Why Can’t I Find My Self?

[@lanusik1000]

It took me many years to really see that I am the one I’m looking for. All of a sudden it came - it’s me - and no more struggle. No duality

[@swapnaldubey8162]

How it felt once you realized that you are, if you can describe? I suppose it would bring so much peace and relief

[@candysugar5871]

​​@@swapnaldubey8162in my opinion, the one looking for itself is assuming that it is not itself and look for it. I looked for myself for a long time. Me too, I have had so much headache regarding. We can come back to ourself but we choose to believe words instead of feeling ourself existence. Sadly, It has been like that in my experience. Once you know search is done, obviously we would feel good because as Alan Watts says when you stop hitting your head with hammer, you awaken hahaha. Don't be fooled by my laugh, I have had suffered for nothing. Believe me when I say that.❤

[@stupidvideo101]

I’m jealous! Clearly I’m still caught in subject object thinking 😂

[@auroraaura486]

it is incredible how simple it is and how very complicated we" think" it is

[@chitraisenlightened]

@@auroraaura486 lol. Getting completely enlightened is not simple

[@kennytkh7578]

This is the simplest and hardest thing. You can’t find it but in the midst of finding it suddenly you ll know. It just come and it was so obvious why didn’t I know it all years long.

[@chitraisenlightened]

the chance of getting compelely enlghtened (finding your real self) are slim to none..realizing something about you that never changes is a glimpe ..its your i sense , the i am or the witness conciouness, the presence of god..reflected awareness..

[@jonsmith4669]

SELF is looking through the eyes,hearing through the ears,tasting on the tongue,smelling in the nose, feeling through the skin, reading this. we don't have Being we ARE BEING or SELF....masquerading as a human Being as a personal self.

[@chitraisenlightened]

@@jonsmith4669 that’s wrong thought. The Supreme Self doesnt do anything. It’s not even aware that anything is happening. It’s ajata

[@jonsmith4669]

@@chitraisenlightened From the Kena Upanishad or kenopanishad: Not that which the eye can see, but that whereby the eye can see: know that to be Brahman the eternal, and not what people here adore; Not that which the ear can hear, but that whereby the ear can hear: know that to be Brahman the eternal, and not what people here adore; Not that which speech can illuminate, but that by which speech can be illuminated: know that to be Brahman the eternal, and not what people here adore; Not that which the mind can think, but that whereby the mind can think: know that to be Brahman the eternal, and not what people here adore. The One Power that illumines everything and everyone is indivisible. It is the Ear behind the ears, Mind behind the mind, Speech behind speech, Vital Life behind life. The ears cannot hear it; it is what makes the ears hear. The eyes cannot see it; it is what makes the eyes see. You cannot speak about it; it is what makes you speak. The mind cannot imagine it; it is what makes the mind think. It is different from what all we know; yet it is not known either. Those who feel they know Him know Him not. Those who know that anything amenable to the senses is not Brahman, they know it best. When it is known as the innermost witness of all cognitions, whether sensation, perception or thought, then it is known. One who knows thus reaches immortality. Kena is Sanskrit meaning “by whom”.

[@Verflextundzugenatzt]

I found my way back to this channel ❤ thank you for bringing this message to the world Rupert

[@mulen-x8u]

Thank you! The founder of existentialism Danish philosopher Soren Kierkegaard suggested that the rational and scientific knowledge based on subject object relationships cann't know or even touch our being. For example, if all scientific community will say that Einstein theory of relativity isn't valid and not true tomorrow, I will be surprised but it cann't change my life, my existence, my being. At the same time love, fear, cancer, death can drastically change my life. That's why we can say there are two kind of knowledge: indifferent to my being, and transformative of my being. Awareness of being means always transformation of myself but not indifferent knowledge.

[@ruisoares4515]

Great video Rupert! Thanks for sharing it. Also, thanks for sharing your wisdom.

[@RJGilman1967]

Great analogy. On eyes.

[@TommeeKnocker]

I cannot catch the warmth of the sun, or hold back the time, a special day with those I love so bitter sweet, like golden sand through my fingers, you will be gone as will I, so soon as to be already passed. Presence, our smiles and our love, I must let you go to know you more, let go regret and the heaviness of heart, welcome you with open heart in service to our love, and if you leave me first and I am left alone, I will know this place where we stood in the sun and watched our children play, and I shall take comfort here my love.

