opening about my s*icidal thoughts and depression

[@ruriohama]

📩 Join my weekly email newsletter where my goal is to help you get better than yesterday: ruriohama.ck.page/1852ab637f I talk about lifestyle optimization, productivity, mindset and financial independence there :)

[@realSerran]

The Lord Jesus Christ loves you and is with you always. Please call out to Him and He will come into your life and change your spirit, mend your hurts, and save your soul. I know this world is a terrible place that does terrible things to good people, but there is hope and that hope never requires harm to anyone. I'll pray for you to receive the peace and contentment and healing that comes only from the Lord. God bless you and keep you always🙏

[@fatshoes]

Are you Australian?

[@ran9080]

In the idealist philosophy, consciousness is fundamental; thus our spiritual experiences are acknowledged and validated as meaningful. This philosophy accommodates many of the interpretations of human spiritual experience that have sparked the various world religions. From this vantage point we see that some of the concepts of various religious traditions become as logical, elegant, and satisfying as the interpretation of experiments of quantum physics.Know thyself. This has been the advice through the ages of philosophers who were quite aware that our self is what organizes the world and gives it meaning; to know the self along with nature was their comprehensive objective. Modern science’s embracing of material realism changed all that; instead of being united with nature, consciousness became separate from nature, leading to a psychology separate from physics. As Morris Berman notes, this material realist worldview exiled us from the enchanted world in which we lived in yesteryear and condemned us to an alien world. Now we live like exiles in this alien land; who but an exile would risk destroying this beautiful earth with nuclear war and environmental pollution? Feeling like exiles undermines our incentive to change our perspective. We are conditioned to believe that we are machines-that all our actions are determined by the stimuli we receive and by our prior conditioning. As exiles, we have no responsibility, no choice; our free will is a mirage.

[@Skikopl]

@@fatshoes She is Turkish-Japanese :)

[@LarvalTear]

Are you INTJ? I lost my job early this year and the same thing happened to me once I had the free time to process my life. I ask chatgpt to pretend it's Carl Jung to analyze and provide prognosis for shadow work based on my personality type. I also study his book Personally Types. If you don't understand yourself you will forever be unsure of where you should go. A clear view over the landscape of your strengths and weaknesses will determine your path forward towards self actualization or individuation, as Jung calls it. I respect your bravery at being so honest and as a fellow traveler, I hope you find your way.

[@Joseph-pv2cn]

Return to your childhood joy. Trust me. Go full on into doing the things you did as a kid. No matter how silly. It will reset you. Also get lots of sun and play outside. Good luck. ❤

[@CrEaToRAndy]

this is a pretty good and practical advice which I can only confirm by my own experience!

[@godsway8501]

Exactly what I did and still growing through it, it’s a journey. One Love and I send all my Love to to those struggling with Mental Health. 🤞🏾😢⚡️💙

[@kassimo2169]

Word! I used to love Mangas and Anime. Whenever I feel depressed, I watch some anime to help.

[@Catolico.no.IBGE.e.na.FE.]

Jesus loves you so much, just open your heart ❤️

[@kathleenkaleookalanismith8724]

Such beautiful advice ❤❤❤❤❤

[@clayreacts]

I don't know if you'll read this, but this is what helped me with my extreme depression. You cannot feel depressed and grateful at the same time. Every time you feel depressed, literally force yourself to think of things you are grateful for having in your life. Things like, I am grateful for my brother's wedding. I am grateful to freely speak my thoughts to millions of people online. I am grateful for waking up today. etc. When you think of these the things you are grateful for, think about them with all of your senses. What does it look like? Smell like? Sound like? Feel like? Taste like? After you do this exercise, it will grow your gratitude and eat away the cancer that is depression. It is similar to lifting weights at the gym. Wishing you the best! :)

[@wamyy5]

I'm sorry to hear about everything, Ruri. You are so strong and I'm always inspired by your hopefulness and determination to take charge of your life. Sending you love and support ❤ and congrats to your brother!

[@ruriohama]

Thank you❤️❤️ Love your videos!

[@user-r8or-pko3dfg]

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[@amieelking]

my fav youtber commented on my fav youtuber video

[@jjstarrprod]

@@amieelking That would indeed be quite the crossover !

