Why I Dropped out of High School...

[@princesslulu5795]

This story made me cry. I am fortunate enough I don't have any chronic disabilities, but I was bullied pretty severely throughout school, mostly in middle school and high school. My parents and the administration had to get involved multiple times. I have severe ADHD which not only affects schoolwork and stuff like that, but also social skills. I constantly forget things or screw up even small tasks if overwhelmed. I find myself talking way too much and interrupting all the time which tends to annoy people you don't know well, so people just didnt like me. I was able to graduate high school and go to college, but it wasn't easy by any means. I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this Becca. It's bad enough that peers were awful but even staff? That is just ridiculous. Don't ever let someone make you think going to community college is a bad thing. Anyone who believes that is just ignorant. You got your GED (some people don't even try or can't do it) and got in to college. You have a KZbin channel that has reached thousands of people and have educated and provided support to so many people. That's something to be proud of. Anyway I don't know if this will help but have you tried looking for scholarships to help fund tuition? Maybe some for grades (if your previous community college grades were good?) or for disabilities? Another idea is setting up a gofundme as long as it doesn't violate the terms of the disability assistance you're on (some programs might try to count it as income but I'm not sure). I don't know how big your social media presence is but if you were able to do something like that I would give you some money. I don't have much but I would love to help any way I can, and I'm sure others out there would too. Again I'm sorry if my suggestions don't help you, but I felt I should at least try. Hope you have a good day:)

[@BijoubyBecca]

PrincessLuLu I’m really sorry you have dealt with ADHD, my brother has it and I see the way it has effected his schooling and relationships. I must be very frustrating.. as for funding college, I looked and I am not eligible for any type of grant/scholarship or loan. I also would prefer not to start a go fund me because I think there are more important things in the world money should go towards than an education for myself 😊 but thank you for the suggestions and thank you for watching!💕

[@SpydersByte]

@Dizzyallaround you should definitely look into a GoFundMe campaign, that's the first thing that popped into my mind as well. People make them for all kinds of issues and many of them are extremely dumb and/or petty. Getting yourself an education is *more* than reasonable enough to start a campaign, and I think with your subscribers it would probably be successful.

[@בןדוד-ג5ק]

Hello, do you have a personal relationship with our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ? The Son of God. That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. - Romans 10:9. And please ask the Lord Jesus to bless you with wisdom, knowledge, understanding, and discernment. Please ask the Lord Jesus to strengthen you to overcome all of your trials and tribulations. And please ask the Lord Jesus to forgive you for all of your sins and transgressions.

[@loganconnor7122]

I want to thank you for your videos. I found you while been a student at the University of Central Florida. I did a paper on how young people share their experiences with illnesses on social media and your video from the hospital was the central theme of my paper. Now I have a degree in sociology. Videos like yours are priceless to social researchers, you have no idea how many academic are doing research about videos like this. Do not worry about college. You are young and most public universities now offer degrees online that you can attend from home. Even Harvard offers masters degrees thru distance learning. Money will come to you. You have friends. You have fans. We will gladly collect for you to make your dreams come thru. Keep the hope and be strong.

[@BijoubyBecca]

Logan Connor Wow! Thank you for sharing Logan! It’s good to know that my videos can help some people. Congratulations on your degree! It’s seriously so true that a degree is a degree no matter what school and people tend to forget that. You should never go broke trying to prove a point by going to an expensive school. I got a free ride when I went to community college while I had one peer spend 20k out of pocket for one year not including dorms! Thanks for the insight!😊

[@taylorandgraphite4772]

You should look into getting a service dog, they are very helpful for people with chronic illnesses and mental illnesses.

[@reneestorm1375]

Girl I feel you. In high school I had a lot of physical and mental disabilities as well. I have a disorder called aplastic anemia that I am extremely tired, have no energy, get rashes and in pain sometimes because my blood doesn't produce itself properly. I was also severely depressed and diagnosed with psychosis and anxiety in grade 10. Spend a lot of time in hospitals and I eventually gave up on trying so I barely passed with B's and C's with effort. I feel you with teachers getting frustrated with you and managers threatening to fire you even if you had medical excuses. I made it through school and I made it through a cosmetology program just barely as well. I have the diseases under control for the most part and I work almost 40 hours a week. It's never easy and days are hell but I get through it. I am 22 and still live at home. I am proud of ya for working so hard despite everything you had to go through.

[@BijoubyBecca]

renee storm wow! I have heard about aplastic anemia and how serious it is. I was looking into doing a cosmetology vocational school for senior year for a while but they ended up having stricter attendance rules than my HS. I am happy that you have reached a more stable state! Thank you! Keep on keeping on!😊💪

[@musicgirlM17]

I was homeschooled from kindergarten to 12 grade. I have EDS 3. I attempted community college and took an English class to start with. After two days I ended up in the ER with extreme lightheadedness and my blood pressure and heart rate going crazy. POTS really seems to hate college 🙄😩 I’m five months out from a 9 vertebrae spinal fusion, not where I thought I’d be... Thank you for sharing this! I don’t feel so alone anymore!💞💖💕✨

[@BijoubyBecca]

Melissa K wow EDS 3 & POTS! All you can say is that at least you tried and that you are trying everyday and sometimes that just means taking care of yourself! :)

[@musicgirlM17]

Dizzyallaround Yeah I got kinda smacked in the face at the same time! 😂 Yes, trying and taking care of ourselves is all that counts❤️ 👍🏻

[@bryanwillauer4485]

I think what you did, and what you are doing is great. You have accomplished a lot doing it the way that you thought was best for you.

