Why Sunday School SCARED me

[@illymation]

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[@unicorngaming9438]

16 secs wow ❤❤❤❤

[@Lamborghinigodz]

The Queen has posted

[@CharleeSpurlock]

3 mins

[@Lukeanix]

Hi

[@Kidtastrophe99]

Hiii

[@eeveefennecfox]

teachers are so mean when they tell you to stop asking questions,asking questions is how you oh I don't know *LEARN* teachers should know that,that's the number 1 rule to teaching,ask questions

[@baffledbrandon3132]

NEVER stop asking questions and NEVER stop learning.

[@Purpliz]

Teaching religion is hard because they don't know any more than anyone

[@WendyLee-y6n]

I felt that when I switched schools

[@AndersWatches]

They usually only want you to learn enough to hold the same opinions as them, and not enough to question them, that’s why.

[@timberwolf700]

I agree with you that teachers can be very mean when they tell you to stop asking questions, especially if they are Sunday School teachers

[@Jo-qh1jk]

As a fellow autistic person who grew up going to Catholic school, I felt this. They don't really know how to respond to us.

[@Trix_starz]

Well they gotta start figuring it out.

[@AstrinExavier]

true

[@JonBrase]

I'm pretty sure my religious environment growing up was heavily autistic (it certainly has been since my teens), so I never really had this problem.

[@meatIers]

LOOK IN THE URL LMAOOO

[@sunviche]

It felt so unreal having to memorize all that stuff

[@DefrostedChicken]

Never trust anyone or anything that asks you not to question what you do not understand

[@ianbuick8946]

The longer you live the more unanswered questions you will have. At some pointn you have to have faith to live.

[@_pan-tastic_28]

@@ianbuick8946 There will always be unanswered questions, but that doesn't mean that you don't give up trying to find answers to them.

[@redplaybuttonuser]

Yep, basically islam.

[@doughertyyy]

Well yeah...but a good caring leader will often allow and answer questions

[@Emeralds4u]

if you're referring to God then I have to say this; God encourages questions and loves it because it helps you grow more in your faith

[@monkeylady8150]

I like how this wasn't an anti-religion video, but more of an anxiety video, that takes place in religion. I'm agnostic, but I am still glad this wasn't a "this church did this horrible thing" video.

[@TommyCashLover420]

Exactly, I am too!

[@alx1703]

@@TommyCashLover420 Same here!

[@Midnight_Star1021]

Churches sometimes do horrible things, doesn’t mean the religion is inherently bad or that talking about it is antireligion

[@grimmcorvid5713]

Yeah but critocising church is important. You cant constantly ignore the bad stuff they do.

[@michaelmulloy5925]

It's important to remember that every Christian has their doubts and that you're not alone. Nobody likes to show it on the outside, so it's understandable to feel alone

[@Oh-2ALEX]

What church fails to teach is that Jesus was told to ALSO ask alot of questions,questions that they couldn't quite answer

[@Monaa123-45]

@@daleprice1490incorrect. Source is the Bible. Jesus encouraged questions, doesn’t matter if you’re religious or not. Jesus was real and he said that

[@40Ccents]

does that mean you can ask questions about christianity and some of the morals?

[@Monaa123-45]

@ yes, you can ask questions, as long as your respectful (hence “love thy neighbor”) btw it seems like I’m trying to push my religion on others im not

[@40Ccents]

@@Monaa123-45 oh okay, also it's alright, i'm also christian and just curious

[@Michael_The_cat]

Unfortunately there are plenty of victims that go to corrupt churches that only care about money, and not you; and feed you lies.

[@nerdsikle]

It is in human nature to question what we are taught. It doesn’t make you broken or sinful or defective.

[@SonofTuscon99]

I can relate to the questions. My main one was, “If God made Adam and Eve, wouldn’t that make us all related?’

[@jacoblass3224]

Technically speaking yes 😅

[@cat_poopuuu]

Yesss

[@ookami5329]

I'm surprised no one could answer that to you. In my circle we would often reference that we're all distant cousins

[@AJHayes614]

I ALWAYS used to ask that question-

[@SonofTuscon99]

@@ookami5329 nah,they’d usually hear me ask it then immediately change the subject.

[@Moon525]

Tbh those are legit questions. It seems really unfair (and somewhat problematic...) to just be quiet, listen, and join the herd mindlessly.

[@QUBIQUBED]

it IS unfair

[@HaloMan-813]

Not mindlessly wdym

[@ForeverMe217]

The bible literally says seek the truth. We’re not mindlessly listening tf?

[@stephencastle3307]

Yeah, you should ask questions, that's how you learn. Faith was never meant to be completely blind, it's something you should search for and seek out. Most problems with the faith come from people who never questioned or actually explored it because they never asked themselves those answers either.

[@AkilGoldsboro]

Agree

[@JacquelynIngram-h4h]

I’m an atheist with some religious trauma, but I love learning about religion. If the person is respectful it’s always interesting

[@dimensionninja4929]

thanks for the respect, I'm sorry for your Trauma as a Christian

[@EzLagz]

It alwayss sucks when I see someone turn away from Christ due to trauma. I'm to shy to tell people Christianty is about having a relationship with Christ and not go to church listen and do what is said.

[@dimensionninja4929]

@@EzLagz defo brother.

[@EvansKeita-we2yv]

​@EzLagz yeah man its sad thing to see

[@TradServant]

That breaks my heart it’s crazy how different peoples experiences can be for me my Catholic faith and the community it’s put me around saved me from a doomer /y.o.l.o mentality that caused me to do stupid stuff I’d regret and it gave meaning and warmth unlike any other. But then I hear the other side and how organized religion has hurt others and made them feel ashamed of themselves (and especially if you grew up Lutherans Anglicans and other Protestant downright deny basic science big reason Im drawn away from them). I hope you can one day recover from what has happened to you and come out better in the end. I hope you don’t mind if I pray for you in the meantime. ❤️

[@ThroughTheLensOfAutism]

Growing up autistic, I had many problems with religious education, particularly contradictions I would find, but I am still practicing.

