Why I ended up with a massive 75 package art haul in the last 2 years. (Art supply unboxing video)

[@lulabelle33]

Start small and be kind to yourself in art. Let it heal and be a release for you. Do not hold yourself to perfection Play with no expectations. I wish for you the joy of art making to release your mind from its demons.

[@CraftyClosetCreative]

Hello, I too had to leave teaching in 2018 due to burnout, anxiety, and health issues. It's taken me 5 years to get myself back on track, however I'm no longer working. Now at the lovely age of 45, I'm trying to learn how to do art, I'd like to learn how to draw and do watercolor paintings and eventually digital art. Thank you for sharing your story, it makes me feel like I'm not the only one that has struggled like this.

[@starryfoxplushie]

Thank you so much for this video not only for showing us a crazy variety of art supplies, but for opening your heart. It's so easy sometimes for us to forget that the person across the screen is a human being with struggles of their own. I'm so proud of you for continuing to move forward and continuing to dream. With all my heart, I hope that you can achieve everything you set out to do and more 💖🌈 Also, I'd love some vlog style videos just chit chatting while drawing, I feel like it would be great for mirroring and motivation to draw alongside 🥰 Looking forward to whenever you come back with a new video, as always ✨🌷

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much for always supporting me, it means the world to me 🥹💓 I’m happy you liked the video and I will definitely try more of these chit chat videos in the future!

[@willemijnkamerling4011]

It's so important to get all this stuff off your chest. I'm glad you did it in this video. It seems like you have all these lovely supplies to go forward and pursue your art. I have add, and a tendency toward depression. I also was a teacher, but due to my add and migraine that became chronic I had to stop working. That was almost 5 years ago and I'm still struggling. I'm very impressed you've gone back to work, even just part time. It's great. Be very proud of how far you've come! Oh and having (had) pets that are like my babies I completely understand your pain losing your cat. Big cuddles from mine to you 🥰

[@AtomicJava]

Awww migrainessss my biggest enemy! Stress would provoke them and being in a loud and bright environment was absolutely the worst when I had them so a loud and bright classroom was the worst environment to be in. I am sorry you suffer from them and the other conditions too. It is so hard because people who aren’t chronically ill or have neurodivergent brains don’t quite understand what we go through on a daily basis. But I hope you’re doing better now that you don’t have the stress of teaching, I know that helped me a lot but it was a super hard decision because financially now we’re not in the best place but I am hoping we will be able to find a balance eventually. All the best to you and here’s to having more good days than bad (that’s what I try to kook forward to) ❤

[@bethbaker5696]

It’s one day at a time! I have anxiety, depression and neurodivergent as well. I also have Fibromyalgia and understand the pain. Im working on giving myself grace. You are not alone. Make time in small amounts of time for some art therapy! Can’t wait to see some of your art.

[@BeginnersMind-ArtMind]

Thanks for honestly and openly sharing your struggles. I live with chronic illness, pain, depression, and anxiety. Recently, I became very overwhelmed by all of the art supplies that companies were sending me to review in my videos. What I ended up doing was just taking one item at a time, swatching it out and painting or drawing with it. I filmed each session and posted once a week. Perhaps if you just take one item from your art supplies a week to explore and experiment with you would enjoy the experience and not feel overwhelmed like I did. Wishing you many hours of joyful creating with your lovely supplies! 💕👩‍🎨🎨🖌️

[@AtomicJava]

Same here all.of.the.things 🫠 sadly a lot of them come hand in hand and make the others worse so it sucks because you never know when you’re going to have a good or bad day. I’m currently having a migraine attack I haven’t had one in a while and it’s so horrible when they sometimes hit and won’t go away fully for weeks or even months on end 🤦🏻‍♀️ Yeap I get super overwhelmed as well and that is my plan now that after all this time I finally went through them. Yeap that’s my plan I have to organize them and then I will be going through them and using them in my videos it’s going to be fun trying them all out 💕 Thank you for the well wishes and I hope you have many good days ahead!

