Performative activism, disaster vacations, and the BEST memoir I've ever read 🤯 Sept Wrapup (Part 1)

[@withcindy]

helloooo i usually don't pin my own comments but wanted to clarify a few things! 1) i added some trigger warnings in my description but will re-emphasize them here: The Disaster Tourist (1:40) has a mention of sexual harassment, and Know My Name (4:42) heavily talks about rape and a school shooting. Timestamps are in my description if anyone needs to skip ❤️ 2) about my intro: no one was actually criticizing me for taking sponsorships, they were only lighthearted comments about me getting my coin, and i am simply agreeing with them! i appreciate everyone defending my capitalistic ways tho lolol 3) about such a fun age: i mentioned that booktube does a lot of performative activism, and realize now that it seems like i was taking a jab at the reading rush - i totally did not make that connection when i filmed this, i was more so just talking about booktube & book twitter in general. i wasn't involved in RR at all and stayed out of that entire discourse so i have no opinion on the events or the people there lol. sorry for the lack of tea 4) anyway while i'm here, i have a Q: I'm trying a new format by showcasing books with the starry background when I first introduce them, rather than putting an image of the book on the screen the entire time I'm talking about it. do yall have a preference for which format you like better?

[@Emmasplaylist100]

I personally like having it in the corner while you talk about it, but it doesn't make much difference to me : )

[@theburninggod]

your new format is actually good, i was about to say that i would love it even more if i see your reaction while speaking about the book but then your face popped up so prolly no prob at all lmao hdkshakahajah go cindy i'm sleeping with your voice ringing in my head 👂🏻👁💧👄💧👁👂🏻

[@frankundercoverdragon6288]

The starry background is really pretty and would love to see it used again!

[@ferventfei]

i do like the starry background, but i prefer it if it is in the corner as you talk about it because i screenshot when i want to remember the title of the book and it would be easier, but i dont really mind it because with the timestamps, i can just go to the start of the section to screenshot the title.

[@ranaosman1393]

If it isn't too much trouble, I'd suggest cutting down the length of the starry background and then having a little cover on the corner while you talk. But of course, I don't mind however you choose to edit, you'll remain funny and insightful.

[@aijsdijdni3401]

If y’all don’t leave her alone about the sponsorships she’s just trying to save up for the Hot Pterodactyl Boyfriend and the wives sequels 🙄 such masterpieces *chef’s kiss*

[@withcindy]

yes we gotta fundraise for that!!

[@gabrielavo512]

I thought Cindy loaned books from libraries rather than buying them?

[@gabrielavo512]

But like get that coin girl!

[@please_stahp98]

Cackling!

[@fancy3969]

Serpent and Dove 2, the revenge of big tiddy liddy

[@cass9617]

“I love seeing white on white crime” GIRL I SCREAMED

[@withcindy]

it amuses me so

[@penphoria]

“There should be a maximum of one trauma per lifetime”, couldn’t agree moooore!!!!

[@withcindy]

right?! NO MORE!!

[@victoriashevlin8587]

Honey, I wish...

[@ThatLizHunter]

i WISH the universe actually listened to this rule

[@w.k.astrolabe280]

ACEs sadly shows the exact opposite is true. At least in the trauma research I have done on children. (I'm a teacher)

[@alfalfa_art]

@@w.k.astrolabe280 Yep as an epidemiology person... the way ACEs and other traumas in general manifest throughout the lifecourse is really rough. And as a trauma survivor, I will be telling my therapist that Cindy quote lol, they're gonna love it :P

[@bin.1639]

The fact that she wrote the whole memoir by herself and is insane and just makes the whole memoir much more personal

[@withcindy]

she truly wrote her ass off!!

[@carlosdespa9008]

Me: "I hate capitalism" Me when Cindy gets a sponsorship: "YESSS QUEEN GO GET YOUR COIN GOOO 😤👌🏻"

[@withcindy]

teehee

[@vivilonrane1330]

Capitalism is horrible, exploitative and unfair, so it indeed feels good to see at least some money go to a deserving place/person for once. Redistributing wealth before we are sble to actually dismantle the system is a reasonable step, I believe

[@carlosdespa9008]

@@vivilonrane1330 yeah, I couldn't agree more!!!!