[@jerryGolddd]

@@ruriohama i binge her stuff too! :) i found her through your channel!

[@rabidL3M0NS]

You saying how you can’t remember most of high school is so reassuring for me, I’ve been worried recently because my friend will bring up memories from school and I literally can’t remember it’s been concerning me. But this being a result of trauma/depression makes a lot of sense. Just knowing I’m not alone is so comforting.

[@Akane_with_anime]

I watched your video with a lot of respect and admiration. It’s important to talk about these topics, and you did so with so much grace. Thank you for being a voice for those who need it most.

[@skuaLT]

Ruri you've been such an inspiration to me all this years, to be more productive, to organize myself better, to learn japanese and seeing that you have to deal with same issues that im and you are doing fine is great to see, keep up the good work you are not alone and you are such an amazing person

[@Christian-ve4bs]

Very powerful video. Brave of you to come out with this! Stay strong Ruri we love you

[@finill]

you're strong Ruri, wish the very best for you!

[@ayushmourya2831]

Be strong Ruri 😊 we all are with you always 💖

[@Dakku-san]

I'm from Brazil and I don't understand English very well, but I like following and watching your videos (Even though I don't understand everything) And I know how difficult this whole situation is, but we are here hoping for the best! Sending love and support and congratulations to your brother!!! ❤❤❤

[@user-5fd4tr9sd]

Then how tf are u writing in English?

[@Dakku-san]

​@@user-5fd4tr9sd google translate :)

[@kingdon7795]

​@@user-5fd4tr9sdhe used Google translator.

[@Ormalopes]

​@@user-5fd4tr9sdhe knows Just a little bit

[@Dakku-san]

@@user-5fd4tr9sd Google Translate kkk :)

[@Springee_98]

Stay Strong Ruri!

[@thenewbanker1225]

If you get intrusive thought you should look into potential schizophrenia

[@rawfootageguy]

I've noticed a renaissance amongst so many people I love all over the internet, coming back to themselves in time with myself coming back to myself. It's amazing to see, and I'm genuinely so happy for each and every person and for each and every moment of newness they discover within themselves. Best of luck to you ruri !! you've got this

[@rawfootageguy]

and on depression, hello fellow diagnosee ! I got diagnosed quite recently and have had a much shorter period being on and now off antidepressants and I hope all goes well for you as well

[@ChrisGaultHealthyLiving]

I truly wish the very best for you, Ruri. Just remember you are an awesome gift to the world!

[@explorer221b]

I'm sorry that all of that happened. Stay Strong, Ruri, You can definitely overcome this. Lots of love and support!

[@ProductivityControl7]

Ruri, the title was scary enough...and usually i do not like commenting...but i just wanted to tell you that you're a massive inspiration for me. I struggle with depression and at times find life meaningless due to certain circumstances, however because you've gone through something similar but keep marching forward, it makes me admire you more than I can verbalize through words. Please stay strong...

[@ruriohama]

❤️

[@diogoalbuquerquegoncalves2575]

@@ruriohama we are always for you ruri

[@ronmackinnon9374]

@@ruriohama Glad to hear you've gotten help and are getting better. A book that may interest you is one called 'Seven Mourners,' which was written by my late father (Dr. Bernard MacKinnon) who was a psychiatrist.

[@ExtraSolidSnake-m2k]

I started watching your videos a couple of years ago. I found the advice to be useful but also a bit overwhelming and intimidating. Once you started talking about your family background, I felt like I could see the pain you were suppressing and started to hope that you would realize there were more important things than stressing over financial success. I teared up a while back when you made a video about coming to that realization. And I really admire your honest followup in this video. You're a strong person and I hope everything keeps coming together for you in life.

[@Ayrann314B]

Very brave and strong of you to talk about such topics. God bless you!

[@UnixGuy]

So sorry to hear about all of this. This sucks and betrayal is never ok. Please know you're not alone, please reach out if you need to chat.

[@AmmuAmmoos-yh2gd]

I am proud of you ruri.....you are my inspiration...my ray of hope❤ I love you soo much

[@UltimateMysteriesQuest-s2h]

I'm just happy that you are back! God Bless Us!