[@BeginnersMind-ArtMind]

@@AtomicJava oh my gosh, I totally agree! It’s so hard, never knowing from day to day how we will be functioning with chronic illness, pain and mental health issues. Depression and anxiety really suck the joy out of life. I think you did incredible putting this video together, and it was so generous and brave of you to share your struggles with the world. keep sharing your gift and being authentically you. Praying that your migraine passes quickly! Be well 💕

[@teresabotkins4983]

Your story is so similar to my own. I spent 20 years in a high stress job struggling along with severe depression and anxiety until I just couldn't handle it anymore. Luckily I found a compassionate doctor and therapist who have helped me. I'm just now diving into creating art and am devouring You Tube content to learn more. I am excited to see what you do with these supplies. 🙂

[@AtomicJava]

Hi Teresa, thank you so much for sharing your story with me 💞 I am so happy you found good care providers that have helped you and I hope that you find happiness creating; it is such a fantastic outlet. I wish you many good days and lots of art in your future 💖

[@bobbisidorenkov5563]

I would love to see you use your love for art supplies to make beautiful art and heal your mind. You have some of my dream supplies too! Hugs and healing thoughts coming your way!

[@WhimsicalSketching]

I love your tiny container, and those stamps!! 6:40 time stamp). I went through something similar in 2020 -- high stress job, pandemic, relationships breaking down, getting super depressed......thanks for sharing -- I got through it by honestly getting into art and sewing. I still need to find a job that is more even but we also moved so our work life balance is better. I hope you are on the journey of the up and up

[@NekroX]

thank you for the uploads and i hope your doin better at the moment ,stay strong

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much for your sweet comment. I am currently feeling better and was finally able to take an undertaking like this beast of a video to film and edit so I am hoping I can keep going as long as my body and haywire brain will let me ❤

[@marykayhaywood7534]

Hi, never feel bad about your chronic issues. I'll be praying for you. And we will watch now and then. Gosh I have not even put out the first video. So, you're ahead of me!!😂 please feel better and do what you can, don't push yourself so that you feel bad.

[@franswey2]

🤗 You have a wonderful group of supporters on here. I’m new to your channel and wanted to join you on your way to achieving your goals. I’m so sad you lost your sweet cat, I’m a cat mama, too. Artwork is an amazing way to heal from the inside out and you are on your way! I’m 71 and I know how stressful life can be so I try to always focus on the wonderful moments in the day. I learned an amazing action from one of the “Chicken Soup For Your Soul” creators, first thing in the morning, when you go in the bathroom, look yourself in the mirror and say “I love you”. Keep doing this several times a day. It will have an awesome affect on you. Thank you for sharing your video, you are an amazing young woman. I’m going to watch more of your videos. Take care, Fran

[@Brilliantnash]

Those Mossery packages are so nicely wrapped. You got some great stuff and I wish you lots of joy using them and sorting and storing them. Sending a huge cross Atlantic hug.

[@jessbutterfly1934]

Thank you for sharing your TMS treatment with us. I’m in Australia and I also have TMS because I was having reactions to almost all medications and I was also resistant. I suffer from major depressive disorder and a few other things. It is a wonderful treatment and non-invasive. Just remember it’s okay. You will still struggle. I have maintenance now which means about every 10 weeks. I go back in for about 5 to 10 sessions just to keep everything under control Some people have to have it regularly like me just like a tablet or something for putting fuel in the car just to keep me going and I’m fine with that other people may have it once and that’s enough to change them. Either way it’s a miracle therapy that should be more readily available. I’m so glad you were able to get this treatment.

[@Kd33_art]

Thank you for sharing. My heart goes out to you. Enjoy all of your new supplies because there is a reason you accumulated them. I went through a very bad time with an ex and struggled with mental health bc of it. I also had accumulated many art supplies after working in an art store, and it was a godsend, because I was not working when we broke up and I had no way of getting any more supplies in having that stash. Saved my life literally. Not only for the outlet, they provided but because I was not able to acquire any more for a long time. I am sending well wishes your way.❤❤❤

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much for you kind words and U am so happy that you have found a happy place with your art and supplies 💓 Stay strong and creating 💓

[@jessicamelanson4740]

Hearing you explain all you went through is like I feel what and how you feel! You’re not alone! its not your fault! Zhou are so brave for putting yourself out there and maybe one day they will figure out what or who is responsible for good people like you feel this way! ❤ I hope you continue to grow and get better everyday❤

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much for your kind words they mean a lot to me. I hope you feel better soon as well 💓

[@XepherusStudios]

Art is therapy and many of us needed that in our lives after 2020. Thank you for sharing your story and haul. I hope things have improved and you are enjoying life and art.

