when night comes, i'm is the most alone in the world; a playlist is slowed down

[@alonelost2561]

Why am I not the first choice...?( a sad slowed playlist) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/sKHWhqpmfLVsrq8

[@elymallare3735]

@AcenoxiRiley l.l

[@elymallare3735]

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[@senorakim8791]

@@elymallare3735 a 0a 0000a a 0000a 00

[@jessiefreeman7765]

At least you were a choice. I was always a last resort 😓

[@rayraylynn]

God’s Protection…… He always knows what’s best for us! Even if it hurts like hell!! Praying you fine your person!!! 🙏🏽😇

[@only639]

Suicide is stupid? You wanna know what is stupid? Hurting someone so much emotionally, they think suicide is the "only" answer...

[@_csinti_]

don't give up, please stay strong. ask for help if you need it, talk to someone. you matter❤

[@lowkeymin6138]

I totally agree with you bestay ❤️ Ik suicide will remove the pain but nothing will gonna be change....(so pls don't think about it ❤️) Everything will fine on someday. Pls Don't give up ❤️.... Take careee. You matter :)

[@bc8724]

I actually agree,i hate when people are like "tf is wrong with that person who committed they're so dumb" You haven't even listened to their story,how would you know what they're been through? So disrespectful:/

[@_csinti_]

@@bc8724 i wish you all the best, take care. you matter ❤️

[@bc8724]

@@_csinti_ Thank you for your kind words

[@eternity6562]

When night comes...I finally have peace.

[@bobachan8125]

When night comes I can finally cry

[@nevaehpio5946]

When the night comes I'm finally at peace

[@_csinti_]

take care

[@_csinti_]

@@nevaehpio5946 stay safe

[@_csinti_]

@@bobachan8125 take care

[@anansijpeg]

It's 1:09A.M. I'm laying in my bed thinking about what I could have done better, HOW I could have done better. My future. Slumped against the wall in my apartment, on a cloudy and rainy day, staring down at the cars that pass by, their blinkers and headlights going off, signalling every turn, every break. I'll watch as my tear stained face flows with tears once again, wanting him to have stayed. Wishing he were here with me. But deep down I know he's not, and that's what makes me start to sob, in sorrow and helplessness. The night progresses, and I'm alone in my bed, away from my window. Completely turned around and looking at the light the moon shines onto my bedroom wall, and all I can think about. . . Is how beautiful he is. He's beautiful tonight. I think he knows too, otherwise he wouldn't have shone to me again.

[@callieee4483]

you'll be alright😊💗

[@qupid2589]

bestie are you a poet or smth this is gorgeous

[@anansijpeg]

@@qupid2589 💙💙

[@melissacatalano4772]

That’s a horrible feeling and no amount of apologies can make it feel better. I just hope one day you can find peace 🥺❤️I hear you and know that pain and I hate for anyone to have to feel it .

[@lydiarickerd89]

This hit hard.

[@ykis9152]

I'm listening to this thinking, wow. I attempted almost 3 times already. Yet I'm still here living, alive. More alive then I'll ever be and I'm enjoying that. It may not be that important to you but for me it's impressive and I'm proud of myself for overcoming something that took over me. This playlist just gives so much comfort. I'm alive, and I'm proud of who I have become.

[@isabellewilkinson1103]

It’s very important to me. I lost someone over a month ago that I had lost touch with, and I miss them. I didn’t even know them that well and it still hurts sometimes. I’m not able to say that they have committed. I’ve only said I lost someone and they took their life. I haven’t been able to talk about them without crying. I keep thinking about my best friend. They have attempted 3 times. I don’t know what I would do without them. I’m so scared I’m going to loose them. I don’t want to loose them. I can’t help others if I’m hurting. I can’t loose them

[@ykis9152]

@@isabellewilkinson1103 I'm sorry love

[@natashatruter4456]

I am so very proud of you. I may not know you, but I hear you. I'll never know exactly what you have been through, only you know that. But what I do know is that you are so strong. Many don't make it, but you did. You are meant to be here and I love you. You will continue to do great things

[@ykis9152]

@@natashatruter4456 thank you so so much., i love you, though i don't know you.

[@isabellewilkinson1103]

@@ykis9152 thank you, you have truly helped me

[@lanieray8881]

Time stamp: 0:00 - 4:38 • The Wisp Sings 5:10 - 8:50 • The Night We Met 8:51 - 13:25 • You’re Somebody Else 13:25 - 17:24 • Moral of The Story 17:26 - 22:55 • I Found 22:55 - 26:49 •Idk You Yet 26:49 - 32:09 •i love you 32:09 - 38:31 • All I Want 38:31 - 42:56 • I’m Fallin’ 42:56 - 47:19 •Heather (the end got cut off on this one) 47:19 - 51:58 • Where’s My Love 51:58 - 56:45 Already Gone 56:45 - 1:00:38 Heal 1:00:38 - 1:03:50 • Half A Man 1:03:50 - 1:07:58 •Train Reck 1:07:58 - 1:09:51 •Savior 1:09:51 - 1:14:05 No namer, again (Pin this, this took time 😭🙏🏼) Wait guys tysm i didnt expect this to actually go viral💀💀. Ty for the support I love you guys🤍

[@user-yq4cl3yo4v]

the one at 56:45 is called heal by tom odell ! thanks for the time stamps btw !! 😮‍💨🙌

[@lanieray8881]

@@user-yq4cl3yo4v thank youu. I appreciate that you told me what the name for that one was :)

[@writinginthedark2091]

51:58 is "Already gone" by sleeping at last I think

[@anna5817]

thank you

[@anonymousunique8254]

not all heroes wear capes.. some are unknown behind a screen.

[@NafisaAlam2013]

"Sleep isn't sleep anymore it's an escape from reality"

[@maisiehammond9518]

Yeeee

[@CuriousFox93]

Seriously!

[@uhitskyle]

Says who? Jw tbh

[@KayleighAndrew251010]

To true

[@tomato_jade]

I feel this, lately I've felt disconnected from the real world and it becoming where I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore. And I love sleep because I can have all the interesting scenarios that happen and I figure out how to solve them. Dream or no dream, it still let's me have time to not think anymore and that a lot because I think too much. I think some people view that as suicidal, but I just want to escape and be free.

