Why I haven't been uploading | Q&A

Why I haven't been posted for 2 months | Q&A
Hiii besties! it's been a hot minute but ur fave girl is back!! I've been going through a lot of changes and really open up about why I haven't been uploading, my mental health, my thoughts on the world/current situation and answer some of your questions as well! I've missed all of you and I can't wait to chat in the comments to see how all of you have been! xoxo
P.S get keen for the return of regular uploads hehe! love you all.
Mental health resources:
HeadSpace
www.headspace.org.au/
The Butterfly Foundation
thebutterflyfoundation.org.au...
International help
togetherweare-strong.tumblr.c...
Beyond Blue
www.beyondblue.org.au/get-sup...
Lesbian MasterDoc:

[@MsDickerz]

I’ve missed you all so much! How are you doing?!

[@chaoticdemonpunk]

missed u too!! I'm doing alright, wbu??

[@ellaschnegelberger3466]

I missed you!!!! I have doing well!

[@MsDickerz]

@@chaoticdemonpunk I’m glad!! I’m doing better xx

[@MsDickerz]

@@ellaschnegelberger3466 missed you too! glad to hear it!

[@ellaschnegelberger3466]

@@MsDickerz Thanks! :)

[@sierramccutchen3531]

Seeing you was like seeing a pal you haven't seen for a bit. glad to hear and see that you're doing okay. take care of yourself first girl. We will all be here for you when you need us.

[@MsDickerz]

Aww that is such a wholesome comment, thank you

[@deisenhauer59]

Hey! Happy to see you today Edit: I’ve been having a rough day but seeing you posting just made it a whole lot better.

[@MsDickerz]

Happy to see YOU! :) Aww here for you always!

[@benji8690]

kinda forgot you existed lol. i remember just looking up "bisexual" and scrolling through the videos when i was still unsure of my sexuality (now im uestioning whether or not im aromantic but thats a whole other story). You really helped me a lot with my awakening and I thank you for that. I hope you feel better soon. Always sucks to see to people go through this kinda shit and i really hope that things get better for you. I know thats kind of a copout answer but yee.

[@MsDickerz]

[@Minime826]

Hey you! 🐸🌻❤️ Yes, i mean you. Remember, you are valid, no matter how you look, who you love, what gender u identify as or weather you are mentally (or physically) ill or not. In many countries school/uni has just started/will start soon. I know from my own experience that there is often a lot of pressure to succeed in academics. If you do, thats fine, that’s perfect. And if you don‘t that’s just as ok. But no matter weather you are considered successful at school/uni *take care of your mental health*. Your health should be a priority. Look after yourself. You are valid. 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 (Thanks for reading my comment. Take care, wear you mask and get vaccinated*

[@MsDickerz]

💖💖💖💖💖

[@emil8040]

Thank you❤ Needed to hear that

[@MichelleLisa]

So glad your back! I have Coeliac Disease too so it’s really good to see someone highlight this 💙

[@MsDickerz]

Thanks for sticking around!! 🥺💖 awww hiii fellow coeliac! yesss you don’t see much online hey! I’m thinking of incorporating more coeliac content on TikTok!

[@MichelleLisa]

@@MsDickerz Thank you and I can’t wait to see it!

[@BeautyMonster1000]

Hey love! Glad to see you're back! I really missed you and your wonderful videos! :D

[@MsDickerz]

Aw thanks lovely!!! Thanks for sticking around! :D

[@_anna-c_2298]

I’m so sorry you haven’t been doing well…….🥺 you are so strong and I KNOW you are gonna get much better!! I’m happy you’re back, I missed you❤️❤️❤️ I’m a teen who’s been struggling with anxiety, depression, hallucinations, and insomnia for around 3-5 years and your videos helped me so much because a part of all of that had to do with me questioning my sexuality so thank you 😊

[@MsDickerz]

MISSED YOU SO MUCH! thank you ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 awww gosh I’m so proud of how strong you are! here for you always & I’m glad my videos help you even a little xx

[@kenzie3164]

SO glad you’re back!! I missed your content, but take all the time you need, we love you:)

[@MsDickerz]

missed you lovely!! :)

[@bananacat8012]

im so glad ur backkkkkkkkkkkk. can't wait for some great content. i hope that you recover completely and that you stat feeling great again soon!!! love youuuu xxx

[@MsDickerz]

I'm so glad to be backkkk! thank you :D aww bless love you too!