[@GingahSnapsArt]

Gentle hugs (if you want them) Your story is perhaps more relatable than I care to admit out loud 😅 embrace the baby steps! You got this! One option if you're worried about impulse purchasing - is basically take a good photo of each item you have, and caption photo as it would be named/listed online... if you're able to catalog what you have - you can throw those photos into a folder on Google Drive and "shop your stash" much easier. It's kind of slow and clunky to set up, and doesn't work for everyone, but I can say it's helped me avoid impulse purchases, and get excited for the stuff I have! I have a folder in my phone gallery named "Cart" and when I "shop" my stash, I save the image of what I want to pull out and use.. to the Cart folder 😂 Not for everyone. But definitely an option heheh

[@AtomicJava]

Hi! Tysm for the sweet words! I would have never thought of that! That’s an awesome system you’ve worked out! For me it was about not being able to use anything because I was just in such a dark place but I guess I was always hopeful I would get to use them and make videos back then but the dopamine rush of buying them is probably what made me happy at a time. Thank you so much for watching my video and hugs to you too!

[@GingahSnapsArt]

@@AtomicJava of course!! Remember baby steps are still steps 😄 you got this!

[@GraceLuna26]

It happen the same to me with the art supplies, I had a terrible full time job and ended with anxiety and burnout, I used to buy a lot of art supplies and I never had time to use them, I was so sad about it, but now I changed my job and I'm in a part time too and I'm very happy using them all. I loved your video 😊

[@christiniapeake149]

You are amazing and I admire your courage to tell your story. Love your haul

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much Christinia I appreciate the sweet message and I am happy you enjoyed the haul 💕💖

[@sheryllamoureux1068]

You are not alone my dear. I have treatment resistant depression, social anxiety, ADHD, Diabetes, Heart disease, liver disease, anemia and so on and so forth. In addition I have three adult disabled kids which I care for. If it weren't for art and friendships with others like you and I who seem to have more than our share of problems. I am delighted to meet you and look forward to more of your videos. And thank you for your courage in sharing your story, today you helped me feel less alone.

[@HumdrumCurio]

I feel like we had some of the same hauls over the past few years (St Louis Art Supply!) and I also have been amassing quite the collection to try to find glimmers of joy in this bleak time. Now that life is settling a tiny bit I’m starting to use my supplies too. So I am excited to swatch, doodle, and get creative with you ❤

[@AtomicJava]

I absolutely understand! Art supplies bring me so much joy but I was in such a bad place I couldn’t even open them. Now I am excited to use them and I plan to do sketch/doodle/paint with me streams every week or two so we can play along with our supplies and enjoy doodling and chatting! I will probably have one later today or tomorrow, so keep an eye out for those 💕💖

[@AnthonyGeorge-w2t]

May I have some or buy some.

[@FroggyRaeCreations]

New subscriber!! What an awesome haul! There were SOOO many erasers lol. I am so happy that you found something to help you through your tough times. Cheers! Thank you so much for sharing your experience and your art supplies!

[@AtomicJava]

Thanks so much for watching and subscribing as well! I am sooooo obsessed with erasers it’s a problem honestly; I need an eraser hoarder anonymous group 😂 I want to do a video of my crazy eraser collection, I just find them so fun! Thank you again and I hope you have a wonderful day 💕

[@FroggyRaeCreations]

@@AtomicJava Haha that is awesome. There probably was a group, but it got erased.. lol I am a weirdo. You should show them off sometime.

