Why I Disappeared - How Bowie's Advice Changed my Attitude

If you've come here looking for a video that's 100% about Bowie because he's in the thumbnail, I apologise. This video is about a lot of things, Bowie is one of them (although probably the most pivotal). Skip to 9mins in to watch Bowie stuff (albeit without the context)
My KZbin absence explained, and what I learnt about remaining creative in hard times.
Where have I been? Why haven’t I been making videos? Why did someone take legal action against me? And what can we learn from David Bowie to make us more productive and successful in our own work?
00:00 Intro
00:22 Part 1: 'The Tortured Artist' myth
02:06 Part 2: The Letter
04:09 Part 3: Legal Action
07:37 Part 4: Mental Health
09:03 Part 5: Attitude - What Bowie taught me
All music made by me.
Music at the start is my version of Henry Purcell's Music for the Funeral of Queen Mary
(this was written in 1695 and the composition is therefore in the public domain. Can someone please explain this to KZbin's copyright bots?)
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[@jamiewindsor]

I’m overwhelmed by all the lovely comments of support. Thank you all so much. Thank you to those of you who have suggested a GoFundMe page for medical bills, but I live in the UK so I don’t have medical bills (NHS). I’m not going to name the photographer who instigated legal action. While she caused me a lot of mental anguish, I don’t want to put her in any position where she’s victimised. There’s two sides to every story and kindness is always the only productive way forward.

[@jeffreythemeditator]

Jamie your work has really changed my life.

[@Ben_______x]

❤

[@lanceevans1689]

When I saw 2 replies to your post, I was hoping one of them was you saying, "Oh screw it! Her name is Blah-Blah-Blah!" lol I hired an intern/associate photog for my studio some years back. And included some of his shots on our website. Only to be contacted by another photog claiming one shot was his. This turned out to be the truth and of course I had to let go of the young associate, and I immediately took down the photo. Regardless the man that shot and owned it wanted thousands to be paid, even though I took it right down. I've seen my work used and requested a take down/cure. If it was acted upon in the next week or so, I always felt life goes on, what more can you ask. Well, this guy was asking for more and I just told him to f-himself. Wanna sue me, go at. He circled back once again, but it died out. His court costs would be higher than what he could win.

[@jeroenfigee]

Wow! amazing video. Important video. . I wish there was a fund where everyone who've seen this video put some money in so at the end you got some of it back if not all of it. 🙂 I remember there was a KZbin knob that some accounts have, so you can leave a tip. . Thumbs up + subscribed.

[@debbiedrawsfunny]

Wishing all the very best and thank you for putting out this video. I definitely needed to hear this❤

[@johnwindsor3771]

Jamie, as your dad I’m so proud of you. It takes guts to put this out, and I’m glad your supporters now realise the challenges you face. You are rightly loved and admired by so many. We will get there together ❤️

[@andrewbaxter9395]

Mr Windsor it is every Dads worse nightmare to see their children not ok. I wish Jamie the best for a full and speedy recovery when the time comes but also you too, your comment made me happy for Jamie to know he has someone in his corner with him to face into this test.

[@johnwindsor3771]

@@andrewbaxter9395 thank you! Jamie has also supported his autistic brother through a recent liver transplant (he has the same condition) so it’s not been an easy time. I do so appreciate all the lovely comments here

[@cyclonasaurusrex1525]

John: As a father, I was moved to tears by your expression of love for your son. Well done, sir.

[@djentlover]

It's clear where Jamie got his kindness and compassion from. This kind of parenthood is it.

[@urypodoler6382]

Your son is an inspiration, John ❤

[@GreenhornPhototaker]

1) You could upload once per year and you would still be my favorite KZbinr 2) I really hope your health improves, we will be thinking of you and sending you well wishes 3) David Bowie is a genious :)

[@jamiewindsor]

Thank you.

[@debrachambers1304]

*genius

[@111...]

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[@szymonbaranowski8184]

Bowie was also a complete weirdo and he looked like an alien 🤯🤯🤯 but had great songs no doubt

[@SmokeandSpirit]

@@szymonbaranowski8184The best people in your life always are.