[@TheRomanSkull]

Can I get some examples, I have a few mates who brought this up to me, and neither I and them can recall the verses they said. It would really help me

[@josevlog945]

No but seriously dinosaurs is like where my own belief was put into question. That and general science education which you know is SCIENCE.

[@poopupupu2441]

It is for this reason I am atheist

[@amyk5929]

@@josevlog945 this exactly. One of my science teachers was christian and I had talked to him about it, but tbh he was in the same 'boat' as me about knowing what to trust and believe

[@micellaragua]

@@josevlog945a lot of the important scientists were Christian

[@Alucard_Ander]

Why the hell can't we say hell on KZbin when half the ads are NSFW

[@pupu416]

I swear those ads are creepy

[@Cheesycheesecheese64]

@@pupu416Fr

[@DavidLyles]

You ever see the body wash ads? I swear what KZbin deems as appropriate is widely varying and very biased.

[@Trix_starz]

@@DavidLylesits just body washnman

[@stariijells]

I just got an ad about diddy 😭

[@ArielEarl]

Thanks for staying respectful during the video, I’m sorry that you felt that way in that time and thank you for having the courage to share the experience.

[@Delphadae]

As someone who is Christian, but is actively deconstructing/reconstructing faith, I really wish there were more spaces for children and teens to express their questions, doubts, and fears about their faith. (With no judgement from their teachers, pastors/priests, and peers). Thankfully, there are spaces to ask these questions online now, but there is so much more that religious communities can do.

[@vinx.909]

sadly the religion gets little out of helping you question it, so it has no systems for (and more often against) help with such questions.

[@Eileen_Lola]

I grew up Unitarian Universalist and this is EXACTLY what growing up in my religion is like. I wish it was like that everywhere because growing up I always felt secure in my faith when I was questioning things and even to this day. I’m hoping it continues to change to this.

[@dimensionninja4929]

yes, I agree

[@biblesforbreakfast]

Agreed. It says in the scriptures that is God's job to judge and people's responsibility to love. But people want to play God. That's why there are none of those safe spaces. It's sad.

[@stormninjabros025]

I go to a Christian school, and I'm really glad my school is really open to questions about faith and doubts and good teachers who actually answer those questions

[@juliacheneyillustration3928]

I really love how your videos tackle topics that can be uncomfortable or "taboo" in ways that feel genuine, honest and empathetic

[@geikaci]

shes goated for that exact reason

[@notgeniepenne]

I’m Muslim and I love learning about other religions and exploring their beliefs I encourage everyone to do that as well !

[@AhmedAhmed-fu6dn]

Fellow Muslim here

[@notgeniepenne]

@ alhamdolilah

[@LyrLyrPantsOnFyr]

i rlly dont like when fellow muslims are disrespectful to other religions

[@notgeniepenne]

@@LyrLyrPantsOnFyr yea that definitely doesn’t represent Islam. Everyone should respect everyone regardless of their religion

[@redplaybuttonuser]

@@LyrLyrPantsOnFyr Yeah, they are violent and arrogant. I'm not a fan of them, they been quite destructive.

[@JaytheblueJ]

I’m autistic too and became atheist by the time I was 10 because the adults told me “just have faith” and it didn’t satisfy any questions I had.

[@b00nz0r]

I saw that as 'shut up' and they said it even after I told them, 'love'.

[@Somerandomturkie]

Sad you went at 10. Not because you were supposed to NOT leave, but because people probably didn't take you serious at the time due to your age. I mean in my country, the republic of turkey, people sure as all the might hate LGBT people. Especially ones in pubrety as they're seen as young and stupid.

[@mignonne_]

What questions do you have

[@Iamafanofthings50]

there is evidence that points to God's existence.

[@Cat_egg1]

​@@Iamafanofthings50That is? Please tell

[@figurativeElement]

This is reminding me how I was baptized at 8 while incredibly sick with the flu; the ceremony was more important than my well-being.

[@niamhturner1451]

because its perfectly safe, Holy Water isn't going to kill you

[@AidanBurnett-y8g]

If it makes you feel better back in the early Christian years some Christians got baptized in prison

[@AkilGoldsboro]

​@@niamhturner1451 that's not the point

[@squeak.z]

@@niamhturner1451they were SICK.

[@roachmorphine8018]

That's just irresponsible parenting.

[@charlesbennett7484]

I was lucky enough to have a youth pastor that welcomed all questions. "There are no dumb questions", he told us and since I was the sort that was always curious about absolutely EVERYTHING and wanted to understand all the "hows" and "whys", it was very encouraging to have someone I could turn to with my questions. If only more teachers were like that. ✝️ Southern Baptist, by the way.

[@butterflywingzz0]

As someone who is questioning their faith this video came at just the right time

[@Luna_moooon]

Same

[@catlance]

same

[@alexdeghost2729]

As someone who recently reGAINED their faith, please be careful! :3

[@leguichettravel1599]

👍

[@walienherz]

​@@alexdeghost2729 Wait, why must they be careful?

[@Smallges]

You are so incredibly talented when it comes to story telling. Your way with words and the way you convey emotions is just absolutely brilliant.

[@RogerLikesMath]

Illymations is my boyfriend ❤❤❤

[@Clxudy_Official23]

@@RogerLikesMathshe’s a girl.

[@TheInfintyithGoofball]

​@@Clxudy_Official23 Demigirl.

[@Clxudy_Official23]

@@TheInfintyithGoofball Yes sorry mbb

[@Gamercatgirl5]

I was raised Evangelincal. I'm LGBT and I was told that 'Good Christian men would kill anyone LGBT' It was horrifying. I was completely silent about who I was. I moved away from the church and ran from any form of Christianity.

[@nullname0]

sorry to hear that

[@ianbuick8946]

Not sure who told you that because they are not telling the Truth. "Thy shall not murder" is one of the commandment in the Bible. If you read the Bible you would know....but i doubt you ran away for that reason.

