WHY I HATE TALKING ABOUT ANXIETY

[@NinkComPoop]

Excuse the crazy makeup! I was just done filming a festival themed makeup tutorial!

[@buddah610]

NinkComPoop Do you color grade your vids? Thanks!!

[@Gwym]

Looks amazing TBH.

[@ShazzaRose]

I love the makeup sooo much though! I was admiring it the whole time :3

[@blushface]

you look flawless af in this video, uhhh... NOT EXCUSED.

[@LeticiaSantos-by2qy]

I feel that it was easier for me to talk to strangers about how i feel than family, i feel like family "overreact" or "judge" you more, like, they try to blame themselves for how you feel or question you so much for it that it's gets frustrating and too much. Whereas strangers are more likely to give advice and think it through rather than jumping to conclusions if you know what i mean x

[@maeverose2290]

That's exactly how I feel!

[@NinkComPoop]

That is sooooo true! I agree with that completely. It just feels nicer to me to have an 'outsider' talk to me. I'm that way about everything. I tell more of my 'secrets' to distant friends because they won't react so 'big' in comparison to close friends haha!

[@Ambern]

This video looks so professional, for some reason.. you look really good! Also I'm glad you're talking about these kinds of things!

[@buddah610]

AmberAndGolden I was just thinking the same thing! Ellie, do you colorgrade your vids? Thanks!

[@NinkComPoop]

Thank you!

[@NinkComPoop]

I do! I think the fact I was filming in the lovely sunlight made this video extra pretty ^_^

[@JemmaKuma]

Thank you for this video! It really helped me understand a past relationship a lot better. I was worrying a lot on the fact that they wouldn't open up to me about what makes them anxious and I was getting very impatient. But the way you explained how you would rather not talk about it so much except to a few close friends makes a lot of sense to me. With me being a super open person, your video helped me to understand that not everyone is as willing to talk about sensitive things with everyone and that I definitely shouldn't take it personally! 💕

[@NinkComPoop]

Aww Jemma! This is a lovely comment. I am glad it helped you in this way. It's kinda the reversed way that I thought it could help, but regardless, it helped! And that's really cool

[@NinkComPoop]

P.s. just seen your channel. You're incredible

[@JemmaKuma]

Aw you are so sweet thank you! 💕

[@DiamondInTheRough07]

part of me loves that i self diagnosed my anxiety because i relate to so much of this video and part of it is nice to put a label on why i'm 'sensitive, dramatic, cry a lot etc' and have some sort of explanation, but i get the flip side that you mentioned that i don't like just blaming everything on my anxiety or my anxiety becoming my identity, and then leading on from that i'd worry that people would then go behind my back and say, 'oh she always blames things on her mental health' or 'she blames everything on her mental health' or 'it's always the mental health with her'

[@madisonclarke1257]

You're not alone heaps of people struggle with this, including myself. If anyone needs to chat i'm here for them! x All the best x

[@MissRoos2]

I have suffered from depression and anxiety in the past. I'm doing better now, but it's still there sometimes. I feel the same way about not telling people about it because you don't want to make an excuse for yourself. You put it to words perfectly. I really only talk about this to my boyfriend or this one friend who suffered from depression too. They are the ones that understand me. At the beginning of your video, you say you don't know why we'd want to know about your mental health. I want to know that and I think lots of people with me. We care about you Ellie! I love that you open up to us about it, it's good to talk about these things, to raise a bit of awareness. Oh and I love your hair like this 💙

[@RainSiriusValentine]

This made perfect sense to me, you just put my thoughts together and turned them into spoken words. So thanks for that! :'D It helped me figure things out a bit, 'cause I feel the same way about my depression & anxiety. Also, the makeup's looking on point here!

[@Xenia2812]

I first found you when i was searching up videos about anxiety, and yours helped me so much and when i saw this i got so excited as since I've become a mum my anxiety has gone down hill from staying at home and i guess forgetting i had a social life. So the idea going out enless its my close friend seems terrifying. I have never even had a job due to my anxiety. And everytime my anxiety takes control of me your videos help me take back that control. Thankyou ellie someday i hope to meet you so you really know how much you make an inpact to me and others :)

[@hemily6454]

I live with social anxiety and therefore creates a lot of stress but it's youtubers like you and blogs like the upcoming journalist that helps me tho it !! Thank u x

[@hemily6454]

Through

[@MysticLights]

I love this, I get so confused with how to deal with talking about my anxiety and such, the people closest to me have a hard time understanding what I'm going through and I hate to give the impression that I'm no fun and I'm just sad all the time and I really don't want to give off a woe is me impression so it's so conflicting when I feel crappy, I just have no idea what to do haha thanks for making this video

[@MisstoryPlaysSims]

I totally understand where you''re coming from! You are still a person BESIDES having anxiety... The illness isn't you, it's just something that happens to you at times.. Sometimes people just label you as that illness, and just that. It happened to me before and a lot of people left me because of it. I am not saying I am a saint, but I would never abandon someone because of their illness.

[@jenniferw1191]

What you are saying makes so much sense!

[@iuwdbwudbvhwduivhbwduivbii431]

She's crazy by the way ☺️

[@charliee-]

I get nervous about telling people about my mental health, especially those close to me, for fear that they will feel they have to walk on eggshells /or/ assume I'm just making it up and trying to be "quirky". But equally not having them know makes it difficult too, because then they are unaware of why I struggle with activities they deem basic and get easily aggravated due to that lack of understanding. Mental health is incredibly complicated.