[@lukemagrath1128]

A Sad Poem By: Me I would love to be a bird To fly high, and never look back I am incapable of love, unlike a bird Birds love their babies, their mates, and most importantly, their nests I don’t have a nest, which is all I have ever wanted I just wanted a home, friends, a family Instead, I am stuck at the bottom of the ocean An endless abyss No way out, other than falling asleep and never waking up Although, why would I do that? To what end, would suicide accomplish? Nothing And that is the problem I have a dilemma I do not want to be here And yet there is nowhere else for me to go Who would miss me? My friends? I do not have any My family? I am a detriment to them Myself? I would definitely miss myself I like myself I like the way I laugh The way I make other people laugh My intellect And yet, I hate myself I hate the way I get angry I hate the way I do not love anyone or anything I hate life I wanna leave so so bad

[@jerseymike8565]

Hey Luke, don't leave man. Even though I don't know what you are going through, you have to face your demons. In order to have good days, we must experience bad days. You might think that ending your life is the best option, but what about the people that know you, the people who will meet you later in life and love you, and now me who now has met you online and want to read more of your poems.

[@Longhorn_5.3]

That poem is amazing, I hope to see more of these. This truly touched my feelings.

[@raisaioana9704]

i love you and what you wrote. hope you re still here

[@anxiousgam1ng803]

your words gave me a voice thank you... i see you

[@dorinapaal3569]

this is beautifully written, do not EVER give up. there is hope

[@DaisylverFlower]

Everyone always says it'll get better but it never does.

[@kingyeti0621]

Trust me it does. You just need to keep your head up and be strong and believe it. If you can believe in yourself you can be unstoppable. Know that people care about you more than you would ever know. I believe things will get better for you, or for anyone who is down that is reading this. Good luck to all of you amazing people out there.

[@callieee4483]

it really will, never give up. you don't realise how fast the time goes by until u lay down in bed one day and think about how old you've become and how it feels like it went by so fast and you didn't care about clothes and you weren't drained and thinking that in a few years, you'll think of urself in this time and be proud that u made it this far

[@nsnt7857]

Oh it does, it always get better for a moment, but then it get much worse. It always get so much worse and now I have feeling like it just won’t get better. I feel like this is the end of the time when I try to be happy. I feel like I’m just going to accept that noone likes me, that I am all alone and I feel like I’m going to become numb again…

[@DaisylverFlower]

@@nsnt7857 don't give up, never give up no matter how bad it gets I've learned to never give up. There is people that love you, you may just not know it

[@nsnt7857]

@@DaisylverFlower that’s nice to hear but hard to believe it. I just have feeling like someone is watching me and trying to see what all can I take. Cause someone is really making fun of me and my life with these shits that are happening to me xd And still your message make my day for a 1% better. It’s nice to see that someone at least pretend that he care, cause in my life, no one care or they don’t act like that. 🖤 I wish you well and again, thanks 🖤🖤

[@kalut18]

People would say, "talk to someone", "life matters", "stay strong, things will get better" but its exhausted to keep hoping something that never come. At the end these kind of playlist give us comfort cause our mind will wander around and thats the only time you had peace of mine

[@perolasdovalorant1130]

"When you feel alone, look at the sky. And see that the sun is alone and doesn't stop shining." - Just a brazillian boy

[@asanteali919]

Salutes!

[@madwitchy5674]

Dear stranger.. I want to tell you that even even though I don´t know you and I'm probably lots of miles away, I want to wipe your tears..I want to give you a big long hug and tell you everything is going to be okay, that you´re not alone, even when you feel like your world is falling apart, I'll be here to help you rebuild your hope, hope that everything will go its place, hope in you, because I have hope in you! I know you're an amazing person, who deserves a lot of love, deserves to feel loved, deserves to eat, to drink, to be healthy, to be happy and be alive...this world would never be the same without you, i want to see your smile, I want to see your eyes shining bright again like they once used too, I want to see your dreams coming to true and I want you to stay. Please stay, you´re very important to me, I want you to remember that you're not alone and you can always go to this comment and talk if you need, I'll always try to answer you whenever I can

[@calleyprincess]

Thank you... I really needed this... It's been super rough... And while I think it's probably the last thing you need to hear my chaotic rant of life, I just wanted to tell you how much this helped me... I don't hear that people are proud of me often... And I've felt really... Really along lately... So seriously... Thank you...

[@tanzinairin3069]

Thanks for comforting me, i am broken, there was no one to say, It's totally ok to be broken. It's totally ok that you Didn't get what you want this time, It's totally ok if you couldn’t do the best this time, there wasn’t anyone to Console me. Thanks for making me feel comfort. I also know that you are an amazing person. I Cried harder as much as i can when i read this. May you be blessed always. May Almighty keep you happy in every sector of your life. I am wishing you a happy life

[@madwitchy5674]

@@calleyprincess

[@madwitchy5674]

@@tanzinairin3069 this comment filled me with so much hope, i love you for being strong and i wish the same happiness on you my friend

[@geerishajethu370]

THANKS A LOT YOU MADE ME SMILE FOR A WHILE. HUGS

[@reze2989]

I am an over thinker but due to exam pressure I don't have time to over think, I took a day off and listened to this, it finally let me over think and now in happy

[@jeonprv]

this channel became my refuge.. person who makes these perfect playlists, know that I love you.

[@burtontallcree9374]

man this is the best playlist for SAD PEOPLE:{

[@jeonprv]

Yes :(

[@burtontallcree9374]

@@jeonprv beng sad is the worst because the old ass memories come insde yo head and thats what makes us people sad:{

[@josephbartlett1979]

I don't know I'm not in the feeling sad anymore I do you like your name though

[@iradukundanoella5350]

I'm guy from the village of east Africa this playlist makes me like I'm not alone

[@MrDoomYT]

Sad songs just hit different even when you know you are not sad...... most of the times listening sad songs just helps you escape reality and feel better after a while but you make great a great playlist every time and makes my day better😊💖hope you all are doing great and if not hope it gets better as time moves on 😉

[@imnotok775]

@Mr Doom YT I agree! and ty, I hope ur doing okay as well! have a good day/night!

[@jadeehrhardt5891]

I agree as well. tbh I'm happy with my life situation rn but I still like listening to sad songs to wind down and relax, they help me sleep

[@lariss_sandra]

Thank You so much for these words ! It means a lot for me.🥺❤️ God bless You ! 🙏

[@ashnew4549]

The only timeii have, is the nights, when everything is quiet, no one's going to talk to me, the stars and moon are my comfort music is there to drown my thoughts, its lonely but its so good

[@hey-xt5yz]

it feels so good to be sad but when the music stops ....