[@margaretmcglynn5077]

When I was sick with cancer and convinced I was dying, Blackstar, the album he wrote while he knew he was dying, was one of the only things that made me feel understood. Dying is lonely and terrifying beyond words. No matter how much people around you love you, they don't, and can't, get what it's like. Blackstar said to me, "Yes this path is dark, but this is also a spiritual path toward understanding the whole of life." Clean scans for me for nearly 3 years now, but I'll never forget the way Bowie helped me understand death, to the degree that I, or anyone, can understand, before they walk through that secret door. Also, Jamie, what you went through, that must have been so incredibly painful. Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope it feels better now that you have put the fruits of your experience out into the world. Damn the folks who prey on others. And at the same time, as I was recovering myself, it helped to hear from wise artists this truth: that everything seems to happen to us, until we realize it is happening FOR us.

[@jarikarppinen]

I am diagnosed with depression. Sometimes when everything is falling apart and life sucks, I "do". I take my camera and I take pictures. I don't "create", I just "do". Somehow it keeps me going. After a while (or after a longer period of time) I can "create" again instead of "doing" and enjoy it again. We are all different, and I hope you find your way of surviving. As long as you are breathing there is hope of something better.

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[@batintheattic7293]

There's a ledge below the ledge below 'creating', though. You forgot to mention 'being'. Even if you've been knocked off 'creating' - if you loose your footing on 'doing' then 'being' is still there. In many ways - the best creation comes from the 'being' ledge. Perhaps we should stop trying to climb back up. If we get stuck on the 'being' level, and we're huddled against the cliff wall because there appears to be nothing now between us and oblivion, it might not be such a terrible idea to decide to stay there. Stay there. Be. And if the people safely on the sand, way down below, want to collect up all the bits you dislodge while you're scratching 'I WAS HERE' on the rock face (and make a profit on them - I presume) then so be it. Never forget why you like it. There's no urgent need to climb closer to being pushed off again.

[@batintheattic7293]

'Striving' is a vicious ****.

[@szymonbaranowski8184]

maybe people should start eating like humans and fixing all deficiencies poor diet of parents translates in poor development of children deficiencies in B vitamins and vitamin D in blood destroys sleep and creates dusfunction of brain eating right amounts of balanced proteins also makes a big difference eggs meat fish seafood is like essential to build body and regain sanity most of people didn't get born broken but many did still proper rebuilding can fix a lot biggest thing is to get rid of plastic microplastic from surroundings these problems never existed in nature!!!

[@naturalnashuan]

@@szymonbaranowski8184 Did you write this in the correct video? This one has nothing to do with eating.

[@pdbass]

"You create so you can feel like your true self again" YES! It's why we do this. Thank you for this video!!!!

[@lithrean739]

This hit me unexpectedly hard when I heard it. Such a good line.

[@davidjazay9248]

Bowie is the best teacher, and his open-minded, fearless generosity in sharing his process was possibly his greatest gift to us.

[@macronencer]

Hello Jamie - I've never watched your channel before but the algorithm served me this video today and I clicked on it because it looked like something I needed to watch. I've been struggling with creative motivation recently, and one reason is that I've had a few health worries (relatively minor in my case), so it was interesting to discover that was a big part of your message. You've done a wonderful thing deciding to share all this. The video is incredibly well made and engaging, and your closing comments are particularly welcome and useful. I'm so sorry for what you've been through and I hope you get a successful outcome. I wish you the very best.

[@billyalarie929]

Every word of this

[@ElizabethEllenCarter]

Hear, hear. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It's very much helped me today too.

[@trev.takes.photos]

Jesus Jamie. So sorry for all this hell you've been going through. Your attitude still being so positive is a testament to your good character. Let us know if you start a go fund me for any medical bills or legal fees. Hang in there!

[@jamiewindsor]

Thank you. I've put the legal thing behind me now and luckily I'm in the UK so we don't have medical bills here. I'm just trying to channel Bowie and keep creating for now.

[@ricktwice2205]

Oh mate... so sorry just a hug for you and Thanks for sharing All the good for your future!

[@andrewgifford7740]

Was just going to ask the same thing.

[@Barrrt]

I'd love to donate 10 euro somewhere just to show appreciation for your amazing art. I'm only at 2/3 of the video and the animation quality touches me and amazes me.

[@noOnionswithoutTears]

OMG Bowie's "Black Star" is such a huge inspiration for me. To put all of that in his last album was just the greatest gift to the world. Thanks for this video. Just got out of hospital two weeks ago.

[@violimo]

It's one of the great works of art. Genius.

[@debless9572]

My father survived a liver transplant in his 70s. I have faith you will be fine. Sending hugs and positive energy your way.

