Weight Loss Journey: Shame and Anxiety| It's Weigh in Wednesday #6 and MEAL PREP time| Losing 200lbs

[@emalymick]

It broke my heart when you said "you may be wondering how I have the courage to show myself in the condition that I am, doing yoga or doing exercise..." You have no reason for shame or apology. Good on you for taking care of yourself! And if anyone has a problem with it, they don't have to watch you on your journey. You're inspiring!

[@snowwhite2709]

It is great that more people of every size show themselves exercising. I am large too. I think many smaller people believe large people do not exercise at all. We need more role models representing us larger people, who are trying to get healthier and be consistent with our exercising.

[@delphiburton100]

Your attitude towards shame is the reason why you will be successful!

[@AprilLauren]

Thank you Delphi! ❤️

[@TheVhernandez00]

I too lost over 100lbs because I wanted babies. Lost the weight, had the kids, and still trying to keep off the weight. I'm still down 100lbs after kids and pregnancy, but just live a healthy life, not only for yourself, but for your kids and hubby. They need you. That's what keeps me going. I wanted my babies and I'm going to stay here for them and I will do all for my health and to teach them good health as well (or try to)

[@piau1798]

I don’t know you but this makes me so happy idk 😊 enjoy life with your family !

[@supertaati8107]

That's so awesome! Keep going, your kids are going to thank you ❤️

[@rhodahariga2271]

This is awesome. I too want to lose 100lbs. How did you do it?

[@TheVhernandez00]

@@rhodahariga2271 ngl, I had bariatric surgery back in 2010 and it helped BUT the rest is up to you. YOU CAN GAIN IT ALLLLLLLLL BACK and then MORE, even with the surgery. The surgery is not a cure, but it is a tool. It has helped me with my eating habits because it trained to me to stop overeating because if i overeat, i will get sick or if i have sugar, i will get sick. But after a while, the body will adjust and a lot of people go back to their old eating habits and gain all the weight back. I don't care how much you cut your stomach or whatever, to me (with or without surgery), it was all the same. Active lifestyle (exercise) and healthy eating habits and CICO is the way to go. Hell, even still to this day (10 yrs later and 2 kids later) I'm still struggling to get to my goal weight (damn my short stature of 5'2"). PLEASE NOTE I'm NOT trying to convince anyone to have the surgery, nor am i speaking bad about it, but I'm speaking from my personal experience. However, in saying that, would i have the surgery again? Absolutely NOT! Again, don't get me wrong, the surgery has it benefits and you will lose weight (and also, you can have some trouble with absorbing vitamins because of the kind of surgery you have) but ultimately, when it comes down to losing the weight and keeping it off (with or without surgery) is diet and exercise and this is the only way I'm able to keep those 100 lbs I lost off. Yes, the surgery did help kick things off, but I've gained weight after the surgery and no, it wasn't from my pregnancies. My body adjusted and I was totally ABLE to go back to my old eating habits of eating junk food and sugar. I stopped exercising and was totally ignoring my tool and not listening to my body. I made myself sick. I was not being active and not eating healthier or watching my caloric intake. Once I got back to an active lifestyle and healthier habits, I started feeling stronger and feeling better. I had to because of my kids. They want me to go down that slide and chase them around the playground. Yes, I had the surgery and, and it wasn't a cure for weight loss, even though this is what the doctor told me before the surgery and I didn't believe him. Iknew Iwas not going to gain weight becasue they are shrinking my stomach, so how can i?? Pfffft... yes you can gain it. I still have to watch what I eat and be mindful of eating and fullness and exercise. I know a lot of people who have had the surgery 10 yrs ago and they are right back where they started today. It doesn't matter. April is doing it! She's becoming active and eating right and has a great and positive outlook on things! You need this when trying to lose weight. You can do it! YOu've got this!!

[@rhodahariga2271]

@@TheVhernandez00 thank you for the explanation. Whats CICO?

[@JennRighter]

I almost cried at the shame part. I'm hindered by shame, even now that I'm not overweight. You can lose the weight, and you can keep that weight off for a long time. But that shame often isn't lost with the weight. I haven't been overweight/obese for over a decade, but I've never lost that shame.

[@dirgniflesuoh7950]

Jenn Righter That is so sad. I always remember a very obese bagladyish woman who sat down next to me on a train. She saw that her appearance startled me, and SHE apologized to me and said that she was about to get off next station.

[@ladyvonwake1476]

Me too! I felt that.

[@deendrew36]

@@dirgniflesuoh7950 that is so sad! 😔

[@emilyhall4197]

Dearest April, your skin is GLOWING in this video! You look so much healthier! Progress is progress, keep going!