[@throughbellaseyes]

This is the music that would play as I lay on the floor, reflecting on how shitty life can be because of the people in your life, the choices you have to make that might affect others, how little time I have with my parents here in this life time … wanting to be with the one I love … having people judge me based on my decisions .. Life of a middle eastern girl is not easy.

[@dxisychxrm9502]

You think it’s gotten better and you’re so happy, but then it hits you again like a bus and you realize it never went away 😔

[@jaredcubitt9965]

So true tbh it had happened to me twice

[@GreeNat45]

But with time you gain experience and with experience you get better and finally happy. Don't beleive others but beleive me. While I am writing this I recall my past and smile with gratitude. Whoever you are believe me that whole word loves you. I love you ❤ You are important for everyone ❤️ You are important for me ❤ I love you; stay strong ❤ Soon It will be your best time love.

[@sick3839]

I'll spend the morning listening. perfection 👌

[@_csinti_]

take care

[@ReusXGaming]

The love at first sight exist guys... So this is my history. She was the prettiest girl that I've ever seen. I was in Disney, Magical Kingdom (5/5/2022). I will never forget that date. It was 9:45 pm, I was running at an attraction (Space Mountain, its like a roller coaster) and a girl was running too with her little sister. I said "go ahead" and I stopped of run. She said "are you sure? if you want you can go ahead." I said "its okay". Then her mother was behind me and I said "are you with them?" and she said "yes". So I let her pass. And then we were in the line. I was with my aunt and two cousins, one of them has 6 and the other one has 11. I remember when she was talking with her mom I was trying to see her face disguising. And then I remember I was talking with my aunt and the girl moved her face trying to see my face (because I had a bucket hat). And we were looking at each other disguising. I don't know if I was crazy but it was reciprocal. Men always are saying "I felt something different with you", etc. But guys, I promise in my 15 years living at this planet I just can't explain how did I feel. When I was trying to see her my heart was shaking a lot, and I was so nervous, I was literally looking down at her shoes (I remember those were grey). I also remember she was dancing with her sister and her mom was watching at them. When the line was over and she were leaving thru the attraction I said "good luck" and she said the cutest "thank you" that I've ever heard. Then when I went thru the attraction, she was there with her mother and her little sister looking at the photo (you know the photo that the camera take it when you are in the roller coaster lol). They were leaving thru the tunnel, and my aunt and cousins went to see the photo and I told them "lets go to the other attraction" just because I wanted to see her face once more. I remember that I was holding my cousin's left (the one that has 6 years) hand when we were walking thru the tunnel. So I saw her and she was holding her sister's left hand. I was talking to my cousin and she looked down to see me. What a sensation. The final destination of the tunnel was a shop, and they stayed in the shop and we left. We were looking for my uncle, because he didn't want to go to Space Mountain again because we already had been in space mountain like at 12pm and it was our second time. I don't know why, my instinct tell me to check in a specific place, and meanwhile I was looking for him I was thinking "why didn't I tell her something" And when my aunt found him I turned back to go to them and I saw that girl again with her little sister and her mom. My heart literally stopped for a moment. The worse thing was that I just keep walking... 30 seconds later, I regretted to don't tell her, and I was looking for her. I told to my uncle that I was looking for a known person (lie). I couldn't find her... 1 day before this, I read in a YT comment of always take risks. And I didn't. I've been so sad since that day. I feel so weak, and think that this was the worse mistake of my life. Fuck, I just want to go thru the past and tell her how cute she was and ask for her number or Instagram, just to talk with her... I wish some day find you and talk to you. Just in case y'all want to help me, she was white, and had the typical 2 braids. She was like blond but not too much, I don't remember well tho. Her eyes were green or blue, I couldn't see her eyes color well because was at night and in the place that is the attraction was so dark with blue leds. I appreciate if the creator of the video want to pin this, I want to find her please :(

[@s-ts-4348]

Dude i feel bad for you, hope you find her someday, but im not gonna lie, its kinda impossible, hope you at least learned something with it, have a great life!

[@saharaartan1354]

ITS ME 😭😭

[@s-ts-4348]

@@saharaartan1354 No way.

[@No.1Jonesy]

Hey, I just wanted to say that what you’ve wrote there is beautiful. I’ve felt the same way many times with people I even actually know well, but at the same time people I’ve only ever seen lurk around the corner of my eye once have made me feel this way too. I feel so bad for you bro but hope you one day find her again. I have hope for you, it may be hard, but once you’ve set your mind to something and really try you can do anything. Anything. And if you see this comment reply, please just talk to me whenever you may need to as I’m only a comment away :) I have hope for you, so don’t lose yours, okay? All you need is hope.

[@kennycr3spo]

Heyyy idk if it's true but someone just commented saying "it's me😭" Do check!!

[@andresmoramora9606]

I'm sick right now; I just want to sleep forever. I am going to sleep hearing this, and tomorrow will be better.

[@sabrinawinchester]

it’s 3:53am atm. been crying to this playlist for the last hour. just lying in bed crying silently with my sister sleeping beside me lol. i probably sound so dramatic right now but i can somehow relate to a lot of these songs. things are not good at home, and i keep thinking about dying these days. but i’m too scared to do it. i want to talk to someone but words from my father keeps lingering on my mind. “traitor” he called me. he hasn’t said that to me in a while but it stays with me until now yk. i was only 12 when i felt like the weight of the world was too much for me to handle so i went and confided to someone i trusted and i got yelled at and got called a traitor by my father for telling our family problems that has been messing with my mental health for years to someone I trusted. I was only 12. now i feel like i can’t talk to anyone. i can’t reach out to anyone. i feel like it’s not going to get better anytime soon. it’s getting harder and harder for me to see a future where i can be happy with my family. if that’s really the case i don’t know what’s the point to keep living anymore. because the only thing keeping me going everyday is my family. without them i feel lost and empty. i feel like i have nothing to live for if not them. but everyone’s so messed up in this family. i don’t know anymore

[@babayega2516]

Life it hard when i don’t have something keeping you forward specially when feeling lonely

[@sabrinawinchester]

@@babayega2516 yeah exactly.. its the worst feeling ever

[@hypprr2218]

sometimes, it is alright to let go of people in life, even those who you love from the bottom of your heart, if you believe that you need time to heal yourself and take care of yourself. You should always come first, your health, your happiness, your safety, you come first. so, think about what would make you feel better and ignore those who try to enforce an ideal that is not appropriate to you, onto you. I hope you get to cherish, love yourself and open up to those who truly care for you and want to help you ! take care,,

[@NyhaBrojolall]

Everything is going to get better. I promise.

