While I Deconstructed My Christian Faith I Went To Church Until I Just Couldn’t Stomach It Anymore

[@laurelbeyl8350]

Timmy, I am loving watching your videos as I deconstruct my own faith. And as a member of the LGBT+ community, I want to express my gratitude to you for choosing to be on the right side of history. Your humility and sense of humor delight my heart.

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@laurelbeyl8350 Laurel, thank you so much! That touches my heart so deeply as I was unfortunately on the wrong side of history for too many years! Blessings to you!

[@markbradford4814]

@@timmygibsonkc Right on.

[@kristenraejohnson]

Really enjoying your casual talks about your deconstruction from Evangelical Christianity...sometimes we think we're the only ones that are going thru this enlightening journey. 🌠

[@timmygibsonkc]

Thank you Kristen! "Rae" was my sister's middle name! Love it!

[@kristenraejohnson]

Now, that's COOL! 😊❤​@@timmygibsonkc

[@mikeleaptrott]

I saw your interview on thinkingatheist. I have a very similar story. You are an inspiration. Thank you! I’m subscribing! Please keep it going.

[@timmygibsonkc]

Thank you Mike!

[@therealexistentialist]

Talked to several Christian friends today. I used empathy. Was respectful. Asked questions. And wow. I used to spew out that nonsense?

[@timmygibsonkc]

It's weird for me to talk to the super religious now too! And I was that guy! lmao

[@blueskypilatesshariammerma4210]

Saaame. Spent so many years Trying to sift through all the things being handed down from the pulpit, from general Christianity….it just gets too clear…same way that we were finally positive we really had to leave! Relief, Freedom and Peace/Joy! 💙✨🌟

[@centaur7607]

I hate that people make children fear an imaginary hell. I'm so fortunate (or "blessed" lol) that my parents never told me I had to repent, or ask for forgiveness, or believe in God, in order to avoid some eternal punishment. That is so harmful to children who should be made to feel safe, not terrified, especially of something that's not real.

[@Plethorality]

Not just hell, but the end times ongoing horrors . Since i was four, in 1969. And autistic. So i BELIEVED.

[@Pootycat8359]

My parents tried to indoctrinate me, when I was five & six, into Catholicism, and I rejected it, because it contradicted my sense of right & wrong, and logic. Through most of my childhood and early teens, I was, technically, a Deist. At 16, I had my first "acid trip," and the "Doors of Perception" as Aldous Huxley would say, flung open. Then, for over half a century, I studied most of the World's religions, practiced a few, and found truth in the esoteric cores of all. I don't like labels, but if I had to choose one, I'd say I'm a "Christian-Buddhist-Witch." 🤗

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@centaur7607 agreed!

[@whiskeredtuna]

@centaur7607, studies show exactly the opposite. Children who grow up in religious home tend to do better overall. I mean….what’s an atheist gonna tell a child laying on his or her deathbed? It’s all a matter of perspective very complicated and complex issue.

[@saywhatnow57]

@@whiskeredtuna This right here. none of those children, with the exception of the nutty denominations THIS KZbinR was a member of believe they're going to hell. Everyone still assumes they're going to heaven. There is no terror in most churches.

[@Arminius420]

Its strange once you deconstruct its like waking up from a dream that you can't get back to.

[@timmygibsonkc]

So true! It's weird.

[@markbradford4814]

A dream initially, yes. Then it can be a total flipping nightmare until you get your stuff together, and back on solid ground again. I struggled until I decided to stop the charade and get real with myself. It's amazing what happens then.Religion can be like an addiction somewhat like alcohol or drugs. No doubt.

[@Arminius420]

@@markbradford4814 It kind of makes you despiteful for awhile. At least for me I was all about hatred until I got a little bit older and now I understand how indoctrination works.

[@meatloafhead]

When I finally realized I was wrong about Christianity I had an epiphany then a dream that night I was flying in the clouds with all the great old Greek gods!!! It was so real, not sure why but yeah life is amazing now

[@michelep.7249]

I was raised Mormon and close to the age of 30 I read the book Meditation for Dummies by Stephan Bodian. I began a mantra meditation practice where I would recite a positive mantra that contradicted my negative thinking and change my mantra every week. I would repeat a mantra in my mind and anytime my mind wandered I would return my focus back to repeating the mantra in my mind. I did mantra meditation 45 minutes, 5 days a week for 18 months. My thoughts actually became more positive and calmer. This benefited me 10x more than going to church did. After reading the book Meditation for Dummies, I also started feeling fear, anger, jealousy, and pride until they go away rather than suppressing them all the time. Because of the Bible's and Book of Mormon's teachings, I had tried to suppress these feelings for years. It was such a relieve to not try to suppress these feelings all the time. I got tired of listening to my church teach that feeling fear, anger, jealousy, and pride are evil. I also got tired of them saying to meditate, but never teaching how to do meditation to develop concentration. For almost 16 years I thought I was meditating until I read the book Meditation for Dummies. When I was 38 I just couldn't handle going to church anymore and quit going to church. I now read a Buddhist newsletter daily, read some Buddhist books (favorite book Lovingkindness the Revolutionary Art of Happiness by Sharon Salzberg) and do mantra meditation regularly. I, however am not Buddhist and don't attend any Buddhist church.

[@catherineblair550]

45 mins is amazing

[@miamichaels5999]

Have you watch Mormon Stories on KZbin? I wasn’t even a Mormon but I still like hearing their deconstruction stories.

[@michelep.7249]

@@miamichaels5999 I have watched Mormon Stories from KZbin. I learned about the CES letters by Jeremy Runnells from watching this. I was glad I had the teachings found in the book Meditation for Dummies and quit going to church before I discovered the CES letters. I had mantra meditation to boost my ability to love myself and others and no longer needed the Mormon church before finding out the Mormon church was an outright lie after reading the CES letter. I felt so deceived by the Mormon church after reading the CES letter.

[@skipwilson]

Awesome Timmy, the truth has set us free!

[@timmygibsonkc]

Amen Brother! :)

[@christophergibson7155]

Correction...Jesus said, "If you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” (John 8:31b-32) You failed to quote the very important first part of what Jesus said. For Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the Father except though Him. (John 14:6)

[@Sassy413]

AMEN!

