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@Juicybeachgirls5 жыл бұрын
I appreciate the one who was actually honest saying she doesn’t remember the last time she ate
@hio21002 жыл бұрын
im not sure if she was being honest,,,
@conia422 жыл бұрын
@@hio2100 She said she didn’t remembered the last time she ate a meal, she probably means she lives off snacks
@ghjsudhxhx90632 жыл бұрын
And I don’t too and I will not
@SarokarNGO2 жыл бұрын
Where you’re allowed to wear lace nightgowns that make you look like a Victorian ghost every day & no one will side eye you cause no one is around.
@lovettdeleted10 жыл бұрын
"Anorexia is an eating disorder, not a body type". EXACTLY. THANK YOU. It's extremely disrespectful to both suffers of anorexia AND naturally thin people when people use the word 'anorexia' to describe a certain body type, when in fact it's a name of a terrible illness.
@headphonic8 Жыл бұрын
Anorexia is just a medical term for not eating. Cancer patients can experience "anorexia" if they're undereating. Anorexia NERVOSA is the name of the disease.
@rocky4629Ай бұрын
@@headphonic8No not for not eating, it’s related to low body weight, just wanted to make that correction
@l.k.111123 күн бұрын
It is a preference.
@casskayecars10 жыл бұрын
I admire the one that said she didn't remember when she last ate. It's probably the best representation of the fact that the boney look is from eating very little. I understand fast metabolisms and all, but if it's natural you don't typically look boney.
@Carakidd5 жыл бұрын
Sure, but a lot of it is from burning more than you’re consuming - not purposely starving yourself. Those girls go and go all day long. Purposely declining to eat isn’t as common as you think. Not prioritizing eating is.
@thismodeleatsalot5 жыл бұрын
I feel so bad for her :( but love her honesty
@saarinenj12 жыл бұрын
@clear blue water There is.
@yunosogasii62002 жыл бұрын
@@Carakidd it actually is. A lot of woman especially in the US suffer with eating disorders. You’d honestly be surprised. Yes some do eat less and burn more, but there are some who eat under 1000 calories a day. That’s unhealthy.
@amandirebon8448 Жыл бұрын
@clear blue water Yes there is lol ridiculous thing to say
@kmyy0110 жыл бұрын
It's weird the fact that some of them eat normal meals and still have a really high metabolism and other ones have to starve themselves.
@Skypad0010 жыл бұрын
Just different bodies and different metabolisms.
@Lindsey000710 жыл бұрын
yeah I am very thin, (5'8, 111 pounds) have been underweight my whole life except when I was a baby and I eat whatever and have a very hard time gaining weight. I think a lot of it has to do with genetics and metabolism because my entire family is very thin. My dad is like 6'1 and 155 or 160 pounds and he is 51!
@phaedra13556 жыл бұрын
they dont have high metabolisms lol they just exercise a LOT lol
@starrypotts85136 жыл бұрын
The difference in metabolism would account for like 50 calories a day.
@andreiavieiradasilva75346 жыл бұрын
How do you know? Some people are skinny and they still eat a lot. I can eat everything and I don't gain weight.
@KourtneeMonroexoxo8 жыл бұрын
theyre so hype about food because they hardly eat.
@stainedhands8 жыл бұрын
+Adriana Lima Lover its because they want it to look the same on the models as it does on the hanger
@MsEliteForever7 жыл бұрын
+entschuldigung False
@gabbypowell11876 жыл бұрын
What does it mean of I'm hyped about food but eat all the time
@modernlover0rosalyn5 жыл бұрын
True.
@thismodeleatsalot5 жыл бұрын
You would be too, wouldn't you?
@adwoa363610 жыл бұрын
"Like an army of tall, skinny bitches" I love Jourdan so much
@rachelattack8 жыл бұрын
I love hearing all their beautiful accents. We know these faces so well but never hear them speak! Hanne's voice is so lovely! And as another 5'11 woman, I've always wondered how their feet managed. Most of these labels don't even make 11s.
@scarletteyre50863 жыл бұрын
Just so you know, a lot of models don't eat that much before a show, sometimes for a few days they will just drink smoothies, it doesn't mean they are insecure or have eds, it's just what is sometimes required. Models rarely stay as thin as they are for runway throughout the year.
