Why I Left Mexico After 3 ½ Years Living Abroad | My Honest Story

Leaving Mexico was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made, but life had other plans for me. In this video, I share the real reason I left Mexico after living there for 3 ½ transformative years. From moving abroad during the pandemic, learning to adapt to a new culture, and building a beautiful life, to facing unexpected challenges that brought me back to the United States-this is my story of resilience, growth, and starting over.
I’ll take you through:
🌴 How I ended up moving to Mexico in 2019
📖 The life-changing experiences I had while living abroad
💔 The difficult decision to leave and what’s next for me
If you’ve ever considered living abroad or wondered what it’s like to start over, I hope this video inspires you to take a leap of faith and trust the process.
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[@ocmetals4675]

Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm mexican american and it always warms my heart to hear other people's stories in Mexico. Mucha suerte Hermana!

[@gloriakadar3288]

Mexicans are americans becouse America its a continent from Alaska to patagonia there isn't a country named America.

[@maalf1304]

The real Americans are the brown people of Mexico, Nicaragua, Venezuela, Bolivia, etc.

[@ANewHer2025]

Thst was such a blessing for you!!! I, as an older woman , am extremely proud of you for taking the leap! Remember .... the next time, you wont be starting from scratch, youll be starting with experience. BEST WISHES!🎉🎉🎉

[@PivotPixie]

@@ANewHer2025 love this. Thank you.

[@LP-nc6cr]

I wish you continued success in whatever you do, I’m so glad you were able to experience Mexico, Gods will you will go back.

[@Cgv69]

Thank you for sharing your life experience. I appreciate your kind words about my home country. Best wishes for you. You can leave Mexico, but it will always remain in your soul and heart. Saludos.

[@ethangamer3173]

Gracias cielo, te amamos mucho ♥ desde Mexico

[@BroriMendez]

So sorry to hear that, But your Mexican now so us Mexicans are hard working people and I know you will find a good Job soon. Mexico will always have a place for you, Saludos desde Hermosillo Sonora Mexico.

[@PivotPixie]

@@BroriMendez love this 🤎

[@teddydavis2339]

I love the intro. I love Mexico.I know that feeling. It has a piece of my heart as well. Welcome back!

[@PivotPixie]

@@teddydavis2339 thank you 🤎

[@kellymaresha]

I’ve been here for 3 years as well! I love it here and am looking into adoption in the next 18 months. I’m in Puerto Vallarta. LIFE CHANGING & SAVING!

[@PivotPixie]

@@kellymaresha wow, I love that for you. I’ve never been to puerto Vallarta but I want to visit .

[@kellymaresha]

@ Please come!

[@adftraining6]

How do you like living there? How long does it take to get accustomed to living there

[@kellymaresha]

@ It’s GREAT!!! I’ve made Hispanic friends and I think acclimation all depends on the individual.

[@TheCommaClub23]

I here as well would love to connect with you

[@marlisemarai9552]

Im so happy you loved living in Mexico 🇲🇽♥️🇺🇸

[@kctapioca]

I've been contemplating moving to Mexico or a different country. I feel I need a change. You are inspiring. Good luck with your future endeavors. ❤🎉😊

[@michijayjay]

please go to a different country. you voted for him and now dont like it that you lost your food stamps. please stay out of mexico.

[@Officemusickarla]

I am so glad you had that opportunity and COURAGE!!!!! Mexico is fucking amazing! I hope you did a lot of travel. If not, come back.

[@215carolma]

I have no doubt that you’ll be back ❤

[@PivotPixie]

@@215carolma for sure

[@danathomas5256]

Thank you for sharing your story. Also, I really appreciate that your video is organized and you got to the point without rambling.❤️

[@PivotPixie]

@@danathomas5256 thank you so much. I appreciate this observation you’ve made. I try my best to make my videos concise and straightforward .

[@dawannwilliams6301]

I am soo proud of you 🎉❤. Can’t wait to see where life takes you next.

[@khaiyahwright8686]

me too!!! Shawnie is an AMAZING BEAUTIFUL SOUL FROM GOD!!!

[@xaviercobos3302]

Second video I've watched, and just as awesome as the first. Not sure what you have planned next on the work front but you should consider teaching authentic storytelling to other KZbinrs. You're a natural. I could listen to you for days. Whatever you decide, I wish you all the best.

