What is PSYCHOSIS?

[@Mother_daughter_adventures]

I went to a psychiatrist once and I was telling him my diagnoses, one of which is major depressive disorder with psychotic features. I told him that and he said "You don't look depressed and you don't appear psychotic. I think you're just trying to get attention." and I looked at him like he was mad and just walked out without saying a word and continued my search for a psychiatrist.

[@artisticbloodflow]

***** A past therapist of mine has said something like that, as well. "Well, you don't LOOK psychotic, so, I'm not really sure you are..." I'm sorry, but what does "psychotic" look like? Good luck with finding a psychiatrist who clicks and better understands you.

[@mtg187]

+Kati Morton (Mental Health Vlogger) its sad but there all alot of underqualified proffesional out there. i have had a similar experince i was told that i was too organized to be psychotic or schizophrenic,then he told me i was bi polar get on lithium right away.besides that fact that i never have had signs of mania or even hypomania.my psychotic features are related to my ptsd,though i have been also diagnosed with schizoffective which im not to sure i have. the ptsd psychosis is very tricky to treat. the atypical antipsychotics i take are ineffective in dealing with my positive symptoms of psychosis. i.believe that the psychosis it self has severly worsened my.ptsd. most of my triggers for ptsd are related to events that happened while i was in a severe state of psychosis.

[@shadrach6299]

Emily Griffin Damn that was harsh!

[@thesisko4031]

If ur attractive, successful or know how to blend in a social event then ur faking in their eyes.

[@hiramgonzalez8668]

Emily Griffin I hate when psych doctors do that. They think that just by looking at you, gives them an idea of what state of mental health you’re in

[@jessblackwell376]

PSA: For anyone experiencing psychosis as a first port of call please go and get a blood test. This sounds odd but after years of feeling awful I recently discovered that my pernicious anemia was the cause of a lot of my mental issues, and a lot of people who have it experience psychosis. After undergoing treatment within 2 weeks I feel like a completely different person, so please consider it just to rule anything out, it could honestly save your life.

[@desam6467]

What were you treated with Jess?

[@beardforpm2115]

Mÿ Pï Dë I have had constant phycosis for 20 years and it's every minute of the day. I used to smoke canibas and took speed and buzzed lots of gas...I'm completely clean now but everyday I suffer hell on earth. what help is there for me?

[@puppypanda8372]

Have you tried talking to a therapist or a psychiatrist?

[@mr.cifuentes1779]

Beard For PM Try CBD oil, lool it up online, helps with many mental disorders

[@Barebares]

Yep, I have a iron deficiency. Started being treated on Friday- no difference yet tho

[@cazzawee]

I had a psychotic episode last night, a delusion. first time anything like this has ever happened to me. I thought I had died and I was in hell. my boyfriend was trying to calm me, tell me that I was fine and none of that was happening, but it was happening. he couldn't convince me otherwise. it went away and of course now I know that it was just my mind, but it was the realest and scariest thing that's ever happened to me. I'm doing research now as I knew absolutely nothing about psychosis until it happened to me

[@billiondollarbull]

Were you on drugs?

[@cazzawee]

Donald Sanders yeah, weed.

[@bengodard5661]

cazzawee weed is known to bring out and cause psychosis , if you have it in your genes it was said you have a 13% chance to get psychosis if you smoke weed .

[@cazzawee]

Ben Godard yep I know that now! I wasn't a regular smoker so I've had no problem not smoking since it happened and I've been fine since.

[@t_r_a_y_e9858]

cazzawee i once though i was an alien from the moon with super powers for 2 years. Not kidding, i little after it ended i was convinced that i was chosen by the devil and was talking to the devil. Right now i sometimes see another me walking around tricking me into doing bad things. I just ruined a freindship because of the things i would be tricked into doing by myself.

[@roxylalondes]

Had delusions that I was constantly being watched through cameras on my phone/laptop/etc. Also thought people could read my mind, so I had to have good thoughts always. Was a result of my OCD

[@El-lq4bv]

How did you find out it was OCD and not psychosis? I have a lot of thoughts/images that I really don't want to have and I finally brought this up to a psychiatrist I was seeing and she insisted it was the onset of psychosis(I think she said this because at the time i was smoking weed). I have had scary events in the past where I've "imagined" things that I know aren't real and I don't actually see or interact with but they scared me because I don't know why it's happening or why it won't stop. I thought it was Pure-O after listening to a podcast that featured this and then looking in to it more it seemed spot on. But SSRI's don't seem to help me and I honestly don't seem to understand what is being described when psychologists ask me questions so I feel I'm constantly being misdiagnosed.

[@roxylalondes]

At the time I was 13 and I hadn't been to a therapist yet. I had no idea what was happening to me and I thought it was psychosis. I later got diagnosed with OCD, and I learned that it was one of my obsessions. I had psychotic symptoms as a result of my OCD. It sounds like you have intrusive thoughts honestly, I would really ask your counselor about it cause it's pretty scary. Chances are though that it is psychosis and she's right. Idk that's just my story and advice!

[@Chilling4Shillings]

ZA WARUDO you are being watched on your phone and laptops camera. Everyone is.

[@emmaaxo8409]

I always feel like people are looking at me judging me and talking about me, I also feel like my house is going to get broken into.

[@TheWeekndsFan]

snaco meee 😥

[@karao6834]

I told my therapist I feel like I’m being watched all the time through cameras and mirrors sometimes even walls and he said that’s god

[@bronycore1841]

Wow what a terrible thearapist

[@lalisamanoban-xl1ok]

Same though and I'm having hallucination too

[@MsNameless01]

told a lady on the other end of a warm-line that i was experiencing pronounced paranoia, thought i was being stalked and that "they" could show up any time. she told me it was because of the full moon. i sat there in silent horror at my situation.

[@fizer3741]

😭

[@hebesky6355]

Like me I have to cover the cameras on my phone and ipad I can't look at mirrors and overall I feel as if things in my room are watching (I collect dolls they're not creepy I just feel they are watching me)

[@elskeletone]

Thank you for discussing this. I feel that mental illness, especially psychotic disorders, are "the last taboo." I'm very grateful that someone is attempting to educate the public about psychosis.

[@SiobhanOConnell519]

Hallucinations do not have to be external. I had visual hallucinations in my head (like imagination) but they were scary and wouldn't go away. Also it was like I had a second thought voice in my head yelling at me and commenting on my life.

[@mdhomemaker]

I've had these hallucinations. When I was 18 every time I closed my eyes I saw a legion of demons charging at me. Recently whenever I close my eyes to pray I sometimes see a face scowling at me as if I shouldn't be praying :(

[@MooLovesYoutube]

Really?! That would explain so much!

[@nickjohn2051]

Siobhan O'Connell Well technically that are not hallucination. That is closed eyes vivid visual. Are you a smoker? Usually it happen after you taking a smoke and trying to sleep afterwards. It is like dreaming but when trying to sleep. It is consider psuedo hallucination. It still factor in though as symptoms.