[@redplaybuttonuser]

They are wrong, that is not Christ-like. We are not supposed to harm/kill the sinner. We are not Islam.

[@Gamercatgirl5]

@ianbuick8946 I read the entire Bible. I'm not a bad person. I have morals but not for any god.

[@ianbuick8946]

@@Gamercatgirl5 You may read the *entire* Bible, but do you understand?

[@isabellareynolds7030]

When I realized I was Bi I started to distance myself from my religion and very religious people of my family because I’ve herd of conversation camps that do very bad things to try and show that this way of life is bad. Illy came out and helped me realize some things with this video, they really are the person we all need in our lives.

[@rommix0]

> conversation camps lol. It's any BUT conversation. It's conversion, and it's just as bad.

[@MilkshakePeanut]

God loves you no matter your orientation❤❤❤

[@isabellareynolds7030]

@@MilkshakePeanut Thank you 🥹

[@wanniesup]

Jesus loves us all

[@Lily-c4i]

I'm also bi and I'm afraid to come out to parents

[@kyliewitmer1882]

I can relate to this soooo much. My parents also used the “ if you can memorize lines for shows, why can’t you memorize verses?” on me. I feel so terrible about it and the fear of my teacher sitting me down and yelling at me until I cried always maked me scared of going back to church.

[@AidanBurnett-y8g]

That does not sound Christianity of someone to yell at you until you cried

[@anisa2273]

this is the same with the memorizing the Quran too(except probably harder as its in Arabic). id feel guilty that I can remember most movies/songs word for word but no the quran it was sad. I'm doing better now and taking the memorization at my own pace

[@AidanBurnett-y8g]

@ as far as I know, this is an exclusively Lutheran thing which is ironic because Martin Luther didn’t actually say peoples should memorize the Bible. Most other Churches do something different

[@notgeniepenne]

@@anisa2273did teachers ever scream at u for not memorizing?

[@heuzame6198]

Honestly this would be literally impossible for me to memorize the whole bible, I'm not sure if that can be linked to my aphantasia or not.

[@millanierosario2151]

i almost cried watching this because i always feel guilty for feeling like this,and when i watched your video,you made me feel so much better,lots of people feel the same way as me,but sadly not alot of people talk about it,thank you so much for being the person who talks about it❤

[@AmariaThe]

For almost 16 years I was the most faithful, devout, God-fearing Christian boy... I was praised for being so nice and kind and generous, for embodying what it meant to be a follower of Jesus. But then cracks that had been long withstanding, unanswered questions, inconsistencies began to widen and suddenly everything fell apart. If I'm a girl, what does the Bible say? If my friends are gay, what will happen to them? If we have free will, why did God control Pharaoh? How did the ark work? It was deeper than a few simple questions, and it was too much. How can one keep one's faith if the item of faith makes no sense and can't be proven? I tried to maintain it, but it fell apart under the words and abuse of people toted as the best Christians around. And what for? I stared at the sky one night, lying on a vast stretch of grass and thought, how beautiful it is to be free from divine purpose? How marveolous that we're so tiny and inconsequential? How much better are actions motivsted out of genuine love than fear of hell? I have religeous trauma, but I am myself, my own, and not defined by it or Christianity any longer. And that is freeing.

[@danyinthetardis5683]

this was so nice to read! i’m glad u found ur place in life!!

[@HUNTER-Cg9]

I'm so happy for you finding yourself

[@juanranger4214]

I am so sorry for what people have made to you, even under the name of Jesus Christ. My testimony is quite the opposite... For almost 22 years of my life I was an atheist, and questions like yours is what prevented me from believing in God. But being an athiest almost got me killed, for purposelesness is a road to suicide... man needs purpose in order to live, and purpose can only come from being created by a creator. So after many events of my life, I started seeking God, and after seeking Him with all my heart, strength and mind, He came to me and made Himself known through signs and miracles... and then I knew that He is real, He saved my life and He is good. If you were taught that you should do good out of fear of Hell, you were taught wrong. The love of God is to love one another, just as He loves us, and there is no spirit of fear that comes from God. Tell me, what keeps you from trusting in Jesus Christ? Have you never seen any sign or miracle of His?

[@juanranger4214]

@ Tell me them, so I may help you. One thing we must do when seeking answers is to listen to both sides. What made me not believe in the first place is only listening to the naturalistic/atheist side…

[@juanranger4214]

@@PowerPlayerz100 Heaven is for forgiven people, people who have been forgiven by God from their sins, through the blood and sacrifice of Jesus Christ and have repented from their sins. Homosexuality is a sin, for it is not the intended purpose of God for man and woman, and the disobedience of God’s law always brings death and wickedness in the end somehow, which attracts God’s judgement against wickedness. God allowed homosexuality to exist because man sinned against God and caused corruption in all of creation, corrupting the flesh and the spirit, breaking the link between man and God. Homosexuality can have a number of causes, like: a past event that made one believe that they are born this way or that they are attracted to the same sex, or it can even be spiritual oppression from a demon. I have seen a testimony from an ex homosexual that instead of praying to God to take the “gay” away, they asked God why were they gay, and God answered her, showing her past events that led her to believe that she was gay, when in fact she was not. In the end, she did not feel same sex attraction anymore.

[@CatFoxHybrid]

✝️✡️☯️🕉️☪️I’m Atheist, but I love you Christian people & other different religions out there. Love yourself and love the world you live in❣️

[@crystal03marie]

It's refreshing to see atheists that knows how to respect other ppl's beliefs. Very contradictory to "Christians" who thinks their beliefs deserve entitlement 😔

[@alexdeghost2729]

Awe thank you :3. This christian loves u!!❤

[@USCO3441]

❤

[@YungandRekless545]

We appreciate you respecting others beliefs. And we also respect your beliefs. It's very much possible for people with differing opinions to live harmoniously with each other ❤

[@HisamiYomotsu]

I’m with this Athiest, I love all of you guys, even with my religious trauma

[@alextheloser]

i can’t properly put into words how closely i relate to everything you said in this video. the religious trauma, the internalising of doubt, the “jesus doesn’t mean anything to me”, the “what if i’m practicing the wrong religion”, etc etc. very recently i’ve been rediscovering my faith and figuring out what God means to me (and no one else!). thank you so much for creating this and opening up about your experiences 🩷

[@Paulettchen]

I'm catholic and I only live my religion the way I'm comfortable with. My family accepts it and I question a lot of things. I think if religion makes you hate other people or even hate yourself, it's not healthy

[@blobfishstudios]

Exactly! Love isn’t for just the people who fit the perfect religious mold, it’s for everyone!

