Enlightenment is not enough

[@jonashjerpe7421]

Perhaps you guys should distinguish between awakening and full blown enlightenment. The latter presumes that most of your stuff is convertes into light.

[@robbiepeterh]

“You have become a fake.” True words spoken. Thank you 🙏

[@alankuntz6494]

i would not even say you have had any meaningful awakening until you have understood any of this.

[@ovidiudrobota2182]

Thank you! 🙏"Why am I socially anxious?" is a question I'm often asking. I've been meditating since 2018 and I succeded in attaining enlightenment. I'm able to maintain total awareness without having thoughts, but when it comes to my emotions, I have leftovers of negative emotions that occur when I'm about to meet people - it is an anxious feeling in my stomach area and my heart rate increases exponentially. I don't react when a negative emotion arises; I feel it deeply without acting on it, and then I allow the emotion to subside at its own pace. I've been doing that for about three years now but my egoic leftovers are still within me. Is there a way to transform my emotional center into feeling confident in social situations? P.S: I grew up in a dysfunctional family. My father was a violent alcoholic and my mother was stressed, emotionally distant, and depressed.

[@Rithmy]

Our body sometimes are very good at remembering such situations. Especially if its a vulnerability that lies at or near the core of our ego. Depending on how strong this emotion is there are different ways. Sometimes it is a good way to transform the negative emotion into an positive emotion of equal energylevel. For example, it slowly tried to turn my anxious feeling when having an job interview into a feeling of neutral/positive exicitement. I reinterpreted the energy as something that drives me and motivates me. When going for stronger emotions this usually does not work. I I would say that in your case a mix of reinterpreting your past and building up on your current attachment schema could be a way. Also it is good to be aware of your self-beliefs like "people generally find me ugly" or something like that. Try to make experiences that contradict those beliefs. Try to make good experiences. If its such a deep wound it may never heal, because it was a part of your way towards how you are now. One good question is to ask yourself: "What good did this social anxiety do to me?" At first it sounds like a mocking question, but there always is a upside. There is a reason why you implemented that strategy. There is also a reason why you want to change it.

[@chrisgrodzki4450]

Beautiful

[@Zenways_zen]

Thank you