Yung Lean - 'Agony' (Official Audio)

[@deathknigt3000]

This sounds like heaven, but it hurts like hell.

[@VadimkaMr]

i was thinking about few months how i feel about this song............. but now i see your comment , and it's exacly how it feels ....... i hope you do well ...

[@quin642]

How are you doinf both guys

[@Aluryne]

I See you everywhere man.

[@deathknigt3000]

@@Aluryne I’m always around :)

[@PeepGamePopoff]

🎯🎯🎯

[@beefyXgawd]

The year was 2014. I was living in Orlando fl, renting a room in the hood at only 18 years old. Been on my own for a year and a half at that point. I had just discovered sad boys. I listened to lean, sherman and gud as i drove my jeep all over the state of florida for work remodeling homes. I would listen to them on these sometimes 2+ hour drives, at work and in my room. A couple months later i got my girl pregnant. Anothe couple months later i got us a house in tbe daytona beach area. Couldn't afford to drive back and forth everyday so i would sleep hours away from home in my jeep. I would smoke blunts and listen to sad boys and relax as much as possible. A few months after that, i got a job with brighthouse. I drove all around florida listening to sad boys some more but now i was home with my wife and daughter everyday. Did that for 3 years. Got let go when spectrun took over. Took up construction in orlando so i was back to driving there everyday so more sad boys all day then too. Did that for about 18 months, and my girl and i ended up having a son. Hes now almost a year old and im now a chef at high class seafood restraunt and i work for a healthy meal prep company. And i still listen to these guys to keep it all together. [updates in comments]

[@oxydyx1864]

wow, really powerful man, thanks for sharing! I"m 18 and i'm not yet to that stage in my life, but it really got me relating to you in some ways.

[@user-ue2lx6py9j]

I live in daytona

[@beefyXgawd]

@@oxydyx1864 im now 24. Been on my own since 17. Seen lots of good and bad. You will do the same. You'll have moments where nothing could bring you down and moments where an existential crisis would seem good too. Dont lose faith tho. It gets bad before it gets better. Reach out to me if you ever need to vent

[@beefyXgawd]

@@user-ue2lx6py9j righteous. Small world

[@AfterlifeAve]

Inspiring man... coming from a person who used to be homeless in Kissimmee FL, that’s really heart warming man. God bless

[@GreenMonkey446]

I stared at the ceiling for over an hour with this song laying on repeat and just questioning everything. I had company over and never felt so alone . I dont understand how im still here. This song means alot to me. If it wasnt for music idk. Music like this keeps me going.

[@David-qv7no]

How are you bro?

[@hypergamous]

i took acid and ended uo staring at my ceiling with this song on repeat for hours having revelations about life lawl

[@jamielus]

u ok now?

[@GreenMonkey446]

Enjoying life lawl. Thanks for checking in tho 👌🏽

[@Jogi-j8s]

How are you?

[@mr.fancyraccoon6936]

Even more moving than the song itself are the people that gather around songs like this. It's almost like you listen to the song and you know you're hurting in unison with thousands. Art can be such a sanctuary for hurt souls out there and to see someone going through the worst time of their lives reach out to a stranger in the exact same spot and try to give them hope is the reason I'll always treasure humanity, no matter out much we do to tear each other apart. We really are here for one another, and it is beautiful.

[@lilmills1107]

i've been going through tough times for the past year, but i feel like i'm on a better path now. I hope that people reading the original message and mine will understand it's not permanent and people are here to help. a youtube comment could be the first step !

[@mr.fancyraccoon6936]

@@lilmills1107 Yeah, me too. Tbh looking back at when i wrote that comment i'm waaay better now, but life sure does have its way of leaving you confused on whether you're gong thee right way. But at least now i can say i'm going my own way, no longer chasing something like i was back then. All i can say is: walk for you and you'll arrive somewhere that brings you some peace. Even when times get tough. Kind of just like everyone got here just by following the music that made them feel something, this sense of community. Really love coming back to this video every now and then. Thank you.

[@tiredsky]

I will always come back to this masterpiece

[@tomato9593]

Real and true

[@hellfirehaze]

Yes

[@1nvm]

i love lean

[@hiam1709]

same

[@AllDopedUp13]

Me too, so beautiful

[@katiepfeiffer6605]

I did some 'research' so I sound less stupid... So this song is about reflecting on what happened when he was in Miami in 2015. "I'm chasing witches in the street" is referring to him looking for drug lords' 'potions', "watching horses in the field" is Yung Lean recalling himself staying with his father at his rural house in Sweden after he got out of the hospital, "The dragons rest in agony" is referring to the amount of drugs he took in Miami, "when I'm afraid I lose my mind" is him referring to how he would stay up late in Miami and he was writing a book on his phone called "heaven" which he was recalling nightmares from his childhood and/or how he checked his snapchat after he got a nosebleed and his girlfriend just so happen to have one aswell and feelings started to pour over him and he started to tear apart the condo he was staying in, "Isolation caved it, I adore you, the sound of your skin" is referring to how Yung felt at that time in his life since he was suffering from manic episodes and felt utterly alone, he is expressing his need for human touch, "My furniture has come alive" is referring to him tearing apart his condo, "I'm dancing with a candlestick tonight" is referring to his isolation.

