Invisible Wounds of War: A Veteran Documentary

[@BadBlue32]

May God Bless all of you who served and sacrificed mind and body in War. I’m not a Veteran, however, I do suffer from PTSD, Anxiety and Treatment Resistant Depression. I waited 45 years to talk about my very first Trauma of being sexually abused by a trusted family member. The cost? Countless lost jobs, friendships, relationships and a marriage. Everything said in this video is true. If you don’t discuss your Traumas and emotions and get them out and process them, the Devil owns you and it’s a miserable existence. Like you, I found help, but not till God saved me from taking my own life. The Devil almost had me, but I was saved and now after 11 years of ongoing treatment, I’m feeling much better and more functional in society. Our stories are different but our treatments are the same. I only wish the Mental Health community got the same attention that Veterans get. I would’ve benefited from a program like this and so would millions more suffering Americans with a Mental Health Disorder. May all of you seek and find the help you need. ❤

[@justhays]

I hope you are well my brother. It took me 23 years to be ok with myself again. Time heals for sure!

[@Landis_Grant]

PTSD from seeing your buddies getting killed and maimed in Vietnam on a regular basis will likely remain with you for a lifetime. There are Vietnam vets existing in Hawaii which has a jungle environment similar to Vietnam.

[@bwana-ma-coo-bah425]

really? where did you serve?

[@karl-niclas_burner]

The hardest thing I did was asking for help. It took me along time because I needed someone outside my circle that would/could listen. The shame I felt prevented me to involve family and friends, so I needed an outsider. I needed to find a new friend for just those moments when I needed to talk, and not fear being judged. I dont regret asking for help and it changed everything.

[@somethinglikethat212]

Suck it up buttercup. Why not tell these men they fought killed and got injured over lies.... What about hundreds of thousands of innocent women and children in Afghanistan and Iraq? Is there a charity for them? Depleted uranium is still causing birth defects in Iraq

[@F15CEAGLE1]

Same.

[@TMH792]

So glad both of you asked for help! Did either of you go to therapy? I wish more military knew it takes a strong, brave man to ask for help, it’s not weak bc the war that followed you guys home is so horrific and heartbreaking! 💔

[@cajuncraftysue]

God bless our Combat Veterans! We need you here to help our future vets! You are important to our country in many, many ways! You protect the freedoms we take for granted. You step up when so many do not. You matter. We care about you. Thank you for reaching out for help! ❤❤🇺🇸

[@unlisted8042]

Thank you Nick, and WWP. I’ll keep going. Sincerely, Another Combat Veteran.

[@DavidGalich77]

Taking the leap of faith to reach out and get help, huge. War is something no one should face alone. God bless and get well!

[@michellehempton3501]

My husband and I have been on 1 Odyssey, he still hasn't had his "Ah-ha" moment, praying that he is able to keep faith in the process. Your testimony is so touching, honest, and encouraging!! Thank you for sharing,

[@lisabruner7018]

My son who was a war veteran died in 2018 at 27 ,wounded warrior project was great.thank you for sharing your story.

[@BrianBattjes]

First and foremost Thank you all for your service!!! I didn't service. I was a volunteer firefighter and witnessed thing that didn't bother me until I quit being a firefighter. I did it for ten yrs.

[@dwrod24]

I’m going to watch this again with my wife and children…. When you mentioned biting on the towel to mask the sound of your cries and sometimes for me it was just needing to scream out it hit home for me. I served two combat tours in Iraq. 2005-2006 and 2008-2009 and my life has been completely different since. I appreciate your story and this will help many of us move forward with our lives.

[@John-ls1mn]

Going in at 31 baby

[@TMH792]

@@John-ls1mn?? Did you not read what he wrote?

