What Dying Taught Me About Living

[@hollyrose9066]

I would share my words on grief, please be kind, it's amateurish but completely heartfelt: Grief is an insidious thing, with sharp claws and teeth that make a million wounds each an exquisite pain that doesn't kill only wounds, its presence maddening until even sleep isn't a refuge. Grief even as I sleep my eyelids fill with tears and upon waking I am drowned. Grief is a cloak and second skin, we are told we must accept it, but we don't want it, we fight it's touch, it's cold and slimey touch the enormous weight of it, the suffocation of it. We have to allow it to cling to our skin, the violation of it, as our friends and loved ones look on, they know what must happen and feeling pity that you have to succumb to it, and silently glad it passed them by. Grief is a living death, as it touches the open gaping wound that was left as your loved one was separated from you into that long sleep. Grief is ancient, Grief is eternal, Grief is inevitable. Grief is our loved one gone, a hideous burden that we must shoulder for each one taken before us, how thick is my skin with the layers of Grief upon it, how dreadful the feel of it as I must shoulder another and carry it to my end, as must we all. GRIEF I know it's terrible, but it helps a little, sending love and hope to you all!!!❤️

[@IamBecca]

Holly, this is NOT terrible. Not terrible at all. This is beautiful. I love that you refer to grief as being 'ancient, eternal and inevitable.' In fact, I love it so much that I am going to pin this comment. Have more faith in yourself - and write more - you are talented! 🧡

[@hollyrose9066]

@@IamBecca Thank you so much!!! Your words mean so much!! I used to write quite a bit in school, I won a few writing contests, but I guess like you I let people tell me that it wouldn't amount to anything, so I gave it up, and started to fill my life with kids, marriage, responsibilities. I've lost many wonderful people in my life, and this was actually written after our beloved cat died, he was only 2 years old. As I watched my grown son, with love dig his grave, my daughter hold him wrapped in his favorite blanket lay him to rest, my son slowly shook each shovel full over his little body, I could only wonder how could this tiny grave contain all that he was? All that he meant to each of us, in our own special way. This poem bubbled out of me demanding to be released!!!

[@angelasmith3332]

That’s beautiful.

[@samantha4130]

Such beautiful words. You have a gift 🌹

[@hollyrose9066]

@@samantha4130 ❤️

[@dementedmonkey1734]

I stayed subbed to the channel hoping you'd come back one day and let us know you're ok! I'm so glad you did!

[@IamBecca]

This felt like a virtual hug. Thank you for always sticking by me, I am beyond grateful. 🧡

[@helenmiddleton628]

Same here x

[@jaktag]

Same here,so pleased Becca came back.😊

[@Alana060310]

Same

[@MaddMo]

Me too! It makes me happy to know you are back.

[@bigjoesburgers]

Was at a funeral one time. The minister said this quote. " The moment you are born, you begin the process of dying ". Very poignant.

[@IamBecca]

It is such a statement. When I first heard this, it hit me so hard. Hope you're well. 🧡

[@AjdamusMagnus]

Yeah. Psychologist once told me that we are dying since our first breath. Similar. And it is true..

[@stevedowns1001]

My mum passed away from cancer this year. Last month a close friend was diagnosed with terminal cancer. I usually love Christmas, but this year I feel so low. I'm crying as I watch this. I'm also scared I may have cancer, even though I have no symptoms. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on life. Please keep strong.

[@IamBecca]

Oh Steve, I wish I had the words. I hope you're okay and coping as best you can. Life really can test us. I hope you find some comfort here. 🧡

[@Marsha-lou1986]

Hi Becca! Thank you for sharing this message. My mom died in October 2020, 6 months later my husband of 35 1/2 years was diagnosed with Stage 4 Metastatic Small Cell Lung Cancer. He survived four months, he died in August 2021. I thought of you and remembered what you went thru losing your husband. My life has forever changed. I am in counseling now because of my grief. I now have Stress related Alopecia. There are days I just sit and cry, and there are days where I think I am going to be okay. I have a strong Faith in God but often ask why my mom and my husband had to die. I recently started writing, and maybe someday there will be a book. I just want to tell you I am looking forward to more videos from you. Becca you are so sweet. I am glad you are figuring out how to move forward. Sending love from the USA.❤️

[@IamBecca]

Hello - I am so sorry I'm only just getting round to replying now. You have been through a lot, please do let me know if there is ever a book - I would absolutely love to read this. YOU are a true inspiration and I am sending you a massive hug. Thank you for always being so supportive throughout it all, please do look after yourself. 🧡

[@m-6348]

I was thinking about you the other day and stayed subbed hoping you would come back. Welcome back Becca! I’m so happy to see you again. This video was absolutely beautiful.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much. It is comments like these that make me feel so happy to be back. Thank you, thank you, thank YOU! 🧡

[@jodygotyourgirlngone]

Me as well...isn't it amazing that happens?