[@FTropper]

I think especially in times like these, where it feels like everything goes down the drain and life feels pointless we need artist doing creative work and bring back color and joy in our lifes. ❤

[@Vincent.Morreale]

You are the reason why I started working in photography and in the arts. Thank you for everything Jamie !

[@jamiewindsor]

Wow. I'm glad you were able to find inspiration from my videos.

[@Vincent.Morreale]

@@jamiewindsor I find everything in your work, I often oriente towards your channel when I give classes (please dont sue me). From your presets to your video essay on mobile photography, I think we should compile your channel and do a book 🥰

[@JanneWolterbeek]

As a designer, and generally very visual person, I must say the graphics and animation here are STUNNING. What a pleasure to watch! In other news: in 2012 I have been diagnosed with depression after a clinical burnout. As a creative, this can be limiting at times. This video, just popped up in my recommendations out of nowhere, is truly valuable to me, and a reminder to carry on in difficult times. Creative output makes me happy and ignites in me a stronger will to live. Thank you for sharing this with the world, it’s truly valuable. I hope things will go better for you soon. Stay creative! Also, I subbed immediately, this must be my kind of channel! ❤

[@ezmepetersen2503]

I didn't know what to expect from the title but I'm so glad I clicked. It was a privilege to listen to your story and the lessons you took from the situation. Stay well, do what you have just said, post as and when you feel you have something you want to share but above all know that we all appreciate the time and effort it takes to give us of your creativity as a gift.

[@timshields8720]

Mate - I went down your rabbit hole just a few days ago and BY FAR you have some of the most thought provoking, well put together and inspirational content on KZbin. It is obvious you put alot of hard work into your videos and I can assure you it is touching other people so THANK YOU (all the way from New Zealand 🇳🇿 ❤)

[@mariond1204]

Starting treatment tomorrow for de novo stage 4 breast cancer, Bowie was my first crush, and love your channel, what a winning combo of things to hear. Wishing you the best in your treatment plan. Thank you for putting all this into words.

[@insomnia224]

Good luck with your treatment! Take each day at a time and don’t worry about the what might be and what could be, just focus on the now and you will get through it. Started my journey last year.

[@daveincork]

Best of luck Marion, my sister-in-law is currently going through breast cancer too. Wishing you a speedy recovery!

[@tcrijwanachoudhury]

He was mine too, stay strong love ♡

[@michael195b]

Huge respect for posting this video and the mental health issues you've addressed in it. Ive always advocated getting help if you need it.

[@LoriGraceTheLittleWitch]

" Make art because you have the desire and drive to. " Thanks for the advice today!

[@timallenphotogram]

Firstly Jamie I hope things improve for you and the transplant happens soon. Secondly, this video is an absolute work of art and I hope you know that. Everything from the animation to the style to the voiceover is just a thing of beauty. I look forward to your next video, whenever that may be, your work is always worth waiting for. Best wishes to you.

[@anewcleardawn]

Truly appreciate the time and effort you've put into each and every one of your videos. Know that you've inspired myself, and thousands upon thousands of others. Keep shinning 🙂

[@thomashecht71]

You‘re a brilliant artist and storyteller, an inspiration. That you you had to go through this makes me angy and sad. All the best to you. And like others said: whatever you post and whenever, we all will be patiently waiting here until it‘s ready. Until you‘re ready.

[@teocrawford]

So good to see/hear from you Jamie! I’m truly sorry about these terrible conditions that you have come under, it sounds horrible. I admire the strength you have to push through the way you did. And as many have written, no matter how often or seldom you upload, we’re here to see what you make!☺️

[@bettinabauch6688]

You have my great respect for holding your head high during these tough times. I wish you all the best!

[@andrewowen-price4496]

Welcome back Jamie! ... we've missed you. I had a dance with a type of liver cancer a few years ago and the medical folks told me that having a positive attitude was the best help I could give myself. You make work that brings enlightenment and education to thousands of people - those copyright trolls bring no benefit to the world whatsoever. I hope that karma is listening. Stay well and keep doing what you want to do.

[@jamiewindsor]

Sorry to hear about your health. A positive attitude is definitely the way to go. I'm starting to learn that life is about 20% what happens to us and 80% how we deal with it.

