VLOG: WHATEVER HAPPENED TO YOUR BEST FRIEND?

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Its worth noting that after all is said and done i would still do anything for my best friend. Even though we've not spoken in nearly two years.
My friendships are very important to me and the loss of my best friend has a been a great one.
Its funny what you miss most about someone. The small things. I miss singing in the car. I miss seeing his little face. I miss him telling me about his week. I guess i just miss him.
Tell me your stories in the comments section below.

[@roxieeyeleers4465]

Nobody has the right to make OUR lovely Wayne upset, ever, never ever! His loss. You are a wonderful man, and an outstanding MUA, drop-dead gorgeous, and you will always have our support. Love, Roxie

[@glittergirljmm]

That!Exactly.

[@giastake3492]

Roxie Eyeleers Ditto.Luv you Wayne....This doesn't change that which is singularly most important ultimately--YOU:)

[@PP-vs7xm]

I feel your sadness and want to give you a hug. I'm surprised you haven't had offers from many gorgeous men, either to be your lover or your friend. Instead of dwelling on the past, realize that he served a purpose in your life which has made you a better man so now you can meet someone much better for you. Good luck. And wear a knit cap when you go out in the cold!

[@lerooock]

agree +++

[@susanmoore369]

Agreed...

[@VashtiWood]

agreed

[@patricewassmann212]

+Aussie Flying Ace Hatred is degenerate. Love is divine.

[@patricewassmann212]

+Aussie Flying Ace Hatred is degenerate. Love is divine.

[@michellekelly2937]

A true friend is someone who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

[@michellekelly2937]

***** I heard someone say this once, and I never forgot it. It is so true. It's from a famous quote by Walter Winchell.

[@suew.1346]

I feel your pain. I was married for 23 years. I came home from my job one day and his closet was empty. That was in 2001. Not a day goes by that I don't think of what happened, what could I have done or not. After all these years I'm still hurt. Sucks . Never heard anything from this person since the day before he left. May 19, 2001. Sometimes there is no such thing as closure.

[@carolmelancon]

Some people have the pathologic ability to be incredibly charming "friends" when they need something from you, then drop you like a hot potato when they no longer require whatever it was. You can't blame yourself; they are great actors; you can only try to be relieved you found out as soon as you did and not pine over someone that doesn't deserve anything but your pity.

[@WhatKatjaDidNext]

Emotional vampires...

[@mmanda515]

Sadly, invested my everything in someone like that. From high-school.. when I was naive & fell for the charm love-bombing hook line & sinker.... >>FFW to 26 yrs later, a teenage son..... Like a switch he turns it off & walks out without a word. Taking evvvverything & THEN having the audacity to try & destroy me emotionally, financially & socially... when I won't take him back! Our son wants nothing to do with him & even tho we both have been total no contact for well over a year now... We've had to move, tell no one where we are & literally try to start over with less than nothing, alone w/ zero support............ yet he is STILL trying to harass, stalk/locate, gaslight, hoover & start his games all over again. With us BOTH. Esp for an empath type personality, be it friends, family OR an intimate partner/spouse.... The level of emotional manipulation & abuse.... phew, what a total mind fuc#. The absolute worst thing I've EVER been through!!! #thelittleshamanhealing #CNXG (2 great channels on the subject) #LifeCode #PsychopathFree (2 amazing books, EVERYONE should read, esp these days!!!! THIS type of stuff, since SO common... should be taught in schools!!!) ~Be well & TRUST YOUR GUT!!!!! Despite people trying to have you ignore, excuse, justify or reason away those instincts, I promise... they will never steer you wrong. It was amazing after I was out of that dense manipulative fog of utter bullshit he was spewing constantly.... how there had actually been HUGE RED FLAGS there, all the way back to DAY ONE!!! I was just conditioned over & over to not see 'em (or trust them) xoxo

[@CherylBerryl]

Carol Melancon Yup! & many of them fit under the category of being a narcissist, &/or sociopath. Often unresolved issues within ourselves gravitate people into our lives that reflect back to us those unresolved issues/traumas, until we've healed those issues/wounds, and are ready to move on to the next life lesson.

[@CherylBerryl]

mmanda515 You said it all! Yes! There are always the "red flags". Every person needs to learn about what they are so we don't let ppl like to into our lives in the first place. Another great source of information on this topic on KZbin is...Lisa A. Romano "The Breakthrough Life Coach". It is her specialty. She's awesome! However, as I commented to another person, often our family of origin dysfunctional dynamics, if not healed, is what attracts us to these ppl in the first place, whether a friend, or a lover. They are EXPERTS on "reeling people in". Psychotherapists do say that narcissists are attracted to & seek out the "emotional intuitive" person, bc they will tend to overlook some very bad traits in them, the "red flags" of the narcissist. They'll try to rather see "the good" in that person, further allowing the narcissist to sink their teeth into the emotional intuitive, thus the emotional manipulation & gas-lighting begins at an even more rapid pace. The emotional intuitive thinks, "I can help him/her, they've been through so much, I can save them!" The dance begins, until every ounce of a persons autonomy, & soul has been sucked out of them. The narcissist is so deeply emotionally wounded & empty inside, that they need to take everyone down with them. It's true that most of them have truly lived a childhood of abuse on many levels, and that is truly sad, but they never got help & once these deeply engraved patterns are solidified in them, there is usually no hope for them to truly ever be able to change.

[@MsButterflysting]

mmanda515 I'll have to check those out, thank you for sharing. I've found new tools as a similar type of personality as you, though different experiences from a known author & therapist named Lundy Bancroft. I don't have the link, as I've gone to a seminar & am collecting the books. These narcissistic people, because it isn't just men, I have a half-sister who is a psychopathic narcissistic anti-social personality that is a complete 180° from the rest of the family with no known cause & no abusive history other than what she does to others. I went to this seminar because of an ex boyfriend not unlike yours, in definition by the sound of it here. Except I had already been in an 11 year abusive marriage, so the foundation of manipulation & conditioning had been set, j thought my then 5 1/2yo & 2 1/2yo daughters weren't effected by this as much as they hadn't been directly involved in sight of the abuse. Apparently, not, it was essentially the perfect so to say storm to exploit from of my ex who used the premise of our background to conceal the fact that the following two years of dating/living with him, he had been slowly abusing/manipulating/conditioning me all over again & causing me to fall for his lies as to why my daughters behaviors were drastically changing. Hindsight is 20/20. The red flags are there, am so grateful I have the tools now to see a predator in those signals sent, he my ex boyfriend not my ex husband to be clear, exBF had been raping & videotaping my daughters for as far as we know from the date of the earliest tape from 6 months into the relationship. I ignored my gut with him, his profession was an actor/model/trainer of young people in those areas. Yes they're looking to see if he had more victims due to a past I knew nothing about. All the more reason it's not paranoia to do a quick background check on someone you let into your close lives, especially your children. I only share my story in hopes that if someone out there is too afraid to leave, please do before you get hurt worse. I say this to consider all angles with instinct & intellect, read the signs. Long comment, I apologize. Thank you all for your thoughts & sharing. Take heart, take care, be well.