[@EduardoJusto01]

I'm alone in my bedroom, going through a major burnout (I'm AuDHD), crying every hour or so, and every time this happens, s*icidal thoughts surface, it is so f*cking hard to avoid them. I was feeling really isolated, but seeing someone I admire going through it too makes me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing, and I hope we both can keep moving forward.

[@danielfeldman4291]

@@EduardoJusto01 Hang in there Bro your gonna get through it.

[@EduardoJusto01]

@@danielfeldman4291 Thank you, it really means so much to "hear" that, even from a stranger, thank you.

[@danielfeldman4291]

@@EduardoJusto01 It's my pleasure Eduardo and you can consider me a friend. I've been in the dark and I want to pull you out

[@alexisant0s]

I feel u man I was there for 2 years isolated alone in my room all day everyday suicidal so broken hated everything but I can finally say after a long 2years I’m finally breaking free finally feeling joyful again with purpose 🙏🏽 point is man i know you can push through and get out of it it can only only be done with a little bit of effort day by day it’s tough but so worthwhile if you need anybody to talk to I’m here bro real talk 👊🏽

[@alexisant0s]

@@EduardoJusto01

[@richwithinchannel]

I just posted my first vlog sharing how I overcome anxiety and suicidal thoughts, and I just saw this post. It is real. And it's a real battle. Sharing here on YT our experiences, might truly give hope to others, make others feel heard, and most importantly... that it is possible to overcome it or defeat it. Hope you'll get better, Ruri! Just wanted to say that, you're such an inspiration to me and many others...

[@Vikoboi]

Take care and prioritize your well being Ruri! I appreciate your presence in my life! Much love and take care of yourself ❤

[@strongerandwiser2023]

1.4 million subs! Youve done so well. Inspired many and your videos have helped so many other people in this situation. Ruri your smashing it you should be proud of yourself and its amazing that you have done all this to support your family. The world needs more of this.

[@vinbarshot]

You’re one of the reason why I changed my life because of your motivational content❤

[@doctorekt7410]

Thank you for talking about depression,it’s a topic that people usually avoid.i hope i am not too late,Just want to share to you,my dad have stroke and my mum had heart attack..I fought very hard but after years of it,my brain just got tired and I have depression.I thought I found some sort of peace,when I entered my first relationship,but it was toxic and manipulative and I broke up….but that’s when I found u.Your words have inspired me to be the best version of myselfso ,I decided to join fight competition ,do project that impact people ,finish uni and now landed in a software job with my boss whom saw my drive and appreciated who I am because of what I went through.Thank you really Ruri for pointing me to a direction of new hope. As human being to human being,I do really love you and know that you are loved,u don’t have to fight alone ,even through it is ur unfair advantage and a strength of urs.Once again thanks for touching people lives like mine

[@Beatay27]

I have been watching your videos since covid time and i've learned so much from you!! you're such an inspiration cuz the way you're managing everything is just outstanding! you never gave up you're a fighter for this! as a viewer from your initial times i just wanna say im very proud of you!!

[@jeetisquadreactions]

Oh snap, I'm really sorry to hear about all your problems. But I love hearing your story and let me tell you: you've been one of my inspirations for starting KZbin, and writing scripts, and recording myself. Seeing your resiliences and success and even though English is not your first language, it inspires me to start my own channel and put effort into it. So thank you for being such an inspiration.

[@jeycholz]

Depression is not easy, it hits deep and not easy to get out of! Just know you are strong and vigilante Ruri! There will always be someone there to extend a helping hand! Love Love Love!! 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽

[@anhhungle1796]

Just be yourself Ruri.You're my inspiration and motivation,I don't even know how to express my thanks to you and I can only say I appreciate you so much.We will always be here with you,be strong and keep moving forward.I wish you all the best and i hope you’ll read my comment.God bless you❤

[@Electro_800]

Before the video starts lol, I just want to say thank you for actually changing me as a person. Like completely. 12 months I found your videos and literally changed me PHYSICALLY and MENTALLY. I went from a self harming overweight toxic person to literally a very positive and active and more fit person. You were my teacher around these months of last year after I had an awful toxic heartbreak drama I don’t even know what to call it. But thank you. Now the tittle of the video worries me but i believe in you and hope you stay strong. ❤