[@GB-tr2wj]

Siobhan O'Connell I

[@noahone3577]

in many parts of asia and india they believe the voices of dead ancestors sent to them to give them advice - one person said she loved her voices so much she would die without them

[@makaylamorgan6201]

Man... I wish you were my therapist

[@asilaykrovi]

I’d hit it on the bean bag tbh

[@mentalbreakdance1322]

Huit Octobre 1971 don’t be rude

[@skionen1781]

Why

[@marcirathbone8998]

Me too because 7 yrs ago when I had psychosis my doctor misdiagnosed me with schizophrenia smh

[@Ezequiel55vf]

Nah Teal Swan ❤

[@wolfclaw254]

I was diagnosed with psychosis about 7 years ago, and i still deal with the repercussions of going undiagnosed for 2 years. It's interesting to watch videos like this because i do recognize pretty much all the symptoms you listed in myself. This is one mental illness I don't hear a lot about so it's good to know there are people like you spreading the word and teaching people about these things. Thank you.

[@alluneedislessthan3]

Oh my god!!! I didn't know you could get psychosis from depression! When I was especially depressed I had a few hallucinations where I saw things appear in my environment that weren't really there. (Ex. One time I yawned outside and thought I saw a black car zoom by really fast as I exhaled, and one time while in my room with white wood boards on the walls I thought I saw a black and white striped worm wiggle along the top of the door frame). I know I'm not schizophrenic because they rarely happen. But I have struggled with depression for the majority of my life. This video has made me feel like not such a freak and not terrified to tell my therapist about it. Thank you Kati!

[@nickreaper9952]

Anna S me too it sucks

[@bunnytail1370]

Yeah, in my mind depression has a lot to do with psychosis, as well as lots of other mental problems...stress, being sad, just upsetting stuff changes people in lots of ways. Doctors are trying to figure these things out. When in fact all people need to do is give a little love to each other. Lol could there ever be a prescription for love!?

[@myozbubble]

I have smell hallucinations. I smell foul things like poop or burning rubber. I had a head injury as a young adult and wondering if that's where it's from. I told my dr why can't I have hallucinations of smelling roses or baby powder? She just laughed.

[@lenny6506]

myozbubble tle ???

[@jacobolivas4197]

Haha try harder

[@butterflycucumbers6279]

People who aren’t sick can on occasion have some mild hallucinations it’s okay it doesn’t mean they’re sick as long as it doesn’t really really upset you. Hearing voices is like having a really catchy song stuck in your head, sometimes it starts to just repeat on its own some people say that’s actually a common experience. It’s okay to smell weird things it doesn’t mean you’re sick 🤢

[@javierr.castillo1101]

Get a new doctor

[@thesisko4031]

Brain damage, ur brain triggers smells. Like when u watch those brain surgery shows when doc is doing surgery. People say they feel this or that, arm is wet etc.... Maybe cirtin smells trigger different smells, say u are smelling colone but ur brain is saying its rubber. Or a better way of saying it is like people who are colour blind, ur nose blind in smelling cirtin things in place of the actual smell cause ur brain cant process it. Ether or, dont let them fuck with ur brain. Not the worst thing to live with.

[@f.m.8999]

I want to send an hug to the families, friends and partners of those with psychosis. It's hard.

[@jballs5434]

I love this woman. She is so empathetic and understanding. Believe it or not, I haven't had the same experience with therapy haha... Thanks for all of the lovely videos.

[@ExceptionalLex]

Thank God I haven't had an episode in 4 years 🙏🏿 God is good.

[@umberdandelion]

My mother had a psychotic episode with delusions and hallucinations for 4 days due to stress and medication side effects, but she doesn't have any mental illnesses.

[@tracyk.2255]

Umber Moore same thing happened to my mother.

[@KatelynMrsBamaIngle]

Same happened to me from an anti depressant combined with high stress.. I still have anxiety muscle twitches and eye floaters since. It’s horrendous.. I also have hallucinations when I go to sleep at night.

[@chrisdiaz6154]

Katelyn Lindsey that normal hallucinations at night it’s common in teens and young adults when they drift of to sleep or wake up

[@sophiax7897]

Sorry to hear that... What on earth did the docs give her?

[@skrittle555]

i like to think of delusions as things that OTHER people might think are strange beliefs, and the person with the delusions can recognize this, but it feels just as real whether people believe you or not.

[@voiceofaliens]

LadyPennyroyal I agree. Calling it a delusion is an outside assessment. According to the reality of the deluded, it makes complete sense in how their universe is perceived.

[@samomiotek7210]

I had a girlfriend who admitted to me one day that she could see peoples' thoughts and that she was a shaman who journeys to the spirit world. So I asked her what I was picturing (a glass of beer) and she answered instantly. I got freaked out and didn't want to think about it. To this day it fucks with me. She ALWAYS won card games. One day her friend's autistic son went missing so she went to her bedroom to journey, found him, called her friend and told her where to go, and there he was. She did not seem to have psychotic symptoms and was very high-functioning and rather intelligent.

[@ravensteiner671]

A lot of psychotic people can be high functioning and very intelligent, in some cases well above average intelligence.

[@bethmathews5123]

Sounds like she likes dmt

[@anadd6195]

Maybe she was just a medium. x)

[@arelyrodriguez1361]

She is a gift for sure

[@samarthalinegwesinie1136]

It seems like she has a gift rather than a mental illness which either are fine and beautiful in their own right

[@billybaldwin6497]

I love the way you describe the experiences of those who suffer from psychotic breaks! They are victims, not people who bring it upon themselves, and not enough people understand that.

[@jessicaweekley4031]

I saw theres 666 comments so I am commenting this now so this channel is illuminati free.

[@Georgiasomar]

Jessica Weekley 😂😂😂😂

[@antonioturbes644]

Thank you

[@matthewnoel3832]

Isnt 666 the devil and not illuminati?

[@Rosie82333]

Lmao

[@negumanezer]

1337

[@dextrapede]

Thank you for spreading good information about psychosis Kati! My last major episode lasted 10 days and I'm very thankful that I don't remember much of it and was drugged up and sleeping in the psych ward for the rest. I experienced tons of visual hallucinations, the one I remember most was that a group of people came to tour my house and a man had a stroke in the closet. I dialled 911 for him and they figured out what was happening to me and brought me in. I couldn't type or read at all and could barely speak. My diagnosis turned from psychosis NOS to schizoaffective disorder and explaining it all to people is really hard! It makes me feel a lot more secure knowing that there are people out there trying to inform as many people as they can about these types of illnesses. Thank you so much.

[@sneffie]

I love how you clearly explain things. I have had trouble with auditory hallucinations since when my illness first started and it's the meds that keep most of it at bay. Though sometimes I do have hallucinations through my other senses, mostly smell. I just find it so odd when smelling things that aren't there!