[@cagedguitarist1208]

So what does that look like? I’m just wondering what you mean by this

[@Republic-Studios1]

So you’re not actually following religion?

[@EvansKeita-we2yv]

Its god not religioun

[@KidA1117]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. Religious faith should never make anyone feel bad about themselves

[@ShadowSkyX]

Depends on what they're feeling bad about.

[@KidA1117]

It's about self worth, love and acceptance. ​It should never make you feel wrong or less than who you really are

[@EzLagz]

It alwayss sucks when I see someone turn away from Christ due to trauma. I'm to shy to tell people Christianty is about having a relationship with Christ and not go to church listen and do what is said.

[@katrinawinter5645]

We're so fortunate to have you. The videos you make are always insightful. You are so articulate and able to get your points across in an easy to digest way. We love your videos and are so grateful to have someone like you in the world

[@SnakeitySpoonGilmour]

I CAUGHT IT EARLY! As someone who grew up religious, I'm excited for this video.

[@epicjker]

SAME

[@OlhaTsar]

Same

[@sofiacubillan5232]

ME TOO!!

[@rinsabnormality]

This hits close to home especially after Christian camp were there were some f-ed stuff being said i started questioning my faith and not feeling safe in the community. Great video as always ❤

[@rommix0]

You had a similar experience I did. The camp I went to was a Pentecostal one, and that very camp experience was what led me to swear off religion entirely.

[@blissteh]

Man, as a christian, nobody should ever be treated like that. That's not what jesus was like.

[@garrettsattem4799]

F-ed up stuff like…?

[@garrettsattem4799]

@@rommix0Well your problem was being Pentecostal. The correct choice would have been to switch to Catholicism.

[@rommix0]

@@garrettsattem4799 i never said I was pentecostal. I was catholic. Big difference. The camp was pentecostal.

[@usure-i3e]

Making it to heaven is not about religion, it’s about giving your life to God and following him faithfully and true.

[@Dhshevhsusjzns]

And if I don't, I'll go to hell because I didn't have enough faith. "If you don't love me, I'll send you to hell," says the ALL LOVING GOD.

[@theplushybros6140]

I grew up in a catholic family. For the first few years of my life, I was the faith believing child. Always believing whatever my mother, father, or priest told me. I even became an alter boy when I was old enough. I went through first communion and confirmation. For me, what started my faith crisis was thinking about the Norse gods from Norse mythology. I started asking myself “if my religion is correct, does that mean that everyone else is wrong? Are Muslims wrong for not being Christian? Are Hindus wrong for believing in multiple gods?” This started me on the path that took me away from my faith. Eventually I left my church and became agnostics. I don’t believe in god, but I didn’t know what was truly out there. Eventually I became an Athiest, but more along the Agnostic side than full Athiest. I don’t believe that there is an afterlife, but I’m not certain of this.

[@ForeverMe217]

I love mythology but I know they are just myths. Barely anyone believes in the Old gods anymore and if they were real, they would have been fallen angels. And yea, Muslims, Hindus, Jews are wrong.

[@roachmorphine8018]

There is plenty of evidence of an afterlife. Look up some first hand accounts of near-death experiences and unexplainable ghost sightings. It's fascinating.

[@user-DragonWhiskers]

@@ForeverMe217what makes them wrong but you right?

[@ForeverMe217]

@ Not about me. It’s about Jesus. And every religion (other than Judaism for obvious reasons). Respects Jesus and Jesus said: He is the way, the truth and the life. So, yeah, I’m going with Jesus. Hope that helps.

[@user-DragonWhiskers]

@@ForeverMe217 but how do we know that?

[@wordsmith6154]

I'm Roman Catholic and am always interested in hearing about other religions. In the Catholic religion, despite how by the rules many claim us to be, is very relaxed and we do things different. We never had to memorize the Bible, just prayers. Our classes went from Kindergarten to 8th grade and the last two years were for confirmation classes. During that time, we chose our patron saint and participated in community service. It's what got me interested in doing it in the first place. I was sure in my faith, but I was always reassured that I had to be sure and I could always pull out if I was unsure. I wish more religions were as understanding.

[@b00nz0r]

... you see that you're in a trap and you think it's fine because nothing has happened yet? Personally take how I left the religon and actually read the bible, all of it where you find Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John weren't real people so literally almost all the stories (including the last supper) were all made up. They're saying 'Jesus was real' and that he didn't have a body because it went up into heaven? Nah; and even if so then christians are purposefully lying to you.

[@Annagator-ze8oo]

I also find it interesting hearing about other religions! I too am Roman catholic and I really enjoyed this video. I’m not sure I’d ever receive communion if I had to memorize the entire bible.

[@tuna._.fishhh]

Im trying to learn about different religions at the moment so I was just wondering what’s a patron saint?

[@valebdro20hn]

@@tuna._.fishhh it's basically like the saint u are devote for and get most inspired by her/his testimony, making him/her your guardian. (If I'm wrong just correct me, but that's what I know.)

[@AJsans]

I'm a roman Catholic to but for at least at my parish we had first communion and then we had confirmation and they were both pretty easy I never had any stress about not passing

[@emmy_grace]

Your story was so moving. Thanks for sharing Illy

[@kingofweird1]

Ex-mormon here. I relate very heavily with your story. I felt so guilty for being who I was because you can't be gay or trans in that religion. I'd try my best to not cry in the chapel. I eventually left, and I'm atheist because of what's happened. Religious trauma isn't easy- never was. Thank you for posting something about this- genuinely.

