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@Sumac44 Ай бұрын
Yeah, this explains why I’m agitated after a session and then binge eat on pizza just to calm down. Whew!!! I’m stuffed right now 😅 But it’s been 15 days, so hopefully I’ll adapt and be “normal” in 21 days 😂
@DestinysMusings Ай бұрын
Haha I forgot about this episode. 😂 Pizza is a good binge!
@shanapunua7347 Ай бұрын
I’m so happy I found you!! I start my first treatment today. I’m most worried that I’ll be the one that it doesn’t work for. I’m trying to go into it with positive thoughts of it will be healing for me. Thank you for your videos❤️🥰🙏🏻
@DestinysMusings Ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing! I felt the same way. Fear is normal. Try to hang in there as everyone's experience is totally different. You might not notice anything for awhile but then all of a sudden realize, hey, it's working! I've heard many things from many people. Please keep me posted on your progress! I'll be thinking of you and very curious how it goes!! And thanks for the sweet words :)
@Sumac44 Ай бұрын
I’m 10 days in and it feels like I’ve been doing it for 10 months 😅 Getting up every day feels like such a huge lift even though it’s for about 2 hours (getting washed, dressed, there & back, and treated). I’m like “how do humans have the energy to function on a daily basis?”😅 Of course it doesn’t help that I’m an introvert with social anxiety. 😅 Overall I think TMS is heading in the right direction. I have another question. For me I’m not really sure what successful outcome is supposed to feel like. I’ve been dealing with depression and trauma since childhood, so not really sure what “happiness” is supposed to feels like - though I know it’s different for each individual. But from your post-TMS perspective, how would you describe “happiness”? Is it just the absence of sadness or is it a feeling of contentment or relief?
@DestinysMusings Ай бұрын
@@Sumac44 this is such a great question! I am pondering a good answer :) Stay tuned!
@DestinysMusings Ай бұрын
Ok, so...I TOTALLY get what you're saying. I struggled with the same thing. Like, how do I know what happy is?! It's so hard, and I think it varies from person to person. I definitely went through a phase where I thought happiness was the "absence" of sadness. Then I had the phase where it was, "Ok, I don't feel like the world is ending!" It's very tricky to describe. And I think it's something that you can curate for yourself. What I can say is that with TMS, I had days where I realized...Oh, wow, I feel very different, and THIS must be what happiness is! So, instead of trying to find "happy," try to notice when days feel remarkably different. I think people who have struggled with happiness might not even know what it is when it's staring them in the face. I've been going through a lot of changes lately, and for me now, happiness is not actually an absence of sadness or worry. On days I feel sad, I try to think of things I'm grateful for, and that sense of gratitude seems to be what I currently call, "happy." Hope this helps. Ask me in a week and I might have a different answer, haha!
@Sumac44 Ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings Ahhhh I see. Yes, this makes sense. I’m glad it can be manifested or accessed in different ways as the intensity of depression lessens. This is very helpful. Thanks so much for sharing your time and experience.
@Sumac44 2 ай бұрын
So this upcoming Monday will be my first TMS session. It’ll be navigated TMS using a brain MRI, so I’m excited and nervous, but I’m looking forward to the 36 sessions. I did have a question about your experience with TMS and your musical abilities. Do you feel TMS has made it easier or better for your musical performance? I’ve struggled with the procedural memory aspect of learning as it relates to severe depression, yet I’ve been passionate about trying to learn the piano. I’m hoping TMS will lift the fog so that learn better in general.
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
This is a really great question, and I’d like to take some time to think thoughtfully of my answer. I’ve put a note on my phone and will write more, soon. So happy for you!
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
Ok…actually I don’t need that much time to ponder it because the answer is clear: because TMS helped with my depression, I feel like it has made my musical performance even better. While TMS technically doesn’t help with anxiety, I feel as though-since my anxiety is born out of my depression-it has helped. So nerves and anxiousness that can get in the way of musical performance/memory have been alleviated (not all, of course!) For me, it has been helpful and positive. We’re all different, of course. I’d love to hear about your experience with it!
@Sumac44 2 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings Thanks so much for the reply. I totally agree as my anxiety is closely related to my depression too. This makes so much more sense to me now. I’ll keep you posted.