[@luriacos4231]

the only way through hell is to keep going. Idk if this helps you but it helped me to think about it that way and helped me to make it through the dark times. Now I'm so glad I did keep going. It will get better, it really will. Not tomorrow, not the day after, but some day you will look back and you'll be grateful you made it. I wish you the best, please keep going

[@alirafox4673]

even though this music makes me sad its so comforting to listen to.

[@imnotok775]

@Alira Fox I agree

[@zs-nr6lb]

my summer nights have led me to listen to playlists like these non-stop

[@CallMehBucky]

in my opinion, summer nights are just the worse for me

[@biurry1]

@@CallMehBucky same

[@ivoryangel208]

It's gonna be okay

[@Icyyy11]

This comment section is my home now..

[@bryansiew9707]

Feel free to visit it at anytime

[@victoriamaquez7612]

Welcome home

[@suffiaaa5499]

Its okay, youre not alone tonight. Let me give you a hug. I love you, someone from other side of the world.

[@user-LayaQuinn]

With how much pressure my parents put on me to get the "grades I need to be able to do what I want in college" this playlist really helps me escape from reality

[@renaeharrington3221]

I can relate to how you feel. School is so hard mentally

[@sarrrrs]

can i ask with all this pressure do you actually get those grades or do you try really hard?

[@COOKIEGRIME]

I can’t anymore bro I can’t keep faking smiling faking how I really am pretending to be this character everyone expects me to be and thinks I am no one understands me I feel so mistreated and miserable all the time and used my family is absolutely the worst they treat me like fucking shit and I can’t anymore people make fun of me I just don’t know what to do I want to just collapse and cry everyday I find nothing fun anymore everyday is the same nothing changes I just someone to understand me… this was a great playlist keep it up dude I believe you will do great things for people in need catchas

[@waffle8564]

What's sad is that people feel this way but help others not to feel this way, it's like a loop.

[@shaifernandez7319]

it doesn’t get better, at all.

[@T_prodiG]

Nope you just get stronger

[@KaitlinChaffin-nh2xc]

"Are you okay?" "Yea, im just tired" Works every time.

[@alailastar7045]

Ok, pero escribir un libro mientras escuchas esta playlist a las doce de la noche es ARTE.

[@imok7381]

lately it’s been hard. i only have half a heart to give to you. i love these lyrics! 🥹

[@6toner]

I am a person of night. Night is the only place I'm finally able to be at peace and not have to worry about anything. Night is the time I get to grief over almost anything and everything. I have fallen inlove with night, deep inlove like I love music. The lyrics hitting so close to home, leaving a feeling of aching and comfort. I love every inch of the night, and will continue to let my love grow, like it grows for music. I might over exaggerate everything, but when I tell you about my love for night, I will speak from the heart.

[@KatsuVRC]

"Hearts can break. Yes, hearts can break. Sometimes, I think it would be better if we died when they did, but we don't." -Stephen King

[@xxidczx]

being cheated on feels like your soul disappeared, it feels like asif you faded away, the moment you find out you feel like your whole body stops. you can’t breath you feel like there’s a lump in ur throat. your legs go numb your tummy flips. being cheated on is the worst thing i’ve ever felt this year. esp losing that person due to that hurts u even more. after trusting them and giving them your heart. but they didn’t realize it they didn’t realize how much effort you put in the relationship. how many times u cried thinking ur gonna lose them. they don’t know how many words they said to hurt u but you still loved them. they don’t know the actions they did to hurt u and you still loved them, being cheated on is the least things i wanna feel again. and after that you feel like u never wanna love someone again. and as you think of it your heart drops and your eyes begin to tear up, you start to feel tears dripping down ur cheek. and ur whole body just sinks. men/girls don’t know how bad they hurt u thinking you’ll immediately get over it while their with there other girl/man all happy smiling and there’s you fighting for your life.. i love you all❤️

[@august.282]

This is so sad and deep . You're okay now ?

[@harqkness]

These kinds of videos are the only videos which have a consistently kind comment section! I really appreciate that!

[@ashtonelaine7849]

If your reading this, your here for a reason. Keep fighting the good fight. 👍 we are never alone 💙🥰

[@burtontallcree9374]

i am alone im always alone i have fake ass friends that date the people i like like wtf what a way to stab my back :{

[@ashtonelaine7849]

@@burtontallcree9374 I'm sorry that has happened. Always have patience. You will find friends that will stick to your wave length and won't go for someone you like. I as well have been thru situations like this, and sometimes you just have to say screw it, and keep going. Your soul tribe will find you. Take this time to make it about you. You've put everyone else above you, and it's time to put you first! When you do that, then your people will come

[@hello.9106]

You know you have grown up when sleep is like a reward to you.

[@Alikm]

I actually thought it'll get better this time, But it never does.

[@claramaillet6588]

it will. I promise it will.

[@hey-xt5yz]

@@claramaillet6588 i hope it will

[@imnotok775]

@AL M I feel the same way

[@sophiedoyle6112]

It may take a while, but it will get better, it always will.

[@T_prodiG]

It doesn't get better you just get stronger.

[@Ali-Oli09]

Just the title made me relate and press the like button...Sadly.

[@laxtrax9150]

I am no longer the lost boy I once was, but listening to playlist like these is healing in its own way. As if I am standing on a battlefield that is nothing but fractured memories and lost emotions. I can tread this torn ground and not feel hopeless, I can feel these emotions and reminisce on what happened. No more, I am no longer broken, my tears nor my blood shall nourish these lands. They don’t deserve it; my heart used to ache simply trying to remember but now I can finally say I’ve moved on. These playlists give me a chance to look back and see how far I’ve come, it reminds me where I came from. It gives me hope knowing I was able to crawl out of this pit and become the man I am today. thank you

[@cwutezila]

It’s not that I listen to these for a cry or because I’m depressed or down, I just think these types of songs give me great comfort unlike other songs, and somethings if I’m lucky I’ll even fall asleep after awhile! Great video❤

[@zanemoon1454]

Who else just wants to stay up at night just because you feel peace and feel comfortable and safe in the dark or in you truck or car our parents don't understand why we stay up so late why we want to go out on night walks I've felt this why sents I was 14 in now 17 and feels like nothing has changed in still the same kid deep down not ready for the world but want to be on my own so bad

[@mikecoholic7693]

whenever im alone at night I just feel so free and isolated at the same time.