[@ruriohama]

Aghh I appreciate it❤️

[@Jennie-w6n]

@@ruriohama Ruri, it's important to acknowledge that MOST people face struggles with depression and thoughts of s*icidal. One approach that has helped many individuals is the Japanese concept of Ikigai. This philosophy is about finding one’s reason for being, and it provides a framework for discovering purpose and meaning in life. By identifying what we love, what we’re good at, what the world needs, and what we can be rewarded for, Ikigai can offer direction and motivation during challenging times. It’s a way to create a sense of fulfillment and clarity, helping us navigate through the darkness and find light and purpose in our daily lives.

[@baileycx]

You are loved Ruri ❤️ I pray joy, peace and happiness over you🙏🏽💪🏽

[@Blaqdgr]

That is a lot to balance! For anyone. Thank you for sharing, as always. A good reminder that growth and recovery is not a linear thing! Hoping everything eventually works out as you need it to. Step by step, right?

[@RahulPatnaik-g2v]

So sad ruri but I love your videos so much be careful and stay safe.❤

[@deryabolukbasi08]

Çok güçlü bir insansın, eminim kendi yolunu bulup daha da iyi yerlere geleceksin. Hikayeni paylaşman da çok teşvik edici. Seni seven ve destekçin olarak buradayız

[@ProfessorWoland_]

ingilizce bilen bir türk 🤔 nadir

[@systembyhacked6244]

​@@ProfessorWoland_ kadın türkçe biliyor kanka

[@ProfessorWoland_]

@@systembyhacked6244i knew but thanx anyway

[@드림캐쳐111]

Aww it's okay you are strong and have so many blessings in your life and so much to be grateful for even if the darkness tries to follow you there is always a light to chase. Everyone keep on going you are all doing great!❤

[@Michael_Jackson1958shamone]

I barely watch KZbin these days but ever since I’ve come across your channel I’ve been hooked on it. Stay strong ❤️💪

[@pepsicolla123]

Hey Ruri! I remember discovering you by the end of 2021 if I remember right. I was shocked how was your channel grew, but it is also an example that everything is achievable. Anyways, I want to thank you for your vulnerability. I believe there are actually people who care. Also, God loves you ♥️ . You're a fighter!

[@BeHappy-n9j]

So much pressure and responsibility for a young woman is really intense. Don't let yourself be stressed and think about your health. Wishing you all the best.

[@IamnotaCat888]

I went through this phase too and whenever I feel am, getting out of it, I get pulled in. At some point it became a continuous struggle. As to avoid feeling down, I listened to music, extreme ones to pop ones. I changed from driving to walking and taking public transport. I often visited hospitals too which became unusually therapeutic. Wrote a few business plans and restarted my career with different companies. What was key, learning out was living the struggle and that keep me going. I refuse to even think of being weak or loss but change my mind to what is the next opportunity, what I learnt from this and what's the next path or target. After years, I have reached perhaps an "on the way" point in life, I haven't overwhelmingly succeeded but have reach a point where I can see new pathways for success. And my definition of success, not anyone else's. Cheers!

[@mansoor3159]

Ruri watching your videos since years and years ago❤🥹 and I am always always looking forward to your videos

[@terrrell7798]

My depression and ptsd was caused by being physically and emotionally abused by women outside of my family as a child, teen and adult. I've never been suicidal, but I have stopped people from committing suicide. Talking does help!

[@TedsTricks]

We have a lot of similarities. Thanks for coming out with this video!

[@TedsTricks]

So cool that you retired your parents!

[@chrizzlybearlol]

Girl this is crazy. You telling your story is opening my eyes. I have a similar experience with depression. I have no memory of my Highschool years. Thank you for sharing ❤

[@talhakoek]

losing interest in something you are passionate about is the realest thing I have heard probably in my entire life and honestly I don‘t even know now hat the hell Im gonna do

[@johnedelmann6711]

I feel so bad for you! I too have depression and repressing my emotions, so you've helped with your advice.

[@JaydenIsCxxl]

Please don't kill yourself Ruri😢😢😢

[@darthwater999]

@@leoym1803 because we know what not to do

[@eugenn2848]

Dude, that's clickbait.