[@joycesky5041]

I'm an X-Christian Pentecostal turned Atheist but I still faithfully go to church every Sunday.... I attend the Church of the Holy Mattress. Lol 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[@melindaanne6036]

I just can’t believe in a Christian god anymore. The amount of hate in the Christian church, the unanswered prayers, the lies in the Bible, a god that demands love but neglects his children, and on and on. I just can’t believe it anymore. I feel like I’ve been pretending for years and years.

[@patrickmcelrath4962]

It seems scary at first but there are many and large communities to support you in this journey, i wish I knew about them when I came out at 16, very religious parents

[@melindaanne6036]

@@patrickmcelrath4962thank you. I feel like I’ll lose all my friends in one of foul swoop.

[@timmygibsonkc]

So true!

[@johndoee040]

@@melindaanne6036As a Dutch person, ever since I started looking more into religion I saw how many people are completely trapped within it. To me, being surrounded by agnostics and atheists, including me, it sounds absurd that people would drop you over merely not believing in God. It’s very interesting, but sad at the same time

[@markbradford4814]

@@johndoee040 Sad, but it can be true, and this is likely just the opposite of you may have expected from religion. People can be rude and cruel, regardless if religion is involved, or not. I agree, it's sad. Don't throw in the towel. Seek to surround yourself with healthy, positive minded folk. They are there, go find them.

[@philipgrobler7253]

Thank you once again for your honesty, sincerity and integrity, theists simply do not see the truth about their beliefs, that it is Dishonest, Insincere and lacking integrity. I worked in the hospitality industry for many years, and I simply could no longer take it feeling guilty for having to work on most Sundays - three Sundays every month, and not wanting to go to church on my only Sunday off work in a month. My true epiphany came when I, who never imagined in his life to be on the wrong side of the law, ended up behind bars. The whole process of regaining my freedom made me realise that there is NO god in control of my life, but that I am in a prison and only the government determines how big or small the prison is. So now, whenever I hear someone claiming that (a) god is in control of everything, I cannot help but roll my eyes in utter frustration and disdain.

[@timmygibsonkc]

I appreciate your kind words! I bet you have an interesting story!

[@philipgrobler7253]

@@timmygibsonkc Yes, like the time I firmly believed that the almighty god would fix my crashed car, if I just prayed sincerely enough, and when I opened the garage door to check, well, you know what I saw, and after that sort of started to be suspicious already ...

[@ckvarnmass]

I never liked church. I went, to show my duty to my fake, narc husband. I was dutiful, until I couldn't stomach him, anymore. I started staying home, instead, enjoying the peace and quite I never got. It was the only time I had without the kids. My kids were my everything and I love them to pieces, I had 5, but once in a while a mom needs a break. Never did my husband wonder why I didn't want to go. After divorcing him, I shed myself of all thoughts of going to church and never felt any guilt about it. I remember passing a church on a Sunday morn and seeing all those people going inside and it hit me how fake most of them were. Yes, there are some good people who go, but they, too, are limiting their spiritual growth be thinking church is the end all of spirituality. Two of my boys have followed in their father's footsteps, playing Mr. Christianity. It sickens me, but I know they are doing it to gain the father's acceptance, and I am not talking about the heavenly father, either.

[@centaur7607]

Great point, technically Christians do not "know" there's a God. "It's called Faith because it ISN'T knowledge." Christopher Hitchens

[@richardwalters9249]

Still ... it's not BLIND faith. I mean ... thinking (against all scientific explanation) that the Universe came into existence from out of nothing for no reason at all ... THAT would be BLIND faith.

[@centaur7607]

@@richardwalters9249 I don't agree that there is any difference between those two beliefs. Both are "blind" in my opinion. If we don't know something, we should simply be honest with ourselves and accept what we don't know. Though the mind doesn't like doing that. However, the more we seek scientific knowledge about the universe and neurobiology, the closer we will get to understanding reality.

[@davidrexford586]

@@centaur7607 where does knowledge come from? Do we make it exist or is it given to us? I hear people say God and science are separate and why can’t we say science or knowledge on any given subject is given to us?

[@richardwalters9249]

@@centaur7607 how can we not know that the universe could not possibly come into existence for no reason at all ? I know that it didn’t. I’m sorry if you can’t reason that out for yourself. The fact that the universe exists …. I mean we KNOW two things: 1. It’s mathematically impossible for it to have existed forever. ( it it did, we could have never been able to traverse an “infinity” of past time to reach “today”). 2. There has to be a reason/cause/something to bring the universe into existence. My point is: knowing/believing/accepting/reasoning/establishing these facts in order to conclude these things is NOT BLIND. It’s logic that’s well-thought-out. To say I believe these two facts by “faith” is accurate. But, it’s just as correct to say I believe these two facts are true by logic as well. It’s not blind. It agrees with what we observe.

[@centaur7607]

@@richardwalters9249 I will tell you that an argument that any god exists, in particular the Christian god, based on the logic you are using, is called a "God of the Gaps" fallacy. Since we don't know how the universe came to be, many insert God in as the explanation, filling that "gap" in our knowledge. Previously, there were more gaps, so a god or myths were used to explain everything: the sun and stars, weather, disease, etc. The more scientific knowledge we gathered, the less gods and myths were used to explain these natural phenomena that can now be well understood. The gap is shrinking, and we can now only insert a god in because we don't know precisely how or why everything came into being. That is simply another thing which we do not know yet, but inserting a god to explain that gap is fallacy. We simply don't know, but scientists are still seeking real knowledge to find out as much as possible. Again, the more scientific knowledge we have, the closer we are to understanding reality.

[@LovinOffGrid]

thank you for talking to us you are awesome very interesting i can relate to a lot of what you say

[@johnmonk3381]

I love watching your videos! The most common theme of most christian deconstructions is that most people just became more moderate which eventually slid into disbelief when those beliefs simply became untenable

[@aaronparker1221]

I started my deconstruction by becoming more moderate at first. I dismissed the harmful doctrines like hell and anti-homosexuality. Eventually slid down into complete disbelief and I'm happy it happened.

[@timmygibsonkc]

So true!