[@wxrlord]

it’s amazing to know that yung lean made through Miami. I don’t know anyone that would be able to go through what yung lean did, feeling isolated and paranoid.

[@ceramikxxx5882]

Mind blown

[@nitewalker11]

"my furniture has come alive" and "im dancing with a candlestick tonight" are also beauty and the beast references, with leandoer being the beast

[@1HomeBass1]

I read that article too

[@merutm3843]

Katie Pfeiffer I’m dying of depression & I been drinking all night... please some help me ...

[@MayFlwr]

Man..this song is just great. Lean, gud, and sherman will always be some of my favorite artists.

[@odyssey.studios]

MayFlwr can’t forget gtb

[@kevinalba2452]

Bladee

[@Domar95]

my nigga I watch all your vids I am so stoked to know you have good music taste

[@DMystic1]

this song is literally an indescribable sadness not only from lean's perspective, but into all of us, i am glad a song like this exists

[@SebatsianWithers]

Hypebeast

[@DMystic1]

@@SebatsianWithers shut your gay valorant ass up, talking about hypebeast. go outside bro

[@disclose_beauty]

Similiar song to this? Please?

[@o.s.311]

​@@disclose_beautyhelp_urself, fahrradsattel

[@Toaster___Bath]

@@disclose_beauty yellow man on this same album.

[@etiennerabiller7995]

Take a pill and go to sleep I'm chasing witches in the street I'm the last page in your book Can't write a song, only do hooks Watching horses in the fields The dragon rests in agony When I'm afraid I lose my mind It's fine, it happens all the time When I'm afraid I lose my mind It's fine, it happens all the time Isolation caved in I adore you, the sound of your skin So many lies that I found Blood, Heaven, I stick to the ground So many times I realized What I seek for is right in front of my eyes I'm alone in a hole in the ground A theater of dogs is still around My furniture has come alive I'm dancing with a candlestick tonight Flying kites reaping outside my window Smiles with fright Isolation caved in I adore you, the sound of your skin Isolation caved in I adore you, the sound of your skin Isolation caved in I adore you, the sound of your skin

[@sisicepta3675]

🥰

[@Lilregpack]

my dad has throat cancer and got through radiation and lost his voice. Then his throat started to swell up so now he has a hole in his throat to breath. He's really really down and in pain and it makes me wanna cry. on top of that our medical bills are crazy and i dont know how my family will pay them or make it though this. We're all beaten down and struggling to stay sane and keep going. But it's nothing compared to what my father is going through. i love you all, and i love you lean for helping me keep my wits and stay strong for my family.

[@levitating-phonkster]

man i dont know what to say, no one should deserve something like this, i always come to this song to cry but even if i dont know you i wish you and your family only the best ,let your emotions out brother its ok to cry, love you too :(

[@maximilian6991]

I'm really sorry. No one should ever experience such bullshit. I wish you and your family only the best. I hope you guys get through this terrible times and get stuff working again :)

[@Lilregpack]

thank you guys so much, my dad has been doing better. he's been building little model cars they're really cool. i've been making a bucnh of music and staying out the way. i still listen to this song everyday. i hope the tiktok kids find this one bc it deserves to be huge.

[@kaine_19]

@@Lilregpack hey man I just saw this comment. i’m so sorry for what you had to go through. my prayers go out to you. how is your dad now?

[@Lilregpack]

@@kaine_19 he’s ok. The radiation rotted his teeth and he’s getting dentures now. I moved away to Cincinnati so I haven’t seen him in a while. I need to make time for him.

[@TranzlFerHD]

my dad told me something i feel like a lot of people could appreciate and apply to their lives; you will always live with regrets, that much is inevitable but everyday you wake up is a new chapter. the choice to remain being who you were and doing what you’ve been doing on the page before is up to you. you can just as easily go against the grain and change. that is what makes us human.

[@sevven6689]

hey , ive been feelin like a shit person lately so this rly helped me feel better .

[@idleglance]

This song will forever put me into tears everytime I listen to it

[@simoncotter1606]

today I stood on a bridge and thought about jumping down, but I didn't cave... I'm at the lowest of lows, but still something kept me from jumping. I realised that I need help and I have to talk to people about how I feel. I think that's the first step to getting better or at least I hope so. Probably no one's going to read this but I just had to write it. If you're thinking about ending your life don't do it, it's the only thing you got. You might end your suffering but you won't be there to realise it. Keep on fighting

[@cameronmurray6330]

hope ur doing good man

[@shaixcs]

I hope you’re getting better. Make sure to speak to the people around you. If you want to, even speak to me about it, just a pair of ears to listen

[@lemikadriaj9925]

[@407house.]

I love you stay strong

[@near4952]

I hope u good and healthy

[@LucasAssarsson]

How can this dude have so much impact in my life? Best Ever

[@odyssey.studios]

Such a god

[@jobspuzzo]

dude, i think exactly the same thing. He is just a regular dude from sweden, but his life impressions are so similar to mine's...