[@martinpickard6043]

Born into a Catholic upbringing, raised as a religious person, I've lost a few people close to me in my life. First a Great Grandmother as an older child, a dearest Grandfather in my Twenties, an amazing Stepfather and loving Grandmother in my Thirties, A very dear teenage stepdaughter in my late Thirties, an amazing MotherInLaw in my late Forties and an elder Brother in my mid Fifties. I now realise we are all here on borrowed time and do not know for how long. We must make the best of the journey called life, because the end of the journey is fleeting and may not allow us the time to fulfill our long held plans. I no longer have a need or want for religion. I have very few real Friends. I live alone and luckily am financialy sound and am content with my lot. I have a newfound joy discovered in music festivals. Seeing so many people being happy and feeling free for a brief time brings me great joy. I treasure the good moments in life and try to share my some of my happiness with others, including strangers. Becca, you are on a good path in you life and you are now blessed by those who have helped you to arrive at the place you are today. May peace remain in your Soul and Joy be found in your waking moments. Much Love to you and all you know and are yet to know. XxX

[@IamBecca]

I absolutely adore this comment. Thank you so much for taking the time to share it with me, it sounds like you're such a strong and inspiring person, I am so grateful to have you here, part of this community. Thank you, so much love to you. 🧡

[@dreamopeth]

I'm sure you know who I'm talking about, and his journey is the only one I've followed on social media to the end. We were of the same age at the time and I could relate to him in many ways. I kept looking at his videos for months after. What a legend. I'm glad you're doing well and have found your feet! Health is wealth!

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much. 🧡🧡🧡

[@jc-246]

Welcome back 🤗🤗🤗 Omg I get the dog statement. My dog was everything. Passed novemeber last year. 💔💔💔 Dogs are AMAZING. Simple beings🤗

[@IamBecca]

Oh Jen I am so sorry to hear about your dog. They truly are INCREDIBLE and teach us so much about life. 🧡

[@karindwarswaard1507]

Glad to see you back!

[@IamBecca]

Glad to be back! Thank you for sticking around, lovely!

[@lucyselma]

I’m glad you’re back. I think I needed this video. The box and the circle thing made me realize that it’s okey to feel sad about a loss that happened a long time ago 💜

[@IamBecca]

Absolutely! Be as kind to yourself as you are to me - I'm so grateful for you. 🧡

[@snakeshifter02]

Tomorrow marks the two year anniversary of my father passing away. I was unbelievably happy to see this in my inbox. I hope you’re doing well ❤️

[@missimccarthy8408]

Be extra kind to yourself for the next while. You both need and deserve lots of compassion right now ❤️

[@IamBecca]

I agree with Missi - be extra kind to yourself. Sending you a virtual hug. How are you feeling now? 🧡

[@IamBecca]

This is such a lovely comment, Missi. You are exactly the kind of person we need in this community. 🧡

[@jandavis9360]

I’m very proud of you Becca … keep going! It was really nice seeing and hearing from you again. Stay happy and much love to you! 🥰

[@IamBecca]

I cannot tell you how much this means to me. YOU are wonderful - 'thank you' doesn't even begin to express my gratitude. Sending love. 🧡

[@TheRoarWithin]

I lost my pet rabbit last week. He was really sweet and had a very fun personality, and I was used to working at home with him for good company. I miss having him hop around and wait by the kitchen door for food. I liked feeding him and looking after him, and seeing him relaxed and happy. It saddens me that his life was so short, and mine carries on. I would have given my life for him to be here instead, as I’ve battled depression and health problems for over a decade and sometimes feel like this World isn’t for people like me (sensitive feelers). It was sad to see Buddy die in front of me, as I could do absolutely nothing to help him (he had a heart attack).

[@lindastanley229]

Stefan I am so sorry to hear of your loss.i hope you have happy memories of your rabbit as I do of mine.

[@IamBecca]

Stefan I am so sorry to only be replying now - and I am so sorry for your loss. I love that you call us 'sensitive feelers,' but the world is definitely meant for us. We look at it a little differently is all. I hope you carry the wonderful memories of your Rabbit with you. Sending so much love. 🧡

[@IamBecca]

What a lovely thing to say, Linda. 🧡

[@lindastanley229]

@@IamBecca thankyou Becca xx

[@taranoel7990]

I watched you 4 yrs ago Becca... you are real and you are beautiful inside and out 💜 I'll be here watching you grow 💜

[@IamBecca]

Oh Tara what an absolutely gorgeous comment - you've made my Monday! Thank you for taking the time and for guiding me through. I hope you're well. 🧡

[@MsRrossi]

Ive often thought of you over the last few years. My sister died in an accident in August 2020 and its changes your entire world. So beautifully spoken xx

[@IamBecca]

I am so sorry to hear this. I wish I had the words to give you comfort, but we both know it isn't that easy. Sending so much love your way. 🧡

[@dianerose8316]

I've been thinking about you this last year. I lost my husband of 17yrs last July and so hoped you were doing well. I'm taking my own journey thru this thing called grief. Virtual hugs heading your way.