[@screentake01]

Stephanie Clayton what if you're just metaphysically gifted?

[@Sarah-Louise333]

As a sufferer of psychosis, this is really informative and a great vid to send to people who are close to me and don't understand. Thanks again x

[@idan7989]

I had a delusion that my girlfriend cheated on me and left me and that was a part of a bigger delusion that i have a girlfriend (Edit: it was a bad joke)

[@olsonbryce777]

Did you really?

[@KS-me3xq]

I’ve Been dealing with psychosis, anxiety and depression for 7 years now and it’s not easy but Many episodes later I’ve come to accept that it’s a part of me but doesn’t define me. Thank you for making this video and highlighting psychosis. I feel there’s quite a few mental health illnesses that are mentioned a lot and psychosis isn’t usually one of them even though like you’ve explained, it can present as a symptom alongside many of the major illnesses like bipolar etc. for those of you also dealing with this, stay strong, accept help, if meds help, pls take them and find something that really makes you happy (a hobby, a good friend to chat to, pets, family etc)

[@Rikiid_]

For three years my mom has believed that we’re being watched through our phones,tv and followed in public. It’s frustrating because now she thinks I’m plotting against her😤

[@brie2569]

I’m going thru the same thing. Ik this is kinda weird but Is there anyway you can explain what I can do as a daughter to help her?? I feel stuck, we only have each other

[@diablominero]

Strictly speaking, phones probably do watch you. They have cameras, and I certainly wouldn't put it past Google or Facebook to take pictures of you at random for their databases.

[@juliehowman3912]

In my experience, I was really afraid of the label until I understood it was merely a distortion of reality. The flip side of my illness is that I see the world as I would like it to be, thereby often receiving different outcomes than the norm. Everyone focuses on the negative side of mental health, when there are also many positives.

[@dancorcoran7883]

I experienced a one-off drug-induced psychotic episode and it was the worst 5 days of my life. Such an awful, awful illness

[@cazzawee]

5 days!? holy shit. I just had my first one last night/this morning, I had absolutely no sense of time but it must have only lasted a few hours. I can't even imagine putting up with that for 5 days without killing myself (sounds a bit extreme now I'm back in reality but it sure sounded like a good idea whilst it was happening)

[@dancorcoran7883]

cazzawee Are you all good now? What sort of effects did you get, if you don't mind me asking? And was it because you have an actual mental health issue? I think 5 days is actually pretty much the standard for psychotic episodes from what I've read, but I could be wrong. Although it was awful, I can't say at any point that I ever felt like killing myself. A lot of people say they have suicidal thoughts but I never got that. I worked on the assumption that I needed to just get myself through it and that I'd be fine when I came out of it. Day 2, I had my first panic attack. I was at college at the time, surrounded my loads of people. Felt completely lost and confused and everything was so loud and bright. Day 3 was also a massive spike of anxiety the whole day. After that, it tapered off a little bit- or maybe I just got used to the effects. Day 6, at about midday I literally had one single moment where a wave came over me and I realised that it was gone.

[@cazzawee]

***** yeah I'm mostly okay now. I felt really shaken and paranoid at night when it was dark for a good few days after it happened, but it's been a week and a day since it happened now and I feel mostly back to normal. What happened to me was basically, I thought I died, my mind left my body and I was in hell. Hell being, just a really bad situation going round and round forever. I thought I was stuck in it, that there was no way out, part of me thought that killing myself would get me out of it (even though I thought I was already dead? I don't even know). (I made a really detailed post on Tumblr about everything that happened if you're interested in reading it, at the time it was happening I thought it was a good idea to write down exactly what was happening so I'd remember, and the next day I rewrote it to make more sense, adding in more things that I remembered. Though honestly, I just want to forget and I've been avoiding looking at it since I wrote it.) I'll be honest, it happened after smoking weed. I don't usually smoke, I don't like smoking and I don't like the effects of it but this one night for some reason I did aaand now I never will again lol. I do have anxiety and depression runs in my family (though I'm not depressed right now) so I don't know if that had anything to do with it. Apparently weed "can trigger the onset of psychosis in someone who is already at increased risk for developing it", reading that shit got me even more paranoid that it could just happen again out of nowhere. It did happen again (kinda?) two days after, but it was in a dream. I fucking shit myself that it was happening again so I started screaming and that woke me up. It's thankfully not happened since then. I'm scared to sleep tbh. Yeah, I did read that they usually last quite long. I can't even imagine. I'm glad it stopped after the effects of the weed wore off, it was a very short lived delusion that totally consumed me. I assume you already knew about psychosis, as you knew what was happening and that you had to just get through it? I had no idea what it really was until the day after it happened. I had no idea what was happening. I think that's what made me super freak out. I'm glad you seemed to be able to hold yourself together until it ended.

[@dancorcoran7883]

cazzawee Yeah sure. Link me your tumblr post and it'd definitely be interesting for me to read it. I'm sorry you had to go through that, sounds rough af. Honestly, I had heard about psychosis and I eventually realised that was what I had- it scared the fuck out of me but eventually I learned to deal with it. I'm usually not one for dealing with crises well but for some reason I managed to keep telling myself that it was temporary and that it'd be over. Considering this happened when I was 18, I was freaked out for a while because I thought it might be that I was started to develop some sort of schizo disorder so yeah I had the same problems as you, worrying it would happen again. But now it's been over a year since then and I haven't gotten anything else like it. I've kept smoking weed quite regularly by the way... maybe I'm an idiot for it, but I've never experienced anything close to that again. The scariest part of the whole thing was coming back from school one day (I was at college the entire week of having psychosis, fuck knows how I did that), and all the lights on cars were super bright and sounds were so loud and I kept thinking there was someone behind me as I was walking home. I looked actually crazy, looking behind me every 3 seconds. Then I got home, and noticed my eyes were WIDE af like a crazy person, but I read this is a common symptom of intense anxiety.

[@cazzawee]

***** warning, it's a little NSFW at the start ha. it started during sex. even better, right? here's the link: staycute-forever.tumblr.com/post/147552519040/more-last-night-i-had-a-psychotic-episode I'm glad to hear it hasn't happened to you again, that eases my mind. I've worried so much that it's a deep issue I already had that's just been brought to the surface. So it was weed for you too, yeah? Maybe I will try it again at some point... maybe not. If I do do it again, I'll definitely not be participating in sex (it'll make sense once you read my post), because it was definitely a mix of both that started it. I can't believe you could carry on going to school lol, and yeah I imagine you'd feel anxious as fuck, going through that for so long. Really happy to hear you're all good now :)

[@dianebarney9984]

I love the way you talk to us!!! I'm very afraid for my schizophrenic husband's nephew. He has been hearing voices for years not telling anyone. He has gotten so much worse and is terrified of getting help cuz my husband did for awhile but then fed into the delusions,drank and did drugs and had been missing for years. How can we get him to realize to get help please? Schizophrenia runs in their family widely. I appreciate all you do for everyone! You are an amazing woman Katie!!! Can't thank you enough 💜

[@SerapG]

When i had my first psychotic episode my parents were out and i believed when they returned they were going to kill me ,so i tried to nail my door shut.