[@JaydenIsCxxl]

@@eugenn2848 oops lol

[@jerryGolddd]

how is that clickbait? i didnt see it as clickbait

[@tyreloshinowoart]

@@eugenn2848You seem nice. 😂

[@AveragePsychologyStudent]

we love you ruri, i love what u do; please never stop

[@danielfeldman4291]

I think you are absolutely amazing and the world would not be the same if you were not here that I'm certain of. If you haven't been told you're an amazing daughter, sister, and granddaughter. Having to deal with all those betrayals is not easy. Stay strong Ruri you are loved. I want you to know that you motivated me to start making content. Know that you make a difference. I'm trying to spread light, expose heavy corruption in law enforcement and other betrayals that have occurred in my life. To help others heal.💪🏼♾️

[@Sabinesays123]

Ruri, I am so impressed by your strength, determination, and candid words. You are a generous, caring, and supportive daughter and sister, shouldering so much. It is essential to look after yourself now, and I wish you all the best in your journey. Big Hugs!

[@EvadeTheGrade]

hope everything gets better Ruri. Take breaks and relax from time to time if you're feeling tired/stressed.

[@josue2692]

I really thank the KZbin algorithm for leading me to you, you have inspired me a lot Ruri and in fact in the future I will be making videos, you have also helped me a lot in learning English.

[@REVAMPEDWRESTLING2K]

I understand you as I'm going through some depression and dark times, I've had 3 losses and other trauma in the last year, KZbin is not helping me anymore and I just dont want to be around anymore at times.

[@frosty-x1434]

Bless you friend 🙏

[@WorldRecordRapper]

哦 you love yiy.. Love you homie stay strong!

[@Sapnanehraofficial0588]

It's doesn't matter from where you are ,from which country you belong,and from which culture,or which language you speak,but some of the life experiences can be similar which connects us as a human 💝. Your depression you can acknowledge now but i can feel how it feels like when you are going through that particular phase of your life, it's not hard only but worse 😢,am going through this from the last three years 😔 feeling sad, upset , tired all the time, procrastinated, feeling guilty ,regret overwhelming of thoughts, insecurities about future, suddenly get panick attack, anxiety, health issues, losses you sense(suddenly feel cry, laugh loud ,sad, sleepy,want to harm yourself and others too......etc.,this phase is literally more than a worse!!😔

[@yuyuefloyd]

Ruri you are such an inspiration to me, no matter what happens just know I am here rooting for you! You can do it!

[@playtops3605]

Hello, Ruri! I’ve been going through a lot in my life as well, and right now, I’m still working on getting everything back on track. ADHD, anxiety, and moderate depression have tried to hold me back, but I haven’t given up, and I won’t give up! Despite all of this, I’ll keep trying, and you should too, Ruri. You’re a beautiful, smart, and inspiring person! To anyone reading this, don’t give up-we’ve got this!

[@l2002p]

Hey, thank you not only for openly talking about all these feelings, moments, and life stuff. We all have problems (everytime maybe) and it's really difficult sometimes, but yes, we can find help, proper and complementary help, to get better. And yes, your content is, for me and I think for many others, a complementary way to find strength. So thank you again for insisting and continuing. I hope you keep getting better; better days are always coming, and all the strength we need, we already have. Good luck with the process!

[@azergold4904]

For almost 1 year I have benefited from your videos. Ruri, I understand you and please don't feel sorry for yourself. You are a very strong person and please never lose hope. I have had similar problems to what you are going through but I did not give up or give in to life. Life is very challenging but you need to understand yourself. Write down your feelings on paper, then set your goals and move on. Remember that nothing changes in life with or without you. You come to this life *once* as Ruri, you don't have another chance. So please do your best 🙏

[@ГамстерКунгфу]

Thank you for your openness 🙏 It resonates and makes me listen to you very carefully

[@LazyChillZone]

Proud of you for coming out with this. You're strong and amazing. I can speak for myself when I say that listening to your advice made my life so much better.