[@IamBecca]

I'm so sorry to hear that. I wish I could help more, but you seem to be so strong and taking ownership of your journey. Sending virtual hugs right back at you. 🧡

[@deborahelen3366]

I would never imagine that I could experience a loss like yours, but I did. My fiancee was diagnosed with methastasic cancer and 1 year later he was gone 1 month after our wedding. How crazy is the world. I miss him so much

[@IamBecca]

I wish I had the words to help you heal, but we both know I don't. All I will say is, although it doesn't seem like it now, it gets easier. You won't ever heal completely, but your heart will soften. Sending you a gentle hug. 🧡

[@deborahelen3366]

@@IamBecca Thank you so much Becca I followed Daniel’s journey way before this could happen to me and my Cris You ve always been on my mind since Sending love from Brasil ❤️

[@BlakeAudenPoetry]

This is resonant, heartfelt and beautiful 💙

[@IamBecca]

Largely down to you! 🧡

[@kathistarns5361]

It's so good to see you again ❤️. Miss Peewee ❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏

[@IamBecca]

It's good to be back! 🧡🧡🧡

[@ameeee0076]

Mrs!!

[@nancypeteja6560]

What a beautiful smile. So glad you took the time for yourself. Looking forward to your creativity. As time passes we morph into a different person and we gain knowledge and perspective along the way. Some things stay a sweet Remembrance while we journey on to whatever it is we want to be. Thank you. 🌹🌺🌻🌼🌷🌞

[@IamBecca]

I adore this comment, Nancy. You're so right. Thank you so much for always being so supportive throughout it all and recognising my growth as positive. You're truly wonderful. 🧡

[@yvonnegreen5363]

Hey how are you great too see you back xx. I almost died just over a year ago my bowel burst I ended up having 3 major surgeries in 6 days I now have a stoma I hate it I cry all the time but am still alive and great full am hoping to get my stoma reversed this year waiting to see my surgeon in August to see if after the surgeries I have enough to get put back to normal so so happy to see you x. Ps your so beautiful xx

[@IamBecca]

You are a true inspiration. I cannot even imagine what you have been through and continue to go through every single day. Please know there are always people here to chat to - maybe even people in a similar situation? Have you ever watched any of Hannah Wittons videos on KZbin? She has a stoma and talks about how she copes with it all and she is so personable. I wish I could do more, but thank you so much for being here - YOU are beautiful. 🧡

[@Kariyfam]

So glad you are back over here. Grief is always inside, you learn to live with it. Sending lots of love and good vibes. Greetings from Guatemala

[@louisacosh8184]

Hi Becca, You probably don’t remember me but myself and my hubby Graham wondered how you have been doing over the last time we saw you in Weston. We are so pleased to see you are doing okay now and in a much better place too. Thank you for sharing this very personal story on your You Tube Channel about grief / dying. Sending you love and blessings from Weston. xxx

[@IamBecca]

Of course I remember you both! I hope you're well? Sending you both so much love. 🧡

[@OtterSkull]

I lost my father to cancer 3 years ago and in many aspects I'm still a broken and flawed person but I also hope I'll find some sort of control over my life soon by being positive thanks for the video, take care.

[@IamBecca]

Joshua, I am so sorry for your loss - but you seem to have grown so much and you're learning everyday. I hope you find some comfort in the comments and I'm sending you a virtual hug. 🧡

[@OtterSkull]

@@IamBecca That's so so nice of you! Thank you so so much

[@noakea]

Oh Becca so great to see the new you! You should be so proud of yourself! Wonderful, wise insights in this first video and so eloquently expressed! We all still rooting for you and I really feel like your rebirth has made you come out brighter, like a star that you are. Best of luck in this new journey!

[@IamBecca]

This almost had me in tears - why you do this to me!! Thank you, thank you, thank you. Words cannot express how grateful I am. 🧡

[@kitkat031]

I've lost 2 people and 2 pets in the past month. Many have tried to explain grief to me. The ball and box analogy.... 🤯. Right now the ball is big. I look forward to it shrinking. One foot in front of the other. Even if it's a millimeter. Thanks Becca. So glad you're doing what you're doing. Much appreciated. Hugs! ❤️

[@IamBecca]

You're doing so well. I was the same when I first heard the ball and the box analogy. Please do look after yourself - you're doing amazingly. Sending massive hugs your way. 🧡

[@newbrunswicker12]

I have been following you since your love passed. Today oddly enough I was thinking of my Dad and Brother that passed. Both very different ways of passing but they've been stuck in my head today. Then I stumbled across this video and needed to hear your words. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us.. in doing so.. you've helped me today

[@IamBecca]

I really hope you're okay. I am sorry to only be replying now - I kept crying at the comments because I was so moved. Please do let me know how you are. 🧡

[@DarkMatter280]

I had forgotten I was subbed to your channel tbh, was surprised to see this pop up! Glad to see you're doing well Becca 🙂

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so so much! 🧡

[@tikighoul]

Greetings Becca! Your channel popped up magically before my eyes! I am in dire need of your wisdom and I thank you for reaching out through your channel to all of us Kindred Spirits!

[@IamBecca]

Awww welcome! I am so glad you're here. I hope you find something that helps. Sending you a massive hug. 🧡

[@nobodyspecial2138]

It’s so good to see you, Becca! This was a much needed message. ♥️

[@IamBecca]

Thank you! It is so good to be back. 🧡

[@noonecares1934]

So happy your well been checking back time to time . Your glowing

[@IamBecca]

Thank you, so much. 🧡

[@ilobilo]

What you said about belongings was beautiful. I have often wondered how you were and if you were okay. So good to see you here. 💜 - a fellow worrier

[@IamBecca]

Thank you! Belongings have always been a big deal for more, especially in recent years. I am so glad to be back - thank YOU for sticking by me. 🧡

[@pafanofsox]

You are wise beyond your years. I wish there had been a Becca when I was younger. I hope people realize that even though you are young you speak truth. Thanks for sharing your perspective. Continue your journey through life knowing you matter and are valued. ♥️

[@IamBecca]

Oh wow. This comment moved me in so many ways - this is such high praise indeed. I really hope you find some comfort here, and know you put a smile on my face. 🧡

[@hazytwilite6454]

I have missed your wisdom and your candour. You and I are so a like, in so many ways. I hope your path continues to bring you joy and you always know you are not alone.