[@SwagMaster824]

He's the goat

[@11energize]

i feel the exact same way. i mean he doesnt even know i exist, but he has impacted my life so much

[@nora9157]

me too, his music helps me always when im sad.

[@hillsxx5967]

There’s an eternal sadness that lives within this song.

[@FistoMS]

efectivamente pana

[@ZeranZeran]

Knowing that you can't go back to your old self, or your old life, but seeing constant reminders of it. Stay away from xanax. It is not worth it.

[@lucazar2459]

@@ZeranZeran can you elaborate please? Im not taking much xanax but what happened to you?

[@ZeranZeran]

@@lucazar2459 Some addictions are harder to quit than others, especially if you bought it in mass amounts in your early 20's and had multiple year's worth... Most of that time is a black hole in my memory. I was very depressed, but I wish I would have found another way to deal. Now I missed some very important moments. I was there, physically. I do not remember anything. Xanax is especially cruel, and especially relaxing and makes you think everything is fine, when it's not. Stay away, my friend. Using it is fine, abuse is the issue.

[@ZeranZeran]

@@lucazar2459 "Take a pill and go to sleep" was my motto for a few years.. rather than deal with my problems. "When I'm afraid I lose my mind, its fine it happens all the time" I realize I am probably projecting my own problems onto this song, but it has really helped me. Avoid isolation. Be there for the people you love. They notice. ♥

[@denzel1174]

This song is my painkiller since i lost her... i truly felt when Lean says "so many time i realize what i seek for is right on the front of my eyes"

[@roxzzmoxzz2575]

I met a guy on yung lean's fanpage and we started to talk u know, everyday, he was from another country. He lived so far from me. But after a while we were into a relationship, we used to sleep on the phone, do everything on the phone. After 11 months of being together on distance relationship he finally came. I picked him from aiport in another country too. When we came home, we were listening to Yung Lean together and we were listening to this song and we were so happy, we were together because Yung lean. We used to sing and listen his songs together. Now im listening alone. Sadboy here

[@barbarajordens]

i feel ur pain

[@roxzzmoxzz2575]

@@barbarajordens thx gurl

[@therover9703]

damn, respect to you.

[@roxzzmoxzz2575]

@@therover9703 its been already like 4-5 months and still thinkin of him sometime'

[@therover9703]

@@roxzzmoxzz2575 I wish the best for ya, i feel your pain in a sense. atleast we have this music to help :-)

[@Juqey]

This is the most beautiful song leandoer has ever done

[@Bcv96]

yung ufo no that's gatorade

[@Fahim321]

no thats hennessy and sailor moon

[@htmn2001]

No it's this or red bottom sky

[@clementbleu-pays977]

leanworld ?

[@taggertrose6952]

Imo these are all tied for his best sad tracks: leanworld, hellrain, agony, never again, hotel in minsk

[@dangcs]

That Icelandic Childrens Choir was a great feature

[@nestorpeeters3665]

Any music of them online?

[@VadimkaMr]

Iceland is a fucking GOAT at everything

[@fendimafia]

mauzzy true

[@figurefiguras4104]

mauzzy nordics in general, damn!

[@meganaxelia]

They are beautiful :)

[@alwaleedeissa4052]

The hardest music to find..

[@gypsieking210]

I've been crying for 30 minutes.

[@coltonjagger5602]

I served in the u.s. military and was very lonely alot of times. The sad boys were my "friends" through their music. This song in particular and album was the shit for me. Fast forward to now... I'm in love with my best friend and living together, everyday is a new adventure together! Life is bliss and wonderful. She went away just for two days for work and I found myself look this song up. Reading these comments makes me want to share. Life is so mysterious and crazy how things turn out. Love you lean... your music helps alot of people in alot of trying times.

[@rollinthraxx]

Love your story man still trying to find my purpose I’m feeling pretty alone rn in high school just coasting by ☺️ grateful for everything

[@lmilly1359]

@@rollinthraxx cherish the time you still have in hs and do everything you possibly can. I graduated 2 and a half years ago and there’s a lot of regrets I have about hs but at the same time, the memories I do have from it will always be some of my favorite memories

[@rybcaje]

Thank you for your service sir.

[@snailmoder]

@knockout you can still make good memories in bad times

[@erikok3031]

@@knockout1905 not at all i hate high school

[@ArielBojorquez]

When I’m older with my kids and wife and life’s good, I’ll look back at songs like these and they will be memories I will cherish forever

[@1Larry]

I cant live without this song. Every now and then i come here, it feels so good. Never heard a song that makes me feel this much different emotions.

[@Zoogs]

The fact that this man went from rapping about mosquito tits to making music like this in less than 5 years it truly incredible. His progression as an artist is so inspirational.

