Why I Left Miami City Ballet |

[@kathryn_morgan]

I would love to thank everyone who has shared their story over the past few days. I think as we are seeing (and as sickening as it is) this is a true problem in the ballet industry. It takes SO much courage to speak up in our world, so I applaud each and every one of you. There is something else I would like to address. Since speaking out, the validity of my story has been called into question by some of my former MCB colleagues. I would like to discuss this further. First and foremost, this was NEVER about the other dancers at MCB. They are a beautiful group of talents who work incredibly hard, and I truly encourage you all to keep following and supporting them. We all need to band together and be there for each other through this. And they absolutely deserve that. That video was about me speaking my personal truth. Quite frankly, it’s very hard to come out and say that I was told I was too large YET AGAIN. This is something I’ve been dealing with for most of my career. And it’s very tough to hear. But some of my colleagues have claimed that I was fabricating things. It was also pointed out that I didn’t seem to work hard enough and that I was playing the victim. They are ABSOLUTELY entitled to their opinions, and I will not fault them for that. But I want to share a bit more from my perspective. I would like to start by saying that you never truly know what someone is going through. Unless you have been privy to every meeting, every hallway conversation, every comment in class, every doctor appointment, or have been with them 24/7, you can’t possibly know the whole story. Here’s a bit further into what happened. Once my body was called into question by artistic, I started doing whatever I could to get the weight off. Part of that was not eating, but I also over-did it in other ways. So some days, instead of going to class, I went to my nearby Equinox to do cardio for an hour and sit in the sauna to try and burn off every inch I could. Even looking thinner from one day to the next was important to me. There were cardio machines at the ballet studio, but I wanted to work on my own time away from prying eyes. I was too embarrassed. I was desperate to burn fat, and quite frankly, cardio does that better than class. I even hired a personal trainer on my own dime and worked with her when I wasn’t rehearsing. I was so desperate to please the powers at be so I could dance. But I kept all of that to myself out of fear of being judged or ridiculed further. Once I was pulled from Firebird, I was so humiliated that I truly couldn’t bring myself to be in the building any more than I had to be. Was this lazy? In some people’s eyes maybe. But I was so messed up mentally that I couldn’t look at myself in a leotard. I knew I wasn’t coming back next season (especially after being pulled out of Nine Sinatra Songs), so I didn’t want to put myself through being in company class every day. Especially when we went into the theater for performances (and I was the only member of the company not performing AT ALL), it was beyond humiliating. All I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and hide. So I did whatever I had to do to stay mildly sane. I tried to put on a good face which might have come across as cold or uncaring, but I was dying inside. For some people ballet class is therapy. However at that point, for me is was torture. I knew my body was being scrutinized at every turn, so for my own sanity, I started avoiding it. I am certain the fact that I wasn’t always in class towards the end has translated to me “not working hard”. Honestly, I just couldn’t do it any more. When you have been told your body is not good enough TIME AND TIME again, it truly does a number on your psyche. And being taken out of so many roles left me depressed and deflated. So instead, I kept going to the gym FOR ME and to not be under the gaze of anyone. Your mental state is a big thing especially for dancers. And I’m sure everyone who has been in this situation understands that to varying degrees. I didn’t fully disclose all of the medical things that were going on. My autoimmune illness is absolutely real, and looking at my blood work results was highly disheartening. I had been off medication for 3 years, and at that point had to go back on it. And sometimes that medicine makes your body tired. One of the problems that makes Hashimoto’s so tricky is that stress makes it flare up. So while many people CAN lose weight by starving or doing insane amounts of exercise under pressure (not advocating for that), for those of us with this condition... it’s the opposite. Your body freaks out, shuts down, and holds onto everything it possibly can. I know that seems illogical, but others with this illness can attest to that. My doctor told me it was important to do what I needed to do not just for my mental health but for my body so it didn’t shut down completely. I truly think that’s one of the reasons I pulled my calf. I wasn’t eating enough and my muscles were giving out. So that’s just one more thing I was dealing with. I don’t say all of this for sympathy or to provide excuses. I say all of this to reiterate that you don’t know the full story of what someone is dealing with. As I said previously, my colleagues are entitled to their opinions, and I have no doubt that some of them believe I wasn’t working hard and that I didn’t care. That’s totally fine. I’m sure I would have felt the same if I had been in their shoes. But I did care. Deeply. It was just out of sheer humiliation and letting everyone down that I completely shut down. Could I have fought back more and been fired up more to prove myself? Possibly, but at that point, I don’t think so. I was suffering under what had been said to me about my weight over and over again, and the fight was gone. Others might have been stronger than I was and reacted differently, but everyone’s way of dealing with things is unique. I apologize if anything I said in that video offended anyone, and I regret my comment about the “breadcrumb show”. That was uncalled for, but I was blowing off steam. I am human after all. What speaks volumes to me is the amount of stories I’ve heard about over the last 48 hours, not just at MCB but at companies and schools everywhere. It’s sickening. And things absolutely need to change. We need to support each other through this- the ballet world is hard enough! The dancers are the life of this art form. As I said before, THANK YOU to all of you who spoke out. This is too important. I was prepared for backlash, as that’s the risk you take when you rock the boat. But as I do have this platform, I have to use it to speak up for those who can’t. I needed to speak up from my point of view, and you are helping all of us by speaking out as well! I will continue to fight for each and every one of you. So much love and gratitude to all of you. With all my heart, Kathryn

[@cloudywinter772]

Thank you for your thoughtful comment in response to the latest development. Frankly, it is inappropriate and logically flawed for some MCB people to come out and cast doubt on your story, as they are not privy to all the encounters/data points you personally experience. Also, while discrimination based on body type is hard to prove, MCB dancers have a much more homogenous body type compared to those of other Balanchine companies like NYCB or PNB. That says a lot. And 8 people left before Covid? That again says a lot. And the audacity to want to keep you on the roster in exchange of "a leave of absence"!!!! As a frequent ballet goer, I am very offended by the mistreatment of dancers, cartel-like management, and the assumption that the audience retains a single, old-fashioned taste. It would be great if you shake up the ballet world with your own company/initiatives.

[@lea4834]

From the bottom of my heart- thank you very much for speaking up about this. The ballet industry is treating its dancers horribly and it is time for a change. Growing up in the ballet world- as many professional ballet dancers do- it is understandable that many dancers internalise and defend attitudes that are harmful for them whether it be attitudes about food, weight, body shape, or the mental and physical strain it is acceptable to be put under. It should never be acceptable to dance hungry, injured, or to forgo rest and repair of the body in favour of more exercise just to fit a very narrow aesthetic. It is neither sustainable nor necessary to be a good dancer, nor worth it in the long run.

[@cloclocupcake7]

Your perspective on things is so mature, respectful, and thoughtful

[@hillaryc7109]

Can anyone direct me to these comments made by MCB dancers?

[@helendavies1326]

I love watching ballet but it has always worried me that some companies have improbably slim dancers. They seem to convince themselves that this is aesthetically pleasing. It is not. I know dancers need to be healthy, strong, fit and properly nourished. But no one, let alone some one with a metabolic disorder, should abuse their body to fit somebody's warped idea of what is aesthetically acceptable. What about forming a collective of dancers with similar values? Start to change the accepted aesthetic. Ooh you've got that idea already, just heard it. By the way you have a lovely figure, I wish I had had a body like that at some time in my life. I'm 63 now and at least double your weight! More active than I have been in years but years of inactivity and healthy eating plus too many enjoyable treats have taken their toll. All the best for the future. You have let no one down. As for Miami City Ballet their motives are a mystery at best and downright cynical at worst. They did not deserve you.

[@dmgooding14]

They don't fit *your* mold. Miami City Ballet is not Kathryn-shaped. Not in beauty, grit, compassion, innovation, or tenacity. They don't deserve your name on their roster.

[@thebookwyrmslair6757]

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

[@kkauffman01]

You’ve got that right!

[@JA-ey7ep]

So true about Kathryn! Well said.

[@Gipsywriter]

Perfectly voiced!

[@sweetbabyasia]

Exactly!!

[@somaticpsyche]

Stop making excuses for them. The fact that “you’re not someone’s cup of tea” does not excuse manipulative leadership.

[@annadenys127]

YES! Say it louder for the young girls that are going to audition for companies that scare people into abiding by this behaviour.

[@victoriainge97]

Totally agree!

[@Evanna11LilyLuna]

Definitely! If things aren't working out for whatever reason they should just outright say so, and not use weird stupid 'tactics'.