[@AprilLauren]

Yaaas! Progress is progress! Love it! ❤️ Thanks for your sweet comment and encouragement!! 🥰

[@Laurielalalaurie]

I've been practicing yoga for over 20 years, and teaching yoga for nearly 16 years. You have a beautiful yoga practice... just beautiful. I love all your modifications and flow. I love your focus and breath work. Keep it up sister, you are a beautiful yogi

[@mswamp_1826]

The part about shame was beautiful. I've always hindered myself from buying new clothes saying "I'll buy it when I've lost weight." I've realized that in order to reach self-fullfilment I have to let go of this toxic rhetoric. Thank you for reminding me. ❤️ PS: Your voice and overall calmness is so relaxing. You emit such a motherly energy and I love watching your videos.

[@JennRighter]

I almost cried at the shame part. I'm hindered by shame, even now that I'm not overweight. You can lose the weight, and you can keep that weight off for a long time. But that shame often isn't lost with the weight. I haven't been overweight/obese for over a decade, but I've never lost that shame.

[@natashacox6401]

I've lost 132lbs,and I'm very similar.i still keep buying bigger size clothes,even though I know I don't need to.dont know if it's habit,or negativity on my part thinking I'll gain weight again

[@MouseKeyboardPlayer]

Hi April, as a guy who has been going to the gym for the last 10 years, I just want to say that no matter what, never give up, because your end goal is way closer than you think, I wish you all the best.

[@skrtahaha5491]

Honestly, you're an inspiration dude. Your positivity and drive is ASTONISHING. Watching you has really motivated me through my weight loss journey, not only physically but as well as mentally. Thank you so much for doing what you do, and keep up the epic work sis :)

[@mbstephens8034]

I did watch the EveryDamnDay fitness, and loved it! You made him so happy, because you're so delightful and on point. The main thing I got from his video was that he wanted everyone who watched him to watch your videos and subscribe to you. I loved that he was promoting your channel.

[@anthoniaimanche]

So proud of you sis. I also just started a weightloss journey.

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, thank. you Anthonia! And, I am rooting for you!! We've got this!

[@paulineangela8354]

me too

[@andreagonzalez1842]

Me too!! Sending good vibes to everyone trying to get their fitness and health back on track! ❤❤

[@noraemin326]

I started mine today too. I subbed to see your joureney.

[@anthoniaimanche]

@@andreagonzalez1842 thanks, I just sub to your channel. Sending you love.

[@tammiconnolly2137]

I lost 0 lbs this week, 15 lbs total, but had other wins making healthy choices. I'm so happy we are all doing this together!

[@Laurielalalaurie]

I've maintained a 50 lb weight loss for nearly 10 years. And since quarantine, I've lost an additional 30 lbs. Here's my tips: 1. Reconcile that you will have to actively work on your health for the rest of your life. It's not your fault, it's just the way you are made. But be proactive about the cards you were dealt. 2. I believe that those that gain weight easily or struggle to loose weight have food sensitivities, and the body processes foods differently than those that are naturally fit/slim. Again, no one's fault. But eating very, very clean, keeping processed food out of your diet is essential. Bread is a processed food (sorry, it is) 3. Healthy habits are sustainable if they are realistic, attainable and accessible. Make the time for self care and movement, and enjoy whatever you're doing. No shame in modifying! (April, I'm talking to you :-)) 4. Every moment is an opportunity to start over. Accept setbacks with grace, compassion and dignity. And start over... not tomorrow, right now. 5. Do this because you love yourself and want to take care of yourself... not ever because you're not happy. Happiness is not on the other side of some number on the scale.... Happiness comes from within. Find your self love and happiness, and the journey to health will be easier.

[@rachelmolina986]

I've been on this journey multiple times. I've tried every diet under the sun and have lost over 100 lbs twice in my life, only to gain it ALL back. I completely understand the anxiety you talk about surrounding regaining the weight. I used to wake up in a panic thinking I had eaten too much that day and hadn't burned enough calories. I would get out of bed from a dead sleep to get on the treadmill to work out. It was a horrible, unhappy existence! The only thing that changed how I am able to lose and keep the weight off was serious therapy. I had to work on the deeper issue that were being masked by food. I am over 50 years old. My highest weight was approximately 300 lbs (never weighed myself much) I am currently, 164 lbs, and have maintained this weight with minor fluctuations for 10 years. I applaud you, and will continue rooting for you always!!

[@kalimba9810]

My story is very similar Rachel, although I'm a decade older. Well done you. It's wonderful when things finally click in after disappointing regains, and you can see that you can maintain your weightloss because you've lost weight by real and sustainable lifestyle changes.