[@nykotu6876]

Thanks a lot! I needed that, my last 12 months were a carrousel of emotions (right now i just got dumped), so it's hard for me, and also i need money for college which is hard to gain at the moment (working 2 jobs), but i'm still trying to chase my passions (basketball and movies), and at the moment i play almost daily basketball which is the only thing that kept me positive. I do not have many friends but now i can appreciate them because they helped a lot after this girl break up with me, and i kind of regret not talking to them when i was with her. Again, i thank you because your video helped me, and now i'm willing to push much more than before. Thank you!

[@BillyRodriguez69]

LOVE conquers all, Never give up, life is awesome, you inspired me Ruri to be a better a person by watching your videos Thank you ❤❤❤

[@macleanlewis]

We're here for you. Please take care of yourself. ❤

[@SmartFool24]

You're never alone. I've felt the crushing anguish of depression and it feels like you're stuck there forever but depression lies to you.

[@earningzekrom4173]

I’m so sorry you have to go through your mental health struggles, sending support to you!

[@Mr.Gibo.1]

You're the best for ever ❤ I love your way of filming such a great videos ❤

[@Elybunny]

You're the only KZbinr I can relate to! I'm saving up so that I can see a psychiatrist in the future too, thanks Ruri

[@ДимаФедосенко-ц8ч]

Take care about yourself! You can deal with it, i belive in you! This condition isnt last forever!

[@avecnayo]

I’m Im sorry you had to go through all of this. I’m glad you’re back Ruri.

[@aceasy8649]

Yaşadığın şeyler adına üzüldüm. Son 12 ay diğerlerinden çokta farklı değildi ve düzensiz hayatımı düzene sokup, konfor alanımdan çıkmam gerekiyordu. Bunu gerçekleştirmek için uzun uğraşlarım sonucunda bir kulübe giderek antrenmanlara başladım ve eş zamanlı olarak iş aramaya başladım çünkü hem kendi adıma hem de ailemi desteklemek adına buna ihtiyacım vardı. Zamanla futbol kulübü için yetersiz görüldüğümü t direktör den öğrendikten sonra beni başka bir kulüp için davet ettiğinde hayal kırıklığıyla karışık tuhaf bir duygu yaşadım. Ardından iş arayışımda bir gelişme oldu ve istediğim iş için kabul edildim fakat psikolojik olarak olumsuzluklar yaşıyordum ve bu tekrarlayınca başlamadan bırakmak zorunda kaldım. Şu an profesyonel olarak destek alıyorum, ilaç kullanıyorum ve biraz daha iyi hissediyorum. Bu arada videolarını izlediğimde sürekli bir şeyler yapma ihtiyacı hissediyorum (dil öğrenmek, yeni planlar yapmak) ve bu çok iyi hissettiriyor. Bunun için teşekkür ederim. Umarım dilediğin gibi videolarını yapmaya ve aileni desteklemeye devam edersin. Kendine iyi bak. :)

[@robertorollsing8047]

We are your community Ruri and we all desire strong to you and see you really better in all parts for your life. You're great Ruri.

[@pepocraft3388]

We'll always be with you, you're much stronger than you already are.

[@introvertcatgarfield]

enjoy the little things in life and don't expect in return ...love yourself you are more than enough ❤

[@realwithjain]

Even the biggest of celebrities and KZbinrs can deal with depression. Always be kind 💛

[@overcomingwithin]

definitely resonated with ignoring it and then it coming in a wave. i ignored my problems, mostly because i didn’t know how to deal with them or how to approach the situation. i ignored it so much i’d go to work everyday and have this what felt like a big fucking ball of stress in the middle of my chest. by this point the anxiety was so bad, till it eventually manifested into ocd. i have never really been depressed prior, up until now. it was just like my brains way of going - “yup, that’s enough, fuck you.” tryna pull my way out. i hope you the best in your recovery

[@cstellaria3000]

Depression and su**idal thoughts. Been there. But didn't need to take any pills to stop my autism. I just learned to accept the bad situations that happened and better control myself. I'm currently in senior high and doing great. I still feel the issues, but that's just a part of me.

