We Attended the 2023 Quartzsite Fall Festival, But I'm Struggling With Depression 😓 | Van Life

[@VanJoplin]

Thanks for being so open about depression. Sending good vibes and healing energy your way girl. Keep the videos coming.

[@michellephillips2501]

It's the time of the year. Holidays are coming up which means family. Some of us don't have any some are to far away and some we don't get along with. Some people have loving families but can't get together. Holidays always gets me down. Sending lots of love and hugs. One day at a time......❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

You're so right. Many of us struggle around this time for a variety of reasons. 💖

[@Teri728]

Me too❤

[@ruthfreeman6854]

Yes, you are absolutely right! Right now, I am also fighting a bad case of depression. Part of it is the holidays, and no family close by. I know it will get better, just need to hang in there.

[@annmariesikorski]

​@@ruthfreeman6854❤

[@RVJedeye]

As usual... really good content. Thank you so much for sharing some of your personal journey as well. Just know you do have those out here supporting you and sending you positive vibes🤗

[@montanawife4851]

I found yournew video just in time,could feel a major panic attack and you always seem to calm my nerves!Thank you❤

[@elfuego4341]

Stay strong & I love your content! I'll be thinking of you.

[@michellestratford9753]

I'm sorry you're going through all this, but it's wonderful that you're sharing. It's important that people know that even when you're living your best life, you still have to take yourself with you. The sad, the illnesses, and the stresses. I'm sending you light and love, and wishing your Grandma safe travels to whatever comes next ❤💐

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Thank you. 💕

[@LizzPaintz]

I like that people recognized you. Yes you really help with the tips you give to people. Not everyone likes the same things and we all have our preferences. It's funny that Winston is a celebrity as well now. Lol😂 cracks me up. Maybe that's why he wanted to be outside so he could sign a few autographs now that he's a "known personality". (😂😂😂😂 too funny!!). Yes death is difficult, but when you have the good memories, it makes it much easier. Blessings. ❤

[@HappyTailsandHappyTrails]

Go Cards!! Hope you get to feeling better!

[@bikemessenger7]

I have come to see depression as a super power. EVERY single one of my long trips were my doing all I could to deal with depression. I needed to see new things, meet new people, be by myself and wake up in a place I was excited to see. So while I do wish I didnt feel the way I do I have to admit that many of my adventures would not have happened if I was not forced to do something adventure like to fight the feelings I have. Thanks for sharing.

[@ivelissetorres7805]

Lots of love Amanda !

[@tinadunaway1737]

I deal with depression on a daily basis. Your videos are a big help to me. You are Awesome 😎. Lots of love and hugs to you and Winston 🌼🌼🌼

[@cindyjohnston3134]

Crying helps when your depressed....letting it out sometimes takes the weight off your shoulders. One day at a time....huge hugs :)

[@keithalexander2412]

We appreciate your honesty and we love watching your videos because of this. 😊

[@joyceullom8037]

Hugs for you Amanda and praying that you will have brighter days ahead ❤

[@maryfry920]

Hi Amanda, I understand how difficult depression is. I lost my husband of 40 years. This time of year is depressing for me. I’m glad you are going to be with your mom. You two have a wonderful relationship . You will help each other get through. And I know wynston will help you with lots of puppy love. You are doing a great job and have lots of unknown friends that are sending love and support 👍

[@OldSoulPammy]

RESPECT for keeping it real. Sending you a blast of Loving Energy. Holding you, Wynston and your family in the Light. Love you! ☮️❤️😎

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Thank you for that energy!!! 🙌💕

[@sbyrd342]

We're praying for you and your family. I know what you're going through with depression have had it most of my life

[@terryshaw3493]

Hi Amanda, glad that your dad reached out to you about your pup, Sophie. I understand anxiety and depression very well. Love and hugs to you. So happy you have your wonderful Wynston with you always.