[@IamBecca]

You are beyond lovely. Thank you, always, for being so supportive. Sending a huge hug. 🧡

[@suziesmith4255]

Hello Becca. So nice to see you again. Thank you for sharing something so private with this community. We have missed you. So glad to see you rediscovering yourself and providing a safe space for many. Can’t wait to see where you take us. Much love to you.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you, Suzie, for always sticking by me. I am beyond grateful. 🧡

[@debbiemoorcroft6767]

Good to see you again Becca.Glad to see you are well and looking forward to seeing more x

[@IamBecca]

It is so good to be back. Thank you, Debbie, for sticking by me. I am so grateful. 🧡

[@Hana-sc9qx]

Hi Becca 😀 I was a bereavement support worker for my local hospice for several years. I have lost loved ones before but last year hit me really hard when I had a miscarriage to the point all the stuff I was trained to do I couldn't even use on myself. It's taken me a whole year to seek out support from the bereavement services. Since I've left I've helped others along the way but it's just so strange everything I was trained to do etc I just couldn't use on myself. Even though I was trained to work with adults I was mainly focused on children. During my time I learnt a lot and met some really good people. Everyone copes differently... there is no rule book even though we are taught the 5 stages. It's ok not to be ok. It's ok to grieve longer than others. It's ok to show emotion even if the other person doesn't. It's been past the anniversary of my miscarriage which happened on my birthday last year. I didnt know how I was going to handle it and to be honest it wasn't as bad as I thought. Since the anniversary has come and gone strangely enough I don't feel bad. While before I didnt want to do anything at all. I was so lost and depressed....now its like a switch has been flipped. I'm trying to live my life to the fullest especially that last year after having a miscarriage several months later I had an internal bleed which also caused me to have a severe infection... it was bad that it was a close call for me (ive had several in the past due to health problems but this one was the worst). I use that experience to make me think about life completely differently. I have followed you from day one Thank you for sharing and it's great to see you again 😊

[@IamBecca]

Hana, I am so sorry I am only just reading this comment now but... wow. YOU are one brave, inspiring and incredible person. You have used your lived experiences to see life differently - you are a true inspiration. Words cannot express how grateful I am that you have shared this with us all. Thank you. 🧡

[@arnoschmadt2686]

So nice to see you again Becca. I had just saved you these 4 years ago and now I am so happy to see you again with this wonderful attitude. I went through something similar since then and you gave me an inspiration now that helped me a lot. Really happy and greatful...

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much for sticking around and being so lovely. I am beyond grateful.🧡

[@fionabrown3428]

Great to see you back Becca, I think about you sometimes & wonder how you're doing, so a lovely surprise to see your video pop up! You're such a natural talking about these topics, right from the heart. Can't wait to see more content & your beautiful dog to if you have time. 🐶🤗💖x

[@IamBecca]

Awww Fiona this is such a gorgeous thing to say. Thank YOU for always being there - without people like you'd I would never have been brave enough. You're marvellous. I hope you're well? 🧡

[@brandimcmillen4005]

Becca, I can't tell you how happy I am that you posted a video. I have been following you since the beginning. I check on you through Instagram and am always praying that you're doing well. You are an amazing human being and could teach all of us something about life. I hope that you will do many videos like this. You have things to share with this world. Love from Arizona ❤❤❤

[@IamBecca]

Brandi, YOU are an amazing human being. I'm sorry I am only replying now - I had more comments than I could have ever imagined! But I am so grateful for people like you who have stuck by me. I cannot wait to bring out more videos. Do drop me a message some time on Instagram if you ever want to! I am sometimes difficult to pin down - but just pester me!! Lots of love. 🧡

[@suecooke7284]

Thank you Becca for sharing. I've been wondering how you've been doing. Loss does make you learn a lot about life and your journey will be helpful to so many people. Bless you 💕

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much Sue, this is such a lovely comment. Sending so much love to you and thank you for your constant support. 🧡

[@corbettmizzell915]

Man thanks for sharing this with us I've felt the same way lost my wife and mind at the same time my family said I changed so much and I didn't understand why . Thanks so much.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us. Sending so much love. 🧡

[@pamrose4810]

Oh my goodness. I listened in my car on my way to work. My heart felt your growth and sense of yourself. In listening carefully, I felt my own. Thank you girl for sharing!!!

[@IamBecca]

Thank YOU for listening. I am beyond grateful for you support. This felt like a virtual hug. 🧡

[@joey7769]

Welcome back, Becca! I'm so glad you are in the space you need to be and that you are feeling so much better. Your message was beautiful and touching.