[@kkuci_]

hey, I hope you're doing well :3 we missed you but your health is the most important thing

[@MsDickerz]

I've missed you too! yes 100% !!

[@kyleesorrell2697]

Hey we’re here! And your right the right people won’t go anywhere we are so glad your back! I promise everything will be ok I’ve been in your shoes it gets better I promise!

[@MsDickerz]

Bless you

[@brettcarruthers8838]

Welcome back bud! Hope things pick up for you. Hope work is going well!

[@MsDickerz]

Thanks B!!!

[@adrianthingz5616]

I can’t get over how fire your background issss.

[@MsDickerz]

Aww thank you!! :)

[@diganta22]

Happy to see you again 💚

[@MsDickerz]

happy to see you!! :)))

[@evieh4468]

hi, so glad to see you’re back! i’m a coeliac as well, i know how it feels to have that big change but it will get easier. sorry to hear that things haven’t been great lately but im so happy that things are getting better for you! sending so much love 💓

[@MsDickerz]

hiiii Evie! so glad to be back! aww hello coeliac friend! thank you so much angel xxx

[@ellaschnegelberger3466]

Glad you are well enough to post!!! XOXO ILYSM :)

[@MsDickerz]

Thank you :)))) love you!

[@ellaschnegelberger3466]

@@MsDickerz Love you too!!!!

[@izzie2070]

missed you glad your back!

[@MsDickerz]

yay thank u!!!

[@sager4238]

Hiii Dutchy! Bestie from Geelong here! so glad to be able to watch a new video of yours, I've missed new content from you. I've also got coeliac disease, I've had it most of my life since i was about 2.5/3 years old so i completely understand how rough it can be not to be able to have things you wish you could and how tricky it can be to avoid it as its in or "may contain" in so many things. I've had ADHD since 2013 however i do need to be reassessed as my symptoms have gotten worse over the years, I'm also going to see if i have an anxiety disorder as a doctor i saw recently believes that i have an anxiety disorder. so sorry to hear that you've been struggling lately but i'm glad that you took the time away to focus on yourself and I'm proud of you for trying your best and doing what you have to do for your mental health. in the time you have been away, i have realised that i'm gender fluid and I've also been going by the name Sage instead of my birth name as i feel the name Sage suits me better. love your content sooo much, it really boosts my mood whenever i watch one of your videos. Love, Sage

[@jimw966]

So great to see you back and that you got some answers finally about your health issues. I haven’t been as active on here either. It’s nice to take a break once in awhile. Have a fabulous day Dutchy 😃

[@MsDickerz]

Thanks Jim! Yesss it certainly is!! You too! :D

[@sharstic2929]

welcome back! I hope you're doing well :)

[@MsDickerz]

thank you :)

[@mytube821]

Wonderful to see you again. Make sure you always take care of you.

[@MsDickerz]

Always! :)

[@chaoticdemonpunk]

ahhh so excited to see that ur back!!

[@MsDickerz]

love you!!

[@_anna-c_2298]

Eeeeeeek hi ash!!

[@angie3792]

ASH OH MY GOD. its angie/chili!!!!! well the names rowan now. omg its been forever. is the server still up? probably not lol

[@biancab212]

Glad to see you back, Dutchy! Always put yourself before creating content ❤️ there’s lots of different KZbinrs who make content we can watch in the meantime, but only one DUTCHY! ❤️ lots of love from Melbourne xx

[@cheetopuff1989]

my godd!!! your videos made me feel better and happier about my sexuality, from laughing at all of these somehow true stereotypes for me, to relating to your videos. seeing you back makes me super happy and i wish that you get well soon!! 💞💞💖💖💞

[@MsDickerz]

awww I'm so glad!!!