@bogse 2 ай бұрын
I comment somethihing which make make some angry but this is how I see it: 1. Type I diabetes is a decease and if they dont take their insulin they die. 2. Alcohol or any other CNS drug: If "higher power" would make world/people so that no matter what ever you take you cant get drunk/high. What happens? Worse case alcoholics die to withdrawal symptoms so does some drug addicts. Some make suicide since they cant handle life sober. Most people would continue their life sober and would start to get better and better physically and mentally. So how can something be a decease when you do absolutely nothing to it (since nothing gets you drunk/high anymore) you start to feel better and better. Yes all those CNS staff change your brain chemistry and in worst case destroy your brain so that you cant walk anymore etc. then you have a brain decease, Korsakov-Wernicke syndrome etc. But was you alcohol/drug abuse a decease. My answer is if it was a decease it was a mental decease or lack of willpower, lack of controlling your own life which are mental issues/decease. It is physical decease in a sense that in extreme cases you cant just quit cold turkey or you die so alcohol is a drug yo uhave to take or you die (or some replacement life benzos). And of course in pretty bad drug cases its never wise to try to quit cold turkey but possible if you have really strong willpower and pain tolerance etc. People working with alcoholics get angry if I say its not a decease. I say really, did you figure that your yourself or read from a book or what. Yes they look Foccking sick but how come they start to feel better and better (in the long run) when they quit their drug of choice, what kind of sickness is that?? But I say nothing these days since they get so red Im afraid their head explodes with a force creating a black hole and we dont want that.
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
Thanks so much for your comment and point of view! I welcome hearing everyone's opinion! The best thing we can do is talk about it.
@Sumac44 2 ай бұрын
I love you’re trying to destigmatize mental illness. This is my life goal because it’s so painfully exhausting hiding in the shadows, walking on eggshells to avoid making others uncomfortable, feeling like a leper. You’re doing wonderful work!
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
Thank you for this comment! It also makes my day :) "Painfully exhausting hiding in the shadows." YES! No wonder I was so tired for so many years, haha!
@jonathanwingmusic 2 ай бұрын
Thanks for this! I am sorry to hear that about your parents. I lost my dad a few years ago to a different kind of drug, an eating addiction that eventually shut down his liver and heart. While not exactly the same, I can understand what it's like to see a family member slowly kill themselves with a substance. I myself struggled from my 20s-early 30s with alcohol abuse as a way to cope with my anxiety and depression - what started as a harmless time spent partying with friends eventually took me down a dark path where I found I needed it every day to just calm my nerves; it was really scary and I remember getting to a crossroads where I felt hopeless, but realizing I needed to do something before it would become too late. I'm almost 5 years sober now and I don't miss it one bit. With all the extra money and free time saved from not drinking I started learning cello - an instrument I always wanted to learn but never made the time when I was younger. I have no lofty goals other than to enjoy the process. It's been really therapeutic and meditative to feel the vibrations against my body from this instrument which is connected to me, and to also give myself something productive to work toward which is simply so satisfying and rewarding - so much better than getting drunk. I still struggle with anxiety and depression here and there but my coping skills are a lot better now that I have replaced them with something positive. Music is love, music is healing! 🎻❤🩹 This too is a topic which is obviously very close to me and I have nothing but love and sympathy for those who struggle with substance abuse and depression - whatever shape it takes. I look forward to your Wellness Wednesdays series - I think it's awesome and important to have these discussions and use music to heal hearts and minds as it has the power to do. Thank you!
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
Thanks for your kind comment and for sharing your story, too. Good for you for doing better! That's so wonderful. Also, super cool that you're diving into cello. I love that. Do you feel like the music has helped you the most with depression?
@jonathanwingmusic 2 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings Thank you! Indeed, I have played music my entire life - piano and drums mostly (from a more rock/pop background) - but learning a traditional string instrument and studying classical has been a totally different experience, but I love it because the challenges have also provided great joy and satisfaction when I overcome them. But in any case, music has always been there for me and now that I don't abuse any substances, when I feel at my lowest, just grabbing the cello, or any instrument really, is a way to quiet my mind, meditate on the nature of sound. Sometimes I will just do slow open bows with my eyes closed, even that has a way of making my anxieties melt away and still my mind. I've also been learning to sing, I am not that great but feeling the vibration in my chest while singing along to songs I love has been a surprising type of therapy and connection to something deeper than ourselves. Anyway long way of saying that yes - music has helped me more than anything else in this world, and I always want to share that with others too! ❤🩹
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
@@jonathanwingmusic so that is super wonderful! OMG, if ONLY I get could my students to practice slow bows on open strings! lol. This is really wonderful to hear. I'd love to hear more about your journey if you're willing to share!