[@lucylismore]

This was a great video! I spent years in shame doing things that you described (or avoiding them) because I was overweight and wish so much I had had the attitude and rational thinking that you have now. I was thinking about it, and as if you read my mind you said it, but you will look back in several years and be soooooo so happy and proud that you recorded this process and not only that but you will already be having such a positive impact on others right now. I'm proud of you and I don't think you should feel any shame seeing yourself do yoga for exampe (although as someone who was in a similar position, I can still 100% relate 😅). Sending you lots of love, I am so excited to see your journey! xxx

[@christinemccoy5237]

Hi Lucy, I love your channel and have been watching for the past few months, which is how I came across April. Thanks for all the tips. I have learned so much from you. Take care!

[@taylore6677]

I like to remember this advice, which piggy backs on something you were saying: You should never put off your happiness for a later date or a later weight. Sending you love and support - this journey is tough, but you're doing great ❤

[@AprilLauren]

Great advice! Thank you! ❤️

[@sgp1489]

I've been noticing that you are slimming up and are stronger. Now I'm noticing that strength is on the inside too. You are starting to appreciate yourself. Self worth is not something that Amazon sells. I'm old enough to be your mom and you inspire me❤

[@Twisterx82]

I found you through ‘Every Day Damn Fitness’ video that was made about you, wouldn’t have found your channel otherwise. Got a committed viewer now, I like your content. Haven’t missed an episode yet. Love your outlook and positivity! I also enjoy watching obese to beast. Alan’s approach may be a bit harsh for some people, but I respect it and enjoy his content. Gets me motivated.

[@AprilLauren]

Me too! I have so much respect for Alan and through out conversations I got an insider(ish) look at how much he cares about people in general and how much he wants to help people obtain healthy lifestyles and just good health! He is awesome!! I am so happy you are here!! (I am doing a live with John on his channel today! ❤️❤️❤️ I am so excited!!) I am someone who appreciates directness, so I really value Alan's frankness! He is awesome! ❤️

[@carloluis174]

I absolutely love this lady! I hope she never sells out or starts promoting weight loss products...everyone always does that.

[@mincloudmincloud]

It’s me again! Just wanted to check back in with you all again with my weight loss/self-confidence journey. I’m still about the same weight as last week, but that does not concern me much. Most importantly, I feel proud of myself for exercising more everyday, using willpower to eat more smart, and maintaining good mental and physical hygiene. I still allow myself to snack on the occasional junk food, but I always do it within moderation (except for one day where I had Burger King. I felt horrible afterwards, and I really regret it- keeping myself accountable, using it as a learning point). I feel so strong and so motivated! Looking in the mirror isn’t so bad as it was before. 14.4lbs down- so proud of you! You’re looking amazing, absolutely radiant. See you next week! Taking your thoughts on shame and putting them into my practice, I want to embrace my journey further by writing down my weight here. 2 weeks ago (morning): 285lbs This morning: 276lbs!!!

[@lahovey]

Slow and steady wins the race. I've lost 52 pounds, ounces at a time over a year. A year ago, I did not imagine that I would weigh 50 pounds less. I'm not looking back at my past failures, I'm moving forward and my life is so much better for it.

[@annewhite4392]

New sub. Found you from Every Damn Day Fitness. Love the options to jump around.

[@AprilLauren]

Hi Anne! So happy you're here!! And, I'm so happy you love the options to jump around! :)

[@grateful1929]

If our hearts aren't beautiful. We aren't. No matter what we look like. You've got this sweet girl! Just make sure you keep your heart beautiful!😊 Oh, and what you're saying is very needed!

[@NextLevelOnlineCoaching]

Best advice she pointed out was Tactics, Process Goals and Results Goals. You've developed your "Inner Trainer" very well I also liked that your sad that you have to modify but grateful that you can move and still participate in the activities you love! GOLD

[@delphiburton100]

Someone told me once “fix what you are ashamed of”

[@AprilLauren]

I guess that is one way to look at it. I really feel, for me in my experience, shame is unproductive... but by facing things that make me feel that way... I guess in away that is what leads to fixing it? ❤️

[@MrMonkiepunk]

Amanda Hayes i did too let’s support each other!!!

[@Msleonoraful]

I don’t agree. With your weight you can feel shame but actually you are fine. you are just not genetically a super model so don’t need fixing just acceptance

[@harleyquiinnnn]

....Or realize where its coming from and that you maybe shouldnt be ashamed in the first place. Always giving in to shame isnt the best thing to do

[@larrynottingham2502]

@@AprilLauren I'm with you on this one April. My own opinion is SelfLove and looking forward to your future possibilities is key. You are a brave girl you can do this.

[@JennRighter]

I LOVE how transparent you are. It can be difficult to be transparent to one's self, so to be able to do that and share it publicly is very brave. Thank you.

[@JennRighter]

And your dog is the cutest.