[@etd5791]

1988 Angolan war artillery veteran. Never had to face Brothers or Sisters shot to pieces but lost some brothers due to mines, accidents etc and buried many mates prior to 88, , experienced the stress of attacking and being attacked daily with very very close calls. I thank God that i am reasonably OK and able to cope but feeling yours and the pain of so many 1000s of Brothers and Sisters relating to post war. You my brother, hit home several times during this video that had me in tears but silently, not wanting to have the family ask whats wrong. Thank you so much for doing the right thing which allowed you to be here and to share what you had to go through. God Bless you Brothers and Sisters who are struggling.

[@jsnow07grad]

Thank you so much for this and doing work to connect with the veterans in the community

[@susimuller6317]

I didn't serve but had many different traumas. I can totally understand that, even after 30 years I still wake up at night, screaming.

[@richardboutwell3029]

Have you ever talked to anyone who has been where you are? I tried to do it myself and failed terribly. There are people who you can get it off you're chest and then you're mind. Good luck and do the right thing. I'm sure you're family loves you so think about them. It's hard but I bet you will be so much better and you can have peace.

[@susimuller6317]

@@richardboutwell3029 No, I never came across a person with the same problems, I tried the internet but didn't really work. Did you get it of your chest? I must admit I hardly believe that it is possible for me, first because of the physical evidence and second because it is my internal believe that no one cares anyway.

[@richardboutwell3029]

@@susimuller6317 I care. You are not alone and I’m sure there are people who will understand. There are people who feels like you and especially anyone who has suffered. PTSD has no physical preference or does it matter what you’re status is no one is above it. In my case my mind couldn’t understand what the consequences were. It’s a relatively a new thing and if you can’t see the damage it’s done to you it’s really hard to figure it out yourself. In my experience I would have rather lost a body part cause at least everyone would have known I wasn’t doing very good. I had a secret stirring in my brain and didn’t have it in me to give it up. It took me to hit rock bottom and I ended up homeless with nobody to help me ( self inflicted) figure it out. And believe or not I still fought telling anyone what was going through my mind. I went to rehab (also self inflicted) for 7 months and I had a counselor who had my number and he was tough on me. For the first time in 24 years I had no control or choice about it. I had to come clean. I told my story for the first time to 115 drug addicts and the people with serious alcohol addiction in a church. I was shaking so bad I had to hang on to the podium or I would have fell down. It took me about an hour to get it out there and by the time I got done there wasn’t a dry eye in the church. It was like someone took that big gorilla off my back and I could actually breathe again. But I still have to make amends to the Marines and try to explain what happened to me. I get that chance October 23rd it’s the 40th anniversary of the BLT headquarters bombing in Beruit Lebanon which killed 241 Marines and servicemen who were sleeping in a huge 4 story building. It completely destroyed the building and the guys had little chance of surviving. It was a nightmare for anyone who was there. The reason I’m telling you this is the circumstances might be a little different but I get it and if you get serious about making you’re life better reach out to the wounded warriors and I’m sure they’ll get you in the right place to get help. I’ve heard they are really good and it doesn’t matter if you served or not you are still important and worth saving. You can’t see that yet but I promise you will be able to get better. But remember you have to be honest and truthful or you’re wasting their time and yours. No one can do it for you, you have to do it yourself. Good luck to you and if you decide to take advice I can promise you will change your life around. The saying is you’re not alone and it’s the truth. If you do seek help I would like to know how you came out. Thanks for sharing now finish it………

[@joeschuster2002]

What an awesome story of healing .

[@Landis_Grant]

As a Canadian, I almost joined the US Army in 1969 straight out of high school for a tour of Vietnam. I watched the censored news of the atrocities of that war so I changed my mind and enrolled in university instead.

[@blahblah2779]

The smart move

[@josephdudeck5556]

Tu for sharing

[@brucepeckham6043]

Semper Fi. I agree getting into Marine Recon at 20 was very difficult. But getting out was much more difficult. Still stuggling with nightmares

[@ChrisBowman-f9s]

Ty all for your service people dont realize what these men and woman go threw and families so god bless you all yall are truly warriors so ty yall so much❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

[@alyssonoliveira8308]

Great documentary! I’m sure that will help a lot peoples !