[@mincom101]

I love your videos. So glad your back

[@MsDickerz]

thank you cutie!!

[@ROCKONplaceboforever]

Missed u so much hope u keeping well ily 💯❤❤❤❤❤🙏 thank u for being so open been struggling with mental health too u help me alot

[@MsDickerz]

[@josefonseca4155]

WELCOME BAAACK D GIRL!!!!!!!! Welcome to the C-club!! Dont worry there a lot of us around!

[@MsDickerz]

Thank youuuuu!!! Yes totally :D

[@vampirebl4des]

love you dutchy

[@MsDickerz]

love ya Lucy!

[@Hamzakhan-dt3gv]

You’re back

[@MsDickerz]

I am!!

[@wren8423]

hey dutchy! im so happy youre back, i missed you! but i am really glad that you took time for yourself because that is the most important thing. maybe this is weird, but you honestly *look* healthier and happier. i dont have celiac disease, but i do have diagnosed general anxiety disorder and i think i might have adhd, so i can relate to what your feeling a little. anyways, im glad youre back and i love you so much!!💖

[@MsDickerz]

aww thanks so much for saying that, means the world

[@ChaoticCaitlin1]

Hey! I don’t really comment much but I’m so happy you are back!! It made me happy to see a video from you. It’s cheered me up since yesterday I had to go to hospital for a severe allergic reaction but I feel better now apart from an achy body. My mum has anxiety and it’s so difficult so I’m so proud of you. I think I have some anxiety and my mum says I have some but she won’t take me to get tested because she doesn’t want me to be diagnosed with it and be seen as different I guess because she’s been like told she can’t do stuff because of it. Take as many breaks as you need. We understand that it could be difficult for you. Sending so much love 💛💛

[@MsDickerz]

Hi Caitlin! Aww thanks so much

[@venyabhatnagar789]

hey...seeing you again is so much better and glad to hear you are doing better now....i missed you soo much...hope you get better soon!

[@MsDickerz]

missed you!! thank you :)

[@noekie9786]

Just wanna say I absolutely love your outfit and the new background and I hope ur doing better.

[@MsDickerz]

aww thank you!!

[@rileymallinson4298]

I’ve missed you and your content!!! I’m so glad you’re back and that you took the time to prioritise yourself! Had a bit of a gender questioning time in the time you weren’t posting. I think I’m girlflux but I’m still investigating that part of me. Your channel really helps me to remind myself that I’m valid no matter what so I want to thank you for that!

[@MsDickerz]

I've missed you too!! Aww nice, I'm glad you're introspecting and finding more out about yourself! I'm glad to hear it!

[@nicolew4513]

Hey dutchy! i hope everything is okay. Love youuuu❤️

[@MsDickerz]

Getting there! Love you too! 💖💖

[@shaeseager8064]

Wow that's crazy I've been wondering why you were not posting and I even prayed for you a couple of times. You are one tough person! I don't have silic disease but I have a friend who does so I know what you are going through and I do suffer from Anxiety I get anxiety attacks at work a lot. You got this!!!

[@theonewiththeratpfp]

has it really been 2 months! that seems like it flew by but we did miss you every second of it!

[@MsDickerz]

yeah it flew hey! eeep missed you!

[@paolap6802]

Hey, I know at first it can be hard. But dont worry once you get used to it you will feel so much better and won't even be an issue. I have been coeliac my whole life. Hope you are able to manage and find right brands, and restaurants where you have options. And would love to be added to your group

[@MsDickerz]

Thanks so much lovely!!

[@CookiedoughProductions]

Yay!!!

[@MsDickerz]

🙌🙌🙌

[@weedismytherapy]

Missed ya! Hope youre doing okay:)

[@MsDickerz]

missed you too!!