@thyop892 жыл бұрын
Yeah...that's still not normal behavior and it's still classed as disordered eating.
@Mopsbpv2 жыл бұрын
@@thyop89 its their job
@thyop892 жыл бұрын
@@Mopsbpv yeah and my point still stands.
@Meg-cc6yc2 жыл бұрын
@@thyop89 I go on smoothie cleanses too sometimes. I’m 5’6 125 pounds. I don’t wanna be a fatso lol.
@thyop892 жыл бұрын
@@Meg-cc6yc you don't have to be underweight to have an ED. Disorded eating is just that. Patterns of eating that are abnormal.
@aaaayah10 жыл бұрын
That interviewer was the best
@bellaisannoying29798 жыл бұрын
model- I eat like a granola bar every few weeks me- *can't talk because I have too much cake in my mouth
@coolkids35117 жыл бұрын
I live for the ending.
@beingscouted11 жыл бұрын
I met Andie Arthur last week and she's such a sweetheart! We took two pictures together and I got two hugs from her. I hope she goes far!
@lovettdeleted11 жыл бұрын
I think they're referring to the fact that they're constantly working and travelling to the point of not being able to take some time off to eat properly (proper food, instead of sandwiches, all the time). Models are very busy people. I'm sure there ARE a few models who starve themselves, sadly. But not all models do that, because modelling requires tons of energy, something you won't get if you're not eating enough.
@Carakidd5 жыл бұрын
I think it’s iteresting how people with fascinations with eating disorders think that the sufferer is completely awar and cognizant and is holding a secret that she’s hoping not to be accused of. Furthermore anorexia is a form of anxiety and depression, not calorie restriction. Calorie restriction can be unhealthy but is not the eating disorder we all think it is. It does not inclue social deprivation, isolation, impulsivity, lack of motivation, flat personality. Sheer loss of impetus to thrive. People who stop eating have lost will to live. It is beyond depressing and devastating. Calorie restriction Can be physically detrimental but it is not anorexia.
@DiscoSheepOffish2 жыл бұрын
NO BC THIS IS SO TRUE!
@Carakidd2 жыл бұрын
It is 100% true. Thanks! And it is scary. The pull down behavior towards models is rampant. Thanks for the snaps!!!
@cherryteagirl22211 ай бұрын
Yes !!! I was waiting years for someone to say it..❤❤
@B-jv5tx7 ай бұрын
thank you!
@apyeon11 жыл бұрын
actually, ONE piece of sushi is like 70 calories. this probably explains why one order of sushi gives you around six or eight. then again, they never specified how many they ate.
@ninjabreadgirl10 жыл бұрын
Lol that interviewer was great! It's nice to hear that these girls eat (albeit very small amounts..) W/e, I feel better about going to stuff my face now. Might as well enjoy the little time I have on this planet!
@snicole6049 жыл бұрын
When will people realize its about THE CLOTHES. They are modelling CLOTHES. And what are CLOTHES on when you buy them? HANGERS. Models are supposed to look like HANGERS. The clothes will hang off of them.
@WelcomeToTheScene18 жыл бұрын
Sarah Nicole YES!!!!! FINALLY SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS!!
@bellahina45778 жыл бұрын
disturbing and disgusting.
@alizhansen96668 жыл бұрын
+Sarah Nicole Omg, you're smart! I never thought of that!
@emilygraham42358 жыл бұрын
+Ida Scott in the fashion industry, models are just hangers.
@Lina.H958 жыл бұрын
+Sarah Nicole They're supposed to be like Mannequins! Skinny Fucking Mannequins. -_-
@shadowFlame20810 жыл бұрын
i love the end
@siidraalam2 жыл бұрын
i love their voices! such beauties
@RosieJetPlane10 жыл бұрын
Why is everyone assuming they all have eating disorders?
@parisjackson4539 жыл бұрын
They all assume that because most models are super skinny but they are also very tall and they have fast metabolisms.
@writemynameinyourblood9 жыл бұрын
Because some of them look downright anorexic. You can definitely tell the difference between someone that's super skinny- yet healthy and someone who is anorexic.
@lianage.38859 жыл бұрын
Most models do starve themselves . Anyone in the industry who's honest will be open about that
@littlevixen765510 жыл бұрын
I LOVE hanne gaby odiele's voice. For me she was the most captivating of all these girls.