[@FINALLYOUTAFTER7]

16:04 “you have to except you’re already dead” True.

[@natishamullis-brooks5715]

It's hard to live and be amoung the living, when you KNOW that you're already dead.

[@nanagram13]

So very pleased that there is the Wounded Warrior project! My son was injured in Afghanistan. He and his wife work with Samaritans Purse veterans program. the Warrior is wounded but so is the family. PLEASE, anyone in need, reach out to a program. You are brave when you reach out and ask for help. Prayers for all.

[@malencicnenad1131]

And how many family he wounded there 12000 km far away from his country! That is democracy to go and kill civil citizen and steal resources???

[@blahblah2779]

I reached out to them when I was homeless and on the verge of starvation. You know what they did? Said to make a sign and beg for $$ Just know they don’t help veterans. They simply symphon your money to pay themselves

[@robertroylomax8114]

I am watching this Documentary. I was sexually abused for 4 years. Straight after the abuse, I spent almost 5 years in bush warfare in Central Africa. I need to listen to someone who has been through the trauma that I have been through

[@Hannah11235]

Jesus can heal you, friend ❤ Seriously.

[@bwana-ma-coo-bah425]

was this guy sexually abused for 4 years in the video?

[@TiaraEGrayson]

An area that most doesnt talk about is developed trauma outside of combat. Many of us served and never deployed and have developed PTSD, depression, personality disorders, etc.

[@Mr_Nobody913]

The Marines didn’t do that. That could have happened anywhere in society.

[@robertberryhill4033]

Gob bless you brother and welcome home. I know how tough it is but you can make it.

[@lemuelriddick3607]

Thanks I need to hear this. You have giving me hope tks devil dog

[@richcandella9154]

Ask you all stand with them changed us all but stand beside him

[@leemartin3199]

Thank you and all the other warriors who gave of themselves to keep us safe. No words can ever really express our gratitude. I hope ever warrior can make their way to the help they and their families deserve.

[@bwana-ma-coo-bah425]

what? Thank you and all the other warriors who gave of themselves to keep us safe? was the US under attack?

[@richcandella9154]

Ptsd every vet has it don't care what VA says

[@ikrook3d118]

Does anyone know the song at 10:00 ? It's beautiful.

[@noelgillett346]

The underlying issue is more physical than mental, involving hyper-coagulation and sub-clinical stroke damage The condition is far easier to treat than most would suspect but medical authorities prefer to destroy their patients this per their Nazi roots out of WWII. I suffer from the same pathology and yet once psychiatric drugs are introduced, the harm becomes far worse and far more difficult to treat.

[@richardboutwell3029]

I don’t know cause I never seen anyone about it. I was a lance corporal in the Marines in 1983, 84. It was a different world back then and there wasn’t PTSD back then and I would have been persecuted if I would have told anyone that I didn’t feel good. I was with the unit that invaded Grenada then we were the ones who pulled out of Beirut Lebanon. It turned out we were over our heads and being so young and something happened to me that I couldn’t explain. I didn’t have it in me to ask for help. The worst mistake I made. I’ve lived with it for 40 years and this year I have a chance to put a lot of it away. I never got the chance to talk to anyone who was there and it haunted me for years. I finally told my story 24 years after it happened and it was a relief but I think it will be over when I get that chance. My biggest advice for anyone who isn’t feeling good is to have the guts to let someone help you figure it out. There are people who have felt the same and I know they care. Don’t try to figure it out yourself cause you will probably head down a terrible place like I did

[@woundedwarriorproject]

Richard, first, thank you for your service. Thank you as well for sharing your story and encouraging other veterans who may be suffering from PTSD to ask for help. You are not alone. If you or someone you know would like to learn more about the resources that are available, the WWP resource center can be reached at 888-997-2586 M-F from 9 AM - 9 PM EST.