[@andrewowen-price4496]

@@jamiewindsor Thanks for the reply; my health is fine - just an annual scan and fingers crossed. Carpe Diem etc., 71 years old and still more than capable of getting angry about all the injustices in the world today and very determined not to let the bastards grind me down. 😎

[@kubotwostringz7040]

@@jamiewindsor 🙂 I also found this to be the case. On few occasions while watching your videos, I thought about how close you came to the wise and profound... And now I get to watch and hear your "wisest" message so far 😀 ....and it came when life is the most difficult.... I also found this to be true. Hang in there, friend, change what you need to change and continue walking. I'll do the same. May you be well 🙏

[@Ruylopez778]

Bowie left us a lot of wisdom in both his interviews and his work. Two things that are perhaps pertinent regarding this video; Bowie's family had a history of mental illness, and it seemed he used writing as a way to ward off his fear of illness and maintain clarity (or control), and it's interesting how he placed himself in different scenarios, different cities to see how it would affect his life, and subsequently his writing, and he had the capacity to examine and explore that - mindfulness, basically. Secondly, when he found himself stuck with a problem in his music, he could often find a way to overcome it through painting instead. I think he lived as a buddhist (as much as we can ever guess his real identity). Wish you the best with your health and channel.

[@jamiewindsor]

He certainly was a very interesting guy with a plethora of wisdom to share.

[@lw8099]

His approach to mental illness in his family is shown in his actions and also Bewlay Brothers, a song about his brother Terry who suffered from mental illness. It’s interesting because it is one of my favorite songs of his, with only one live performance of it (which was funny because he had to read the lyric sheet for it when he did sing it). So interesting how he managed to make a comparison to him and his brother with Terry eventually losing a grip on reality and David himself changing the reality of his persona from album to album.

[@Ruylopez778]

@@lw8099 That's interesting, thanks! I've seen quite a few interviews with Bowie, and I knew he had a difficult relationship with his mother, and concerns about his spiritual and mental state, but watching Moonage Daydream added a lot of perspective (assuming we can ever really know another person or trust what is presented since any material can be edited to imply something different). Bowie was/is such a fascinating artist and person. I wonder how much of the music, performances or interviews are just a facade. Presuming what is in the documentary is taken at face value, it must have had a profound effect on his life and worldview. Perhaps that is kind of the point from a meta perspective; we aren't really invited to know where the public persona starts or ends, or rather we can trick ourselves into believing we do, and so Bowie can be whatever the individual perceives to be most truthful or essential. I would say that in the later years he seemed to be more open and less guarded, but how can we ever know what is sincere about another person, especially one we only see through public appearances. Still, there is plenty of wisdom and vision to enjoy and speculate on.

[@lw8099]

@@Ruylopez778 yeah totally. I feel about the facade, Bowie was truly a servant for art, music and culture. It’s amazing how much awareness he had in his creations and how lost he got into them….whether in persona or drugs. I remember where he had gotten a machine where it would spit out different permutations of words he inputted, just to speed up lyric development to see if anything was there worth using. I’m sure he will refine it of course, but the fact he thought to use it at the time shown how ahead of the times he was. But I truly believe that he had soooo much art and music in him that he was compelled to create. Him being normal and still was the facade.

[@YomsterFUT13]

The whole him going different cities thing is a lovely way to look at how each place brings out a different side of yourself

[@gionatagalloni]

Thank you for having shared all this intimate story and a strong advice for everyone. A big hug, you deserve it. Keep strong and positive!

[@swirly_magnolia]

Hi Jamie, I’m a blind photographer and have troubles everyday due to my eyesight but everyday I say to myself “this won’t beat me” so far I’m winning. Good luck on your journey ❤

[@johnhurn3598]

What an amazing person you are, I've suffered with anxiety for over 5 years now, how you mustered up the courage to put all that's happening to you in such an artistic way is astonishing. We're all different I guess but deep down we all hurt just the same. I'm not sure this short comment helps but I wish you well sir, if ever you need a chat I'm here. Hang in there bud 👍

[@12qwas12as]

I had paralyzing anxiety in my mid thirties. I hope yours leaves you as mine did. And soon.

[@wakamiti]

You're an absolute legend, Jamie. Thanks for making this beautiful video and I hope things get better for you.

[@mammaduck3863]

Thank you, Jamie. I've had such a rough year and spent a lot of time just trying to deal and get through a day. I'm grateful for your story because I needed to know it does get better. I'm sorry you had to deal with such a mess in order to create this piece. Much love.

