u. i was feeling so exhausted today, seeing u just made me go back to my study again. thank u and i love u. keep going girl!!!!!!

[@LauraAnne95]

YOURE AMAZING 😭 I wiiissshhhhh I was a 1/4 smart as you ! You DO deserve to be there!! you had the grades, scored high enough on MCAT, had the resume , had the references, etc. Your mind is playing tricks on you. I don’t blame you for feeling frustrated and overwhelmed. You are so young and such an inspiration to me, even though I’m like 10 years older than you. I like watching your journey. You will be a great doctor. You just have to keep plugging along. Sending good thoughts your way ❤️

[@grgumgee1]

Medical students are another breed so much respect girl your whole life is your studies and this job

[@healthyauthentic7453]

lol omg your realness and hilariousness about the coffee floating, the banana surgery, the motivation, and this crazy uncertainty of classes, the can i/am i smart enough... Its just super relatable, which i really appreciate. I am also in a weird mental place about being discipled to study, im like where did this suddenly come from? Just seeing you talk about it, i realize for you, something else mirrored in myself and other students Im sure. Girl, you wouldn't have gotten this far if you werent smart enough and couldnt do it. Ultimately its so not fair and etc ad nauseam. What can be done? I guess just Dory it. Just wanted to say thx for posting, and keep trying. Im so glad i found your channel.

[@mariacamitan8422]

Kian, I feel your pain! But as a premed student with two parents who work as nurses in Manhattan where COVID-19 cases are skyrocketing, online learning and being home while dealing with this pandemic has really put things into perspective for me... it reminds me why I want to work in health care and that the inconveniences and self-doubt us students are facing are worth suffering through. Hang in there and stay healthy :)

[@gabymartinez7503]

Tbh i am really glad you posted this... I’m just starting off and I feel this way too... makes me feel normal that everyone else is going through this too.. you got it// you deserve to be there.

[@Amelia-ys2qy]

Hey youu! it's okay to not always stay on top of things. it's okay to not follow your schedule, your timetable to a T and miss a lecture you were supposed to complete a particular day! This is coming from a 4th year med, the feeling of not doing enough is here to stay so you gotta get comfortable with it. I've so many lectures piled up of gynae & obs and ENT and I'm trying to win this battle with my procrastination lol. All the best for u!!

[@Jenn935]

You are absolutely amazing. Just know that you are not alone. It takes me quite some time to understand certain materials but in the end it all works out. Stay positive and amazing, everything will be fine.😊

[@doktorazoe]

You’re doing well Kian! Waaaay better than most of us! You inspire me to organise my schedule and study more. I haven’t been good at keeping up with my lectures that I’ve missed during the quarantine. Stay strong! You got this!

[@carmellaandreamalimban4127]

Hi Kian! I've been watching your vlogs for the past few months already. I'm also a medical student from the Philippines. ALL I CAN SAY IS I UNDERSTAND WHERE ALL THE STRESS IS COMING FROM. I TRULY AM. We give our very best up to the point that we exhaust ourselves. I also understand what you meant by getting enough sleep and exercise but you still feel tired. This is the sad reality for us medical students. I keep telling myself to be better and feel better but sometimes we just cannot control our emotions. It sometimes sucks you up. But nevertheless, may we never forget why we are doing and experiencing all these hardships. FIghting, Kian! Let's just do our best since our time to be doctors will come. If such pandemic occurs again (AND I'M TRULY HOPING IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN), all hardwork will pay off. We will be of great help to people who are sick and in pain.

[@otruckers4407]

I just wanted to say you are extremely brave for posting this, not many people share their breakdowns and you have inspired and motivated me so much. This was the first video I watched from u and I’m immediately subscribing! I love you and your content, stay strong you got this

[@hishmab.75]

Banana 🍌 This outbreak is messing with everyone's head. It's not your fault, it's not that you don't do things correctly. YOU ARE GREAT. Every single day since we start the quarantine I started to feel more and more depressed. And when I want to go through lecture or whatever, well.... All we can do is trying to stay sane. We're together in this. We love you Kian.