[@PivotPixie]

@@xaviercobos3302 wow wow wow! You just made my day! Thank You!

[@teekaymee3124]

What a beautiful journey thus far! Despite the move all things are working out for your good! Congratulations on the next chapter!

[@PivotPixie]

@@teekaymee3124 amen🙏🏾 thank you

[@khaiyahwright8686]

WE LOVE YOU SHAWNIE!!!! YOU ARE THE REALEST IT GETS. I LIVE IN HAWAII, I AM planning my new journey to live abroad. GOD SPEED!!!

[@PivotPixie]

Thank you so much.

[@parishino1]

I'm so sorry to hear that you had to leave... God willing you'll have an opportunity to return. We're starting our journey of moving abroad. Good Luck to you going forward.

[@PivotPixie]

@@parishino1 thank you and best of look you your family on your journey abroad 🙏🏾

[@josereyes-nx2wc]

No worries!!! There will be some time in the near future for you to go back👍✌️🙏🏼🥳

[@aohamer]

Yaass, something else is in store for you 💕I love your positive perspective on the situation. Shout out to moms for being so amazing. Thanks for sharing your journey with us, Shawnie! It's only up from here 🚀

[@PivotPixie]

@@aohamer My mom really is my rock . Love her downnnn lol. Thank you for such a lovely comment 🫶🏾

[@ohanaohana8844]

​@@PivotPixieyou are blessed

[@blklex71]

Brilliant young woman! Glad I stumbled in here. Now I’m subscribed.

[@PivotPixie]

@@blklex71 thank you so much 🤎 and welcome to my channel 🤗

[@yvonnie_bunnie]

Awwwww ❤❤❤❤❤ 🤟🏼 this is awesome love this ! Can’t wait to wait your videos and get caught up to this point

[@CK-yh9mi]

Well you sure earned the subscribe. I wasn’t planning on watching your entire video but you held my attention and captured my heart with your story. Mexico holds a very special place in my heart, so I hope that you find your way back there for however long you wish to stay. You are courageous, giving and a lovely person. I wish you the very best. ❣️

[@PivotPixie]

You just made my day. Thank you.

[@CK-yh9mi]

@ thank you for sharing your story. It really touched my heart. ❣️ I happy we have a platform for those who are creative to share with those of us eager to listen.

[@Maruelia]

first time watching your video..Thanks for sharing it. I wish you well and hope that one day you can return to Mexico.. I did and it blessed me to hear stories like yours. Thank you.

[@westmarrocks2369]

Excellent. “Wherever you go becomes a part of you somehow.” - Anita Desai. You got a good star. Keep going. 👍

[@PivotPixie]

love this

[@amberj7537]

I really appreciate your outlook & so glad you had that experience. I wish I had the confidence to embark on something like that. Excited to see what’s next!!

[@PivotPixie]

@@amberj7537 thank you so much. It es definitely life changing for sure and I’m grateful for the experience but excited for what’s next . 🤗

[@markomiranda283]

Bravo! It was a bold and wonderful thing you did for yourself moving to Mexico. Very courageous

[@PivotPixie]

thank you

[@dbrown9495]

I'm so glad you lived abroad. It can be a weight off your shoulders to see a new and exciting place. Nothing like a place that grew roses in your heart. Best wishes in the future.

[@PivotPixie]

It was definitely a beautiful experience. I'm very grateful.

[@DressingUpDollyLady]

Love the two tone bun. you speak very well for the audience. The right position will come when you least expect it. blessings🥰

[@PivotPixie]

@@DressingUpDollyLady thank you so much 🤎

[@mabeaute8963]

Good luck beautiful! And Tnx 4 sharing this topic!

[@savoryexposure]

Sorry that your Mexico journey had some hiccups. You were smart to have a strong backup fund which many who seek to move abroad don’t do. It’s definitely a reason why I’m still in the states!