[@michelledepietro2539]

Sending Prayers and Hugs

[@MsDickerz]

💖💖💖

[@caterrific09s8]

I am good I love you dutchy you helped me come out to my family

[@MsDickerz]

Love you! Proud of you!

[@melissaloyd1058]

❤😘

[@Hamzakhan-dt3gv]

Interesting video

[@cathalreilly4314]

I do get absent-minded touches I have a learning disability in my head so I suffer from a lot of things that you're talking there

[@cathalreilly4314]

Because I can go to my terraced because of the damn look down and virus I have my little Sheepdog that it up I need and I told my dog everything and my dog helps me release the stress

[@unicorntomboy9736]

I am happy to see you back. I was wondering where you went. I had a wired dream the other night revolving around a woman I met at university a couple of years ago (who said she was bisexual too) and we were dating. I wish we could have dated, but she was in a relationship at the time.

[@RubyGregersen]

So, I'm bi, and my parents support me, BUT I was talking to my cousin and she said that she supports the lgbtq+ community, but she feels weird around bi and lesbian people. When I heard her say that, I didn't tell her that I'm bi because I didn't want her to feel weird around me, so I just told her that I'm straight. I need help, because I don't know how to tell her. Please give me advice.

[@rageagainstthemicrowave1313]

This is a touchy subject. I would suggesting asking her why she feels uncomfortable, and why that is. It could be just from ignorance, so explain maybe why there's no reason to feel that way. You don't have to come out to her, but if you can possibly come to an understanding about that and explain to her how lesbian and bi people are just like everyone else, it may help you to eventually. She may say this because she believes thd stereotype that bi and lesbian women can't just be friends with other women (which isn't true, duh) But that doesn't make sense, straight people aren't into everyone of the opposite gender, so why would bi people be into everyone and gay people be into everyone of the same gender? A lot of straight girls will be accepting of gay guys while disliking sapphic women because they think we're gonna make a move on them and refusing to date bi men. It's sadly pretty common.

[@AveryToews2025BackFreeIM]

Hey I have celiac too!!, my mum got diagnosed when she was 40 and I’ve had it my whole life!! I’ve never seen anyone talk about it b4, thanks 4 this!! ❤️❤️❤️

[@AveryToews2025BackFreeIM]

You can still have bread, just without gluten, my whole fam eats gluten free now and my mum makes the best recipes!!

[@MsDickerz]

twins!! aww you're so welcome! I think I'll cover a lot more over on tiktok :) but yes happy to talk about it more on here too!

[@MsDickerz]

@@AveryToews2025BackFreeIM yeah!! I've been branching out and some of it isn't too bad :)

[@danilathouros8428]

Hey Dutchy, I am going through a similar thing I have GAD already and I have noticed things even when I was younger and now I’m trying to get a diagnosis of ADHD sending you love xx

[@MsDickerz]

aww sounds like we're in very similar boats! good luck with your journey! please let me know how things get on xx

[@danilathouros8428]

@@MsDickerz omg Dutchy Thank you, you have literally made my day ily xx

[@cathalreilly4314]

I had a terrorist Duchess and and I was going to her right up till the virus hit and in it had to be cancelled so I had a professional therapist I thought I had so it's no harm to go to a therapist

[@Doge_Studios]

I have been checking every week but I missed the first vid in a month

[@MsDickerz]

aww it's okay, you're here now!

[@kiefinity162]

As someone with a stomach tear and on the Bi-polar spectrum I truly feel you and truly hope you are even better now🙂stray strong mentally have a wonderful week ahead you and your your boyfriend alike✌️🔝…..maybe create a second channel where the two of you play games or something like that

[@cathalreilly4314]

I was in a bus crash going to school duchess coming home from school one day the bus driver give two girls and one young fella perfect orange with whisky mixers he was an alcoholic

[@cathalreilly4314]

That's when you suffer bad trauma in your life a DSH if you're in a crash or something you would get that and is it anxiety attacks or panic attacks anxiety can come for me it could be depressed or you could be by going to wear that things in life so we all get at some stage and see I had a 2

[@bananacat8012]

Also what type of specialist did you go to for a diagnosis of anxiety and also ADHD?