[@Juganuu]

Hey sis, I’m not in college or med school yet so I can’t say much but often times, I speak to a teacher of mine about feeling these sorts of ways. I know like our situations r completely different. But dis is imposter syndrome bb. You 100% deserve to be where u r at in medschool, I’m sure so many people r thankful for the delay in exams. D o n t worry b. Mwah

[@sarahbahello]

🍌 I’m applying to med school this coming cycle, and your videos have been such a comfort through this process. Seeing someone as genuine, funny and relatable as you makes me feel like I can be in your shoes one day! You ARE smart, you ARE good enough to be there, and you are inspiring this pre-med, so keep on being a kickass future doctor 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻

[@hazelurot5532]

Miss your videos Kian! I visit your channel from time to time to watch recent uploads, or sometimes rewatch old ones while waiting for your new videos! Proud to be part of the bean team. 🍌

[@tyrabanks8432]

Girl!!! U’ve got this. Just know u are doing the best that u can do. I am rooting for u kian. Pls don’t cry. It actually made me sad. I felt like giving u a hug. Cos u motivate me. U re almost there. We re proud of you. 👏💯

[@kw4246]

I'm a Medical Education Coordinator - I work to assist in scheduling of rotations for 3rd and 4th year students, and in scheduling some 3rd year CBLs. I died laughing when you did surgery on the banana! I love it - what a great way to practice your suturing skills at home :)

[@islamismail1641]

🍌 well that was a one emotional roller-coaster! We are all in this together, Let's do our best! Sending Love dear Kian

[@crashb0mb]

"i just did surgery on a banana"

[@liviamaria535]

that was adorable lol

[@karlastudy9357]

bananaaa, girl you motivate me soo much, thank you for all you're doing and just keep going strong!!

[@dwlbrx3256]

12:04 it was because you’ve just been at home. When I’m at home I feel more tired and less motivated to study. Getting out the house really helps me to refresh my mind and energy.

[@irisdeguzman4887]

Awww Kian i feel you! I believe in you! You got this😊 your bean team are here to support you💕

[@bognamm]

Girl you need more relax/chill time! It will really help to just have an hour or more of just watching Netflix and not doing much or reading a book 😌

[@bieberrgotsmee89]

I'm currently on my premed studying medical laboratory science. It has been hard focusing at home and doing a lot of self-study since I never find my home a learning environment. But you really inspire and motivate me to do well and achieve my dreams in becoming a doctor someday. Thank youuu, Kian! Stay strong.

[@niageninarodriguez4263]

What do you use APP do you use for your notes? On your ipad? I like how neat and organized your notes are!! (:

[@naina9807]

we have teaching one day a week. other than that, learn... "stuff" yeah this is hard. feels like an extension of holidays and therefore zero study

[@brixlagao3380]

I know how you feel! I feel like I've been working so hard and things seem like it's being taken away from me. Like the world is punishing me somehow. This was suppose to be my last semester of my undergrad before I graduate. My graduation has been cancelled, my motivation kind of drop so a couple of my assignments were in the 60s, I had to re-schedule my MCAT exam therefore I cannot articulate this year into med but next year in 2021, I was suppose to volunteer for Neuroscience awareness week for Let's Talk Science but that was cancelled, and overall I miss my friends at school. It's been such a discouraging change but I know that every storm has a rainbow and sunshine at the end. And I know for sure that we're just in the eye of the storm and that it will get worse before it gets better. Let's keep on striving! It will all be worth it!