[@jayflinn3333]

seeing someone that used to be so close to you, and now you cant even say hi to because he's practically a stranger IS THE WORST FEELING EVER

[@lolah8676]

that just happened to me with my brother... i know, that's crazy... i am desolated and he doesn't care at all, he just want a new life

[@kayper54]

My brother, too. I haven't seen or heard from him in 20 years. It took me a LOOOOOOOONG while to get over it, but at this point if he did suddenly decide to reconnect (he won't) I'm no longer interested. I don't have a brother anymore.

[@TiffanyAnestassia]

I had a friendship end after 24 years (I'm 29 now). We always had great fun together and obviously had tons of memories, but there so many times she would make backhanded comments that honestly devastated me. But since there was so much history, I just rolled with it and moved on. It was when I got pregnant after trying for 6 years that she had said something to me that made me cut all ties. I had enough. She of course blew up my phone, had her mother message me saying how disappointed she was in me for letting go of a friendship that had lasted 20+ years. But when you're done you're done. I pretty much lost all my friends in one go, but I learned a lot about my "friends". It is hard. Like you, I do think of her everyday. Having a friend like that for so long, you don't realize how much they were apart of your life until they're gone. While I don't regret my decision, I do miss her, but I've accepted that she is my past, and that I'm better off without her. Much love Wayne.

[@jodejette]

Sounds to me like you drew a healthy boundary and, painfully, came to your senses. You are still young and this will pass. Always there will be a scar, but your life is really just beginning.

[@janicecoulson5388]

My friend of 50 years hurt me. I still can’t understand why she did it

[@lisas2538]

Tiffany Offord Thanks for sharing. You sound like a sweet person. Good luck.

[@judithmorgan1718]

dittos

[@oppablu105]

Same. We hear from others that friends pick on each other and fight and that's normal, but only when it's occasionally. Not every fucking second of the day. It was so hard to finally accept that I was just being treated as a joke and emotional punching bag and get out. As you said the fun memories are the hardest. But I remember clearer now, it was all shit and lies.

[@erichajohansson5018]

Wayne, I recognise so much of what you're saying here. About 6 years ago now I had an experience like this with one of my "friends". We decided to live together so he could afford moving out of his parents' house,, but it ended up being me who paid for all of our utilities, most of the time the rent (and a 2br apartment in Vancouver isn't cheap), and did all the cleaning while he was out wasting the money he only had because I paid for everything else on his girlfriend. He repaid me by, without a single words notice, moving out. I came home from work hearing my terrified cats crying through the door, and when I opened it I saw that he had left and taken all of my furniture with him. He left me his old broken 15" TV and a bedside table, plus a little note saying I could sell his stuff to pay for his half of the rent. When I asked him when he was planning on returning my furniture he called me a "materialistic bitch". That was the last drop. I had had it! I hung up the phone and I never spoke to him again. Not even a year later, after his girlfriend had left him, he tried to weasel his way back into my life, but I refused. I wouldn't even reply him. He tried to get some of our common friends to convince me to talk to him again, but I told them that I will never put up with such BS again, or allow myself to be taken advantage of by losers. I can't tell you how much better my life has been sense. It is such a relief to not have people like that in my life anymore. You need to do the same; Cut that asshole out of your life, your head and your heart and you will feel so relieved and great. Nearly my whole life had I let people take advantage of me like that; my parents, siblings, relatives, boyfriends, friends, and it gave me nothing but heart ache and stress. Money you lend them ends up being "given" to them, and no matter how many times you are their crutch or lend your shoulder for them to cry on they will never do the same back. They will never change either; they are like addict. Because we are there for them no matter how they behave they have no reason to change. They will come back when they need a "pick me up session" and be gone again once they've gotten what they came for. We are both too good to waste our lives on the likes of them. Let yourself be happy. Let yourself be free.

[@paulaslife3781]

Ericha Johansson HERE HERE 👏👏👏👏

[@katekursive1370]

Friendship breakups for me are waaaaay worse than romantic ones

[@tooniemama6959]

I respect your openness and honesty. It's easy to see that you are a very giving, kind and loving person, and usually those are the types of people who get hurt the most (myself included). Relationships are difficult at times, and sometimes it's best to walk away from something or some"one" who does not serve you well anymore. As painful as it is, you will thank yourself later. I went through a very painful break-up after a long relationship many years ago, and I have learned so much from that experience. I kinda went through a similar experience as you did about a year ago. There was a friend of mine who just started distancing herself from me, for some unknown reason. I was going through a lot at the time; I had just lost my Mother. Months would go by and I would not hear from my friend, and that was very hurtful to me. One day when I asked if if anything was wrong, she said "nothing" was wrong. After that day, I felt she was still being distant, so I stopped trying to be a friend to her, and just stopped communicating with her, and she didn't seem to care either. I did see her in public a couple of times, and I had that "heart pounding" moment like you did, and it took me a few days to calm down because seeing her made me very upset. Sometimes, when you go through tough times, you learn who your "real" friends are. I have since moved to another state, so it's a good thing, I suppose because I don't have that worry of ever running into her in public. Just know in your heart that things WILL get better and you will meet someone who "deserves" your friendship!! Best wishes!! xox

[@tiinamyalterego7397]

For me, it feel's like a death when a person you are so close with leaves one behind. I've been through it a number of times and it still hurts that i cant call and hear about there day or tell about mine. So yeah, it's a big loss :-( Big hugs to you Wayne!!!

[@hope2nou95]

I just hope when he realizes what he lost you are strong enough to walk away. You are special and you deserve someone who deserves you.

[@WahaSawas]

I almost choked for a moment when you mentioned that not a day passes you never think of him. Same thing with me.

[@annomaly751]

Waha Sawas me too

[@Christina_S.]