[@rubylefebvre]

Thank you! I think she doesn’t want to get blackballed from the ballet world or something

[@hannahpop355]

Ruby professionalism is a sickness in cases like these. It’s sad she has to add a disclaimer to manipulation.

[@1DarrianO]

The culture of psychological abuse and mandated anorexia in ballet has to stop. I am so sorry you had to go through this.

[@tanchichii]

@@cmulder002 what

[@l.alexandra5871]

This is not psychological abuse. This is reality. It’s a career; it’s a job.And most dancers are mot anorexic or they couldn’t have the strength to dance!

[@Qrtuop]

Of course it is abuse. It's called 'workplace harassment' in fact. In no other normal job is that kind of treatment normal or even legal. In music, dance and plastic arts they just get away with it under the guise of it being "art", because they know this is a person's passion and they will put up with it, and they can get away with it.

[@shammydammy2610]

@@l.alexandra5871 Enough of them are. The stats are pretty bleak. What percentage of them being anorexic do you personally consider to be acceptable?

[@TuberoseKisser]

@@l.alexandra5871 reality and psychological abuse can coexist.

[@dancingwithmackenzie]

I dont know why they would hire you and then treat you like that because you look AMAZING in those videos!!!!

[@BoglimWrangler666]

hi kenzie

[@miriamdesire496]

BTW, Mackenzie, I love your videos, and you are amazing

[@ladybugdunn8116]

You and Kathryn are soooo amazing! I watch both of you all the time!

[@helenclark2942]

OMG ILYSM OMG

[@melabrylczyk]

kenzie!! ur so sweet!

[@skoch7866]

Kathryn, this is hard to say but as events unfolded their intentions are clear. They never intended to actually give you a chance. They conceived of this idiotic marketing plan to use you for your name and what you've built with your online presence. It's objectification period. They didn't look at you as an inspiration, they looked at you with dollar signs. It's disgusting and indicative of why Miami City Ballet is in the financial trouble it's in to begin with. Integrity gives birth to success. CLEARLY, Kathryn, YOU are the only one who came out of this with your integrity intact. Did you let us down? Well we aren't relying on you to only dance. We are looking to you to stand as a pillar against the waves of unhealthy and toxic attitudes that sometimes infect Company management. So no you did EXACTLY what we hoped and need you to do and we are proud of you! Sadly if they had honest and pure intentions you would have shined in Miami. Instead you are shining for us online. Chin up, good things happen to good people.

[@smile-gg1xi]

s koch this is the truth and beautifully written

[@fatouj1191]

MY EXACT THOUGHTS.

[@Caturday123]

I completely agree!

[@elephante2002]

Perfectly put. Thank you Kathryn for always sticking to your core principles.

[@pegaseg70]

THIS👆👆👆

[@sunnyballet]

sounds like a toxic environment. You did the right thing.

[@CafeBikeGirl]

Completely agree

[@kathryn_morgan]

I am BLOWN away by your lovely comments and messages. Thank you SO much. You have no idea what this means to me.

[@SamiaSH674]

You’re so strong Katy 😣💕 never forget that 💖

[@futuresuperstar201]

You were right to leave. You have created such an amazing platform for dancers to talk about body image and you would not be true to yourself if you continued to put yourself through that negativity. I have gained a lot of weight since I graduated high school and aged out of my dance studio, but your content has been really encouraging and I want to find recreational adult classes to keep doing what I love no matter what my body looks like

[@AbigailWells2005]

if you have to choose between your happieness and trying to make everyone else happie, choose your self every time, some may say its selfish, but realy we are hear on this earth to figure out what WE want to do

[@kristiLB93]

Thank you sharing. We are here for you!

[@NatashaEstrada]

I feel they hired you to use you for the social media boost you'd give them and the social kudos they'd get from it.

[@misskyliesue]

I can't believe that a company got KATHRYN MORGAN as a soloist and screwed up so bad. The fact that eight dancers left speaks volumes. This whole thing is infuriating, heartbreaking and inspiring all at the same time. Katie, you are an absolute inspiration to so many, including me, an almost thirty year old dance teacher. Also, The Columbus Ballet in Georgia would GLADLY get involved with Kathryn Morgan and Friends! My kiddos adore you and would be so grateful for a wonderful opportunity to perform with professional dancers. We don't get to interact with many "bigger" names in Ballet, because of where we're located.

[@maryavanunnery8240]

Why did they leave ? I noticed their roster was sparse

[@sharonkeogh7036]

Who are the 8 dancers who left ?

[@justcogitating]

You keep saying, "It's fine, it's their right to prefer a certain look." But no, it's not right. The mind games and passive aggression of ignoring you and of taking you out of dances last minute are completely not right or ok-- if they aren't happy with your look they should be honest and tell you and let you go instead of keeping you guessing. But also, we have seen how prevalent eating disorders are among ballerinas. Artistic directors, if your preferred look is starving and unhealthy, that's not ok. If a size 2 is "too large," it's time for you to change your preferences, not your dancers.

[@tawarwaith-en9fo]

Exactly what I was thinking. They were gaslighting you Katy! That has nothing to do with opinions or prefernces. You were under a lot of physical and mental stress, because that is were they put you. Good you got out when you did! I fear for the young dancers who might not know their limits and worth as well as you do. You are an inspiration to me exactly BECAUSE you are not a stick in a tutu and because you dance through your illness! You give me the hope I might aspire to something. I am not a professional dancer but I have been in ballet all my life and I too struggle with illness. If you can make it back on stage I can make it back on point. Keep going, you are amazing! Would love to see Kathryn Morgand and friends!

[@MargheritaRyan]

Super sad that labor laws are not applied to dancers/entertainer's places of employment. Ballet/ Dance world is a haven for biases related to color, gender, body type... Art orginates from the brain then translates into the body as needed or desired not the other way around!! Ugh. So sorry for your horrid treatment.

[@adrianisimona]

Thank you. No more words. Thank YOU. ❤

[@priscillaeyles3301]

So true, let's stop normalising toxic misogny and body shaming in all industries!

[@HJ-ju4ui]

and also if someone doesn't have ''the look'' why hire them in the first place ? just to torture them and try to make them change? that's just cruel and doesn't make any sense

[@rainbowdillard8581]

If ballet were really only about perfect bodies, perfectly executing pre-choreographed moves, it could be done by animatronic puppets. But it is not. It is about the physical body expressing the yearnings of the soul. I wouldn't have blamed you for simply shutting down, crying, and giving up. I fear I would have. Instead, you are saying, "I will not accept this. I am going to dance." It's a beautiful demonstration of courage. Let's give Kathryn a standing ovation.

[@mariapetras5835]

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

[@gracethome6959]

Beautifully said

[@zaakhard]

Bravo

[@judyvicks9014]

You did the right thing. Just as I did the right thing many many years ago. I was not perfect either, but rather then stay and never been given a chance to dance in Nutcracker, and always hearing the word no to everything, I left and never looked back. Sometimes it is better to just leave. You have validated the talks I still have with myself. Did I do the right thing. Yes you did, and yes I did. I am sure you will dance again and hoping that what you have in mind will come to fruition.

[@mhwelsh3551]

gorgeously put!

[@beautywearsboots6458]

Wow! Slaughter is THE ballet for people who think it's all just ribbons and tutus. Incredible watching you dance that piece, and it showcases your range beautifully

[@kathryn_morgan]

Thank you! And so true! it's such a happy ballet.

[@janetg.]

I am so sorry this happened to you. Being a professional ballet dancer was my Plan A. Like you, I studied for many years. I had the talent, and I had the skills and I had the size 00. I did not have the face. I was not a pretty girl. No one really wanted to tell me that, but finally after being turned down over and over again, that was the main issue. Being real here, That was 40 years ago, Things don't change, they want a perfect look. I was not perfect. They always talk about "body shame," but let me tell you... there is face shaming too, It's a silent killer, it destroys dreams, hopes and wishes. Even after I had several facial plastic surgeries to correct "hard on the eyes" features, it still wasn't good enough. Am I bitter....yes. Did I deal with it....yes. Does it still hurt....yes. I ended going to nursing school and was a nurse for 22 years and went back and became an elementary school teacher. My first love is still ballet though. You have my empathy! Keep dancing...you're beautiful! P.S. My daughter did study ballet for years and fit all of the "characteristics and attributes" schools wanted. In middle school, she made the decision not to audition for the company schools because she saw the nepotism that exist and decided to change her Plan A to be a doctor. She's now is her first year of medical school and is not looking back at the ballet world.

[@gregj831]

What happened to you is beyond reprehensible. My faith in people seems to wane with each day.