@jonathanwingmusic 2 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings haha it's funny you say that about the open bows, not sure if it's something that has come with age having played music my entire life - but nowadays I really like slow and simple practice methods, which is a crazy contrast to years ago. Growing up playing piano, it was all about trying to rip out crazy fast scales and arpeggios! Virtuosity, speed, and complexity - the faster and crazier the better! I would practice to a metronome but it was always sooo hard to be patient. Now that I'm older, perhaps supposedly "wiser," I actually enjoy playing things more slowly and savoring even the simplest of things. I would say Arvo Pärt's music which I discovered "later" has had a profound impact on me in this regard, since his music is typically very slow and all about savoring simplicity and finding the beauty within that. So on cello, slow open bows for me has been something like a meditating with the sound of a mantra - the long, slow simplicity and repetition of vibration. Maybe that makes me weird lol, but it has really helped a person like me who has historically been very hyperactive and anxious to just slow down, learn to be patient with myself, and enjoyyy the process. ;) Also another thing I forgot to mention is that in the world of rock/pop musicians, I feel like substance use and abuse is fairly common and comes with the territory - drinking before the show to calm your nerves, drinking after the show to come down from the cliff, drinking/smoking in the studio or practice room to relax and "get creative" - it's almost a stereotype, but it's so real that people do it at every show and practice without thinking. It's almost like that community doesn't know how to create without a substance. I would love to change mindsets around the creative process - the idea that we *need* a substance to relax and create is B.S. - maybe it can help in moderation but I truly believe from my own experience that the deepest creativity and insights come from the universe and within ourselves just as we are - and this source is INFINITE if we allow it to be ❤🩹 Apologies for rambling ;)
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
@@jonathanwingmusichey I am sorry for the belated reply! KZbin is not great at sharing notifications. I love everything you’ve said here-Lots to ponder and think about re substance abuse and creativity. As far as slow bows go, some of my favorite practice days are those with a metronome seeing just for how many clicks I can draw out the bow! 😆
@Sumac44 2 ай бұрын
This is the wholesome and transparent content KZbin needs more of. Thank you for sharing this series over the years. 💯👏🏽🤗
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
Thank you! This comment makes my day <3
@GabrielComposer 2 ай бұрын
Fellow composer here and Christian. I see this jealousy all over the composers of today. It’s no longer about beauty and the audience and those who are listening it’s all about YOU as a composer and YOUR abilities and how YOU can SHOCK. There’s no more melodies bc melodies are “from older eras weve outgrown” I genuinely don’t like contemporary music BUT I’m willing to listen to it and try and understand it rather than brush it off bc I don’t like it. Everyone deserves to compose as they please. Many people tell me as a romantic composer that I can’t compose romantic music bc it’s not experimental and bc I’m just a pastiche and that I belong in the film music industry. But those are all lies. There’s a large audience for what I enjoy composing and I want that audience to have that. Anyways hope you read this haha. If you’re interested my compositions are on my YT and don’t feel obligated to listen if you don’t want to.
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
@@GabrielComposer hey thanks for your comment! I appreciate it! I will definitely check your music out!!
@nicolemcgowan4810 3 ай бұрын
I begin TMS this week. Your videos were very beneficial.
@DestinysMusings 3 ай бұрын
Please let me know how it goes!!! Sending you positive vibes!!
@Sumac44 3 ай бұрын
Thanks for the helpful info. I have a consult next week. I’m looking forward to trying rTMS, but it’s basically my last hope.
@DestinysMusings 3 ай бұрын
Keep me posted!! Is love to hear how it goes. Hang in there!!
@Sumac44 2 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings So I met with a neurologist and psychiatrist for the TMS consult. They mentioned they have a 40-60% success rate, which I’m fine with because it’s better than nothing-which is what I have now. There’s a wait list but I should be able to start the beginning of September once the insurance approves it. So I’m looking forward to it. My hope is that I can finally get the motivation and energy to get out of bed, clean my room in order, start working out, make healthy eating habits, and be motivated enough for classes. I know it’s not a silver bullet, I just need to get my life back - or basically the life I never had. However, I just hope it doesn’t increase my anxiety like adderall does.
@Sumac44 2 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings Well, week one is done. I’m not really sure what I feel. I sleep often but it’s broken up sleep, yet I go back to sleep without any problems. So that’s good. I have a weird kinda energy, not nervous, not happy, just impulsive if that makes sense. My mood is still depressed but not completely hopeless. So thats good. But overall I think something is working. ☺️
@Sumac44 2 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings I went shopping and cooked some food today, which I haven’t done in months. I hope I can get into the habit of it. ☺️
@DestinysMusings 2 ай бұрын
@@Sumac44I remember my very first week!!! I had this kind of buzzing energy that I couldn’t make sense of…it’s different for everyone, of course, as our individual biochemistry is so unique. Please keep me posted! Thinking positive thoughts for you!!