[@CennoSoldier]

Physcosis and schizophrenia does get those creative juices running

[@juanky6821]

@@CennoSoldier nice misinformation he is not schizophrenic

[@abbabbcbbcbb]

@@juanky6821 wouldn't attribute too much by them they can't even spell psychosis

[@Wannop]

For sure

[@microplasticsinurblud]

@@juanky6821 psychosis and bipolar. close enough

[@OOE1]

When I'm afraid I lose my mind - Its fine it happens all the time. This hits home so hard. When I'm afraid, I freak out, essentially losing my mind. Godspeed anyone reading this comment, this song hits home to me, and I hope it hits home for you too. When I'm lonely, this song is always there for me.

[@icebergcxc]

praying to god we dont lose this man.

[@Charbyzic]

You know that feeling when you’re surrounded by your beloved ones but you still feel extremely lonely and isolated? I do. Sometimes I just want to go somewhere in the middle of nowhere alone without anyone, like some kind of spiritual redemption for this loneliness.

[@eliotbyrne7648]

thats what I did, highly recommend it.

[@MichaeIKay]

Believe it or not, but the dude, who wrote ginseng strip 2002, made this. And his producers of course, this crew will earn legendary status one day.

[@peterluke8773]

ginseng strip 2002 is also a master piece

[@MichaeIKay]

In his own way yes. But at some point, we all had to grow up.

[@TheBlueDevilDuke]

His evolution is crazy

[@LordAlmanGrimm]

The Crew already has the legendary Status my dude

[@MichaelIhde69]

I was just listening to that and that's why I came here. Had to really hear for myself how far he's come and think of what he has yet to put out. Beautiful evolution of a heartfelt artist

[@sirky4243]

I'm not depressed, i'm not in troubles, I don't take drugs, I just love this song, it's very important for me, the most important song in my life, you feel me? But I feel pity, because of you guys, I just believe that everything will be at least fine, I believe in you, keep strong! Greetings from Poland.

[@levitating-phonkster]

your words get to me man😭

[@adripekas9682]

Much love

[@-carloscd1105]

I agree, the same thing happens to me.

[@seaghan6412]

@ᴠʟᴏɴᴇ 神様 cool story bro, bed time

[@xenorzy9331]

@ᴠʟᴏɴᴇ 神様 so edgy! so cool! have my kids, good sir!

[@danielledolly8576]

This hurt isnt worth all the pain it takes to heal the needles spinning on the record again lost my mom and listening to music is what gets me through these days thank you guys

[@maximilian6991]

Sorry for your loss may she rest im piece. Still, life goes on and as bad everything may seem right now, sooner or later it will definitely become better. :)

[@leithfischer9431]

I hope you're okay♡

[@xenorzy9331]

lol

[@murakashi1759]

@@xenorzy9331 what the fucks wrong with u bruv. i dont understand ppl like u. why bother leaving a comment. hiding behind ur screen making peoples day worse. tbh i feel sry for u cos u probably have the saddest little life out of all of us, and thats saying something cos this comments section is filled with sum sad fucked up ppl. sorry for your loss danielle hopefully it heals more and more with time🖤fuck off xenorzy

[@Mastermind3838]

Very fucking funny bud. I pray on your downfall.

[@bobrossantichrisst]

I’m 30 years old and this is the first time I’ve heard this. I think this speaks to so many people at so many places in their life. I can’t believe i’m saying this. Yung Lean has knowledge

[@marxunemiku]

this is my favourite barry dillon song

[@Llucjan00000]

😂😂😂

[@californiansniper2133]

Frfrfrfrfrfrfffrffrf

[@mikhaelmaia9]

are you young lean?

[@zaybanded805]

@@mikhaelmaia9 No I'm 👄Barry Dillon.

[@nolan.lehman7847]

💀

[@makochan6854]

When my dad went to jail you and your music were always there to help me every morning, day and night, now I turn to your songs to encourage me in something more banal like a broken heart. Thank you very much for everything Yung Lean, I love you!

[@Veysula007]

I've been crying for over than 3 hours while listening to this song on repeat. To everyone who reads this, please, talk to someone about your mental health, don't end your life, try to solve the issue, you are on your way of escaping from this state of mind. Love you all!

[@Joffke]

Love you too bro

[@yeabro4038]

Hope ur good

[@epsiln3338]

thank you

[@Veysula007]

Thanks all :)

[@lotuscat3173]

Your comment gave me strenght

[@DylNewman]

This song is dangerous if you’re not in the right headspace

[@axelthemexican]

You good og?

[@DylNewman]

@@axelthemexican I’m straight. I appreciate it.

[@DylNewman]

@@auskied we’ll make it through the other side, bröther.

[@DanielLeaf]

How dangerous we talking chief? 🥹

[@herfrey4809]

yuhp, we'll all make it through like you said in the replies below, but definitely this can magnify the pain sometimes.

[@IdRatherbeDeaddd]

Been seperated with my ex for two years now. I haven't been sad about the break up for over a year now. but this song just gave me this weird feeling i can't describe. Took me back to 2008 when i first met her, took me back to 2012 when we finally got our own place. Our summer walks around Haaga(Helsinki). Just sitting here on google maps looking through our favourite spots we would visit a lot and just sit there. Sadly google maps is all i have. I no longer live in Finland. Just wish i could text her and tell her i still care for her. Love is brilliant, even if it doesn't work.