[@aleguitarra]

@@aaronparker1221 very interesting to analyze that

[@DJ5780]

​@@aaronparker1221same

[@whiskeredtuna]

@aaronparker1221, you said you “dismissed the harmful doctrine of hell and anti-LGBTQ” but that also means you dismissed the helpful doctrine of seeing loved ones again after death, and meaning and purpose and that’s not worth the exchange to me. This is a complex and complicated issue. At the end of the day though the only thing that matters for either of us is whether it’s true or not.

[@Mel.H_]

I love what you're doing! Thank you for being open and honest❤🎉

[@aleguitarra]

Hi, a christian from Uruguay here... I listen to all your videos... very intersting...

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@aleguitarra Thank you so much! I’m honored! Thank you for no hate! I so appreciate when a Christian can be kind, even when they disagree.

[@aleguitarra]

@@timmygibsonkc listen to you is like look in a mirror… thanks for your honesty…. I want to continue in my faith, but to think about what you share helps…. If I reach the conclusion that Christianity is fake then abandon is the right thing to do… I still believe

[@skitle07]

Hi, Timmy! You validated much of what I feel. I believe the teachings of Jesus are good, and solid ways to live life… but the rest? Mankind has contaminated what he said and did. The gospels were written up to a century after his death… I’ve always felt the message was altered from what he probably said. Then there’s the council of Nicaea, where MAN (and men) decided what to include and what to discard. I’ve looked at these differences as the frailty of mankind for most of my life, and believed around the beliefs I was taught… which wasn’t necessarily the “Gospel” of any church or any denomination. I believe there is (possibly? Likely?) something greater than us, even if it’s our own consciousness. Thank you for sharing your faith journey. You will help a lot of seekers.

[@timmygibsonkc]

I appreciate the heart in which you comment! Enjoy the journey! You are kind, and that is a super attractive trait ... never change that, no matter what you believe.

[@thartb6282]

The desperation of the ads on this kind of video are hilarious. It’s so funny listening to pastors beg.

[@markbradford4814]

Can you spare me some change?

[@timmygibsonkc]

Lmao!

[@meatloafhead]

They probably target atheist channels, to pull you back on a guilt trip… MONEY MONEY AND MORE MONEY aka the church

[@aaronparker1221]

It is my belief (and I use no hyperbole here) that taking a child to church and teaching them that all that stuff is THE TRUTH, is nothing short of abusive. I believe that with all my heart.

[@guymerritt4860]

Well, when I think of abuse I think of people knowingly harming someone. I was raised in a non-religious home and, frankly, I think religion is dangerous as hell (pun not intended). Bear in mind that people who teach children that religions are true think they're doing a good thing, doing god's work, etc. I wouldn't lump people who sincerely believe this crazy chit in with people who are child abusers - even though, as I said, I think these beliefs are literally dangerous. I know where you're coming from, but, the word "abusive" implies malice.

[@MrBigolbear]

I couldn't agree more. I am in a fight with my evangelical wife to protect the minds of my four little monsters. We need to be listening to our children and truthfully answering their questions, even if the answer is "I don't know".

[@whiskeredtuna]

@aaronparker1221, studies show exactly the opposite. Children who grow up in religious home tend to do better overall. I mean….what’s an atheist gonna tell a child laying on his or her deathbed? It’s all a matter of perspective very complicated and complex issue.

[@MrBigolbear]

@@whiskeredtuna you would suggest we tell the child lies about how we know we are going to see our dying relatives again in an invisible, extradimensional heaven with our blood lusting sky-daddy. Totally unnecessary and hurtful. I can love and comfort my children without your imaginary friends mucking it all up. Come into the light, we are here to help you.

[@aaronparker1221]

@whiskeredtuna Teaching a child they're going to eternal hell for not loving God is abuse. I'm sorry but that particular issue is black and white to me.

[@MrBigolbear]

Hey, Timmy! About 2 years after my deconversion I went to church with some family. The whole morning was an absolute meme. The alter call was so damn cringe! Thank you for the amazing content!

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@MrBigolbear thank you so much! I appreciate the encouragement! I’ve been enjoying sharing my journey.

[@christophergibson7155]

Why base all your prejudice on one single church meeting? There is a great description of someone who is prejudice "Don't confuse me with the facts. My mind is already made up." One must have a desire to know the truth before they can right it all off as "cringe". Jesus came to save sinners. He came to seek and to save that which was lost.

[@MrBigolbear]

@@christophergibson7155 Jesus is dead and your imaginary friends don't exist. That is the truth. I went to church for years before I found the truth. You don't know what you can't show. Religion is so silly. Step into the light, we are here to help you leave your imaginary friends behind. ♥️

[@christophergibson7155]

@@MrBigolbear Oh no Sir Mr.Bigolbear. You know that God exists but YOU SUPPRESS THE TRUTH in your unrighteounsess. (Romans 1:18) You did not find the truth. You believed the lie, just as it states..."and with all unrighteous deception among those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth, that they might be saved. And for this reason God will send them strong delusion, that they should believe THE LIE, (2 Thessalonians 2:10-11) You and most of those on this channel have stepped into the darkness (of sin) and have lost their way. It may feel good at the moment; but false security will not endure the truth of God's Word.

[@karamalrasam1606]

I used to go to the church everyday for over a year I was literally loving to go to it, but when I became honest with myself, and I've discovered how pastors lie on people, and people believe them without any doubts as sheeps, they check their brains at the door, as you say. At that time I decided to stop going again, but lately there is a ritual church (Orthodox) nearby my house it has beautiful icons 😅 but I rarely go there only when I get bored listen to hymns, and get some passion for Art 😅 at least they lie a little not as evangelical.

[@markbradford4814]

Everyday for over 365 frickin days? Wow! That's gotta be a record!

[@luvyatubers]

Kansas City has KC Oasis. Recovering From Religion meetup. Unitarian churches

[@glacey4906]

Holy cow. I've always been told that story about our ribs - men have one less or women have one extra. Fkn load of shit. Lied to so much

[@markbradford4814]

Me too. I heard this same tale, and had the gall to believe it. Still, I like nothing more than grilling up some ribs in the summer. Think of them as burnt offerings!