[@fuzzyshark7513]

You’re allowed to be gay, just not act on it 🤷‍♀️

[@faeriee_soup]

@@fuzzyshark7513they just said they no longer have that religion so they don’t have to follow that rule..

[@Quinn-he3vn]

​@fuzzyshark7513 That basically means you can't be gay lmao. Idk what logic you're following

[@fuzzyshark7513]

@@Quinn-he3vn there’s a difference between having the feelings vs actually going out and doing stuff. Like, not dating anyone doesn’t mean you’re any less gay

[@fuzzyshark7513]

@@faeriee_soup I meant “you” as a general term, yk? Like “people” not him specifically

[@Phoenix-et1vw]

0:31 wow you already sound like me, haven’t watched the full video yet but ended up with some religious trauma in the end for being neurodivergent and lgbtqia+ Update: I needed this video. Thank you. I’m almost 22 and I am still scared of talking to my family about it because the church we went to taught that they fail as parents if I don’t follow the rules which really affected our relationship

[@chancia8990]

wait what we're the same!

[@billcipher4368]

Speaking of LGBTQ , the video's ID/URL is *nXLTlyimGAY* .I know it's a bit random but I Just wanted to point out the fun coincidence .

[@ShadowSkyX]

Toxic, toxic toxic. That's absolutely unacceptable! There's parents that pull this same manipulation tactic

[@froggy_art1]

​@@billcipher4368That's amazing lol

[@liz_violet]

@@billcipher4368 pog.

[@giovanmorabonilla6400]

As a Christian, it is totally normal and should be encouraged to question your faith. Just because you have questions or it becomes difficult does not mean you're any less a Christian. I am so sorry that you had to go through that❤️

[@lelouch344]

Anybody who teaches children that they have to "earn" their faith or the love the God has the story all wrong. Thank you for sharing your experience. I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. Your doubt will never make you less valuable to God. You are loved. ❤

[@RileyJenkins-w8n]

Amen!!!!!!!

[@TinyCatSpoons]

Religious trauma sounds really tough. I have no experience with it as my parents are both secular but holy smokes the damage this can do is criminal.

[@TheRomanSkull]

@@TinyCatSpoons wait the smoke is what now??? (Sorry I had to)

[@RileyJenkins-w8n]

Jesus loves you so so so much!!!

[@artysmartyzz3102]

If someone tells you to stop asking questions and to just believe and follow them, run.

[@ChioChompi]

It's interesting to hear communion is earned in some other churches! I used to go to church with my family when I was pretty young, and communion was done every day for everyone. The more you know! ✨

[@supotter377]

Yeah thats wild to me since even first time visitors were given communion at the one I went to

[@amberballard90s]

At my church you can have communion once your baptized.😊

[@saturnthemirrorball]

I grew up catholic and once I was baptised, I got to join communion! Illy’s journey sounds so overwhelming to me as an autistic person, im glad my church was kind and welcoming.

[@RileyJenkins-w8n]

Yeah, in my church we have communion every once in a while. Although we encourage first time visitors to engage, we also make sure that they do it because of their personal faith, not religious pressure. Also, Jesus loves you!!

[@RamshacklePrefect896]

I renounced my Christianity in my teens. What did it for me was our pastor. He would always say 'come as you are' while also saying 'you must change everything about yourself to please God'. I just learned to love myself and your saying to give that up? No thanks, I'd rather burn.

[@jessica9999]

we enter the shower dirty but to get clean what is the use of entering the shower if you dont get clean?

[@mignonne_]

You'd rather burn in Hell forever and forever because you accept your sinful nature instead of changing your ways like how Christ taught us?

[@RamshacklePrefect896]

Absolutely, I enjoy life so much more

[@Chu2chompsankles]

​@@mignonne_ Threats of "burning in hell" is exactly why religious trauma happens. Your god doesn't sound so loving if he's willing to put people through eternal damnation for being themselves.

[@AkilGoldsboro]

​@mignonne_ That's basically threatening people with eternal torture if they don't join that boring religion

[@nuclearmudking7497]

The fear aspect in religion is a real issue man. Great video

[@josephg755]

But it's also a logical side! I mean... if there is a powerful God... what if he gets angry and takes revenge?

[@lizzie2157]

@@josephg755this is the dumbest thing I’ve ever seen

[@josephg755]

@@lizzie2157 in Qur'an ((Know that Allah is severe in penalty and that Allah is Forgiving and Merciful.))

[@SmugSpike]

Nothing like religious trama to create some quality entertainment! Seriously though I love your videos.

[@EzLagz]

It alwayss sucks when I see someone turn away from Christ due to trauma. I'm to shy to tell people Christianty is about having a relationship with Christ and not go to church listen and do what is said.

[@captainsoldier3899]

@@EzLagzAmen keep going

[@kenthuang436]

I once commented on a FB group for mental health trauma and experiences asking if religious talk should be allowed and I said yes and explained that I really needed a safe place to discuss all my religious trauma and this woman got really nasty towards me and said that I was “faking” my trauma and that I was a liar because “Christians don’t do things that traumatize people.” People don’t realize how a few bad experiences involving churches can really affect someone.

[@WeAllWumbo25]

It’s nice to know I’m not the only one out there struggling. I’m struggling with my faith for very different reasons, but it’s nice to know I’m not alone. Appreciate everyone still figuring it out like me💜

[@DashieDe]

Virtual hugs🫂💛

[@RileyJenkins-w8n]

I pray God will get you through this season. You are not alone, I struggle a lot too. God has gotten me through all the seasons of life, I know He can and will do the same for you!

[@EzLagz]

It alwayss sucks when I see someone turn away from Christ due to trauma. I'm to shy to tell people Christianty is about having a relationship with Christ and not go to church listen and do what is said.