@dogukan127 3 ай бұрын
what abou the sleep? I wake up constantly at night and I too have these dysautonomia problems. My isssue more panic-anxiety compared to depression. And constant sleepeness is a major factor.
@DestinysMusings 3 ай бұрын
@@dogukan127 I think everyone responds differently. My depression was definitely a contributing factor-So my sleep improved as my depression did! There’s a great online course with the VA (called SleepEZ) that helps with insomnia!
@taylorrudowski2601 4 ай бұрын
you are a rockstar, thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@DestinysMusings 3 ай бұрын
@@taylorrudowski2601 yay! Thanks! Funny what we have to do, isn’t it?
@bogse 4 ай бұрын
Wait a minute, was Beethoven deaf whole his life, when composing, or just late in his life?
@DestinysMusings 4 ай бұрын
He wasn’t always deaf-Lost his hearing later in his life/composing
@bogse 4 ай бұрын
I was years in thearte (actor) and the same jealousy ego thing is there probably arounf the world. Its so toxic atmosphere that I havent regret ever that I left it. I cant even imagine how hellish it would be to be there still. There are few winners and others are trash, maybe I was more on the winning side but I just hated the competition and sick atmosphere. I feel sorry those guys 20 something wanting to be an actor/actress, they dont have a clue what they are getting into. But when you are 20 you possible cant know much about anything and you feel immortal and forever young anyway. Not sure if you have read a short book of meaning of life which I think lead to Logotherapy (Logo means meaning I guess), Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. I personally dont feel I have any meaning but I was really close to death in beginning of the year, suffocating, something stuck in my throat and I started passing out, couldnt vomit it out, nothing, then I somehow took a bottle of water and poured it in my throat and it all went down, I could see and accepted I die now. I was alone in hotel room any no one was coming there. Few days after there was a lady in jetski accident at the sea with big waves (Thailand), she couldnt swim and she got into water and I could see the horror in her eyes watching me crying for help and that moment I left as fast as I could. Im former competitive swimmer and decent freediver and played with much bigger waves so I didnt hesitate and basically I dont care if Im dead or alive. Anyway I got her the to beach and she thanked and I went to my place and after adrenaline was gone I just cried and cried and that was the only thing I could think for the next few days. Why I cried for days, everything ended well. I guess it was since for that moment I felt worthwhile and also I couldnt help thinking was it this accident that I didnt suffocate, that was I meant to stay alive to save her. Who knows if it was a part of some bigger picture, bigger entity, bigger force causing it if you will. When you live without a purpose its hard and I have no idea of my meaning of life but in that moment I sure was worthwhile. Life is really strange and there is no way one should give up even its so hard often times.
@DestinysMusings 4 ай бұрын
Hi! Sorry for my belated response! I am just now seeing this. My YT notifications don’t seem to work well. This is a really incredible story. You definitely were worthwhile to save that person. Wow! Thank you for sharing this. I appreciate your candid honesty.
@bogse 4 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings Its ok, you are not obligated to answer, thank you =) And yea of course I do care if Im dead or alive, some bad days you just say things you dont really mean. My youtube has had some errors too not showing new messages. I think Im too much overthinker, which Ive heard before but its hard to change it. Ive always thoguth most people are underthinker and thats why they behave so rude or weird.I sometimes went through a long thinking/philosphical process and didnt find anything someone could benefit in the long term for being rude, abusive etc. So I had hard time undertand why some people behave like that. But there are sociopaths, narcissistic personality disorder or narcissitic character trait too much, pschopaths etc and most of all Underthinkers, haha.
@DestinysMusings 4 ай бұрын
@@bogse underthinker is a GREAT word!
@bogse 4 ай бұрын
That was good.
@DestinysMusings 4 ай бұрын
Thank you!!
@viesuwito 5 ай бұрын
Too bad TMS doesn’t help my insomnia. It made me so sleepy (for which I don’t need help with), to the point I can’t function during the day.
@DestinysMusings 5 ай бұрын
Thanks for your comment and I’m sorry to hear that! Maybe your providers can adjust the settings or figure out something to help you. I’m sorry you’re struggling! I hadn’t heard of that before!