[@wokeyleaks]

This was a revealing one for me. Catching glimpses.

[@hemamalinirs1002]

Beautiful ❤🙏🙏🙏

[@sevi4492]

Love you Rupert!! ❤️ You are so sweet & helpful!!

[@parvaji]

We make circles around... and around... and around our SELF for years... and years... Until the ONE VERY MOMENT where we finally STOP. And realize that... 👻 Happy stopping.. and JUST BEING to all who are ready and courageous enough to STOP... 🥰

[@user-fj4pd1zx4s]

So similar to Jung’s individuation process he describes the self as the center of a mandala which we build the elements of our personality on, which we need to break down again to get to return to the self

[@mariabentele7909]

So good! Thank you 💕

[@TimCCambridge]

The " I " that can't, is the same " I " that does.

[@ListenToYourBeing-or2kq]

the word that came was space. But truly, awareness has no quality. All qualities appear in it. The appareances are simply what is felt by the body and met as a result of resting the attention "on" it. even nothing is not awareness, you are also aware of nothing.

[@ayeam5822]

You can't FIND that which you already ARE; you can only BE it. You will never BE that which is sought whilst you are navigating as that which is SEEKING. The experience of being is no-THING. Aum🙏

[@priestbogomil]

Remain very quiet for several years. Quiet the thoughts. Eventually a voice will be heard “blaspheming and cursing you for having been born in a body” that is your SELF.

[@holgerjrgensen2166]

The 'I', is the Only Real Steady Point, in Existence, behind the Motion-Ocean, Stuff-side, physical reality. It is always Here and Now. Even it is 100% immaterial, it has the most objective status, in Existence. Eternity, the Being, the Empty Space*, X1. the 'I', is the Same. Empty Space, means Space-less 'Space'.

[@Ishwayana]

Crystal clear. I see. However I cannot see me. I appear and disappear in an oceans dream. I illuminate an intuitive flow as the here as the oneness among a duality mirror. I embark upon my own realization that I am . Seeing as I see the dream portray as I is an experience as I appear as intuitive duality as myself.

[@grindPracticeBLESSED]

It's because you're looking for it.

[@stupidvideo101]

This

[@movahedmosavi1596]

❤

[@AKA_SIMPLYHUMAN]

Circular, all circular logic. The top monks kept the servant monks in a tail chasing program because they could not allow “everyone” in the club. The enlightened must be served. Provided for. Sitting in silence is too important for self servitude to have to work as well. So, the teachers used paradox and confusing analogy to perpetuate the seeking process. Even to the point it taking many lifetimes to arrive. What a deal for the elite within the monastery.

[@user-hb5qs7sy2v]

You cant see your eyes but in the eyes IS the emediate sense of being Feel the sense of the eyes existance and answer this… is this any different to the sence of being…. It is not… there it is. Its nota central point… its where ever you fell the live sense of existing… and that is not awareness is it

[@user-hb5qs7sy2v]

Awareness of being… actually the awareness is the subject and being is object…all awarenesif…all thought is the subject symbol of the object isnt it?

[@DanielleDiSalvo-ii1hx]

Conscious awareness, the presence of being…is. IMPERSONAL…. You have to take the PERSONAL out of it… Personal: “the is sun in MY face and it’s making ME feel hot” Impersonal: “there is the awareness here of the sun in the face” Do you see the difference? It’s the Self with a capital “S”, not a little s

[@davidrandell2224]

“Nothing at all is justified by being “, Max Stirner: “The Unique and Its Property “, 1844/2017 Landstreicher translation. The “creative nothing “ is STILL as good as it gets. “ No idea has existence, because none is capable of embodiment.” Get on with it!

[@user-hb5qs7sy2v]