[@BijoubyBecca]

Bryan Willauer thank you Bryan! 😊

[@jodyhoward8480]

We all walk our own paths. You have been dealt a very tough hand but I admire your strength and resilience. You have a knack for telling a story. Why not think about writing? You are clearly intelligent and beautiful (you remind me of a lead actress on "The Bold Ones,"). Don't let anyone make you feel less than the very special woman you are. You have to do what is right for you and live up to your own expectations, and not worry about others. (Easier said than done, but I think you can do it!) All the best.

[@TheTodd5761]

Just stumbled acrossed your videos. You have more strength and optimism than I'll ever have. Youre so truly inspiring. I recently had a bout with cancer and I can relate to so much of what you've talked about in your videos. I couldn't stop watching them. You seem like such a beautiful person inside and out and I hope you're doing well. I see it's been a year since this video. Give us an update girl 🙂

[@shennel7304]

Wow this is madness, I know what it's like to be chronically ill, I was born with oesophagitis, gastritis, relapsing chronic pancreatitis, I had my gallbladder out when I was 14, I have a hiatus hernia which means my stomach is in my chest, I've had IBS all my life but recently well about 2years it's been 10x worse, I'm being tested for celiacs and chrones, I know how hard life can be when you have to suffer like this, I'm now 32, my mental health isn't great either, as hard as it was I managed to have a baby, she is now 10, and I live for her, I am also on disability, it's hard but you have to make it work, it's great to see you with a smile as I know how hard it can be, wishing you wellness xxx❤❤❤xxx

[@lifeloveall8430]

what's amazing to me....all the incredible physical problems you've fought through. and you're really a stunner! Beautiful! never in a million years would I know by looking at you how tough you've had it. You have a lot of reason to be proud of yourself.

[@BijoubyBecca]

lifelove all thank you very much. That is a very kind and encouraging statement 😊

[@luckeeleafdesigns224]

You are one hell of an amazing person and my new hero! Thank you for sharing your life with us and being so transparent. Love you my friend❤️

[@kayleemarie3546]

I have a few disabilities and chronic illnesses, I have had over 60 surgeries in my 23 years of life. Your school experience was so much like mine. I was bullied and pushed down the stairs. At the lunch table I sat down and a girl said “we can talk shit about her cause she can’t hear” (I’m hearing impaired) little did they know I could read lips. I didn’t have any friends. I did half days too and it just got so overwhelming, I was in pain all the time physically from my disabilities, I was exhausted mentally and physically, I wanted to die. Then I tried homeschool, I’m someone who needs to learn with a teacher there to show me. It was just too hard and I was constantly in the hospital and having surgeries, I fell behind. I was once a Straight A student now I couldn’t even get a B. I was just drained. So I ended up dropping out. It was the best thing I could of done. I had that feeling of being a failure a lot afterwards. But then I got my GED a few years later and those failure thoughts went away. It’s nice to relate to someone and know I’m not alone. I just moved across the country and I’m really wanting to go to College. It’s my dream. Hopefully my medical stuff will calm down for me to do that. I’m currently on Disability as well.

[@loganconnor7122]

Another thing I took my first two years of college at Valencia Comm College, I pay half of what people at UCF or FSU were paying. After two years I transfered to UCF and got my degree, I saved a ton of money. Never listen to people trying to trash comm. colleges. They are a great part of the higher learning system that is there to help student transition from high school and are cheaper than public or private universities. Never feel ashamed! A degree is a degree no matter where it comes from. It shows you worked for 2 or 4 years to earn that diploma and that effort alone is priceless. And remember: the reason you wake up every morning is to show your haters how wrong they are................................... ;)

[@Twin.Girl_td_la]

Your such a smart and intelligent girl. Thank you so much for sharing. We're happy to hear from you and very proud of you💙💜💖💚💛❤💙💜💖💚💛❤💙💜💖💚💛❤💙

[@BijoubyBecca]

Lennon Bedilyn thank you ❤️😊

[@gessicarose5814]

i dropped out my sophomore year bc my mental health was so shitty. i missed over 6 months of school during my freshman year alone and i was so depressed tbh i don’t think i would be alive if i hadn’t dropped out. the stigmatism around dropping out sucks :( wishing u the best

[@Camarah]

Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story!