[@TOAGamer1]

If this aint me.

[@fishythefish7984]

unrelated but i'm the 1K like lol

[@eleanorduncan9993]

"I'm horny in the heart" Me, an asexual with romantic attraction to women: Yes.

[@withcindy]

love that for u

[@FrancisFabricates]

Mooood

[@DesperationLasts]

I hate when lying and miscommunication is the conflict in books.

[@withcindy]

it's so lazy!!

[@user-qv2qf1jk5o]

Same!! I feel like some authors rly need to realize that’s what Ao3 is for, where that shit gets tagged, not in a whole ass published book (with some exceptions, obviously) where I get invested and then realize the conflict is gonna make the characters turn into 1-dimensional tropey versions of themselves

[@sparklingcatachresis3518]

Cries in Dear Evan Hansen...

[@ragaya3043]

I hate miscommunication in real life so I do my best to avoid and when the characters in a book can't take a moment to clarify a misunderstanding that lasts 200 pages it KILLS me 👁️👄👁️

[@milliaboo765]

“you know how it be, when a woman reports assault. the assaulter doesn’t actually get consequences but the woman does.” @ the president of the usa

[@adrianbooklecter7545]

omg thats so offnsive 🙀i live him shtop😾 Tumrp 2200 🇧🇸😹😹😹

[@withcindy]

yep.....

[@whatsername_1367]

Pham 2020

[@TotalMayham]

@@adrianbooklecter7545 i see Trump forced the gays and immigrants to make a formula to help him live forever if you from the future still voting him in 2200.

[@13gudadod]

@@TotalMayham eww gross a trump supporter

[@yourboykaster]

Cindy: "I have never been in a courtroom before" Me: "Not for long" Cindy: 👁️👄👁️? Me: 👁️👄👁️🔪🔪🔪

[@withcindy]

👁️👄👁️

[@to.ri.3]

@@withcindy why do i love these emoticons so much 😂😂

[@lulupain18]

Wanting to create a garden in the spot where that happened to her is just so messed up in so many levels. This literally sent shivers down my spine.

[@withcindy]

it was a PR move and it still flopped

[@lulupain18]

@@withcindy Good! I am glad!

[@BrightSwallow]

3 traumatic events - Chanel also attended Gunn Highschool when three students committed suicide by train. She experienced and processed so much grief and pain in such a short amount of time. It's amazing that she's been able to overcome it all.

[@withcindy]

ugh i forgot about that too :(

[@alo8984]

People V. Brock Turner was such an infuriating case. Chanel has been through so much

[@withcindy]

i hope brock turner is never happy

[@anteagaro8450]

"Perhaps she SNAPPED" is gonna be my new catchphrase

[@funnyfriend14]

Need that on a T-shirt 👕

[@withcindy]

i hope one day someone will say that about my writing

[@francescakyanda9182]

Great now I have to say it in everyday life 😂

[@abbyrussell5383]

As someone who is a victim of sexual assault, the most traumatic part was having to constantly relive my assault as I sat in a cold police station. Having to describe what happened in very graphic detail to two grown men while I was only sixteen was probably the hardest thing I ever had to do. I look up to Chanel Miller so much and she was part of why I decided to say something. I don't think I could bring myself to read the book right now as it's still a pretty sensitive topic but I'm hoping later on in life I'll finally be able to pick up the book and read it.

[@lenimeredracone9579]

Cindy: -_- I sleap... A Himbo: Cindy: 0w0 Oh???? I waek...

[@withcindy]

OwO h-himbo??

[@RissyReads12291229]

I'm tearing up listening to you read about the "garden" where brock turner was tackled. Wow. I need to read that memoir.

[@withcindy]

it is SO good

[@lupevilla2734]

Same her words were so powerful!!

[@lesbiangoddess290]

Its fucking sick. This t*rner monster should have got life for this. The justice system is really fucked and you can clearly see the biases they have for certain people...

[@ola5312]

that one quote she read from Know My Name was like 3 sentences and i had to pause the video to cry holy shit

[@withcindy]

ITS SO SO SO GOOD

[@marodes9440]

I disassociated so I would not cry otherwise I would have

[@ohkei2521]

I paused the video to wipe my tears and then i found myself adding the memoir to my cart.

