VLOGMAS DAY 25 | crying on christmas

[@faeriesmak]

That was not the worst blog ever. A lot of people feel like crap at this time of year and it's refreshing to see a You Tuber go through things like this instead of projecting a perfect life on here. Thank you for that!

[@shelleyk7462]

I also had a few tears on Christmas Day, my mum died in September and I had to have my dog put down early this month (she was nearly 15). It was my first year being alone at Christmas. Sending you hugs and kisses 😘

[@ShadowRayne16]

I've been so grateful for your vlogs this year. I really have this time of year and get seasonal depression as well so sending g you lots of good vibes. At least it's over right. Now we all just gotta get through new year's and it'll be safe to leave the house again.

[@SuperJazzdancer]

Honestly I was really sad on Christmas eve and when I was crying I was thinking of you and your encouraging words from your vlog yesterday. I am really inspired by you since I am a collage student so it is nice to see a youtuber that is going through school and sometimes struggling with money because I can really relate. Hope the rest of your december goes well! Sending good vibes.

[@alance7727]

I am so happy to see someone else discuss blindness due to migraines and also the difficulty of having an extremely lonely/strained family/difficult Christmas. I feel like it so often gets brushed under the rug which makes people who experience the same issues feel so isolated. All the love in the world to you, angel.

[@jayellezombie]

And thank you for being there for me and the rest of us Sarah. :)

[@luisacabs1]

Thank you for being so real Sarah ❤

[@michelleelford]

I admire your honesty and it's so refreshing to see in Vlogmas. I was with my family today which was nice but still exhausting as we dont feel like we can really be ourselves around them and I also felt really guilty for requesting that my boyfriend stay here this year for Christmas instead of going home. So there were tears here too :(

[@NoirNotoire]

Thank you for posting this. Your vlogs help a lot of people x

[@niisLOVESmusic]

You are not allone. This time of the year is hard for me too. My parents are divorced and I have no contact with my father. My grandapa died two years ago on new years eve and My boyfriend does not talk to my mum, sincethey got in a fight earlier this year. So christmas isn't easy for me. I cried a lot beforehand, cause I feel like my family is kinda broken. What helps me is to think about how good I have it. I have a roof over my head, too much clothes to wear, friends and I still have a Family. I Love my mum and my sis more than everything. And I am sure you have friends that feeling the Same was about you. And remember you are not allone, you have thousand people watching your videos and caring about you. Lots of love, from Austria

[@Evie-pq1gs]

From watching your vlog from yesterday the things you said hit home. My family's never been one to celebrate holidays traditionally (sometimes even celebrate at all) and Christmas especially is always hard on me. I get sadder now because my boyfriend lives in Kansas and I live in California and his family's always been very traditional when it comes to holidays. One day I can just hope that I get to spend Christmas with his family and finally feel the joy that this holiday brings to other families. I'm not close to my family but I'm very thankful for my dog she's my baby I don't know where I would be without her. Hopefully some day down the road Christmas time won't make us feel sad but love you Sarah and Merry Christmas❤

[@sabrinapugs]

headaches are when the blood vessels are constricting (from dehydration is the most common symptom) and the most common treatment for that is ibuprofen which is a blood thinner to relieve that constricting pain... migraines however are the constricting of blood vessels, and then the vessels reopening too rapidly and too wide which then causes an overwhelming amount of blood flow that your brain is not accustomed too, so when you take ibuprofen when you feel a migraine, you are creating a more intense migraine via thinner blood traveling faster than usual throughout. I'd highly recommend excedrin migraine over the counter medication. If you take it right when the "blinding" symptom begins to appear, it'll most likely prevent the migraine from even happening. Taking excedrin at any point further may have the same affect as ibuprofen! Hope that helps alleviate any future migraine pains!!

[@seacaptain2431]

thevegancannabispatient holy shit

[@sarahhawkinsonvlogs7150]

+thevegancannabispatient I usually take an excedrin migraine pill as soon as the flashing starts but since it's been so long since my last one, I haven't bought them in a while but damn they are EFFECTIVE. I think I'm going to pick some up just to have on hand :(

[@CassandraShiann]

thevegancannabispatient Wow you give way more information than my doctors. I've had migraines for years now and took it up with my regular Dr and he sent me to a neurologist who just kept making me write down when I would get them, everything I ate/drank/did that day. The migraines are that, migraines. I can wake up and go to sleep with them, I can get them slowly or they can just pop up no matter what I do but my doctors didn't understand that apparently. Prescribed Ibuprofen and that was it. I noticed they get worse after so my doctors tried naproxen and that did absolutely nothing either.