[@jasmynewells5976]

I'm very similar to this. anxiety has been a journey of it's own. When I was younger, id shake a lot because of it, and stop breathing and at times even vomit. And since the people around me would see it, i figured they were thinking worse about me, and the cycles would get deeper.Same with depression. It makes a person so unmotivated and easily guilted and void of emotion, and my family would constantly call me things like lazy, unhealthy, selfish. And I couldn't open up, because I just thought they'd label it an excuse

[@aduileventidex4997]

Loved this it's honestly like you were reading the thoughts from my brain. Really do understand ❤️ next time someone asks me about it I'll just tell them to watch your video as you explain it so well!

[@clearly_its_makeup3818]

This was extremely helpful and also extremely relatable 💕

[@ladynancy]

You're right, if someone is depressed, that doesn't mean they're sad all the time, it's much more complex than that! Also, I 've been called oversensitive all my life and I hated it, but I learned to accept that I have the right to feel the way I feel.

[@NinkComPoop]

That's the way I am really trying to see it too. I tell myself in my head that I have every right to feel that way, and I'm proud of the fact that even as an "oversensitive" person, I am doing a darn good job! :D

[@ladynancy]

You are, and I'm sure we're doing better than those who don't wanna admit that they feel a certain way, suppressing emotions is definitely not healthy :D

[@AlexaLaine]

Hi, Ellie! I love your makeup in this video! I have a suggestion for you. You say that you really like to experiment with different eyeshadows in the place of eyeliner, and that you want to experiment with your lips. Sometimes, I use a bit of eyeshadow over lipstick to get fun colors. For example, if I want glittery black lips, I might put on a darker lipstick and wear black eyeshadow over it. My mom used to do that with gold eyeshadow and chapstick. It dries out your lips a bit but I just thought you might be interested in that if you don't already do that. Love you!

[@dizzipiskio]

the only person i feel i can open up to properly about my issues is my girlfriend. even past girlfriends it was difficult because they were all about themselves but my current one asks how i am and listens and gives advice without jumping to conclusions. she lives in a different country so it is hard but she helps so much and last year was the first time i left the house since 2011 because it was my grandma's funeral and i was so scared i almost gave up on the day but my girlfriend said she believes in me and knows i can do it.. and that's what pushed me to do it. and then i went out 2 other times after that because of her support. i don't know what i'd do without her and i'm thankful i found her and gave her a chance after months of her trying to win me xD

[@cheyleahopkinson3192]

I tend to open up about it, but there is a line - I don't want my mental health to become my personality, what I'm associated with. It's good to have the people most around you aware and it's good also to have one or two people that know everything (for me, my partner). Talking is scary, I used to bottle up all the time but I've learned that small discussions here and there are healthy and make you feel more normal, but equally talking about it all the damn time can sometimes make it worse. If you go round telling yourself you're sick/damaged/broken all the time, chances are that's what you'll be. Be confident, be brave, and don't let how your brain is wired stop you from doing the things you love, that's what I try to do every day. Some days it doesn't work, but I know I have people in my life who can help me through those days.👌🏻

[@NinkComPoop]

Small discussions here and there are definitely healthy, I agree! I honestly do not think that talking too much about how I think/feel will do any good for me or the person listening. UNLESS I was super struggling and I needed an outlet. But I guess we are all different! Thank you for this comment

[@cherrymoonweb22mccann94]

I know how you feel ,It's like me I use to have a eating disorder for quite a while , I wondered all the time what people think of me ,But the I realised I'm beautiful inside and out 💖😸💖

[@synnemarie2613]

Loving the makeup

[@gemmabarry1975]

I'm here for you

[@MrShnier]

Thumbnail gives me life. slay kwueen

[@ree9566]

Well Ellie, my my you are looking rather dazzling today! I like the look, you are glowing!

[@cutesuuu]

i relate to this so much!! thank-you ellie ;_;

[@lulakun8047]

l will rarely tell anyone when i am going through something, my parents notice because i act different they have had 21 years to notice when im not right, they know its best to leave me alone and if i really do hit rock bottom i will go to them but it generally doesn't get to that point, although i have lost many friends due to my anxiety and depression getting in the way, but now i know the people kind of left can atleast deal with me at my worst, another thing i hate which i know i shouldent is when i am really low and i just want to curl up in a ball and be alone or stay in bed and eat snacks and the people who notice im not acting right pressure me into telling them what is wrong.....like i know they love me and care and they always ask me to open up to them but i just cant..... also i am a lover of concerts i went to my first one last year got so anxious and had a breakdown but it dident stop me i have now been to 3 concerts in 5 months and i had a breakdown at every one, i know its coming but once im over it im fine, just means i have a few people looking at me weird when it actually happens, but yeah i have never cared about how people think about me until my anxiety and depression acts up and suddenly i think everyone then goes around judging me... Thanks for the video tho :)

[@misshats805]

Your hair reminds me of Hannah bakers

[@nadine366]

ellie do u have different eyeshadows on each eye? I love it! why dont people already do that also I love ur shirts im so getting one when im not broke

[@NinkComPoop]

I do! Haha! I have been loving doing that recently ^_^

[@CaringMind]

Good video, really great camera, what did you use to film this? Also did a mental health video myself

[@NinkComPoop]

Just a Canon 650D with a 18-35 mm lens :)

[@CaringMind]

can't believe it, the quality is really good, must check it out.

[@iuwdbwudbvhwduivhbwduivbii431]

do you want to be a smurf 😂

[@Alexandra-wb2pf]

SAME😂😅😣😟😰

[@inlight2024]

when your in front, some, and only some, see only a threat to there being. easy said,,, not easily understood. ;) not me your so freeking cool . ;)