[@maryannprzybycien2013]

Thank you for sharing your story. I have struggled with depression and anxiety all my life. Since childhood. I grew up in a dysfunctional family with mental and physical abuse. I started drawing and painting at a very young age. It's been a source or therapy for me. Now, I have a growing pile of art supplies waiting for me to open them up. I keep telling myself I'm not going to buy any more. Yeah, right. 😂 Just know you are not alone. One day at a time, one step at a time, one tiny accomplishment at a time is how I do it. Do what you love. Do what makes you happy. ❤️

[@AtomicJava]

Hi MaryAnn! Thank you so much for sharing your experience with me as well 💓 I have experienced a lot of trauma from my childhood to a very long abusive relationship that completely wrecked my self esteem, sense of self, alienated me from everyone amongst other things but then life kept throwing punches ar me with sick loved ones and well it ended up with me being in a state where making it through each day was the only thing I could do. I am so grateful to have found support and the help I’ve needed to be in a better place now and finally working towards my goals but it is still a day to day basis thing where there are good days and very hard to get anything done at all days (the chronic pain really doesn’t help the mental stuff either 🫠) However we do have art and art supplies to keep us company and when you do get to use them they bring you such joy so I am so happy I am not alone in this either. I wish you many good days ahead full of color and art fun 💖💕💓

[@hubbysswee]

You are fantastic! Please know that truth deep deep in your soul. Being a bipolar drug addict I understand mental illness intimately. Your fierce and genuine openness brings into light the daily struggle we face during our time in the darkness. Thank you for taking this leap of faith. This platform will be seen by many and I’m sure you’ll help them as you’ve helped me. God Bless You!

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much for your kind words 💖🥹💓 I hope that you have many more good days than bad, I have been struggling with my depression side of things lately pretty roughly but your words mean so much and I just hope that we both can find peace and happiness as much as possible 💞

[@hubbysswee]

@@AtomicJava Thank you! Ugh depression. It’s so very hard to believe we’ll come out of isn’t it. Please know that you have kin out here who get it and who understand the hole you’re trying to climb out of. It’s my wish that I could come and sit in the darkness with you. We’d just sit with it until that time when light slowly creeps in. You’re in a quiet and isolating battle right now. But you are winning, just by opening up in this venue you’re winning! Hang in there luv. You’re pretty darn cool! I pray this will lift its grip soon. Hugs, many many hugs. God Bless You!

[@kathleenferris1164]

Thank you for this video. Be kind to yourself and celebrate your successes. Many of those packages are open now, and the contents are intriguing. This crafting exercise is not a sprint; it is a marathon,and do what serves your soul. Unlike bread, colored pencils don’t get moldy!

[@AtomicJava]

Your comment has totally made my night! First of all thank you for your sweet and kind words but second thank you for making me laugh SO HARD omg the not moldy pencils killed me 😂🤣 I hope you have a fantastic night! 💕💖

[@Mariannevieitez]

Wow so many cool supplies ! Get using them girl ! Just a bit at a time as it can be overwhelming I know . Look forward to seeing you use some of these 😊 it maybe just what your needing to help your mind I find drawing painting or playing with art supplies takes my mind off the world even if it’s only for a bit . You got this

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much! Yes I have been wanting to for so long but I couldn’t really focus on much of anything other than trying to get better but I am trying my best now that I have more time and less pressure from work and have more good days than bad.

[@VerrikaEva]

Take your time and do videos when you are ready and feel for it. Start with small steps. You and your family are most important🤗❤️ Lots of love and hugs to you🤗❤ You can do it 🤗❤️

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much I am actually undergoing TMS all over again this summer because my symptoms have come back and I haven’t been able to make videos but I have so many clips and ideas to put together and hopefully make some soon. Thank you for the love and hugs U hope you are doing well Eva 💖

[@ericakauffman5786]

TMS is an awesome therapy. Neuro/Psychs (now Neuroscience) are most familiar with this therapy. I'm glad it helped you. I have Tourette Disorder and am disabled so I can relate to your struggles. Keep pushing forward, one hour at a time. BTW I was an elementary teacher, too. Great supplies. Just start filling those sketch books with ideas for future projects.