[@sabrinapugs]

sarahhawkinsonvlogs well I wish you best of luck if you decide to get excedrin again! I usually keep a bottle in my bag, car, and nightstand.. never know when they'll come unfortunately :(

[@sabrinapugs]

Cassandra Theodore thats terrible! I hope this helped a little??

[@evandye1045]

I got emotional this year too. I don't get to see my family much and I have a rough relationship with my dad and spoken to him in months. It was weird not seeing him. I hope the holidays had some high points and bonding time, you deserve it. And don't worry my cats got me through some rough times too 😙 We're all rooting for you!!

[@olivia1910]

Thank you Sarah for always being real with us. Coming from a big, close family I tend to forget that a lot of people don't have this. Sending lots of love to you and to those who need it at this time of the year

[@celestialmarshmallow137]

I really appreciate your honesty in this vlog and showing another side of the holiday season. Christmas is also a difficult time of year for me, as my parents live overseas. I also had a few emotional moments yesterday!

[@GemmaGarvey]

Sending you love Sarah, I totally understand your situation, moving on to a new year with new opportunities now!

[@sambattle3047]

u are honestly one of my favourite youtubers. im so grateful for you and your videos. sending u all my love!!!

[@Wavesofemotion]

I just want to say that I love you! You make me feel validation because I feel a lot of the same emotions you do but people normally aren't open about it. I have a certified anxiety cat named Rover and he truly helps me most too. I couldn't live a day without him. I hate seeing you cry but I'm so glad you are brave enough to show your true self because I feel so much comfort and friendship in your videos, especially these vlogs. Sending you good vibes.

[@leenaparsons5178]

This actually made me feel better about how I've been feeling this Christmas. I'm lucky to live so close to my immediate family, but I've still found it kind of hard this year for other reasons.

[@emilyhess323]

I'm glad that I am not alone in feeling down around the holidays this year. Thanks for always being so honest and real, your videos are comforting in times like this. Love you and your videos always.

[@Lily_Autumn]

I love the run up to Christmas and how everything is decorated and festive and pretty, but I always get really sad actually on Christmas. Yesterday was possibly my worst Christmas and I cried a lot. Thank you for not being fake or trying to sugarcoat things - you're one of my favourite vloggers because you are so genuine. Sending big hugs to you and anyone else feeling crappy this holiday season xx

[@outerstacy]

i cry every christmas. is it weird that i find it comforting that we probably were crying at the same time? like a mutual christmas cry. remember you arent alone either, Sarah :) merry xmas

[@emmascott6550]

I also find myself being really down and fighting my tired feelings in winter. You're not alone. I hope your night was lovely. Thank you for being so honest and raw in your vlogs. I really love watching.

[@leannewoodfull]

Sending you lots of love m'dear.

[@juliejealousy]

I cried on Christmas too :( it is a very difficult time for people and I've appreciated following you around this month so much. You've helped me in so many moments where I felt sad or overwhelmed because I could distract myself by watching one of your vlogs. I hope your SAD gets better after the holidays pass (New Years can be tough for people too). Thank you for putting so much effort into these vlogs for us.. It truly makes a difference and means a lot :)

[@sarahreagan2185]

glad christmas is over, its so stressful. hope youre feeling better sarah, youre never alone!

[@dyssa0]

You are beautiful, i always love watching you, i can really relate a lot with you and any video with you always make me feel better.. hope you are doing well sarah : )

[@aiwxo]

I spent 2 hours crying from being alone yesterday. Jus5 needed to be honest, your cooment section feels like a safe space x

[@SandraOlufsen]

Feel so bad for you,and anyone really. The holidays can be so rough on some people. I am luckily not alone in the holidays,but I do feel depressed and have terrible anxiety,because of the social events around that time of the year. The winter time is just hard for me because of past events that accured around that time. You are definitely not alone xx

[@sdafergu]

Thanks for sharing this with us. Love you Sarah!

[@raiindrops711]

I love you sarah

[@chouette5149]

Its crazy how much I can relate to you. This year has been one of the toughest years I've gone through. I was also lonely yesterday and I also cried today (coincidentally!). I haven't felt alone or cried during the holidays for 8 years. That was up until my breakup with my ex two months ago. Watching your videos helps me get over the bad feelings and think of the future and not the past. Thank you Sarah! Happy Holidays! We love you!

[@yagirlparis]

Merry Christmas Sarah!! Sending lots of love and positive energy your way, I'm sure 2017 will be better for all of us!