[@nincigo9499]

Thank you for this comment, this is an uncomfortable truth in most performing arts. When people talk about "it" factor it is often "pleasant to look at" and a pretty face and smile hides bad technique. Edit: spelling

[@atsugadri]

🤍🤍🤍, you are a warrior.

[@clt2744]

WELL DONE - both u n your daughter

[@gojl5567]

To "just take a leave of absence, and we will keep your name on the roster" is BS. Translation, we still want to use your name for marketing, but don't want to pay you.

[@moxielicious401]

Exactly. Spot on.

[@Constantin9va]

Despicable! It’s so transparent how they used her for clout and then played mind games on her. Makes me so mad!

[@karensanders686]

100% right.

[@micheletsamsrdinos3948]

So they want to use use the name of someone who has become an icon, but not support you artistically or financially. What a bunch of dirtbags.

[@sharri115]

Yup!

[@oggtastic]

They wanted you for your name, not for what you are or what you can do. It's a sick publicity stunt that I hope will backfire on them.

[@GhislaineBeauce]

It definitely will, karma is a b*tch!

[@tesselllation]

It already is !!!

[@beautywearsboots6458]

A dear friend of my family once quit a job that was damaging to her mental health by saying "I'm going to go where I am celebrated, not tolerated.) I was probably about 5 when this happened and it has stuck with me my whole life. I hope it sticks with everyone who reads this too.

[@hannahringel4892]

Very inspiring. Your comment deserves more likes.

[@Karolinavictoriahelena]

Very wise words, I think I need to do that. I am not even sure if I am tolerated at work, I feel like I should not be worried about them firing me, because you can’t fire a slave, you need to sell it.. that’s how I feel

[@peggyandrews2951]

"being in shape" should be about fitness, and the ability to get through a ballet without getting too tired (and therefore more likely to be injured). It is utterly shameful that people are still being told that they are "too big", or that "not in shape" is being used as a euphamism to insinuate that people are overweight. I also follow gymnastics, and at the moment a revolution is taking place. Gymnasts are demanding an end to weigh-ins and other abuses that have been going on for decades. "Stick figure" is not natural, and isn't healthy, especially if someone's body doesn't naturally tend towards it, and it shouldn't be normalised. You are an inspiration, you are a powerful, strong voice advocating for health and healthy dancing. I hope for you that you can find a place where you will be appreciated for all that you have done, and all that you can do!

[@thebookwyrmslair6757]

YES to healthy revolutions in both!!!

[@Fernahnda]

Katie and Chellsie Memmel should do a collaboration. I would love to hear them talk about coming back to gymnastics and ballet in their 30s and their experiences with similar cultural issues. Chellsie has talked about how her relationship with food is much better than it was in 2008, for example.

[@Teverell]

There are times I wish KZbin allowed people to like a comment more than once. This is one of those times.

[@peggyandrews2951]

​@@Fernahnda That would be INCREDIBLY cool!

[@dollybb4820]

Fernanda Van Atta YES OMG! I have thought this. They both inspire me so much

[@maxxq874]

Hi Kathryn, I'm from the MMA fight gym with the group of guys who have benefited from your channel. Because of you, our hips, knees, and ankles are in healthier shape and our fight skills are much improved. You have a group of guys who appreciate your skills and knowledge. I guess what I'm trying to so clumsily express is that we all support you doing whatever you feel that you need to do. You come first. Thank you for being who you are and what you do. PS: Admittedly, we all have a serious crush on you and you make our hearts go all thumpity...(sigh). PPS: All of the above is said with the utmost respect and sincerity...especially the "thumpity" part.

[@bridgetf88]

wait this is so wholesome

[@AmyB369]

I love your comment! I am a dancer who also practiced jiu jitsu and I found that my flexibility and strength from dancing really helped me in jiu jitsu

[@Prettytacky]

I love this SO MUCH

[@kathryn_morgan]

Awww thank you so much! Your comments always make my day! And I took everything with a huge smile! :)

[@melissasmith6762]

Wasn't this written before months ago? That's a little creepy.

[@monalilandaabel6585]

Come to Oslo, Norway. The Norwegian National Ballet prefer dancers with a healthy body.

[@brock1856]

@firefly33 skinny shaming seriously, she’s trying to help her she’s been told she wasn’t thin enough and she wasn’t eating and your worried about skinny shaming shut up .

[@hannahhester8376]

@@brock1856 Hey, what she was trying to say is you shouldn't shame someone who is skinny in a HEALTHY way. Girls can be naturally thin, and some girls are naturally bigger. Just the way we're made. If we all looked the same, it'd get pretty boring, in my opinion.

[@monalilandaabel6585]

I do not see how what I wrote can be interpreted as "skinny shaming". The Norwegian National Ballet wants healthy dancers. Some are healthy and skinny, while others are healthy with a little more "meat on the body". When a dancer is ill or gets an injury, they get paid during sick leave.

[@BernardProfitendieu]

How is it helping her telling her to get on a plane to Norway where (spoiler alert!) NO job awaits her? It's just dumb youtube talk, it doesn't help anyone. Girl shoulda hung onto her job, she let false pride rule her decision making. Her fantasy about starting a "Kathryn Morgan and Friends" tour is misguided. She's not the draw she thinks she is. No one's gonna fund that nonsense in a pandemic (or after). Wake up, people! You don't walk away from a job and medical benefits in the middle of a pandemic

[@hannahhester8376]

@maseratic boychik No, they are NOT. You could not do 12 hours days while not eating. The reason they are skinnier is because they're burning through food so quickly.

[@bellaluna9572]

Their professionalism was non-existent. They were rude, petty, and toxic. No two words about it.

[@tawnytuppence5573]

You haven’t let anyone down, Kathryn. If you had stayed, you would have let yourself down, and that would have been far worse. Your views toward dance and dancers are too pure and altruistic to fit into the mold that company had for you. I’m glad you listened to your heart and body and are out of that situation. You are loved by so many, and we’re happy to see you thrive! We’re cheering for you!

[@melodys9188]

absolutely!!! she is such a role model in the way that she recogized her worth, didn't gloss over the manipulation, and prioritized her health like bruh. that takes so much strength

[@ArtisteRenee]

“Leave your name on the roster”....they wanted to use your name and online presence. It’s absolutely despicable that they hired you and then proceeded to treat you so poorly. I’m so sorry you went through all of this. You let none of us down for putting your health and emotional wellness first! This happened for you and not to you. MCB clearly needs better leadership if 8 other people left as well. The ballet and concert dance world can be such a toxic place. A big reason I had to step back and reevaluate my dance journey.

[@bellar.1379]

Ballet companies dont realize that the rest of the world is at a point where we don't want to see dancers that are all stick thin and look exactly the same. There is strength and beauty in our diversity in all skin colors, body shapes and sizes. I want to see the dance world change along with the rest of the world. Kathryn, your story about leaving Miami City Ballet and what led you to do that is so disappointing. We are not let down by you at all!! You are amazing and inspiring no matter what you decide to do for your health, which is so important over any title or role, like you said. Thank you for all you do ❤❤

[@grubbraw]

Yeah. I seen one dancer, who I am not going to name, looked so weak and frail. I was sacred for her.

[@gloriazearett5222]

THIS COMMENT.

[@gaylenehagler2680]

Amen!

[@Laura_DiNunno]

I was shaking my head throughout. What a horrible bait and switch to pull on a dancer. The fact that 8 dancers left says a lot about what kind of company atmosphere they're fostering and has nothing to do with you.

[@melsoft121]

I understand having preferences for a “look”, but for you to tell them before you signed the contract that you can’t be the stereotypical “ballet body”, have them tell you they’re ok with that, and then turn around and pull the behaviors you had directed at you? That is unacceptable.

[@krisbaker4095]

That's what I don't understand. What was the point of hiring her if she didn't have the look you wanted?

[@melsoft121]

@@krisbaker4095 exactly! I wasn’t hired for any of the shows in my type of dancing when I auditioned because I was too short compared to the rest of the cast to keep the lines looking right. They were upfront about the height requirement changes and it was no big deal, but if I’d been hired and constructively dismissed or told that I somehow have to get from 5’0” to 5’4” and belittled about an aspect about my body that I can’t change, that would have been completely unacceptable, plus it would have denied me the opportunity to change career paths at a good time or find a different contract. I didn’t end up getting a contract anywhere, but not only was I given the respect of honesty, I also didn’t get my hopes up and waste a ton of time. Companies know what they want from the bodies of their dancers or if they’re willing to compromise on aesthetic for artistry well before they hand out contracts, tons of incredible dancers with a traditional ballet body, and a decent number of companies that prefer artistry (which Kathryn has in spades) and skill over any other quality. There’s no excuse for trying to manipulate dancers into harming themselves in this day and age, or to mess her up finding a contract that will actually work for the qualities she brings to the table. The whole situation is just shameful.