[@danyapavlovich4918]

I'm having hallucinations tonight and just got off the line with the crisis line and they were no help :( now I'm watching your videos to help bring me back to normality

[@yuhloic]

I keep seeing things moving from the corner of my eye, and sometimes when i close my eyes i see the weirdest most random images, someomes its a monster charging at me or sometimes its a terrifying devil type face smiling and staring at me IM SCARED

[@charlotte3199]

Me too...

[@stephc3242]

Same here

[@Nadine9534]

Loic Martelly it’s your subconscious

[@aydianbrown7818]

Literally I have the same thing sometimes, have for years. I'm at least glad to know I'm not the only one

[@maria1874]

My Psychiatrist recently diagnosed me with Psychosis and I do have a few of the traits you mentioned in this video, I’ve just started to learn what is is and this is very helpful to me.

[@KraceeSteez]

I've got a friend who is suffering from this . I just wanted to come on here too see what's happening to my friend. Some of this ticks the boxes . Tbh

[@AnnaLeyland]

thank you so much for this video, it was really validating. I have schizoaffective disorder and knowing that other people have similar symptoms to me is a huge comfort - thank you

[@OS-bs9ky]

sometimes psychosis can be a side effect of certain meds. like SSRI's, SNRI's and benzos.

[@simulatedspirit9577]

Venlaflaxine sent me psychotic

[@fredytorres8231]

So true

[@pufferstuffer7432]

Is there help available for hallucinations, delusions or psychosis? NO. JUST PILLS. I've been 2 years pill free. I feel like a live wire one minute and locked in my own head listening to my other two partners talk away in my head all night the next. Do I Sleep? NO. Do I eat? Not much. Suicidal? Frequently. I never know who I am so I'm scared most of the time to function in life. This sucks. Did I say I was a Veteran? The hardest part of having BP is others believing your sick and not just a jerk. Your videos are great and have helped me realize and educate others of who I am and that I'm not just a negative mean person. Thanks!

[@jaydeal3922]

I had a delusion that my wife had inserted microchips in my side which was part of a bigger delusion. This psychosis was part of my bipolar I.

[@neoluddite5676]

sorry to hear that brother. i suffered from paranoid psychosis. i know how it feels +Jay Deal

[@jaydeal3922]

***** It's weird hpw these things take hold of our mind.

[@Ohkeh640]

Can you get it with bp2

[@cl1204]

My husband defaults to making me his enemy (im the only caretaker which is so hard especially because inam disabled and we have 5 kids)

[@haleychristofilis8661]

Ívan Er Sá Skelfilegasti I had the exact same experience... multiple times. It took me a very long time to accept the diagnosis - because the experience was so mystical and powerful, even with the fear and paranoia, I didn’t want to give up searching for the meaning in the “episodes.” I’m not on medication and haven’t had any psychosis in a year, but I’m endlessly curious as to what the delusions like we had really point to about humanity/spirit...

[@Kristina-cj7tg]

I know this video is from several years ago, but I'm just seeing it now, and has really helped me understand my diagnosis. About a year ago I asked my psychiatrist what my formal diagnosis is and she said "bipolar with psychotic features" and I was really upset by that because I didn't really know what "psychotic" meant other than things like hallucinations, which I do not experience. Even though I'm still not 100% sure about my diagnosis since my psychiatrist thinks one thing and my therapist thinks another, this still really helped me out. Thank you!

[@AlixCoquette]

I have been struggling with this a lot recently. I think some of the things you talked about in this video could apply to me. But, I just can't seem to wrap my head around what makes something a delusion. And, how do I know if something is really important to talk to my therapist about. All of this is kind of scary to me.. and I guess I really need to stop watching things like this because it is only making my anxiety over this matter worse. Just.. how do you know? Is really what I want to know.

[@conniescum9629]

for me, one of the elements of my schiz is not knowing. not in an intellectual sense where there is no objective knowledge, but in an everyday way where i doubt every moment of being and learning as real. does this sound familiar?

[@mescalinemonkey8183]

Polu McEwan Define real?

[@xoSiNgInGiNtHeRaInox]

I think you should tell all of this to your therapist. But when I had psychosis, I wasn't wondering the same things you are wondering. A psychiatrist outright told me I was in a psychosis and the word, while scary and anxiety-inducing, did not make even a slight bit of sense to me, did not make me doubt my (in hindsight extremely delusional) convictions about what was happening even one bit. One thing to know is that you cannot convince a psychotic person that they are in a psychosis.

[@littlemeanbunny547]

we need sooo many more therapists like you!!!!! :) srsly!!!!

[@LittleSumSum]

I have visual hallucinations and it's the scariest experiences ever. It literally stresses me out. I'm taking anti depressants and anti psychotics but I have days when it's controlled and not too bad but every now and then I have really extreme cases. I don't know how to control them 😭

[@alinap350]

Btw the no-expression thing is more like a freezing from the Being overwhelmed like in trauma (plus the neuroleptics), and the „word salat“ is the desprate attempt to connect the perception to a common reality by turning the psychotic meanings into some kind of code words and building a sentence from that. Try that and you’ll know where the long pauses in between come from, it’s pretty complex.

[@alinap350]

I recommend reading the Double Bind Theory by Gregory Bateson, he had the open-mindedness to come pretty close to what it’s like and find a pattern in it.

[@karinkay3256]

Woah, didn't know that was called psychosis. I've had all but the hallucinations many times. I have bipolar II by the way.

[@sven-zq9hi]

I have been scrolling through the comments trying to find this one specifically so I could 100% relate. I was just too scared to comment it myself I feel like somehow someone I know will see it lol

[@sven-zq9hi]

Oh and I was diagnosed with depression almost a year ago now and my therapist at the time told me I should get checked for anxiety but I quit going and taking the meds after a month or so because I felt I could get over it on my own from there. Which I did, but a few months ago I started noticing psychotic symptoms I just thought I was becoming dumb....Time to go get my mental health back again 🤧

[@elisehudson5627]

Someone has probably already said this but I so appreciate how she talks with "we", like saying "when we struggle with hallucinations" for example. It's so comforting and makes the things shes explaining feel so much less scary or abnormal! It makes you feel so much less alone. Psychosis is so stigmatized, even by many mental health professionals, and people think of it as making you into this scary, fucked up, very "other" person when in reality you are just another person, just one who is dealing with a lot of fear and confusion. I've been dealing with psychosis and psychotic symptoms for a long time and watching this video made me feel so much less ashamed, hearing her describe everything so neutrally and compassionately!

