I honestly feel the exact same brother. I've made a lot of promises and goals that I haven't upheld. But if it helps, try to think about what you did do instead of what you didn't. I've looked at your page and noticed plenty of things. You've started a no fap journey. You've gotten really muscular and lean. You've improved your content. Look, there may of been plenty of things you haven't done yet. However, you've still done more stuff to improve yourself this year than other's have their whole life, so give yourself a break. Remember, there's tomorrow. Tomorrow you can start at it and achieve the goals you want to achieve. And if it helps, you're not alone. Don't feel alone or stay alone. Find the right people who'll stick with you and support you on your journey to becoming better. I pray for your safety, strength, wisdom and being. Bless you and whatever you choose to achieve ✝️💜