WHERE I'VE BEEN & THE FUTURE OF MY CHANNEL | GRWM

[@sallygene]

I'm sorry for your loss. I have the exact same belief about our energy living on after our physical death. I wished my mom could have been around to meet her grandchildren, but then I remember that they are a living memory of my mother. My daughter's green eyes, my baby's laugh. All are gifts from my mother. Our mothers may not be in the same form, but they're still a part of us and a part of the universe. I'm sure she is with you.

[@Aloha-sailor]

I found you when searching about ASD, but I've continued to watch your channel for your makeup application and conversation. Very relaxing for me. Thank you Nikki.

[@vinylbeauty]

This video resonates with me so much. Being 55 now with an 85 year old mum with ailing health has really put into focus that we are not here forever & I’m thinking about what I want my future to look like. I applaud you for making changes that will make you happy. Xx

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@moonbeammuse2767]

You've been missed. Your "belief system" echoes my own. Sending you love and condolences. 🖤

[@beautifuldreamer0811]

Sometimes I think about our energy and wonder if the stars are soul storage and we just don't understand it yet. No matter the direction of your channel, I will keep watching because you are awesome! Sending light and love to you and your family.

[@kimshe70]

I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your mom - please accept my sincere condolences

[@redlaundrybeauty7082]

I was in gratitude this past year when my brother went ...he was here at my home me taking care of him for a year.. full time ...we brought hospice at the last week and they came for 30 min a day...took vitals then left.. it got to where I was praying for a peaceful passing more than to keep him here ...the mind was gone and his body was out ...condolences ...even though u knew like I did it still sooo hard and the toll while u where going through it is still there ....I am happy u are creating more 😁♥️❤💔♥️🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🥀❤and can't wait to see what u do next

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@jacquichurch5867]

Sorry about your Mum, Nikki. I’m 56 and still have both my parents, but they struggle with health issues. I lost the last of my grandparents 30 years ago. I was very close to my Dad’s parents and I still miss them. But their ‘energy’ is still with me. As I get older in some ways I feel more connected with them and think about the impact they had/have on me even though there is no longer a physical presence. Take care of yourself 😊❤

[@BelindaMua]

Hi Nikki so sorry to hear about your moms passing. Sending prayers for the whole family. I’m excited to see your new journey.❤

[@TracyBains22]

Sending my condolences. May her memory always be a blessing, Nikki. Please take some time for yourself.

[@anaderricamakeup]

I'm really sorry for the loss of your mother. I hope you don't really quit the makeup part in the chanel. Nobody gives us better eye swatches than you do, nor speaks about their olive complexion as much providing great products for that undertone, also your reviews are really honest and you've presented to me great brands nobody talks about (Martine Cosmetics, Stasy Alex, Tammy Tanuka). I love watching your videos, but I understand that your creativity is maybe pulling you into other directions. I hope and wish the best for you. Really love the hard work you put into this videos to help us and know that despite your chanel isn't the biggest I really love your content, it's just a pitty that KZbin doesn't always show me your content. Lots of love from Portugal ❤

[@pickledpisces7745]

Funny, I just looked at your channel yesterday to see if you’d posted a new video, it’s nice to see you again. I’m sorry about your Mum. I believe that our loved ones are like energy, just changing, just someplace different. Whatever’s right for you is the way to go, you’ll find the right path for you. 💜💜💜💜

[@kennypryce4617]

I am so sorry to hear this. My condolences to you and family. Really sorry to hear. God bless

[@evabellconklin2989]

I love how your makeup turned out. Your hair is super cute. I was so sorry to hear about your mom and I’m glad you are doing better. It is good to see you back here again.❤️🙂

[@glitterroach]

I am happy to see you here. I really missed you.

[@marshabrink2613]

I never cared to travel abroad. But after my back surgery , my bucket list is to come to the Netherlands .It certainly would bring back childhood memories and if everyone as us wonderful and spiritual as you , It would be heaven on earth .

[@dailystyle8884]

Condolences Nikki. You keep being you.

