yes I am still alive

[@ant1georgiou]

Take it easy. Miss the ReasonExpert days. I still refer back to those vids for ideas and inspiration.

[@hydlidevlog]

I am glad that channel still serves it purpose. I kept it online (and still will) because I know it will provide some benefit for others (+700 videos... of reason content... who did that anyways ;)). I am glad to hear I am still an inspiration for others. And I kept it, because maybe one day I might do something with it. Because I feel a tremble in my fingers. But this kind of depends on how things go though. No promises made yet. I just have to find a way first. But this new way of living thus provide an open door for sure.

[@gw5544]

That’s a lot to go through, Hope things get better from now on. I used to watch the reason videos back in the day and they helped me get through some dark times. Take care

[@hydlidevlog]

Glad to head, I haven't been using any daws as of lately... because well.. the reason I descibed as mentioned in this video. Still I miss the good old days though. Maybe I should pick those up again, because I have had many requests since there seems to be barely any good tutorials out there since I departed (at least, that was a few comments I saw floating by, I am not sure if this is true. Since I am still in my catchup days).

[@gw5544]

@@hydlidevlog I used to enjoy them reason tutorials and videos you done on reason experts and learnt quite a bit from them, with the live setups etc. If you’re able to do anything that would be awesome, no pressure though, I’m feeling inspired to look up some of your old videos for now and have a try, take it easy and good to see you again

[@maveric_Reason]

Nice to hear from you again. Heads up! Best regards Maveric

[@hydlidevlog]

Hey mav, how is it going! Long time no see! nice to see an old friend message popping up and giving a shoutout ;) Awesome! And yes, I am all with the heads up approach. I am not that easy to be torn apart. This is gonna be a cakewalk. Heh ;)

[@HAZARDOUS88]

I'm so glad to hear from you again. What a time it's been for you. Wishing you all the best.

[@hydlidevlog]

much appreciated haz!

[@stasheAUS]

ED welcome back....take all the time you need bud...the market prices here in Aussie is fricken ridiculous also.

[@hydlidevlog]

Thank Mike, I will take the time I need. Since I really need to take a breather from all of this. Thanx bud! See you on Steam ;)

[@philparker7851]

That's a hell of a lot to go through! But you're in the best place now to build back your mental health and your life the way you want it. Stay strong and keep going. And keep us in the loop - we do care.

[@hydlidevlog]

Appreciate the feedback there. As you state, my metal health 'was' a concern at times. But I will get out this pretty much fine. It will just take some time. Bare with me ;) And yes, I'll keep you posted on how this progresses over time (in case there are developments)

[@Jackice]

Good to see you again, wish you a good coming time and this is just a new chapter.

[@hydlidevlog]

It is a new chapter allright. I already have a doorbell sign saying Ed 3.0 ;)

[@mauricester]

what to say to all that ................ I am glad to see and hear you again Hydlide, (Ed),, I have never had the ability to shake your hand ,, tap you on the sholder ,,, and tell you how much I enjoyed your channel before ,,, despite what you were going through,,, I am so regretful for what you have had to deal with in the past few Months,,,,, I am an older man than you and have dealt with such pains and regrets myself,, I am glad to see you sipping coffee.... rather than what I did ,, to chase the bottom of a bottle .... people will tell you that Time heals all,, well to a certian degree ,, but not really,,, I would ask you to seek some Professional Mental Health Counselling... every one can see when you have a massive wound,, or cut,, or broken bone,, no one can see when your mind is imploding upon itslef,,,, and most of the time,, they don't even belive you ,,, what to say to all this ,,, take time ,, for yourself,, ,, there is nothing selfish ,, in trying to be happy and comfortable with yourself,,.... everyone deserves that ....... As I said before I have never meet you ,, but some how consider you a friend, ,,, "take your time to find your way".......

[@hydlidevlog]

Cheers maurice, my canadian friend. Appreciate the comment. I am already seeing professional health counceling during this process (the dutch healthcare system is pretty good at that). It has helped me to fill up the void more or less (since I am kind of sucked in a void of the total unknown atm). But I am positive with the amount of energy that I have, and the positivity I can get from this situation, I will most likely be fine when this is all behind me. I only see positive things from this, at least it is a fresh start from when I look at it from this point on. Like someone just presses a reset button on life, and you simply move on after the reboot took place. I might note, it was 'hell' to go through the process. But all I saw was a very bright light at the end of a tunnel that would take me out of this misery. And that gives me a sparkle of hope so to speak. And this also gives me strength to move on. And yes, I also consider you as a friend, with the kind words you put in my channel so often. It is appreciated and it helps!

[@grumomusic]

Hope you can find peace in 2024, looking forward to hearing form you again and seeing what you're up to, wether it be music or games. 🫂

[@hydlidevlog]

I'll find peace in time. It will just take time... and what they say, time will heal all wounds. And I am already prepared for that one. I just need to get shit sorted, and after that I'll probably be fine after that. In fact I feel like I will get stronger out of this situation eventually. Cheers Grumo! (maybe i'll show up in a podcast one day. since I already had a phone call with vish about it ;))

[@giovannipedretti1852]

You passed an hard period. Don't worry about your new house to be empty. You will have new things in it living your new life or maybe you will find another person with whom you'll buy new things. Time will tell.

[@hydlidevlog]

true, time will tell. That is exactly how I sit in this situation basically ;)