[@schnobelmcshtinkaldorf2549]

I got up to look at the clock due to the extreme anxiety, it was 3:00 again. They were keeping me awake and it was beginning to wear on me. Even going to the bathroom was terrifying. How could it not be with a demon in there with you telling you that someone was down the drain eating your shit. Better check the time, oh it's 3:00 again. 3:00 o'clock for a month straight, weird. They were delving into my brain and making me think things, everyone thought that i was going mad. The aliens appearing was kind of a big clue that i wasn't going mad. The deep burning smell of sulfur was another big clue. I was possessed and i was dying. I was hi-jacked internally, taken over like a computer. Then the shadow people came, and beings made of light were appearing, as i wandered some city dying and hurting. They all thought i was crazy but it was just them. They were communicating nasty shit inside of me and hurting me very badly. You've never felt so bad as when you are getting murdered and tortured invisibly but no one can see it, shit goes awry because they can't see it. I was then taken and drugged forever. Diagnosed and ruined for the rest of my life, death is better than this. Just another murder victim that was thrown on earth against his will. And if i don't drug they come for me, they can be very persuasive you might say. I did get off of the meds for a time but they just came back. They have shown me many things that they can do with our brains. They can induce any experience at all in there. You can taste anything, see anything, hear anything, feel anything, and also be made to think anything. They can hi-jack this thing you are calling choice as well and just make you do things. They can also fuck with your dreams. For some reason they wanted me to know this crazy shit was happening, i don't know why. They even prove it repeatedly, i've been cut and physically accosted in the night. They even began doing things like tell me the cards on a game i couldn't see. They just prove it repeatedly. So there you go, "psychosis". It was a hi-jacking of my mind and feelings, a hack you know, i was basically hacked in my system. 3:00 all of the time during psychosis.

[@maddyboombaddybaddy6532]

incredible. i cant believe you have actually gone through this and still have the knowledge and skill to share that. that sounds absolutely mind fucking to the max. I'll always remember this in fact im going to write it down cuz i believe in a timeless dimension, it is what keeps me interested and part of history. my very beliefs are changing right now, ever being influenced by moments passing

[@schnobelmcshtinkaldorf2549]

Ahhhhh, you can't believe i still have the knowledge and skill to share all of this eh? Well it's not exactly what you think. I don't have the knowledge and skill to share this. It's not me anymore. They have melded with my mind and shit that i am really not supposed to be saying or doing is happening all of the time. You know that movie about the aliens where they offered the milly if they pushed the button? The messenger was dead the whole time and it was them in him. That's alot like me actually. I'm like the real walking dead basically except i've been hi jacked by the spirits. I'm not shitting you right now i've been drugged into retardation pretty much but i'll sit out in my garage seeing interdimensional shit and thinking about how time travel works.

[@mr.cifuentes1779]

Schnobel Mcshtinkaldorf you sound just like my father, try CBD oil natural antipsychotic look it up online

[@e.l.n214]

That was one of my fears too. I learned to not fear a single effing thing in the world. And accept suffering. To improve myself i turned into a perennialist and i follow buddhist, hindu, jewish, christian ideals. When i get to studying the other religions i will continue adding to my list. I learnt that demons from spiritual experts only get to you if you are missing something. I try to fill in my missing parts. Buddhists actually guide demons and ghosts compassionately to the light, to reverence. I will do all that. I refuse to live with ego. Brother..i love you and i dont know you.

[@e.l.n214]

You can live with a lower dose of meds if you get rid of your fears of possession. Dont give your body to anyone its yours and the lords/creator/collective consciousness/spirit, whatever your religion and beliefs. Have no fear. Be brave. Meditate try mingyur rinpoche.

[@empressivy6539]

I would love if you would put a disclaimer the next time. Bc I have/ had many things and I don't know everthing by name, so I watched this. but this video was really really triggering to me. And I had to stop it several times. Appreciate your work queen 🙏🏼❤️

[@SiobhanOConnell519]

I can develop psychosis from my Bipolar Type 1 but I also get paranoia and delusional thinking from my Borderline. Psychosis is terrifying.

[@janedoe935]

Kati, Could you do more journal topics? I find these so helpful and you really have a calming voice that helps my anxiety. Thanks for all you do Drew

[@dianabrown2258]

I'm concerned that doctors are too quick to jump to psychosis in minors when they should take a close look (and maybe confront) the parents who may have substance abuse

[@jgnmtz]

So glad you have this video. I've been having these mind flashes of disparaging thought patterns. I'm angry , then depressed. I'm confused then I'm imagining yelling at the last person to piss me off.. I'll have to talk to my therapist tomorrow. Maybe i'll share it with my partner . I don't want him to be scared that I need to go back to the hospital for outpatient treatment again. But I don't want to feel this anger. my mind seems to be trying to deal with all the stress i've been under lately. several things are happening that are major right now. . Be well

[@tomandband]

I've had strong delusions for the last 5-6 years and I'm just starting to realize I've actually been ill and need help

[@nasrulnasir2834]

are u sure? impossible .. usually after 6 month this delusion / intrusive thought will gone slowly or u will be get boring and not interested with this delusion .. try clozapine

[@corinaj2992]

Hey Kati! I experienced psychosis for about 3 months, 1.5 of which I spent in the hospital. Specifically, I was diagnosed with delusional disorder. Anyways, I no longer have delusions or hallucinations however, I have found that the road to recovery has been beyond hard. Eight months into recovery and I still suffer from anxiety, depression, and flashbacks. I believe I also have some symptoms of PTSD. I think one thing that deserves more attention is the trauma that patients go through as they experience delusions and hallucinations. For example, one of my delusions was that I set off bombs in multiple countries, killing hundreds of people. I cannot put into words the emotional trauma I experienced carrying the burden of that delusion. On top of this staying in a hospital for an extended amount of time can be traumatizing in itself. I think you should do a video about recovering from the trauma of psychosis. Thank you for your awesome videos! :D

[@SabrinaRosa02]

Crazy I had a very similar thing happen to me

[@AnbruchASMR]

Can psychosis occur and then the person recognize in hindsight that it was psychosis? For some reason I was always under the impression that if someone experiences psychosis they have no insight. I would think that if it's mood related, as with Bipolar, that after the episode is stabilized that the patient could look back and have insight and realize they were psychotic.

[@umberdandelion]

I don't think so, because they can't differenciate between what's reality and what's not.

[@SammyWD]

They can once they are out of the episode and no longer psychotic, although their memory might be clouded

[@umberdandelion]

SammyWD Exactly. My mother had a psychotic episode and she now knows it was a psychotic episode but doesn't remember a lot of the things she did/said.

[@AnbruchASMR]

SammyWD thanks for explaining that for me! 😃

[@musiccup9222]

+Umber Moore that's only whilst they're psychotic or delusional

[@insolubletoaster8133]

I had auditory hallucinations, and sometimes still do, from my depression. People think it's something we THINK we're hearing. We don't THINK we hear it, we ACTUALLY hear it. That's the thing everyone gets wrong. It's not "voices in our heads" it's voices or sounds we hear the same exact way we hear Kati talking in this video.