[@angelinasonthuimibhutia4051]

I've been following the schedule from last week and it's doing magic ❤️❤️thank you so much ❤️❤️

[@sugariiesw33t]

Hi Kian! I'm a Canadian that just started med school in New Zealand and it was only a month in our first semester and then this all happened :( We're in lockdown now too and it's been so stressful when you're trying to still get used to med school/studying but now everything's up in the air. All our lectures are online now too, everything in our schedule got pushed forward a week and we're still not sure how we're going to get tested. You did amazing this week though and stayed so disciplined which I can't say for myself but thank you for the study motivation

[@deborahrosee_]

Oh my gosh this is such a mood, it’s honestly crazy to vlog this whole experience for us content creators but I feel like it’s been an unique experience thus far, loved the video!!

[@rachaeln6070]

🍌 ur videos always keep me motivated and show me that we’re all in this together. Med school is really hard and the number of time’s I breakdown and feel useless is countless and I helps to know that I’m not the only one feeling this way

[@mahtabsss]

banana! btw you are SO productive i loved your to-do list for every hour

[@kinghalo601]

NEUROANATOMY!!!!!!

[@kinghalo601]

ALSO BANANA!!!!!

[@azeezraad1150]

That was me in med school years hold up and stay strong every one is having a tough time now, hope you a good luck in your exams

[@kaylenmccullough4166]

Everything you said at 11:40 is so relatable. This is a difficult transition and there’s no right way to deal with it, we’re all just trying our best, right? ❤️

[@sunflowerbynight]

Can you choose to do some of these classes, that are now too tough later on? delaying a bit with a withdrawal?I did it...I noted I needed more time on one thing, and got to the half of class and knew no, I want to be better at this and keep my GPA up. And the Corona thing was just starting and I knew this would make me end up with lower grades, and is out of my control too. So, I took the withdrawal. I did not want that, but I could plan to do this tougher class later on again, so I can learn all of it before I do the class again. I think I needed a bit more in this class anyway, and a bit more on my own with it the next months would give me a better grade. And I don't want a W on my list, but because of Corona, I am sure I would fail this class now, and not when I delay it. And I choose this when in another class I did not like the teacher's response, she did not fill in the forms they all fill in, and I complained about that easy class, with her not filling in a form and I knew my grade was not fair because she did not do it the normal way. And it was not a low grade, but it took my time away from this harder class. So, I took a withdrawal from both, to spend no more time on that one not important class, and change it for a better one, and to take time on this harder one. And it gave me peace, because now Corona goes up, and I can not work the same way during this virus. And it is also a time to use the practical side and work side of the corona. Well, for me it is. I can use the realness of the medical field, and use all subjects I did finish already, to see how it is in real-time. And work on it a bit. And will start fresh next term. I hope, and else I take a light class. I also learned lots do not know they have COVID19 or not, but if you have it, viruses work on the brain and create a lower IQ for a while. It gave me a good feeling I did not do now the toughest classes. I work around it. Especially because people can get ill and it affects the brain. I also note you are feeling a bit sad about not finishing the good projects you have, I would use the projects in any way, and later on finish it and publish it, If I could. Maybe this helps you. You do really great at this time. And med school I assume you are already a BSc. I am studying BSc. Health science, so I am not yet in Medschool, especially from that point of view, you do great. And I am sorry it is so unfair right now. And I hope you get the best out of this, the way you feel good at the end of your work. I think it is not you, but this situation. Good luck.

[@AnAVacays]

banana, you made me feel so motivated to work after watching this

[@buddikakumaranayake]

Am a med student too.. Ur inspirational.. Nice videos Kian.. 😇🌿

[@karenfigueroa6161]

Watched you video today and it was inspiring, I may not be in medical school but having to transition to online nursing school, is not fun. I feel your frustration with having lectures not be right or have to extra assignments. trying to keep it together but its hard to not have some self doubt. this is my first semester for nursing school and there has been many days where I just want to give up, or question why I am here. Hoping everything goes back to normal soon. Will continue too watch your videos :)

[@mayarellano6848]

🍌 thank you so much for this video! I was able to reflect too because I can relate with your situation. I'm in my pre-med and I know I still have a lot to learn, and I feel like I'm not smart enough to learn everything and survive my exams but this video motivated me to keep going! I'm trying my best to survive this slump, hoping that I'll be able to finish and learn everything before the final exams. All the best! 🍌

[@KianMDvlog]

good luck on your finals!!