[@becausecats4472]

Thank you so much for sharing your story 😊. You’re a beauty and so well spoken. I’m sorry you’ve had to endure so many illnesses😔. You are incredibly brave and I pray you don’t feel inferior or discouraged for being on disability. Just sharing your story has been incredibly moving and inspiring!! From the sounds of it you can get through anything and will definitely do great things 🙌🏻 I hope you continue to share your story! Much love and positive mojo coming atcha❤️❤️❤️💗💗💗🌟✨⭐️🌈!! I can’t wait for your next update

[@SimpleKenny]

smart and beautiful . hope all is well now and your happy in life. great vid

[@jessicajackson2301]

Same boat here dear. I understand completely it's very hard accepting youre too sick, but it's not something we have any control over. Subscribed :)

[@jamesgang4433]

I feel like u r amazing! Keep developing your channel and other social media platforms, n keep getting them govt checks,hey maybe take a course once a semester at the local cc cuz they are usually a few hundred bucks but just take classes that will help you build your channel i.e. web dev. And software or visual communications type. Keep going!

[@EIanaM]

Where she go tho- she hasn't uploaded in two years :/

[@kimberly2305]

I get pushed around I was going to get home schooled this week but my mom and dad well my fake parents they said it’s almost end of the school year

[@princesslulu5795]

Kimberly what do you mean by "fake parents"?

[@kimberly2305]

I’m adopted that’s why I said fake parents

[@kimberly2305]

Hey princessLulu how’s your day

[@kimberly2305]

Hey I’m adopted and my real mother left me when I was a baby do u have email where I can tell u more details

[@BijoubyBecca]

I know how hard it can be when things aren’t going well at school. Stick it out as long as you can. I’m sorry your parents don’t understand

[@MeganMichelleTimeLapses]

why didnt you treat it right away? did you not know?

[@sirm.3952]

Awww don't cry😣❤❤❤

[@rubbiisgems5820]

I had bad time in school too

[@BijoubyBecca]

Rubbii's Gems sorry to hear that...❤️

[@dannieletter7275]

That is cool that you are trying to start a channel. Got here through your comment on a h3h3 vid.

[@BijoubyBecca]

Daniel Foogazoo thank you! Papa bless 😎

[@anon343]

Kids can be so mean, I wouldn't have made it through my education due to my mental health and bullying; but luckily I have a twin so I didn't feel too alone. Teachers can be assholes too, some of them get a power-trip from fucking with kids. I couldn't stand in a gap in a line because I can hardly stand and I had one teacher say to me "woah, its not rocket science" and tried to embarrass me in front of everyone and I ended up getting suspended... Thanks for sharing, makes me know that it isn't just my life that has issues! :D I thought your channel was massive for some reason - keep up the good work :) x

[@BijoubyBecca]

Tom Murley haha thank you!! Geez yeah that teacher doesn’t sound so nice... it’s one thing to deal with peers, it’s another (and unnecessary) yo have to deal with teachers. I’m really glad you had your twin to help you and be there for you! 😊

[@anon343]

Dizzyallaround thanks for replying and reading my comment - keep up the great work 😊

[@bobtom2432]

Hey should I go to a mental hospital if I’m having suicidal thoughts and I have a hearing things and seeing things

[@kenadams5504]

Yes , go .

[@evaandelisa]

Do you still perm your lashes?

[@BijoubyBecca]

Eva Huang currently I do not! But I have done many cycles after that video was made :)

[@evaandelisa]

Dizzyallaround why did you stop doing it if you don't mind me asking?

[@BijoubyBecca]

Eva Huang my life is busy and I really just haven’t had time to do it. I also lost my kit haha

[@andyouasiansdonthearthatwe5162]

Hope you're doing well...👊🏾

[@lchpdmq]

School is crap anyway, just read great books and you’ll end up smarter than most people

[@dugoutnappy2028]

Damn I kind of went through the same thing

[@BijoubyBecca]

Dugout Nappy I’m really sorry to hear that..😕

[@matthewlopez2288]

Dam bullies smh very beautiful girl👍

[@lochnessrose]

Why are nurses always so mean :((

[@justina8771]

No more pandas! Good

[@CherylGoer]

New friend here! Hope to stay connected cutie!💛

[@rubbiisgems5820]

Nice intro

[@rachelswensen8269]

I am sending you a dm! Pls answer. -@Rachels_fight

[@BijoubyBecca]

Rachel Swensen done❤️

[@aldenmarroquin5783]

Your beautiful

[@lightowl3934]

You is beautiful😍

[@GoddessKate1]

Do you know you are goodlooking, most people would sacrifice tons to look like you, well with natural hair though as natural is best! Anyhow people who do not have good looks like you, they have it tough, you can get by coating on the looks.

[@BijoubyBecca]

GoddessKate1 being attractive or not does not affect the pre-disposition for whether or not someone has a difficult time. Even with me looking the way I do, I was still harassed and treated poorly because of my DISABILITY. Ableism.

[@Goat.Cheese]

Are you for real? Looks have nothing to do with "getting through life easily" when you have disabling chronic illnesses. Your comment is unbelievably ignorant and downright ableist.

[@Lowwski]

Weirdest comment i’ve read in a long time. Looks have nothing to do with it.