[@Andrea-sx3xo]

The way they treated you was horrible. 😞 You made the right decision to leave and it’s honestly their loss. Lost all my respect for the company. Katie you ARE an inspiration and a huge one for all of us 💙 Also my heart broke when you started crying 💔 stay strong Katie we all love you 🥺

[@thebookwyrmslair6757]

YES to all of this. They wanted your publicity and following, not YOU. YOU are more valuable and capable than they gave you credit for. Shame on them. Proud of you.

[@smadm2437]

Well said we do love you and thank you for all you share on your channels Katie. I will share your video on instagram 🙏🙏🙏

[@balletmeli]

Lynn Shallue well said on the publicity

[@deniseganey6890]

You are such a remarkable young woman, nothing will stop you from growing and expressing your GIFTS.

[@s.s2943]

So very sorry this happened to you. Having been through an eating disorder from ballet when I was younger, I’m now dealing with Crohn’s disease and ongoing stomach ulcers and issues. At one point in college I was living on coffee and cigarettes just to stay thin for dance. Your talent deserves better treatment. Big hugs.

[@virginiaviola5097]

You know what Katie, Margot Fonteyn would never have been put on a stage, as she was, for as long as she was, based on Miami Ballet’s concept of what makes a dancer great. You just have the most beautiful lines, gorgeous legs, graceful, musical and lyrical, and are a joy to watch..if being a great dancer equates only to size and not talent, then ballet, especially American ballet has shot itself in the foot. 🩰

[@MsHellblazer]

If they don't love you, they don't deserve you. Old italian saying.

[@mhwelsh3551]

love this!

[@adrieneceleste]

I like this saying ❤️

[@katherinebervera4790]

Totally unnecessary abuse, and from a woman director, even worse.

[@wizzteck07]

I wish the directors of ballet companies would understand that we don’t want to see dancers on the stage that look like a stick figures. I don’t understand their casting decisions at all, If I lived in America I would have come to your performances and loved it. I personally struggle with this too. I’m a musical actress and while the rules on bodysize are nowhere as strict as in ballet, I have been told to loose the extra weight by some directors, especially when I was only in the dancing ensemble. I’m a size 4.

[@sabbottart]

The directors know exactly what they’re doing. The limelight is a flash in the pan for any physical sport.

[@pitulanek]

@@sabbottart What do you mean?

[@alyssa.herrin]

Not being someone’s first choice, or even third, is fine. Being treated as a lesser person because you aren’t their choice is another. Being treated rudely is more than “not their cup of tea”. Value yourself. ❤

[@cindyb.9998]

I’m so sorry Kathryn. 😢 That was definitely not a healthy environment for you. You may never be the stick figure they wanted, but you’ll always be the “best” dancer they ever had. ♥️

[@rebekahnewman3876]

My jaw dropped when they told you you are not an inspiration because you’re not stick skinny. I can’t believe you experienced that and it’s a testament to how inspirational you truly are that you can speak on this with clarity and honesty. Love you Kathryn

[@lunazhou6316]

Same! When I tell you i had to pause the Video with an opened jaw just to realise what i had just heard...

[@hmm6088]

Totally agree!! That was such a horrible thing to say. They don’t get to decide what makes a person an inspiration; The reason she is such an incredible, amazing inspiration to me and so many people is that she struggled with thyroid issues for so many years, and did not think she would be able to even be on a stage again- and after all those years, she became a SOLOIST in a company. If THAT’S not inspirational I don’t know what is. And the way she speaks about body image in dance is really good, because not nearly enough people address it. Things will not change if we don’t speak up about them :)

[@rebekahnewman3876]

Pretzel Queen exactly. I believe Kathryns voice on this topic can inspire other dancers to speak out, too. We as supporters of the arts do not want to support companies who treat the artists this way. We need to demand better of the biggest ballet companies and in order to do that, the stories must be told!

[@lunazhou6316]

@@hmm6088 And that's on what? That's on PERIODT

[@powerofalto]

It kills me that young dancers who don’t have Katheryn’s 32-year-old discernment are frequently subjected to this sort of abuse and remain in the situation until their bodies and hearts are broken. I’m so glad that you listened to your body, Katie, and got out of such a toxic environment. It’s deeply troubling that MCB management handled themselves in this way.

[@thebookwyrmslair6757]

Psst, update your description. It still shows you as a soloist with Miami. I am so glad you decided to leave that toxic community! I hoped you would choose yourself when they rejected you for Firebird.

[@kathryn_morgan]

Thank you

[@violetadaguiar9776]

Dude. Reality really gets distorted in that kind of environment... Katie you look sooo good, you do not look heavy at al! In the footage of slaughter you look so bomb. This honestly feels like they kind of back stabbed you, they said they wanted to embrace the dancer you were when they hired you and then they turn and say it's not good enough for their idea of how you should look? That's unfair and toxic. I just want to say that I'm not even a dancer and I follow your channel and find you hugely inspirational. Stay strong Katie :)

[@sunnygem21]

I agree, the disturbing part is the company not being honest and upfront about what they really wanted. Of course the fact that they wanted such an unrealistic body image is disturbing in itself.

[@jocelynaulin8188]

Dear Kathryn, The current "ideal" of a ballerina is a learned perception which is totally unhealthy and wrong. As an analogy, people with anorexia have a mentally unhealthy perception about their weight. Watching unhealthy skinny dancers on stage is not what the audience wants. The "artistic directors" of companies should be fired. All ballerinas should sue them. They are causing occupational injury to the ballet dancers. My husband also agrees with this. As I suggested below, you can start your own dance company and set the new shining example of how to run a healthy dance company where dancers can find joy in their art and not be tortured mentally and physically.

[@Little88Daisy]

I personally don’t find fully figured and curvy dancers suitable for ballet. For other forms of dance yes, but not ballet. It has nothing to do with the artistic directors or companies, this is about beauty and aesthetics of ballet. Arabesque just doesn’t beautiful when there is even tiny fat on the hips or waist, so are other moves. It is devastating, but it’s true. By the way, most ballerinas don’t have weight issues, they eat a lot and stay tiny because of the amount of calories they burn every day.

[@traceyhuman8939]

@@Little88Daisy It's about beauty and the aesthetics of ballet? According to whom? The audience, of which I am a ballet lover, does not buy in to the idea of a pre-pubescence body type on an adult female dancer. It is the beauty of the dance artistry a gifted dancer Kathryn brings. Thinking a size 2 is full figured is evidence of brainwashed ideals of beauty. Pure nonsense! We DO NOT endorse this culture of abuse. As a medical professional, this comment of most ballerinas eat a lot and stay thin due to metabolic burn is a gross inaccuracy, not evidence-informed in any way. Eating disorders are the evidence, malnourished, medical complications, auto-immune disorders, osteoporosis later in life, and risk of shorter life expectancy as an aging female due to Frailty. Dancers, we LOVE your artistry and you give us joy watching you perform, BUT you are NOT expected to be sacrificial lambs to a slaughter in the name of dance. Kathryn Morgan you are loved! Keep doing what you are doing on this channel! Be blessed!!

[@14margott]

@@Little88Daisy Do take the trouble to look at old clips of Anna Pavlova, Plitsenskaya, Alisia Alonso, corps de ballet in Paris Opera in the 50's 40's 60,s and take a hard look at their boobs, athletic curves and think for yourself if they had betrayed aesthetics.Look at their arabesques too. In the 1970's the image changed there are many reasons behind it.Ballet changed into a sport and women had to adhere to extreme objectification and hatred of all signs of femininity.Look how modelling changed and then think for yourself who dictated these changes and who profited from this.They have you thinking the way they want you to think .

[@lvega5606]

​@14margott I agree that most audiences don't enjoy only skinny dancers. Although I wouldn't prefer to watch an obese dancer, anyone normal, healthy adult weight and under are equally beautiful to me. The one physique, unfortunately for me, that does not result in aesthetic lines is that of short-limbed bodies. I had to go the way of being a gymnast (which I preferred doing anyway), because of my short little legs.

[@alnklar]

It does feel it was the company's plan all along. 1. Hire and promise roles 2. Don't give roles 3. Take KM out of performances until she asks to quit 4. Pull out the "you can be on a leave" card, so we can get the name and pay nothing

[@harriem2009]

I’m disappointed that companies have such a low opinion of their audience that they think we are unable to appreciate artistry without dancers being nearly skeletal. They perpetuate such a harmful and totally unnecessary narrative. Artistry goes beyond the physical.