[@MsDickerz]

my GAD was diagnosed by a psychologist and I'm booked in to get a diagnosis of ADHD with a psychiatrist who specialised in adult ADHD!

[@bananacat8012]

@@MsDickerz thanks so much love you, you're such a great inspiration!!! you mentioned in your video if we had any video ideas, maybe a vlog or a cooking video, lockdown cooking or something like that. or reacting to memes, reddit or talking about things in society that are enforcing comp het, like looking at different things we normalise, use or sell. xxx

[@cathalreilly4314]

Sorrento from depression myself no on you

[@DarDarBinks1986]

FINALLY! DUTCHY! HAS COME BACK! TO KZbin! **raises the People's Eyebrow** I already got both doses of Sweet Lady Pfizer this month, three week apart from each other. No ill effects, no roboticization, no 5G, nothing so far. As of 8-1-2021, I'm now one year into HRT! One year of living as the woman I always knew I was! WOO! Now that I'm a year into living my truth, I'm thinking of getting myself back out there and meeting some women to date, but don't know where to start. For the past few months, I've had a big crush on my hormone doctor. She doesn't know I'm attracted to her, but I've felt this way about her since May. I can't get her out of my head. I always thought she was cute and hot, and I'm also attracted to brainy women. Not a lot of girls I know who can lock horns with me upstairs. I also get some slight gay or bi vibes from her (i.e., femme girl with short, unpolished nails), but I don't know for sure what team she bats for. I didn't see a wedding or engagement ring on her hand last time I checked, though. Ethics issues be damned, I've been thinking of making a move. Did some nonverbal flirting, mostly with my eyes; you can only do so much when you both have to wear masks. I've always had high standards and think that she might meet at least most of those standards. Despite barely knowing her, I can't help but feel this way about her. While I've dated girls before, they were all back when I was in boymode (mostly during my high school years), and none of them were exactly high-earners (What high school kid pulls six figures a year?). Going from them to someone like her feels like going from McDonald's to one of Gordon Ramsay's restaurants. Maybe it's because I've always had such high standards. Maybe it's my attraction to intelligent women. Maybe I'm looking for a sugar mama, to be set for life. Maybe it's because she's the first woman I've had these kinds of feelings for since I started transitioning. Maybe I'm a little girl looking for a mommy. Maybe it's something else, or a mix of these things.

[@MsDickerz]

Here I am! LOVE THAT FOR YOU!! :D keen to get mine! Eep thanks so much for sharing that with me/us. I'm so proud of you!

[@cathalreilly4314]

He was a Protestant bus driver and he crashed into a porch of an old cottage hitting the porch with the bus and engine 1 young fella and killing an adult and internet better people I got a piece of glass stuck in my head I suffered from shock for 5 months

[@brettcarruthers8838]

Glam with Dutchy, the new fashion and make up brand coming soon to the channel lol.

[@MsDickerz]

hahah aww I wishhhhh

[@ashlynntreichel4675]

Dutchy how do you do your bisexual eyeshadow?

[@MsDickerz]

Honestly I have no idea! hahaha I just play around with the colours :)

[@tristannastransgendertrend697]

Missed you Dutchy. So, while you were gone I saw a therapist and I am coming out transgender. I am in the first step in talking with therapist and getting cleared to change my name and then start physical transition. As always have been bisexual.

[@MsDickerz]

Missed you too!! I'm so so proud of you Tristanna! Well done! :D

[@tristannastransgendertrend697]

Definitely have learned the difference between gender and sexuality. They are very different from each other. Yet both part of the community.

[@tristannastransgendertrend697]

I plan on starting a channel soon to speak about my transition and the steps it takes to achieve to be the person you really are. I will keep you updated and show pics and videos.