[@mayarellano6848]

@@KianMDvlog aaaaaaaaaaahh omggggg thank you! 😭💕 good luck on your exams tooooo!

[@hanna4934]

OMG @0:01 you look exactly like Neslihan Atagül, the Turkish actor. You are so gorgeous. Sending you love and support during these difficult times.

[@Roseann947]

I just wanted to jumb through the screen and hug you😔❤️ You are doing so well Kian!!

[@JennyEqualsSinger]

I know I'll probably get laughed at for asking this but do you schedule your social time too? Also, how long do you block off your music sessions?

[@emaan96]

I was wondering if you could tell us what notebook you use (1:38) I thought the texture looked really nice and I liked that it didn't have margins and stuff. I have been searching for such notebooks for my biomedical classes and can't seem to find any good ones.

[@KianMDvlog]

they have a bunch that are the same size but with different covers, from coles/indigo/chapters bookstore! www.chapters.indigo.ca/en-ca/paper/a4-polypro-spiral-notebook-poppies/882709542438-item.html

[@taylormcmichael2246]

I feel like I would feel this way if I was in medical school but we conquer above all! Sending hugs girl

[@trenyconner8527]

Loved this ❤️❤️ the banana surgery made my day 😂😃💕 good luck with all of your online classes u got this!!😃😃

[@traciprovins3221]

MS3 here and it’s so frustrating that we’ve been taken off of clinical rotations while our profession is fighting the virus. How can we learn clinical stuff online? The end MS2 was probably been the worst time in med school yet. Eventually you’ll be able to apply everything in the hospital! But the further you get, the more you feel like you don’t know anything! 😭 so I feel you. Keep your head up. Isolation is really hard. But the world will need us one day 💕I tell myself to try to keep myself healthy because my time will come.

[@daniellaelm5106]

I’m so terrified of doing med school online and so anxious and panicky that I’ve still not done the week of lectures from before Easter break (we go back to normal schedule just online tmo and I’m freaking out)

[@taehyungsneighborindaegu8510]

We’re rooting for you! Love from the Philippines 💖

[@yanlemosx]

Hey there!! I was scrolling through youtube hoping to find a medicine student from somewhere in the world other than Brazil (where I go to medschool) haha and u just popped up on my feed. Just trying to share some experiences about medschool w other countries for future residency and stuff 😅

[@pamelasaquisili3354]

🍌 we love you!! Stay strong 🥺❤️

[@zoriel3534]

I cannot imagine what you are going through. But I hope you feel better

[@frederikchopin5798]

I am a medical student too :) You have great videos, coffee recipes, and humor. Thanks for sharing your experience, and also for bringing joy with your videos into these harsh days of lockdown. This too shall pass, we can do it!

[@akshararamakumar4006]

You made me cry when you cried, I understand what u are going through! I seriously can’t see you cried. Maybe try to put motivational quotes and pleaseee don’t cry... Love you from your loving fan!

[@551223]

Congratulations on completing 2nd year :)

[@matthewpolicarpio3399]

I literally stop studying just to watch this.

[@aubegrey5645]

Kian you’re my hero!!! You will be gorgeous doctor 🙏🏻🙏🏻 You already made great work, please don’t worry that much 😭💔 Love you!

[@xnychick716x]

I’ve pretty much only done online classes and believe me it can be difficult but if I can get threw it hence I’m not that motivated and smart you can get threw it believe me! In a sense I prefer online classes ! Works for me a bit better!

[@ethellochrose6531]

End of first year😭 🍌We're all in this together🎶 You give me hope, love your videos. Wishing you all the happiness in the world ❤

[@chloemonette7427]

I only have one project left to do for the semester and I just can't get it done. I can see the finish line but I feel like I am crawling there. This whole virus thing is exhausting so don't be too hard on yourself. You're doing great!