[@IamBecca]

It is great to be back! Thank you for being so supportive. 🧡

[@sunig5590]

It's amazing, how people connect from around the world. I still struggle with my grief journey. Some days are better than others, of course. But, life is a huge learning curve.. We never stop learning until our own last breath.. I looked you up today, actually. Glad you're back.. A friend from across the pond.. 🌝

[@IamBecca]

It is amazing how everyone can come together on this platform isn't it! I am so glad to be back - thank you for always being so supportive. Please be kind to yourself. Sending a hug! 🧡

[@patriciabarkley735]

I am so glad you are doing well. You are young and so very beautiful. You are also wise. I am so happy to see you on KZbin. Thank you for the motivational talks. You are excellent at it.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much for your wonderful support. You're so incredible - and this means the world to me. 🧡

[@laurenlevi2433]

Beautiful, Becca 🥺 this really hit home. Cannot wait to see more 🤍

[@IamBecca]

Thank you, you're so so wonderful - I am so grateful for you. 🧡

[@cynthiacurtis5305]

Just beautiful Becca! I was hoping that one day you would be back and what a wonderful surprise today. You look like you're doing well and I'm so thrilled. Your words were very uplifting and encouraging. Grief does come in many forms and hits us when we least expect it, even many years later. So glad you have your sweet puppy in your life. No matter what age they are, I always call our dogs puppies. They bring so much joy to one's life. Take care, Becca. Looking forward to the next one.

[@IamBecca]

This is such a lovely comment and truly made me smile. Thank you so much for always leaving such an insightful message - I am so happy to be back and this comment makes the fear of posting worth while. 🧡

[@vivianacavallo1484]

So proud of you, Becca. Thank you so so much 🙏❤️

[@IamBecca]

Thank you! You're wonderful. 🧡

[@melissaw1813]

Wonderful to see you. You seem so healthy, it’s inspiring! Hope to see you on here again soon.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much! I do feel so much more myself. 🧡

[@laureentaylor8437]

Becca so glad to see you. You have grown into a beautifully intelegent woman. Growth is always important. So glad you are back. 🤗♥️

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much, what a lovely thing to say. I am so happy to be back! I was so nervous before - but I clearly had no reason to be! 🧡

[@jujube28]

Becca😁. I’m so happy to see you. I think of you often and I’m looking forward to seeing more of your content. Until then take care

[@IamBecca]

Hi Julie! Thank you so much. How have you been?! I'm so grateful for your support - always. 🧡

[@jujube28]

@@IamBecca Hi Becca. I’m doing well. I feel like I’ve connected with a old friend and I’m so grateful. Sending love and hugs my dear😁

[@jaktag]

Oh my word Becca,what a wonderful surprise to see you pop up. You are looking amazing.I have often wonderd how you were going on,and i am so pleased to see that you are doing ok and you look so well too.Its made my day seeing you on here.Sending lots of love 🥰💕xx

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much Jackie! I am so happy to be back. I'm sorry I am only just replying now - I got overwhelmed and emotional with all the lovely comments! I hope you're well and enjoying the videos I'm coming up with (although I do love to waffle! Ha!) Thank you for sticking by me and sending such a lovely comment. 🧡

[@misslovejoy1665]

Hey there! Very glad to see you back! It's been two years since I lost my person and I've isolated myself extremely since then, still not feeling okay but wanting to go out again little by little. You are giving me a lot of hope that maybe a year or two from now I'll be in a better place as well. Hope is so important. Wishing you the best!

[@IamBecca]

Oh bless you - I really hope you are alright? Sometimes we have to push ourselves out of our comfort zones to feel a bit better. Do let me know how you are. 🧡

[@capaldinewsservice4942]

I'm just talking to a friend of mine who had a bereavement lately. It's always insightful to hear from you and your experiences

[@IamBecca]

I'm really sorry to hear about your friends loss. I'm sure they are so grateful to have a friend like you - I know I am grateful to have you as an internet pal. 🧡

[@valeriehill6382]

Hi Becci, I e been following you for a long time now, it’s so lovely to see you back and looking so well and confident with life, thank you for sharing your journey in such an eloquent way, take care lovely and I will look forward to your next post xx

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much for sticking around and being so supportive. 🧡

[@GoodMusicManiac999]

Hi Becca, it's so beautiful to see you online again. Welcome back! I often wondered about you 💝💝💝

[@IamBecca]

It is so good to be back. Thank you so much for sticking around and being so supportive. 🧡

[@debbyb0806]

Hi Becca, Sooo good to hear from you again and listen to your thoughts on grief and how to deal with it. I just lost my sweet little dachshund furbaby Lola to a very aggressive cancer, Intestinal Lymphoma. My husband and I are devastated and I'm still in shock! She was sooo healthy and active, this is just so hard to process! She was diagnosed in July (after we went for a 2nd opinion) and she passed away August 7th in the very early morning at 12:30am, after my 60th Birthday! The Saddest and Worst Birthday Ever! Lola loved her daily walks so much and was always so active, happy and the sweetest furbaby! We (my husband and I) tried everything we could to save her! Many different meds., and I was also cooking different types of protein fresh every few hrs, to try to get her to eat. She was leaking protein from her intestines, so her body took the protein out of all her muscles! So she was just skin & bones in her last two weeks! In the end we were taking her to our Vet. for IV's daily (even twice a day), she even had her own IV bag at home here. It was so hard seeing her lose so much weight. She was 12 lbs and all muscle, (then in the end she lost 5lbs), she was only 7 lbs when she passed away! I tried handfeeding her every 2 hrs. to get her protein back. Nothing seemed to work! She just didn't want to eat anymore! Sorry for the very long text, but I keep going over everything in my mind! We wish so much we could have saved her! We're so upset and sad that this happened to her! It's so unfair! Her brother Luke, (they were siblings from the same litter) also seems so sad and lost without her! They did everything together, even slept curled up on each other all the time! Thanks again for making this video & sharing your feelings at a time when I needed it so much!😌💓 😔🥺😭💔