[@mimirants7935]

You know this is completely random but my biggest fear is that if I'm ever a published author Cindy is gonna read my book and rate it a lukewarm 3 stars and go "I like the themes but the author could've gone into more detail". I don't know why every time you say that particular line I feel a primordial fear like I'm being personally criticised

[@withcindy]

oh nooooo lol thats usually my go-to criticism for 3 star books BUT i feel like thats a very subjective opinion

[@soyboy6953]

Same! Every single sentence I write I just imagine Cindy sarcastically reading it out loud and then second-guess it

[@swoonscapades]

When you read the passage where Chanel told the reader to go to the garden but to instead focus on the place where Brock fell, when the two men pinned him down, that entire passage made me sob. I just started tearing up. I really need to read this memoir because wow 💖

[@withcindy]

YES it is so so so AMAZING

[@avekatumba4794]

The books you read - from the way you talk about them - were an emotional rollercoaster. Sweetie, are you good? Are we good? 🥺

[@withcindy]

hahaha NO

[@avekatumba4794]

@@withcindy all my love! ♥️

[@mindayapandapatan8467]

It's 2020. Who's okay?

[@avekatumba4794]

@@mindayapandapatan8467 my younger sister would beg to differ.

[@mindayapandapatan8467]

@@avekatumba4794 you know what, good for her ☺. Enough doom and gloom this year

[@mimirants7935]

Tw assault, death // Man that garden quote gave me chills all over, and really made me tear up because right now in my country (india) we have JUST witnessed a terrible incident just like Chanel's case, and our media is trying to hush it up due to casteism and class prejudice. And the girl in question didn't make it. I'm pretty sure no gardens are being built for her.

[@withcindy]

im so sorry :(

[@mellytempest]

The Hathras murder - and I'm saying it's murder because those bastards and the government are going out of their way to bury her completely - is one of the most tragic and frustrating things to learn right now. Especially since this is the second time the government failed a gang-rape victim who succumbed to their injuries. I hope the other government bodies who are speaking up against these atrocities continue to mount the pressure and demand justice for the woman and her family.

[@aakritichourasia6495]

Also it wasn't just gangrape...well I can't believe I am writing just before gangrape. The victim's tongue was cut off and then the assaulters broke her spinal cord. She was hospitalized and the medical report was fabricated such that it said there was no major injury and no rape done. Then to cover up the whole fiasco police took her body and burned her without family's consent to remove the possibility of postmortem. She was 19.

[@chickwit2575]

Hathras case is the most brutal and chilling case which has happened in the recent history because she was raped twice over. By the culprit and by the system. Police, govt, media and the upper caste members who tried to save the culprits all are culpable. The fact that she was cremated like so much garbage at the middle of the night by the police, the ones who are supposedly there to protect us, sends shivers down my spine. What's really disturbing is that she breathed her last 15 days after she was attacked and assaulted. They had 15 days to save her but no one bothered. A severe blow to the pride I have in my country. One year later and the case is still at stalemate, no justice given.

[@adrianbooklecter7545]

everytime Cindy gets sponsored I'm like "get that coin😜'

[@withcindy]

hehe thanks!

[@mayas3422]

fun fact! we've been dealing with covid for longer than brock was in jail! or even sentenced!!!

[@withcindy]

WOW I HATE THAT!!!!!

[@helena2787]

Thats not a fun fact :( Fuck that guy

[@coralrose5754]

American justice system: 🤡 🎪

[@iphonecharger2707]

me listening to the story of the stanford sexual assault case for the first time: aint nothing to love about humanity anymore 👊😔

[@withcindy]

sorry to break the news to u :(

[@ajmalaika1287]

@@withcindy Thank you though, being aware of the faults in humanity might help it be better someday and inspiring strength in other :-)

[@victoriap1561]

Yes, Swedish cyclists

[@blankbla7101]

I feel like

[@mahuyachanda3328]

When Cindy said that the "assaulter doesn't get the consequences the Women does" I literally cried. This is quite weird to mention here but yea being a girl from a country where the punishment sentence for a rapist takes 5 yrs I just don't know what else to do😭