@undomiel1520039 жыл бұрын
They forgot to mention cigarettes and cocaine are a vital part of their diet, that is how most of the models stay five pounds away from anorexia.
@sophieconant22969 жыл бұрын
anorexia isnt a weight, its a mental disorder
@undomiel1520039 жыл бұрын
Sophie Conant For many it simply starts as a weight disorder, which develops into a mental disorder. Not all cases are the same. Not all people have the same traumas which in effect trigger the disease.
@kcn8289 жыл бұрын
Well said sophie!
@Drawcandy8 жыл бұрын
'Five pounds away from anorexia' anorexia is a mental disorder, not a measurement of weight. Not all models choose to do drugs. Some do, but mostly because they're rich, and rich people do cocaine.
@Drawcandy8 жыл бұрын
Do you know how anorexia works? It isn't a disease, you can't catch it. It doesn't start out as a weight disorder at all. Anorexia starts because a person is under a lot of emotional stress, and therefore desire some form of control over their life, so they begin to change and restrict their diets, which then effects their weight. Anorexia isn't a physical thing, it's a mental thing that effects the body physically.
@JaguarStar99910 жыл бұрын
are you sure they're happy?? Man, I've seen so many cases of models, actresses and singers that are all smiles when they're on the camera, but they cry when they are with people they trust. My best friend danced ballet and she ate broccoli all day. She said she was happy but she was always talking about food and she had crazy moments in which she would eat so much and then she cried. There are a lot of anorexia cases among models, dancers and actresses.
@hanawana8 жыл бұрын
Yas Jourdan Dunn. You go girl.
@chrisssiiy10 жыл бұрын
The girls are happy smiling and full of energy. And they're doing what they love most :D they're obviously healthy to do such a high paced job so well....so what's your problem
@jakatom10 жыл бұрын
Happy smiling?...some of them can barely move their lips.
@chrisssiiy10 жыл бұрын
jakatom......please get your eyes tested, you can clearly see they're smiling, even the thumbnail shows girls smiling
@lianage.38859 жыл бұрын
They're all on adderall
@LauraM-kr9wv6 жыл бұрын
Drugs give you lots of energy.
@homeskillet74234 жыл бұрын
They said they cant feel their feet. They dont get to nourish often and they dont look too healthy. Get honest, get real. They're dying each year and laws are being passed in each country.
@Oliviaisdazzled12 жыл бұрын
I loved the ending with the chicken!
@shawnbreiland90007 жыл бұрын
Mackenzie is so cute and HONEST :)
@incognitooooooooooooo123spy2 жыл бұрын
the ending was so sweet
@breedaniel129 жыл бұрын
Cara my queen!
@beyzee85167 жыл бұрын
I can't say with other models, but Cara and Jourdan have ALWAYS been skinny since they were very young way back before becoming a model. I know 'cause I've been following their career for as long as I can remember. They just have a very high metabolism and these two girls are very hyper and physically active. In fact, Karlie shared one time in a cooking video that she went to surprise Jourdan at 2 am in the latter's house and she caught Jourdan cooking FRIED CHICKEN with her pajamas on. Lol So people assume they don't eat but the truth is SOME of these girls are just too high that the food they eat can't easily make them look fat. Plus of course it is a known fact that they also workout.
@sud25982 жыл бұрын
Cara had an eating disorder in her teen years
@nunyabusiness164 Жыл бұрын
You can be naturally skinny as a child and then deny yourself the ability to grow into an adult-sized body by restricting calories. Nobody naturally looks like a 14 year old forever.
@lerulara10 жыл бұрын
jajaj Joundan at the end was so lovely
@ajs77710 жыл бұрын
I think that could just be because of how busy they are though. When Im busy at work I don't get time to eat either and when I get home im too tired to bother, so I can go a day or two with just a couple of cupasoups and cups of tea. Fashion Week is so hectic.
@TheMrsjacoblautner10 жыл бұрын
Lol i love the camera person's comments
@lizseeley594510 жыл бұрын
Jourdan Dunn is hilarious
@michelle72865 жыл бұрын
"can't remember the last time i ate a meal" hmmm 🤔
@sophielovehola10 жыл бұрын
Oh my god I love Cara
@lovettdeleted10 жыл бұрын
Exactly! It's very disrespectful to people who actually do have eating disorders. You can't judge someone to be having an illness just based on their body. Also, I'm very shocked that not many people are aware of naturally thin people. There are so many people who're naturally thin and eat well! I don't get it.