[@GeorgieLizBlossom]

#KatiFAQ - Hi Kati, how can I get over my fear of death? It's not about dying specifically anymore; I'm terrified of the nothingness that comes afterwards and how I will never be able to do anything again, see the world, love, family, etc. Whenever I think about it I get so scared that I get a panic attack. What can I do about it?

[@TheCorporateSerf]

I was hospitalized against my will multiple times in 2014 for psychosis. Had episodes for years before that, had episodes after, but I will never allow myself to be hospitalized or take medication again.

[@yzysply]

Great video, very informative.

[@jimnasium8902]

My friend has skitzophrinia he thought the TV was talking to him. he also thought his family was putting AIDS in his food and refused to eat it. Also he went into a neighbors house sat down and thought he was going to get a haircut . And one other occasion he went into another neighbors house and started putting up Christmas decorations in the middle of July .none of these neighbor's knew him very well. I'm glad he got the help and medication he needed . He's fine now and realises all that stuff was wrong and just in his head .

[@123rockfan]

I have generalized anxiety disorder. Is it possible to have something similar to psychosis with GAD? Last week I I encountered one of the worst bouts of anxiety during a social situation. The next night my mind was racing, I felt dizzy, I couldn't control my thoughts, and my motivation was completely shot. What do you think of this?

[@mtg187]

i can relate i had gad my whole life as bad as panic attacks are,i wish i just had those instead of my ptsd and schizoeffective psychosis.its a whole other monster.get your anxiety under contol the best thing i learned was that the firm believe that im not dying its just a symptom of anxiety the panic attacks are not life threatening.

[@ruby-qv5bd]

Thank you so much for sharing your knowledge with those of us out here that are interested in learning about some of these issues. It is now too late for me to help my mother that suffered from bipolar, but it can help me to understand more now what she was going through and why she had troubles dealing with things. Very interesting and you do a great job explaining these things. So appreciate it!

[@SamoJeanne]

I'm been struggling with anxiety and ***I think*** psychosis ( I haven't been diagnosed yet) so At work when I was really stressed I got an episode where a doll kept talking to me and I had no idea how it was doing so because it was a toy that had a voice box in it, it was just a plushy. Of course I made the mistake of telling some coworkers and now they think I'm crazy but I honestly don't know what to do. I have all the symptoms of psychosis ESPECIALLY that thing where you're getting a panic attack and it withdraws you from the world and makes you detached I don't remember what it's called but I looked online and that's one of the top symptoms of psychosis. I get to see a doctor on Dec 5th, but until then I'm trying so hard to get over my panic attacks by self and it's so hard. Can anyone give me advice to help me when I get attacks? Whether it be with my anxiety or me psychosis symptoms

[@MegaLeoben]

So how did it go with the doc ?

[@SamoJeanne]

MegaLeoben she said she doesn't know what i have. she said i could have schizophrenia but she needed a week to look over my results before she made the diagnosis. still waiting for her reply.

[@MegaLeoben]

Samanatha shahbozian Okay. Good luck with that.

[@willowrobinson7965]

Samanatha shahbozian What happened? I'm experiencing same kinda thing and real!y wanna know. x

[@SamoJeanne]

Bare Bare I just have Depression and psychosis. I don't have anything severe enough to be schizophrenic or whatever, so that's all they can diagnose me under.

[@pflower1994]

I will be going to my first therapist appointment in three weeks. I have been finding your videos very helpful. Most of the time I don't know how to put what I feel in words. I think I have experienced psychosis. That is when I feel the most worried about myself. Sometimes its very frustrating to deal whatever it is I am dealing with. Anyways thank you for making these videos.

[@jernie9384]

I personally often felt disconnected to reality, like locked up in day dreams. Does anyone know if that's also part of a Psychosis ?

[@AccessibleEvents]

Thanks for this Kati Morton - very helpful in describing psychosis

[@sixthcavalier]

I had my first psychotic episode in January this year, I believed my boyfriend and my friends were spies, and that there were surveillance cams watching me everywhere I went. I didn't leave my room for three days and didn't talk to anyone at all.

[@drakecarter1780]

My ex has this. Was a roller coaster that I NEVER want to experience again. I came home one night from work and as soon as I walked in the door, she attacked me and it turned into a WWE vs match. Almost got arrested because of it. She tried attacking the police. Proclaiming she was the greatest champion of all time and tried to give the police direct orders. She genuinely was shocked and felt disrespected when the police cuffed her and took her in. Even started crying saying she felt betrayed by her own protection team. I haven't spoken to her or seen her since that night. That was in 2016.

[@kareliarussia9253]

I had lived with Psykosis for a deccade. And my doctor said that I MIGHT never get free from it. I'm just tired, so tired.

[@condesuguitan9142]

Man that sucks... You're not alone bro. I had psychosis for 2 months, tho I'm taking medications , the voices and delusions and all are still there but not as strong and missing a few days will make it go back. My doc said I may have a high risk of having schizophrenia :/.

[@beardforpm2115]

BikesAreFreedom I have suffered everyday for 20 years and my doctor said the same. I'm tired as well 😢

[@doccred256]

Conde Suguitan how are u now?

[@doccred256]

KareliaRussia are u fine now?

[@aaronburke3527]

Thank you so much for bringing this up as a topic! I had a Bipolar (manic) episode with psychosis and it was extremely difficult for me to explain what happened throughout recovery. Even more difficult for loved ones not knowing what was going on while it was happening. I'm glad I can refer people to this video so they might have a basic understanding of what it is. Thanks again! - Aaron

[@cl1204]

When my bipolar husband is getting ready to transition into another terrible cycle, his default isbto immediately become negative aboit our marriage evenq when things are getting better. He also obsesses over every little physical symptoms. Why does he take any pain inflicted by others and place blame on our marriage? Sometimes he seems delilusional. I have friends with bipolar spouses who never go there. When he was manic for 5 months i was his enemy and he emotionally and psychologically abused me. He has immediate guilt when he cane out of mania bug his memories are majorly off. Is something else potentially going on? Please help. This is new to me and it's breaking me dow. Having to talk him away from his illogical paranoia sometimes multiple times a day. He is scared of mania because it almost destroyed our family but he also craves it. Lastly, he is a roller coaster with hot/cold with me. I truly believe his mother screwed with his thinking over the yrs.. Shse is an extreme narciccist who has tried to detroy our marriage fir 14 yrs. She has done truly insane things to sabotage me and has successful turned her entire family against me despite the fact that i keep to myself and dont bother anyone. I am convinced his mom is getting in his head because she is a genius manipulator. What would you do with all this?