[@kirstennylen25]

Sending hugs Amanda and Winston! We hear you, I’ve also been struggling with family and loss. Being in nature has helped me too…it’s a lifelong journey. Glad you’re going to hang with your mom for a bit 🌻💕☀️

[@goddesscapricorn]

I am sorry for all that you are going through. I am sending you so much love and healing vibes ❤🙏🥹

[@Teri728]

Hope it all gets better soon! I have a similar type depression and it gets hard around the holidays sometimes. ❤

[@KaiExploresLife]

Positive energy headed in your direction . I can only imagine the range of emotions. Give yourself an extra dose of self compassion and gentleness. 😊

[@annmariesikorski]

It's hard. It's difficult and let's be honest it's heartbreaking saying so long to someone so dear to us. I'm 71 years old and since a young age has had to learn how to understand transition. It sounds like you are listening to your heart and working through it. Blessings ☮️💜🌹

[@aquarianspeak]

sending light and love Amanda I am 73 and also deal with 55 years of PTSD and clinical depression. I am proud of the way you are dealing with it. Namaste

[@traveldreamer4616]

Hugs and positive thoughts. I understand loss of family (pets are family too😊). Depression is a challenge. May you find peace with those love. Thanks for being your authentic self. 💖😊💖

[@LuvStLCards]

I wish I could just hug you. I really appreciate how real you are. I suffer from SAD and even though I live in Sunny Colorado right now, I can’t help but get in a funk as soon as the chill comes on. I grew up in the Midwest and it’s dark for 4-6 months. Blessings to you and your family and I hope your grandmother is doing ok. Hospice will give her the meds she needs to be in peace. Hugs to you.

[@ElephantsRock19]

Sending you much 🤗🕊️🙏❤️🕯️🐾

[@MaryAmesMitchell]

Big cyber hugs. You are not alone. There are many of us out here who deal with these emotions too. Thanks for your openness. It helps the rest of us. X

[@carolwest6095]

The incredible memories are what we need to hang on to.🌹 It's ok to be sad.🏵 Remember that you are loved, even though life is fleeting. Life can turn on a dime, for good or bad. Love to your family.❤️‍🩹 One foot in front of the other. We all do the best we can❤

[@Hebrews_3]

I have 2 dogs for my emotional support. Yet my Larger dog(100lbs) helps me move and balance by allowing me to pull on her harness. We're working on the service dog licensing. I need better training so I can teach her and myself more. Thank you for making a channel for him and taking him into the festival ❤️

[@leegrass6954]

Your honesty is appreciated. Never be ashamed of going through hard stuff. Life is not always fun as we all know. I enjoy your videos very much thanks for sharing. Enjoy your time with your family. I live near Payson And hope to come to Quartzsite right after Thanksgiving. Much lovel ❤

[@juliehoot3916]

So sorry Amanda, sending you positive heartfelt vibes to help you get through this 🙏. You are never a downer. We are all here for you! 💙🐾🐾

[@lovinglife2]

Thank you for sharing your life and your life struggles. You are most certainly not a downer. This is a place for your community and we care. I wish you peace and a healing heart.❤

[@anybodyoutthere3208]

So sorry we missed you at the fall festival… we looked for you and Winston much of the day. We were thinking of you Hang in there during this tough time. Seems like a nice community holding space here for you We’re over here in Tyson Wash and boy what a day of wind and dust storming Tomorrow will be the same. You and Winston take care now ❤

[@padmepadme]

Prayers, hugs, and blessings for you. Big hugs for Wynston, too.

[@davegott996]

Life is not easy sometimes you hang in there. I love your videos

[@anndodds8718]

Sending out much love to you and your Mom sweet girl. I just lost my Mom (and my 16 yr old dog in the same week) being strong for my kids was the only thing that got me through it. You have the best attitude and perspective you can have in your situation. Take care of yourself and enjoy your Thanksgiving. I have so enjoyed watching your videos on Quartzsite while in Quartzsite. I hope you survived that wind last night holey cow!