[@IamBecca]

Debby I am so sorry to hear about Lola. I absolutely adore dachshunds - and dogs are so so important. I really hope you're doing okay? I'm sorry to only be replying now, I got all over emotional about how supportive people were being - I am an emotional little bean! I really do hope you're okay and that Luke is coping without his sister - do let us know how you are? Sending lots of love your way. 🧡

[@rachelbricco7252]

Welcome back! You look amazing, not just your physical being, but you look content, happy. Great messages and look forward to more videos. Hugs. Rachel

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much Rachel, I am content and happy. Sending so many hugs. 🧡

[@aidenhobbs1942]

My grandfather passed away last year and seeing how you have.made it the last 4 years gives me hope and makes me feel better so I just wanted to say thank you

[@IamBecca]

I am so sorry to hear this, but also so glad you could find some comfort here. Sending you and your family a huge hug. It never goes away, but it does get easier. It is just love persevering. 🧡

[@patpiper9134]

I wish you all the luck and happiness that you deserve❤️✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻

[@IamBecca]

I'm so sorry to only just replying now - but thank you so much for this gorgeous comment. I am so grateful for you and it is words like this that keep me on my journey. 🧡

[@diane5908]

So glad to see you again Becca! I see your beautiful heartfelt poetry on Instagram and I always wonder how you are doing. Thank you for this video. Your journey resonates deeply. I realized through grief I don't know it all either and we all do the best we can. Beautiful as always 💕

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much Diane, for always following and showing your support one way or another. You are so lovely. 🧡

[@keithscotson7433]

This last 12-14 months we lost two very important ladies in our family. My Nain (nana) and my mother. Happend so, so quick. We still cant begin to process it. Life sometimes really is cruel. I hope you are well. Xx

[@IamBecca]

Keith, I am so sorry to hear this. Please do let us know how you are? I cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling. I wish there was more I could say - but sending a huge virtual hug to you and your family. 🧡

[@keithscotson7433]

@@IamBecca Thank you so much for your reply. I am ok, busy with my work progressing through the welsh ambulance service, I know both my nan and my mum, would be proud and right behind me 100% of the way. I hope you and all the family are ok after losing your loved one. Its a sad time for everyone. Stay strong x

[@laniek3918]

Thank you for sharing this/yourself with us Becca. I hope you’re well ♥️

[@IamBecca]

Thank YOU for being so supportive. I hope you're well too? Lots and lots of love. 🧡

[@catherinebornemisa]

You remind me a lot of myself. I am an anxious person also and I have been trying just to live in the moment and enjoy the moments. I am single but I'm okay with it now. I enjoy my time alone and treasure it. I have many hobbies and look forward to them at the end of a work day or day off work. Welcome back Becca. I'm so glad to see how well you are doing! Well done! ❤️

[@IamBecca]

I love this comment. You sound like such a wonderful person, thank you so much for sharing your support. I definitely need to get more hobbies - I find my mind gets distracted quite easily - I don't know if you are the same? 🧡

[@michetrue-aspoonielife4me389]

Becca, I can't tell you how good it is to see that beautiful mug of yours. I'm so glad you took the time you needed to figure somethings out about life that are truly insightful & inspiring. We're constantly learning & growing which causes us to learn more about ourselves everyday. I loved the idea of the box & the ball bc it's so very true. Welcome to sobriety 🌹😊 savor & enjoy every moment. You have to feel the rainstorms in life in order to appreciate the sunny days. You've navigated them in such a profound & inspiring way that I know will resonate with many. Nice to see you back & I look forward to chats with Becca, Ta beauty xxoo 🌹💜

[@IamBecca]

I LOVE THIS COMMENT! Thank you. I'm sorry I am only just replying now - I kept happy-crying reading the comments. I wish I could give you a hug, you are so wonderful. You'll be seeing much more of this mug in the future?! Sending LOADS of love. 🧡🧡🧡

[@angelasmith3332]

So good to see you back Becca. We missed you!

[@IamBecca]

I missed you all too! I am so happy to be back. 🧡

[@hockallz2157]

This really resonated with me. Thank you for sharing.