[@Fragmentstudio-w6l]

I grew up being the most Catholic person you will know, but just like you, I began to question my faith, asking questions that would make people mad, and I prayed, I prayed...my prayers were never answered...but after I fully came to understand my beliefs...I improved myself a lot ❤

[@Bandit2Cool]

Just got the worst news of my life and this genuinely made my day

[@charlesberry3677]

I'm sorry to hear you didn't receive the best news. Hopefully, your day gets better

[@TaylorCharlie]

Sending so much love and comfort to you 💕💕.

[@banebriggs7486]

Sorry to hear that

[@40Ccents]

@@banebriggs7486 unrelated, but bfdi pfp?!

[@banebriggs7486]

@@40Ccents yup, BFDIA 1

[@izaiahcunningham5882]

I agree with you. I've always said that it's okay to question your religion or to want to know, why you do said religion. The inventions that were made weren't so they can be all normal. It was so they can question and learn about them.

[@LiseniMqala]

I'm so lucky my church taught me truthfully and welcomed all questions I'm so blessed

[@AlexanderNayebi]

Yes you are. God bless you. It's a shame the way some Churches in the US kill the faith of young people. Having questions answered in an intellectually satisfactory way will grow faith.

[@MrHydesAlterEgo]

This was so sincere and emotional, Illy. Thank you for making this.

[@bellabunnyy]

Well, as an (ex) catholic myself, this video are soooo relatable, I was also pressured to do an confirmation, anxiety, and coincidentally or not, I was also bullied in 6th grade… So, basically, it’s also religious trauma lol, adults shouldn’t force their faith into their children like that, this only makes them more resentful about religion, thanks for this video illy, and I’m sorry for what happened to u, stay safe

[@KarenTravis-u8s]

I don't have that much religious trauma but I got lucky with my confirmation teacher he's my friends dad and he's hilarious.

[@eveningjaguar]

Same. I’m extremely resentful of Christianity and most if not all Christians I meet

[@micellaragua]

@@eveningjaguarthat’s harsh

[@eveningjaguar]

@@micellaragua Too bad

[@graece5948]

Wasn’t Jesus’s whole thing about being kind?

[@josie2679]

Skip the ad 3:07

[@Garbagekǐd-l]

I LUV ur pfp :]

[@the_pengu]

I hope your phone battery never dies 🥰

[@josie2679]

@@Garbagekǐd-l thank you

[@josie2679]

@@the_pengu I hope so too

[@AliyahC-rq6it]

No it’s okay this helped me

[@spiceupyourafterlife]

I remember questioning my faith when I reached my teens because I saw so much cruelty happening in the name of Christianity and being a neurodivergent queer girl coming to terms with her sexuality and experiencing a lot of pent up anger from being bullied and emotionally abused, I thought that my natural feelings would send me to hell. This feeling gave me even more anxiety than I was already experiencing. I left the church when I was fifteen and now my spiritual beliefs lean more towards the Pagan side, which always made more sense to me.

[@Detectivecomics150]

I have adhd, I am Jewish, grew up Christian I had trouble too and feel it glad we have so much in common glad I am not alone

[@Detectivecomics150]

As for what my religious trauma was me finding myself and coming out the closet and finding out that Christianity is very anti gay

[@Detectivecomics150]

Luckly I found out my Jewish heritage and found out that I didn't need Christianity but not to give up on religion at all

[@niamhturner1451]

so you're Christian... not jewish

[@Day_Star8]

You always release videos when I'm feeling at my lowest and teach me sm about life. Im so grateful to you and this channel and for being open about your experiences all of which ive heavily related too. Thank you so much Ilyssa

[@mariedufore8795]

I remember that my school had a field trip to the police station (wow very fun 🙄) and we passed the church school for a shortcut, but then a teacher and nun yelled at us for “trespassing” my dad said that it was ironic because there is a line in the Bible that says to forgive “trespassers”

[@philippeparvais284]

Plus, that church is probably built on stolen land talk about trespassing

[@Pepperoni.Pizza.Box22]

Growing up autistic and in the church, life was rough. Mass never held my attention, and I never got to participate in the sacraments because of home things. I’m now out of Catholic school and no longer with the church, but happy.

[@ianbuick8946]

Can you define happiness?

[@Pepperoni.Pizza.Box22]

I don’t feel the weight of being condemned to hell for loving who I love.

[@ianbuick8946]

@@Pepperoni.Pizza.Box22 No. That's the definition for guilt.

[@Pepperoni.Pizza.Box22]

@ I don’t appreciate a random stranger on the internet telling me what I’m feeling. You don’t know my body or mind, sorry to break that to you.

[@ianbuick8946]

​@@Pepperoni.Pizza.Box22 I agree. Your feeling is your responsibility, no one else is responsible for your feeling. On the other hand, if you want to elevate to a more mature conversation, we can stick to facts no matter if it make us feel uncomfortable.

[@karolwithaz]

Thank you for making this video because although this topic is controversial, it is good to see it being addressed since it is common but not often talked about.

[@АндрейБобров-ь5у]

I grew up as Orthodox Christian and I never needed an examination pass in order to attend Communion! The more you know huh, it's very interesting actually

[@illymation]

it's so interesting to learn how others do it!

[@Trix_starz]

@@illymationi grew up as nothing!! :D when I found out that Christians got to drink wine under the drinking age my mind was blown😭

[@micellaragua]

@@Trix_starzit’s not usually alcoholic wine

[@PlanetElsonYT]

@@illymationhi ;-3

[@nightwalker9875]

@@Trix_starzif it makes you feel better; I never got wine when I was a Christian. I got grape juice to go with a cracker

[@CoupleOfNerds_YT_channel]

I questioned my religion when I was told people I knew who were not straight were going to hell and deserved it. I renounced my religion when my friend killed himself and I was told he was going to hell and deserved it. This was when I was in middle school and have no regrets.

[@mignonne_]

Bro what? If your friend killed yourself and people said he deserved it why you blaming it on Jesus?

[@pohmot9933]

​@@mignonne_ he's not blaming jesus he's blaming the faith for forcing his friend into that situation to begin with.