[@rawr4486]

I love these playlist they are so calming. Thank you so much

[@emilrostobagia]

You have an amazing profile picture 😭

[@rawr4486]

@@emilrostobagia thxs lol

[@Honeyj1121]

Slowly losing myself again everything in me just wants to give up, be alone, and never deal with anyone again and that’s killing me because the idea of losing people I love breaks my heart, but I can’t help but to feel overwhelmed or numb from day to day. The panic attacks are back, the weight of expectations is crippling, and the emotions are draining, I’m lost a broken toy on a shelf forgotten soon to be thrown away 😞.

[@jimmy.thedragon]

night is when I get the most paranoia and I have breakdowns and panic attacks almost every night bc of it, music is the only thing that’s barely helping me through it lol. music is one of the only things that’s keeping me alive rn

[@suroviferdous-notavailabl3]

I totally agree with you music is what keeping me sane in all these disasters going on in my life

[@sakura.__.sarah99okie25]

The first song made me have a a worser breakdown than currently because I just realised I just wanted to be loved and cared about, not being ditch and wanted to have atleast just one person but then everyone is using me or just have no choice but deal with my annoying existence

[@farimahg1366]

I feel the same way it's hard

[@khazzui3884]

Same...

[@imnotok775]

I feel the same way bro

[@alyssapederson7630]

Life yk 😔

[@sage3806]

1:07 a.m. : been crying for at least a good hour for absolutely no reason, I think about that day I tried to cut and wonder how it would feel now but I don't even have the courage to do it. I want to scream but I can't, I don't want to worry my family. I want a hug, I need a hug, please someone...

[@Sunbeam790]

Sending virtual hugs my love,we got this okay just hold on a little more iloveyou.🤍

[@CoolingCashew31]

*Hugged you virtually ☀️🌟❤️✨* I hope your day gets better my friend.

[@penguin_squeakers]

I send you a big warm virtual hug and my support

[@ptvdragon7999]

Well it sucks right now, I feel guilty for having bad thoughts. I feel guilty because my problems are small compared to my friends, I’m usually the one they go to when they need someone to talk to but when I need to talk I hate to bother them because i feel like a burden. Plus my problems are not that big. I honestly love being there for them and i care for them but I just wish they gave me the same energy. I mean I can’t put what i feel into words sometimes but I wish they were there for me.

[@imnotok775]

@Ptv Dragon it doesn't matter if ur problems are smaller, u still deserve help. and if they are rlly ur friends, they will listen to ur problems and try and help. if u need to tell someone ur problems and u don't wanna tell ur friends, I'm available. u would never be a burden to me. I try to make ppl happy cuz ik what its like to feel absolutely worthless, and like ur not good enough. so tell me ur problems if u would like, I won't force u, but if u need someone. I'm always here :) I hope u have a good day/night!

[@seventeen25]

this is so relatable. i use to have friends who would only really talk to me bc they needed to vent or they always vent. it was so draining bc i just wanted someone to get to know and not always talk about themselves. i dropped them and i got better. i have new friends rn and i don’t wanna vent to them bc ik they have problems that are worser than mines. if you ever want someone to talk to i’m always here :)

[@jiyaagrawal4180]

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -Not mine, but pass it around guys

[@ezranichols3446]

it’s 3:14am. my alarm goes off in about 2 hours. but there’s no way i’m sleeping now. feeling the paranoia coursing through me. knowing that i’ll never be truly okay. good times bro. good times :,)

[@editmuse]

this is the best playlist ever. Not a night i haven't played this in my room, and shared a vibe.

[@-nyks-783]

tüm sevdiklerim bir arada, o kadar güzel ki.. şimdiden keyifli geceler, saat on hala ders çalışıyorum. ağlamak

[@emikoackerman5386]

Don’t hurt yourself! I promise it gets better. It might not be right now, or anytime soon. But if you just hang on, you’ll make it through. Be sad right now, it’s ok. I know it hurts, but somewhere out there God or whoever you believe in is planning your happiness. You just have to be strong enough to hang on. Even if it’s by a thread. Don’t kill yourself, don’t hurt yourself, we need you…I need you. But don’t do it for us. Do it because your not done. There’s so much more to your life. Hang on. Don’t let go. We’ll help you. Just please, don’t let go. We love you, I love you.

[@imnotok775]

if only it was that simple to hang on

[@emikoackerman5386]

@@imnotok775 I know it’s not. But life isn’t easy. I swear it gets better.

[@imnotok775]

@Emiko Ackerman the last time I thought it was actually getting better, it got worse. and that led me to almost ending my life. its very tempting to try again, but I'm trying to take a break from the self harming shit. I don't want ppl questioning

[@Alia-yg9hf]

I know that your trying to help,but we all know it never does get any better we just get used to it.We all are fighting with "it"every second of your day and mostly in the 🌙 the pain brakes us minute by minute into small pieces

[@elvgshrna]

Day by day, my sh getting worse and I just can’t stop, I’m addicted.

[@alannahrafferty3502]

when night comes...I can finally cry by my self..

[@nadjadoes]

You are worth it, have patience and your time will come. One day you will see the beauty of life - Just don't give up! We believe in you :)

[@elizabeth-ti8xx]

The only songs that help me let go of everything

[@Chelsea.V.Le.]