[@esmeraldareyes15]

I am sorry for your loss, and thank you for explaining your absence even though you don’t owe anyone an explanation. Continue being creative I enjoy your videos they bring me peace each morning

[@annab9220]

Hi Nikki, so sorry to hear about your mum. Totally get your point about going back to where we came from. Love your hair and your skin looks beautiful. Good luck with your artwork! x

[@jennyklingstedt]

I am so sorry for your loss Nikki ❤

[@serenashimungalu3726]

Welcome back you were very missed and very loved

[@mbrady199]

Nikkkkkki! I'm so sorry to hear of your mom. I lost my dad last summer & I'm still reeling!! Hugs

[@darkydoom]

Big hugs. It's really sad when people pass slowly, like the body and mind is deteriorating but they're still "alive". I'm happy for your mother passing comfortably and in good care. I've worked in aged care, palliative care, care of the dying and the dead body, and I've had my father pass from cancer before his time in front of all of us, and my mother in law choosing her time before cancer could take her (assisted dying is legal in Australia). Death is powerful and humbling. Live a good life and live in the now 💕

[@sharonwilliams9249]

Im glad you took time for yourself and i am also glad to see you back. I wouldn't be surprised if some of your viewers are like me and are crafters and makers to. So I would like to see your creative and maker videos too.

[@LittleMissBudget]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my mum 2 months ago and currently going through solicitors to probate the house into my name and then to sell the property. I have so much to do so I understand how hectic it is. I believe in the same energy and my mum definitely lives in me. You do what is best for you and your channel because I will watch I enjoy your content so much. I don't always comment but I watch all your videos. 🖤💜🤗

[@real-sunshine]

I'm very sorry for your loss, Nikki. When your video came out, I saw some comments. And I understood that you have faced a loss... It took me more than a month to watch your video because my father passed away this April. By the way, I share your beliefs and send you lots of love ❤️ I can also understand the "kick in the *ss" feeling right after facing the death of a close person. Please just keep creating the content you love ❤️ Forget about the algorithms. We will never be able to keep up with them. Your channel will grow naturally because you're just amazing 😊

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@sharonbaker3007]

I haven’t been in the loop lately, so this is very tardy: I’m so so sorry about your Mom. I hope your family has found some peace and have been able to take care of everything. It’s a lot of work. When I lost my Mom 17 years ago if it hadn’t been for her friends, things would have been worlds more difficult. It’s so hard. Much love💙💙💙

[@janelee4232]

I absolutely love your hair! It looks amazing on you

[@sfeliciano1984]

I'm so sorry and give my condolences to you and your family of your mother's passing. ❤

[@kerriwright4593]

I'm so very sorry for the pain you must be feeling from such a loss. I'm glad you're back on KZbin. Again very very sorry.

[@alexandreaturcot8921]

I think you are an absolutely beautiful woman and I am thankful I found you on here on KZbin (about 3 years ago🤔)! Point is, you explained life and energy exactly how I have felt about it for a long time! I try to explain it and people dont get it. I truly believe there is a higher power source out there, call it God, spirits, however you feel and that we all never really leave we still existence all around. Many great thoughts/prayers your way! I have missed seeing you here on KZbin. I always want people to grow and learn and do whats best for them and their family ( as long as it doesnt hurt others or themselves ).😉

[@yvonnescarborough1551]

I am so sorry about your mom. I look forward to your new videos. Please continue you makeup videos, you are my favorite beauty creator I love your videos.

[@marlenegomes4008]

I haven’t even watched the video yet. Just clicked. So so so so happy to see you back.

[@lisalantz3084]

I have missed you! I am glad you are back and I want you to know whatever content you post....I will be watching!

[@angelic_venom]

It's good to see you back, you have been in my thoughts 💙 You have to do what makes you happy, if you stop making makeup content I will miss it but I'm just some random person online who enjoys your content. The real people who you need to be concerned about are you and yours. Makeup seems so saturated now and so samey, I totally get it. Wherever your journey takes you I hope it brings you happiness and success 💙

[@AudraReinsOfficial]

I'm so sorry for your loss🖤 I do think that your mom will be passing back and forth through the veil to make sure you keep up on making yourself happy🖤

[@NikkiRaven]

Thanks hon🥰🥰🥰

[@lucifera1456]

So sorry to hear about your mother. Sending good thoughts your way. ❤

[@ExtraterrestrialAnna]

Just found your channel. And I can already tell I'm going to love your content :)

[@ali_b_lush2]

Heartfelt condolences to you and your family. I think it's a great idea about the Mandela's! I'd love to see your process here on the channel. If you post them for free, then people can shop your Etsy link from there. Just a thought. 😊💖💖💖