[@donnathan745]

Best wishes for a speedy recovery and resolution to all troubles. Fantastic heartfelt video, thank you for sharing 😊

[@lunisproductions3614]

Sorry to hear about your struggles. But the way you seem to deal with this is both inspiring and encouraging. I hope you get the call soon. All the best!

[@GarenMeguerian]

Another brilliant piece, Jamie. Your insights are always valuable, whether they concern editing techniques or life's great struggles. Thank you for sharing.

[@user-of6gi5bv5r]

So happy to see you back! I’m not really following many people in here, but what you create and your storytelling is worth more, than you think! Thank you!

[@Eyegazersphoto]

Hi Jamie, thanks for sharing this to us “strangers”. It takes a lot of courage to openly share this kind of thing, both the physical and mental health issues. So THANK YOU. You voice provides a simple approach to these things, simple but powerful. Sending all the best wishes and prayers for the future, and thank you once again for helping me to look again at my own depression and challenges.

[@eyeofalchemy]

We love you, Jamie. Words cannot sum up how many people you inspire, or how much you inspire them. So I will simply say that we love you. Thank you for being you.

[@ericovis]

As an artist, I feel that the main reason I do art is because I need to. It pushes me to overcome my fears, but facing them is not easy or pleasant, however, the final result always cheers me up, regardless of how rubbish it end up being 😂. Great video mate! Glad that the trolls of the real world didn’t break your spirit

[@tahsina.c]

I agree, so well put! I always find it so hard to explain to people but its compulsive- we need to do it!

[@SmokeandSpirit]

It's so great to visually or audibly see whats going on inside. Even if it's ugly sometimes, it's easier to laugh when it's on paper, or cathartic to play it out. Let the beast out to play and it becomes less menacing. lol

[@EdProsser]

What a beautiful film Jamie - humbling to hear you share your thoughts and experiences with your struggles. So sorry to hear you've been through hell and back. This is one of my fav KZbin channels, I don't care if you upload once every two years or once a decade, I'll still be straight back here to watch whenever you're ready.

[@erikhammargren]

Jamie, just want to thank you. Your videos has helped me out so much and I'm also a huge Bowie fan. Not just his music but everything he was and still represent. Sincerely hope things work out.

[@sbai4319]

Thanks so much for this video Jamie. I respect your journey because I am facing my own challenges. This video more than any other recent video from any creator will keep me going. Cheers from Australia 🇦🇺

[@runninblue9415]

Wow. Very honest of you. Hope it goes well for you and yours 🤞 always appreciated your work here 👌

[@rakiytzakari]

Your stories bring us together - People from separate communities, different worlds and walks of life - enriched by the endowment of your creativity and advice. Thank you, I LOVE your work, it’s the nostalgic comfort equivalent of a VHS sliding into a VCR. I pray your body gets what it needs and that a whole bunch of money comes your way. ✊🏾

[@MedlifeCrisis]

What a stunning video. I’ve watched your channel for a long time and am sorry to hear the difficulties you’ve been having, but if the incredible creativity and art in this video are anything to go by, I’m glad you’re doing much better. Hearing Bowie’s words was indeed a real help to me too, thanks for that. I’ve worked in a few London transplant teams and I’ve no doubt you’ll be well looked after and will do great. Best of luck Jamie

[@machinimas2139]

Thank you so much for sharing these ideas and personal experiences with us, I really enjoy your content and the way you always find the most creative way of presenting it. I admire you not only as an artist but as a person, keep on going and we´ll be here always for you :)

[@carolines111]

So happy to hear from you! Sometimes is one day by day!

[@jaburchfield7194]

So sorry to hear about your illness. Please stay hopeful and keep strong. You are a brilliant Artist. Thanks for the update and BEST of LUCK!!

[@lourdesgyan]

We use your videos for photography studies in Ghana. Photography is still developing here, in the sense of craftsmanship and artistry. Thank you for existing Jamie, take your time to heal.

[@CenerCener]

I hope you get better for yourself and your family. And if we can get a great video essay like this, it would be the cherry on top. I would be so happy to watch every one of them repeatedly. Your videos are precious for your audience, and they are well-written and well-executed, with no exception.

[@Luke..luke..luke..]

Always loved your work and I particularly love the content that is specifically commentary on other people's work who you admire or has inspired you. ❤❤❤❤

[@lw8099]

James. I’be only recently happened upon your channel in the past year and am always impressed by your content and candour. This video caught me at a moment where not as medically serious at yours, has left me in a certain mental ditch that I needed to dig myself out of. The comment about how creating things is being yourself just clicked. And while I still might not be creating just yet, I am glad to get motivation to say “What I do now is for me and to take care of me.” I do wish you the best, because what you have done is the best.