[@charlesatwell9976]

I hope you feel better soon. My 28 year old son had a disability & suffered from depression. Sadly, he took his life last month. Please try to remember that many people love & care for you. My son had autistic traits & found it hard to establish relationships. He often felt lonely & would have been amazed to see how many people came to show their love for him at his funeral. Think good thoughts!

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

I am so sorry. 😞

[@donnaheinz199]

Sorry for your loss Charles.

[@donnabacon4681]

Mr Atwell - I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine the suffering, sadness, the frustration your son went through every single day. And what you had to endure, knowing you did all you could to help him. Depression is so insidious; it is deceitful; it lies to you, and we have to not to let it have its way. To not listen to the lies ... I hope you find a support group, or someone to talk to - when you are ready - and take your time. You need to grieve, so don't rush it, don't let anyone tell to "just get over it", or " you should be over this by ...". It's a journey and a very personal one. I am praying for you ... 💝

[@charlesatwell9976]

Thanks, your words of comfort mean a lot to me. God Bless You. @@donnabacon4681

[@estherstephens1858]

Hi Amanda, yes, those are very difficult circumstances to deal with and like Michelle mentioned the Holidays are here. Please know you are loved by your family and even those who do not know you (myself included). ❤❤❤

[@kimberlyobrien4677]

Sending hugs and prayers from Florida for you in this tough time. As animal lovers we know they become a part of our family, there is no doubt about it. And with your grandma too, just want you to know that I'm sure there's a lot of people out here supporting you. Prayers, hugs and blessings for you and your family in this time

[@jenniferpeters6298]

Sending you light, love and hugs.

[@mpals6404]

Hi Amanda, You have helped me so much with setting up my Toyota Van. Thank you for sharing your ideas and explaining your thinking related to it. Awww 🥰 It’s ok to grieve the slow loss of your Grandma. My Dad passed away last year and I have waves of grief. Life is hard at times. Thanks for being honest. MARJ

[@sbyrd342]

When I had a therapist, they told me to write down my feelings and then ball it up and play basketball with it. I found that helps release some of the stress. Just a little thought

[@DeeEvolving]

I am sorry you are having such deep feelings. It's okay to feel - but yes doing some behind the scenes work can really be the best option. You have a lot of emotions coming in at you all at once. The triggers can send one downward. Sending you tons of healing love and light.

[@davidmurling4252]

Dealing with depression is real and no fun at all. I was on medication for it about 2 years and was able to get off of ít. Thankfully . That was about 15 years ago. Still doing good so far.

[@jennyhackenberg]

I have been bouncing too from one thing to another. I developed bells palsy in the middle of September. Was off work for 2.5 weeks and when I went back to work they were real aholes which put me down more and now my car is leaking antifreeze and I don't have the money really to fix it but gonna have to get it fixed. Hopefully it will only be something simple. I have 10 more months of payments and then it will be paid off. I need it to last until I get it paid off. I find myself crying just about everyday because I just let everything build up. Please be safe out there and enjoy yourself. Don't be afraid to share how you are feeling.

[@michelleellis8201]

😊❤️ sending lots of love and prayers to you Amanda. You take care. Happy Thanksgiving. Enjoy your time with your family!

[@patriciabohmann5729]

Thanks for being transparent. I wish you all the best as the holidays approach. ❤

[@jennyolcott4129]

I understand your bouts of depression, I also have occasional depression

[@nancyllowe4]

Thanks Amanda! One reason I am coming to the desert is winter in Missouri brings rough times for me and I want to enjoy the winter this year! I never know when I have my last flare up and not make back. I am doing it while I can and not be shut in. Since I have not been confined to bed, I am ready to be me, in Quartzite and on an adventure! Luv ya, love your channel❣️ 🏜️🏕️🌵♨️🪁🔭💃

[@tracyhull7936]

Aww Amanda you are a special and terrific person and dog mom hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving i always enjoy your videos and your dog son much love❤😊❤

[@johnniemontgomery6682]

“And yet this too shall pass”. Feel your pain that is healthy.