[@richardboutwell3029]

Thank you for you're reply. My case is a little bit different than others. I made a big mistake by not coming clean with the Marines. I choose to try to do it myself and I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I think I would be a good person to talk to if someone is struggling with life. I've lived with this for 40 years and now I ask myself would it have been different if I could have told someone I just didn't feel good. If anyone wants to try it with some help I would surely be interested. If there is anyone who understands it would be me.

[@foofkanon]

"fighting for my country", so tragic that he can still feel that way, while the Cheney's of the world count their money. You would think that after Nam the therapist wife would at least have a clue.

[@bwana-ma-coo-bah425]

it is NOT! Nam, it is Vietnam.

[@Enneb2737]

I have battle scars too. But unfortunately mine are domestic. Thanks america

[@SanjaySinclair-p6z]

What could cause all of that

[@FINALLYOUTAFTER7]

17:53 best and worst memories, willing to give your life for your friends, not the same person after your deployment. At the armory?!!!!!!!!!!!! That’s me.

[@tryptaman4315]

I had a grenade take a scoop of my hip out, had my pointer finger shot off, and then took 11 more pieces of shrapnel from another grenade abd WW gave me a backpack with a binder in it 😅

[@luvsilly60]

Seems reprogramming people is an art. We might have things to learn from the people who help former cult members. Losing 22 veterans a day- hurts.

[@TroubleActual]

It's not what we sacrificed in different 3rd world countries, we miss our brothers we lost. When we get back we need support and some of us realize how important our family is!!

[@therealgordonramsay9458]

What intro song ?

[@Helenwowable]

You blur tthe faces of the soldiers but you don´t blur the faces of Iraqui children??? Really unaccetable.

[@FINALLYOUTAFTER7]

How many people would care if I took my own life tomorrow…

[@woundedwarriorproject]

Help is available. Please contact the VA Crisis Line by calling 988 and pressing 1. You can also text 838255. You can also contact us at 877.832.6997 Monday through Friday, 9 am - 9 pm ET.

[@HeathaLynn13]

Someone does care. Please find your people and lean on them❤️🤍💙

[@JosephBoot-ln7mw]

Guy reminds me of me growing up…National honor society math and science geek football and Track, Tri state 5 k champ 3 years. Then Army Ranger……war. Yea well.

[@rayseyeoman7540]

❤

[@MrDaigoRiki]

The door says No stupid people, probably he’s the one, making a wrong choice over the generations.

[@foofkanon]

Took a long time for the kid to start shaving.

[@petemihalek6780]

💟💟💟

[@hydrogenneon]

Feminine looking guy , masculine looking gal

[@kirstinetermansen3227]

Brotherhood ???

[@G.I.N.N]

Was it worth it ?? Being deployed over lies and deception.

[@bwana-ma-coo-bah425]

HELL YEAH! THIS IS MERICA! TEAM MERICA! FKYEAH!

[@John-pc8eg]

Some people are being denied freedom of speech on KZbin and these wounded warriors have the audacity to come on KZbin and lie about the sacrifices they've made in defense of the freedom of speech. I have proof of what I say and I do have veterans as witnesses. I find their lies offensive and it really hurts!

[@TheTortaLover_YT]

How are these veterans lying

[@peteonella]

Weak people... 🤣🤣🤣

[@amy109]

Says the coward who’s sitting behind a keyboard and has never done ANYTHING that requires courage and balls in your entire life.

[@peteonella]

@@amy109 Still weak people..

[@tundrawomansays694]

@@amy109 Meh, Trolls are a fact of the Internet as they’re all about Attention Ho-ing. Doesn’t matter if the attention is positive or negative they have the infantile want of a toddler “Looka meeeeeee!” but they never grow up or out of their childishness.

[@alvinb.52]

​@@amy109 it's a troll

[@bwana-ma-coo-bah425]

and you have?