[@watermelonroxx]

To hell with the toxicity at MCB, that stuff is gross and dangerous. Start a wonderful, body-celebrating company that will change people's lives!!

[@FF-ub7bn]

I was thinking the same thing. A ballet company that celebrates healthy bodies AND artistic excellence. I really enjoyed seeing the non-traditional body types in my city's production of The Nutcracker last year. The dancing was outstanding and I think I'm pretty picky about ballet.

[@jadyntalley61]

It would be SO cool if she started a ballet company!!

[@BookishDark]

Just said exactly this to my husband.

[@TechGirl84]

Yes, do that!!!

[@ClaudiaDeanWorld]

Love you Katie ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@kathryn_morgan]

Love you back! ❤️❤️❤️

[@channy2493]

Please do a zoom collab ❤️❤️

[@anastasiabananastasia]

❤️

[@catherinesiler2190]

So beautiful to see you both loving and supporting each other! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@m.a.s.o.n_the-icon_4210]

Hi Claudia love your videos

[@TresTaylor]

With regards to Kathryn Morgan and Friends, I don’t have a studio, but I have a living room you can use for a guest performance 😂♥️

[@PowerToolsnPearls]

I started in that world. I weighed 78 pounds at 5 feet tall. My weight wasn’t the problem. The problem was I developed double D cup breasts. No amount of weight loss would ever change it. I had a breast reduction done. I went down to a C. I was still “destroying the line” they wanted to see. That was my “Bye, Felisha” moment. I loved dance so much I began teaching and doing a different style of dance for stage. I returned to a healthier weight and even grew 5 inches. So I’m now 5’5”! I had been literally, figuratively, and spiritually stunting my own growth. Additionally, the breast reduction (painful af btw) was useless. As I started growing again, my breasts grew back. Decades later, my husband and children appreciate my body that became healthy enough to carry a pregnancy, after 7 miscarriages, breastfeeding for a year with each child, and is now surviving a brain tumor. Praise the body you have!

[@ashleychenery4928]

Katie, you have not let anyone down. Being hired as a soloist in a "Top 5 Company" is an enormous feat for anybody, but you've just done something even more inspiring. You recognized that you were in an environment that was unhealthy for you, you realized that you are deserving of respect for the fighter that you are, and you were able to envision something better for yourself and for other people. That is more inspiring to me than anything you've done before--and you've been inspiring me since I was a young dancer. I've been watching your videos since you started on KZbin (back when I was still in full-time ballet school), and you were like a big sister to me. I was routing for you to make it back into a company, but now you've helped me realize what dancing is all about: it's about doing what you love, and sharing your love with other people. Your legacy shows that there's no "one way" to do that. I just want to thank you for being true to yourself and for showing us all that health and happiness are the most important things. You're a light, Katie!! We love you always❤️

[@soohyunnam]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@amelbee1162]

Beautifully said ❤️

[@freak91464]

when you said "I didn't eat that morning" my heart broke. I am not a ballet dancer I only ever danced as a hobby but oof. I felt that. I know how it is to not eat and dance and it sucks and no one should think they need to do it to achieve smt. I love you and I am so glad you got out!!

[@psychologicallydissolved]

Kathy’s eyes shone when she mentioned her idea. One door closes, and hundred more open. It would be nice to have a touring ballet company of different ages, different sizes, different ethnic backgrounds...all coming together to enjoy dancing. The pandemic is the right time to start-up creative projects.

[@krisbaker4095]

That is a great idea.

[@PetitHibou72]

How exciting… the world is so ripe to receive this. 🙏🏼 Go Kathryn! 🌹 Time to lead at whole a new level.

[@PetitHibou72]

How exciting… the world is so ripe to receive this. 🙏🏼 Go Kathryn! 🌹 Time to lead at whole a new level.

[@SP.Addams]

Absolutely! It’s time for radical change. The ballet world is broken, and progress moves at a snails pace. Artists of all kinds are beyond the years of the institutions they wish to serve! The systems are old, completely backwards, and short on value for any party involved. Beit artist, patron, or student. Watching this a year later, after I’ve found myself in such a similar place as a teacher, I feel so validated. I can see a different way forward now that I am in my 30s and after doing this so long as well. But I’ve never seen anyone else do it. A different model for training etc. Similar to Katie’s amazing idea in a way. Building a touring company on THEIR terms. Doing what lights them up, it’s honestly what audiences are craving. Seeing real people express themselves through dance. Not icons of perfection. And even audiences that don’t know they are ballet fans yet, will benefit so much from this revolutionary idea.

[@arrowchild]

I’m a former pro dancer with chronic health issues (mine cut my career short when I was in my late 20’s) and I currently work as a dance teacher. I’ll be honest, I always worry about my students who graduate to professional ballet schools because of the toxic environment that exists in so many companies. I just wanted to say thank you for being such a fantastic advocate for mental and physical health in the ballet community. You’re amazing and people like you are helping to change the dance world in the best possible way. Also? You looked absolutely gorgeous in the rehearsal footage you shared-I’m rooting for you and whatever path you decide to follow.

[@margaretblount4794]

They wanted you to be in pointe shoes but wouldn't let you on stage in pointe shoes. 🙄 I remember how disappointed I was when they didn't allow you into firebird and posted so many pictures of a 00 in firebird instead. We all saw it. And I'm so sorry for that you had to go through behind the scenes. I hope your future holds great opportunities in supportive environments.

[@vanessaderenzio8541]

I danced for 16 years and this is why I knew I could never be a professional - a gigantic size 4. (Sarcasm)

[@taryndancer29]

I have an ass and tits so I knew it was never going to happen. Plus all the sexual abuse stories it’s awful.

[@DieAlteistwiederda]

I was told I was to tall and not skinny enough. I'm 5'5/166cm tall and weight 45kg, I'm naturally skinny and have always been a bit underweight yet somehow this is still not enough because I have wider hips. Nah mate, fuck that.

[@muurrarium9460]

*hugs*

[@fini8874]

Wooow what is that considered gigantic?! :o I have size 8 and actually considered myself quite average xD

[@katherinemorelle7115]

I was small, but I have big boobs. And as my teacher told me “large breasts are vulgar, and ballet doesn’t do vulgar” 15 years later and I remember her, word for word. I was binding my breast, trying to exercise them away, trying to starve them away- but they’re a part of me I can’t get rid of. I was doing dangerous things to try to live up to the “perfect ballet body”. It’s not worth it.

[@gmochrie7439]

I was just watching the NYCB virtual ballet season and was thinking that a diversity of body shapes could really enhance the shapes of Balanchine. The stick thin dancer shape is just one way of presentation and I want more. Also, as a former dancer with a good eye - I’ve found you really can’t tell as an audience that your body or Misty Copeland, etc. is really different. It’s absurd constructs in ballet. Thank you.

[@ginaferrara4230]

I’m really a fan of the Royal-they have their petite types, but they also actually allow women to have busts, and muscular legs, like Claire Calvert for example. Maybe Miami should start taking notes.

[@JaxiXD210XD]

@@ginaferrara4230 Claire Calvert is ABSOLUTELY stunning!! I agree, Royal has such strong looking dancers, I love watching their rehearsal videos. I hope Miami City & other companies with this mindset start prioritizing the health of dancers over just their "look"

[@smadm2437]

I see more and more female ballet dancers looking like sticks and having numerous followers on instagram. Russians, especially. I too am fed up with this toxic body image in ballet, and in dancing more generally. Balanchine's idea of dancing skeletons is disgusting. Yet that was what was expected of us as dance students - not that we enjoy ourselves, and share that joy through movement, but that we look a certain way. Skinny ballerinas.

[@gmochrie7439]

Jae I want strong dancers too! Imagine the possibilities for choreography where women are fully nourished and allowed to really strength train.

[@Rosalie1996]

Misty Copeland is actually TINY. I saw her in an elevator once in the city and I was shocked because I always thought she was tall. She’s 5’2” and like 103 pounds. So I totally roll my eyes when people say stuff like “ she doesn’t have the typical ballet body.”

[@rainstreet78]

I know you're a Balanchine-trained dancer, but his ideal of the stick-thin, 6-ft. tall and lily-white ballerina is super outdated. This is something NYCB and other Balanchine companies will have to deal with. I hope you find a place where you are accepted for who you are.