@michellekwik2907 4 ай бұрын
So you had TMS and it did not help your insomnia but made you sleepy? I am going to try it for insomnia. I sleep 0 to 6 hours a night, it is horrible.
@DestinysMusings 4 ай бұрын
@@michellekwik2907 I wouldn’t say TMS made me sleepy. I would say that as depression got better I was able to relax more, and well…That made me sleepy….finally!
@Kaylajackson-mh2yg 5 ай бұрын
i'm experiencing a dip right now after 4 weeks of treatment and nothing has worked so this gave me some hope that it's the start of something great even if it sucks
@DestinysMusings 5 ай бұрын
Hang in there and let me know how you progress! TMS is different for everyone, so don’t lose hope!
@markswenor1230 5 ай бұрын
Thank you, I am coming out of the dip. I'm now on my 5th week. The dip was horrible but I'm just about through it. I'm hoping this week makes positive changes like I felt the 3rd week. Thank you for your videos.
@DestinysMusings 5 ай бұрын
Thanks for your comment and for stopping by! Hang in there. It’s so different for everyone and hopefully you will start feeling better very soon! Lmk!
@propbraker 3 ай бұрын
How are you doing? Hope all is well.
@DestinysMusings 3 ай бұрын
@@propbrakerthanks I’m great!
@propbraker 3 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings that’s nice to hear!
@Laxexp 6 ай бұрын
You are adorable 😊.I am thinking about getting tms treatment.
@DestinysMusings 6 ай бұрын
Good luck! Lmk how it goes!!
@sanketbojewar5398 6 ай бұрын
Hey can you please help me?
@DestinysMusings 6 ай бұрын
I hope my videos help!
@iimo7x_810 6 ай бұрын
i can understand from your experience that depression in remission in both these two rounds and first round last two years ?
@DestinysMusings 6 ай бұрын
I think “remission” means different things to different people who suffer from depression. If you’re thinking “cure,” I wouldn’t necessarily say that, but, if you’re thinking “is it better,” then yes. TMS had made it better!
@lynnev9781 7 ай бұрын
I will start tms next week. I'm scared it won't work for me and I willmwaste so much time and resources.. I have to drive one hour each way to the hospital where they provide it everyday Monday to Friday
@DestinysMusings 7 ай бұрын
Hi, Lynnev! I can definitely understand being scared it won’t work. Just hang in there and try and believe in it. If you don’t, your chances for success may not be as high-Positive thinking really does work. I get that’s easier said than done. Definitely talk about your fears with the technicians and doctors. They can help a lot and their job is to communicate with you. Keep me posted on how it’s going. If I can be of help, lmk!
@DestinysMusings 7 ай бұрын
Thanks for writing and for your kind words! I think many people struggle with depression and anxiety, and it’s very brave of you to try and heal! Thank you for sharing. I wish you the best of luck! Lmk how your treatment goes!!
@FrithjofKlepp 7 ай бұрын
Thank you! I will leave a note afterwards. 😊
@seanleechild 7 ай бұрын
Are you shifting up with only finger 4 or fingers 3 4?
@DestinysMusings 7 ай бұрын
Thanks for the question! In this exercise I am actually shifting with the 3 first, and then placing the four after it. The four is technically moving along with the 3, but three is leading (also known as “old finger” shift). What experiences are you having?
@seanleechild 7 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings I heard that finger three and four are on the same ligament, so strengthening either strengthens the other? I'm primarily self-taught. Please enjoy, subscribe and critique my violin playing. youtube.com/@seanleechild Thanks!
@seanleechild 7 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings do you teach? Can you help me? What's your email? Please enjoy, subscribe and critique my violin playing. youtube.com/@seanleechild Thanks!
@DestinysMusings 7 ай бұрын
Any work you do to strengthen the 4 is great for the whole hand!
@seanleechild 7 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings I'm seeking a good teacher. Please enjoy, subscribe and critique my violin playing. youtube.com/@seanleechild Thanks!
@FrithjofKlepp 7 ай бұрын
Thanks for giving such an sophisticated and deep insight into your brave struggle! And your anti-stigma approach! I will have rTMS the first time in about three works. My journey to get back to a life with feelings and stability longs about 30 years now. Last year I did ECT, from my view far too strong, if you´re not in a good "environment" or network. I also did lots of meds and now starting my fifth therapy. One part of me already getting stronger is based on stepping up my sports game. Running, workout and Karate. I really hope, that rTMS will give my brain " a break" and relief...