[@fafor6128]

Screen that what did you wrote and send her :) I hope you will back to her :,)

[@somefuckinguy4519]

This broke me

[@hanawana]

Kasey Pettit please contact her.

[@carloslozano2047]

your last words got me.

[@shaashaash]

i feel you bro, my long term gf left me a week ago and ive been sad since and this song helps me

[@josephbearup4787]

42 years old and This Artist and Especially this song Hits Home. 2023 and Beyond we will all feel pain in Very Diff ways, now I have Kids That Could Take the same steps I Took and that Hurts More then any pain I’ve ever felt. Godbless U all

[@GamingPhysicalTherapy]

Yung Lean, this song contributed to a huge part of where I am today. Thanks for being there through music. I’m sure others can say the same.

[@ashtonwilcox9356]

lean is one of the only people keeping me alive, both of my parents are in a toxic and alcoholic state.. whenever shit gets heated i put my headphones in and vibe out to your music. puts me in an escaped reality.. we love you lean

[@xenorzy9331]

LOL!

[@larf06]

Fucking hang in there Ashton. I came from that type of family too. im almost 40 now and i used to think everything was ok bc i got used to covering up feelings and avoiding what i needed to face, for decades, but just last week i had a wakeup call, it was a mushroom trip and it was the best day of my life but also one of the hardest. My advice is whenever you get your chance, speak your mind to your parents, even if it costs you everything. Tell them what i wanted to tell them my whole life, that you love them but what they are doing is toxic, it's putting you in a hole that is going to be very hard to get out of as an adult. Tell them you love them regardless of what they do but let them know who you are and what you feel. There are no magic words, only the hard talks which may lead to very hard situations, but they are unavoidable, please communicate, then communicate more, if things don't change you have put your best foot forward, but it is important for you to get this stuff out. i buried this shit my whole life and have squandered so much bc of my poor mental state, but it's never too late. Much love Ashton.

[@lalhriatzela1665]

Hope you doing fine bro, sending love your way ❤

[@lop1657]

Same, my dad is in prison and my mom is an addict.

[@Tiersenhiphop]

Damn dude. I’m sorry. That sucks. Music sometimes feels like the best escape and the best way to feel your shit at the same time. I hope things work out for you man.

[@surecjoe5470]

waited inside my car for my next Jr college class to start thinking how I would play out in life. I was homeless living out of my car eating McDonalds day by day always repeating the same question in my head. It was a difficult time that lead me to do horrible things to myself as a person, losing friends and family i dearly loved. I will always be different then how i was before but i will always try to evolve as a person. You kept me company in my dark days now you keep me company while I live my best life with my wife and son. Thank you!

[@HyunMaw]

I hope you'll never end up like Peep... SO sad. Pls Lean and Sadboys be careful

[@bryankeeley4058]

I'm starting to get anxious and worried thinking about it :( I hope lean is careful I can't take another artist dying

[@HyunMaw]

I think that since Miami, Lean has calmed down, and don't take drugs as much as he used to. At least, I hope so

[@YungYanThaDon]

he's almost died already bladee saved him

[@merutm3843]

Serial Experiments please someone help me...

[@HyunMaw]

Im Malefiicent Are you alright buddy?

[@lightly3886]

I had a drug problem when i was 16 years, i was hurting all my loved ones so decided to change, this song helped me so much because it's like a rainbow after a storm or like a hug after crying for hours, yeah, drugs are fun sometimes but they have the power to ruin your life, stay clean ppl , love You , leanboy

[@jose-pk5dv]

this saved my life

[@ashtonwilcox9356]

i love you bro

[@ecstacy2921]

@@ashtonwilcox9356 sus

[@abel5779]

@@ecstacy2921 toxic

[@meowraiu2]

@@ecstacy2921 toxic

[@rahmafadhil3453]

@@ecstacy2921 stfu

[@blackbriarclash]

definitely in the top5 of all lean songs

[@MovieMan119]

Such a beautiful ballad. Yung Lean sounds like he is drinking after a breakup, and just singing about his woes and his heartbreak. It truly is something else

[@lilfemboyofficial]

yung lean changed my life just like lil peep did and both of them saved me from negative thoughts and harming myself or others I thank you all so much and hope yall the best love you all

[@piatra00]

I have never cried to a song that bad in my entire life. thank you yung lean for this masterpiece, ur a genius.

[@KiceDz]

You should check out Never Again by Johnathan leandoer , his alter ego.

[@rainbowmetalhead]

Same

[@simstlau]

the story behind is even more heart-breaking

[@gotwicfreetoplay9567]

a song that generates melancholy

[@Theworldisyouroyster156]

I’m 64 years old and this is the deepest most incredible song I’ve ever heard. Wow.

[@aryantiwari960]

Respect bro love you ❤

[@pianoPS3TML]

I still think of us from time to time.