[@Sassy413]

No men don’t have one less rib and women don’t have one more rib and who are you listening to? God took a rib out of Adam to make a woman. See he made men from DIRT AND DUST and women from BONE AND SUBSTANCE. There must be a God because He didn’t make us out of a man’s brain… thank GOD.

[@patrickmcelrath4962]

I just saw your interview with seth andrews, I have a lot of catching up to do!

[@timmygibsonkc]

Thank you! I hope you enjoy and find my thoughts helpful in your journey!

[@mikearnold1927]

I am so proud of you for recognizing that it is the monster!

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@mikearnold1927 Thank you!

[@janegerow5974]

I love this channel and hope you continue. and we can build a community of like minded people. I also like church. The music. The feelings of goodwill for your neighbor. The community aspects. The passing of the seasons and life milestones. But I don't go anymore. I can't. I follow a Buddist philosophy. I love to learn about other people religions and customs. Fascinating! but I don't buy into the bullshit. If there is a creator god and I meet him/her someday I will have LOTs of questions! anyway just going thru your play list and commenting on it all. Annoying I bet. Lol

[@timmygibsonkc]

Thank you Jane! Not annoying at all! I appreciate you!

[@bigd8073]

I stopped believing all after a few nights watching KZbin,Christopher H amd all others, felt hart broken and lied and at the same time a big relief and joy of being free and finally open my eyes, i was moderate cristian but rarely skipped Sunday church, i went At church even after this because the community was really nice doing picnics amd all kinds pf activities,but my blood was boiling hearing all the nonsense, charismatic church with all the crazy stuff, hope my mom realise is in a cult,but slim chance

[@timmygibsonkc]

I felt the same way. I felt betrayed! Glad to be free.

[@markbradford4814]

The upside is that you got to go to picnics and enjoy some good food. This is a good thing. Two things in life I love are: 1. Food 2. Food.

[@meatloafhead]

Man you must have been a real soft water Christian😮 took my ass 2 months to deprogram😅 I was in DEEP! So scared of hell I didn’t want to burn forever… it’s all so nutty

[@jaredwalla3064]

Just in time for my routine! Have a good day!

[@francelaferriere6106]

I can't wait to hear you talk about freewill, because this is something I struggle with. I feel like we don't really have freewill, that it's just an illusion. We are free to do some stuff but as a whole, are we *really* free? Anyway, looking forward to hearing your thoughts on it.

[@timmygibsonkc]

I am excited to talk about it too. It's a fun topic.

[@francelaferriere6106]

@@timmygibsonkc Yep.

[@bretherenlee1404]

They deny God while if the body needs surgery they search for skill and intelligence.

[@timmygibsonkc]

Right!

[@Sonoran_Desert_Nomads]

Went to a nearly fundamental Baptist school, attended a Pentecostal church, but was raised by a secular mother. I prayed to God for about a year, asking for guidance about my lack of faith that the Bible wasn't the true word of God. Silence. The next year, I prayed about my belief of him. Silence. So after a Christian gets done saying "I just haven't...," I advise them of the above. There's nothing they can tell me that I wasn't already heavily trained in, and I prayed to God about it. God's unanswered prayers is what finally gave me the courage to question what I was taught.

[@timmygibsonkc]

Exactly!

[@markbradford4814]

Keep asking those hard questions. Study and don't give up.

[@Sonoran_Desert_Nomads]

@markbradford4814 nah, I gave up praying. I didn't even bother to pray and ask if all the other gods were real or not. I'm done with "loving" imaginary stuff threatening my eternal life with bad things. No more demon removals. Once limbs start regenerating, or any other obvious miracle, after "two or more coming together in prayer," I'll rethink my stance on no longer praying.

[@teresasmith4383]

I haven't continued to go to church, but I live a lie and I hate it. My family is very religious and totally immersed in it. (Church of Christ.) I'm a 70 year old widow (from a plane crash) and don't want to alienate myself from my family. I no longer believe, but I pretend I do. I'd love to "come out," but I'm sure I'd be ostracized and shunned by those I love most. At least I no longer believe lying is a sin and you can go to hell for it.

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@teresasmith4383 I totally understand! You gotta do what ya gotta do, no shame in that! You know you’re free, that’s all that matters!

[@teresasmith4383]

@@timmygibsonkc thank you very much for that, Timmy! It's wonderful to be encouraged for my thoughts. I'm feeling more free every day. I love your videos.

[@redsonya3088]

Great video. Thanks for sharing.. I'm deconstructing also. I'm an atheist now. 🎉🎉🎉

[@heatherclark8668]

I missed the singing, the joy and the family smorgasbords afterwards. I miss being a part of a group where I belonged I miss having a ready-made group that was just there whenever I turned up But I don't miss anything else Many years after I de converted from Christianity, I became really lonely and lost and wanted very much to believe in some other religion. Whatever! I didn't care. I really wanted to believe but I couldn't. I even looked at religions that didn't allow coffee or meat! But I can't live without coffee and meat is so very very good for human beings to eat. It is so helpful for me to hear that other people miss church and that some even continue going I completely understand that. Some denominations and some parishes are less offensive than others If, for some reason, I absolutely had to attend a church somewhere, I would stay right away from the charismatic, evangelical congregations I used to attend. Instead, I would choose a high Anglican church. I have completely changed my mind now about all the formality, pomp and ceremony. Now I could quite enjoy it and just tune out. I could enjoy the architecture of an old church that was built in the late 1800s. I used to think the people who attended those sorts of church services weren't real Christians, whatever that is. But I no longer believe that. Just because they prefer a more formal, traditional style of worship, it doesn't mean they aren't just as committed as anyone else As long as there were coffee and cakes afterwards, I would be happy

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@heatherclark8668 I so agree!

[@christophergibson7155]

But the real question to ask is..."What happened to your love for Jesus?

[@johnmonk3381]

​​@@christophergibson7155 What love are you talking about? That's like asking, "What happened to your love for santa claus?" Any adult would respond, well I became too old for those childish stuff, I guess I grew up, why haven't you?