[@KathleenPorter-j9q]

Happy Thanksgiving to you and Wyston ❤❤

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Same to you!

[@chasingthegypsymoon]

It was so nice meeting you and Matty and Winston yesterday even if it was briefly I was super excited that I walked up and saw you guys immediately. Hopefully you’ll have a meet up in January and I’ll be able to come because it would be wonderful to be able to chat with you. We have so much in common. It’s incredible even down to some of the things we have in our van And I love watching your videos every day. I enjoyed the concert immensely yesterday I got my dogs in being in the entertainment business for many many years I can kind of finagle my way into almost anything so I did get in with them and met people and had a great time but after it all, I had forgot where you and Matty told me to go I tried and got lost so I drove all the way back home lol but it was worth a 500 miles just to be able to meet you and Matty and Winston because as your viewers, we all feel like we know you and I do realize that you have no idea who we are but it’s wonderful all the same to get to meet people that you watch on KZbin every day. Hopefully someday my channel will grow, and I’ll have fans too, lol I also want to give you my deepest sympathy for the pain that you are experiencing because of what your grandmother is going through and love and prayers go out to you. Sounds like you’re going through a lot. You’re a strong woman and just going through natural feelings that anyone would have. Happy Thanksgiving to you, Matty and Winston and good vibes, good health and lots of love to all of you. ❤

[@Tom-Travels]

My therapist told me to write down my thoughts and feelings. The page stayed empty. That was exactly my thoughts and feelings.

[@DonnaJean-spwannabe]

Yeah for us that ya'll are coming up. We will cheer you right up

[@micki777]

Big hugs to you Amanda 🤗🤗the depression monster is horrible to go through. Though not medical advice 😊, I have used 5HTP for depression for years and it really helps me. Thought I would pass along ❤ Take care - we love you 🥰🥰

[@leese.23]

Friendly healing thoughts for you and love to the Wynstonator. You're the best dog mom...his bed looks more comfy than yours! I'm down too. I have no family and it can be hard. The time change seems to affect me too but they don't have that in AZ.

[@georgiacorey954]

Hugs

[@fletaash8319]

I enjoy watching your channel & Matty’s channels.

[@karenshinsky680]

Thank you for sharing. You are helping others. Hope you get support from us

[@pmac5587]

Hang tough... It shall pass. Smile even when you don't feel like it. It will help. Movement helps too. Been there and overcame it permanently, through various methods. You will too. You have what it takes. I can tell. Peace and love. Hope to be out there by January, and would love to share some personal insights that will help you through the storms. And

[@alanshaffer6724]

Hi Amanda

[@PedroNord]

🦋

[@willjay916]

Please take care of yourself and don't be afraid to get help if you think that you'll need it.

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Oh yes, I have before. Reaching out is extremely important. Thanks for the reminder. ❤️

[@lady1bug0628]

Amanda I hope you get to feeling better

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Thank you. I'm confident I will. One day at a time.

[@sharonsjoyfuljourney9830]

Amanda, Not having your dad n your life can be very hard, but sometimes it is easier. You have some great memories with your Grandma, cherish them🙏❤️ the loss of a pet can be hard too.

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Yes, I've chosen to have no relationship because I don't have space for toxic narcissists in my life. 🤣 Thank you. 💖

[@Thegratefulnurse]

Thank you for sharing that Amanda. I have been feeling really BLAA lately and cannot put my finger on it. Nothing is making me happy or smile. Maybe it’s a bout of depression. I didn’t realize it until I saw your video. I just keep paying I feel bored and not happy about anything. I recently changed to be a hospice nurse and it’s been a lot too. Thank you again for sharing and making it okay to talk about. ❤ Stephanie give Winston a kiss from me and Rosie 🐶

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Being a hospice nurse is very difficult. My mom did it for years. Hugs for you. xo