[@nightwalker9875]

@@mignonne_also they didn’t say what religion they deconverted from

[@Pancakes-n-Waffles168]

Oh gosh. I'm so sorry for your friend and you, I hoe you're doing okay now

[@CoupleOfNerds_YT_channel]

@@nightwalker9875 Christianity

[@Mayo_Jared]

7:29 king in the background made me so happy😭🫶

[@RexTheT-Rex]

I WAS WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO SEE HIM SHE DREW HIM SO CUTELY

[@Mister_Shoe]

Even tho I'm an ex-Muslim and have no affiliation with Christianity whatsoever, this was so fucking relatable. I wish no one would ever have to endure such hardship, to lose sight of who they are just because of some ancient stories that people of the time made to make up for their lack of knowledge. But we all know that wish is never coming true

[@notgeniepenne]

What made u leave Islam (genuine question)? And I’m sorry u had to go through whatever trauma u went through and just know it doesn’t represent Islam. 🫶🏻

[@Mister_Shoe]

@@notgeniepenne Also, what happened to me does represent Muslims and therefore Islam. Otherwise, there wouldn't be so many ex-Muslims.

[@notgeniepenne]

@@Mister_Shoe this is actually my first encounter with an ex Muslim but if u don’t mind me asking what experience led u to leave Islam?

[@TheBigJayAgenda]

@@notgeniepenne Probably the fact Muslim women are forced to cover up and are clearly less than their husbands

[@SunlitPetals]

​@@TheBigJayAgendaI'm sorry, but muslim women aren't forced to cover up.

[@LsOneAndOnly]

This is honestly very reliable and nice to know other people deal with the same things

[@josephg755]

Have you had a religious trauma?

[@MissCassieCrochets]

Growing up as an autistic person, I always wanted to learn about my religion and pray but when I see people going to church even my grandparents I always thought “How do I pray or what I can say to God if I mess up on what I tell him?” And to this day I still have trouble praying or figuring out what I want to do or what to believe. But my dad told me one day that he doesn’t have a religion. He only believes the Bible by the book itself. And he told me ‘it will take time and patience, even if it takes years’.

[@-V0rtx-]

amen !! I have a suggestion for praying though, if you ever don't know what do to. A good way is to read the psalms, and pray them back to God. That may sound a little weird, but the Psalms were originally prayers themselves. You basically just read the words back to God, but in your own voice, thinking of your own hardships or triumphs.

[@micellaragua]

@@-V0rtx-I might start doing that, that’s so smart

[@exposedshadowstruth5926]

1:04 what's wrong with asking these questions?

[@epicjker]

Yeah they kinda need explanations

[@QUBIQUBED]

Religion doesn't like it when you point out its flaws. Therefore, it's elders, who are all indoctrinated, tell you to "just have faith" aka, "just shut up."

[@alicehodges9964]

​​@@QUBIQUBEDI'd Point Out it's Flaws About Why Some Religions Foolishly Believe The Earth Is 60.Thousend Years Old When The Earth is Actually 4.543 Billion Years Old 😁 So Ha

[@ImNotEnoch]

There nothing wrong with asking those questions. You can find it in the Bible

[@exposedshadowstruth5926]

@@ImNotEnoch but what if these questions aren't answered in the Bible?

[@stargirlss8708]

I felt so heard. Thank you for this video. I'm litterly am crying right now because of how much you reached me lol. I do believe I have experienced religious trauma and feel like I understand myself more from this video. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. ❤

[@bladenskid4996]

I would go to church when I was younger, but now as someone who doesn’t believe in Christian religion and doesn’t attend, I’m glad for the small community we have. I still go to the Brunswick stew making every year to give to the community, despite me no longer believing.

[@mixedberryfebreeze3844]

I’m no longer religious after having very similar experiences as you and this made me feel so seen. Thanks for sharing your experience with us

[@sonicthehedgehog1606]

I'm sorry about that. Jesus still loves you thi

[@vinx.909]

@@sonicthehedgehog1606 if that's true he can start to show it, not have other proclaim it.

[@sonicthehedgehog1606]

@@vinx.909 he already did. He died for us. Is that not enough?

[@aiyanahamilton8023]

@@sonicthehedgehog1606people are still suffering and your god still hasn’t done anything.Dying for our sins didn’t do anything so no it’s not enough

[@ZiggyZero_]

@@sonicthehedgehog1606 he died knowing he would come back though the whole point of dying is that it's forever he cheated death

[@-patpat-7805]

As someone else who grew up very anxious and always doubting her faith, thank you for making this video. You are so right when you say that it always seems like no one else shares your doubts/fears, and it feels like everyone’s got it figured out except for you, when that’s not the case.

[@marzgamingmaster]

5:05 Oh dear. I know pretty much exactly where the "maybe the church will fill in the gaps!" Train goes. :(

[@sumn_like_that.1454]

6:32 I felt all this too hard. When I was younger and at communion school, i felt the same way. Difference was that I didn't have any friends because I didnt know (still dont) how to talk to people (because I am possibly autistic). I wasn't bullied, but never felt welcomed. I appreciate all of your stories, they make me feel less alone.

[@abikalin]

Illy, thank you so much. This is the kind of video I needed. I’ve always felt displaced in the Christian community, it’s why I left. You’ve given me visibility I’ve been searching for all my life. Thank you ♥️

[@Elidepotato]

Damn- I just realized I have religious trauma 😭😭😭 you opened my eyes thank you ❤️❤️

[@josephg755]

Please tell me about your religious trauma.

[@Elidepotato]

@ if that's ok I'm sorry Im not comfortable with opening on KZbin where a bunch of people are watching and reading stuff I hope you understand

[@star5384]

Honestly i would rather have questions that cannot be answered rather than answers that cannot be questioned

[@josephg755]

that is deep bro...be Muslim

[@elyser]

As a teen who’s just trying to discover their religion, this video helped me so much to realize i’m not alone in this. I’ve only had my sister, who’s also new to Christianity, help me learn about my faith. And not having a well developed relationship with her has made it really difficult and awkward for me. Thank you so much for sharing your experience ❤✝️ Thank you so much for the support!!! 💙

[@ilove_seungmin]

i’ll pray for you ❤️ following God isn’t easy, but it’s so worth it. even if your prayers aren’t answered immediately, they always will be answered eventually. i’m so happy you’re broadening your horizons and i hope that you can find some kind people within the church instead of ones that make you feel the opposite of God’s love. God bless you

[@lovethemiracles]

@@ilove_seungminfollowing god isn’t worth it for everyone, it’s traumatic for so many people

[@P3rplexify]

navigate carefully, you may come across toxic churches spreading hateful beliefs that may send you on the wrong path, whatever that may be.