[@Noone-ps6tl]

I felt like I had been listening to my struggles. I started antidepressants and then suddenly quit and started to have depressive episodes even though I had a stable environment. Thanks for sharing that Ruri. You can't believe how much it helped

[@scraylix]

Glad your back

[@MysticCreature]

You’re not crazy… this is being human. Taking meds is not weakness, it’s merely a tool. Like a car to get you to a job. You still do the work. The meds help you get to a better place. I did the same thing. I stopped my meds abruptly and it turned me into a walking mess. Almost ruined my entire life. Used food, alcohol, anger to cope with regrets and life stress. I’m so happy you’re I’m a better place. I’m so grateful that you’re here. You’re a good person, with a spirit that will not quit it seems. We’re here listening to you. You’re beautiful….. inside… you’re beautiful. Here’s to more good things for you. All love!❤❤❤

[@Yasir.Ayub.]

I read Your half "3 Books To Start Your Own Business Summary" so I give you review thanks for this

[@TheUnexplainedOfficialYoutube]

I'm glad to hear you're doing better now I hope you never have to go through that again. I'm excited to see your new videos

[@ereborerst]

Tekrar görmek güzel, umarım herşey gönlünce olur.

[@ChairCommentary-du5zd]

I'm 19 and I found your channel 1 year and a half ago and I was terrible at editing and animation,(which are the things I wanted to get good at), and over time to now, I basically learned the ins and outs of Premiere Pro, Photoshop, illustrator, and adobe animate. I worked in a warehouse for 3 years and after work, it was painful every day to get the energy to learn all this stuff after working hours palletizing pallets, but now I help a big animation youtuber animating for them full time and a part of that dedication was from watching your videos, thank you Ruri.

[@alfredrealname5130]

Damn, this is extremely relatable. I got admitted into a mental hospital earlier this year, I had an episode. Got diagnosed with major depressive disorder and been dealing with it for a while, but it does get better. I don't enjoy giving people advice since everyone is different, but for anyone dealing with similar things, I'd really recommend the book "The Depression Cure" by Stephen S Ilardi, she's a psychologist. It's at least what has helped me, a lot too. Also, If I learned anything from being in that mental hospital, it's that literally anyone and everyone can go through this. I hope things get better for you, and all of us.

[@CrisOnTheInternet]

This, I think the stigma surrounding going to a psychologist or psychiatrist and being admitted in a mental hospital is what makes even harder for people to seek help.

[@fardikha]

Thanks for sharing, also I hope things get better for everyone who read this ✌

[@cristiandamiaobremm6079]

Thank you for the tip, about the book. You are not alone! I hug from me for you!

[@mrcrab305]

You are a big inspiration for me Ruri, really! Dont give up

[@Ridhoo]

semangat ruri~

[@denisdahub]

Love you Ruri .. Love you even more because you're doing your KZbin business with the people around you in mind ( kinda of my goal too even at only 500 subs and no equipment to kickstart my vision for my channel). You're building so that you can give a hand to someone who needs it . And that's powerful. I respect you for that, I love you for that.

[@ahmination663]

When youre at your lowest, you create your highest.

[@ahmination663]

Good luck

[@andrewhooper7603]

And this is why the homeless schizophrenics create all of our societies greatest work.

[@Swiftiee227]

Please take care Ruriii We all love youuu ❤❤

[@norikiaizawa4978]

一度、休んで歩いてみてはいかがでしょうか？私も50歳を超えて裏切りなどで鬱になりましたが、このままではと思い、イタリア（イタリア２７年在です）でボローニアからフィレンツェを５日間かけて歩く巡礼をしました。 　シンプルな出会い、自分に問いかけることで癒されていくのが感じられました。同時に私のような人間でもなってしまうんだなあ、、と今更ながらびっくりしました。意外と人生に必要なものはそんなに多くない、ここまで走ってきたのだから家族、オーデエンスは一旦脇に置いて自分のメンタルヘルスを真っ先に優先してあげてください。頑張らなくて良い、幸せを感じられることにフォーカスしてあげてください。

[@XenobraneStudios]

You're amazing Ruri! Love you're channel and your efforts to help people. Please, never forget.

[@sunpi]

Kinda sad she’s so young and get familiy depended on her never got to grow up properly

[@ズノ尺ム]

Jesus love you Ruri

[@omi4470]

Who?

[@NotVanam]

Bible is Contradictory Unknown authors makes changes word is corrupted you people are mad following a book which is corrupted dont you think god book cannot be corrupted? Allah is Lord

[@JusticeInGaming_JIG]

There is no god/jesus or entities. Only inner will to live and succeed.