Wayne! I think so many of us can relate to your story and I really appreciate the fact that you share something so personal with all of us with no reservations at all. Instead of telling my very similar story, I just wanted to say that when we try very hard to belong to someone and our effort isn't shared or recognized, and/or appreciated - we probably don't belong there. We are just a peace of a different puzzle. Even if you were able to keep that relationship going, it would probably do you more harm than good in the long run. If you asked me, I would tell you to take all the good out of that experience, forget the bad, and remember that you were the "better" one because you did the right thing by giving him another chance. He wasted the opportunity you gave him and saved you the trouble of paying for therapy many years down the road, were you to stay in that relationship. And I could be wrong, but I am almost 100% certain that the gentleman in question will one day be in your shoes. And you definitely need one of those Russian hats to keep you warm! :) ❤❤❤ Much love from a Russian/Canadian follower... P.S. Completely off topic. 1. Love your glasses! 2. I've been following you for a few years now, and your transformation (physical and mental) is very addictive. You've made me question many things in my life and make a couple of changes as well. Thank you very much for your vlogs and random chatting bits in your videos.

[@lolah8676]

your words have touched my heart, so true!

[@Christina_S.]

+Lola H It's very comforting to me as well to know that so many of us can relate to each other, Lola... :) Sometimes, even a stranger's words can make all the difference in someone's day or even life, although it almost feels like none of us are strangers to each other, since we all follow the same person. It must mean that we have more in common than we might think. If you went through something similar in the past or are going through it now, I am wishing you strength to be able to see farther down the road. Better and happier life awaits us in the future when we are able to let go of someone else's present instead of desperately trying to make it ours. I spent almost 5 years not being able to "let go" and I was never strong enough to make that decision. Finally, circumstances in my life left me no choice. Only now I understand that staying in such relationships is equivalent to insisting on being sick when someone offers you a pill to make you better and happier. Unfortunately, it is very had to see it that way when you are the one being sick, but words and actions of good friends and caring people could help to pull us out of those black holes. ❤Hugs from Canada... :) xox

[@lolah8676]

You are such inspiring, hugs to you as well! :)

[@kellygrubaugh6320]

Thanks Christina S., I needed those words as well.

[@janetftheapes]

Can I just say, the feeling I get when you speak of this person is a sort of grief. The knowing that this relationship had its time but now, well it's just an empty feeling (and empty is hard). Love your blogs, Jan XOX

[@charleyh7263]

I've had a similar situation. Going from speaking to someone for hours daily to then no contact. There was no real reason either which made it odd. Initially it felt like grieving but now 8 years later I genuinely don't give that person a second thought. I actually laugh over it now for how hard I took it. Lots of love to you x

[@mindfuleats4517]

Do you believe in the mandela effect? I have seen so many people change that it makes me wonder if e are indeed shifting between timelines. How someone who is your best friend for decades can dump you for no apparent reason , seems inexplicable...

[@oppablu105]

@@mindfuleats4517 that's an insensitive comment. To someone who went a traumatic break up after years long friendship it can induce derealization.

[@MidnightMajesty]

I've had several friendships end, always for the same reason. I give and give and then when I need help suddenly they aren't there for me. It's all fun and games until you need support and then you find out how one sided everything was

[@humsabmagluhain]

I totally agree with you. I've had this same situation. But now am totally friendless and happy. I feel alone sometimes but it's really comforting knowing that nobody is taking advantage of you and you are not being fooled around.

[@EphemeralProductions]

Hate to seem like an asshole, and I hope I don't, but I have the same issue (or have in the past, rather) and from what I've learnt about it over the years, it sadly is "our bad" and partly a reflection on us. We have to learn, first of all, to not give and give and give, because it's not good for us, and people almost ALWAYS will fall into a rut of taking advantage of it; it just appears to be human nature. We have to learn to say "no" sometimes (hard as it may be), and then learn to feel out when someone is taking advantage, or is not being there for US when we need it, and stand up and say "hold the phone, Jack; this has to change".

[@gypsysnickerdoodle4354]

I get that… I discovered that *some people resent it when you do anything decent for them* They literally resent you for being a better friend to them than THEY KNOW they deserve. They know they are a shitty person & know they secretly resent you for not treating them the way they know they would treat you

[@Celenite384]

I had a best friend for 10 years. He came on to me about 3 years ago and I didn't return that kind of affection. He changed with me after that. I miss him terribly. I think about him everyday. I know that if he needed anything I would be there.

[@fave525]

This is exactly why I don't have friends. I hate it when people I feel comfortable around and like talking to fall in love and just cut me out. I hated it when my BFF met a guy and jut forgot about me, but years later she asks me why we don't hang out anymore. I hate to always be the shoulder to cry on and when I need to talk to someone, nobody's there. If I'm always by myself anyway, I don't need "friends" who would make me feel even more lonely.

[@saron9494]

those are exactly my thoughts

[@Darima2]

I feel you. Girls have a majour tendency to do this which I've never understood, what does one relationship have to do with the other?? I understand spending more time together when u fall in love but to ditch the people who have been there for you is just so flaky. I feel like it's cause they feel they have to prove to the guy that he is more important than anyone in their lives, otherwise they'll lose him which is ridiculous if someone expects you to do that for them. I've heard of women even shutting out their families and even kids for their men. its pathetic.

[@bambis46]

People ALWAYS tell us, who they are, sometimes we need more than one conversation to REALLY hear them. As in an abusive relationship, after it ends people say "the signs were there", but the victim chose not to listen. You knew he was going to be a jerk again, but you missed the good times and the rose coloured glass memories. I had a DEAR friend for many years. Then she started being aloof. A mutual friend told me that my friend was fed up that I couldn't go out as much as I used to. Because I was I'll and had just been diagnosed with cancer!! I was VERY upset about that. But after a month or so, I wrote her a letter saying I missed her and we should go and talk. Nothing! Then my dad died, who she adored. Not a card or phone call. Now this time it was I that was done & will remain so. I think of our good times - here and there. But I have enough friends in my life, that are there for me through the bad. It hurts when you have someone hurt your heart like this. Sending you hugs!

[@geraldinemitchell1324]

It's painful, but it's his loss, nice people always get hurt the most

[@sbrown6798]

Geraldine Mitchell that’s the truth.

[@EphemeralProductions]

because it appears to be human nature to just take advantage of nicety when it's shown to you over and over. It sucks, but that's really how it appears to be.

[@lindsaystamm1623]

I understand how you feel. I miss my best friend but she was very toxic in my life. I did alot for her and kept making excuses for her actions. I finally realized that she was dragging me into her chaos and narcissistic lifestyle and I had to back away. I have children and I don't as much as I love her still and wanted better for her she just kept creating drama for herself and was getting in trouble, making bad choices at age 31. There just comes a time when I have to look at The Big picture and send my love and compassion from afar. It's sad but she was starting to involve me and turn on me for reasons I can't explain. It does hurt because I have seen her pick herself up just to fall again so many times and always supported her until she betrayed me and misconstrued my words and broke my trust. It would never be the same because of the hurt I endured.