[@christophergibson7155]

@@johnmonk3381 "What love are you talking about?" The "agape" love that is in Christ Jesus The Lord. This is the love that God has for the world and that Christians will also emulate. The "love for Santa Claus is "philia" (friendship or comradery). There is no comparison. There are 4 types of love based in the Holy Bible. "I guess I grew up, why haven't you? I am still growing up in Christ..."but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the head-Christ-" (Ephesians 4:15)

[@johnmonk3381]

@@christophergibson7155 Sorry no. We are adults with real world problems to grapple with, not stay childish and continue to indulge in childish fantasies, dreaming of spending eternal life with some imaginary, similarly childish, perpetually dissatisfied and deeply insecure entity who claims to love us but continues to saddle us with sins and creates a hell where he sends people to on a whim if he doesn't like them. A god who needs sons and virgins to do some "serious life saving" like saving people from himself from sins that he himself gave to them and from the own hell he specifically creates for that purpose. What kind of a pretentious moron would believe that. Hell no thank you!

[@Plethorality]

I mostly went to church because of the guilt if i didnt. It was rarely enjoyable.

[@christophergibson7155]

That is pitiful. Was Jesus anywhere in your life?

[@incrediblesloth85]

I can understand militant atheism considering a lot of the hurt and hatred put out by the evangelical side of the church and I tend to agree a lot with people like Aron Ra on a lot of stuff but there's also nothing wrong with being "soft" but I prefer to call it empathetic and like you said, Timmy, ain't a dang thing wrong with it. Seeing empathy along with reason to me is more palatable but that's just me, dude. There's never really a perfect mix per se but also like you said, find your niche. Empathy, reasoning and understanding can go a lot further. Then again I've done customer service for 23 years and so I'm a bit more adept to that and reading people 🤷‍♂ Respectfully, man.

[@aaronparker1221]

I miss the feel of my old leather-bound Bible in my hands, the sound of the pages turning. Too bad most everything in it is useless garbage. I liked church too, Timmy!

[@NightsideOfParadise]

I loved the feeling of prayer beads in my hands sitting in a 💺 talking to who I believed was god meanwhile drinking ☕. I also love the church aesthetics. My favourite book was Mere Christianity.

[@aaronparker1221]

​@@NightsideOfParadiseAh, CS Lewis was my co-pilot!!

[@corneliahanimann2173]

It is literature.

[@aaronparker1221]

@corneliahanimann2173 Once I took it as seriously as I did for years, I can no longer look at it as simply literature. That ship has sailed, too much baggage.

[@musashimiyamoto586]

I would think you get the same and more from any book of fiction, with the exception that they don't claim to be factual. And the pages are awfully thin, too, just like the content.

[@kimberlyburns7246]

I was forced to go to church every Sunday by my parents. Then I started to do that to my own kids when we moved into my parents house when I left my now ex husband. Once my oldest son my son said no I am not going anymore, I said ok, my parents did all the guilt on him and yelled at me over it. Then my youngest son did the same thing, my parents really went ballistic. Now I live with my current husband, and now my parents stopped going to church. Not sure if they are deconstructing once in a while they say Gods been good to me, or God has blessed me. But that’s about it.

[@mikekelly702]

Love your vids bro. Im an atheist when it comes to the Bible, but I am deeply spiritual because I believe human consciousness/mind is a fundamental aspect of our existence that is one with the universe itself. I believe the Bible is all made up. I was Catholic as a child, then my Mom remarried into Mormonism, but I left both of those years ago.

[@wizquinn8021]

Thanks Timmy 👍 😊.

[@carolebingham7262]

I was so depressed with hell so l phoned a vicar and he new how upset I was he said ime not supposed to tell u this but hell doesnt exist it was made up to control and manipulate so that people would be too frightened to leave is this right please

[@centaur7607]

If you're seriously interested in learning more about Hell/Gehenna, I suggest going to watch a video on KZbin by a creator called Genetically Modified Skeptic called "I traveled to Jerusalem to face my fear of Hell." It's a great video with lots of well researched and easily digested information about Hell/Gehenna.

[@connorshipman8950]

it does make sense. and some of the stuff ive seen it points to that yes. it is the most logical conclusion yes. if you take god and religion out completely. i never wanted to give this up. but it never made sense felt way to controlling and never felt an actual impression or existance in a loving god who is on my side. the bible is full of those who got to see eat walk and talk with god/Jesus. After the fall of man. But it cant be done now after jesus died and took our sins. It feels like a system of control

[@catherineblair550]

@@connorshipman8950 I think I heard that Jesus actually said this about hell in the gnostic bible.

[@SparklyCoconut-le3fu]

I’m trying to learn how to be less politically dogmatic like you described but it’s genuinely difficult as an African American who is also lgbt knowing that people want to vote for the party that spreads racist lies started by Neo not sees that leads to bomb threats and immigrants fleeing the area and want to repeal the civil and voting rights acts while clarence Thomas signals that he wants to review brown v board

[@timmygibsonkc]

I appreciate your honesty!

[@stewarttiley9683]

Excellent channel! It has taken me 6 years to fully deconstruct. I had a couple of big relapses back to Christianity, but they didn’t last long. I cringe now when I think of this, but I recently learned that relapse is very natural and common (similarly to any addiction withdrawal I guess?). Did you have any such relapses before finally deconstructing?

[@timmygibsonkc]

Relapse! ha ha Me too-ish. I was trying to hang on til the bitter end, lmao!

[@markbradford4814]

I almost backslid right back into Christianity, but caught my bearings and escaped for hopefully the last time. Deconstructing is not an overnight deal, but I wish it was.

[@Ohhello_itskat]

We need to get you a mic so we can hear those luscious vocal cords nice and clear.

[@Sassy413]

I love my Bible! I love its truth. I’m going to abide with Him forever and the saddest day will come when the unsaved won’t be remembered anymore. Never again.

[@catherineblair550]

How nice for you.

[@luvyatubers]

Sorry but it only feels fair that leaving church is tough. Christians bullied and excluded me for being a lifelong Atheist

[@markbradford4814]

With all due respect, what were you expecting? Been my experience that Christians and an Atheist are sooner or later gonna tangle. Find your tribe and hunker down. Leave those Christians be! Lol.

[@timmygibsonkc]

I experienced some of that too.

[@docforest4851]

Most cults make it difficult for you to leave.