[@jeanmarchetti5966]

U should just divorces its cruel but true its his bipiolar thats making him do that , he will never stop. I also have bipolar i can understand how ur husband behaves its better to just leave and find someone not toxic

[@jeanmarchetti5966]

U should just divorces its cruel but true its his bipiolar thats making him do that , he will never stop. I also have bipolar i can understand how ur husband behaves its better to just leave and find someone not toxic

[@jantaljaard835]

Just support your husband as much as you can

[@hearme4581]

Leave before you become like that. Narcissistic abuse is serious and causes so many metal illnesses. Im in therapy from my mother and bf beinh narcissist. I have borderline personality disorder from years of manipulation

[@R3N5HAW]

Thank you! I wasn't aware of the "negative effects"

[@corinnquinones]

#KatiFAQ Hey Kati my best friend has Schizophrenia and I have a question that I'm afraid to ask her. So she sees people who aren't really there and I get that. She has Delusions. But how is it when she has her eyes closed, back turned to me, and no one but me, her, and the people she sees are in the room and one of her people usually tell her what I'm doing if they're not really there ? Its not like I'm making any noise to give what I'm doing away, so how is it that they can tell her what I'm doing? If that makes any sense....? Thanks Kati! :)

[@corinnquinones]

Thank you Kati :)

[@allistorkirkland7101]

Friend of mine has ptsd, depression and anxiety. Due to her stress and insomnia, she started hallucinating, badly. Got to the point of nearly deleting herself, but she got help before she could, thankfully

[@ABCDEF-ix1qf]

Experiencing amphetamine psychosis right now. fuckk

[@mescalinemonkey8183]

Trevor O'Connell Watch breathe listen to music.

[@TeaOnTue]

t o same happened to me with pot. so so scary.

[@Vampretta666]

Kati Morton I want to say you have been an inspiration for me to get into mental health and be a a peer support worker. I had an psychosis episode a few months back. I really want to use my experience to help people. Can you give me some tips ?

[@shadowweaver3693]

christians must just think its possession

[@elmarkymark]

Vikki Waiting I'm a Christian with psychosis. So no

[@jassmeenem3893]

Muslims think that too

[@cheyannemuro1725]

Vikki Waiting I am a Christian who is bipolar and have crazy psychosis episodes.... at first I thought it was possestion 😂 so thankful it's not.

[@philiptadros4981]

I'm a Christian and do not think so at all. I know a loved one who is suffering from similar conditions. Actually, I believe Christianity gets to the root of the problem, because it speaks directly to depression, hopelessness, etc. which are at the bottom of what many people feel. Christianity offers real hope.

[@frankbush8368]

Re- religion/Christianity: Listen to first part about delusion.

[@maranlou2542]

Ive had audio hallucinations just before waking up. Most every day all day avolition. Didn’t know avolition had a name just thought it is depression. I’ve been watching you Kati since 2016 and you have helped me tremendously. The first month was hard to accept and sent me into a worse depression but I understood why I am like I am. I just happened to cross your site. I’ve always liked psychology and all of the other sciences. Anything I can learn more of _ i will. ( i have no commas on keyboard for some reason). Thank you so much for being here . Out of all therapists I have seen on yt I like you the best!! You are so explanatory and personable... wish i had you as my therapist been seeing a therapist for 1 1/2 years and i am about to exit and he is almost as good as you... 😘.!! I’m so much better today because of YOUR video that day in 2016. It took some convincing for my first therapist apt. And so very glad I took that first step. What first got me is that you described me to a T on several videos that first day of my discovery of your site. Depression and anxiety.... i never knew were connected. Thank You again.... Kelly(male)

[@yolandaayon8277]

who's watching 2017

[@kainovember]

Yolanda Ayon 2018 now lol

[@paulflint6254]

2018

[@ruby-qv5bd]

I also wanted to say that I wished that I had this information available to me back in the day when no one was able to explain any of this to us as children. It would have helped an adult try to make it more possible for the children to handle the side effects of these issues. Helping families heal from all of this is so important. So many children have to live through so many scary situations seeing their parent go through such things and no one is there to help ease the pain and fear that they are experiencing which leaves many children empty and alone. So sad. We need to have much more help for families with children going through all of this and I hope for the future something more can be done to have extra support for those innocent little children who suffer deeply from all of this. So sad, that there isn't someone out here to step in and see if there are children that may be in need of some counseling, too. Surviving this as a child, I can wish for a better future for others. Thank you so much for what you do.

[@RRRR-sj3pt]

God bless that extra 't' in your last name :P

[@hacapper03]

Not watched any videos for a while but I'm back and still find your videos so helpful, thank you:)

[@fatimashahzad9635]

I just wana say thank u soo much u are amazing U motivate me alot

[@therapynmore]

hey Kati, simple and succinct .... I'm a Psychotherapist from India and I love your videos. keep up the good work! love

[@danielvasquez5860]

I needed to have some idea of what this was. That’s why I came here. For Months, maybe years, I’ve been havigg bf these insanely vivid hallucinations (which I won’t go into detail for) where I see another me with this smiling, semi-clown like face and red flannel on. And he doesn’t say anything. But there’s a whistle pattern before he comes, and then, there he is, standing in these shifting shadows and staring at me, never leaving me be, causing this horrible panic that won’t go away for hours. But i wasn’t sure ever that I could or should get help. Things like this have run in my family and my Mom worries so much, so it’s difficult to even tell her without having confirmation that there is something very wrong, because I don’t want to scare her. But i think it’s time to get help. Thank you

[@rebeccacowan370]

I have been told by my doctor that I suffer from psychosis due to trauma. I have never heard of this before?! Can this be the case?! I love this video 💜

[@olracsobi8352]

Well, if I see or hear things, then they are definitely there, for me at least and for that very specific moment. There's nothing such like "objective reality", which is in fact just a set of norms we've agreed upon to let society function the way most of us want to.

[@smilingontime]

I understand why the headshrinker added this to my diagnosis... thank you

[@MD-ki7qw]

Dang I wish I could have found this when I was mentally unstable I’m just here now learning about mental health problems to maybe help the people around me!

[@rnttnzr774]

I would love a video about what organized thoughts vs disorganized looks like

[@artisticbloodflow]

Thank you so much for this, Kati. I've suffered with this for the majority of my young life, and it truly is terrifying. Thank you for putting this video out there to help others better understand this. :^)

[@hikaritakahashi9411]

I've experienced on and off periods of catatonia, usually after coming across a trigger. I used to get them a lot before starting therapy, but I've had another bout of it today after running across a trigger that caused a severe anxiety attack.

[@jasonmclaren8752]

I was in a psychotic state for almost a month. I truly believed I was dead and I was in hell. And everyone around me were demons sent to torture me. I called my mom and asked her if I was alive. Needless to say. She was worried.