[@RabiyaLone]

You just hit the nail on the head with you comment. Some ppl r just toxic, and negative, and just are unhappy and have some sort of a complex whether inferiority or just social one way or another, after having kids, I find ppl like that bring my energy down, and I find myself more involved in petty shit and get distracted away from the ones who really need me and love and care for me.

[@danielardh]

He is probably dealing with things either he doesn't wasn't to tell you or he doesn't want to confront himself. It's not you It's them as long as you know you have been a truly good friend. At least that's how I view these types of situations which has happened to me too. I think it's a a process of life to learn to let go of some things or people.

[@mgmbtrfly6644]

I have only recently (two months or so) started following your KZbin blogs and tutorials but honestly, I just love you so much! You are so raw and genuine and sincere not to mention hysterically funny at times. My heart breaks for you when you sound so sad.I'm sorry that your friend hurt you. I had a similar experience several years ago and although the pain of it eased somewhat, I do think if my friend often and the hurt is still there. Please know that you are incredibly beautiful inside and out. Hugs and love to you

[@Michelle-dy6dw]

I can relate. I've had this happen to me both in a platonic friendship and a few romantic ones. Its gotten to the point that I am totally closed off and feel I cant trust anyone.

[@SLPtoMD]

I really like the saying "People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime." Every time something happens with a friend, whether we drift apart or I'm cut out of their life, or we have a fight or whatever, I always try to look at it from that point of view. It's not easy, but I thank them (to myself) for teaching me the lessons I've learned and move forward with greater knowledge for my next relationships with people.

[@TracyD2]

I have to remember that saying.

[@blubutterfly04]

I love that saying too. People evolve, they grow out of relationships. We just have to cherish the good times and wish them well.

[@SLPtoMD]

+blubutterfly04 Exactly!

[@notimeforthebullsh]

I'll be your best friend! I adore you, and ironically, I don't even wear much makeup. I just enjoy watching your videos for years now.

[@kellylittleton123]

Wayne, I am so sorry to hear about your loss, and hope that you have found someone who you can trust and count on for support. Your videos are amazing, I learn so much from you, and can tell that you are a really wonderful and kind person. Thank you for sharing yourself, your talent, and your humor with us! Also love your signature wink at the end of your videos! Best wishes and regards, Kelly from Santa Monica, CA, USA

[@artcika]

You know, Wayne, i only needed a friend or two to realise that a real friendship doesn't count on how many times you talk or meet, it's about that connection that you still have even after months not seeing each other or talking. But that one time you meet up feels like the last one happened just yesterday. I only had a "best friend" when i was a small child. Now i don't even know what she does. Most of the other "friends" were usually those that just blatantly used me and hang around just because there was none else at that moment. When I was in the middle of high school years, i realised it's pointless to try and make friends with people who only are "friends" when they need you. That's probably why i only have a small handful of them now. People can be assholes and some of them just change. And it is hard to let go, but it's worth it, cuz a lot of the time their job is done.All they were there for was teaching you lessons and shaping you as a person, not being that one that appreciates it.

[@MissNLucero]

I have no friends now, but it honestly only hurts in the beginning. Now look back thinking how I even could let myself be so sad being around them all the time. It was for the better to go my own way.

[@lulitalulu4715]

Really? What do you do for socializing & going out? I'm not being rude, I'm just wondering. I became distant because of financial problems, I couldn't go out at all, I still can't. I think that company makes time go faster. I'm very selfless in friendships, I let them speak about themselves mostly & i don't care if the don't ask about me & for some odd reason people trust you that way, but it makes you very forgettable.

[@MissNLucero]

No, not a rude question at all :) Well I work with kids, so when I get home I'm really tired so wouldn't have had any energy to go out anyways. During the weekend I take the time to get my energy back on Saturday, sleep in, cuddle with pets, KZbin and tv catching up, shop for the week. Then it's the evening so book time!! :D And so Sunday morning: Any thing I want! Fresh bread? Take a trip to the nearest bakery! A bit of geocaching? Retail therapy? The sky, the distance, and anything too physical is the limit! (it's Sunday! I want to be lazy! ^^) And it's now woodcutting season so that has to be done a few hours every weekend before midsummer if we want dry wood for the winter! So that's my schedule and I love not having to constantly compromise my wants and plans for anyone else, because I was not ever in the mood for the drama of trying to once in a while get my plans through. :)

[@patricewassmann212]

These hurts take a very long time to heal. Someone who I thought was my BFF ditched me when my husband left me for another woman. That was over 20 years ago now & it still baffles me & hurts me, but eventually it becomes a smaller & smaller thing in one's life & you don't think about it very often. Sending you hugs. This 60 year old lady has a big crush on you, I think you are fab!!!

[@rachelseuphoria85]

This is so well spoken out. You understand your thoughts so well and I admire that. As well as how compassionate and strong you are. All the best xxx

[@NeonPegasus]

You have no idea how much I feel you. Friendship break ups are not talked about enough and they are just as horrible as a relationship that falls apart. Many hugs.

[@jeanniemk72]

I understand your feelings. It happens to the best of us. Sometimes tears roll down my cheeks when I think of friends I have lost along the way for whatever reason. Then I tell myself "they are meant to be OUT of my life." Hugs to you from WI USA.

[@sofiahoffman4173]

Angelface,you are sooo welcome in Greece! Sunny all year!

[@courtnea14]

Thank you for sharing these personal stories about your best friend. I'm sorry for your loss of that friendship. I've had several friendships end after many years for one reason or another. It literally breaks your heart. Then I realize these people were not true friends and I move on. My best friend of 36yrs is a true blessing and I will never take it for granted. I wish you a lifelong friendship. There is nothing like it! :)

[@asmrsolei]

I know that feeling of meeting someone in public who used to be your best friend and not approaching them. The only way to get over it is knowing yes you shared great moments but you weren't abe to see through them very well. And you after all don't want smeone who's only happy to be your friend as long as they are the only one you talk to, as long as you're not more successful. It took me a few years to come to this but once it happens it's a great relief.

[@kj23000]

Also, idk why but in this video alone, I can see a mixture of Tom Hiddleston, Gary Oldman and (don't even ask) Simon Pegg on his face

[@nurulfazilahmk]

omg Tom Hiddleston YES! finally someone said it :D

[@adumelial]

Kamna I agree. And I love LOVE both Gary Oldman and Tom Hiddston. Possibly why I am following Wayne though I am a straight married woman that just stumbled upon his lazer video and liked what h had to say.