@jessicamiller745011 жыл бұрын
The chicken part is priceless.
@clarapj711 жыл бұрын
mackenzie hamilton seems so down to earth and nice!
@fabulous1singervoice11 жыл бұрын
The high five at the end! :D
@henrikarl11 жыл бұрын
oh my god! for BonChon hahahahahaha!!! i so love jourdan
@crazychic100811 жыл бұрын
HAHAHA Jourdan's so cute, Bon Chon!! :p
@natashaocasio687610 жыл бұрын
Jourdan and Cara
@KatieManson11 жыл бұрын
0:37 i`m in love with her accent
@sierrafiles610610 жыл бұрын
At the end 😂 Lol. You knew what chicken she was talking about, Hahahaha
@VLVDV7 жыл бұрын
I love Hanne Gaby!
@CrazyBlackMidget12 жыл бұрын
cara and jordan aw
@princessbeautycorner94827 жыл бұрын
The ending lol😂
@AndreaKChen10 жыл бұрын
I believe they can eat a lot and dont even get big. My cousin is very small and she eats more than I eat and Im bigger. So, not all models have eating disorder. Everyone's body works differently. Nobody is equal
@AndreaKChen9 жыл бұрын
she has 21
@AndreaKChen9 жыл бұрын
and the other has 23
@tiffanyroseangeles34Ай бұрын
Hey! Thanks,I’m actually 63 years old most people think I’m like 40 ish due to my great skin care , and I’ve good fashion knowledge…. But I EAT YUP a basically same as I did when I was in my 20 years or 30 max. Anyway, I buy clothes that fit same size for yrs. I never diet. I do think there’s something in our family about being genetically different “ whatever.Bc my older sissy brother,and younger brother….We’re all tall ( slim”) people that can enjoy our food to the max! It simply shows age doesn’t always mean anything in terms of weight or looking great” . I realize you look great” inside too] 🔮so, I never mean to slag anyone off here of any age or looks)!
@xmetalgamerx10 жыл бұрын
aww high five :P
@elka188110 жыл бұрын
i was like that too but a couple of years later i started growing up fast and i put on weight but its okay you just have to be aware of it and exercise
@dominicweber6 жыл бұрын
Cara! Jourdan! Jasmine! ❤️❤️
@zoes.238411 жыл бұрын
LOL the camera guy speaking at the end
@ValoSchecter12 жыл бұрын
hanne gaby love her!!!
@nayliloops11 жыл бұрын
JOURDAN IS SO COOL THOUGH
@rachel-jp6li10 жыл бұрын
I know this was a while ago, but seriously those girls are ridiculous. And definitely agree with you on people who eat a lot and still don't gain. My younger sister is extremely thin yet she's the one who eats the most and near all of it is high-caloric and junk. It's almost sad to see because I wish my body worked like that as well haha.
@nunyabusiness164 Жыл бұрын
There is naturally thin and there is the kind of body fashion models are expected to have. I have never seen anyone that thin unless they restrict calories or have some kind of illness that prevents them from digesting or preparing enough food for a period of time. When I was that thin as a teenager, it was because I had untreated mental health problems that meant I didn't have the energy to cook and eat three times a day. I am still naturally thin, but when I'm healthy, I'm not missing periods. You can't count my ribs. I don't faint a little when I stand up. I have boobs and a butt because I am a 22-year-old woman and we are meant to grow. A difference in metabolism does NOT account for that much of a weight difference.
@leahr499610 жыл бұрын
Everyone I know thinks models have eating disorders, but they just live an extremely careful and.healthy lifestyle.
@myprettypeace10 жыл бұрын
Being extremely careful can result in an ed. No one is meant to be this underweight. Naturally thin people are not gaunt and pale. You don't have to be anorexic or bulimic to have an ed. Being extremely careful can be its own ed.
@geanniecanas61489 жыл бұрын
***** But you yourself don't know if they have a mental illness or not, people are just giving their opinions, also referring to people as a "coffee-bean" or "an orange" is pretty much racist. Just because you "eat all day every day" and say you're 125lbs doesn't mean that's everyone's case.