@seanleechild 7 ай бұрын
I like your insights. Please enjoy, subscribe and critique my violin playing. youtube.com/@seanleechild Thanks!
@seanleechild 7 ай бұрын
Please enjoy, subscribe and critique my violin playing. youtube.com/@seanleechild Thanks!
@chriswalker3187 8 ай бұрын
Hello, As a musician suffering from bipolar disorder myself, I was wondering if the results of your second round of this therapy method have remained effective since the posting of this video? I've received countless cocktails of psychiatric medications and therapy methods since 4th grade, as I'm nearly 40 now, for me nothing has ever remained effective long term. I hope it's different for you. My second question is when you get to your low points are you still able to get yourself to practice violin? If so what do you practice? I find it's hard to function enough to practice at these low points, however as violin is my newest musical conquest, I don't want to lose the progress I've made due to my mental illness. Any insight would be appreciated, thanks
@DestinysMusings 8 ай бұрын
Hey! Sorry to hear about your struggles, but it’s really inspiring to see a fellow musician so openly talk about them! I would say that overall the 2nd treatment has been more effective. I still seem to follow the pattern of dipping around this time of year, but, it is not as bad. I am considering what to do next. But to answer your question, yes, it is more effective. I’m not sure how effective TMS is with bipolar, though. Only your doctor can tell you that. I have heard that there could be contraindications. Hm, getting myself to practice at low points. Well, a lot of times my livelihood depends on it, so even when I am really, really, down, I have been able to get myself to play-This is not without “practice,” though. I used to have a really hard time. Through trial and error I learned that if I just get up and DO IT, then the motivation and desire to do more follows-It’s hard, though. I basically have trained myself to see practicing (when I feel this way) as something that can potentially make me feel better. Call it old-fashioned mind-over-matter…it has worked! Hope this helps. I think you’ve just got to try anything and everything to find what works for you. Sending hugs! I should do a video update about your questions-I’m sure other people would like to know, too. Thank you!
@chriswalker3187 8 ай бұрын
@DestinysMusings That's kind of the approach I've been taking towards practicing at my low points also. I don't and have no intention of using music as a profession, but it is a great outlet for expression and it may seem contradictory, but listening to sad music while I'm down is cathartic. It seems less lonely and isolating to listen and realize others went or are going through similar situations and mindsets. Also I've found structure and routine help give a since of control of my life. It's very important to identify what things trigger depressive episodes as well, for example certain situations or other outsider influences that inhibit your perceived happiness or success. I try not to watch most news sources as they seem to feed off of creating fear and unrest about things I can't control. I think your non profit is a good thing for the people you're working with, but also for you. Helping others can give a since of purpose when you're having problems helping yourself. Well, that's enough of my unsolicited advice for now. I hope you continue to find more things that work for you. I thought you might benefit from know what's "working" for me. Have a good day
@DestinysMusings 8 ай бұрын
@@chriswalker3187 thank you for sharing! It’s always wonderful to hear from fellow humans who can empathize with the difficulties of life, though I empathize with you and your suffering. But openly talking about it and sharing your advice means you’re way ahead of the game than most. Thank you for sharing!!
@DestinysMusings 8 ай бұрын
Yay!!!
@Chrisedgson 8 ай бұрын
Thanks for this video..I just started TMS treatment and I was wondering about drinking while taking the treatment. I haven’t drank yet but I plan on it for the Super Bowl. My doctor said it was ok to have a couple but It’s nice seeing someone with actual experience. :)
@DestinysMusings 8 ай бұрын
You bet! I hope you enjoyed the Super Bowl :) Let me know how your TMS treatment turns out!!
@Chrisedgson 8 ай бұрын
I will..I’ve done one week so far and it feels great. I have High hopes for this treatment. :)
@DestinysMusings 8 ай бұрын
Yay!!
@Chrisedgson 8 ай бұрын
Hey there, I completed the whole treatment last week as I was doing the Theta burst option where they give you three sessions a day. Anyways I think it has helped out tremendously with my depression and anxiety, i feel amazing, better than I’ve felt in a long long time. I just wanted to let you know how well it’s working for me!!:))…hope you’re doing well!.
@DestinysMusings 8 ай бұрын
@@Chrisedgson thanks so much for letting me know this! I am really glad to hear it :) Wonderful news! I wish you continued healing and joy. Yay!!!