[@elliekelli]

Kamna Joshi Omg me too😁Funny the way we see different things in people in certain lights and different days 😊

[@NDiaz-et6hc]

I hear you Wayne, when I realized my "best friend" (1988 - 2004) wasn't in fact a friend at all --- I was always ready to help her whatever she needed, whenever she needed me --- however I woke up one day and realized this was not a friendship, she was using me. I cried and cried ...I mean I was weeping the death of the idea of a friendship that had perhaps never existed and it was beyond painful...you see for me, friendship is sacred. So I suggest you to think of it this way Wayne --- you have NOT lost a friend, but he has...I don't know if this helpful but I hope so. Xx

[@brandispry576]

It is completely like a death of a loved one. It's so hard to try and comprehend why someone wouldn't put as much effort into a friendship as you would.

[@moevervaet616]

its rough dealing with people you care about treating you poorly. you gave himanother chancd which shows what an amazing kind person you are. now there's space in your life for someone better way better to come along

[@tammiebachlor7616]

Ya are a precious person and never let anyone steal your joy. Love your videos, but most of all your heart. BIG BIG HUGS

[@mirkat7506]

My ex and I broke up and my best friend completely alienated me afterward and I still have no idea why but it's better I don't have those toxic people in my life anymore

[@IgnoranceAverse]

I had a "friend" who left when I was ill. The entire situation was cruel. The funny thing is that the initial feeling I got from her was not good. When I look back on the failed friendships I've had, I can recall having an instinctual bad first impression from them. It was either initially or shortly after meeting them. You have to pay attention to people because they'll show you who they are, and it doesn't take long.

[@chellelaw667]

When I read your comment I was going "uh huh, uh huh!" I've had that exact feeling upon first meeting. Gut instincts do not deceive us!

[@IgnoranceAverse]

Michelle Law LOL! They really don't deceive us. I can't tell you how many times I got into trouble when I didn't listen to my instincts 🙁.

[@strawberry1025]

+Coco H I completely agree with you. I have since learnt that the saying 'The end is in the beginning' is absolutely true. People tell you, show you, unwittingly who they really are very early on. If not in how they treat us [yet] then in how they are treating others. It really pays to heed those cues.

[@Riververchi]

+Coco H Sometimes, I think it is important to go back and ask people "why?". If they will answer you with what you were probably already been thinking all the time - the worst thing, you will just prove yourself right and move on. But. There can also be a *TOTALLY DIFFERENT explanation.* People can think they are doing right thing while they aren't. They might think "If I wont be around her, she wont see pity in my eyes and will recover quicker, stronger"..or that they felt they had not enough love to give you..or was just simply scared.. Who knows...just ask why sometimes.

[@IgnoranceAverse]

***** Hello :-). I have asked why and the answer(s) weren't surprising because by that time I've thought about our relationship, our compatibility as friends, and the person's beliefs. We weren't a good match as friends. I've realized that there was something in me that I needed to correct, because I let people stay in my life that shouldn't have been there. Fortunately, I've fixed that part of myself and I can tell rather quickly if I would be a good friend to someone and vice versa. Time is too precious to spend it with the wrong people.

[@pfez80]

You seem like such a lovely person, Wayne--the kind of friend that anyone would be blessed to have. I know you will find even more peace with this loss as time goes on and as you continue to show yourself love and kindness--the kind you so richly deserve to experience in relationships with others. Be good to yourself, and I am certain that the decency you seek in others will start to manifest in those around you. The void is simply there now to create space for even more love to flow into your life. Much love and best wishes!

[@victoriacattaneo5493]

Oh honey. I feel for you. Lost my best friend of over 15 years about 3 years ago. She just decided I wasn't important in her life anymore and we haven't spoken since. Breaks my heart to this day. It was senseless. 😢😢

[@lisaland5930]

Hi Wayne! I had to end my relationship with my Aunt who happened to be my best friend for most of my adult life. We have not communicated in four years. I think about her often, but feel strongly I have made the correct decision. Like you, I gave her a second chance only to be disappointed. Thank you for sharing! - Lisa. :)

[@naimorgs]

Some friends are for life Some for a decade Some for a season True true true!!!!! And it makes them no less important!!!! Different people come in and out of your life for good reason. Keep smiling x

[@danielsmith79]

Sorry but he was never been your "Best Friend" in the first place.. Shut your doors and erase him from your memories..THere are 7 billion people around waiting to connect to your beautiful soul...

[@deniselamy-grosteffon2739]

Your a very good man, I love your honesty, I have realized you can't help who you love, it's always there, I try to think to myself I'm just happy that I felt such a tremendous love for someone. Thank you for being so brutally honest about it to the vlog world lol!

[@colormegrape]

I love you so much Wayne. I feel horrible for you that you still have to live with that. Many do with divorces, failed relationships, etc., but to have someone lead you on and then fail again....I'm really sorry. Thanks for the honesty!!!

[@mschelly17]

I think people change sometimes and we outgrow relationships. People who want to be a part of your life will be a part of your life. You don't have to force or beg them. I think the way the situation worked out is for the best.

[@janmc4744]

Hi Wayne. The depth of your emotions demonstrate your capacity to love and care profoundly. Anyone in relationship with you has the tremendous blessing and privilege of being the recipient of such a wonderful gift. Knowing this of and within yourself serves to prepare you for that special individual who recognizes and cherishes your qualities, and respects you enough to meet you where you SHINE! Seriously, you're truly impressive and BRILLIANT on so many levels.

[@angelinaross2654]

I've been there. What's comforting is that other commenters went through similar situations. I hope you and all the lovely people have find enriching friendships.

[@CandiceMarquette]

In my experience it takes about 4 years to get past the worst and then you notice you haven't thought about them in a few days. The day's become months and the memories become fuzzy. The scar can be reopened if you remember the split but it does get better.

[@mia388]

Sydney is always a good idea Wayne 😉😉 lots of sunshine and love for you here xx

[@donnaa7823]

Wow, Mr. Goss. I've been watching your tutorials to learn new and better ways of proper makeup application and have learned a great deal. Thank you for being so down-to-earth and amazingly honest in your teachings and product reviews, you've an amazing personality. Now, that being said , while watching your videos I came across this one about your best friend. I can truly relate on every level and know wholeheartedly how it can affect pretty much everything in your life. Sadness, longing, memories do linger but know that it does get better as time passes. My mother would always say that what doesn't kill us surely makes us stronger. Your story touched my soul and I wish you nothing but good things and good people in your life. Take care of you as only you know what your heart needs to heal. With respect and best wishes. Donna A.

[@GG-yn6jw]

I'm so sorry you went through that Wayne you seem like such an incredibly awesome person no one deserves to have their emotions played with you have my support

[@shawnakane6050]

I'm soooo sorry Wayne! Hugs! U are su lovely and don't deserve that!

[@haleylauren2814]

wayne looks so great here!!