[@alinatr2693]

Thank you so much for telling us your story,I'm so sorry for your loss,I hope you'll get better soon,every little step counts. I have depression(and some other stuff too,like you,a spicy 🍹)but I can't find a therapist,I'm stuck in life right now and It's so tiring🙁 I love making art,and I cherish the days I have the strengh to draw or paint a little. Your selection is sooo nice,I love art supply haul/try out videos I always sell my unused art supplies on ebay☺ I finished school and I'm at home for almost 2 years now,because of my mental health. Some people don't understand that it can happen so quickly!!

[@catiejane5287]

You have been very brave sharing your struggles. Please know you have support in your journey. I hope you have fun playing with your art supplies and get lost in the joy of colour, form and pleasure art brings to so many of us. You are in my heart and prayers.

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much for your kind words Catie! I appreciate all the good wishes 💞 I have since started a journey back to art school to study animation and it has been a challenge with all my struggles but I am learning so much ☺️

[@michellespeight5972]

I understand you. I appreciate your video and your honesty ❤

[@michellespeight5972]

Also you have great choice in art supplies!

[@E4Alabbasy]

I thought it might be so satisfying to open these packages and get rid of the clutter but I realized that you now need to organize the new supplies 😅 good luck💖! And thank you for speaking about this treatment, I'm sorry that you had to result to it but so glad to hear that it worked for you 🌺 my brother had to go through it as well and even though he didn't believe in it, it helped him tremendously.

[@AtomicJava]

I am so glad TMS worked for your brother too! I was so scared do it and frustrated that I had to resort to it but in the end it was the best decision I’ve made for myself. It is such a long drawn out process and I had an hour drive each way and had ro go 5 days a week but even tho that was the case it was still worth it. Yeap the clutter is still here waiting for enough drawers to organize it 🥲😂

[@marytesta3003]

Good gosh! So easily 7,000.00 usd. Lol! Have fun and enjoy all the fun colors and types of supplies😂 My niece had the type of therapy you had. Very stressful.

[@amozinshade484]

I'm noticing lots of specific purchases like the botanical Sennelier watercolor sets by Billy, the Mossery x Sibyline and the Plate to Paper workbook 😍 I contemplated getting these at one point too! I'm glad you could get your hands on them when you could've afford it. Lately all the art I'm doing is using water based markers in coloring books. I'm avoiding my own art because I'm kinda hard on myself. However I believe the coloring book is helping me especially because I really don't have real expectations other than actually using up the markers. I keep a transparent container labelled "Empties". I feel so accomplished when these marker are dried entirely and seeing them there in the container reminds me of that feeling!😊

[@tachiza1]

Hi… thank you for sharing your story. I am also suffering too, I live with chronic pain after very painful cancer treatments, transplant, a second cancer and many complications … depression is always so difficult to deal with. Remember we all have light, we can shine in own way. I also suffer like you and it has been difficult for me to find my place in society. In this society that can sometimes become very cruel to those who do not live I also take refuge in art just like you, I love colors! You have a whole art store! Try to enjoy it in those moments that your body and mind allow it. I will have you in my prayers.

[@AtomicJava]

Hi Maritza! I am so happy that even after everything you have shared you are still keeping a positive outlook and are finding a refuge in art. It is such a wonderful therapy and I feel you 💯 percent! It is really hard for ppl to understand how much harder everything becomes when you suffer from physical and mental conditions and medications have side effects and you’re totally right one there is a stigma behind being sick and then there’s the lack of support as well. I hope you keep creating keep those colors shinning a light and happiness into your days and I hope to see you in one of my streams and we can create together I’d love to chat with you there!