[@amfitness4892]

@mf Honey The thinner you are, the taller you look. Dancers must be matched with partners of a complimentary heighth. If you have short men in the company, then you hire short, thin women. If you have tall men in the company, then you hire tall, thin women. Thin, unfortunately, is always "in" in the ballet world.

[@friendsofcarlotta17]

They don't have to deal with anything! Harlem and Joffrey tend to hire a 'type', as does Paris Opera and ABT. Miami behaved badly because they didn't hire K for her dancing abilty/quality, instead they wanted the publicity. But companies can hire skinny, if that's what they want

[@angelasimons3473]

Balanchine hired, and later married, Maria Tallchief.

[@siribaimusic]

@mf Honey Balanchine is one of the few choreographers who liked tall ballerinas.

[@eduardasartorio8932]

mf Honey no! I heard of dance friends being judged by their weight but never by their height (at least in my country that’s how it works)

[@kristiduke4838]

Katie, this is coming from me as a 59-year-old lifelong dancer (dedicated, never professional nor with talent at that level, aware of the wrong in the dance world, and also never stopping in my love of dancing). I'm also coming from myself as a physical therapist, mother, human being: it is NOT okay to not be valued, no matter the situation. Don't make excuses for Miami City Ballet. We have inherent value regardless of what someone or some institution is "looking for". I've been there - as a dancer, as a PT - in situations where I haven't been valued, and probably all people have been there in some way in their lives - and it is traumatic in a long-lasting way. I honor your resilience and how you've fought for what you love and what you know is right. And yes, you are an inspiration, and there are a world of dancers who know that you have wholeness and health as the true and right nature for all of us. Thank you for this video and all you have done and will do for dancers and non-dancers alike.

[@MsAerosensa]

Really well said, thank you Kristi!

[@jessicaoverton2990]

I am a professional dancer and a knee injury took me out of dancing for 3 years. I just wanted to say that your story, coming back after 9 years has really inspired me to keep working to get back to the professional stage. You are NOT an embarrassment, you are NOT too big to be on stage. You ARE an inspiration and are a beautiful dancer! Thank you for talking about this, I can totally relate to being under appreciated in a company. You have made me realise that it's ok to leave a company if it's not right for you, it actually makes you a strong person. Thank you for being MY inspiration! I'm 30 and still am striving to get back to the professional stage again ❤

[@msbeejones]

"you're a human being, not a human dancing." don't know where that comes from but wow, what a quote.

[@jessicaohare9084]

um, can we all just acknowledge how much she is risking to out a ballet studio? Damn

[@NoThankUBeQuiet]

It needs to be done.

[@dee_mcgee11]

I checked out the Facebook page of MCB. Very little to comment on.

[@bethanneblackclosetomyheart]

Outing a ballet studio? It’s a ballet company. She spoke the truth. Get real.

[@crisset]

I'm so sorry Kathryn! This is really upsetting. Somehow I feel like Miami City Ballet used you as a publicity stunt. They used your influence on us, your die hard fans, as a way to draw attention to them. I'm so sorry you were treated badly but I'm glad your self love and self respect were so strong. Ballet companies are really horrible businesses. We're here for you. This decision was so inspirational for so many of us that feel miserable in our current situations. You are a star! You shine brighter now than a few months ago!

[@cherryji2422]

I couldn't agree more!! Publicity stunt is the only reason that they would hire her and then take away her roles. I'm appalled.

[@jamielaw4749]

Ironic that MCB said you wouldn't represent their company well, because you're representing them PERFECTLY -- you're representing them by exposing everything wrong with them and what needs to be changed. You're not letting us down ❤️ you're the voice we need to hear and to change ballet culture ❤️

[@logiclanguagelearningFrench]

So in short. She slayed the ballet. She technically had no issues doing this. Can we talk about what a massive success story THAT is!!! After years off. I am so looking forward to what you do after this. They are clearly jealous of how popular you are. I do not understand. Did they not discuss the weight issue when you had your first meeting?

[@kayleighkearnan]

As someone who used to do ballet as a child/teen and grew up to lead a more traditional adult life/job (aka the story of the majority of the audience members at ballets these days), I would 110% rather see healthy, happy, normal looking dancers up on stage. What a fatal mistake by Miami. Glad you got out.

[@simplystreeptacular]

BINGO. Katie looked breathtaking onstage and danced beautifully. This is in no way on her.

[@Flarui]

completely off-topic: I was so confused by the km on the board behind you because km in Europe stands for kilometer 😅 and I couldnt figure out why you would have kilometer on the board haha. It took me a while to realize these are your initials 🙈

[@kathryn_morgan]

Haha amazing! I love it

[@Estertje93]

Omg I thought exactly the same 😂

[@CHarlotte-ro4yi]

Thanks for clearing it up, it kept me thinking for the entire video 😅

[@andressaviana.]

They only wanted your name, not you. This situation is so disgusting but you were really brave showing us this video. Never give up being yourself! 💪🏻💖

[@_JoyceArt]

I know nothing about ballet or ballet companies, but that was my thought too: they only want her name (which I’m guessing is big in the ballet world) attached to their company. What I am curious about, do dancers in a company get paid, even if they don’t have (big) roles?

[@BernardProfitendieu]

um . her name ain't that big ... was she ever even principal anywhere? This girl needs to stop believing her own marketing.

[@poshpearls23]

100% agree.

[@overgrownkudzu]

@@BernardProfitendieu why did they hire her then? offer a contract, pay her money not letting her dance? makes no sense unless it's for a name

[@ellieeformby525]

The thing that makes me so angry on your behalf is that they hired you, they knew what you looked like they knew how you danced, then they proceed to critize you and make you feel awful and treat you terribly. They wanted to use you for your name and popularity and that is absolutely not okay! You're amazing and I'm so happy you've left and you're doing your own thing now 💕💕💕

[@classically_un_trained]

Honestly, as a performer (not ballet - opera) this spoke to me so much. Theater companies are ruthless and many of us are consigned to the whims of the people in charge. I think doing it on your own terms is a wonderful idea. Also, the body image issues in ballet are absolutely sick - especially looking for the outside, it's just insane.

[@Qrtuop]

I know musicians than have never touched their instrument again and artists that have never picked up a pencil again. It's a tragic, cruel culture.

[@simba0309]

Proud of you. You didn't disappoint any of us. I was never the right body type to go beyond my little hometown studio when I graduated high school. I got the "fat" word thrown at me a lot. I now teach at my hometown studio and just want kids to enjoy dancing. Wether they go on or just enjoy it while they are kids, it doesn't matter. It's about loving yourself. Good for you Kathryn.

[@martha4624]

As an old miami city ballet student, this is sadly no surprise to me, just by the way I was kicked out age 13, just because the school's director (Linda Villella at the time) decided to, without looking at my dancing, consulting or informing my teacher, who thought I had quit. I just wanted to dance ! So so sorry for you and glad you are taking care of yourself !

[@mikafizz1022]

Ew what the f?

[@wendymontie5660]

My very-much missed late aunt had been a principal with the Houston Ballet. And I recall in '78 (or '79), she remarked on an upcoming show that she was told that due to the silver bodysuits being planned for the costumes, she was going to have to lose at least 10 more pounds. She was barely 100 lbs and also tall (difficult to find partners for generally)... I was a kid (in 7th grade), and she was practically 'non-existent' weight-wise to me. She 'was retired' in 1985. She went on to teach dance and assist with gymnasts and skaters in their dance-moves. We lost her to an aortic aneurysm in 2011. Much happiness and all manner of sound health to you! Found you via the Pointe Shop video today, you are an utter delight.

[@dancer2189]

“ i have been on the cover of all 3 dance magazines “ ICONIC . Ur a legend Kathryn, screw them 🙏🏽🙏🏽

[@sarahakin]

Knowing when to leave a toxic (and frankly exploitive) situation is one of the most important lessons a person can learn and one of the most valuable lessons you can pass on to young dancers. As with all you do, you did it with grace.

[@HELLinaaaa]

I’m living for your bangs as an aside

[@sarahakin]

@@HELLinaaaa Long gone!

[@theresegalenkatttant]

well said

[@bregieirofernandes]

Am I the only one that noticed they keep saying “better” when they meant “thinner”???

[@annwood6812]

Yes, that's exactly what they meant. But the truth would make them look like a*******.

[@callabeth258]

Oh Katie you didn't let us down! Quite the opposite! By making the decision to leave for your health you are setting an example that the world needs to see! Thank you for being honest and for inspiring me to start my own adult ballet journey. I'm now en pointe and loving every minute even if I can't do it for very long yet!