[@fridabakken132]

It makes me feel so much better watching your vlogs.. im happy for many of the other vlogers ofc that has a "perfect" christmas but with your videos i can relate more and not feel so alone. Hi from Norway btw! hope you feel better

[@ellahodge5692]

Merry Christmas. Lots of love from Australia xx

[@eleanortownley3121]

Sending you all the love Sarah

[@Paul-tn5uu]

i hope you will feel soon better !! all the love

[@EdithWhiteDemon]

I'm crying almost every year on christmas day, so i know that feelling... I don't have perfect familly too:/

[@LuciaBellanger95]

I get seasonal affective disorder too and it absolutely wrecks my winter and holiday season and when bad things happen during that time (i got broken up with about a month ago) it just makes it all so much worse. I know how you feel

[@LuciaBellanger95]

And I got a cat last year and I'm SO glad I did she makes me feel a lot less lonely too

[@Marianastarss]

omg, this make me feel SO good!! thank you! I have been going through some anxiety and seeing you having a hard time makes me feel like I am not alone, and everyone goes through stuff like this, thank you for been real!! sorry if I wrote someting wrong I am from México city. saludos!!

[@PurpleeSparkle]

Christmas is insanely hard for me as well. I don't have a close family, and I rarely see them. We used to have this tradition of spending christmas with my extended family. I never felt close to them or like I was part of that family (even though they are technically my family). My brother and I have stopped going there for the past few years and it's been tough because my parents still go to that party while my brother and I spend it alone at our house. It's so hard to see all these other people post about spending time with all their wonderful families..

[@ferretsam]

I also get aura migraines...blindness, numbness, sometimes speech impairment, etc. Super fun :P I had my first one at 18 & they sent me to hospital because they thought I was having a stroke! Now we know what it is at least. Hope you recovered from yours quickly.

[@charliecaturnip4438]

its so sad to see you cry :( i hope you are better now ! (i spent christmas with family but honestly i would have rather spent it alone)

[@rivers0ng]

I always get a spout of depression really bad after christmas but for me it’s the opposite - I can’t standing being around family for long periods; I really need my own space due to being an introvert so being forced to spend time with family and the build up of everything really makes me feel down which sucks for the new year.

[@DiedeHofs15]

merry christmas Sarah! 😘

[@nadiaaaaa]

The light thing totally happens to me too! I didn know it was common, to me at 6pm the day is done and Im ready for the night even tho people around me are still doing productive things I just cant

[@yenh.4126]

Same thing happened to me on christmas. Definitely understand.

[@kmoellski]

I'm usually the most christmassy person on the planet but this year I'm so happy the holidays are over now and I'm back home. We should start friendsmas or something, it would be so much more fun.

[@jadewhitehouse9401]

Merry Christmas Sarah ❤️❤️

[@cami632]

This year its been so shitty for me and christmas and final year in general is not the exception: past thuesday some assholes broke into my home and since that im homeless, and i have to take my finals on school so everythings go prettty bad for me. I cant live with my mom and dad (i mean i dont want to cause situations are difficults) so for now im staying in my boyfriends house but i have to take a desition very soon and i cant take it anymore, this is too much. Christmas and new years in general are difficults for me so i totaly get you. I used to have my cats too but now i dont even have them anymore so... i hope today was better and the restnof the year, xoxo 💕

[@nshvh]

I get shimmering aura migraines too... they are terrifying :( I had two or three before I even knew what they were, when I was a child. I thought I was dying :(

[@sheasulley5582]

pepe's scream meows. i love that boy

[@noddycool2703]

Sending you a virtual hug

[@beth5174]

I cried on Christmas too😭

[@sarali444]

I get aura migraines, too. It is triggered by stress and by direct light... and it used to be triggered especially by birthcontrol. My Doctors also told me that aura migraines plus birth control or hormones in general are really dangerous and you should avoid it..

[@prinsesofpersia]

I feel lonely and depressed too during Christmas, but I have my dogs.

[@taniaguerrero7034]

I get migraines like that all the time, aleve is the only painkiller that helps me

[@gabrieladavis8299]

same😒 i was crying listen to placebo and eating ramen😞

[@aliciaa2113]

im wondering why you dont spend Christmas with your mom and stepdad?

[@frankiebaxter2590]

did you see yesterdays vlog? she kind of says when she sees who xx

[@aliciaa2113]

winnie ohhh ok i watched all episodes at work.. totally missed that part..

[@cami632]

winnie i didnt get what she and you said 😔 sorry, english is not my mother language ☹️ can u explain that to me plz?

[@livmadeleine]

wheres her boyfriend?

[@sarahhawkinsonvlogs7150]

+Olivia Madeleine he was with his family :)

[@cami632]

sarahhawkinsonvlogs maybe next year u can spend christmas with them 😊 thats what i do: i have a peculiar family issues so i spend the holidays with my boyfriend's family.

[@yashiralozano4772]

What about Ryan? Why doesn't he help with your lonliness?

[@sarahhawkinsonvlogs7150]

+Yashira Lozano cause he spends time with his family :)

[@frankiebaxter2590]

love you sarah