[@withcindy]

im so sorry :(

[@iLiviesimone]

I was waaaiting for this since I saw you read Know My Name on Goodreads. Above anything, I am so happy she got to put out a memoir and share her experiences. She WROTE. Did not let anything go undiscussed, and the vulnerability that takes?? The strength?? And I remember just being in awe reading the chapter about the UCSB shooting because I was like wait- no way she experienced THIS TRAUMA AS WELL. OMG. And *that* shooting in particular with what the shooter was aiming for and his disgusting manifesto. Just wow. This is one of those books that is exhausting and infuriating to read- and even more so knowing that is just a **fraction** of what she felt and experienced. But she managed to work in beautiful insights and hopefulness. AND A MOMENT FOR THE SWEDISH GUYS WHO SAVED HER. And I am going to risk being marked as spam LOL but I have to include this interview she did with Trevor Noah because AS PER USUAL she made a beautiful point about our standards of men. I can't remember exactly but she said (towards the end), something like if there are guys like those Swedish students out there- why do we lower our standards for men??? AHHHHHH. kzbin.info/www/bejne/oGarhZx8gcl1hdk alrighty- thanks for coming to my TED Talk, this essay in finished!

[@withcindy]

i LOVE all of her thoughts and soul and gentleness and anger !!! her book is SERIOUSLY SO AMAZING

[@utterdrip]

loving this transition of "unfortunately im straight" to "im questioning my own sexuality" to "if i was in a straight relationship" for u!! but seriously i hope that you are/were able to figure it all out on ur own time and in ur own way, and even if u didnt "figure it out" thats also okay!! i identified as bisexual for literal Years like a decade and just recently came to revelation that i was a lesbian at 23 years old so.. that shit takes time and ur not always gonna get it right the first or Second time lmao

[@withcindy]

aww thank you so much!!! im impressed u noticed the change which i felt like was a bit subtle LOLOL

[@utterdrip]

@@withcindy it definitely was but im literally Gay so i would have to hand in my entire lesbianism if i didnt notice

[@changelingsys]

relatable, i watched a bunch of old videos of cindy’s when i first subscribed and going through those plus the current ones at the time to now? growth for the record im also super gay so of course i noticed

[@Altom85]

"she proposes..." Me: 🥰😍🥰🤩 "...that they go on a trip" Me: 😭🙁😔

[@withcindy]

womp womp

[@leticia4893]

I'm not from the US, so I actually didn't know much about the Stanford case, I had only seen it mentioned before. Thank you for introducing me to Know My Name, it sounds like an amazingly impactful and important read! I'll definitely pick it up!

[@withcindy]

it is an amazing book! i hope you enjoy it!

[@artemiswolf4508]

*”Just one summer of love with no strings attached and no hard feelings afterwards”* In other news a horse walked into a bar and a chicken crossed the rode, I’m sure no shenanigans ensue afterwards.

[@withcindy]

surely nothing will go wrong right?!

[@msthornback7935]

Read Know My Name by Chanel Miller as an audiobook, which she reads and yes, one of the best memoirs ever read. Really connected with her trying to protect her younger sister. Should be taught in schools honestly.

[@withcindy]

her audiobook was soooo good!!!

[@Amanda-lh5zt]

I am from Palo Alto and there is a lot of performative activism currently for the BLM movement and the Brock Turner case was a freaking nightmare because of the PR moves from the school and the massively entitled population there. Even when her book came out (I worked retail in the town) a lot of the customers had several comments about the book release.

[@withcindy]

the PR moves are so fake and ugh

[@asterwashere]

i almost cried at the garden quote i'm feeling so many emotions-

[@withcindy]

it's SOOOOO GOOD

[@KD-CD]

The complexity of Aro/Ace life wrapped up in a few sentences lmao

[@urishitapawar]

God. I'm live in India, and the recent Hathras rape case has completely shook me. Hearing about the Brock Turner case is giving me such flashbacks 😅 Definitely checking the Memoir out!

[@withcindy]

stay safe!!! i hope u enjoy the book if u check it out!