[@balletbonnie01]

You are such a kind, sensitive human being. and it hurts me to see your. hurting. I wish was there so I could give you a huge hug (virtually). Know you are loved by so many people

[@loristewart3953]

Thank you for sharing this personal side of you. It helps all of us feel that we are not alone in life, and that there are people who are kind such as yourself. I feel things happen for a reason, we try to learn from the experiences, and then try to move forward. From what you have shown us through these videos, you have moved forward very well. You are awesome, don't ever forget it!

[@bellamac3500]

I had a best friend since I was 11 years old. We done everything together. I loved her like a sister. Then when we were about 24 she got engaged to a guy, who is now her husband. She asked me to be bridesmaid which I gladly accepted. One night we were all having a drink for my friends birthday. She got drunk and went home, her fiancé stayed on. We were all great friends so I never thought nothing of it. It ended up that I went to bed but her fiancé came into my room about 15 minutes later and put his hands down my pants. I woke very upset and threw him out of the house. The next day her fiancé came round and begged me not to tell my friend. I agreed as I didn't want to break up a relationship. But a few days passed and I knew in my heart I had to tell her and so I did. Needless to say, she took his side and blamed me for his actions. That was 8 years ago and to this day I think about her often with great sadness and loss. I hope he was worth it!

[@mindfuleats4517]

they always shoot the messenger

[@AC-tn1cy]

Bella Mac He probably wasnt worth it and she regrets taking his side. If she doesn't regret it, she wasn't a good friend after all.

[@PatriciaGarcia-ip6ge]

Bella Mac girl it always is like that. That's why when I hear a friend's husband is screwing around I keep it to myself because we know our friends are smart and she knows her husband is a cheater. That is why they don't want to hear it because then they have to do something about it and it's easier to blame the person who exposed the cheater to her. It's so typical. Some women are scared to be alone me I have been single for about 7 years and happy as can be. I had cheater boyfriend's and they just aren't worth the time. So don't think you did anything wrong g by telling her. She is in denial. If it wasn't you who threw him out he will find someone who won't throw him out. Once a cheater always a cheater. Patricia

[@claudettewells1807]

Bella, sometimes the fear of being alone is too great. I believe she knows who he is and who you are. I also believe that she loves and cares about you despite you being out of her life. There are many reasons why women or men drop their loyal friends and some of it, is poor character and some of it, is trauma. When people have been abandoned as child, that trauma needs to be resolved. Now...I am not making excuses for her, I just wanted to shed a different perspective because I used to be one of these individuals. Blessings to you.

[@emilyme05]

Geez Wayne, how this could happen to an awesome person like you just shows how flaky people can be. I've had a best friend in my past who I grew up with since childhood. She got married and shoved me out of her life. We reconnected years later and we both had become such different people. It's really sad when we lose people who we love in our lives. It's more sad when you're that person. I believe we both with find someone even better than our last best friends because of how much we are able to give. Cheers Love....xoxo

[@makeupmentality9421]

I think that was so supercool of you to even give him another chance. I totally get that feeling of when nothing is left anymore, it feels kind of pointless to try after awhile. Actually I have been dealing with this myself for years, and we haven't spoken in years, but I think toxicity is something that no matter where it comes from, needs to be stopped and cut out, rather quickly. The problem with me, was that, lies were constantly being told, and I also went through a period of feeling smothered and I can't deal with that. I think sometimes, we as humans, can care about people and even what they go through, but from a distance . I have had virtually zero contact with this person for years, and it is a bit of a shame, but I just don't think people should be crapped on, and taken advantage of. I respect myself too much to take that. And on another note, you are beyond awesome. Your heart is like, so huge it's so obvious .

[@lisaborsella5412]

And also, there are so many people who would be so blessed to have you as a friend, myself included. I watch all of your videos, and learn so much from you, and when I am in bed in pain, and can not move, and I feel like giving up, I just tune in to my favorite guy. YOU of course

[@turningbacktheclock5304]

My best friend and I broke up about five years ago now when she changed career paths. Its such a strange thing to go from having this person calling / emailing / texting every single day for 20+ years - to nothing at all. Complete silence. She broke up with me. I suppose she felt she had a new circle of friends? It felt kind of like she had died, except of course she didn't. Surreal. I mourned the loss of the friendship for a long time and I don't consider myself to have a new best friend. I just have friendly acquaintances these days.

[@geralyn2011]

So sad and hard

[@esterixis]

+TurningBackTheClock, I had the same experience, but I was the one who ended the friendship. We were nurses together, traveled together, etc. She became an attorney & her personality changed 180 degrees. Became very aggressive, very "me" driven. Totally so not me, philosophically. I slowly withdrew from her, & as much as it hurt early on, it was one of the best moves I ever made. I wish her well, but don't need that type of person in my life.

[@kj23000]

When i was in 2nd grade, i had a best friend, who would continue to be so for seven years (till 8th grade). We used to live near each other so we were close. We were on the same bus that drove us to and from school. In those days, we were inseparable. To the point where people asked if we were sisters when in reality, we didn't have a single feature in common. I should point out that in those 7 years, sometimes, we weren't in the same class. So we could only talk to each other during the bus ride, recess and anytime in the evening. Come 9th grade and i shift houses. Moved to the outskirts of the city. So obviously, buses also changed. Can you imagine, 7 years of childhood friendship gone in a year and a half because we weren't in the same places. I put in effort into the friendship because she was the only one i was comfortable around. So when she would go off with other people and leave me behind with my classmates, i changed. i shut myself, cracked jokes and laughed like 24/7 in front of everyone just so they think that im fine. It gives me anxiety to think that the time i spent trying to maintain that friendship was not even acknowledged. to think that because of a minor thing like "location", i would entirely stop talking to someone. I'm 20 now. I still talk to my classmates, who became my best friends in a short time, even thought we're in different countries. I was scared to open myself up to my friends in college. But i don't regret doing it. Because these friends that i made in college, truly do care about me, and I, about them. I still think the main reason that i have trust issues, or anxiety about opening myself up stems from that childhood friendship, that adults deemed it to be insignificant ( one of the few times i actually talked about it and got told that I should worry about better things😒) tl;dr Bad childhood friendship continues to affect the current mental state of a 20 year old child.

[@Blaqueasian]

Reason, Seasons, Lifetime. Those are the 3 types of friendship. They are there for a particular REASON, once done both part ways. SEASONS, they come in for a while, like your friend did, once whatever is needed to be gained is gained and you both part ways.LIFETIME is what we all look for in every friendship but in the end if you are lucky to have one you are a true winner. As we get older life takes over, takes us into different directions. It would be so lovely to have just one true ride or die but in the end it's the experiences we have with each one that will remain. Just very hurtful when the hurt happens.