[@PivotPixie]

@@savoryexposure hiiiiiiii. It was a beautiful chapter of life and I’m hella grateful but I’m excited for what’s next for sure. A strong backup fund is sooo important. So many people move abroad unprepared financially

[@makhetefall8003]

Hello, Shaune, this was a good video. I know how you feel about leaving a place you fell in love with. The worst part is when you are heading back to the airport, if flying, I went to Brasil for research and did not want it to end. En horabuena a usted, ahora usted puede hablar espanol. Viajar es lo mas bonito en la vida porque te da vida. You have a lot to offer with your international experience. Coexistence is crucial in our modern world. Hasta pronto, cuidate, Que Dios te cuide.

[@azul4021]

Awww ❤ I hope you can comeback soon

[@sashaguzman7]

Your personality made me smile throughout this video. Good luck to you. I subscribed to make sure I keep up with your journey 😊❤

[@PivotPixie]

@@sashaguzman7 thank you so much

[@Feralyank]

I enjoyed your commentary and your down to earth self awareness. Best of luck, Via con Dios.

[@PivotPixie]

@@Feralyank muchas gracias 🤎

[@revolutionarytravelfamily]

I needed to see this. My heart has been so sad since leaving Playa last May... Still renting there and hoping to get back soon 🙏🏿

[@PivotPixie]

You will certainly find your way back 🇲🇽

[@itsquinisha]

You're an OG. You'll be back out in these international streets in no time 🙌🏾

[@PivotPixie]

@@itsquinisha definitely, I’m plotting my next move as we speak lol .

[@alphamale4694]

August 22nd is my birthday too! I love Mexico and can’t get enough!!! Best wishes and I hope you get everything you want in life!

[@PivotPixie]

@@alphamale4694 hi birthday twinnn ♌️ thank you so much 🤎

[@journeytothemosthigh5021]

Mexico is a beautiful country! I lived there and traveled extensively there. I went back for a visit last year. Hope that your travel journey continues!😊

[@PivotPixie]

@@journeytothemosthigh5021 it truly is. Thank you so much

[@kingachiever]

Awesome video, I just moved back to Riverside, CA, from Tijuana, Mexico, after 2 years.

[@PivotPixie]

How was your experience?

[@kingachiever]

@@PivotPixie It was cool, I lived by the beach. Only 20 minutes from the border in Playas de Tijuana, The people confuse all black people as Haitians as there are many of them passing through to the US. ( Now that sh*t was irritating). I recently got temporary citizenship for 4 years. The infrastructure is the trade-off. I got tired of the raggedy roads and , long border wait times. If you ever choose a border city, make sure you have a Sentry or a motorcycle. That will save you a lot of time and headaches.

[@michijayjay]

please stay there. enjoy your maga vote. stay outta mexico

[@kingachiever]

@ I do what I want. Just left the Dominican Republic last week. Maga has nothing to do with it. The border is horrible with crossing everyday. you need either a sentry or mortocycle. I meet alot of great peoplw while being there. Once I get Sentry I will return.

[@FreeToBe_Me]

@@kingachieverTo clarify for others who may be planning a move to Mexico: he received temporary residency, not citizenship.

[@zfarsh7904]

Thanks for sharing

[@Surfboard927]

You are welcome to come back to Mexico sister.

[@fernandogallardo1604]

I subscribed after watching your third video probably your second home in Mexico thanks for sharing and making content

[@PivotPixie]

Thank you so much and welcome to my channel 🤎

[@rebeccaketner816]

I love how brave & bold you are!

[@Tropicalistico]

Espero que puedas regresar un día a México. Abrazos

[@iamlydiarebecca]

Your heart is there ❤ A part of you is there ! I believe you will find your way back if it’s meant to be 🫶🏽

[@PivotPixie]

@@iamlydiarebecca 🙏🏾

[@retrodesignworkshop9429]

Ser mexicano es algo contagioso. Morenita hermosa cuando quieras regresar esta es tu casa.

[@Filliejean]

Subscribed. Loved this video.

[@dogsandrabbits1]

Weird...the algorithm brought me to your video, and we share the same birthday and I wanna move to Mexico. Wowzers. Thank you for sharing.

[@PivotPixie]

Hi birthday Twin!

[@TheAlfredPlatform]

My husband is Mexican I lived there for about 2 years. We are gearing up to move back next year. Its just too unaffordable back in the states and feels like everything is already built here.