[@mr_wright_official_]

Amazed that you are so good at noticing all your problems AND trying to solve them, takes real discipline and courage to do that. I'm actually going into a pretty intense phase of my cut, going down to 2200 calories per day (my maintenance is around 3000) so I know the struggle. You should absolutely not feel sad or shame watching yourself workout!! Sick people don't feel shameful when they are at the doctor's.

[@laurentracy6282]

I saw Allen post his review of your journey and I was so ready to rip him apart thinking he was going to be mean to you but he surprised me. He was actually very supportive and constructive. I think unlike a lot of trainers he knows firsthand that as an overweight person doing everyday things let alone exercise is significantly harder than it is for people within a normal weight range. It was nice to see him give you the credit and respect you deserve.

[@jillc9882]

I hate to see a label on a piece of clothing that says "One size fits all". It doesn't and neither does a diet plan or lifestyle choices. You are doing what is right for you and it is working for you. Each person can find the plan that works for them and as long as its not some off the wall plan that harms them, they should get to do their own thing. (I have not watched his video evaluation but I might) I love the lessons I am learning from you. Start living and enjoying your life NOW and not when you reach some certain number on a scale. Wear the cute work out clothes if you enjoy them. Enjoy your life as you are and accept where you are so you can move forward Find a plan that works for you and be consistent. Express yourself through the things that make you happy and feel special.... pretty clothes, earrings, etc... If you like it, go for it. Don't be ashamed to be honest about yourself. Its ok to feel a little embarrassed or afraid.... but do it anyway and it will get easier and you will be proud of your accomplishments. I dont know if you have ever seen the movie "What about Bob" but this pops in my head often. Bob is afraid to do everything so they tell him to take a vacation from his problems by taking Baby steps. If you havent seen the movie its funny and a good movie to watch. I can't run a mile but I can baby step it and maybe some day I can baby run it until I can flat out do it. But I am baby steppin my weight loss, one ounce at a time.

[@melindajones7764]

I just watched Every Damn Day Fitness’ video, and I took it as a huge compliment to you. He made a few suggestions that may or may not fit your needs/goals, but he obviously thinks you’re on the right track. Be proud of yourself!

[@AprilLauren]

I loved his video!! He was so kind and positive!! Thank you for your sweet comment!❤️❤️

[@angiiemarie6097]

Idk if it's the accent, your personality or the content but I just feel so happy when I watch your videos

[@keyperforever1942]

Thx for putting it in kg 😍 you're a queen you made my day now I don't have to go to Google 😂 Keep up the good work wish you all the best 🙏🏼

[@AprilLauren]

You're welcome 😊❤️ Thanks for your sweet comment and encouragement!! 🥰

[@ivette7332]

I wish I was your neighbor, I would be in your house everyday! And tagging along on your shopping sprees!🤣🤣😂 you are definitely my BFF in my head! 😘😘

[@AprilLauren]

Hahaha, that would be so fun to have a neighbor that I did things with all of the time! ❤️

[@ivette7332]

@@AmandaHayes_16 just subscribed

[@HannahTheHorrible]

I haven't lost any significant amount of weight, but my sister has lost over 100lbs this past year without the gym. She just walks like crazy, and changed her eating. She does intermittent fasting everyday and she says that makes a HUGE difference and really helps her lose weight.

[@jasonallen9072]

I found you because of every damn day fitness’s review of your video. I think you are amazing!! Your pupps are adorable !

[@bbwoman951]

I never, ever, ever leave comments, but I think you are such a beautiful person (inside and out). I love your spirit, your transparency, and content. Keep doing what you do!

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, thank you so much for taking the time to leave a sweet comment for me!! It made me smile!! ❤️❤️❤️ I appreciate you more thank you could know!!

[@robynology101]

“Maybe that means...telling your husband your weight.” Stop coming for me, April! 🤣😭 ok, ok. I’m gonna tell him this month 😆

[@paigelunday3252]

Yeah when I think of telling my hubs my weight I break out in hives! Jk, but close to it!

[@jodyt8548]

@@paigelunday3252 my husband and I are both heavy, so he knows my weight.

[@toniadykes3105]

I don’t know how I came across your video but I am glad I did. I have struggled for years with my weight. I will get on a healthy kick and fall off. You give me so much motivation ❤️ You are absolutely beautiful I used food as comfort after my divorce and after a guy I was with murdered. Now I’m trying to get back on track.

[@Caaaaaroline]

Your honesty and approach is refreshing. Loving this channel.

[@AprilLauren]

I appreciate that! ❤️Thanks for your sweet comment and encouragement!! 🥰

[@Frisbeegrl11]

April, I admire you and your positive attitude so much. Thank you for so much for addressing shame and for being such a positive role model. You rock, lady!