[@marlhall8]

Girl, your story is so similar to mine. I’ve been in chronic painfor 10 years, but it got significantly worse 3 years ago now. Art is my happy place but my physical and mental pain keeps me from being able towork and color. Praying for you baby🤗🙏

[@maryjanemontes965]

Hello! I also have depression. What helps me is drawing cartoons and coloring in adult coloring books. I get art supplies from dollar tree. Ur art supplies are expensive for me,. I got mt art supplies before I got a part time job is from hobby lobby and Michaels.. I do understand and I could love to see ur art work. All here on KZbin that are artists, are my art teachers. Ty. For posting this video

[@cazkiwinz4300]

Hi from new sub #989 I’m here and I care. 💋❤️ And I love art hauls! 🤗🤗🤗

[@AtomicJava]

Aww thank you so much for watching, subscribing and the sweet message it means so much to me 🥹☺️💕💓

[@WateryStar]

Came from Doodle Date 🙂 Love how you started your video with showing your space. I had to pause to look at your pin board cause your chibi moon pin caught my eye. Admittedly I paused a lot. The Art of Mana looks cool! I started to write this comment before watching the part where you talked about your depression and feel a little silly now. I also deal with anxiety and depression( along with some mix of neurodivergence) and the feeling of not being able to do the things you enjoy is familiar. I'm glad you have found something that has helped you, I'm not sure I've heard of TMS I'll have to look that up. I have chronic pain due to fibromyalgia, fortunately it's manageable but the fatigue still gets me. Dealing with health issues is plenty, I'm sorry you've also had to deal with the loss of your cat. We( me and my s.o.) got bad news about our dog and don't know how much longer he will be with us. I had no motivation the day I heard that news besides wanting to spend it with him. I feel there's more I could say but I'll just say this: I hope you can find the spark of joy to create with your art supplies. Wishing you the best.

[@lumeiaart]

I feel like people who have been through something similar get it. I get it. I feel like I've purchased most of my art supplies when I actually couldn't use them because I desperately wanted to make art, but both my mind and body were in too much pain to allow that. I don't regret it at all, but I think it's also important to work on that habit. Now that I feel content with the supplies I have, I want to make sure I don't purchase more for a while. I recommend creating an inventory with all the things you have and "shopping" from there. Have fun with everything though and why not host a giveaway for the things you feel you don't need? Anyway, sorry for the long comment! I wish you the best going forward 🫶

[@ashes92]

thank you so much for sharing, I enjoyed watching it, and be kind to yourself 🙆‍🖤

[@softlanding138]

It's like you are opening an art store!

[@hellenic.h1168]

Wow thanku so very much this was just what I needed to see n hear it really made my day n week... would it be possible for U to do more in depth vids about all the art supplies u got n how they work (I don't have money for art or craft supplies either :)) N maybe an art studio tour with all ur amazing art supplies Thanku thanku stay arty n safe...

[@AtomicJava]

Hi Hellenic! I’m so happy you enjoyed the video! I am absolutely doing a studio tour and videos on the art supplies soon! Thank you for watching and you stay safe as well 💕

[@Plannerandsobriety]

Wow what I would do if I had all that. How fun.. I love all the pens markers highlighter pencils all the erasers I love all of it I need stuff I love art I am a artist myself and I really loved this video makes me want to win the lottery lol. I suffer with a lot of mental illness and addiction I’m 4 years sober so I get how it can be to be stuck in depression. I hope you get the fight in you it’s there and start doing what you love your art you can enjoy all those things it helps me with my anxiety and depression to color I write love to write

[@Bloomkyaaa]

I'm in the same predicament, but I open everything I get and then break down the boxes because my room is small. I buy stuff thinking I'll make a video for it to help my YT channel grow, but then I forget or I just don't because lack of inspiration or I'm tired. I can honestly say I have an addiction to buying art supplies, but I try not to let anything build up. It's good of you to explain your situation and let people know you're struggling. I hope things are getting better for you.💜

[@AnneStanDesigns]

Take your time. Film when you can. Create when you’re feeling up to it. Taking care of yourself is the most important thing. Pushing yourself unnecessarily is the first step in burn out. ❤

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you for your kind words I am trying to be more consistent now that I more good days than bad I have pushed so hard in other aspects of my life and that’s how I burned out too so I agree with you. You take care as well 💕💖

[@AnneStanDesigns]

@@AtomicJava well I’m a new subscriber and will be here whenever you decide to post 💚

[@sararamer-dean7846]

Make yourself a tiny kit to fit in your purse and carry with you....a small sketchbook, a few pencils, etc. And just doodle. I think you need to use a few things at a time in small ways to get started. And maybe you can teach others how to sketch in order to heal! I find sketchbooks very valuable for times when things are rough.