[@liz_violet]

i really hope you find your own version of the faith!

[@jakeoftrades]

I would recommend looking at Taoism/Daoism. They're both an interesting philosophy and religion.

[@mvrzvq]

ive grown up catholic and im going to confirm in 1 year (we confirm at 10th grade) ive questioned my faith for so long and im still confused abt it. im like holding on for my parents but im so glad knowing someone else has felt really confused and stuck about religion

[@nlogic5153]

Trust me man. The Catholic Church is where it's at. If you have questions I recommend you go to Catholic answers or to ask your priest. Christ is king. God bless you ✝️

[@ZoeyAnnCarlton]

Thank you. I'm still young and I question my faith a lot. But I saw a video that said "God: Do you know why what's happening is happening?" "The guy: It's because I'm a bad Christian.." "God: Satan attacks what's close to God" Thank you for this video. Thank you for helping me know I'm not alone. Thank you for telling me there's other people like me. Thank you. ❤

[@Cloudybubbles24]

I’ve learnt more from this video than I have at church…

[@micellaragua]

Then you need to start paying attention

[@thesilverskeeter]

​@@micellaraguanah

[@Pancakes-n-Waffles168]

@@micellaragua nah

[@daleprice1490]

@@thesilverskeeter These two replies above me are what's known as "Willfully ignorant"

[@liz_violet]

then maybe don't go to church so often, and find the version of the bible that's right for you?

[@KorokGang323]

You posted! Im so happy❤

[@Tiggiegirl2010]

Im currently 14 in a christian family, this video helped me a LOT. I kept asking my family questions and there answers were "dont question it, god knows everything, so you dont have to know everything". And to add onto that my brother is heavily christian and baptized. Just a few months ago i finally got to start at a non-christian school after going to Tuesday christian schools and being homeschooled. I felt like it was suffocating and my mom apologizes now for that but still makes big assumptions and pushes me to go to church everday instead of asking me what I believe. Im also struggling with being closeted and hearing my family constantly degrading the lgbtq community. Thank you for explaining things a bit more clearly in this video and since I've watched it I've found online communities that can help me with my struggles ❤

[@Melancholian]

I can answer any questions you have

[@FinnTheSeawing]

guad damn, those backgrounds are so, so beautiful. Love this. Thank you for blessing me this fine day, illy

[@sandy_shark]

I’ve had fear of hell since childhood too, you are not alone.

[@grayashmonstr]

I love that you added Veggie Tales

[@Aarons_adhd]

I was littoraly just watching illymation as this came out!!!!

[@rommix0]

*literally

[@greenbanana1001]

I love your videos your my comfort channel they really help me through my bpd outbursts and depression please keep making videos , love from England ❤️

[@KarenTravis-u8s]

Love from Texas

[@FluffySkelly]

I love how Susan sits in the front row of the pews in church, that’s such a Susan move.

[@sonicfreak04]

I was always afraid that no matter what i did, when I died, I would go to hell. But as I got older I found comfort in realizing that to me god and religion wasn't real.

[@Bunny_Bill]

Same. With or without the church, I was going to hell. May as well live this life happily if my soul is to be destroyed later.

[@MasonTheYoung]

As someone who is Christian, it’s sad to hear about the religious trauma so many people have

[@skywatcher8893]

Same :(

[@TheForbiddenFridge]

Incredible video now I just need the courage to send it to all my religious family

[@iamgholden]

Taboo is the biggest evil of the world. All things should be talked about and communication is the key to all kinds of health. As someone who is currently suffering from religious trauma, not because doubts but because of the hatred and ostracizing I'd suffer if I ever break the perfect child mold I built to show my true colors (gay christian alert), I wish nothing but the best in the same or worse situations. Amazing video, Illy! :)

[@rommix0]

> Taboo is the biggest evil of the world. Yet those Christian people were stupid enough to elect someone evil as president. Get the irony?

[@liz_violet]

bro, hope you can break that mold too (also still in the closet)!

[@Chaotic-Cactus]

I was never religious but I would still ask questions because I wanted to understand more.

[@micaloveslimes1141]

I’m so glad you made this video. I would’ve loved to see this when I struggling over 5 years ago. I’m 17 now and an atheist, but this video rlly hits hard 😭

[@josephg755]

please tell me about it

[@beesbrownies]

The title change of "what I learned" to "why it scared me" 😭

[@crystaltheweirdpotato]

I literally have been binging your videos recently and also watched ur Jewish video yesterday

[@josephg755]

I was about to mention this! Is she Christian or Jewish!?

[@AMHT-qd4to]

When I was a kid religion was everything, my family my school pushed so hard for me and other kids to be good and faithful to the church or else, if we got it wrong we where condemned and made to be seen as evil, we weren't aloud to read the bible and only specific sentences and verses where picked out to make it look really pretty and all good, but one day I read a the first bit of the bible Adam and eve and it broke my whole world down, I have since never looked back due to trauma and other events in my life but I highly relate to everything in your video and ye I'm a happy atheist now (:

[@nlogic5153]

Sorry to hear that but Christ is King and the Bible is true. Hope you realize that someday ✝️

[@totallyadvancedgaming]

Smooth transition XD 1:29

[@sunbyz]

My religious trauma is mild, but it still impacts me years after it happened. If more people talked about religious trauma when I was younger and made me feel safe to ask questions, I would have been able to express what I was experiencing and gotten help sooner. So thank you illy, for sharing your story. Hopefully it helps others feel less alone