[@JeevesTCW]

So sorry to hear you have been going through such a difficult time Jamie, wishing you all the best 🙏🏼🙏🏼

[@AndysImages]

Nice to see you back Jamie, I hope you get your transplant soon and are able to find some inner peace in the meantime. When my cancer reared it’s head again earlier this year I reluctantly put my camera down to focus my energy elsewhere, its ok to not be ok, now I’m back on track I’m slowly feeling my way back into shooting. I think sometimes you just need to be pragmatic about what you have the capacity to do with all that you have to deal with.

[@justinkingery2489]

We love you, Jamie! Best of luck with the transplant. You're wise to look to Bowie for inspiration. We'll be here for you when you're up to it. Look after yourself!

[@polleepops2012]

Jamie, you have taught me so much about my photography and I cannot express how much I love your work and your outlook. I really hope you get a new liver soon. Sending strength!! Keep on moving on.

[@acarrasco]

Jamie, thanks for sharing your wonderful work with us. I hope you can navigate this difficult time and continue enjoying the life with your family. Un abrazo!

[@MeDeeTations]

Hugs Jamie, Creative work is spiritual work. A communication with the Divine and shared with others - that’s what you’ve been doing. Sending you love and prayers 🙏🏻

[@artryanrock]

You're one of those underrated youtubers. I learned a lot from your videos and this one helps me find motivation to go out again and pick up my camera and start shooting again. "create so you can feel like your true self" I hope all your health and legal problems will be solved. Take care of your health and Best wishes

[@1inkedchick]

Thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us, Jamie. You are an amazing creator and very brave for putting this video out. Wishing you nothing but the best in all life is challenging you with. Be well :)

[@markirvine6938]

I wish you a speedy recovery as your video has just kick started mine. My thanks Jamie, and love to you and all creatives. Be well❤

[@joshuaelliff2179]

Very well said Jamie. So sorry to hear about your experience with those greedy fuckers. Karma will get them in the end.

[@jamiewindsor]

It is what it is. I'm trying not to let it eat up any more of my energy.

[@IanLivingstoneMusic]

Jamie, thank you for your piece. It’s very relevant to me, as someone who suffers from crippling anxiety while trying to get through my life and create my own music as a means of therapy & expression. Great work, Jamie. Be proud! ☀️

[@SoukiBelghiti]

Thank you for such an honest share! Sorry to hear you're going through all that, and in awe of how you cope! Thanks for your wonderful work! Sending prayers and love your way...

[@rgarlinyc]

I feel your pain Jamie. I'm presently pretty much similarly affected. I wish you everything you need to slay your dragons.

[@jamiewindsor]

Sorry to hear that. Life can throw some curveballs sometimes, can't it?

[@rgarlinyc]

@@jamiewindsor Thank you, and yes, life can. Batted most of them away so far, thank G_d.

[@captainianr]

Ringing a lot of bells. Why not do a go fund me for the legals? I would be among the first to help. I’m sure a lot of us would.

[@jamiewindsor]

That's very kind of you. It's all finished with now, and I'm saving up again so just trying to move forward. It's nice to know I have support in case it happens again, though.

[@captainianr]

@@jamiewindsor all the very best. I genuinely love your work, I look forward to your videos (and presets!) and look forward to many more.

[@insomnia224]

An utterly brilliant video Jamie, thank you for sharing! This resonates with me and is exactly how I’ve felt the last 18months since my health issues. I hope you get that call any day now for your transplant and I wish you all the best of luck and good health. ❤

[@thwaitey]

I am so sorry that life has been crappy recently and sincerely hope you get well soon and life improves. You are definitely one of my favourite video creators, everything you make is a work of art. Thank you for explaining your absence, you had no need to but hopefully sharing has had some benefits. Wishing you well for the future. Thank you for existing.

[@TL-xw6fh]

You tried to help someone by referencing her work and raising her profile, and she paid you back by trying to screw you! This is a cruel world we live in.

[@jamiewindsor]

What was particularly annoying about it was that the first draft of my video didn't have her work in it. But after watching it back, I felt the video had too many male photographers and I so I swapped out a few references for some critiques of female photographers’ work in order to have better balance of representation in my cited references. Although I'm sure I could do a 'what if' for lots of things. I don't know what her motivation was. Maybe she was going through hard times and needed some income. She refused to respond to me so I guess I'll never know.