[@PivotPixie]

the USA is becoming so unaffordable. It feel like they want us to struggle.

[@websurfer5772]

@@PivotPixie Oh they do. They've written all about that. They've got every aspect of life covered so there's no way out. But this going global. That's what they've been saying.

[@Zee-yh4ow]

Mexico is unaffordable and the most dangerous country on earth not at war. Double NO 😂😂

[@osopapi]

@@Zee-yh4ow Unless you are a school kid then rhe US wins for most dangerous place. I live in Mexico and have never felt in danger like I used to while living in DC. Glad youre not coming down here.

[@Godhealsnatureheals]

@@Zee-yh4ow😂😂😂 sure!! Keep watching the news

[@MiguelRodriguez-ek6dj]

Thanks for sharing. My best wishes

[@ypcllc]

Our ATL Mexico stories are almost identical! I left to come back to the A Sept 21st! We have to connect!

[@PivotPixie]

@@ypcllc I’m so down! Shoot me a message on IG @pivotpixie or email me [e-mail]

[@celpaz4584]

I admire your courage and adventurous life philosophy❤❤❤👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 eres una inspiración!!!

[@PivotPixie]

thank you

[@eltiochusma]

Your positivity is absolutely UNCONTAINABLE! Thank you.

[@ezmealstravels9221]

Very wise for your young age. God bless

[@pameladavis45]

Thanks for your refreshing perspective! All the best in the future!

[@PivotPixie]

@@pameladavis45 thank you

[@slowlifetrading2312]

I live in Merida, now and have been here for 3 and a half yrs. we bought a home and plan on staying here for an long as I can imagine. So sorry you had to return to the states but you are so right the life that we live here is or was unimaginable for me living in Texas.

[@eujinlee9936]

This video was helpful and enganging, thank you so much for sharing your experience. It's very helpful because I'm looking to leave the U.S for good very soon.

[@LuisHernandez-bo4gb]

woooooooo what a beautiful experience thank you que bella experiencia

[@tracywalker244]

Hope everything works out for you. Thank you for sharing.

[@PivotPixie]

@@tracywalker244 thank you so much

[@-------------------DD]

Great video. Thanks. ♥️🇵🇸

[@PivotPixie]

@@-------------------DD thank you

[@jorgepenaloza6834]

Greetings from Guadalajara. I subbed. Take care and have a good day.

[@PivotPixie]

Holaaa Bienvenidos 🥳

[@AboutDesiree]

Loved your story telling❤ Thank you doe sharing this awesome experience, keep listening to the Lord (your gut feeling) so he can keep guiding you to your best self. It’s so hard being obedient sometimes… Blessings 🙏🏽💕

[@PivotPixie]

@@AboutDesiree love this comment. Thank you so much 🤎

[@ranmanfl5597]

thanks PP for your accuracy no-fibbing description of Mexico 🇲🇽 expectation is always an important aspect of enjoyment 😂

[@peacefulself7848]

Great video! Blessings on your new journey! ❤

[@PivotPixie]

@@peacefulself7848 tysm 🤎

[@jonathangarcia4089]

Mexico loves you ❤️

[@GenXQuench]

Best of luck on your journey and with your career. Be sure to get your permanent residency too after year 4 on your temp residency status. Me and my wife will be getting our temp residency cards in Mexico next week. Gracias a Dios! 🙏🏽

[@PivotPixie]

@@GenXQuench oh for sure . I have to renew it next year to become percent and I’m definitely going to. Gotta see it all the way through. I love being a resident. It takes so much stress off knowing you don’t have a time frame in which you need to leave . Good luck on your immigration process 🫶🏾

[@irisavila6643]

Amazing story thank you for aharing!

[@PivotPixie]

@@irisavila6643 thank you for watching 🤎

[@PivotPixie]

@@irisavila6643 thank you for watching

[@RobinNatural1]

Trust God and know you will be back where your heart is! Rest , rebuild and relax till you board that plane again for Mexico! 🇲🇽 Glad I found your channel. I also live in Atlanta and can’t wait to leave. I’m looking to move to SE Asia. Appreciate your video. Blessings!