[@158-i6z]

The crazy thing about this song is that it is sad on the surface, but after listening to it many times, it makes me happy.

[@13MoonGold]

It's so melancholy yet so peaceful, reminds me of Good News by Mac Miller

[@deepakbiranwar2981]

​@@13MoonGoldbro that's my song bro 😭😭😭

[@michaelbarker5713]

I’m sure it relates to every person feeling some sort of trauma. Absolute masterpiece. Emptied and filled my heart at the same time 🖤

[@bbomg02]

Idk how I just discovered this after so many years of listening to Lean, but what a day to discover it. It's my grandpa's birthday today, and it's the first birthday we had to celebrate without him... shit sucks.

[@willboyd7908]

hope you keep your head up king. better times ahead.

[@bbomg02]

@@willboyd7908 thanks. Been trying, I got off some of the drugs. But being trapped in the house mostly from the pandemic and all that and being jobless... it's just been hard to keep going. I used to go to shows and travel to get out of my head and now we can't. So I have been borderlining on insanity.

[@willboyd7908]

@@bbomg02 man i feel you 100% this quarantine has definitely driven me insane. Used to drive to the park on days I was feeling trapped and just sit on the bench to clear my head, or go for a walk around the park. Dont know what your situation is but find something you can do to break that feeling for a little bit. Dont forget everybody needs help sometimes and its always okay to ask. Hope things go back to normal soon

[@bbomg02]

@@willboyd7908 I am thankful. I have been able to live with my bandmate to make music and like I have college and all that to keep busy. But things won't be normal until I could hike at different places, like Vancouver, BC or the Santa Monica mountains. I like to be away from everyone but still be in nature. Being locked away in my house 85% of the time with a bunch of snow constantly isn't exactly the most freeing feeling. I am hoping by this time next year it will all be a thing we look back on. I miss my college friends and like I'm young. I'm not even 19 until March. I am suppose to be exploring the world at this age. It all just hurts...

[@duvansoto4235]

This song inspired me, so beauty

[@ethanjacobson6004]

This will go down as one of the greatest songs of all time, mark my words. I can listen to this on repeat for hours and it still sounds like I just heard it for the first time. The mixing, the melody, the vocals, it's the definition of beauty. I've cried my hardest tears to this song, but it always leaves me feeling this strange mixture of extreme sadness and peace when its over. There is quite literally no other song like this. Incredible work.

[@ЯрославПересветов́]

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[@SebatsianWithers]

again.... not reading all that

[@hankschrader2346]

Lvl 200 yapper

[@felity1773]

it's always the same three chords and there is no real melody. it's a great song, but not something that's gonna be able to be recognised as one of the best because it's not standardised enough

[@Airborne2xx2]

It’s my first time hearing this and it got me feeling heavy emotions. I feel so blessed to be listening to leans music idc how late I am better now than never 🫶

[@qvian9197]

The type of songs you listen to when your homies aren't around.

[@welshbolshevik]

i don’t have any homies. My girlfriend left me at the start of December and i hadn’t realised that i had dedicated myself to her so much, that id basically cut off all of my friends. I want them back :(

[@Name-oopsies]

@@welshbolshevik reach out to them homie, if theyre your friends theyll be ready for you

[@benettolp3129]

@@welshbolshevik thats what my best friend has always done when he was in a relationship but even when 2 years have passed everyone was welcoming to him and happy to get him back Reach out to them dude. Its what will get you back on your feet

[@nittwittslikk5241]

@@welshbolshevik we all did that mistake once reach out

[@sebkoseda]

Type of song you kiss the homies goodnight to

[@sarwarjahan2102]

the line "when im afraid, i lose my mind. its fine, it happens all the time" hits hard when you are bipolar.

[@yungmau9258]

This song brings me comfort. I've had multiple psychotic episodes

[@sarwarjahan2102]

@@yungmau9258 this song makes me feel like i am not alone

[@kiayamwak3778]

The person itself who sing this is bipolar

[@sarwarjahan2102]

@@kiayamwak3778 yeah i know

[@sarwarjahan2102]

@Sem Burden so now you are okay? cause mate truth be told i cant get out of this shit. i feel stuck. and i feel like im gonna die without having overcome this shit life. i see no light at the end of the tunnel. plus i have an eating disorder. i overeat. and im also bulimic. i am 5'7 and used to weigh 114kgs. but over the past 6 months, i have cut down to 80kg, i started a calories deficit diet and started going to the gym. every breathing second i have to resist the temptation and sometimes i just cant hold it any longer and indulge in high calorie carbs sugary food. i really dont wanna live like this. on the other hand im failing classes. my grades are falling while im spending my time on youtube watching bs after bs when i should study. and now im talking about my life to you at 3am in the morning. i dont even know you. i know nobody can help me but myself. but i really dont see the light at the end of the tunnel. but i hope to be something someday. remember my name. Sarwar MONKEMAN Jahan. we will meet again. if i live.

[@natevex2045]

When the instrumentals start playing I get a flash of memories.