[@cathalreilly4314]

I am truly lucky because I have a learning disability in my head because of the bus crash

[@MsDickerz]

[@RazDazThemArt]

You seem to grown loads also, just what I felt that came across in this video.. :)

[@MsDickerz]

Aww thank you :)

[@RazDazThemArt]

@@MsDickerz Your More then welcome - keep being fabulously you sweetie...

[@cathalreilly4314]

How should I give you another view duchy I have learning disability in my head

[@Nadia420__]

Hi. I'm a new sub, so you don't know me. I subbed after I saw your video on internalized homophobia a week or so ago. Currently struggling with that after discovering that I'm biromantic. Things are getting better, but there's still a lot to do. Sorry about the things that's happened in your life recently. I hope everything calms down and changes for the better. I'm excited to see more videos and content from you. ♡ I also follow you on tik tok and Instagram.

[@MsDickerz]

Hi Nadia, welcome to the fam lovely!! Aww it's okay to be struggling. Just know that so many people have experienced exactly what you're going through right now and it will all be okay one day. Thanks so much for your support!!

[@Nadia420__]

@@MsDickerz Thank you

[@colmdurkin7915]

Wish, you well Dutch 🙂🙂🙂🙂

[@MsDickerz]

:)))

[@midarismidwife207]

hey, im so new here but im bi. and look at us being GAD twins. love that for us. hope youre well

[@MsDickerz]

GAD queeennssss

[@MsDickerz]

hope you're well also :) and welcome x

[@cathalreilly4314]

So you can get bread and stuff with green writing Vicar in it about it sssniperwolf she has that she has to be on KZbin

[@cathalreilly4314]

I am pro-life touchy because I have a minor learning disability in my head but it was a bus crash that caused it I got a piece of glass stuck in my head

[@frozenlillypad2070]

"Nobody wants to be in lockdown". Me: ... I guess I am nobody lmao

[@MsDickerz]

[@cathalreilly4314]

Are you get gluten free bread yourself

[@MsDickerz]

Yesss

[@cathalreilly4314]

Does sssniperwolf to play the games on KZbin she has the same disease as you you should look her up she has celiac disease as well

[@angie3792]

hey dutchy its been a hot min. but js out of sheer curiousity, is your discord server still up? if any of yall r somehow reading this (idk, ash or felix or tits or shinx/riley or donna) hey its angie if u remember me but my names rowan now! we went thru a lot and it was v unpleasant but i hope you guys are doing well now. i remember many of you struggled with mental health issues and so do i. i wish you all the best in life as you move forward and hope you take care of yourself

[@MsDickerz]

Hiiii Rowan! Yeah it sure is! I made a new one though!

[@angie3792]

@@MsDickerz you calling me rowan made me so happy for some reason oh my gosh i love you. and ty for ur reply 😌 i hope that your disc server goes well :)

[@Lovelyalaajiah]

I just got fully vaccinated last Sunday. I did it because I had the covid-19 back in January so that's why I decided to get it.🏳️‍🌈

[@MsDickerz]

LOVE! So glad you're fully vaxxed!!

[@bubba283]

Me too, my new boyfriend talked me into it, I don't think my ex gfs would have cared enough to.

[@cathalreilly4314]

It was the bus crash that caused it so it was

[@jakepalmer3213]

Ive been diagnosed with coeliac disease since i was a baby 😂

[@MsDickerz]

Ooh there you go!

[@frozenlillypad2070]

No gluten, that fking sucks dude! :(

[@MsDickerz]

Ikr :(

[@cathalreilly4314]

You never looked to healthy on your videos duchess I am a good-looking that you know and your skin should be the bright pink if you were healthy but it's not if bread and stuff that that doesn't agree with you just don't eat it and that it

[@cathalreilly4314]

Will you do me one favour duchess quit talking about a dam lock down that's what could be annoying you and everybody just quick talking about a lockdown and a virus I don't give them Chinese the opportunity to get to get the freshed