@chriswalker3187 9 ай бұрын
I appreciate your channel addressing mental health in artist. I'm a multi-instrumentalist with bipolar disorder. Progression as an artist comes with enough challenges and mental health can be a daily exercise of pushing a boulder up a mountain, sometimes up a cliff. I do believe however, some of the best music is born from inner turmoil
@DestinysMusings 9 ай бұрын
Hey there! Thanks for your comment! You are definitely on to something! We definitely know creativity and emotion! I’m sorry for your struggles. I hope you can get relief!!!
@chrishustles94 9 ай бұрын
In the process of getting a referral from my doctor for tms therapy, really hoping this treatment works. Tired of mental health issues ruining my life.
@DestinysMusings 9 ай бұрын
Hang in there and keep me posted! I’m hopeful for you!!
@DestinysMusings 7 ай бұрын
Hey have you had any luck?
@garrydhillon5723 4 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings when did you start noticing its affect last week I was a good but negative starts coming back this weekend, I just finished treatment 11 today
@DestinysMusings 4 ай бұрын
@@garrydhillon5723 it was different for me each time. At first, I thought I noticed right away. Then I had a big dip before things got better. This last round I didn’t start feeling better til the very end. Maybe you’re experiencing the common “TMS Dip!” Sending you positive vibes!
@garrydhillon5723 4 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings thank you so much for your quick reply, I really hope tms works for me. How many rounds of treatment have you done if you dont mind me asking
@lucasabellico8608 9 ай бұрын
Ciao,ti interessa fare un duetto?
@DestinysMusings 9 ай бұрын
thanks for asking! I am several projects behind right now so no time! 😅 All the best!
@lucasabellico8608 9 ай бұрын
Ciao😊😊😊
@DestinysMusings 9 ай бұрын
Hi!
@lucasabellico8608 9 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings chi andrebbe di suonare insieme?
@DestinysMusings 9 ай бұрын
@@lucasabellico8608 thanks for asking! I am several projects behind right now so no time! 😅 All the best!
@DestinysMusings 9 ай бұрын
@@lucasabellico8608 thanks for asking! I am several projects behind right now so no time! 😅 All the best!
@lucasabellico8608 9 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings ok,ti ringrazio lo stesso 😉
@JakeHalfDone 9 ай бұрын
😂 Love it!
@DestinysMusings 9 ай бұрын
Thank you!!! 😂
@Albrecht_von_Preussen 9 ай бұрын
👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻
@acmedata 10 ай бұрын
My experience wit TMS is that it worked ... for about 2 weeks. I've had TMS treatments twice in 5 years, and same result both times.
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
Thanks for your comment! I wonder what it would be like a third time? My experience is that it works better each time. Maybe you have very stubborn depression like me?
@acmedata 10 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings - possibly. I have recently been told there may be some other factors (bipolar) that are at play. I will know more in the coming weeks!
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
Keep me posted! Good luck!
@acmedata 10 ай бұрын
@@DestinysMusings - by the way ... I went through Ketamine therapy and an ayahuasca ceremony. Both yielded the same result as TMS for me. My therapist told me, "Wow, your mind is like a fortress. It won't crack when you launch powerful therapies at it."
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
@@acmedatawow! That’s incredible. I’ve been curious to learn about those other therapies.
@googlewhackthis 10 ай бұрын
Picking up the violin as an adult, and soon to have a teacher. But I'm also going a bit rogue and want to get a jump on learning vibrato (perhaps too early for me to even try). But this has been the clearest video I've seen on the subject, so thank you. When you say "backwards motion" do you mean the finger returning towards yourself, or towards the neck of the violin?
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
Thanks so much for your comment and congrats on starting! When I say backwards motion, I am referring to the motion towards the scroll/next. That’s a great question and I see how it could be confusing!
@CC-hl5zj 10 ай бұрын
Happy New Year!!!
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
Thank you! You too. I appreciate the comment :-)
@friarpesel5646 10 ай бұрын
Happy New Year! 🎉❤
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
Happy New Year to you, too! Thanks for stopping by and saying hi :-)
@HeadlessUkePlayer 10 ай бұрын
Just discovered your channel. You are a beautiful lady. Realised the violin stuff stopped a while back. I was lost in this performance. Thank you! 🙏
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
Thanks for your comment!! This was a fun request! :)
@wewatchmovies4446 10 ай бұрын
Only a sith deals in absolutes! - obi wan kenobi. Couldn't help myself. Thanks for the vid
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
No absolutes here! HAHA
@georgecastro181 11 ай бұрын
I’m so happy I found your channel Destiny! My daughter is 22 years old and has struggled with depression since she was 14 years old! On Monday, December 4, 2023, she started TMS treatment! I’m praising God because she’s already starting to feel much better!🙏🙏🙏
@DestinysMusings 11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for your kind message! Sorry for my belated reply. I’m SO happy to hear that your daughter is having a positive experience with TMS. Please check back in and let me know how the treatment is going. She can feel free to reach out to me with any questions, too!