[@mlandvovilakati9767]

i went through a difficult time and i had psychosis im still going through therapy EVERYONE AROUND ME THINKS I WAS FAKING MY SITUATION AND THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW DIFFICULT THIS SITUATION WAS ON ME...I THINK I HAVE SCHIZOPHRENIA...its is very annoying because they strongly believe that i am just a junkie and a liar...thank u so much kate for giving me words to describe my situation..because i had i alot of disorganized thinking and i couldn't clearly say what i wanted to say

[@benjaminyost8314]

You should do a video explaining how drugs and alcohol can exacerbate psychotic symptoms experienced by people with bipolar 1 and schizophrenia. Many people coping with psychosis are addicted to or self-medicate with drugs and alcohol, which can make "breaking" the psychosis next to impossible. Mood stabilizers and anti-psychotics will not be effective if they are being interfered with by outside agents that effect, among other things, your dopamine levels. Drugs and alcohol also can work to fracture the ego. This makes re-defining one's identity after a psychotic event particularly difficult as psychosis itself is devastating to a person's identity. There's a lot of videos on You Tube about how certain drugs may be beneficial for treating mental illness, but non on this topic, where for the psychotic patient the stakes are so high. Love the videos!

[@nicolejenny3969]

Yes, going to the grocery store is like lifting a heavy stone when in bad episodes. Along with self care and wanting to do a thing. Leaving the house is a true terror.

[@c.l.368]

I've had, so far, 4 episodes of the same psychotic/panic attack. I will say first of all that I am now convinced, after the last one I had (literally yesterday), that I have it under control. That there's always a way out, and that it comes with understanding what is really happening, at least within your subjective experience. I can't explain why, but I also have the intuition that this is a universal experience that gets triggered by the same underlying thought process. Like a conviction, a logical process that you reach that, if really accepted, there's no way back to the "normal" world, to sanity; the conviction that, if what you've realised is really true, then you will have reached the point of no return. And, thus, all you need to be able to exit this experience is to realise you're wrong: that this "truth", this way of looking at the world, the psychotic way, is only ONE way of looking at it, not THE way. When you realise that it will eventually go away because it's simply not true that that is all there is, it actually diffuses it. What triggered it every time in my case was introspection. It goes something like this: I'm trying to watch my thoughts as they pass through my head. As I progress in this introspection, this search for the meaning of what I'm experiencing, I can see that thoughts have a beginning and an end. Having a thought is like finding yourself staring at the inside of a bubble. At the beginning, you're just experiencing it, but after a brief instant, you find yourself outside the bubble, looking at it as a memory, as if it's moving away from you, and soon, you find yourself in the next bubble, the next thought, and everything happens again and again. Having a psychotic attack means reaching the conclusion that, whatever it is that you were trying to find within that bubble, doesn't exist. That there's no sense to it all, that there's something you're looking for inside each bubble that you simply can't live without, and that realising it was never there means things will never go back to how they were. What is this that you're searching for? Ultimate meaning. The ultimate reality of what you're staring at, of your experience, of reality itself. What the thought actually IS. Having a psychotic attack is like reaching the conviction that there's no ultimate meaning to be found anywhere in your thoughts, that one follows the next, and the next, with no real meaning or logical connection between them. You feel you're about to die, to reach the point of no return. If you stay long enough, you actually start to "act crazy", as every thought that passes through your head actually does become disordered and random. It's as if the string that connects one thought to the next has been severed and it's just a jumbled mess. The conviction that there's no "string" connecting each thought with the next, that there's no meaning to any of it, is what actually triggers the string to disappear, what makes everything lose meaning as you realise thought's are just random events. So how do you actually survive? By realising that that thing you were searching for, that ultimate meaning of things, was always with you. You only think you've lost it when you actually try to "look" at it directly, if you try to bring it to the forefront of your mind. When you try, you realise it's impossible, and you get tricked into thinking it doesn't exist. But what you have to realise is that it does indeed exist, only it's .... "behind you". "Behind" that point of view from which you're staring at your own thoughts. It's not that it doesn't exist, it's that it only exists within you, never "in front of you", but "behind your eyes". I think that everyone that "survives" an experience like this (that is, that they return to sanity), manages to come back because they are able to realise, even if it's only subconsciously, that this "ultimate meaning", that thing that you feel you're loosing a grip on when you're at the edge of the abyss, peering into darkness, was always with you. It's what cannot be named, it's the very reason your thoughts started moving in the first place. Something you can never "see", that you can never reach in its plenitude, but that is always there, within you, out of reach, but always accompanying you.

[@tgherman3619]

Been taking care of my mother for years now who has this due to medication. She has all these symptoms. One thing that I know that helps is keeping noise level to a minimum. Loud sounds from any source can cause my mom's symptoms to spark up. Taking her out in public like to the doctors is hard because all the sights and noises overwhelm her.

[@punchjumper3744]

Loved this video. Verb educational. I really enjoy learning about the different mental health disorders etc out there that I don't know of. Thank you :)

[@antoniatait6759]

Thank you so much for uploading about psychosis and schizophrenia. Basically, my dads mother has paranoid schizophrenia and I've never met her. I've never really wanted to meet her either. Anyway, it started off in the holidays when I was trying to go to sleep and my thoughts were my own voice telling me that I'm a failure and that I'm sick and selfish. When I told my mum I was so scared seeing as I've seen a ghost before and sometimes feel things that aren't there. I also sometime look at things and think that it is something else, when I look again it is what everyone else sees. I'm also very scared about the police and FBI, I even deleted two social media outlets because I started becoming that scared. Also, I have trust issues and sometimes I don't feel like doing anything, either sleeping or watching KZbin. For most of the holidays, my mum asked me if I wanted to walk the dog with her, I wanted to but I also didn't and I don't really understand why seeing as I live in such a beautiful area. Bipolar 2, BPD, anxiety and aspergers run in my family as well as schizophrenia so I'm really confused and don't know what to do. I have experience being emotionless (numb in a way) and sometimes I don't really know how to get my point across. I don't know what to do. Should I wait and see if anything develops or should I consult my doctor immediately? Any help is the best, I hope you see this seeing as you know what you are talking about. Thank you for uploading things like this, it really helps but I am still confused as what to do. Advice please? X

[@antoniatait6759]

I also find it hard to show emotion through speech, only tone and my face

[@beepbopbeep2873]

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[@patriciamartinez-eo5sl]

this is sooo true, I really love the empathic way you explain everything without pity is just matter if fact without disdain and yesssss I surely experience I dont know yet if it is delusion ar hallucination because I see and hear people all the time that others dont see but I can also feel them, like I can totally feel their touch so my doctor is researching this because I was diagnosed with bipolar II 10 years ago so upon changing proffesionals and starting over which is hard but she is great and is helping me, so yeah, I guess there was your disorganized thinking, I just wanted to say I experience many of those thing and I enjoy watching your videos and sorry for the typos I´m in a hurry

[@CriticalCentrist]

As you were listing symptoms of psychosis it felt like you were reading my last psych eval from when I was in the ward.