[@kurayamiknight2337]

Thanks for exposing me to Know my Name. I don't live in the west so there was a small chance I would have come across it. That book... means so much to me. I am so glad, so thankful that she decided to write it. (Of course... I would have preferred she didn't have to but...) The book made me feel so seen, so understood. She put thoughts and feelings into words I could never. Bawled and wept the entire time but was still so at peace at the end of it.

[@withcindy]

im so glad you loved it

[@irycade]

"I think there should be at least one trauma that we're allowed and we just cap it off. Just have a maximum of one trauma per lifetime, no more than this" Yes!! Preach, Cindy!

[@withcindy]

YES NO MORE (preferably zero tho)

[@studybuddy.]

Sarah J Maas wrote a *Catwoman* book. Everyone. *Catwoman.*

[@Monochrome_11]

DC ink?

[@withcindy]

if it doesnt have faerie D i dont wanna read it

[@KatieMaddalena]

Say what now? Also isn't that copyright infringement?

[@studybuddy.]

Katie Maddalena she and other famous YA authors were hired by DC to write original YA superhero origin novels

[@ZeZaZoZi]

12:49 HOOOOLY CRAP that was SO powerful and awful. I felt myself at a loss of words along with Cindy in that moment. Goosebumps all over, tears in my eyes. Love you Cindy!!!

[@withcindy]

RIGHT?!?! she's SUCH a good writer

[@MaddieReadsBooks]

no need to explain yourself wanting to get more sponsorships. get that bread

[@withcindy]

will do!!

[@mirandaranda]

Cindy you’ve got me crying at my desk 😭 I’m adding Chanel’s book to my library holds immediately, like damn.

[@withcindy]

her writing is SO good

[@aimenalvi3759]

I just sent in my Covid test and anxious for results! This is just what I needed thanks Cindy!

[@SantReads]

Best of luck!!! ❤️❤️

[@clairebear1975]

Hope it's negative

[@shalmali-379]

dude me too!! the results were supposed to come today but they delayed it

[@2oo8mehta70]

I’m praying for you! 💗

[@adelaquinne2838]

I hope you’re okay 💖💖

[@TotalMayham]

I love listening to cindy talk about books, I'm not usually a fan of watching reviewers but i love her because of the way she just talks and her words so connected to her emotions of how she actually feels. Cindy not her to give any bullshits.

[@withcindy]

aw thank you!!

[@Chicken-lv7or]

Disaster tourism is some hunger games level shit. Like in those books rich people from the capitol would visit the old hunger games arenas and this is basically a more real life version of that

[@LetMeintheLibrary]

"I LOVE SEEING WHITE ON WHITE CRIME" CINDY 😂😂😂😂

[@withcindy]

we love to see it :D

[@oliviapeng4790]

when you don’t read but watch these videos just for her personality

[@withcindy]

aww thanks :3

[@sp691]

Cindy as a way to alleviate my crush on my heterosexual best friend I will now be simping for you so if you find yourself being manifested into the dreams of a gangly brown person please ignore❤️

[@withcindy]

oooh i am honored

[@francescakyanda9182]

Not about to skip the ads when my girl Cindy can get 👏🏾 that👏🏾coin👏🏾

[@withcindy]

ur the best!!

[@ChapterXable]

One can already tell that Cindy Romance Formula is essentially: Hot Men + Smut Scenes = a Heartboner.

[@withcindy]

pretty much... i am easy to please

[@amalia2390]

Literally the court was like 🥺we don’t want to lose someone of such high potential✨ The girl is more talented anyways, like I don’t care throw the whole man away🙄🤚🏾

[@orionsoutro1794]

YES FUR MAMA, CALL EM OUT. Ps. Let her get those sponsorships, damnnn. She has to pay child support for me💀🙃 😂😂🤣

[@withcindy]

yes i have to support my fur pups!

[@salva8066]

My 9yo brother calls you the girl who lives in the cage bc of your chair and idk what to say

[@withcindy]

in 2020 we all live in a cage

[@kiwifit620]

That's so cool!