I feel empty. Life is so draining. How do people keep living in this world getting hurt day by day and be so okay with it. I’m going back to my old self and it’s scaring me. I just want to be mentally okay. But, how can I be okay when I’m being surrounded by the people who I love who keep constantly hurting me without noticing that their just killing me. I don’t know how I even feel anymore. It just doesn’t even click in my head anymore. It’s just to painful. Even tho there not physically hurting me. Mentally its killing me slowly. They listen but they just think I’m crazy. Well you just don’t understand y’all are the ones driving me crazy aren’t y’all. Just how draining is society

[@ms.misaki]

how do i explain this… when it comes to ranting and me being sad its the most difficult thing to deal with me, promise me on that because i KNOW for myself that i am a difficult person to handle. Currently listening for what reason? no reason at all, nothing bad happened today nor yesterday or any other day so but i had this feeling wanting to listen to this and just literally think on everything, I really hate the future and as well this world so much. Just the thought of ur parents saying “oh, you have to succeed high school and college so u dont end up like us being poor and having a difficult life!!” or either anything to do with future and as well being an adult (im currently 15) and the thought of just about future or what do you want to be REALLY REALLY SCARES me a lot, like if it was a big fear of mine who will like suffocated me. Im being honest to everybody and even my mom, i dont have the mind of future. I cant see myself being 17, the thought of going to college or applying to anything, i dont see myself doing that. Yes i know i have somewhat plenty time to think but really that time come so fast and its been years thinking how i want my future to be or so. Im really sorry for my mom who have a pure soul but as well who manipulates me for my own sake. My mom and dad never gets along because of the hugeeeee age gap, which is understandable but whenever my mom wants to talk things out… my dad, god. he uses such a harsh word and hurt my mom obviously leaving my mom cry, which makes me cry thats were i got my sensitive from. My mom deserves better husband and u might think oh divorce right? my mom said she doesnt because for my own sake so i dont have to go through a step dad or so. My mom wants me to be happy and she said im the only person she will look up to… since my dad treat sooo shitty and very harsh with his words and this isnt a recent stuff, my dad have been like this but whats more fucked up is he treats me so nice and sweet obvsly because im his only daughter, but when it comes to anger, he doesnt watch his words towards me. I want to do better in school but im not, ive been held back twice and its terrible, everything is all about my grades. Ive been begging and reaching out to my teacher and my parents of please help me, i really really need help at this moment. I cant wait, the time wont stop for you it keeps going till its too late and its been too late for me. i dont believe in god but i really do keep praying to him and at least hoping he listen out that i want to do better for my mom and my grade, been praying wanting a good grade. I swear i tried ALL. the study method but i end up failing leaving such a poor student.. i dont want to be known the failure in my private school, im really done how people look at me differently for it. Im really really scared and it panics me.. my mom never agrees to let me go to a therapy (since asian people(well from my mind thinking) find people who go to therapy or who diagnosed with ADHD, depression, anxiety, etc. they think its a bad sign?? or either unlucky. They like find it as it was very bad and they will look at you different.) i just really hate my own self for everything.

[@vanessag7324]

I somehow feel with u, but my problem was that that pressure I got from the expectations of my parents were the reason why I wasn’t able to focus on learning all the school stuff. I’m sure the pressure and the stress about everything are the reason why you’re not able to learn too. I’m sorry that I can’t help u in that point but u definitely need to talk to ur mother (or both parents) otherwise ur mental state will get destroyed more and more by all that pressure. But just to remember you: everything will be fine, ur mother just want the best for u and she loves u anyways!!

[@alonelost2561]

the night we met (instrumental) - lord huron (slowed, reverb, 1 hour+) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/gKCwm6Zol8lqpqM

[@Caiovanzan]

L Ju

[@Caiovanzan]

H J J U

[@Caiovanzan]

sorry, i sleeped in the keypad

[@kobyfranklin4461]

Im honestly at one of the best points in my life, I finally found someone who has stayed and im no longer alone, yet late at night I sit here and all I can think is that I don't deserve to finally be at peace. I never thought I'd make it to 18 yet im 19 now and have gone through so much shit in these 19 years. I guess I'll never truly understand why I'm so hard to love or why people do the fucked up things they do.

[@aliciagammon5078]

Going through old memories of me and my bff who literally stoped talking to me without warning about 2 years ago, this playlist kinda helps. Especially since she seems happier without me in her life-

[@ey3w0rmz77]

It’s currently 2:42 am I just need something to sleep to.

[@PuggyBro]

Same

[@Vincee_nt]

My only peace is when im alone, i grew up with it so it became my comfort.

[@imnotok775]

All this time I have tried to stay for ppl who don't care abt me. all this time I have held on for no reason, im tired all the time. mentally and physically. I don't wanna die but it seems like the only answer. its not like anyone would care anyway :)

[@neneenenajem4492]

I care.

[@imnotok775]

@Nene Enenajem but u don't know me

[@neneenenajem4492]

@@imnotok775 your still a human. I care that you feel like this.

[@imnotok775]

@Nene Enenajem but nobody else cares, that's the thing. no one. I've already asked, trust me. so what even is the point in hanging on and staying?

[@archerchivaaree3771]

@@imnotok775 yourself. for your future, you need yourself even though everythings not okay, you need to stand and face it because you need to live for yourself, because 5years from now everything will change, is it for the better? who knows it depends on you, so please talk to someone if you needed to. and please love yourself so that 5yrs from now it'll change for the better. :)) (I don't know if this will help or what but yeah. love yourself!....I may not know you but we all have the same connection; we're not fine) - srry for my english :)

[@Leon_.predaa]

To the person who reading this message I want u to know that ur an amazing person who have a beautiful life and ik u can escape any pain in ur life just remember this don't ever give up stay strong and focus on ur life ❤️🤞

[@billkrdm3544]

I miss her, so much. But she is much better now, without me. Living her life to the fullest and smiling with that beautiful smile of hers. No matter how much I regret my actions or overthink the past, blaming myself over and over again, I'm still so grateful I met her. Maybe I'll never be able to tell her anything about these things but I wish she knew that I love her so much, that I'm sorry and that I want her to be happy and take care of herself. I'll always value the love and care she gave me. Thank you ~

[@Be_RadMedia]

A Year later... Is anyone still playing this gem?