[@ElizabethPearch]

I'm so glad I found you, April. You really have inspired me to face my shame. I use to weigh as much as you and I lost 180 pounds - and then life happened and I ate my feelings - I had a medical issue and surgery as well - but I gave in to depression and feeling sorry for myself. It wasn't healthy at all. I gained 80 pounds back. So here I am working on losing it again and I found you. Heavenly Father dropped you on my feed!~ I'm with you all the way and I don't even know you, but I love you.

[@nataliesorrells4542]

I really enjoyed you talking about shame and finding a positive outlet to work through that emotion because it can be so damaging to our well being. And I also struggle with anxiety about weight loss in general, living in fear of gaining more weight and striving too much for perfection. I used to be a lot smaller, but honestly I was so obsessed with staying small and freaked out about gaining weight I think that unhealthy mindset is what drove me to stop caring altogether. And now I'm back to square one but working towards living a much more sustainable, healthy life. Thank you for touching on these subjects. You're doing such an awesome job and you're an amazing inspiration to a lot of people right now. Keep up the good work!

[@nataliaaabx]

one of my favourite channels, thank you for being so real even about the tough stuff noone talks about

[@blondiemanda2]

thanks for putting yourself out there and being totally honest about your journey. I appreciate you sharing all the bad and not just the good. its nice to know that we all are experiencing the same struggles!

[@megshawskitchen]

Really love the quote behind you that says "Every bad day has an end" That's my dose of Inspiration for today

[@sunnyfunny12]

Listening to you while I walk a mile or two on my journey to lose 100. ❤️ love your channel!

[@sunnyfunny12]

Amanda Hayes I’ll check your channel out for sure.

[@Skry_Cat]

Oh, Wonderful Woman! I'm so proud of you! I'm about -45lb into my current journey and I can't tell you how much light and warmth it brings into my life to watch lovely people like you succeed in your goals! I'm so amazed by you all the time! Thank you for inviting us on your journey with you!

[@neonpinkglitterstars]

I’m so proud of for being so open and honest. I deal with so much shame around my weight, I hate feeling that way. That shames gotta go. I know what you are talking about. I’m an emotional eater, once I found out trigger that causes the eating. Things got so much better. One of the things that help me a lot, is eating out of smaller dishes.

[@meeka2702]

April...I'm very proud of you for being in touch with yourself, your entire being, your whole mind, body and spirit....I remember years ago when I first started losing weight...I had to realize that I got comfortable and let myself go for many reasons...Reclaiming your whole self is the best way...My motto is...If One Fails, We All Fail...Grow....Prosper and Overcome....Keep your focus. Remember you cannot please everyone..I know the spirit you have, but the most important thing we forget is that we got to focus on SELF, and those who walk with you have to respect you for that....Let's Go!!!

[@CherriMoustache]

You are just the sweetest and most wholesome person ever. With an attitude and great positivity like yours i KNOW you will meet your goal and i cant wait to see you reach it :)

[@pillsevans2947]

Watching your videos just inspire me to be the best version of myself. Not only because you're working so hard to better your health but your vibrant personality.

[@frosting6439]

I love your videos you have such a sweet, charismatic personality. I’m loving following your health journey, but also it would be cool to see more vlogs, book reviews, home Decour/decorating stuff. I’m interested in all of it if you decide to branch out with your videos. Also keep us updated on the ‘no spend’ August

[@AprilLauren]

Thanks for your sweet comment and encouragement!! 🥰And, I will try to do more vlogs! I don't know why but the vlogs are hard for me, haha. I really love the encouragement and support though!! And, I'll try to branch out some🥰

[@LIVingButNotLaughing]

April has the best attitude!! Watching her has helped to motivate me to start my own weight loss and health journey! Starting today.

[@anondoe9170]

"This is not the point" self talk-I feel that soooo much!! Good for you taking the time to be introspective and have those self talks!!

[@AprilLauren]

❤️ Aww, and thank you for the sweet comment, support and encouragement!! 🥰

[@carmenalinaiancu3738]

i've watched so many 'weight loss journey ' videos , until i finally found someone i completely resonate with. thank you for being so real

[@lilmissmonsterrr]

What you were saying about expressing shame and not putting off doing healthy and positive things for some future version of yourself is really important. You're absolutely right!