[@MollyGriffiths-mb3mw]

I can't wait to see where u take this channel

[@isabelab6851]

So sorry to hear about your mom. I am totally with you on her quality of life and not having a prolonged decline. I have missed you and look forward to more moon videos…and all your wonderful inspiration and insights

[@juliettemathier]

I was so excited to see a new video of you 🥰 and as soon as I started watching - so sorry for your loss! I have the same views on energy etc. but still it must be not easy… big hugs! My brain pops in so many different directions all at once, but I‘ll try to make some sense ^^ First of all - what I wanted to tell you before a long time ago already: whenever you rhetorically ask „I don’t know if it makes sense“ - for me, it always did and I often thought, that I rarely have this „yep! I get it“ as much as when listening to you - no matter the topic 😊 I‘m legendarily bad at commenting (though in my mind, I‘d love to say/write a lot - it‘s just that my thoughts are running fast af and at the end, I‘m not sure where to start & anxious about writing too much… today, I try to shove it aside ^^ but still fear to forget the most „important“ points 🙈) Which leads me to another branch of thoughts - I‘m sooo grateful for everything you‘ve done & shared! I‘ve found you in 2017 or 18 - vibed immediately! But also, you had a crucial role in my life as you helped me realise (alongside some other gems like Audra, Emily & Jen) that I indeed am neurodivergent. So not only for all the giggles & inspiration - you‘ll always be extremely special & important to me (now I try to stop with the cheesy stuff, but well, it‘s true 🤷🏻‍♀️😁) I completely get the creativity aspect & longing for change! I‘ll be there, no matter what! (just probably still not very vocal 🙈 wish I could send voice stuff or something 🤣 but might be better, that it isn’t an option ^^) I wish you all the best! As well as your family (2, 8 & 4 legged 😻) and a successful & inspirational journey with your creativity and the channel! (By the way, have you ever tried zentangle? I love it and could imagine you liking it, too ☺️) Wishing you a good night and hope you‘re feeling well! 🕸️🐝🐱🕷️💜🐦‍⬛

[@NikkiRaven]

Sometimes my brain feels like a popcorn machine🤣 don’t worry about commenting or not..it’s all good🥰🥰🥰

[@katesommers9586]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[@heathertrent2886]

I think this is the longest I have seen your hair, at least in a really long time. Lol. Looks super cute btw. I am glad to here you’re doing good and glad to see you back making content. Although I’m a bit bummed we may not get to see as much makeup content……I absolutely love how you teach, your application techniques just work for me. I also trust your reviews since I’m the same age with similar skin type. However, I am excited for whatever you do choose to make your channel and for exploring what feels right to do for you. I think you have a great community here that will be supportive whatever you do. Am looking forward to see what content you bring and will continue to support you on this journey.

[@NikkiRaven]

Thank youuuu🥰🥰🥰

[@debutawn]

I am so excited to see the happiness that you are gaining from your new creative outlets ! You will absolutely make amazing Art pieces that will be enjoyed from people from all over the world that will be passed down through generations because your art is absolutely amazing 🥰 I’m so excited to get my Mandela painting 🥰

[@NikkiRaven]

Thank youuu🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

[@kerriwright4593]

I'm loving your hair 😍

[@alexthepoleelf]

welcome back Nikki 😘🤗

[@martinemissiaen4692]

hi Nikki,ik ben blij je terug te zien,veel sterkte voor jou en je familie met het verlies van je ma,ik zit momenteel in het zelfde schuitje,ook mijn ma gaat sterk achteruit,haar longen en hart zijn zeer zwak en haar levenskwaliteit is miniem,mijn zus en ik zijn zo veel mogelijk bij haar,het is het enige wat we kunnen doen,ik wens je alle succes met je creativiteit en je shop!

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@rosangelameschi2162]

My condolences for your mother. I get what you mean about source, energy etc. I felt the same with mine. I am happy you are exploring new things and leaving make up a little behind if that's what you wish. I get what you say about the algorithm and I must say I hate shorts. If I wanted them I would be on another platform. I will be missing the videos you were dedicating to moon phases as they were very interesting to me. All the best with your new adventures.