[@IamBecca]

Thank YOU so much for watching. Lots of love, hope you're okay? 🧡

[@Catscalligraphy]

I really like the grief analogy about the ball in the box. So true! Thank you. Glad to see you again.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much! I really loved it too when I first heard it - it is such a good way of looking at grief. I hope you're well. 🧡

[@Murfs_Niche]

Even though I don't know you personally & only from past videos during a very difficult time in your life... I feel an affinity with you because I've experienced that same loss. It's lovely seeing you come back to make videos. You're such a warm & knowledgeable woman, open minded enough to have made it through the rabbit hole & discovered self reflection & pushing on brings more awareness to make now & all your tomorrows open with possibilities. You're a pleasure to see & listen to, welcome back, sweet girl. 🖐😉❣

[@IamBecca]

Marlene, this is such a gorgeous comment. I am so sorry it has taken me so long to respond, but all the gorgeous comments kept making me cry (happy tears!) so I am only just getting round to it now. I love this. Especially 'all your tomorrows open with possibilities' - I think this is so gorgeous. Thank you, always. Sending so much love to you.🧡

[@adamm1902]

Very touching! Thanks for sharing your journey

[@IamBecca]

Thank you for watching! 🧡

[@billielewis5562]

“You never know who’s listening but you might just might” you just did ✌️👍❤️

[@IamBecca]

Thank you, Billie, for listening. Always. Sending a massive virtual hug. 🧡🧡🧡

[@billielewis5562]

Sending a massive virtual hug back Becca. Stay strong. 🧡🧡🫶🏻

[@juadwhite1391]

Happy to see you shinning again. Your beautiful smile is something else . Please be always the way you're now :)

[@IamBecca]

Owww this is so lovely. Thank you so much. 🧡

[@sarahtolley7378]

So glad to see you back ☺️. You are looking great. Look forward to seeing more content from you. Untill I see you again take care 🤗

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much, Sarah. I am so grateful to still have you on this journey. See you very soon! 🧡

[@sarahtolley7378]

I definitely will be joining you on the journey. Thank you for replying back that's so nice of you to ☺️ x

[@workingmum1552]

I’m so thrilled you posted this. This is a great vlog ❤️ Keep doing you, you’re gorgeous inside and out and it’s so lovely to see your face back here.

[@IamBecca]

I'm so emotional right now and this comment nearly had me! Thank you, always, for being so supportive. 🧡

[@XInfinity2024]

Good video. I have been thinking about you and hope you are doing well. I am glad I stayed subbed to the channel. When I saw your video in my feed it was the very first video I watched. I hope to see more of your videos. Stay strong, keep being an amazing person and keep growing.

[@IamBecca]

I am really glad you remained subbed too - thank you so much for sticking by me. Sending a massive hug. 🧡

[@XInfinity2024]

@@IamBecca You are very welcome. You are a natural at making videos. ❤

[@kystars]

hi Becca, nice to see you. I lost my mom to cancer in 2010. My dad had cancer 3 years ago and survived. I had cancer 2 years ago and survived. I know life can surely be tough. I have always loved to help others and respect everyone's opinions. I love to read and learn new things. I listened very carefully to all you said here. I have much empathy for others and will give the last dollar I have to someone who needs it. I love people and try to see the good in everyone. Happy to see your video. I am here in Kentucky where it is raining yet again. We have had bad floods which have taken the lives of a number of children. I pray for their families. Yes I am Christian. Everyone believes in something. I just want to help others. I also like to paint and draw. Do you use water colors, acrylic or oil paints? I find water color too difficult to work with.

[@IamBecca]

I am so sorry to hear about your mother. But you all sound like such wonderful people - and I hope the flooding is a lot better now!? You are so lovely - I would love to send you a virtual hug. I find water colour difficult too - I am mainly an acrylic and ink kind of girl! Lots of love. 🧡

[@ChloeWestern]

Omg Becca! This is a beautiful video about growth and healing. Thank you. A couple of years ago I started the process of counselling and it helped me understand that grief isn't just about the loss of someone, it can be about losing something too. This just resonated with me a lot and my own journey understanding where my anxiety and depression orginated from. I'm so glad you're doing better, I'm looking forward to what you share with us next :)

[@IamBecca]

This is so true and I am so proud of you for taking the steps to getting to a better place. I wish you all the best with this journey, but please do reach out if you need an ear. Thank you, truly for being so supportive always. 🧡

[@ChloeWestern]

@@IamBecca I didn't expect you to reply. Thank you so much 💜💜

[@michellewilliams8796]

Im Glad U Came Back

[@IamBecca]

I am glad too! Thank you for staying so supportive. 🧡

[@alicjagodlewska1059]

Time after breaking up with my ex boyfriend was the most difficult in my entire life but also taught me so much and was full of hope. I had no idea that difficult time can teach you so much , how difficult healing actually is and can help you to become a totally different person. The moment I felt like the worst part is behind me was amazing. I am glad you are back❤❤ !