[@Thegratefulnurse]

@@AdventuringWithAmanda thank you ♥️

[@3generations393]

I am tired of hitting my head on the Chrysler Towne and Country idea of entertainment center 🤣 My bed is a metal frame because I have no skills to build one either 😂 And I'm not sure I can get this grandma butt off a bed as low as yours. Sending love ❌⭕ Iris & Little One 👋🐾

[@Hebrews_3]

I'm looking forward to seeing the video on the bed 🛌 thank you for posting a little bit about this so I can be prompted to go find out about the bed Makin

[@Shantelle6253]

Can you show us what all the aqua goodies you have in the coffee box? My whole van I Aqua/Teal and Purple so I'm always on the lookout for goodies my colors😂

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Yes!

[@nancycain4434]

💜

[@johnpeddicord4932]

Enjoyed again, heck, you always look good, channel is very informative, Penny Sofia are kicking it now at the RAINBOW BRIDGE

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

You're sweet, John. ❤️

[@laurajphillips]

Feel better soon! I’ve been there too!

[@Blackopsmechanic338]

🙏🙏.

[@billierussell2344]

Maybe it will help to go see your grandma. ❤

[@marcelolney4213]

Alls good .letting the bad medicine out is good.The Creator wrote your story.Being truthful with yourself is GOOD medicine.bless you.

[@dorendawhite9383]

❤❤❤❤

[@sheilaDH]

❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️

[@sailology7235]

Amanda, Dirt is good for the soul.

[@wendyjo9267]

What stroller do you have for Wynston?

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Gen7Pets jogging stroller.

[@dallastrujillo7540]

Is that a cordless rechargeable blow dryer? Or just a drill? I didn’t even know they made rechargeable cordless blow dryers! Now I need one!

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

I'm not sure what you are talking about. I don't have either of those things.

[@witteney3334]

@@AdventuringWithAmandashe’s talking about the nail gun/glue gun/dryer/whatever it is on the gray footrest. At 3:04.

[@donnabacon4681]

🤗💝 💕💕💕🐾

[@craftytraveler9238]

Thanks for the video. I am interested in knowing what documentation you have for Winston as a Medical service dog. Snickers is also a medical service dog but I haven't found out what documentation I need. So far no one has asked for proof.

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

I have physical papers from the doctors who treat me.

[@joyjournal6157]

The way the world is I think it would be weird to NOT have periods of depression.

[@Freedomstealth]

Depression well i keep getting the finger from almost everybody i see thats pretty depressing and that nobody out here seems approacable you can feel the politics everywhere maybe it cant compare to what your going through but it happens to me alot

[@joanies6778]

Just make sure you're getting enough vitamin D3/k2. It makes a huge difference.

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

I've taken a D3 supplement for 8 years.

[@joanies6778]

​@@AdventuringWithAmandaAwesome.

[@wendyjo9267]

So sorry all that is happening at once ❤ sending you hugs. With your permission I’d like to send you some healing reiki energy. If you are interested 😊

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

Yes please. Thank you.

[@wendyjo9267]

@@AdventuringWithAmanda sent 🌟💫

[@sherylmarshall2602]

Amanda keep your chin up honey I want you to know that 99% of the population of the world right now are depressed you are not alone

[@desertsky505]

Tried to like this but it wouldn't let me. Hope all goes well for you

[@FranfromFL]

H U G S......

[@kathleenj1158]

I really appreciate how you're so authentic & genuine. I've dealt with depression & anxiety my entire life, so I do understand. I've also been divorced, have an estranged parent (dad) & have an emotional support animal (cat). I live in So CA & I'm considering van life. I hope that you're sadness improves very soon. ☺️🩷🐕🐈

[@a.mstree]

Hang in there! Sending you some healing vibes! We made it to BLM in Q last night… many thanks for all the help your videos provide! ✌🏼🚐✨✨

[@AdventuringWithAmanda]

I'm happy you made it safely!