[@pritis4362]

The hair is simply gorgeous.. whatever u do dont let its shine and health go anywhere please !! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@lexieburns5801]

Hi Love! Just a tip for meal prepping, I wouldn’t recommend doing meal prep for any fresh veggies or fruit, because once you cut any fresh vegetable or fruit, after leaving it in the fridge for sometime, the nutritional value goes down significantly than when you eat it whole or defrosting it from the freezer. Just a way to have more nutrients ❤️

[@danetspeaks8708]

Good to know 👌🏽

[@risabee6312]

I love how the dogs show up as soon as the fridge opens! Too funny. I’m glad I found your channel... you’re so positive and down to earth. From watching some of your other videos I noticed that we have pretty much the exact same triggers for weight gain and/or self-sabotage. We deserve to give ourselves a fair chance at being happy and healthy. 💚🐝

[@sargeant64]

I found your channel through EDDF and I think you're so amazing. I admire your positivity and I'm truly jealous of how good you are at jump rope (I do kick boxing and we always jump rope for warm up but I'm absolutely hopeless at it!)! I'm also on a weightloss journey and slowly learning how to find a way to sustainably lose weight. Alan has some great information and, although blunt, I really like his approach. I personally can't track calories because I forget to input them into the app and then if I'm over calories I just throw in the towel and just eat whatever. I instead work out a meal plan ahead of time that sits at a good number of calories and just stick to it, so that way I don't have to keep track every day.

[@everybodybeauty5499]

I loved when you talked about your feelings about yoga and dancing ❤️❤️ you do deserve them💗💗

[@ultimatefitnessnutrition8655]

Loved it - He is so real and to the point. I thought he was kind in reference to you...and proud he was. Your are awesome - he lead us to your channel in fact! Thanks for sharing your journey with all of us. You've got this!

[@AprilLauren]

He was so so kind!!! Even my Mom loved his video! And, if my Momma loves it... well... let's just say I thought Alan was awesome... but my Momma Verified it, Haha. ❤️ Thanks for your sweet comment and encouragement!! 🥰

[@emily3542]

Started my weight loss roller coaster ride about the same time as you and it's so nice to see someone so energetic and enthusiastic about it! It helps so much. You're amazing! Thank you for sharing it all with us.

[@HelenCzap]

When I re-started, or rather continued, my weight loss journey I felt so much shame. Everything you said I definitely relate to. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and journey on KZbin!

[@kjeracarroll450]

It’s so much better for your spirit to not let shame and the negative thoughts or dark thoughts take over! It brings so much joy and happiness. Our trials and imperfections help up grow and learn and shape us to be the best us! I am thankful for your videos!!

[@lyndseymcguire8190]

You have such an inclusive heart. It shows in littles way that makes me believe you are kind to all you meet. So happy for your journey. Having a baby is what I am working towards to, so I feel ya on that reason to be healthy 💗have a blessed week.

[@viligaspar8669]

I find you really inspiring. I've tried to lose weight many many times, but it gets hard whenever I get a bit more depressed, due to stress and shame, and events happening in my life. Thanks to you, whenever I feel a little bit more sad or feeling like giving up, listening to your calm voice, watching your progress and your positivity, really makes me think twice and keep going. Thank you really much!!

[@brawlersagittarius4192]

I respect you deeply, you have a cure for my soul in each one of your videos, thank you so much💗

[@AprilLauren]

Aww, thank you for leaving me such a thoughtful comment!! ❤️ Truly! 🥰

[@brawlersagittarius4192]

@@AprilLauren 💝😘

[@voceangelo]

The shame section made me cry and gave me so much hope at the same time. I think we all need to be kinder to ourselves and start calling ourselves out when we start beating ourselves. Thank you so much. I'm subscribed!

[@beckhamwestwick]

You’re doing such a good job! I am cheering for you! You got this!

[@renyoung1955]

You are the most adorable human! I appreciate how open and honest you are! Plus your humor is adorable!

[@lisaw8619]

I didn’t agree with Every Damn Day that calorie counting is an unsustainable crutch. I eat a lot of the same things all the time, so calorie counting is easy, and I plan to keep doing it. I love your channel, way to go!

[@sgp1489]

I wish he would come up with his own content rather than critique other people's

[@mariasdecoranddiy2102]

I don’t think calorie counting is unsustainable either, I have tracked over several months and eventually I can do it in my head cuz of repeated menus.. it’s almost a way to teach yourself intuitive eating when you’ve lost that ability imo ... I think Alan meant that it shouldn’t be used as a crutch but I don’t think he thinks it’s always a crutch

[@mariasdecoranddiy2102]

I also think it can become a crutch for people that have ocd tendencies but it’s not something to be worried about for most people

[@Abc-cp8me]

I think the idea of sticking to a 'certain daily calorie count' is unsustainable but the act of keeping yourself accountable by logging the food you eat and at least being aware of the average calories and macros you consumed in a span of a week is more than enough. + checking in with how you feel in terms of energy levels, satiety and how you happy you still look in your current body. I do not feel bad anymore on days that I go over my target (1900 calories) and have made amazing progress this way. I also stopped binge eating because of this. Turns out i just have the urge to eat a lot because i wasnt eating enough. I can say my dieting sweet spot is 1800-1900 and my optimum performance calories is 2000-2100. Eating 2400 just makes me want to skip a meal. Funny how the simple act of keeping a food diary makes you know more about yourself.