[@IamBecca]

You sound like such an inspiration. You have learnt from your darkest moments and grown - you should be so proud of yourself. I am sending you a massive virtual hug. Thank you for sticking by me - it is so good to be back. 🧡

[@alicjagodlewska1059]

@@IamBecca Thank you! ❤❤

[@jonathancabrera7543]

I'm Glad To See You Again

[@IamBecca]

I'm glad to be back! Thank you. 🧡

[@evastirling1464]

You are a beautiful soul Becca. Thank you for this really helpful video. x

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much for watching. I am beyond grateful for your support. 🧡

[@jet_GraveWhisperer]

You are a beautiful human being ❤

[@lottessalter4379]

All I can say is, thank you for your videos recently

[@IamBecca]

Thank you for your support, always. I hope you're okay. 🧡

[@brilliant5126]

(This is @2old2stillbcool) ❤️ This was absolutely beautiful, Becca! I'm so happy you've decided to engage with KZbin again. You have such a gift for helping people by just sharing the wonder that is you! 😊

[@IamBecca]

Hellooooo lovely! All these different usernames huh!? Thank YOU for always, always, ALWAYS being a massive support for me. Without you, I'm not sure where I would be. 🧡🧡🧡

[@ellenleeschwartz-]

So happy that you are back, Becca!💜💜

[@IamBecca]

Me too! I hope you're well? 🧡

[@ellenleeschwartz-]

@@IamBecca I’m doing okay. It’s a bit of a journey with my health. Thank you for asking. Love your channel!💗

[@TSewell67]

Welcome back, you deserve all the happiness life has to offer. Good luck Becca. Tx❤️

[@IamBecca]

It is so good to be back! Sorry I am only just replying now - I kept happy-crying when I read comments haha! Thank you for always being so supportive. 🧡

[@samantha4130]

PS, I’m glad you’re back. Was hoping you would return

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much, it feels good to BE back. How are you? I hope you're well. Thank you for being here with me. 🧡

[@jonstallionfox]

FAVOURITE

[@MrShooter72]

So good to have you back!

[@IamBecca]

It's good to be back!!!! 🧡🧡🧡

[@yellowbird5411]

Wonderful video. I've watched you for years. Nice to see you back. You are beautiful in your message and in your person.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you so much, Lynn. You're so lovely, always. 🧡

[@donnaisfairlyodd]

I’m so happy to see that you’re doing well and are posting again! I look to your socials every so often to check in and today I happened upon your newest video! I’m looking forward to catching up! 🔔

[@IamBecca]

Awww thank you so so much for sticking around and keeping an eye on me! I am so grateful for you. 🧡

[@greghall1307]

It's really great to see your post. Been hoping that you were doing okay.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you Greg, I am well, I hope you are too? 🧡

[@guksack]

This stranger did wonder recently how you were doing. Good to see you dropping in and doing ok.

[@IamBecca]

Thank you for sticking around, I am doing really well thank you.🧡

[@shawnjesseman664]

Thanks for this, Becca. I think I saw and clicked on this video at the right time ❤ I actually love the way you explain the "ball in the box" analogy. It really resonates with me, having been through 2 significant traumatic events in the past 3 years. It just...makes a lot of sense to me. We DON'T know it all, I don't have a desire to, and I also think some things are...unknowable. Creates a nice mystery though, doesn't it? And I absolutely understand having to kind of force yourself to find a way to be ok being alone. I hope that sentence makes sense. I'm definitely going to pay more attention to your channel. Looking forward to more videos.

[@IamBecca]

I love the mystery of life. And I adore this comment. Thank you so much - please do look after yourself. Sending so much love and hugs your way. Thank you for sharing and being so lovely. 🧡

[@tracyt.2534]

My mom was one of 17. 4 died when they were newborn or a few months old. I’m 54. My mom is in her 70’s. She was the baby girl of the 13 left. Over the years we lost everyone, one of my favorite uncles just this past may. We’ve most definitely had our share of loss. Most of them occurred in 3’s. It seemed it was every 3 months we were going to another funeral 😢. Not to mention friends and cousins. Loss is something you never get over, yes, it gets easier in time. I agree with everything you say. We also, can’t feel guilty that we are here and they are not. I’m so glad my loved ones are no longer suffering!!

[@IamBecca]

Thank you, Tracy, for such a vulnerable comment. And one of 17 is incredible! I bet Christmas is always fun. Sending you so much love. Loss and love come hand in hand 🧡

[@tracyt.2534]

@@IamBecca holidays and family reunions used to be a wonderful time!! 😢

[@janerichardson2418]

Welcome back Becca, lovely to see again😘

[@IamBecca]

Thank you for remaining so supportive!! 🧡

[@katielester9942]

Hi Becca, Welcome back! I really enjoy your videos and can relate so much with loss, grief and going through the processes to try and heal and move on with my life. I lost both my parents quite young and like you, i am trying to not worry anymore, trying to enjoy life as much as I can. The pain itself will never go away but with time it gets a lot smaller and easier to cope. Also, like you, it helps to have that supportive network to get you through the most difficult times - whether it will be family or very close friends. I have also learned that although life is short, we can't rush and feel we are losing time, because that will put our bodies under stress and pressure which will significantly make us ill and as result, shorten our lifespan. The best thing is to take each day as it comes, take small baby steps, one day at a time and as a result you build up that mental strength to cope with every day things..

[@IamBecca]

Hi Katie! I'm sorry to only be replying now - I cannot believe how many wonderful comments I have had. This is such a helpful comment - thank you for sharing your insight to this. Sending a massive hug to you. 🧡

[@juliewhiting3363]

I lost my Grandma 2 years ago,) it feels like yesterday but I live for her.

[@IamBecca]

I'm so sorry to hear that - I love my Grandma, I cannot imagine the pain.

[@juliewhiting3363]

@@IamBecca we have the same feeling and it was relatable, how are you. We have adopted a cat recently and it is a great, distraction, grief is an odd thing