[@christophergsheppard]

You are so genuine. Sadly sometimes people are short sighted about relationships and drop the people that have been there longer than most of the relationships they have been in as soon as someone new comes along. The best one can do is to learn from it.

[@olessia17]

Move to California, Wayne! Plenty of sunshine here for you! xoxo

[@madisonculp9070]

Just yesterday my best friend and I got in a huge fight and it's the worst fight we've ever had. The thing that made me mad was thinking about all the other little things she's done to me. She would lie to me and make me feel awful about myself. We were both jealous of each other. She brings me down. I constantly wonder if I'm a good enough friend, or if the reason she didn't answer my text was because she was mad at me. People have told me that she's a horrible friend to me and they always ask why I'm still friends with her. I don't know. Truthfully, I have no clue. I have never loved anyone the same way I love her. I would die for her. Sometimes I just feel like I put so much effort into a friendship she doesn't seem to want. I don't want to be the one to go back to her every time we fight. For once I want her to make an effort. I want her to realize how much she means to me and how bad it feels to be treated this way.

[@linaguzman6784]

It's SO sad! I've been in that same situation. You will never stop thinking about them, and you're right, you will always be there if he needs you. Everything happens for a reason. You're better off - be strong.

[@elizabethb.intexas9306]

I understand, been there. It is a very painful situation to go through. You deserve better for you. It will happen with the right person. Hang in there!

[@amylouwho8991]

I've had the same best friend for 28 years. Sometimes we would go a couple years without speaking, mainly because she moved a lot and this was before cell phones, but every time we would meet back up like not a day has past. Friendships like that are few and far between but we live in different states so we do the best we can. I cannot count the amount of "friends" or close friends who have cycled though my adult life, some I thought would be around forever just to turn around and ignore me. It's always hard when someone you feel you had a deep connection with decides for some reason to leave your life but now I just tell myself that some people are here for just a season of my life not meant to be a permanent part. These people are here for me to learn something from or to learn something from me then move on. It doesn't make it hurt any less but makes it easier to deal with. Some people are just broken and we can't fix them no matter how much we want to.

[@BootsieDior74]

Oh Wayne bless your beautiful heart. You truly are one very compassionate and gentle soul. You did the right thing. No matter how painful it was/is, you had to remove yourself from the equation. You cannot be treated in a manner that is unkind or be taken advantage of. When we are the giving kind we tend to be attracted to the takers. It is just a sick joke I feel. But after a while we truly see who deserves what we give and who doesn't. You my dear deserve all the happiness and love in the world. It is always tough losing a friend. If they bring us down or bring toxic situations to our life then the only option is to end the friendship. I hope that pain you feel lessens soon. You are amazing and I pray that you heal asap. God Bless you my friend. Lots of love to you always.....~Miranda

[@MA-fr3dv]

Hey sweetie, been in your shoes too, its been 3.5 yrs now and I feel more secure ive made the best decision to respect and love myself& set healthy boundaries w/ bff's.. the healing comes as I allow the space for my ♥ to be loved and appreciated in healthy relationships. -- I send you lots of warms hugs and blessings♡

[@glam_6979]

Love you sweetie! You'll find a much better friend soon, I understand your whole situation here too, I also lost a really good friend maybe 5 years ago now,, it hurt and I still think about her every once in awhile, but I really hope everything turns out so much more better for you, I know it will 😊❤️

[@Darclouu]

Im always that friend that gives people second third fourth chances... and still get picked up and dropped like a lemon :(

[@Riververchi]

Everything is going to be allright Wayne. It is yet to come. I promise, promise, promise!

[@Saniniq]

Gosh he really deserves the world! he's sooo kind and lovely!

[@Sashas-mom]

Of course you decided to meet up because you're a sweetheart! Love going on walks with you Wayne you're adorable! I love your personality & your vulnerability so I gotta tell you listen when he tells you AND shows you who he really is!!

[@barbaramcnamara1539]

If you need a best friend..I will listen!

[@squalloogal]

Come to Australia. Sunny, interesting & new possibilities (including people). Come get warmed inside and out.

[@8ballthecat737]

This was so helpful to hear Wayne, I'm going through something very similar. Hopefully we can be grateful for the lessons we learn from them, even if that lesson is that all things come to end. Bittersweet. All my love.

[@sadartemin]

very similar thing happened and I feel exactly the same way as you. But what I came to realise is I deserve better. And you deserve the best! as one of the comments said, no one has the right to make our lovely Wayne unhappy. so many people here love u so very much!

[@AlucardPeach]

I'm in my late 30s. I moved away from my hometown when I was 16 with my folks, leaving my best friend behind. I tried to keep in contact and visit as often as I could. We are both very poor, but I realized I was the only one trying to get together. 22 years I visited her countless times, even though sometimes there was 6-8 year intervals where it was impossible. I saw her a few months ago for the first time in many years (I now had a 6 year old she'd never met) & she talked about being so excited that i was coming to visit... But I got there and she couldn't be bothered to get off of her couch. I needed to tell her that I was diagnosed with a fatal disease - but I didn't want to do it in her house with everyone around, and I begged her to take a ride with me and she wouldn't. Plus she's become someone so full of judgement and hate I never told her I was sick. Just that we obviously don't know each other anymore. We'd been best friends for over 20 years, and I am so broken up inside but I'm learning that I need to let go.

[@norma9134]

Been there. Had a friend bottle up a lot of petty bs and explode all over me out of a clear blue sky. After the blow up we talked things out and were okay - or so I thought. She said she was okay and then proceeded to never call or email me again. I contacted her a few times asking what was going on and was ignored. Looking back, of course, I can see the writing on the wall. There was a lot of jealousy on her part toward me - and jealousy is death in any friendship. She also had massive problems maintaining relationships with anyone and was unable to deal with or get past any conflict. At first I felt sad and then angry of course but now I just feel indifferent. The only thing that makes no sense to me is why say you want to continue a friendship when you don't? There was no need for her to be so dismissive and self centered - just tell someone you aren't interested in being friends any longer so they can go on their way.

[@ccmdot]

Been there. thanks for the ..."it gets better" hope

[@MissAdamLambert888]

This breaks my heart

[@brandismrekar7895]

I feel for you Wayne! Such a difficult thing. Thank you for your honesty. I hope it gets easier for you.