[@LONNESYRUPBITCH]

Ignore the heretics above me, Jesus loves us all

[@hassansong7630]

​@JusticeInGaming_JIG respects other people's beliefs , don't be rude .

[@phaberest_]

Hey Ruri, last year was a terrible one for me and I totally relate, I was as well diagnosed with severe combined type ADHD and sounds like my depression has been at least partially due to that. It's important to let it out, cry it out, free your emotions and do whatever you need to feel better. And about the antidepressants, I know it's hard to accept but I too am getting meds that are tipically used for depression and they actually help me avoiding ADHD paralysis and just ate least start doing stuff. I truly hope you'll feel better and get out of this in the best possible way, you can do it!

[@LukeSutherland.]

“If you’re walking through hell, keep going” -Winston Churchill Life is pain. And it can be really freaking rough. Sometimes it feels so easy and relieving to want to just give up completely, and ask yourself what the point of all of it really is. Some get off easier, some of us, get crap thrown at us, and the only thing we can do is control the way we react. Nearly losing both of my parents, multiple times, and other unique problems, I do often feel “numb” at times. Working on solving our own problems, battling things alone, and sharing it with others takes incredible strength, and is painful. However, giving up is also painful. Really the only thing we can do is just accept the fact that life can be too uncertain for us to beat ourselves up, and just keep going. Hard times creates strong people 👊🏻

[@floatpoint1050]

If you give up, it’s over. But if you don’t give up, the day will come when you’ll be glad you didn’t give up. - Masato Life is long journey Ruri. Just keep at it

[@pepsicolla123]

Love these words

[@jasonsaengchanh8914]

Please don't kill yourself. You have been helping so many people with your videos. You have a purpose. I hope it gets better ✌️

[@Galactusz007]

It’s not cool to say, don’t kill yourself. I know you mean well, but that’s not the way to express concern for Ruri. Simply say something like, Ruri, we are all here for you. We will support you through these tough times.

[@森島康志]

とっても重たい話題でしたが、最後まで観させてもらいました。 自身としっかりと向かい合って、気持ちや考えをよく整理して、スクリーンに向かって声に出されたことは本当に凄い人だと思いました。 あなたが経験して来たことや感じて来たことを「よく理解できます、大変でしたね」などと軽々しくは言うつもりはありません。 実は、私も私なりに色々あって、この10年ほどメンタルクリニックに通ってまだほんの少し薬に頼っている状態です。 でも、一度「容量（スマホなどと同じ）」が減ってしまうと、なかなか元に戻ることは容易ではないと感じています。 それでも、周りの人の力を借りたり、自身で何とか前向きに何かに取り組んだりして、あれこれやっているうちに、ほんの僅かずつですが「以前の自分」に近づきつつあるかなと感じています。でも「以前の自分」に戻らなくても『新たな自分』になっても良いのかなとも考えたりしています。 とにかく、これからは［ペース］を調整しながら、《追い込みすぎずに楽しみながら》投稿して下さい。😊 あなたのチャンネルのお陰で、毎日の過ごし方や言語学習などのモチベーションを上げることができています。 これからも応援していますよ。✊🤩 from Aichi Pre. ,JAPAN🇯🇵

[@efearl3337]

Tam bir toksik türk aile yapısından tüm gücü ile annesini gururlandırmaya çalışan inanılmaz birisisin. Yaşadığın şeyleri ne kadar anlatsan dahi ne yaşadığını bir tek sen biliyorsun fakat başardığın tüm bu şeylerin yanında kendine iyi davranmalısın .Mükemmeliyetçi karakterin kendine fazla yüklenmene sebebp oluyor. Seni takip eden ve ilham alan bu kadar kişi senin hakkında endişeleniyor. Seni anlayan arkadaşların ile sohbet etmen, Dans kursu gibi yerlere gidip sosyalleşmen antidepresan almandan çok daha iyi olacaktır. Hayat o kadar boş ki hiç bir olay kendini bu kadar üzmene gerçekten değmiyor. Tüm bu hayat mücadelende gülümsemeyi unutma :)