[@salva8066]

I’ve been freaking out over the fact that Cindy replied for 5 days now,,,, what is quarantine doing to me,,,, whos this pathetic conne i dont know her

[@jamilabrownie]

That’s precious

[@bakaro88]

I actually liked Take a hint Dani Brown, and Get a life Chloe Brown, loved the smut and the fact that the author took her time in making them more than just a cliché. And yes the fact that Dani actually was a badass woman who has a career and a partner who supports her made it so much better, because I hate the trope that the main character has a to choose between love and work.

[@withcindy]

i agree!! its nice to see a workaholic find love but still be dedicated to work :3

[@ferventfei]

i have so much chills hearing you read the quotes from "know my name". i usually don't read non-fiction, but u have convinced me to read it.

[@withcindy]

YES IT IS SO GOOD!!!

[@asmileisspecial]

lmao, living for the sarcasm about people valuing property over human lives. I keep thinking I can't be surprised about the things people do but I somehow find something new that surprises me.

[@malintries]

I feel like I wouldn't be able to read Know my name, mentally, but also feel like I really should... The summary of The Night Swim makes me think it's inspired by that story?

[@shalmali-379]

That's exactly how I feel! It seems beautifully written but I won't be able to handle it

[@withcindy]

its def very triggering!! i buddy read this with a friend who had to take breaks in-between reading it bc it was so heavy

[@lyrcheylap1779]

I’ve been thinking that too. I want to read it but I feel like it might bring some stuff back up.

[@lyrcheylap1779]

I came for Dani Brown and now I’m crying. In all seriousness, I haven’t felt able to read Chanel’s memoir but even just the quotes you mentioned where so poignant. To be able to process such trauma and articulate it so well is a true gift. She truly (obviously ) deserved better and the whole case was just disgusting and heartbreaking.

[@withcindy]

her memoir is SO SO SO good!!!

[@Fallphoenix18]

When I read the falling in love montage, my lesbian self was dying every two minutes. I HATE straight couples doing all those cliche things, but for some reason I have no problems when it's a gay couple.

[@TroyReads]

Omg seeing Cindy pop up on my subs feed is like the best part of my week 🤩🤩🤩 honestly have to stan

[@withcindy]

You're the best!

[@TroyReads]

readwithcindy omg does that mean we’re besties 🙈❤️😊

[@navyachopra3862]

Wow the last time I was this early... Feyre was still with Tamlin ... voluntarily 🙈

[@withcindy]

we dont talk about that

[@paperbackreader]

The second quote from Know My Name gave me chills and I’m tearing up. W O W

[@SarahZuech]

This made me tear up and gave me chills. I had no idea Know My Name existed until now. Thank you so much for sharing.

[@withcindy]

You are so welcome!

[@lemonsunshine3117]

The speed at which I mute the first 5 seconds of Cindy's videos : unmeasurable. ✨ Just brown household things ✨

[@nneoma1583]

I get so happy when you post 😭 school gets frustrating, I don’t even have time to read anymore, I’m not allowed to do sports, I feel unmotivated, and I hate being holed up. But knowing that I get to watch a comedic KZbin sort of makes my mind feel less overwhelmed. Thanks 😊

[@withcindy]

aww im glad i could help in any way!!

[@idontknowwhatimdoing6296]

the first half of this was pretty heavy, esp with the memoir (which I bought right away knowing i'mma bawl my eyes out) but the way you turned it more fun and positive for the second half is why i love you and your videos.

[@withcindy]

Glad you enjoyed it!

[@saujanyaroy4942]

"lgbt stories with bad endings." - ah yes, I am reminded of Banana fish.

[@withcindy]

noooooooo D:

[@kazimierzduzyimaly]

omg stop i am still crying over banana fish... after few months it still hurts so much

[@skyewew]

😔

[@irina9339]

wait was it lgbt? Do you mean the short Salinger's one?

[@SeRenee.01]

The sacred place quote made me tear up and gave me chills, my god. Absolutely atrocious what Stanford did and what she had to go through. I’m definitely adding this to my list of books to read, thank you Cindy.

[@withcindy]

Couldn't agree more! hope u love it!

[@gayatrigupta8755]

THAT'S IT. CINDY YOU ARE SAVING ME FROM GOING ABSOLUTELY FERAL AT HOME

[@withcindy]

You got this!