[@Chandapanda101]

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I hope you make peace with it. But I've missed you.❤❤❤❤

[@angelicalyremar]

I´m so sorry about your mother❤❤❤

[@makebymarina8875]

Gorgeous look 😍! I used that palette the other day, its fab! ❤️

[@ericapoe]

Nikki welcome back! I feel the same about what makes me happy or what I want to do with my life. I’m 41 so it’s hard for me to come to this conclusion in life.

[@greenbeauties]

Sorry about your loss, I understand you perfectly, like you I think it's strange not to call my mum anymore and tell her what's going on and just hear her voice. I have kept a couple of voicemails, so I can play and hear her voice again whenever I like to.

[@JoolsVoiceOver]

My deepest condolences to you and your sister xxx

[@leahmiranda8359]

So good to see you! I missed you ❤ I like the idea that we return to energy that exists forever… But I know you miss your daily communication with your mother. Sending you lots of hugs 💛💛💛💛 Wishing you great success with your Etsy shop!

[@karenkiolbassa]

First - I love your hair the way you have it now - the length, and color. I did see your post about your mom and was sorry to hear about her passing. I have similar beliefs as you about energy not being destroyed but changing form. I understand what you mean. I love mandalas. The ones you posted photos of were lovely. I will check out the etsy shop. I'm staying no matter what content you decide to do. I'm glad you are focusing on what makes you happy 💖

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@marshabrink2613]

We are on the same page . Hells on the earth and your mother will certainly be making contact if she hasn't already . Heaven in my mind is just release from earth ,but we will be back to learn more spiritual lessons. So Glad your back . I really missed you !

[@marshabrink2613]

So sorry for your mother's passing. Hugs

[@loopyfrog]

You have been missed. I am so sorry for your loss Nikki. Everyone deals with grief in their own way, and I think the way you think about it and handle it is very beautiful. Girl, you stand out from the crowd - I feel like you target a niche audience and you are building a special community here. The algorithm is so frustrating to all us content creators, it's even worse here than instagram I think. I can see the numbers of views I used to get 8-9 years ago when I had less subscribers but four times the amount of views, it makes no sense!

[@loopyfrog]

P.S. you are so pretty

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@lofiCicada]

I so agree about the energy thing. We change forms, just like everything in nature. Sending you love, thanks for always being a pleasure to watch ♥

[@sinndymorr6358]

Sending blessings to you and your family 🥰. I am subscribed to a few makeup channels but have not been actively, watching. Sure, I enjoy discussing beautiful things. Unfortunately, it feels like there is a flood repeat items. Will keep an eye out for future content.

[@tessasaczynski8233]

I’m sorry for your loss, however, that is a beautiful belief regarding death and am glad it provides comfort

[@lauracarr9152]

So so sorry for your loss ❤

[@francinelimon379]

Missed you! 💋💋💋

[@kayla4702]

So good to see you! 😊 Many hugs! ❤

[@kayla4702]

Also, I'm down to watch art 🎉

[@didigardenofbeauty7426]

Good to see you sweetheart ❤

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@suusvb83]

Im so very proud of you 😘😘😘

[@NikkiRaven]

awww I'm very proud of you too😘

[@TheEagleslover]

Hey Nikki. I’m so sorry to hear about your Mom. I’m just glad you were able to do what you and the family needed to do to make her transition and yours easier. I can totally relate as although I do consider myself a Christian I actually think closer to your beliefs. Thanks for sharing that.

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@kimberlywelch4198]

Welcome back!!! Sorry again to hear of the loss of your Mother, even though it was expected, doesn't make it hurt any less. Thoughts are with you and your family

[@hannahclark2622]

I'm so glad you're back! I thought of you when the mushroom lip mask came out because you're one of the only influencers I've heard talk about them, and I agree that this one may be even better! Also, I will watch you do literally anything creative because I just enjoy... parasocially hanging out with you, if that makes sense.

[@deesparklebazinga9374]

I love dot Mandala's and think your idea is brilliant. I've done a few dot Mandala's with black square canvases and neon/UV reactive paints. I have physical health problems that reduce my ability to do art. Its frustrating, cant wait to check out your etsy shop. Hugs from across the water (Newcastle Upon Tyne UK) xx

[@brockit79]

Your memorial stones are a lovely idea I wish you the best of luck (consider copywriting your idea).

[@renee2712]

I’m very sorry for your loss. It’s really good to see you back❤

[@rosalindgray3748]

Sending you lots of love and hugs 🤗. Not being able to phone them. To me is the hardest. ❤

[@smagurugals]

Sending positive thoughts to you and your family.