@myprettypeace9 жыл бұрын
Emily M I hope you stay that way. It's one thing to be naturally thin, but it's another to look gaunt and starved. I myself am skinny, but if someone has skin hanging from their bones, they are not naturally thin. They are starving. They are dying. I have to disagree with you. I think most models suffer from addictions and eating disorders, but there are a few that are healthy and naturally thin- not a walking skeleton. Thin people have curves, too. They don't have protruding bones throughout their body, not pale, and gaunt. They are not malnourished. Giselle is thin, but she has curves. But she is also not "naturally" thin. She has to work hard for her body. Have you seen her twin sister? You have to eat, not starve to be healthy. Food gives you energy that you then burn off- not excessively, but enough to have lean muscle and curves. That is a woman's figure. If you were to check most of the models' vital signs, they would be very sick. It's sad to see starved women walk down the catwalk. Yes, I think that models should be lean, as they are supposed to represent a hanger in order to show case the apparel and not the model, but women that are just bones should not be on a catwalk; They should be seeking psychiatric help. It is not sane to look like death. Not even makeup can cover up the agony that most of these women live in all in the name of what? Fashion? Fashion is something we all visualize for ourselves. It shouldn't be what some 50 year old designer guy determines it is. The fashion industry is a dark world. Ill people should not be walking the runways. Too many have died. Literally, even on the runway. Sorry, for the long response. It's just a sad ordeal. I really wish you success and health above all. :)
@Audreyymae9 жыл бұрын
myprettypeace None of them look malnourished, hun.
@lianage.38859 жыл бұрын
No pretty much all if them starve themselves . I know people in the industry
@MajdaBeee10 жыл бұрын
the high five at the end though.
@Nicoal125610 жыл бұрын
hahaahah love the ending
@SigridKathrine11 жыл бұрын
I LOVE CARA
@bindar847310 жыл бұрын
"like an army of tall skinny bitches" lol love Jourdan Dunn
@cyrus913511 жыл бұрын
"I can't even remember the last time I ate a meal".....THAT'S what is wrong.
@evenikol90019 жыл бұрын
Pills cigarettes and cocaine that's their diet!!!!
@teairaatwood12 жыл бұрын
Ah ha ha I LOVE Jourdan & Hanne Gaby ! Lol
@TheHumanBodyTalk Жыл бұрын
vogue really pretending that they don’t contribute to this
@clairerideau90158 ай бұрын
Purging, throwing up, cocaine and laxatives. Another question? 😂😂
@africana12810 жыл бұрын
I Feel bad for the models when people keep assuming that they are starving themselves. I am thin too but I eat way more than my friends who are bigger than me.
@modernlover0rosalyn5 жыл бұрын
Lol.
@joylynch52043 жыл бұрын
I am naturally thin been thin my whole life and a lot of people think I am too skinny. None of my ribs show at all though and I’m not bony anywhere I think my body shape/bones are just really thin.
@lingreen77712 жыл бұрын
Jourdan is cute with that high five guy! Cara is lovely too
@Sarantuya010 жыл бұрын
Definitely. And the lack of energy would show. No designer wants a model that blacksout on the runway. Of course, anorexia is a big theme in the modelbusiness. Some might be naturally skinny but starve themselves to get even more skinny. But I always find it fun when a model is seen with a cupcake and people are like"she wont eat that".Like even if you are just 50kilos you need to eat about 1500 calories to stay that weight. And a single cupcake doesnt have 1500cals. (just wanted to say that)
@MC-sd6dp7 ай бұрын
yeah a single cupcake is like 200-300 max
@bellanatale46148 жыл бұрын
why was cara twitching like that in the beginning
@elliexo25538 жыл бұрын
+Bella Natale cocaine
@ladyGZSeChu6 жыл бұрын
cokeee and not the one you drink
@seemsonian12 жыл бұрын
so very cute!