@Swan-rb4yg 11 ай бұрын
I'm coming in on the end of this and seeing this last treatment first, but I can't believe that somebody who was truly depressed could have started filming this in had the energy to document it.. write about it, maybe, but my depth of depression it's not even being able to go out of the house, much less film myself for the world. We shall see.
@DestinysMusings 11 ай бұрын
Hi! Thanks for your comment. Depression is very different for everyone. I have been through it several times, and feel it is my obligation to share with the world my story to help others who may be suffering. I’m so sorry you are suffering. I have been there. I hope you can find treatments and relief.
@maxwellhowig510 Жыл бұрын
Cute kitten-kaboodle!
@DestinysMusings 10 ай бұрын
Meow! :)
@stevenkovler5133 Жыл бұрын
What worries me is that you are very functional . I feel especially on the weekends that I just want to lay around and do nothing.. I am Becoming less Functional! I did have 5 sessions on TMS so far. My issue is my anxiety it is killing me ! I took a Xanax this morning and ended up having a crazy dream and I woke up in a panic …. My mornings are always bad.. loaded with cortisol and the fight or flight response. A lot of it is that I developed ptsd from an abusive marriage to a narcissistic woman. She completely broke me and financially I am broke . I have been told to exercise ( which I did for 30 years, before this kicked in). If the TMS does not work, I am going to try ECT… something has to work.
@DestinysMusings Жыл бұрын
Thanks for your comment! I’m sorry for your struggles. I have definitely had my times of feeling non-functional. I think it’s very different for everyone. I would talk to your doctor and what you’re experiencing with TMS thus far. Everyone reacts differently and they should be able to guide you. Hang in there!
@ItsJonoWong Жыл бұрын
I just got off lexapro for anxiety a couple of days ago but i have an appointment with a neurologist to try get theta burst tms for my middle insomnia (waking up in the middle of the night every night typically after one sleep cycle as shown on my oura ring) Since i have gotten off lexapro recently (have slowly eased off over a month) will there be any major issues if i get tms
@DestinysMusings Жыл бұрын
Hi! That’s a really great question! I think your doctor, hopefully knowing your unique biochemistry, could give you a better idea of what you might expect. I’m not familiar with there being any major issues of going into TMS having come off or going on antidepressants a month ago. My understanding is that when you change something during TMS, your brain will need to be remapped. I think the idea is that they don’t want any major changes during your 36 sessions. But if you’re just getting theta bursts, I’d ask your doctor. I am less familiar with that method. Sorry if this isn’t more helpful!
@ItsJonoWong Жыл бұрын
@@DestinysMusings no worries thanks! i want to get it asap! i feel like my depression and anxiety symptoms are gone but i just struggle stay asleep i wake up multiple times every night and sometimes it takes 30 - 60 mins to fall back asleep whic h drastically reduces my restfulness
@DestinysMusings Жыл бұрын
please let me know how it goes/if it helps!!!
@personman7096 14 күн бұрын
@@ItsJonoWongAny updates
@ItsJonoWong 14 күн бұрын
@@personman7096 sleep has deifnitely gotten better, i've also come to terms it's normal to wake up in the middle of the night and then fall back asleep. The key for me is sleeping early enough so I get 7 - 8 hours of sleep
@stevenkovler5133 Жыл бұрын
I had two treatments , then had to go on a business trip and missed 4 days. Now today I had another treatment. Hopefully I can not go every day , five days a week for the next month. I also know the cause of my depression and anxiety is my almost ended marriage to the worlds biggest female narcissist who financially bankrupt me and caused my depression and anxiety ! I keep thinking if I finish the divorce , cut her out of my life and come up with about $100k , plus TMS and drugs , I would feel healed !
@DestinysMusings Жыл бұрын
I hope it all works out for you!!!
@emilywilhite5807 Жыл бұрын
Ooh you mentioned Kansas. I live in Olathe. Suburb of KC.
@DestinysMusings Жыл бұрын
So cool! We are almost neighbors! Thanks for following my channel :) I appreciate it! It means a lot. Let me know if you have any questions! I plan on making another video soon!