[@along58]

I'm preparing for a PhD program, so your videos are perfect! Side note: Girrrrlllll!!!! Your skin and teeth are seriously like heaven! I seriously went and ordered some skin care after watching this! Lol

[@glamourcatherine5807]

🍌 You’re doing great girl!! Give yourself a break every so often so your mind can also rest ❤️ love the surgery on the banana lol

[@326Christine]

the surgery of Mr. Banana was great! 😂👏

[@emily-er3bp]

🍌 hey loved your vlog. spl the part that you shared emotions regarding not able to finish up things. It happens with all of us and the way we can get over it and start next day with full energy and get going is most important. Its kind of irritating sitting in this quarantine period. This video was motivating and a breath of fresh air 🍌😊

[@Verseabl]

crying wid you gorl you aint alone

[@trichmomma]

🍌You made it!!! Yay!! Your hard work got you through!!!!

[@rounitpathak]

First !! Tried making the coffee yesterday absolutely loved the creamy goodness 😀

[@fareshan41]

You’re soo beautiful 😭 don’t be sad 😭💛💛

[@annamariaagardi4167]

hey, I am at 2nd year and just wanted to say that if you dont't know when will you have the chance to do your finals, I think it's really important not to exhaust yourself till then...of course study to know what is going on...but just bare in mind not to be too extreme...save a little boost when it comes to the exames and you have to study the most to be at your peak (of mind) ....hope it makes sanse :) keep it up! ;)

[@hawazinys]

our schedule is the same exact one we used to follow in uni. lectures from 8 till 3! and then endless assignments and homeworks to make sure that the students are attending :(

[@arantxagarcia8233]

I’m a med student in México, this is my 8th semester and I still don’t know how to study, is a lot of information

[@mercedesstemm3101]

You seem like such a hard worker. It’s so sad to see you doubt yourself

[@L4ur4826]

You're blooming Kian😍

[@valiantzest]

stay strong kian!

[@sibongileseale1977]

You're doing so great Kian, I have no doubt you're an exceptional med student, congrats for crossing the end of 2nd finish line!! 🍌🍌🍌

[@tadbeer3090]

what I can suggest you from my experience is not to schedule every hour everyday. Try to be flexible enough so that you may go with the flow when required. These are uncertain times.

[@tanisha7958]

lol the intro was just a mood ;)

[@xinranliu3624]

🍌🍌🍌 Kian!! A 1st-year med student from UofT here. Your videos have been motivating me since I was a pre-med. I feel you! We definitely lack control over many aspects of our life at this strange time! Aside from what you have done, one thing I find helpful is to connect virtually with friends more often. Maybe zoom/facetime them during dinner cooking or e-exercise together. I want to let you know that you are trying hard and you are doing everything you could, and you really should be PROUD of yourself.❤️ Just keep going and keep growing! (P.S. I really really look forward to your video uploads every week - they are amazing✨)

[@katiegrenell5111]

wow i feel the same way. It's so frustrating. its so hard. i constantly feel like I'm behind and it's out of my control. like I'm not prepared or smart enough. and I'm trying so hard to exercise, make my bed, shower, sleep, clean, be creative... and my mental health is failing. my grades are dropping. ugh.

[@n.mimido249]

Omg ubc hoodie 😱 are you from Canada, bc?

[@studentdoctorjoanna1345]

You are doing well, cheer up!

[@amandawhelan1896]

Hi there! I have just accepted a place in medical school which is supposed to begin this September, however with the Covid-19 situation I believe they will be moving the course online for as long as needed. Just wondering if you have any advice for me, being this will be my first year in med school. Also, wondering if you have anything you could share about that meeting you had about the future of med school due to the virus. Thanks!

[@tatejones3164]

and that's on buoyancy!

[@briaslittlecorner5392]

We are all in this together!!!!🍌