[@TL-xw6fh]

@@jamiewindsor Oh dear, I feel so sorry for you. I suspect she signed a contract with the legal company that has a clause prohibiting her from engaging directly with you. However, learn from the past to build for the future. That's what I always tell myself. Keep safe, keep well and keep your chin up, Jamie!

[@dressmaking]

Comment not necessarily directed at @@jamiewindsor, but I was targeted by a copyright troll in 2021. It kicked off a period of deep research. Along the way I encountered so many levels of lawyers and services whose whole business model is to suck up money with the promise of avoiding going to court. It truly felt like scammers all the way down. As far as I could tell, a company called August Image/Global Rights Control (they are far from the only such organization) pitches their service as copyright watchdogs to working photographers. One of the ways that they lure photographers to sign with them is with the promise of recurring "recoup lost licence fees". Then they find websites that have used the images then threaten legal action until the poster relents and pays up. However they aren't a law firm and it's unclear if they actually employ any attorneys. Of course if an attorney had contacted me, I would have been scared af. In my instance, they gave up trying to squeeze money from me when I told them I was thinking of seeking a declaratory judgment of non-infringement in the United States District Court.

[@x100ed]

I hope your health issues get sorted, and soon. The fact that you have made ANY vieeo while all of this has been going on is brilliant, the fact that you made THIS video stands to the type of person you are, and your dad is rightly proud! You took the time to explain where you were (even tough you never have to) what had happened, what still needs to happen and even though you have had so much on your own plate you think of others and what they may be going through. I hope that this becomes one of your most watched videos and that great things happen for you! Thanks for sharing.

[@AlejandroRVfoto]

It is very good to see and listen you again Jamie, even in your bad times (that I'm very sorry) it is good to know about you. You are one of the few people in YT that give value to the network, your thoughts and reflections add so much richness to ourselves thoughts about Art and photography so, thank so much for being such a positive light in this gray web world. A big hug for you!

[@bilalayan]

Jamie, i hope you get well asap and continue to be source of inspiration for many as always. ❤

[@OctaviaOG]

really needed to hear this framed in this manner. thank you! i wish you all the best with your health.

[@mrtrek2117]

Incredible! Thank you for this. I wish you the best of health. I'm 5 months in to what is looking like a successful KZbin channel but your words are gold. It's so easy to slowly get caught up in the vibe of having to produce all the time until it all just becomes a job, a must do. Today is sunday and I feel low, but I'm just going to allow it and do absolutely nothing but sit on the sofa and stare out of the window. I truly wish you the best and thank you for your sharing and your wisdom!

[@TheXBoy5]

Great to see quality content on KZbin. I've been looking for something thought-provoking for a while now. Thank you.

[@ItamarDor-On]

Jamie, I seldomly write youtube comments but I felt that this has to be an exception. I’ve been following you for years and have always loved you and your videos, they’re always so professional, thorough, informative and intelligent and you always exude calm, reassurance and nobility and that is why you are one my favorite youtubers! I was just recently thinking how I miss watching a new video because it’s always such a delight. So thank you for the update and the courage to be so open and upfront about your difficulties, I’m glad to know that you’re better now. I wish I could thank you in person and give you a hug. Hope to see another video soon but no pressure 😉

[@tommilam6320]

Speechless. Jamie, I am so sorry you been thru so much. You’ve always stood to me as a great Designer, but more importantly a great human being. All the best thoughts to you, peace.

[@Roasty83]

Thanks for sharing. Great to have you back!

[@jacksonianc]

So good to see more content from you Jamie. The quality of your work speaks for itself, best to you and your family.

[@susanac4099]

Absolutely inspiring! Your communication skills through visuals are amazing. I hope you get better soon. You deserve it and the world needs you!

[@Doeboy]

Thank you - I expected a cute little lifehack type of thing but it was much deeper and more significant, and for me, hit the nail on the head. Very glad I clicked, excited to watch more

[@iainolivier7960]

We love you Jamie! Don't stop creating, your work is 🔥 so glad you're back :)

[@neronarancia1090]

Thank you a lot for the wisdom here. First off, I truly wished for your current life and health to be even better and I think it will, because a lot of people here are supporting and wishing you all the best. For quite a while, I couldn't get that desire, drive, or feel for being creative. There are stuff that I wanna do more but I somehow can't and it drives me insane but with your wisdom of being creative because I have the drive and need for it myself without others' expectations helped me to better forgive myself in such a case. Although we still need to meet the expectations of people in our jobs or lives, it is important to not let it drive or cover our lives and define our creativity solely on expectations.