[@mariasdecoranddiy2102]

CJ Plick I don’t think it should be a daily limit necessarily, it could be a weekly limit etc but for people who binge eat and compulsively overeat, I think it’s almost impossible to get a loss in without imposing some kind of limit .. I know for me as a binge eater it’s like that. I could track and still eat 5000 calories if I’m not holding myself accountable.

[@dcoff2443]

Thank you for sharing your life and journey, I have recently just started my weight loss journey a couple of months ago. And I’m watching you talk about shame and oh my heart aches and is healing with you through that conversation. Shame has been on a loud speaker in my life and even today, and wow did I need to hear that to literally get out of bed! 😔 I hide too, I run too, so you’re not alone in that at all and as al of this watching you and as I’ve gone on this journey and am 3 months in, My life is becoming less shame filled, but today got me, and so your message is timely, honest and real!!’ What a blessing and a gift you are! You’re inspiring in so many ways! Thank you for your bright light!

[@amandaneilson7789]

I like the idea of rewarding yourself and I like that it doesn’t have to do with food or fitness. Good idea 💡👏🏻

[@sara2382]

It may be hard for you to watch yourself do yoga and other workouts, but I'm so glad you put them in your videos because I love watching them! Your yoga is calming and your harder workouts are super motivating.

[@opheliacloser6255]

Also, I think what you said about shame is very important. I think it's important to realise when we get into that state first, observe it, then try understand where this feeling is coming from (and not beat yourself up for feeling shame) (most of the times it's something we learned and this can be unlearned) and then be kind to ourselves. Like you said it's partly a choice to say something nice to yourself and to ALLOW yourself to be happy despite of the things that made you feel ashamed in the first place. Because everyone deserves that. Happiness and growth comes from a positive place, not from shame. We don't have to beat ourselves up, we can be kind to ourselves :)

[@juliasmithe]

You are so right on about shame...it’s something each of us have and bury and hide. Thank you.

[@vertun2002]

Nicely done, April! And I'm totally stealing your earrings-as-a-reward idea!

[@AprilLauren]

Yaaas! I love it!!

[@mbstephens8034]

Me too on the earings!

[@ashsf335]

April you are such a role model 🦄 A rockstar ⭐️ Complete angel 😇 can’t wait to see your progress as I will be on this journey with you. We are so lucky to have your videos!!!

[@danielleshanti]

Hi April! If you start your time stamps in the description with 00:00, youtube will automatically put chapters along the time bar for you.

[@theravensnest6880]

I have the same feelings. When I watch back my workouts on my channel I feel sad the way i look and I feel "shame" but when I do it I feel so amazing and like a strong woman. I share it because it's good for me and I don't want to hide anymore. I share it because I want to help others not feel that same way about themselves. I am tired of feeling the "bad" and "shame" about myself. Thanks for sharing yours! It helps me to keep sharing mine. I am over that feeling. I want to be free of that! Thanks for being awesome!!!!

[@carolynallen9016]

I've started drinking a gallon of water a day with a dash of salt game changer. Love your channel

[@AprilLauren]

That is awesome! I am so happy it helps!!

[@Oversurge_]

why salt?

[@poppynicholson]

Oversurge it helps with hydration x

[@lauraa5331]

It’s weird 🤔 I’ve always heard salt contributed to water retention and that we should try to consume less of it(?)

[@poppynicholson]

Laura A basically, if you workout a lot you lose sweat. The more unfit you are the saltier you’re sweat is. If you drink too much water or try to replace sweat loss with plain water it can cause Hyponayremia which is an imbalance of water and sodium. You need to add 0.5g-0.7g of salt per litre for every hour of exercise that you do. It stops cramping and lethargy x

[@elisaconnelly6674]

I'm on a weight loss and self love journey too. You are such an inspiration. Nothing but respect for you. Keep being you. You are a joy!

[@Trthsker24]

April, Check out Kim's Commitment channel. She has lost 100 lbs, doing healthy keto and exercise she is awesome. Sometimes shopping is part of stress relief.

[@AprilLauren]

Thanks for the heads up! ❤️

[@Se7enevil]

April Lauren the main problem is Insulin Resistance ...if you look it up it will make a huge change for you...Please check Dr.Jason Fung and Dr.Berg ...Good luck!❤️

[@lynningram9171]

Kim does amazing meal prep as well. She uses up everything.