[@art-alchemy]

Hi I hope you are better! What is that Fabriano Artistico fabric roll? Where did you get it? Is so small and cute..something I been looking for. Thank Maria

[@AtomicJava]

Hi, thank you so much sadly I he to go back to getting this treatment all over again because all my conditions started acting up again but I’m hoping this go around it will last longer. I purchased the roll at Cult Pens a UK based stationery and art supply website that ships to the US not sure about other countries but probably so. Thank you for watching the video and for your good wishes!

[@tisaloewen7051]

I feel like I relate so much. I have all those things (except depression- just anxiety). Introvert, non trad student, arthritis in 20s, had chronic pain, etc etc other things. BUT. I believe in you. I went back to school at 33 and now Im getting my PhD. I'm struggling right now too. My cat of 17yrs- best friend- died in the summer while I was out of the country. He died in my husbands arms a few days after my father-in law died. YEAH. My husband was so strong. I focus on gratitude. Art and curiosity help A LOT. I wish you the best.

[@AtomicJava]

Hi Tisa I am so glad to hear you were able to go back to school, that’s what I am aiming for right now. What are you or did you study? I am struggling to make a decision on what to go for atm. I am so sorry about your kitty, loss is so hard for me to deal with I’ve lost a lot of people and pets and it puts me in a really dark place. I wish you peace and I am happy that art is helping you as well 💕💖 *hugs*

[@tisaloewen7051]

@@AtomicJava I'm a bioarchaeologist :) Art gives a good balance to the brainy science and culture stuff :)

[@nasseraamri796]

❤je trouve votre vidéo tellement belle. Ce que vous dites me touche énormément car je vous comprends à 100%. Vous êtes juste un bourgeon d une fleur qui veut s épanouir ❤❤. Il faut juste trouver la voie qui vous correspond. Et je crois que vous êtes en train de la trouver. Si c est possible pour vous essayez de faire une reconversion dans le domaine de l art. Je pense que cela va beaucoup beaucoup vous aider car vous vous sentirez à votre place... ❤❤❤❤ Courage à vous

[@ewwwobbie]

My heart goes out to you. I have a lot of the same health issues and for the last few years have been eating a keto diet. It helped a lot. I found a lot of help from Steven Gundry's youtube channel. I cut out grains and have been feeling so much better. I wish you the best and hope you can get your life back on track. Health is everything. I hope you check it out and can find some help there. I will be watching for more from you. Thank you for sharing. It looks like more fun than Christmas! I can't imagine opening all those supplies. I just want to come over to your house!

[@stephuhhkneee]

sending you love

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you 💕

[@darklittlepeople]

best of luck on your new adventures. i hope you'll recover fully very soon.

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much for your well wishes 💕💖 I sometimes think I will always be on medications but I can always hope 🌈💕

[@jillnelsonmalmt6085]

Sending prayers. Give yourself grace as you move through this journey. Move with your strengths and experience. Maybe look into art therapy as a career… it would combine your art and teaching but it would be one on one allowing you to be creative and help other people going through something similar as you have but not be so overwhelming with a large class of students. It’s just an idea to ponder. I have a similar background as you with the struggles and career changes. What had helped me is to follow my heart and my passion and it continually opens doors. Lifting you up in good thoughts.

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much Jil! I am so happy that you have been able to follow your passion I hope I am able to do the same as well 💕 Thank you for the sweet words!

[@deirdreryan7402]

I suffer from depression, anxiety and ADHD. Having Fibromyalgia and Multiple Sclerosis only compounds my invisible symptoms. So I completely understand. I’ve thought of that therapy as well, and I plan on asking my neurologist about it.