[@entoptik]

Thank you for sharing and pushing through!!! I was in a very similar situation. Although terrifying something about the encounter with death is freeing and breaks apart all the non sense we take so serious. The strength/perspective you will gain having gone through this experience is priceless and can only be gained through the experience. Thanks for the reminder. Cheers!

[@adryrojas7113]

Big hugh Jamie! I’m glad you are back, you will be in my prays. For now enjoy the creative process, sharing your passions and knowledge brings happiness which BTW we all appreciate both the learning but, overall knowing you do something that you like. Thank you so much for sharing!

[@sergeykozyr5059]

We love your work in instagram and KZbin. But we even more love knowing that you are healthy and happy with your family.

[@12qwas12as]

Grateful for your work, your creativity, your insight. And your humanity. So many things that resonate. So many insights. I wish you health, calm, happiness. Thank you, Jamie!

[@kenkadow3616]

Thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts with us. Hope you're ok and getting better.

[@carlpalmer6095]

So pleased you uploaded this video Jamie. I really hope you soon get your good health pal. This video has helped me today as I suffer mental health issue's that has stopped me from picking up my camera and being creative for most of this year, but tomorrow I will go out with my camera in hand because of this video. Looking forward to your next video too what ever it may be and when ever you feel like producing it, always so informative. Thank you.

[@e.static_studio]

Truly appreciate you Jamie! Best of luck with health, stay well and thank you for doing this 🙏🏼😊

[@mortensvideoer]

Thank you for your thoughtful and warm videos. I always look forward to watching them. Good luck with your health and future creativity. Best wishes from Norway 🇳🇴

[@HiLoveLeighs]

Wow, powerful message and very much needed. Wishing for your recovery and recuperation in all areas, and keep up the good work : ).

[@eloranelson]

You're an inspiration! Thank you for this, and am so looking forward to diving into more of your incredible catalog. Sending love (and a little money) to help you along the way!

[@jamiewindsor]

Thank you so much.

[@MRSEDDERS]

Hey Jamie. Thank you for all your work. This one speaks a lot to me and my own situation right now. I get a lot out of your video's, they really help me in my creative endeavours. Sounds like you've had more that enough to deal with and the most important thing is you and your health. Wishing you all the best for your recovery and continued improving wellbeing.

[@sherrimusic9172]

I've been going through a really stressful time and this video came at the right time. Thank you so much ❤

[@dukestreetking5094]

I'm not sure how I came across this but there is such truth in yours and David Bowies word. Do it because you want to, and do it how you want to. That's were your true soul and originality shine through. I wish you all the very best with your art and your future health. I admire your resilience and hope through your very trying times. All the very best Jamie, take care

[@patmcdonnell7784]

sending much love Jamie. I cant imagine any of what you are going thru, hang in there.

[@tcruzdesign]

You managed to depress me and inspire me at the same time. Thanks for all your insights, they are truly helpful. Wishing you well on your future surgery and recovery.

[@adamjohnson3656]

Sorry to hear about the struggles, and also glad to hear that you've found / are finding a way through. These are certainly some challenges to overcome, and also, some opportunities to make art to understand them and yourself. Or not...no need to pile pressure on yourself when maybe the best thing to do is just be. I love that Bowie quote. It's the first time I've heard it, and it literally made me tear up. I think I've always known this, but somewhere along the line forgot it and so let my creative work lapse or go fallow because it's neither seen nor appreciated. That thing about manifesting that something in yourself which lets you better understand yourself and how you coexist with the rest of society. This, to me, seems the true purpose of creativity. If others connect with that and you become "seen", wonderful, if they don't, wonderful. Thank you for your vulnerability in sharing

[@eoblong]

I cannot begin to express how much I needed to watch/hear this at this moment. I really hope you soon get to the best possible health you can. Best wishes from here. Thanks for such a great video again.

[@michaelgreenhough3132]

Jamie, so sorry to hear that you have had to face these scary and frustrating challenges. I would like you to know that I have always highly regarded your posts and often referenced them to my A level photography classes. It makes me so disappointed that someone would seek to target someone like yourself. Thank you Jamie for producing this informative, wholesome and honest work. (And graphically sweet!).