Rupert you missed this guys point altogether The heaviness and coldness was very clearly a memory held and felt in the body which the body itself was beginning to heal You managed to distract him from the fact of a deeper meditation coming on of its own volition… the meditation of the body healing itself,…you distracted him into this myth of awareness… you fixation of awareness of awareness is another thought and many meditators get caught in this escape from the body of life into the mystical and remain attached to the apparent being of awareness … i doubt you will be able to understand what I'm saying here but this awareness comes and goes … it is another centre, a modified I... neither of which exist Both are a thought induce experience… First there is sensation which is immediate and self evident and continues whilst the machine is alive and secondly there is the once removed induced experience which we call awareness A sensation is only of itself… there are no objects to the sensation of life, thought or the wordless thought of awareness is required for the subject object experience so all experiences are induced. Awareness is induced but sensation … which this man began with… is not induced, it is always there in the living. Try this, what does it feel like to think factually about something? The what does it feel like to be aware of something? Then what is the felt sensation of your bodily existence like? If you are subtle and even able to directly sense a sensation you will know sensation to be vital, dionamic volatial and of great substance. But awareness like factual thought is a dead indifferent state, awareness is nothing mare than the emanation of the living body that the naive intellectual (spiritualist) Recognise and grab hold of as if it is something separate from and un-reliant on the life of a body to produce its emanation. There is nothing special about it ,, awareness is another separation imagine by those seeking something more. Who then mistake an illuminating radiation from the body, for evidence of what more you seek. I don't expect you will understand this but hopefully the questioner will come back to these sensations arising in the body and be those sensations until they pass leaving being the next sensation and so on… in the immediate sensation is being … awareness is once removed from that.

[@Eid111]

[@DouglasBenjamin-y9b]

Evie Squares

[@user-hb5qs7sy2v]

Your pain is not separate to your wholeness of being Taking people to your notion of their wholeness of being is a separation from and an exclusion of the pain in them which is not a wrongness to separate from but the fact of their current condition which resolves by feeling and healing it in the body You are making a huge mistake when separating their wholeness of being from their felt pain

[@micronda]

I am not an object

[@WalterWallis-e3y]

Dino Inlet

[@esneliamunoz5082]

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[@pilargarcia6724]

🙏🤍💛🧡❤️🩷💜💙🩵💚🤎🩶

[@viveviveka2651]

Where is the self? Any location is another object. Objects appear as if on a screen. But "screen" is another object. Or as holograms taking shape in space. But "space" is another object.

[@davidmickles5012]

Three aspects of being: 1, physical 2, mental (conceptual) 3, awareness When awareness becomes an object it is no longer awareness but is the concept (object) idea or thought called "awareness." It's fine to have the thought, idea or concept of "awareness" but it is only a step of understanding rather than the actual state or "mode" of being aware. Often we mistake the thought of awareness with the state or mode of just being aware. This happens because we are very intellectual animals with these big intellectual brains trying to conceptualize or "grasp" every experience. To bring that mind back into the body (to become whole or "non-dual") means to relax that "grasping" and release the intellect from its need to conceptualize or objectify. Instead of "thinking" about awareness or trying to "see" awareness instead just relax, allow all thoughts to come and go, and just let be as you are. You are ALWAYS aware even when you are not "aware" of being aware. Awareness (aka "consciousness" or "experiencing") is all there is and it's not a thing. Sometimes also, if one has difficulty with this it can help to view "awareness" as a process or a mode of being rather than a "thing" that you are trying to perceive. ❤🙏

[@TheEmptyBeing]

​@davidmickles5012 Awareness is an empty vessel whose foundations have no grounds, until it finds the truth within itself, it remains lost at sea.

[@davidmickles5012]

@@TheEmptyBeing The important thing to remember here is that Rupert is presenting a glimpse of reality. And that glimpse is magnificent. But it is only a glimpse - no matter how many talks you attend or how deeply you understand what he is saying. His words very quickly become concepts, ideas, objects that seem to appear as "what we really want." They are tools however. The real work is bringing the truth of these words into everyday life. And that is where effort comes in. Not the "effort" to grasp the words, meaning or insights, but the effort to rest within the truth that underlies the words and concepts he expresses. It cannot remain just "an idea" that we have or hold onto. And we cannot just "wait" until we understand. We become "whole" and "aware" in our living, in our body-mind, aka, in our BEING. It's not a case of "knowing something" but rather of allowing what/who we really are to be freely expressed as we truly are - as compassion and love in the most non egoistic sense. ❤🙏

[@brianlittrell797]

​@@davidmickles5012 I'm not aware when I'm in deep sleep or when I faint and lose consciousness or get knocked out. I don't remember anything in those states. If I was aware in those states then I would remember being aware in those states. Since I don't remember then I either wasn't aware or I've had my memory wiped.

[@davidmickles5012]

@@brianlittrell797 With no sensed objects available what is there to be aware "of" in those states? And with no objects to be aware "of" how can you say you are not aware?