what am i supposed to be doing?

[@Studycase3000]

In truth, all of it and the wonder is, IT IS ALL OK...😉 Fin~

[@steveskonntent]

It's always OK :D

[@Burhan-c7z]

i have the same problem. I make too many to do lists and when i start to actually do something productive and do it well and enjoy it, then i start wonder what else is there to learn and do?

[@steveskonntent]

perhaps you've taken it to its actual end destination. sometimes things can just be, they don't have to be finished or as perfect as our mind says

[@Studycase3000]

I said to my therapist a day or so ago, (yes I do and yes I love her) I felt like our conversation had been actually hacked, the timing, the wording, all uncanny. You see I thanked her 2 weeks ago the last time we had spoken, my jumbled thoughts put to order. I expressed how she made me feel that day as best I could before letting her go. "Throughout today I felt as though I was standing there in a pea soup fog no way to see past. Arms down by my sides, elbows bent palms up, you came through and calmly put your open palms on top of mine and said by the time we finish, the fog will have cleared. I told her I was grateful, as it had done just that" Then the VERY next day you replied as you did. It spooked me to put it mildly. I presented well as is my nature but... I spoke to her this week and mentioned such a bizarre coincidence she too was surprised. I still don't know WHAT to make of it all. I decide tonight to share and put it to that thread, the human bond. Listening/watching your essay once again you saying you often believe that we all feel the same. A commonality yes but then there are moments in life that cross the boundary into "The more" all that we cannot touch or put name to with ease. I've wanted to share this from the night you responded. I was just dumbfounded and actually spooked, of all the representations you and I could have used individually. All the things we can, should and are presently doing as you mention throughout, well today I chose to open the door here in New England on a misty day and just watch all the birds and critters play for a good hour or more. I had pulled up a chair in the stillness to the thresh hold, no screens just door wide open to the woods down to the water. I felt so rich afterwards. It stayed with me throughout the day and all night long. I even went out no jacket or umbrella and soaked it up thinking of your writing. It wasn't a storm but I did get wet and I sure was happy to be doing...Nothing~

[@steveskonntent]

I love this. Thank you friend and sorry to keep you waiting for a response so long. I hope that day was magical, it sounded like it. I believe there's just energy out there and we all feel it, some of us just suppress it, some don't know how to communicate, but some brave souls try to communicate without knowing if they're even making sense. To them and you I say, thank God for you.