[@Alexis_Him]

its always good when you have someone help you get through tough times but you cant get through losing someone you loved

[@elinalkefjall453]

When night comes, I feel at peace, I feel calm and like I can finally be alone

[@jayEliza]

i find myself always coming back to this playlist. I know i'll never let them get comfortable enough to hurt me again but i miss who they were in the beginning,, so so much

[@herculesboy_69]

I would like to say something to each and everyone of you that are hurting right now Yes life isn't easy.yes people in your life don't make it easy but you know we all have fought battles that are the same or similar or even completely different and that's ok And I want you to know that it is ok to feel what you feel it is normal and natural and remember in this world and in this generation and in this society we are all pretty much screwed because we cant do anything right and that's what everyone says But reality of it is that we are who we are and we need to show others that we are unique different we are a somebody and not a nobody And I live by these 2 rules everyday of my life 1. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem 2. At the end everything is going to be ok and if it's not ok then it's not the end I've been where you are at some point of my life but eyy we are all people,human beings we make mistakes bad choices things like that but remember we live we love and we learn and we get through life But listen I love each and everyone of your broken hearts and souls and I think you are imperfectly perfect with all the positive and negative things inside and outside of yourselves But I hope this helps someone out there and I care for all of you guys and I hope everything will start getting better for each and everyone of you❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@lafleurdamaia2813]

just thank you so much for these 2 rules, hope I'll never forget about it

[@madisonbooth315]

I just found this playlist and this creator. Im already in love. I feel each and every lyric each word each note. I recently discovered i have an eating problem, i dont over eat. But my depression has made me lose so much weight and my mom is getting worried and i dont want her to worry. And she doesnt even know i cry myself to sleep every night. And nobody knows. And i dont want to eat again, its not in my interests but nothing other than listening to music and crying is. I want to ask for help but im so scared. My family isnt in the best financial state rn, i see my dads worried face when he is at home on his computer. My problems can wait. Life sucks so bad. I need support and its summer and im already worried ppl are gonna give me hell again. I dont want to go back. I dont want my teachers asking me every day if im ok or not. Im fine... no no im not dont believe my lies.

[@emtho420]

Sometimes i just feel like the fighting isnt worth it, Im on my lowest and im so close to just give up.

[@babayega2516]

Yeah you have right but u need to find something keeping u forward otherwise u live awful life more what you expect don’t quite keep pushing

[@selenophile1500]

Feels like a war is going on in my heart

[@mars5499]

they said they would be there for me. that they would stop whatever they were doing to make sure i was ok and that they would be my shoulder to cry on but it was all a lie. i'll never be their number 1. i will never be anyone's #1. idk what to do anymore. I've been feeling so empty lately.

[@asmitazurafa]

Hi sweetheart, it's okay to feel how you're feeling, it'll pass. Nothing in life is stationary. I'm sorry you weren't treated right, but that doesn't mean you never will be. It may not feel like enough, but you still have yourself, you've been there the entire time. You've taken care of yourself all this way, and you're gonna have to keep doing it first and foremost till the end. Regardless of the love you have.

[@imnotok775]

@mars I feel the exact same way

[@mars5499]

@@imnotok775 at least someone does

[@hannahgriffith4498]

ive only found this page recently but it feels so safe and peaceful. literally my favorite songs are all in one. thank you.

[@alonelost2561]

this ain't my world without you in it (slowed playlist) - kzbin.info/www/bejne/n56shWqciNWcjtk

[@markanthonyflores1577]

Uqi

[@maussikani_36]

These type of songs pull me back into that warm, safe, melancholic feeling. Like a weighted blanket is always on me. It comforts me, but at the same time, can make me cry. It's more comforting than trying to fake a smile every day for the ones you love, it just gives you somewhat relief, without putting a gun to your temple.

[@jessproductions9246]

When night comes, all the demons in my head finally play their part and all i feel is pain, hurt, numbness and sorrow as depression corners me into a dark hollow cold corner. It truly makes me feel so alone and i feel sorry for those that feel the same way as i do. So if you feel it too.... Im sorry you do, and i wish i could help but i cant even help myself at the moment. But i love you nonetheless.

[@ezgi4670]

I love you too💞

[@ТаняСовгуть]

Я слухала схожий плейлист минулого літа. Тоді я тільки закінчила університет, ходила на побачення, проводила час з друзями, співала, пробувала себе в новій роботі і просто була щасливою. Я слухала сумні плейлисти страждаючи лише через хлопців та стосунки. Зараз я чую ті ж самі пісні і мені нестерпно хочеться плакати. В моїй країні війна, я досі пам'ятаю як прокинулась від вибухів, мені довелось покинути дім, друзів, кілька місяців жити в невідомості і страху. Тепер, коли я повернулася, я бачу зруйноване місто, чорні обвуглені будинки, не можу знайти роботу, не можу не думати про війну, не можу забути про війну ні на хвилину, як би не хотіла. Я змушена повернутися до батьків, знову бути для них тягарем, але не показувати свого болю, щоб не засмучувати їх ще більше. Господи, як би ж мені хотілося назад в те літо, аби я ніколи не мала стосунків і страждала лише через це, а не через кляту війну...

[@Kar1na06]

I met this guy a while ago. We was amazing. I loved that I can just be myself around him. And I genuinely thought he liked me. So I told him that I liked him. The look he gave me. It’s like he looked at me in disgust. I’m not the prettiest nor the skinniest girl out there. And he just made it feel a million times worse. He said his parents wouldn’t let him date anyone. Two weeks later he was dating a girl I had always seen him with. And he looks happy. I’m glad to see him happy, but also upset that he had to lie to me. This isn’t the first time this has happened. And I’m starting to give up on love. I tell myself I’m over him. But then I’ll see him in the halls with her, and god how much I wish I was her. To be there by his side. Holding his hand, and just knowing that I would be the girl he loves. Instead I’m the one he threw to the side for the better version. And the sad thing is I still love him. And I knew that if he were to just look in my direction, I would fall in love all over again with him. This is why I’ve been avoiding school and him as much as possible. But sadly I don’t think it’s working. I’m moving schools in two weeks. I hope this will help me get over the boy I thought was the one. And if he somehow finds this. Just know I loved you wholeheartedly, even when u gave me that look. I always did and will.

[@thebutcher1865]

Hey, I just wanted to say I know how you feel. Sometimes it's impossible to control our emotions and we fall in love with people without even trying. It hurts a lot when that person doesn't feel the same way, crushing pain and heartache. I still think about the girl who did this to me almost 20 years ago but I finally found a girl who truly loves me for who I am and I'm sure you will find that perfect person someday. Stay hopeful and try to keep your chin up. Life is really short and it's really hard. You're a good person I can tell, try not to get discouraged. You are just learning how to fly, someday you will be happy again. God bless you.

[@sahilchhabra2391]

Atleast u are able to change ur school. I can't even change my college or class. She is my classmate, and I still love her a lot but she left me saying she doesn't feel for me that way anymore. It's still 2 more years to graduate and I am dying already.