[@LovinOffGrid]

my Christian story will never be over

[@cjbrown8245]

Have you ever thought that it was the religion and not the Bible that was false?

[@NewHeathen78]

Also Dr Phil Mason at the channel ThunderfOOt has a whole playlist of 10 of videos entitled "Why People Laugh at Creationists." He's had that list up for over 15 years now.

[@hauminthang9222]

I deconstruct when I was 17 years of age, now I'm 19 years old and still getting through the journey of deconstruction.

[@davidfitnesstech]

The Bible was objectively written by men. Most religions are men-centric because they were created 6:09 by men. The problem comes in when I'm told that the Bible is the word of a God, when incredibly God has the same mindset, attitudes and knowledge about the world as a bronze-age man.

[@timmygibsonkc]

So true!

[@mender722]

I feel some people get "know" and "believe" mixed up. I used to BELIEVE so strongly that I KNEW it beyond doubt. I have encountered this mindset in other people as well. Gnostic/Agonistic = know and not know, and Theist/Atheist = believe and not believe. I would consider myself an Agonistic Atheist. However, it doesn't really matter what words one uses, as long as we have understanding. Words have uses, so that's where listening skills come into play. I have encountered so many people that don't know how to listen.

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@mender722 So true!

[@JamesRichardWiley]

A church is a meeting place for people with a shared belief in a man made fairy tale. The church is man made, the rituals and prayer books are man made and the object of worship (God) is man made. At no time does any god ever appear.

[@markbradford4814]

Yep, that just about says it all dude. Made in America!

[@christophergibson7155]

Yep. That is certainely the sinner's take on it. They are on the outside looking in. Still dead in sins and trespasses "in Adam" and not yet "in Christ". The Word of God describes this view the sinner has well..."But the natural (carnal) man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him; nor can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned, (void of the Spirit)." 1 Corinthians 2:14

[@joegurt2957]

@@christophergibson7155god isn’t real

[@christophergibson7155]

@@joegurt2957 What makes you say that?

[@joegurt2957]

@@christophergibson7155 I asked god to show up and he never did… I asked god to heal my grandma… and guess what… he never did… so he doesn’t exist… period

[@RamonaRayTodosSantosBCS]

The earliest Christian texts that include information about Jesus are the Pauline epistles, which are generally dated to 50-60 CE. This is about 20-30 years after the generally accepted time of Jesus' death, which was around 30-36 CE.

[@TheSuperTeacherStudent]

I remember sitting in the pew listening to this fool trash talk peoples' posts on FB every Sunday. He'd tramp up and fown the altar proclaiming his righteousness while condemning 'those people' for being his idea of 'lesser.' He also yelled at me when I asked him questions because he couldn't stand the idea of being questioned by a woman. All the while, i was disgusted to be surrounded by so many newly outed racists and bigots thanks to the 2016 election. That was the downward slope towards my full deconstruction. Dont even get me started on the time i actually worked for that global organization. The people i worked with who claimed to be servants of god were rude, nasty, and mean while using the buerocratic rules of the church to control and exclude people.

[@leviskinner8153]

I wish my mom would have seen your videos,or understood that the religion thing was all bullshit, she's dead now so,oh well

[@timmygibsonkc]

Sorry to hear that. My bio dad has passed, it's tough to lose family.

[@carolebingham7262]

Hi Timmy what do u think of ceasars Messiah by Joseph atwill

[@timmygibsonkc]

Not familiar with Ceasars Messiah by Joseph Atwill.

[@clarencehammer3556]

I wondered if you still liked the old hymns. They are good music even if you don’t believe the lyrics.

[@timmygibsonkc]

I do honestly! I will ever so often listen to worship music. Call me weird, but I listen with a whole new mindset.

[@clarencehammer3556]

@@timmygibsonkc I think it’s good music. I am not a fan of Contemporary Christian Music though.

[@lorenanders702]

​@@timmygibsonkcas George Carlin said, the only good thing to come out of religion is the music!

[@markbradford4814]

@@timmygibsonkc You're not weird. When the fam is asleep and I am all alone, I sneak out my favorite my Oral Roberts Crusades tapes and git blessed!!! It's just me, Oral and the popcorn. Warms my soul............

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@markbradford4814 😂

[@claref7219]

You're very funny. I feel like I've known you a long time. Sometimes you could tighten up a bit by not repeating yourself so much. Wondering too did you have all those tattoos as a pastor? I don't think my former church would have allowed that.

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@claref7219 I had a lot of Tattoos even as a pastor, but I have more now. 😂

[@RamonaRayTodosSantosBCS]

there is a doctor whome I met here in Mexic, he treats people who are homosexual. According to him. We all have magnectic hemospheres. all of us,. and people who are gay, their hemosphers are reveresed. He can reverse it. He treated me for severe psorisis. He was hosted by the nuns in our town. Unfortunately he was run out of town by the local doctors. lol but it explains why people are born this way. My first cousin is gay, he was like this ever since we were children. I tell people about him all the time. I knew he was different when I was 9 years old.

[@luvyatubers]

I love the word Athiest

[@timmygibsonkc]

I am sure I will eventually!

[@totonow6955]

Love all Timmy's work. I have to disagree? maybe too strong a word. In light of Project 2025, the Heritage Foundation, Opus Dei, Project 47 etc. it is not acceptable to vote Republican. If any of you haven't had time to look into these imminent threats please check into it before voting.

[@guymerritt4860]

And my alternative is Kamala Harris who will perpetuate a ton of wars and possible bring an end to civilization. You should "check into" the fact that the Democratic Party got taken over, about 40 years ago, by neocons and The Pentagon - that's not a goody conspiracy theory, it's demonstrable. I would not vote for anybody this year. Trump's a screwball who will never help the working poor and Harris and her gang are determined to push Ukraine into NATO and get us all killed.

[@ultrasignificantfootnote3378]

As christianity will probably deminish , the christian communities will also deminish, will this mean society will become even more individualistic ?

[@markbradford4814]

Who knows for sure? Christianity is on a down swing, right? Yes it is. Who knows with any certainty. Maybe the faithful will be found at Starbucks on a Sunday morning. Many church buildings set idle for days, waiting for Sunday. Go figure..,

[@christophergibson7155]

It's never going to happen. Jesus will build His church and the gates of Hades will not previal against it. (Matthew 16:18b)

[@ultrasignificantfootnote3378]

@@christophergibson7155 But Christians don't agree what the gates of Hades means so it's useless.