[@PivotPixie]

@@RobinNatural1 I love your comment so much. Thank you so it 🤎🤎 wishing you a successful journey to SE Asia when it’s time 🌏

[@ShawndaBonaparte]

Playa Del Carmen will welcome you back!!!! We here waiting on your return!!

[@PivotPixie]

@@ShawndaBonaparte 🤎🇲🇽

[@LMHP1508]

Congrats 🙏

[@guillermogutierrez913]

Good!!!

[@kennethbailey3043]

May God bless and good luck.

[@tatiana.lifeinglow]

thank you for sharing! probably a common story / scenario, just not everyone would share it openly. Did you know Spanish when you moved to Mexico? wonder how long does it take people on average to learn the language when in Mexico. good luck with you new chapter! you started your new solar return in a new place, not surprising! Quite a few people have life transitions around their birthdays.

[@dianawestrup7416]

Start learning Spanish today! Challenging, so the sooner the better.

[@MrMC-xg8qp]

Great story, I lived in Playa Del Carmen for 6 months and left due to boredom. It's a nice place to visit but not to live as there weren't many options or activities for me, personally. Merida is my next stop, we'll see how that goes.

[@PivotPixie]

@@MrMC-xg8qp agreed! This is also why I left. It gets boring after awhile

[@localone1597]

You're so right. It's something most Americans who live in Mexico don't want to admit. It's very boring. There's only so much sight seeing to do and who is gonna spend up all their money doing that.

[@curcumagranola5283]

Well there's no much to do /see in Mérida neither nice city though

[@MrMC-xg8qp]

@curcumagranola5283 Oh really?

[@jasonito23]

You can always teach English in Mexico. In the University we get paid more than the average person here. Many teachers that have worked here where I work transition to something else after 4 or 5 years when we have sabbatical.

[@PivotPixie]

@@jasonito23 that is such a great idea. I never considered that.

[@PHlophe]

@@PivotPixie Babe, i have a much better idea. Teaching english in Nimes, Sete, or Montpellier ( this is france ) those cities are 3 1/2 hours away from barcelona spain , you can go back and forth between spain and France . The fact that you understand enough spanish means you can live in that part of france ( itis bilingula ) or go to spain. now personally i would not want to live in spain. they are a little too cray for my taste. Nimes is cheaper to live and you can link all 3 cities easy.

[@LuxeSciTech]

@@PHlophethis is a good idea, I’m going to look into this!

[@goldvideo]

I second the Spain idea. I split my time between Mexico and Spain and I love both! I also work remotely and in technology. And I also experienced a layoff in October 2024. The only lucky part for her is that I had saved up enough money to be able to weather the lack of income for a lot longer. I'm in Oaxaca now, loving every minute if it, but will be flying to LA to see my family next week. At the same time, I will be looking for that next opportunity to work remotely. Good luck with whatever you decide to do! Buena suerte con el próximo capítulo de tu vida!

[@jasonito23]

@ I live in Oaxaca too. lol. Not in the city though. I live in Huajuapan, Oaxaca. I was just in Oaxaca yesterday getting a passport for my son.

[@luli88711]

I hope you get to come back to Mexico 🇲🇽 ❤

[@PivotPixie]

me too

[@CurlysEnterprisesLLC]

this is awesome

[@tacorevenge87]

This year it’s going to be the deportation year. So great timing for you sis

[@PivotPixie]

@@tacorevenge87 Im a legal resident of México though. Or are you speaking of the USA? Either way deportation doesn’t affect me .

[@tacorevenge87]

@ both.

[@PHlophe]

you are serving looks here, i am feeling the whole earthy green , plant shirt etc..

[@PivotPixie]

@@PHlophe thank you so much

[@prettybrwneyez7757]

I tell ya, I saw the decline in tech jobs last year when i worked in tech for a large company. They pay you well but they’re always layoffs. The days of keeping one with the same company for more than two years is done so it’s hard to count on it as your move abroad safety net. CDMX is that girl and I know you miss it. You’ll be back…don’t let this bump in the road discourage you ❤

[@PivotPixie]

@@prettybrwneyez7757 yes in trying to get the heck outta tech because it’s sooo unstable . And CDMX is literally my favorite city. Thanks for your comment 🤎🤎🤎

[@Tuiyacooking]

May what you love find you!