[@elephant327]

if you have cried to this song we automatically family

[@alanm6o9]

[@Silkr0w]

rn

[@Leon-ou4ol]

Hi from Italy you should all appreciate this young boy he is so talented and has an unusual and unique stile and I hope he'll keep doing this shit forever

[@martinovolpe516]

Lo spero anch'io fratello

[@lorenzocattaneo996]

Noto con grande piacere un sempre più ampio apprezzamento da parte di italiani verso Leany, spero veramente che in un futuro non troppo lontano faccia almeno una tappa da noi

[@martinovolpe516]

Sarebbe bello

[@youngsterdeuce7971]

Speriamo bene ragazzi. #sadboys01

[@matteopepe2426]

siamo in cinque raga

[@unofficialk1550]

I uncontrollably burst into tears every time I hear this song. Tears have been streaming down my face for the past 10 minutes

[@Xitaychin]

One of the greatest songs ever! Been loving this album from the moment it released.

[@PeyoteCoyote97]

I feel like everyone here is friends

[@הררךיה]

I dont know You but I feel I like You

[@AskTorin]

I agree. Friends for this here life with all of us present, friends of Leandoer, happy meaning, comfort feeling :)

[@trilogy.]

🖤

[@tubthumper9453]

yeah no bad feelings here. Just people; drunk, stoned, lost, alone, staring down the barrel of the end of the night, looking for some salvage at the dawn of a salt and vinegar morning. whiskey drunk, coffee buzzed, skunk melancholic. eating soup, drinking soup, listening to that last song, on your own, at the end of the night, smoking out the window. wishing it was you...

[@joshuagodfrin2209]

We all live in a LeanWorld.

[@kaynmain2829]

This is probably the best written song by yung lean

[@hectorzeroni361]

This song has helped me through the hardest of times.

[@Dancingcats5ever]

Listening to this romanticizing my depression from yesterday. Reminding me of where i've been, showing me how far I've come. Beyond happy to be where i am but I tear up thinking about my old self, and the parts of him that were forgotten so that I could be who I am today. Appreciate where you are, every chance. You will be somewhere else soon, surprised you will realize anything can be nostalgic. Even crippling depression. Love you all ♥

[@bumblebee6446]

Ameen

[@enzo.6586]

The best people are here right now

[@2lucasjfs]

nollatunnelmia stfu

[@aakrueger]

You stole this from a jl127 comment

[@acies9408]

Stole the comment from JL127

[@leduc6656]

the same comment over and over..

[@ca5958]

and you- huh what who said that

[@LYON-cf1wn]

this has been on repeat for the past 2 days. I cannot stop thinking about everything and life when listening to this song

[@rustypotter5365]

Such a beautiful and deep lyrics.

[@lil_pokk]

This hits different at night

[@rinam4485]

This album is sort of destroying me. I swear each song is hitting me on a strong level and I can't even explain why. Yung Lean, you've been truly missed

[@BIG2hats]

Same bro

[@ForTheExperience]

amen

[@zzzz-rv7hs]

Draainn

[@kuzz1191]

this 1 of the most beautiful songs ever made

[@ghostrecon3834]

If the loneliness after deep betrayal had a sound, this would be it.

[@f72638]

This song always make me cry.

[@ricardoew1829]

In the beginning of the song I was like ‘wft Yung with a piano?’, then it turns so beautiful. Never in my life a Rapper makes cry until Yung release this masterpiece. The kids at the end are so emotional. Sad boys came true

[@angel1959]

lots of Leans songs has piano lead

[@zzzemoji]

i know i'll keep return to this song for a very, very long time

[@SplitPrqctice]

return now

[@zzzemoji]

@@SplitPrqctice i'm back and i'm cooking a cover of this song

[@zzzemoji]

@Hampus Ekberg its trash but its out lol

[@zzzemoji]

@not ok thanks thats super nice of u ❤️

[@hamaz5186]

ferme ta gueule je t'ai vu sous du saturn citizen je t'aime

[@joshdonn1606]

I sort of grew up with this guy and went through depression with his music. It always feels so honest and authentic to me. Keep it up Yung Lean, gutted I didn't get to see you at R&V in New Zealand that one New Years you came. Come back.

[@suidice5596]

Joshua Donn He did man, Auckland last Sept

[@safeh4ven]

From his recent interview with Jack Angell for Paper Magazine: "And it's crazy talking to a person like you, you're 21, who I know is a fan and you must've been a fan since you were 14. You've seen this happen, and a lot of people have seen this happen. I remember when we went on our first tour and we were just fuckups in a bus and we'd meet these kids. We're growing up with you. Every song we've dropped since "Grey Goose," we're growing up with all of you. And it's true."

[@juliamichellebigsmoke133]

this song ringing in my head in the jail cell for 2 days over night was what gave comfort to me but first thoughts of God and my loved one thank you yung lean

[@matejkovac1484]

I feel like this beat reflects on so many points of life… sadness, happiness, nostalgy and generally just life itself. I get so many different vibes from this song. Amazing.