[@orangewedges]

I think we always give people second chances because there's that what if...what if he/she has changed, what if I regret not giving them a second chance, what if things will be different, what if we will be best friends again...but the truth of it is that most of the time, it still won't work. I'm not saying this is the case a hundred percent of the time, but in a majority of stories you hear from people trying to reconnect with friends, lovers, family members, etc. it never works out because as you pointed out in the video, things are never quite the same. You always have that dark cloud of the past kind of hanging over your heads and even though you try to look past it and focus on the now, that cloud is just there. It's sad but sometimes you need to let that person go because you've already reached the end of your relationship the first time around.

[@paulaangevine1173]

You are a beautiful human. Thank you for sharing.

[@yoomz-1349]

the more time that passes without her the more I'm grateful it ended. i still randomly see her but its heart wrenching to look her in the eye.

[@marandawhite1400]

Totally understand where you are. I am currently in the slow fade stage AGAIN with my best friend. I am the one that walks away this is now the 3rd and final time. I get tired of only being important in her life when she needs me. Hang in there! Love all your videos, I am learning tons!! Even my hubby this past week stated, "Honey, you really look beautiful! I'm not sure what's different but you look radiant!" Hahaha you should have seen his face when I told him it was because of another man...hehehe then I showed him your videos! What can I say, you have to have fun!!!

[@Chanwills0]

Here from the weight loss too far video 🙌🏼

[@TheOtherSideOfAlex]

OK so my story is pretty nuts. I befriended a fellow military wife and everything was great for a year. I helped her through the hard times with her marriage and family and she held me through my own problems she was legit my best friend. I had to go to WA to take care of my father in law for 6 weeks for a heart surgery and she offered to take care of my dog and cat whom she loved. I sent her 200$ as a thank you because she said I didn't have to pay her it was a favor for a friend but still 6 weeks a long time and I appreciated her help very much. I come back from a very stressful time on a long ass flight to my home covered in hair, dog and cat shit, piss and vomit. I was utterly shocked and long story short I ended our friendship. I won't get into the state of my animals because just thinking about it too long makes me sick. I'm tearing up now and it's been nearly 2 and a half years. So about a year after our falling out she is very pregnant and I am about 4 months pregnant weird I know and she calls me crying and screaming that she is having an anxiety attack and I rush over and a hair dresser cut her bangs super short and just the most fucked up thing you have ever seen and she is due in 2 days. She is worried she will have the baby before her parents fly in the next couple of days. so I call in to a nice salon after getting her money back for her get her hair fixed we go to eat lunch she says she wants to pay me back for helping her out so she is treating me to lunch. meanwhile we speak nothing of what happened before mostly because she is pregnant and I don't want to bring any type of stress to her baby. so we are eating she can't drive at this point so I drove this whole time her husband is on watch and she literally goes into full blown labor I end up calling her parents they change their flight and second long ass story short she has the baby that night. wtf and we were never really friends again even after all of that. I just can't forgive the abuse of my pets I adopted them from the spca and when I did that I looked them in the eyes and I promised that they would be safe that they would never have to be afraid again. they both were removed from abusive families so I swore to take care of them and I felt by giving her a second chance that I was betraying my animals trust in me. so I cut her completely out of my life. I think about her often and how I'd like to be friends and how we could never be.

[@lerooock]

oh gosh...I really hope your animals are feeling better now

[@GreenDani18]

+TheOtherSideOfAlex I think you've proved that you are so much better than this person could ever be. She obviously doesn't feel the same about living creatures and sounds very selfish to me. You are obviously a dear and trusting person. I hate that this happens to great people. My feeling is that she is a user, sorry, but I can't help that feeling.

[@gretahunt4401]

I feel the same about my adopted cats, if someone had done something like that, I would have gone balistic! I wouldn't have even helped her when she called freaking out about her bangs, like seriously is her life that small that the length of her bangs sends her into a panic and she needs calls the person she fell out with ages ago?? did she have no one else to call? anyways I feel your pain, *hugs* 😊

[@MyFairDiva]

+TheOtherSideOfAlex Girl, you were the bigger person here, and that speaks loads about you. Hang in there. Big hug to your furkids.

[@TheOtherSideOfAlex]

+lerooock yes they are thank you they had to be rushed to the vet luckily I have insurance for them both

[@ItsWendie]

I've had this happen, it's heartbreaking for sure. I still think of the happy times and certain songs remind me of them.

[@amyversuslife]

This was really sweet of you to share, and actually quite sad too! But you're not alone it is so horrible losing a friend especially (IMO) without a kind of raging argument were you fall out and everybody is angry and you're both like "I'm done!" That feeling though of your heart pounding and your stomach like sinks and almost falls out your butt.,,,can't beat it!

[@autumnhomer9786]

I'm sorry about what happened between you and your friend. My problem is I always attract fake friends. I always want to he help people with their problems without thinking about myself. There is nothing wrong with helping people of course but you need to find a healthy balance and its best, to chose friends who will help you out as you've helped them.

[@audioslave7746]

Wayne , You have always been one of my favourites on You tube . I know what loss is like , I lost my only sibling to murder and both my parent to Alzheimer's Disease. Over the years I had two best friends . One of them, I took into my home and let him live in my house for 2 years after he went through a divorce . I adored his friendship and he felt like family to me, which was important as I do not have family . After two years he decided to get a place of his own and I helped him move and gave him a couch and other furniture and he had not been feeling well and was trembling and his eyes were protruding .. I told him .. I thought he had Grave's disease and he laughed at me, but I convinced him to go to the Dr. and I would go with him and sure enough that is was he had. I went with him for his Treatments and helped him through so much . Then... He met a woman and was excited to me introduce me to her . I had them over for drinks on my patio and was very nice to her and made her feel welcome.. and then that was it .. He stopped calling me and deleted me from Facebook and I tried to get in touch with him and he would not return my phone calls . I saw him at a nightclub and asked him what happened and he just ignored me and walked away .. I was hurt beyond belief . He is the not first person that has just abruptly shut me out .. I have been through a lot and could use a friend but my phone only rings when someone wants something from me , a place to stay , money . and I feel so used by the few people I thought were my friends .

[@dawna4185]

+Chris Masson ...that's HORRIBLE!

[@audioslave7746]

Yes, horrible is a good word to describe how my friends have tossed me aside , like yesterday's garbage . It seems all my relationships end abruptly , either by abandonment or death .

[@dawna4185]

Chris Masson ya, i hear ya! this is why i choose to be a loner!! it's less painful! LOL

[@95ireyna]

Sending you all my love. Thank you for all you do. We all learn so much from you. All the blessings in the world.

[@mrinalinidevi2724]

I had the same kind of episode with my ex boyfriend.... two times.... you're a very good person Wayne... evidently your wisdom says a lot about your past... and one should be proud of how down to earth you've still maintained yourself still... I'm really in love with you.... I feel a connection with you when ever I watch your videos