[@TigerNgtMare]

Te extrañamos mucho!

[@PurpleNGold824]

I bought my house in Mexico…. Moved my family there and retired with 450k in investments at 36(still need 401k and SS when I turn 65) my wife still does some work as a graphic artist from MX to earn USD. We love it here. Will never go back most likely.

[@msbell221982]

Your story is inspiring. I want to move abroad soon but I don’t know how I’d make money. I also have a dog. We share the same birthday 8/22 🎉.

[@PivotPixie]

Hi birthday twin. A remote job is defineitely key to being able to live abroad.

[@qwintisntial1792]

HEY SIS IM NEW TO YOUR CHANNEL 💯 LOVE IT !!!Ps ❤️ You Fine !!! 😆 🤣

[@PivotPixie]

@@qwintisntial1792 😂😂thank you so much 🫶🏾 welcome to my channelllll🤎

[@avSCompact]

Living abroad as a resident is the best. The US passport is so strong you are welccome everywhere, almost. What's your next destination? Green looks so good on you.

[@PivotPixie]

@@avSCompact it truly is. I must agree. I’m actually speaking about my next destination in my video that premiers at 7pm est tonight ☺️🌏

[@Inunity2020]

Love your abundance mindset, keep going ❤, you’ve got this.

[@PivotPixie]

@@Inunity2020 thanks for the encouragement 🫶🏾

[@d.fisher2573]

I am so proud of you for being brave enough to see what else is out there. I’m a “Boomer” and want to move to Mexico, but it’s hard to change the life you’ve been brainwashed to live. (Sigh) Good luck to you!

[@TonitasticYT]

Living abroad is a dream!! You will get to find another great country to live in. Tech is very lucrative and everyone makes it seem like it’s 100% stable, but it’s not unfortunately. If you’re interested English teaching is very nice and there’s places like Japan and Korea that will house you! Best of luck out there! And I’m definitely subscribing girl! 😃

[@PivotPixie]

Hello and welcome to my channel. Thank you for subscribing. I never considered teaching english but I will defineitely look into it.

[@agl5132]

I've traveled on and off for over 40+ years. I left the US six years ago and have lived in three different countries (Mexico City, Mexico was one of them) and I'm getting ready to try a fourth country in a few months. I'll be 66 in a couple of weeks. I'm not rich nor do I have a savings so I slow travel.

[@PivotPixie]

@@agl5132 amazing! I too refer too prefer to slow travel. It’s the best.

[@elh1977]

I just found you. Honestly I was scared you would have talked mess about México but glad it was the opposite. My family is from border city and those have bad reputation. I've always wanted to go to México city. I love history and art.

[@outdoorgal9602]

Mexico City is amazing! So much to do and see there. There are also some beautiful towns south of CDMX, like Taxco and Cuernavaca! Make sure to have a couple of weeks to take it all in.

[@professoramirasims]

new subscriber here :) thanks for sharing your story

[@PivotPixie]

@@professoramirasims helloooo 👋🏾 welcome. Thanks for subscribing 🤎

[@cjohnson033]

Yes !!!!!!!!!

[@khaiyahwright8686]

Something GREATER ON THE HORIZON SHAWNIE!!!!

[@PivotPixie]

amen

[@volvoturbo1]

You are welcome to my country.

[@Sosofofo-o6m]

Can you make a video of your Mexican love story! Please ❤

[@PivotPixie]

I'm going to make a video about dating in Mexico definitely.

[@azborderlands]

I keep seeing videos of black people fighting with Mexican workers. I wish those people would understand how hospital Mexican is towards others.

[@FreeToBe_Me]

I love how terrified you are of calling out entitled yt ppl who treat you like crap because you’re so enamored of Blanquismo. Keep hating on the free Black Americans, weirdo 😊

[@bjoon]

As a Mexican, it saddens me that we won't have you around, hopefully momentarily. Mexico is a great place to be, and I only hope more people keep coming and thriving here. Immigration enriches our communities and builds bridges between us.

[@PivotPixie]

I Love your comment so much.

[@asaejapan7143]

Thank you for telling your experience. Don't they consistently hire language teachers? Probably at very low salaries, though.

[@PivotPixie]

@@asaejapan7143 yes and yes .