[@camarokefalas3926]

Remember how we felt that happiness as a child even through all the stuff we had to deal with when we were younger we still felt that happiness that we can no longer feel even when we are that happy now.

[@penguin_squeakers]

When I hit tough times as a little kid, I got up with a smile. Now, I struggle to get back up and keep going

[@7ala431]

5:11 This song has a very similar beginning to Olivia's song (Traitor) , Btw great playlist. Keep up the amazing playlists going on, but most importantly I hope u r doing amazingly great and totally fine! Have an incredible day/night.

[@jayEliza]

i wish i told them how much i loved them

[@rosannenijsink4539]

Same girl, but I think, deep down they know

[@jayEliza]

@@rosannenijsink4539 i hope so. Stay safe stranger 🖤

[@adriangarciaparak5768]

Ngl this playlist helped me. It helped me to cool down, slow a bit and think about the past. I am still young and shouldnt be ig sad? but a lot of sht is going around in my life rn. Thank you :)

[@jasmynngould]

im here 6 months after my comment in which i said "it wont get better" and i dropped so many "friends" in my life and started focusing on myself and getting in the right headspace and all i can say is that i was wrong, because it does get better. it got better after 5 years of hearing "it will get better" and i never believed anyone that ever said it to me and i said maybe im the problem so whether it was or not, i took it into my hands and fixed it all, so i am proud to tell anyone that is struggling that, it does get better:)

[@LunaLightstar1]

Recently, I've got myself in this playlist more often than I admit... The comments are the only way for me to get some help and actually have something to do. Everyday is the same thing at this point, nothing more seems to makes sense. It's so painful to actually see that I got no one to keep me company, and I got habitued to it. My friends don't have time to play or talk with me, my parents don't seems to care, my family don't seem to care. I'm feeling so lonely that I begun harming my ownself and I hate it, I wanna cry but even that I fail to do at this point. I lost my father this year, I'm in a bad money condition, to the point that I may suffer 'cause of it, I'll not have any money to buy food and other things, I'll not have money to survive. And I just don't have time to work since I'm still a second grade in highschool, so school eating all my time. I wanna ask for help, but I don't how to do so anymore. if you listened to me 'til now, thank you, serious

[@Burning_Pancake]

these songs brought back so many old memories, thank you.

[@soheebbolafaa5049]

A song that moves you and gives you soul 🥰🥰

[@phoenixgonzalez6396]

Anyone else ever just want to go on a night rain walk?

[@mariat.5629]

I volunteer

[@Lee_Knows_Air_Fryer.]

ill come for a night rain walk with you

[@mintefox]

When the night comes, I can finally be myself, in the dark rooms lit only by string lights I set up, the fish tank bubbling, the chinchilla scrabbling at his bedding. No judgments, no eyes, just me.

[@bintangmertacca8441]

i love this song, thank u ❤️❤️

[@khyatit6528]

im crying so much hearing this music. i had tried to suicide once last yr. i was on roof. standing on edge. thinking all problems will be gone soon. i was scared a lot.but an ache in heart telling me not to do .life is gonna be okay. ur gonna be fine.. no ones gonna hurt u anymore. love urself. stay strong always. if cant ,please take help from someone close to u who u can trust and have faith within urself.

[@theplaylistener9117]

Im listening to this every day

[@annaduong9830]

Thank you so much for this playlist 🖤 It has comforted myself a lot at night when I'm studying. It sounds like my soul is talking

[@cosmo_7549]

Yesterday I was out with my family in the city. It was pretty late, nighttime and getting dark. Around midnight or so. We were in a restaurant, having finished our food already and now just talking and laughing. That's when our parents started talking about their childhood. I know a lot about it since my mother and father grew up in opposite ways. My mother was never allowed outside and her mother (my grandmother) was just mean to her all around. She'd never buy my mother anything nice, bought her ugly clothes on purpose (when she *did* buy her clothes) and refused to take her anywhere. She spent her life indoors and forced up to religious standards that don't make any sense, like dancing being a sin and going to the local town fair being a sin. When she was in 9th grade she got a double piercing on her ears and got a hellish beating for it because it was "sinful" On the other hand, my father grew up with little adult supervision and freedom. When my mother was inside wishing she was at the yearly fair, my father was down there with a bunch of friends and a coke in hand. However, his father was an alcoholic. My father opened up to seeing his dad drunk all the time. Due to his mother's orders, my dad would accompany his father to the local bar to watch soccer games with the purpose of making sure he didn't "overstep" the alcohol. A lot of my childhood was my father downing cokes like it was holy water and he said that addiction came from those bars. His father and his friends would order several rounds of beers into the night and every time they did, they'd order a coke for him. (Not to mention always calling him useless, worthless and a dumbass as well as beatings. My dad once told me that he grew up extremely scared of his father) I think yesterday night was when I realized how much respect I have for these two people. My father said that his dad and the way he grew up is the reason he swore to never let his kids see him drunk. In my sixteen years of being alive on this earth, I can say for a fact that I have never seen either of my parents drunk in my life. Not even the slightest bit tipsy. My mother is pretty open to letting us do a fair amount of things, for example my skateboarding and my twin playing American football and she said that she'd allow us to get tattoos as long as they are small (when we're of age to). My father has slight anger issues, he'll start yelling and will give us a damn hard whack to the head if we tick him off but he'll always come to our rooms once cooled off and apologize without leaving the room until he makes us feel better (Even though I've told him several times that he doesn't need to do this since we all get angry sometimes and that I forget it happened a minute later). They're not perfect. Not one bit perfect. My mother forced the same "everybody's watching and judging you" mindset that she has from her parents into us and she's made us do things like play piano for years when we were kids even though we hated it simply to be able to say, "my children play the piano." They uphold us to extremely high academic standards (90s and up) and when we fail our life will flash before our eyes. from K-8th grade I was only allowed 2 playdates. Two. Bro I didn't start touching grass until I was in high school fr But although imperfect (and extremely questionable at times) I respect them a lot for succeeding to be different from their parents. I won't say we turned out super great lol (I have a history of SH and unstable mental health that I hide extremely well, my youngest brother almost got suspended for bullying and is a complete dick and my twin is in with the same guys who jump people) but we could've turned out a lot worse and I respect the hell out of them.