[@carolclaibornemumey8919]

Katie, hearing this makes me so mad! First of all, MCB did a "bait and switch" on you. Second, you're a size 2; they clearly wanted you to return to a pre-pubescent state. Not biologically possible. Post-pubescent women have some fat and muscle, and in your case clearly very little fat. Not to mention the fact that no one needs to be a stick to dance ballet beautifully; it's not even healthy. Losing too much weight = losing too much muscle. Ballet leaders often have been brainwashed into blaming their dancers for their company's lack of funds and financial planning. I think MCB management's "story" here is probably about money, not Katie. Shame on you MCB! And the kicker: MCB pretends to know my feelings and our community's!!! That you're not an inspiration to me--to us???!!! Talk about hubris. You are an inspiration period. Double-shame on you MCB.

[@emiandrews4243]

Exactly my thoughts. What a shame. Why on earth would they hire her if they didn’t approve of her body shape? Her natural size is small to begin with and I can’t imagine what they would want her to do differently.

[@bubbybets9336]

i love this comment so much 🤍

[@elizabethmanka8106]

I don't know if it will do anything, but I have already emailed letters to MCB's customer relations and development offices asking for leadership change.

[@makeupanddance1548]

In my ballet classes I’ve always been the biggest girl in the room and despite having trained for the last eighteen years I’m rarely the most talented girl in the room either. Some days it’s very hard especially having to wear a leotard and pretend I’m happy with my body and sometimes I just want to quit. Other times though I drown out everyone else’s opinions and my own negative opinions and just dance and those are the moments when I remember why I love dancing and why I continue to dance. You’ve always been an inspiration to me for years you have helped me to stay motivated and to feel more confident with my body and abilities. Stay strong and never forget your true passion for dance! Also please remember every time you perform no matter the role no matter if you’re wearing pointe shoes you’ve accomplished something amazing and none else has the right to judge you. I’ve had moments where I was told not to do a role on pointe (because I was “too big and it didn’t look right”) and it broke my heart but now I realize that regardless of my shoes I was doing the same choreography as everyone else and putting in the same amount of work so no one had the right to judge me.

[@minimooster7258]

Im sure you're a wonderful dancer and a beautiful person, fuck the people who say otherwise

[@tammygant4216]

I can identify, but for different reasons (age, look, weight--I'm on the wrong end of the typical ballet spectrum in all of them). Your post encourages me to keep going. Keep dancing. You are an inspiration!

[@melanieclarosrodriguez1035]

As someone who bought tickets specifically to see you, I’m grateful COVID happened and that Miami City Ballet did not get my money. In a time where the arts is in danger due to the loss of revenue, and that ballet is hard to maintain in our society, you would think that companies like this would get with the program and accept that we are all different shapes and sizes. Thank you for sharing and being honest, it was an eye opener.

[@accountforwastingtime]

Exactly, at a time when the ballet industry is struggling so much you'd think they'd finally change course and get with the program. They're still acting like it's the 19th century smh

[@littlebones4441]

I’m a dance teacher here in Utah & I would be honored to have my dancers take a master class from you

[@RebeccaKnight927]

I just found you because I've lost 70 lbs over past year and I really wanted to work on my posture. I was a dancer in my youth, never professional, but I've danced on a high school stage and it was awesome. You ARE skinny and you ARE enough. You ARE an inspiration to many of us. Their artistic vision SUCKS and they didn't deserve you or your following. I am using your YT videos to break back in because I have a very busy FT job as a physician and I doubt I can find a class I can make consistently. I understand your waist doesn't nip in as much as some but having watched you dance in costume on stage then you looked just like the rest to me. Your grace and poise was amazing! So don't let their closed, misogynous minds discount what you could have brought their company. They did everyone a disservice by NOT letting you represent them because of their own hang-ups. We all frankly want to see passionate real ballerinas and not super skinny bony sticks. I want to see diversity in ballet. Diversity is allowing black ballerinas to emerge and most of them are far more muscular then previously allowed and I enjoy that. Your diversity deserves it's own appreciation.

[@jessaglenny]

I think when you've created what you've created, a standard ballet company is too small a box for you. I love your touring company idea. I think it makes use of all your talents, the entrepreneurial ones as well as the artistic ones, and your talent for communitising, reaching out and teaching. We all outgrow things and need a bigger arena. Be you - all of you.

[@jessaglenny]

Oh, and I think the comment about not being a real role model is just sour grapes. Whoever said it is jealous of what you've created. People look up to you; therefore you're a role model. That's all there is to it. And it's because you're real, not because you're thin.

[@soohyunnam]

💯 100%! Kathryn, your ability and persistent effort to be you is what truly makes you an inspiration, because it is so so difficult. I have more to say but will come back tomorrow morning when I will be more coherent.

[@mariannec.3939]

Very true, and this holds for many professions.

[@teddy3282ify]

At first, I was like “Katie, NOOOO... Don’t leave...” but then when I heard your story, I was like “absolutely the right choice!!” I hope you find what you’re looking for. They were absolutely not right to tell you that they didn’t think you were skinny enough.. that’s just bullshit (pardon my language) you’re beautiful and I hope you find a good fit with a good company who will accept you for who you are.❤️

[@1Stardust00]

What was the point of hiring her if they were literally just being toxic assholes to her taking her out lying to her and body shaming her?...wow. You're so strong and beautiful and are constantly an inspiration thank you. No role or contract is worth your health period.

[@lalalalaaAa123]

For clout. They knew she was and is loved by many, so having her would bring them more attention. They were right, like she said the applause was thunderous every time she stepped on stage!

[@monikaseidenberg5403]

It was a cunning trick, to put her in her place. It's all about power. Her empowerment to stand up against this old-fashioned ideologies endangers the producers position and influence on the dancers.

[@ParrotVolancy]

@@monikaseidenberg5403 Seems outlandish, but that's an interesting idea.

[@monikaseidenberg5403]

@@ParrotVolancy Imagine, what will happen, if not every dancer literaly dying for the prime role in a ballet, starve and train himself to death, because there is a arbitrary model/image of the "perfect ballet dancer". What if the dance world would not be a war and competition zone. I belive, this competition is what gives a lot of power to the producers, choreographers, teachers, because they decide, who is good enough and who is not and their orientation marks are in my opinion very old-fashioned and very about the phisicality of a girl/boy and less artistic, subjective and about the personality and feelings about dance. But art is all about feelings.

[@ParrotVolancy]

@@monikaseidenberg5403 Would you say that many of the "classic" Russian ballerinas have traditionally been underweight, or no? Is this starvation pressure something that happens in Russia as well, or is the idea of sacrificing health for a certain "look" not the aim and their thinness is just a result of natural build/intense training?

[@sialoquent844]

I get that you gotta be thin to do professional ballet but a size 2 is still prof model size. I'm not a ballet dancer, but I'm a size 3/4 with a fast metabolism and ppl have said I look too thin to be healthy. You guys are professional athletes too-you can't eat nothing either. I'm glad you got out of that toxic environment and I wish you best of luck on your upcoming projects

[@simplystreeptacular]

There is thin, and then there is purposefully malnourished. It baffles me why any ballet company would want the latter.

[@ejmcint]

What a bunch of dummies that Board of Directors is. Sara Mearns isn’t the thinnest ballerina at NYCB, but that doesn’t stop her from being one of the biggest draws for an audience. The problem with the arts (i think at this moment) is that they are being dictated by artists and curated for fellow artists, instead of trying to include and listen to what the public wants to see. This level of snobbery is a turn off and is eliminating potential audiences.

[@cassidymae5078]

This is disgusting. Why would they hire you just to say that "you don't look like a ballerina"? That's awful and you shouldn't have to be a stick. For the women that can achieve that look healthily, that's amazing but that doesn't mean everyone can. You truly are an inspiration and I'm so glad you put your health first❤️

[@Sunflowerlightt]

Just be careful calling people ‘sticks’ . Skinny shaming is not pleasant either ❤

[@KowaretaDolll]

you haven’t let anyone down - you’ve only shown us more how to value ourselves and our worth. Maybe you weren’t their ‘cup of tea’ but stringing you along like that was just cruel and wrong. There’s something systemically toxic within the dance world - across most genres - i trained professionally in musical theatre and there are similarities in terms of people ‘not fitting the mould’ and being told to change who they are regardless of their talent :( it’s not enough for companies to say they want to promote mental health and body acceptance...they actually have to do it :( you’re an inspiration, to all us dancers, young, old, retired, amateur. We’re rooting for you x

[@daphnedrosou6666]

The more I follow dancers like you, the more I see how messed up the professional dance world is. I just can't stop wondering why nobody proposes this beautiful dancer a solid job, when it's clear that she CAN pull it off technically and artistically, plus, the audiences would love to see and be represented in this beautiful artform by artists-people like you. Believe it, Katie, you have built beautiful foundation for great future projects open to things that have never been out there, we need ideas and stories like yours to bring art to the here and now. I'm not sorry for this update, on the contrary, I am so happy that somebody not only questioned the status quo of their field, but also, they PUBLICLY did so. I hope you are doing better now, kisses from Greece!