[@ambale455]

That quote about the garden Literal chills from head to toe, beautiful I will pick this up

[@sunnyleeuwon7215]

Funny story, when you were talking about The Falling In Love Montage and how cliche and meta it was, it reminded me of a story of my dad’s that was the most cliche romantic thing omg. So my dad is Asian, and he went back to China (the homeland!!!) for college at Peking University, and during this time he and his best friend would meet for lunch every Friday. So one day during their weekly lunches his friend started talking about how at every point in a persons life they will have friends, and these friends aren’t meant to last your entire life, but you know that they were a good friend if you can look back on your memories with them, and still be able to keep up the camaraderie years after you’ve parted. And this dude told my dad that he hoped if this is the last time they see each other in a while and they grow apart, they can meet years later and still be able to act as close as they used to, and feel that they are able to confide in each other. So that day they eat lunch and say good bye but THATS LITERALLY THE LAST TIME THEY SEE EACH OTHER???? Like his friend makes this introspective meta comment about friendships and growing apart and never seeing each other again, and that’s LITERALLY the last time they meet? Cause my dad goes back to California to do grad school at Scripps And his friend leaves to live with his girlfriend in another city in China. And the next time they meet it’s 16 YEARS LATER. IN FRANCE. And my dad has married my mom and had me and my siblings, and his friend has married this French guy and adopted some cute mixed babies. And they plan to meet at the last train stop in Paris, but my dads scared that his friend won’t recognize him because my dad had gotten cancer the year before and just finished chemotherapy, and the chemo radiation had changed his face structure. BUT HIS FRIEND RECOGNIZES HIM???? And then his friend admits that he liked my dad in college, and my dad comes to terms with the fact that his friend was gay the entire time (my dad’s pretty Christian) and then they like spend the week visiting tourist spots in Paris???? And after the trip they exchange numbers but it’s been four years since then and they haven’t talked yet because they know they aren’t that close anymore. But my dad says that sometimes he looks and the number in his phone and feels content that their friendship ended so nicely. Like it wasn’t perfect but they’re on good terms, and the time they had in college is looked back on with fond memories. IM LITERALLY CRYING. THIS IS GIVING ME TOO HIGH EXPECTATIONS FOR MY FRIENDS.

[@thousandeyed3611]

this is literally the cutest shit, your fave could NEVER

[@Showtunediva]

Hey Cindy, I just finished Know My Name on Friday 11:03 Chanel Miller SLAYED with that quote. I really admire her. I was just as emotional at this memoir’s conclusion than I was at the end of Friends Lovers And The Big Terrible Thing.

[@Katspearl]

I am NOT complaining about two parters. you mean we get MORE cindy content???? hell yes!

[@withcindy]

yes and also i refuse to have videos over an hour long LOL

[@riley5142]

such a fun age, more like such an amazing novel! seriously, I'm convinced it's the best novel of 2020. no other work has had as much depth while being as consistently readable and enjoyable. it's the kind of book that sneaks up on you, leaving you pondering its themes for weeks afterwards. after I finished it, I wanted to share, discuss, and read it with everyone.(and yes! the alix vs. kelly scene was so iconic!)

[@withcindy]

so glad you enjoyed it!

[@beth-beef]

i absolutely have to read Know My Name now. that second quote abt the garden alone made me cry & i had to pause the video to let the words really sink in.

[@withcindy]

YES! it is absolutely amazing

[@beth-beef]

readwithcindy i read the sample on libby but the wait time said 12 weeks so i just ordered! i can't wait

[@mabelf6624]

your taste in books is chefs kiss period !

[@hildr666]

Welp, just put in a reservation for Know My Name from my city's library! They have two copies and 18 reservations before mine, so looks like i'll be reading the book sometime next year :D Still, thanks for bringing the topic up, you are good at discussing social issues and i'm glad you educate your audience!

[@withcindy]

i hope you love it!!

[@chelseap3286]

This upload is so convenient it’s helping me recover from the 2 mental breakdowns about online school I’ve had recently

[@withcindy]

hang in there!!!