[@endoria6706]

"I'm alone in a hole in the ground" describes everything. I am alone and my lifes been tough. I don't have a home, family or friends. No one to talk to. No one to hug and say I love you. Nowhere to stay for a night. The world's so messed up rn but I never lose my hope for the better. Me and you will make it no matter what.

[@mixedemotiona]

wanna talk?

[@StrangeSwag]

y'all are at the right part of KZbin, wish y'all the world

[@EzraDevlin]

I identify with everything he's saying. Mental Illness, seug addiction, isolation. Isolation, isolation. Im 39 and a dude half my age has a direct line to my heart. I cant explain it anymore than that. Right now i feel like nothings worth aticking around for. Leans music is all i got. Its the only thing that helps me get thru. KZbin world, whever is reading this, just know drugs are never the answer. The culture we subscribe to, the pain you may be going through will not go away thru drug use..All it does is make things worse, far worse. Ive disappointed everyone and forever i will live with that fact.

[@michaell4836]

its never to late to succeed in life. keep pushing no matter what will come and life will reward u, Im also in a fucked up situation currently and its so hard to find reasons to keep going but there are reasons for anyone of us, we may dont see them right now.

[@brandonp.9371]

“I adore You, The sound of your skin” Who would have thought Lean had it like that. For some reason this is my favorite song right now and probably the best of his catalogue. Dope

[@vojtechamenhotep2331]

you know when YL takes it seriously when category is Music not science and technology anymore

[@dropdedgothish]

It's been three years since this song dropped and I still cry every time I play this song.

[@PF3F427]

2014 I discovered Yung Lean through my best friend, and we listened to it all the way up to the end. In 2021 he died of a fentanyl overdose. This song is a perfect representation of my feelings towards the situation, all else is up to God.

[@jichee2892]

I just found this song 4 years late, makes me think of so many things I’ve been sleeping on, I feel like I live under a rock and I can’t lift it up

[@kafoby8732]

For real. I found this song late last year and wished I had heard it a long time ago.

[@yungsida739]

this song makes me sad, but that is the beauty of it

[@AkatoshMount]

go fuck yourself with this pic nigga

[@doh5547]

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[@rarefiction4690]

take a pill and go to sleep, im chasing witches in the street, im the last page in ur book, cant write a song only do hooks, watching horses in the fields, the dragon rests in agony, when im afraid i lose my mind, its fine it happens all the time, when im afraid i lose my mind, its fine it happens all the time, isolation caved in, i adore u, the sound of ur skin so many lies that i found, lord, heaven, i stick to the ground, so many times i realise, what i seek for is right in front of my eyes, im alone in a hole in the ground, a theatre of dogs is still around, my furniture has come alive, im dancing with a candlestick tonight, flying kites reaping outside my window, smiles with fright isolation caved in, i adore u the sound of ur skin, isolation caved in, i adore u the sound of ur skin, isolation caved in, i adore u the sound of ur skin

[@myriboyuuhen1295]

thx

[@kacakvid2177]

When Im Afraid I Lose My Mind Its fine it happen all the time

[@dwimplepeen]

I didn’t think someone named Yung lean could make my brain feel this way

[@jpegyahir]

He's not named Lean because of the drink, his real name is Jonathan Leandoer

[@AxelWalters]

damn.. been listening to this song every day for weeks.. :( still gets me

[@priscillachurcher9486]

Axel Walters same

[@xf47r65]

Real recognize Real 🌊🌊🌊

[@Foulondu75]

still gets me to this day and i listen to it since the day it came out hahaha

[@angelnj1755]

333 likes bro

[@levitating-phonkster]

leans music will always hit 2 times harder now after the documentary.

[@SW-fk3rb]

Fuck this actually made me cry , wasnt expecting it

[@hi_its_maggie7259]

S CW same

[@AUSTINEADESHAZER]

Me too

[@kiar444]

used to listen to this while I met my first love, it brings me so much memories ❤️ Now we’re far and I miss him so much.

[@MrTwarzowy]

Don't care if anybody gon' read this but.. damn I just need to say this. Lean has changed, and I find this amazing. That's finally an album about Leandoer. And this song is written perfectly. See how he describes his drug abuse and paranoia connected with it in the first verse, and the second is about his feelings? There's also a girl hidden in this song. Jonatan loves her, but is aware of a destructive influence he can have on her. It's the reason for him being isolated and dancing with a candle. I'm literally crying listening to this song. Stranger is perfect, it's real. I'm so hyped for the concert in two weeks, gonna cry there, cya Lean

[@daliacharkaoui436]

cried to ur comment lol

[@aldo3029]

@@daliacharkaoui436 i did too bro

[@Andres-ip5so]

Listening to this song in a cold afternoon while riding the metro and looking at the sunset, makes things different.

[@jabluerodriguez5379]

Fuck its been 3 years already? I remember laying in my bed on the warm summer night with my window open looking outside just tripping to this song and thinking about life. Makes me miss the old times

[@whyarurannin4918]

I lost my grandmother 1 year ago, leukemia, this song just reminds me of her because she had a perfect and soft skin even at last years…

[@rumpelstiltskin9729]

I want to cry.