@MeawMeaw121210 жыл бұрын
You all forget that anorexics do eat. if they didn't they would just die. they just got warped perception about food. when I was deep in anorexia I still could say that I ate this morning a great omlete with a salad and a cup of milk. this doesn't change the fact that I was anorexic. poor girls :/
@negabrehabinsanity39969 жыл бұрын
Dont ask me how but in my worst state of anorexia i didnt eat anything but drink 10calories a day for 3-4weeks. But then i slept all day? The doctors dont even know how i survived haha xD
@DonPoppiShow9 жыл бұрын
***** Amen to ur answer Jade! And u Completely Fair , I won't say ur fair!
@avasummers81749 жыл бұрын
***** how smart to call someone who has been anorexic fat
@monkey50cal9 жыл бұрын
lol they are dying that why there anorexic
@SaintOrCinema9 жыл бұрын
*****
@Tre_Di8 жыл бұрын
with parmigiano and...funghi ahahahah
@PinkFlowers365 Жыл бұрын
Thanks
@ThatGmoney11 жыл бұрын
@myprettypeace O, i hear u on ur outlook on people who hurt themselves. I would encourage u to not judge based on a lot of ppl who hurt themselves may have a history of child abuse, trauma, bf beating them. Like dogs a dog won't bite u unless it feels threatened! i hope u will feel empathy for others who are hurting. :D
@lililee526210 жыл бұрын
Gurl loves her Bonchon chicken yo. HIIIIIGH FAAAAAV
@tiffanyroseangeles75175 жыл бұрын
Loved Jourdan for years!!!🌹🌹❤️❤️❤️ she eats like a normal girl!!!
@Andover199911 жыл бұрын
0:28 cool camera guy!
@plants1282 жыл бұрын
what is cara even saying at 1:00? i can’t figure it out it sounds muddled up
@ThatGmoney11 жыл бұрын
@myprettypeace You didn't get my point. Most models are built like greyhounds, while the average population are like labs. I'm saying greyhounds are usually used for runway showcases. The irony is people don't see past a shape sometimes so i referred humans like dog breeds. And yes, there are aome unhealthy models but the supermodels are built a certain way. Ask away if i was still confusing! :D
@ezteliita9 жыл бұрын
Gorgeus girls :) I have to learn how to eat.
@lixix7911 жыл бұрын
hanne and her bird noises lololol
@allylovedance11 жыл бұрын
hahaha at the end
@sunlightcakebatter Жыл бұрын
Omg cara was cracked the fuck out
@kwaklejandro10 жыл бұрын
jourdan at the end hahaha
@tamobebia11 жыл бұрын
"I've lost my feed a year ago" ahahah :D:D
@originallimu9 жыл бұрын
why does Hanne Gaby always make these weird bird/Gizmo sounds but nobody ever seems to notice
@gjkangsite10 жыл бұрын
"bonchon chicken korean fried chicken" awe yeah xD
@JennyLl9411 жыл бұрын
I LOVE JOURDAN
@Cherrigrl31711 жыл бұрын
Like george39821 said, these girls are constantly busy and when they're on set they pretty much dont have any other choice but to eat what food they have there. Like that one model said, she would like a hamburger but fruit is good too, meaning since there is really no way for her to get a hamburger during that time fruit will do...although I do agree that the pressure put on models to be thin is scary but then again they are starting to promote 'health is beauty' so i'm sure it'll get better :)
@shijosunder13172 жыл бұрын
Hanne Gaby odiele 😍😍
@wastedvomit8811 жыл бұрын
I dont have time to eat either sometimes, im naturally things I got good genetics in that sense, but I always find it offensivd when someone tells a skinny person to " eat a sadwhich" cuz its not like I go up to fat ppl telling them to have a salad, which they prolly should hah.models are paid to look good and lets be honest clothes look better on slender tall ppl. dont hate.
@Lovely564611 жыл бұрын
Now thats how you do it jourdan! LOL
@SarokarNGO2 жыл бұрын
She is a gorgeous lady
@andreini98410 жыл бұрын
this is kinda sad though
@leahp.967210 жыл бұрын
super comfy, super comfy. werk werk.
@laurasaldarriaga778911 жыл бұрын
It is time people understand that just because someone decides not to put trash food into their bodies and eat well and balanced and yes, reach a figure that many consider "too skinny, doesn't make them: obsessive nor sick. If these models were underweight in an unhealthy way, they could not manage to walk around all day and function as a real model does... so people stop hating on skinny people, it's just as ridiculous as racism or sexism.
@Hellokittygirl6810 жыл бұрын
i am skinny but i have to starve myself to not gain weight