[@christophergibson7155]

@@ultrasignificantfootnote3378 It does not matter. What does The Holy Bible say that "Hades" means? Jesus tells us clearly in the story of the rich man and Lazarus. Hades (Koine Greek) is the "Sheol" (Hebrew) of the Old Testament. The place of the souls of the departed dead. Sheol had two chambers in the O.T. The upper chamber was "Abraham's Bosom" the place of the departed righteous ones of God. And the lower chamber was "Hades" the place of the departed ungodly ones. Read the story in Luke 16:19-31 to see this.

[@Jc_Melodie]

Jesus loves you bro

[@CyclopsAvenue]

Are you monetized yet, just curious?

[@timmygibsonkc]

When you hit 1,000 subs you become monetized. Plus there were a couple other requirements that I did qualify.

[@isaquemartins8684]

I heard somewhere form a scholar of religion: Buddhism, etc is not a religion acording to western concepts of what is a religion. I would guess in western world, the relation from westerners with Buddhism is religious. Because of the cultural background.

[@RobertGraziose]

How did the people in your church think about your numerous tattoos?? Did they give you a hard time? Not trying to be nosey or anything just curious.

[@Abraxun]

Church was boring.

[@georgekrats2573]

maybe you are boring

[@Abraxun]

Good one.

[@StephenSinclair-d6n]

Open question. Is the 'belief' or 'faith' professed by religious people really a kind of votive offering?...are the deliberately trying to 'offer up' a professed belief in ridiculous things? Things they know to be false?....to get the rewards?

[@christophergibson7155]

I can say assuredly...NO. Try meditating (considering) this: "Now faith is the assurance (title deed, confirmation) of things hoped for (divinely guaranteed), and the evidence of things not seen [the conviction of their reality-faith comprehends as fact what cannot be experienced by the physical senses]." (Hebrews 11:1 Amplified Version)

[@jamesgossweiler1349]

Nothing will separate me from Christ.

[@timmygibsonkc]

... and I would never try.

[@buc701]

Wah wah wah

[@barbarasmith2693]

Question: when you were a pastor of your own church, did you ever tell (or imply to) your flock who they ought to vote for? I'm an agnostic atheist. The majority of the people in my area profess to be Christian/Religious/spiritual and I can certainly be friendly with them. *But beliefs inform actions.* If the same person I am friendly with in my neighborhood puts up a sign in their front yard supporting a particular political candidate I don't support (think: a large, orange, hate filled, would-be Mussolini type) who's supporters would just love to see me and mine with less rights and protections under the law, I reserve the right to stop being so friendly. If you feel that that's childish, so be it. I think it's naive and childish to pretend that political belief should be ignored. Again, belief informs actions. The Evangelicals supported the afore mentioned hate filled, would-be Mussolini candidate. I'm going to be salty about that for quite a while.

[@timmygibsonkc]

No. I stayed clear of politics!

[@aleguitarra]

so how old are you? 55? Born again with 7, 48 as a christian?? Turn pastor with 25? very intersting indeed

[@timmygibsonkc]

I became a part time youth pastor in 1989 in Springfield, MO at Grace Church ... so technically I've been preaching for 35 years ... but my first 5 years I don't count since it was PT... I graduated Bible College in 1994 and began preaching on a regular weekly basis. It's been a journey.

[@aleguitarra]

@@timmygibsonkc thank you for your answer

[@Plethorality]

Theu take the bible as literally true... In English. Explain sonething different from original languages, they suddenly get offended. Ugh. So frustrating.

[@alohaohana901]

Do you think Mike Winger is legit or is he just too invested at this point?

[@richardwalters9249]

Logically speaking .... if there really s such a thing as a "real Chrisitan" (you know, a person who has been given the Holy Spirit by the Creator of the Universe, adopted into the family of God, someone that God has committed Himself to as a result of knowing their heart (see last version in John), someone who belongs to God, who has been redeemed by the blood of Christ, etc ...) then you need to acknowledge that if THAT kind of a Christian exists - that you were never one of "those" people, ever. Still, I will concede that if THAT kind of "reality of being a Christian" does not exist (worded for your benefit). If that is the case, then ... it would be okay for you to say that you used to be one of "those" people. Just being objective, and logical ... In other words, there's the possibility you were right, but then again, there's the possibility you're also incorrect as well.

[@timmygibsonkc]

Wrong.

[@richardwalters9249]

@@timmygibsonkc gotcha ... so there is no such thing as anyone at all being a "real Chrisitan" - (as defined by the Bible's definition ). THAT kind of a Christian doesnt exist because God doesn't exist. Okay ... I'm with you now. And you KNOW this because ???? .... (this is the part where I'm losing you a little ... the only way you could KNOW this for fact ... would be if you had God-like knowledge.)

[@markbradford4814]

@@timmygibsonkc Love the reply. Straight on. Thank you.

[@clarencehammer3556]

I don’t know what the problem is but the video keeps pausing.

[@timmygibsonkc]

hmmm

[@markbradford4814]

It's a holy spirit "rest". Not a pausing. Turn your device off then restart.

[@docforest4851]

I find it weird to be asked if I am an atheist. Atheist is a weird word because we are all born without a sense of God. It is our default position. Someone had to teach us. Or we had to deduce some kind of God from looking for meaning through our ignorance. It’s better to ask, have you been indoctrinated into a religion yet?

[@7071.5cents]

stop @ 1:17 i am sure i heard Seven years old i myself remembers nothing of seven 14:55 your in Kansas city here i am in the Peg of Canada and would indeed like to get you started on that my first point the people you payed to teach you did not take you back far enough 41:31 believe it funny for fun i memorized a portion of sinners in the hands of an angry God transcript 42:43 ooopppss could be me 1.5 cents just throwing in MERCI FRANCEE

[@egilskallagrimsson2941]

From one heresy to another. Sad.

[@kellhashc]

Rod Parsley is great Timmy.