[@Candlekeepdeep]

I wanted to say that I read Educated on your recommendation. It was amazing, I read it in a day, and I could see aspects of my own life in it. And today was day one of my PhD :) Thank you for the rec

[@withcindy]

I'm so glad!!! :D

[@ginnyvanoh]

Know My Name is one of the most beautiful memoirs ever-it was difficult to read because she was so open and honest in it, and the rage at the legal system! Such a Fun Age is also an outstanding book that needs way more discussion!

[@withcindy]

Know my name is so amazing!!

[@ElianaIsNotOkay]

Miscommunication in drama: tired, boring, awful, I hate it, please just talk to each other Miscommunication in comedy: wired, so funny, I love it, gimme them hijinks and shenanigans

[@withcindy]

so true!!

[@lin6984]

I cried just hearing you talk about Know My Name, holy fucking shit, I don't know how you read those lines out loud without breaking down

[@silverbinding]

I really like the dancing star graphics ⭐️

[@ellenrovelstad988]

Know My Name sounds like a really compelling and infuriating read. Your description of it made me hurt for her and everyone else who has experienced this trauma. Thanks for sharing this book.

[@RainbowSunny1]

I love that you include so many diverse books!

[@withcindy]

Glad you like them!

[@mariamahmed2021]

When Cindy read the line where Chanel Miller said to commemorate the place where he fell, I literally got goosebumps.

[@withcindy]

YES!!! its so good

[@lelbirdzzishyfish603]

I just want to comment to boost your engagement so you can get more money cause we all know that you deserve it. Also we are hair twins so that’s cool I guess.

[@withcindy]

omg hair twins!!

[@santaberbs]

Not me crying while merely listening to you talk about the memoir.

[@gabriella7140]

I stopped your Hot pterodactyl boyfriend review for this, it better be good😠

[@withcindy]

nothing can compare to hot pterodactyl boyfriene

[@gabriella7140]

@@withcindy true, it's the best piece of literature in the world 😔

[@everythingsky6204]

It’s great that we are hearing more ace thoughts on how these romances are portrayed, I think that it definitely makes it more interesting!

[@withcindy]

I agree!

[@gabydiazortiz]

When you said the thing about the garden at Stanford I - holy Jesus. Her words were so poignant and well written!!! But also my knee jerk reaction to the school just saying ‘yeah let’s put a garden here!’ was to cringe so deeply it hurt my face

[@x__yoursonly]

Now, I feel like I want to read all the quotes you highlighted from Know My Name. Thanks to you, it's my current read and I agree with everything you said! I have so much admiration to Chanel

[@withcindy]

Wonderful!

[@CaitlinSewsSometimes]

I feel like Cindy and Kelly Stamps exude a very similar energy. However Cindy is chaotic good, while Kelly seems lawful good.

[@withcindy]

i love chaos and kelly stamps!

[@nikki9808]

the quote about the garden,,, god i have chills again. she really is fantastic also i love the format with the stars!! i’ve been thinking of doing something similar since i don’t always have the books i’m talking about. ✨just library things✨

[@krys9463]

I don't usually read memoirs that deal with really heavy topics because I usually read to ignore the real world for a bit and relax, but those two quotes you read really hooked me, the second one actually almost made me cry a little.

[@hyqnoticdata]

how do you manage to make my day every time u post 🥺

[@withcindy]

omg thank u uwu

[@hyqnoticdata]

@@withcindy omg ilyyyy

[@smolflake7060]

goddammit the way you talk about books honestly is really motivating me to read and not feel bad about not reading books that wont make me learn or feel anything any way and you make me read books that i find myself liking and you're making me get over my reading slump very slowly. the audacity of you wanting to make me read again-

[@withcindy]

aww im glad!! go for it!!

[@solkai7575]

12:16 holy shit. this literally brought tears to my eyes. just so powerful. i will definitely be reading this book

[@withcindy]

it is SO SO SO powerful!!

[@Hannah-iw8yu]

Thank you thank you thank you for bringing a public review to Channels book. That book changed my life and I’m thankful for anyone that helps bring it to more hands that need it

[@withcindy]

i follow her on IG and she just got featured on Forbes!! ITS WHAT SHE DESERVES !!!!

[@Talyuhhh]

The most fun book tuber I’ve ever seen lmao. Your videos are so funny I die everytime and it inspires me to read