[@AmandaIsAwesome]

I binged today and was feeling really down and you gave me the motivation to do a workout just out of love for me. Watched your video during cardio and had to say thanks 💕. Anxiety and depression with the pandemic and lockdown has had me bingeing a lot and I’ve gained (if I’m honest🙈) 50 lbs in the last year. I am very ashamed but picking myself up and working through it now. Glad I found your channel! All the best 💕

[@alkibs9858]

I'm listening to Brene Brown "I Thought It Was Just Me (but it isn't). It examines the effects of shame and provides strategies to navigate.

[@AprilLauren]

❤️

[@ShanteR634]

I love hearing you talk about the things that you deserve in your life! You do deserve to do the things that make you happy and I am so proud that you’re making it happen ❤️

[@AprilLauren]

Thank you my friend! I miss you tons! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Love you lady!

[@carriecobb1235]

You are such a rockstar!🤩👍❤

[@Stuckwthme]

I love watching you when I first start my day at work, you make my day bright!

[@2ndSummer]

I’ve used MyFitnessPal for almost 5 years now, so I think it’s sustainable.

[@Art_and_Anxiety]

Your positivity and genuine warmth are such a breath of fresh air. Thank you for sharing your journey with us! 😊

[@kristina778]

Yes I totally know what you meant about stillness. I have had the most success with a diet called Ideal Protein($84-$105 per week). 1st time I did it I lost 60 lbs you have a diet coach and it is sold under some sort of dr. (chiropractor or pharmacist) It is 3 of there foods and 4 cups of veggies. Then I got pregnant the next time I did it i lost 30 ish lbs and again got pregnant. I guess the soy in it increases the estrogen and I started making more eggs making me more fertile. Now I am doing my own version on it with Premeir Protein shakes from Walmart, and I have my tubes tied so cross my fingers that this is the last time I am doing a huge weightloss.

[@amorales259]

In Sam's and Costco the premier protein cost less

[@ladyvonwake1476]

I adore you! When you started talking about why you share what you do. I got teary-eyed because I know what you mean about shame and fear. Thank you so much!

[@Takaashiagi]

you NEVER relax regarding food. this journey you're on now must be forever.

[@maisie3070]

I have never left a comment on a youtube video in my life but I had to say you are such a beautiful and inspirational soul and it's a priviledge you watch your journey! Thank you for your words

[@noone-777]

Everything Amber Reid wishes she could be

[@lobstermacncheesefarts3989]

YESSSSSSS!

[@butterflyzero23]

One of the most helpful inspirations for me is your plan of not making changes in the middle of the month. One of my biggest issues when I attempt to lose weight is that I start with a plan, start reading several articles, then getting overwhelmed with the information and figuring out if I'm doing the right thing. There's so much conflicting information out there: carbs are good, carbs are bad, eat less calories, eat more or you're in starvation mode, exercise is good, cardio is best for weight loss, lifting weights is better than cardio for weight loss, exercise doesn't affect weight loss, a calorie is a calorie, not all calories are created equal. That's usually when I give up. I'm feeling inspired to start again, and love the idea of sticking to one plan, evaluating the results, and making changes based on those results.

[@reannanglass3193]

Hi April! I never comment, but I just want to thank you for doing what you’re doing now! I love how open, sweet, and motivating you are! We both started our weight loss journey around the same time and watching your videos has helped me so much! I eventually want to start making KZbin videos documenting my journey so I can help others as well! Fear is just the only thing holding me back. Hopefully one day I’ll get to that point where I’m ready! I really love what you said about shame and confronting it! I really needed to hear that today! And again I just want to say thank you for inspiring and motivating me with every video! I hope you have an amazing rest of night!❤️

[@Mdubzzzzz]

Hey April, super glad I came across your channel! You motivate me to stick to my goals and not get too caught up in being perfect. Also the yoga clip was awesome in my eyes. p.s. I ran into Betsey Johnson a couple weeks ago and she has the coolest aura! Get those earrings, girl! ❤️

[@vmbrocca]

I wanted to say I love your channel and energy! I am 5ft 1 inches went down from my heaviest at 250 (when I stopped looking at the scale) 5 years later I’m 132 pounds and learning to love my body everyday. Your attitude about weight loss is refreshing and so kind. Thank you for sharing you. I wish I had you to watch when I was losing the majority of the weight in my late teens. I wanted to say something I’ve personally learned is that shame is just a mean distraction to keep you from confronting whatever inner work you need to do. For example I could say to myself “you can’t do that because you’re XY&Z” but really what if I can and my brain is just “protecting” me from trying because I’m afraid of failure etc. Shame is unproductive and keeps us trapped. It’s so hard when you have anxiety/depression you tend to say to yourself what if I fail but if you push past it and dare to think, what if I succeed?! Magic and opportunities happen when we allow space for them. I’m so proud of you for working to free yourself from shame and going on this journey out of love for yourself. Congratulations on your progress! You are so beautiful and kind, I’ll keep watching you and rooting for you ♥️