[@timmygibsonkc]

ha ha ha ha I have a friend who knows Rod Parsley, has stayed in his home and he is NOT what he claims to be! And my friend is a Christian, but told me stories.

[@markbradford4814]

@@timmygibsonkc Not a fan of Parsley in Columbus, Ohio, either. I'm more of a salt and pepper kind of guy lol. Parsley flakes don't do it.

[@kellhashc]

@@timmygibsonkc I don't understand why so many of these Pentecostal minsters adopt such a strange speaking dialect (like Rod).

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@kellhashc I know, it's comical.

[@russellstone9056]

Jesus. Prince of Peace or I did not come to bring peace but a sword?

[@christophergibson7155]

Both

[@Sonoran_Desert_Nomads]

@@russellstone9056 glory, hallelujah! Damn you for getting that hymn stuck in my head.

[@ingenuity296]

You look like "Jesus " 😂

[@timmygibsonkc]

He ha ha ... go to the COMMUNITY section of my youtube channel and see what I actually looked like for a while ... Jesus. Ha ha!

[@lewischave]

Get Peter Hitchens on

[@NEbluefire]

Was your wife on board with the changes? Obviously, I mean whatever wife you had while you were a preacher, and after you started undergoing the change, the one who was with you for that whole part of your life. If there is a new wife, that's a different person. She would've met you under these circumstances as the person you are now.

[@Jc_Melodie]

It's sad that you don't believe in God anymore and all because you grew up in that kind of environment called the pentecostal movement. I'm a christian, but i don't go to church anymore because i believe that my relationship with God and Jesus is more important. I also don't believe in modern prophets and so-called KZbin apostles and those speaking in tongues. What they do is gibberish. I can see you are a good person, and I know that deep inside, you really believe that God really exists, your just hurt because God never answered your prayers or because you never had a real encounter with him. I also grew up in the church, and I became distant from God years ago. Believe me, everything went wrong, so I came back to him. Then, 2 years ago, I had an encounter with Jesus before going to bed, and I heard the audible voice of him, and he told me that he loved me. And I had also had an encounter with demons years before. God does really exist, and you don't need 3:16 a church to really believe in him. I will pray for you so you can come back to him and really, really be born again. Jesus loves you.

[@timmygibsonkc]

Only sad for those who still believe. But wonderful for me and those who no longer believe. Thankful to be free from the myth.

[@roundtheworld2702]

I went and saw Professor Dave about a month ago when you recommended him and I just had made a comment about Google not really being a source and he was as nasty as can be and very disrespectful I wasn’t but he was so he’s turned into something pretty arrogant and nasty

[@timmygibsonkc]

That's unfortunate. I obviously do not know him on a personal level. I just have enjoyed his Science.

[@sachamm]

@@timmygibsonkc Dave's science videos are very neutral in tone, but his debunking stuff is much more in your face.

[@centaur7607]

That's his style. It's not for everyone. It's very entertaining when he tells it like it is, though I wouldn't want to be on the receiving end of it.

[@aleguitarra]

According what I believe i think that if christianity is true, you are saved, even you not believe any more... Will be interesting discover that after death... if there is nothing after, then nothing to see...

[@timmygibsonkc]

@@aleguitarra True!

[@RobertGraziose]

Jesus tells us to love your enemies. But gets to throw his enemies into eternal torment. Another biblical, do as I say not as I do teaching. If Rosavelt turned the other cheek on December 7 1941 we would all be eating sushi and sour kraut for dinner tonight 😋

[@elsablue54]

Timmy check out all the intense info from jonathan kleck its totally true and shocking who we are etc...

[@luminescence7584]

I love the lord with all my heart and he loves me and he’s never stopped loving you.. atheist or no atheist! 🙏🇦🇺he loves you!

[@CharlesVaughn-bm9gq]

How do you know they just weren’t true? Doesn’t “seem” true? Doesn’t “make sense” to you? The Bible is amazingly consistent and much of the prophecy of the IT has come to pass, such as the Medsiah Jesus was born and crucified for our sins and raised (Isaiah). This evidence is how I code to become a believer. Sounds like you were never born again, a new creature in Christ.

[@llma777mawia]

You are interesting.

[@chapmaned24]

So, your JOURNEY to deconstruction just doesn't make sense. STEVE PERRY is JOURNEY, no matter what anyone says, and he said, "DON'T STOP BELIEVING". I'll follow Steve's advice! Sorry, pal.

[@RoseniusChannel]

Respectfully, its odd to me that you say "Oh yeah well..." regarding questions you had about God that you didnt understand, but you seem to swallow all the impossible probabiloties of random scientific theories that somehow caused us to be? You say in other videos that you found "truth" in these theories which, quite frankly, are goofy. Id encourage you to listen to Stephen Meyer and James Tour- two very intelligent scientists. James Tour had Bibke trachings. Im not saying to listen to his Bible teaching, just his scientific videos. Life without a creator is impossible. May your heart be open to change. Sorry you got caught up in some foolish Christian thinking in your past. The Gospel, when understood the way Paul actually taught it, is a wonderful revelation of a wonderful God.

[@Reclaimtherainbow_Gen9]

3:32 “It’s definitely not the word of God” 5:16 “I would call myself agnostic because idk” Don’t you think making videos about something you don’t know is a bit irresponsible? Especially when claiming other things that you do know, like whether or not the Bible is the word of God? Saying it’s not the word of God is assuming that you would know the way in which God would choose to preserve his word. This also assumes that the councils, Church, Pope, etc. are all not appointed means of normative authority by God. A whole lot of assumptions. 8:56 This is one of many examples of you just saying how you “feel”. Why would how you feel matter in relation to whether something is right or not? This channel is literally you just documenting your belief change from a Christian to “agnostic/athiest/science theory believer/etc” while calling aspects of Christianity BS and false, while admitting you don’t really know anything, constantly contradicting yourself like you claim the Bible contradicts itself. A confused person should not be the one teaching.

[@Cablecol]

Your thumbnail is creepy I must say😒.

[@timmygibsonkc]

ha haa hahah

[@mr.g1758]

If God is not there explain the prophecies in the bible. Explain the miracle witnessed by 70,000 ppl at Fatima in 1917. Explain how that Torah Code got encoded in the Hebrew text. You are on the road to perdition.