[@hellohvj]

I think I speak for all of your students and followers when I say, you did NOT let us down. I actually feel the exact opposite - you have lifted all of us with your courage & strength. Thank you for being a role model who actually practices what you preach - body shaming in ballet has to stop, and it will only stop when individual dancers refuse to submit to it, just as you refused. I am honestly so inspired by your character and integrity. Thank you for the personal sacrifices you've made for the benefit of us all. BRAVO. xoxo

[@charade9397]

You have not let us down! You are our ballet warrior that embodies grace, poetry, and resilience. You keep reincarnating as a true artist, a true ballerina, that makes sure the ballet you dance is filled with love and miracles. Thank you for being you!

[@TheDailyConnoisseur]

Kathryn, you have been through so much in your life and you are a class act and an overcomer. I can't wait to see what's next for you and have enjoyed following you every step of the way. You are so loved! Jennifer xx

[@kathryn_morgan]

Thank you so much Jennifer! xoxo

[@sunnygem21]

Wow! Two classy ladies I love to follow on KZbin. +

[@grubbraw]

Yes you are. I probably would have smacked somebody

[@user-lv4ov5rp6d]

@@kathryn_morgan I don't understand which size did they want you to be?

[@lexstalkaboutit]

This is horrifying that you have experienced this as a size two! I’m a preprofessional and a size eight. I’m perfectly healthy and fit but my body is just built to be no larger than a size six. I have been with you since the beginning and I’m so proud of you and your journey! Love you Katie!

[@cunningtricksterrabbit]

It blows my mind that a size 2 is considered "heavy" to some people. I'm not surprised sadly. Keep doing you and what is good for you. 👍

[@cloclocupcake7]

Yeah from what she looks like in her barre videos I have no idea how they can think she is too heavy...what do they want? Her bones sticking out?

[@ellieeformby525]

@@cloclocupcake7 yepp that's exactly what they want sadly

[@xtrisaratops]

I literally had to stop the video right after they insinuated that your worth as a role model is solely dictated by your weight and your shoes. Everybody wants to talk a big game about how we need to uplift women and put more focus on mental health and self care and yadda yadda yadda, but then when it comes down to it, they take the easy way out. They have the opportunities and the platforms to be on the front lines of those changes, and yet they choose to perpetuate the same viscous cycles. I am so disgusted with MCB, there is truly no excuse for any of this. And to have the nerve to try to rip down your self worth and value as an inspiration to others....I just really have no words for that.

[@rmk6693]

This is 2021 and I am a ballet audience person not dancer … but I am shocked this is a thing. What matters is your strength, persona & presence on stage- not being size 0. Wow. So glad you got out of there. It’s SO positive that the veil covering mental health in professional sports & arts is being pulled back to see reality.

[@TheCleverlibrarian]

Hi Kathryn, a fellow Kathryn here, you are awesome! Because of you I pushed to find out if i have a thyroid issue as i have struggled with weight gain and i have lost 100 pounds because I took the steps to get healthier! I’m not a dancer but i love watching you dance !!!

[@kathryn_morgan]

Thank you for sharing that with me! I truly appreciate it. Much love!

[@kathleenmacdonald5511]

If a Prima Ballerina can stand up for body image and self esteem issues then there is hope for the rest of the world. Thank you! At 60, I still self hate and obsess about how to get rid of this belly fat.

[@susannachi2002]

Don't feel bad about having some belly fat! It's there to protect your vital organs!

[@estellegregory2522]

Just rewatched this video. Fast forward - would you have believed then that - you'd be married, HAVE YOUR OWN STUDIO, bought a house (per your recent vlog) and be radiant and happy? Sometimes karma really pays off - of course along with your very hard work and perserverance. I am so happy for you - as a very much older woman who came back to ballet during the pandemic I cannot thank you enough for all your online classes, positive attitude, and so many contributions to the young people who are still facing the "distorted" world of dance values. You are a very special person!

[@MelissaRayneDance]

I haven't even finished the video yet but I need to say what you were told was absolute insanity. A performance is a performance, jazz heels or pointes - what does it matter? I cannot believe that here we are in 2020 and there is still so much toxicity about women's bodies in ballet. I've said it before and I'll keep saying it over and over: you are an exquisite dancer and performer, no 'extra' kilos in the world will ever change that. I'm so, so glad you got yourself out of that environment and can't wait to see what you do next. Love you!

[@simplystreeptacular]

What really guts me on her behalf is that she doesn't *have* extra kilos. She was healthy, she was in top shape, she was dancing beautifully - nothing about her size or technique made what she was doing unhealthy or an injury risk, and her artistry I think honestly has only improved as she's matured. She did *nothing* wrong and there is *nothing* about her body she needed to change to be a professional dancer. MCB is the one with the problem, not her.

[@MelissaRayneDance]

@@simplystreeptacular exactly, that's why I said 'extra' - it's such bs! Katie has never not looked like a ballerina to me, no matter what stage of her journey she was on - artistry, musicality, technique and grit make a ballet dancer, not some arbitrary number on a scale. This has to stop, ballet is still so controlled by the outdated ideas and aesthetics of white men and it's totally unnecessary.

[@simplystreeptacular]

@@MelissaRayneDance It really is! And it says something that *NYCB* has more diverse body shapes than MCB. For example, Ashley Bouder is obviously built just a little bit more sturdily (for a ballerina) than, say, Theresa Reichlin, and yet she's still a huge draw and known worldwide for her incredible jumps. Likewise Sara Mearns is a ballerina all over but doesn't look like a stick. Anyone fit enough to dance in a world-class company in the first place is going to be in great shape or they couldn't handle the dancing. And while it's fair in my opinion to be honest and say "I'm sorry, you don't have the extension" or "your legs aren't long enough to be a professional" (see: me), to treat Katie like this for no other reason than that she doesn't fit their stick-thin rigid ideal of what a ballerina should look like is absolutely disgusting.

[@MelissaRayneDance]

@@simplystreeptacular Completely agree with everything you just said! Not having the facility or technical ability to dance at a top professional level is a completely different thing to surface aesthetics. I don't think these sheltered ADs actually understand that the paying audience *wants* to see diverse dancers on the stage! The really crazy thing is that all the knowledge that Katie has built up from living with her condition probably makes her much healthier and in far better "shape" than the fast majority of the company. I honestly believe that she doesn't need to be part of a company now, she'll find her own way to continue to dance and perform (love the Kathryn Morgan & Friends idea) and she'll be able to reach so many more people in the process - aspiring dancers included.

[@TheHappeningswithHAP]

Ugh considering this is a woman AD led company, what they said to you is absolutely appalling. I’m so sorry you had to deal with that because you and us were so excited for you! But glad you got out of that toxic environment! And glad the other dancers at least tried to support as they could. Also the keeping your name on the roster thing made me so angry for you! Would love to see you tour one day and see you dance live! Such a big fan of you and I’m not even a dancer but love the artform! So happy you are now in a better mental and physical health space! ❤️

[@liamoreira]

It's so good to watch this video again 2y later and see Kathy's dreams coming true ❤️

[@Renxyuz]

Leaving is the absolute opposite of disappointing us! I think it’s one of the biggest things you’ve done that you get to be called a role model for. That’s so strong. ♥️

[@nicolef9456]

It warrants saying to anyone in a relationship: you’re not suited to everyone however that doesn’t give them license to use, lie, manipulate, and abuse you for their own benefit. Whether it’s a ballet director or a boyfriend or a parent.

[@jillmswift]

It sounds like their mission was to humiliate you to the point where you quit. I've heard a lot of stories about the outdated opinions in ballet and it sounds like it's still rife. Very sad that they prioritise skinniness over someone with artistry and talent.

[@PlantBasedBride]

This is horrific treatment. You are a STUNNING dancer as you are. You don’t have to look like other dancers to move the audience. You are YOU. You are an inspiration for your tenacity and character, not because of your body or the roles you get to dance. Ballet needs to catch up in accepting bodies as diverse and worthy, or it will crumble. I can’t wait to see what you do next and I hope you are allowed to shine without these kinds of pressures and manipulative treatment! ❤️