[@AtomicJava]

Hi Ryan! I have depression anxiety, and ADD as well and it’s really not a fun cocktail of things. I am currently undergoing my second round of TMS for my depression and anxiety and hoping this time the effects will stick around for longer. If you have the opportunity to get it it is a great alternative to having to take multiple medications (I was able to get off of two other meds with it) but because of circumstantial events my depression and anxiety relapsed and I don’t want to start taking more meds again so we are trying tms again. I hope you can get it and I hope you have lots of good days because I know how hard it can be. Hugs to you and your family 💖💞💓

[@Reynalicia]

So many little things to make cool stuff!!!! Best of luck!!! I subscribe :3

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much Alicia 💕

[@cristinaguasque869]

I am writing to you from Montevideo Uruguay 🇺🇾. I algo suffer from depresión. Unfortunately it is imposible to buy the material you showed. This remark should be an advantage. You are very Lucky to be abre to get all this. My best wishes to you.

[@AtomicJava]

Hola Cristina! Siento mucho que conozcas el dolor que es sufrir de depresión yo llevo muchos años con esta condición y no es gasta ahora que he mejorado un poco y realmente hay días que me levanto bien y después estoy por el piso. Mis mejores deseos y gracias por mirar el video espero que tengas muchos días buenos versus los malos 💕💓

[@jumanas4012]

cute designs

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much 💖

[@ArtorLifeTorB]

Fabulous art supplies 🌼🌺love it 👍sub🌼🌺

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so so much! 💕💖☺️

[@VerrikaEva]

❤❤❤

[@priestessbrenda]

I have MS, a heart condition, diabetes and a host of other diseases. I get it , you are seen and loved.

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you and hugs to you dealing with these conditions isn’t easy 💞

[@jumanas4012]

Remember Everyone moves at their own pace , its overwhelming sometimes comparing your self with daily bloggers or new content weekly , so please Do not apologize , and remember the joy of watching art supplies hauls. i also lost my mom 14 years ago and i still go to therapy , and yet i created the most relaxing paints for others to enjoy , stay strong :) from Another Cat owner 🐱

[@AtomicJava]

Oh god I know! Content creation on other platforms makes me so anxious because there seems to be zero growth there and then I get really discouraged. I am so sorry about your mom I lost my dad when I was 16 and it still hurts I don’t do well with loss at all. I have a fantastic therapist who has helped me immensely so I am really happy you have one who is helping you as well 💕💖 I love cats so much say hi to them for me🥹💕

[@julietoye9872]

Endometriosis, fibromyalgia and a number of other health issues, including depression and anxiety here! Huge hugs. Just do what you can, when you can. You've got really cool supplies so use what you have 🤗❤😊💖 p. S. I'm so sorry to hear about your furbaby xxx

[@AtomicJava]

I have a myriad of them too big hugs to you as well 💕💓💖 and ty I appreciate it he was such a sweet boy 😞

[@Pauloselani]

Faz um tour por seus livros de arte. ❤❤❤

[@AtomicJava]

I am planning on doing an art book your soon as well, I love art books so much 💕 Thank you so much for watching!

[@emma-louisegayler4966]

So was it the threat of not being able to work, though, whilst being that ill as that's what happened to me whilst I was doing a uni degree, and it broke me. I had to put myself back together, and now I'm making an artbroom, and I'm guna go on KZbin so I feel like I have more of a purpose if you know what I mean. Hope your feeling better, or are you still struggling?

[@alisonbell3475]

Be kind to yourself, take care Alison x

[@AtomicJava]

Thank you so much Alison 💕💖💓

[@AnthonyGeorge-w2t]

May I have some.,please.

[@illustratorkarina923]

I had depression and anxiety so I hoarder a lot of material for different crafts, one day I found Jesus Christ and, it was the best therapy! healed for ever, no depression and medication, I gave away lots of material, God bless you.🙏❤

[@juliebromfield1865]

From a fibromyalgia sufferer, I feel your life struggle.

[@AtomicJava]

My heart is with you I know what it is to live in constant pain physically and emotionally 💖💓💞

[@katarinaholik]

load of stuff. you really have supplies for few years, no need to buy anything for few years. Just use them.