[@marshabrink2613]

I also hope you will still do your moon videos . A new makeup releases once a week would be ok . I just can't imagine not having you do makeup releases during the spooky season . I wish someone would do videos creating scarecrows . I love them so much. I follow pumpkin Rott but watching someone create them would be sooo great 😅

[@Shoshana-xh6hc]

Nice to see you back, Nikki ! 😃😘💖

[@divisioneparzero]

So sorry for your loss Nikki! ❤ Sending love and support your way!

[@anneeriksson]

I hope you don´t stop making these lovely makeup videos 🙏 I really like your videos 🥰

[@emy_themua2015]

Adore your hair you look beautiful sis ❤

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@IllyDragonfly]

My cat has been dealing with chemo since 7 months and there are days we think he may just go and even if he is considered old I know I will be devastated by the loss. I feel very childish but I want him to live forever, he has been with me since I lost my brother and nobody else gave me as much unconditional love as he does. I can just hope that when the time will come I will be able to assist him and he won't suffer T.T

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@michelehartshaw8659]

I was just so happy to see your beautiful face!! I love your hair like that you look amazing!! 😘💜

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@84prettymoon]

I wish I could think about death like you do... for me death is the worst thing ever, I'm terrified of it! I even do therapy, which is partly about it... even if it doesn't really help me with it! But the therapy helped me with the grief for my pet rats, when a nose went over the rainbow bridge (I lost over 50 rats over the last 20 years)... years ago, a world collapsed for me every time and I fell into a deep hole, now I can deal with it better, even if I can never really finish with the grief :( I have a lot of rituals, I write two farewell texts (a short one from my point of view and a long one from the point of view of the nose, how it was here with us, the adventures etc.), make a small photo book and before the funeral I cut some fur to make two fur pendants for my boyfriend and me! We cremated three of our noses, I designed the urns myself with acrylics... As I'm also very artistic (even though I still haven't found my own painting style) and understand the love for pets, I like your idea with the ashes!

[@heathertrent2886]

On a side note when I saw the hair the Eyrithmics started playing in my head. I’m on board with the Annie Lennox vibe.😂

[@NikkiRaven]

I love her!🤣

[@marshabrink2613]

I enjoyed your video creating your nails as well

[@BelindaMua]

What highlighter brush are you using

[@NikkiRaven]

It’s from Lethal Cosmetics🥰

[@BelindaMua]

@@NikkiRaven oh ok thanks

[@kerriwright4593]

My mom is really my best friend. I'm connected to my mom most in this world, aside from my husband. I don't know how I would handle losing her. I hope to not find out for a very very long time.

[@tac6448]

Missed your face. Your hair is so long. I’m excited for your new direction although I love your makeup looks. Hopefully you will squeak one in from time to time

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@iljacosper]

❤❤❤dikke knuffel!!

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@marshabrink2613]

Could you make runes and ship them abroad ? I would love to have something you created like that ,?

[@NikkiRaven]

I have ideas for that as wel! And yes I do ship worldwide🥰

[@IllyDragonfly]

Also I think your crocheting skills are very great, i hope your cute spiders or anything else you can make will be up to be sold there. I literally commissioned an artist on Etsy to make me an Ursula tentacles belt and Flotsam and Jetsam scarf, people there can get some good money from people who are bad at crocheting, trust me XDDDD

[@denisechoufoer8100]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[@classyboujeeratchet]

You look so cute with your hair grown out

[@tdsollog]

My mom passed 8 years ago. If anyone has a problem with how you process the loss of a loved one, it’s not a “you problem”. It’s a “them problem”. I’ve been here because of the ASS and makeup, but please do what you need to do. ❤

[@NikkiRaven]

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[@darkydoom]

😘 missed your face

[@bethanythatsme]

🌻🌞💛

[@rebeccasabourin6193]

Sorry for your lose. I also believe in energy in the same way.

[@kerriwright4593]

Idk what makes me happy. I am lazy....I enjoy playing with makeup a lot and hair but I'm often like meh it takes too long. I like reading but I get so involved that I don't want to do anything else like I get crabby. I mostly just like watching fake people live fake lives while I'm just sitting on my couch which really doesn't make any sense at all.

[@kerriwright4593]

I don't like shorts.