Love love love this. I'm watching this video for the 2nd time but I cannot fully articulate why. Thank you for bringing us along on this part of your journey. We see you. We seeing you choosing yourself and your children. I also know that it's not easy to journey back to yourself (or whatever that looks like) or to admit to your mistakes. We see you here on a journey of acceptance and healing and I know that I'm not the only one who is happy to see you here and now. I cannot wait for the book! I think that a podcast would also be amazing because it would be a platform to interact with the mom's and women with similar stories. So much healing could come from it. Please keep on sharing your journey with us? 🥹

Absolutely loved the white skinny jeans with the cropped sweater on you. I just love watching your healing journey unfolding. From you cutting off your hair off back in 2022, walking away from Antoine, redifing your style.... It's just seeing you choose yourself over and over again. It makes me so happy! 🤗 You're doing so well. Take every day, every month, every season as it comes. I believe that one day you'll look back at pictures and videos and realise that your eyes don't look so sad anymore. You'll look back on your journey and you'll be so proud of how far you've come. You have the most beautiful children and they see you. They see you healing. They see you choosing yourself and thus choosing them. -Love from your biggest cheerleader in South Africa 🌸

I see a sacred geo gold brooch as the pin holding that white sweater bomb closed

I went through this too. The shame about preaching about the system only to need the system. It’s important to have stability and sustainability (for certain of us) to homeschool continuously with love.

“If you can’t spoil one women, why are trying to have more then one”. I’ve never felt comfortable being with a man who has kids especially young children and being any part of the neglect to those kids. I always raise my eyebrows at women who know a man has kids and do not question the situation before engaging further with that man. Deep respect for “once a once a women is a mother they are a queen” 🙏 And ya poly should probably only be explored if that man can sustain financially supporting every woman.

As a professional organizer: your North Star is to have ease when getting ready. If the white pants aren’t a hell yess, get them out of your closet. Yes they are cute, you are cute so you’re going to look cute in everything. That’s not what this is about. You want only the things you absolutely LOVE in your closet. You’re going great, I love this.

your first and this video have me in tears . the way you use your words struck me !! i am a single mom of twin toddlers and met their father under the same circumstances. living fast and seen my kids in a man i barely knew . fast forward im a new mom with two 5 month olds . and this man shared he’s been looking and experimenting with new women for our family LMAO . i already felt so so raw and vulnerable . i trusted him to steer the ship but he went awol instead and expected me to follow . i ran with my kids back to my home state and the blessing were quick . like it was already written and the powers at be were waiting for me to come home . this comment is longer than i anticipated so ill end it here . thank you so much for sharing your story ❤

Watching this with the intention of being in pjs all day, day 1 of my period😂 thank you for the intention here! I love your style! I was your size before having kids, and since becoming a mom, i have a very different body/ weight, and struggle with how to make it work with the sizes available. 3 years since I had my last baby and I still am learning how to coexist in this body. Seeing my 58 yr old mom still dealing with my current challenge is a truth i am learning to gracefully embody, as motherhood is a lifelong journey ❤ the girls' input was so sweet, and your reactions were spot om 😆 would love a kids closet video next! My boys clothing is so overwhelming so would love to see how you go about it!

Your energy is everything! 💖

Who are you telling to shut up? 😅

Love your videos!

The timing of this is really good. I have been wanting to put more effort into my look but it’s hard. In the morning I will start looking through my own clothes Also I always get sad when your videos end lol they have such a cozy vibe to them 💛

You are so pretty, and I love your hair!

I am still shook & saddened by the fact that there are so many distracted "leaders" of families out there thinking they are doing God's work by spreading seeds with no stable foundation. It's actually crazy. I am inspired by your love for your children, love for children in general & your awareness of the needs of your seeds & yourself. at the end of the day it's all about them! the future. truly. Smh to losers truly. Let's all do better! speak the fck up when we feel moved to do so when its needed.

that part. Unless there is already an empire set up. All they do is play through fantasies and illusions in their mind about having more & more yet they can't care for what they have. Its all ego BS.

I remember you posted a video and there was a girl who came to " visit" but she left. I naturally assumed she was there for Antoine, but it seemed you had help with the children while she was there and missed that help once she left.

Sis Our eggs are the seed. Their sperm is the fertilizer.

Hey! Glad to hear your safe. I was previously in your WhatsApp mom chat and I loved connecting with you & like minded mamas. Do you still have that chat?

Thankyou beautiful for opening up about something so real ❤ No offence to anyone but I have noticed a "trend" if we can call it that, with African American/Afro diaspora men having a niche for polygamy. Maybe its a way that they romanticize the type of manhood and access to women that's afforded to African men on the continent. Im Sudanese and come from a polygamous family myself, and from what i've experienced and know it's HORRENDOUS. I don't know one healthy dynamic that hasnt included immense suffering and a boat load of responsibilities for the women and children of these relationships, cos the men don't know how to step up to the role but continue spreading seeds with so much entitlement. You have said things that many mothers in these relationships bury deep in them because of shame and misogynist cultural expectations. Its not easy sis, I understand. The amount of pain and family secrets that come out of polygamy is crazy and most times it goes back to the man being a complete airhead.

this was so brave of you to share and I have so much respect for you for being this vulnerable and honest ❤

We need to build our village and help each other, as women. We want stability, real support from other mothers who understand and want the same safe space for themselves and their children, with or without husbands/boyfriends. I’ve gotten desperate as well and considered many things (including joining the military) just to get away. Just to have me back. I missed myself so much, and when I say that I mean the me before I was a wife and a mother. I love my kids and would do it all again if it meant I get to be their mother but the truth is it’s overwhelming and my husband’s help (though well intended) is not enough and not the same!! 😮‍💨 Ok I’m done ranting. Thanks for your openness about your experience. I really appreciate it.💜

Thank you for sharing! 🫶🏾

Your point about searching for communities of women online that are actually excited and super ecstatic and happy about the polygamy that they are experiencing, and it being practically nonexistent as exactly why I’m tired of being gaslit by men and this idea of polygamy. It just feels like a bunch of gaslighting to be honest, unless you are genuinely bisexual and desire that lifestyle. And it almost seems as if men are completely skipping over the women who actually desire that lifestyle for real because I know women who really want a king and a queen or who in general these men pursue women who are monogamous stressed them out and then add this whole lifestyle that these woman really don’t want. 😢

This is bringing so many tears to my eyes. I just hurt for all the women in the world who have completely dedicated their minds, hearts and souls to a man just to find an insatiable nature within that being into receive so little advocacy for making sure they are well cared for. That the portal of pleasure and life that they are accessing and so called “loving” is just as happy and respected and validated in their feelings as they are

“I don’t want this video to be cute in Any way” 😂❤ GIRL YOU CANT HELP IT YOU ARE A WHOLE GODDESS WITHOUT TRYING!! Your voice is so soothing and feminine. Cuteness is your middle name.❤

There is so much for women from every walk of life to learn from your story Looking forward to more mom content.❤️

⭐️💛Thank you for sharing your raw truth, your vulnerability and beautiful femininity. I feel your strength baby girl powerful mama ✨️

Thank You for sharing 🌻

I'm glad you're FINALLY speaking your truth and your reality. I was def have looked at your content throughout the years and worried and wondered.

You are becoming a free woman and there is healing in your story.

Ima hit dog that hollered😂 I think the shame prevents us from sharing, then the next generation keeps making the same mistakes. I'm 'doing' by not hiding my story from my daughter. I give it to her raw & uncut because these men start plotting on us young. Anyway lol, thank you for keeping it real. 💜💜

Thank you for your honesty and strength . You exude love .

In 🇿🇦 polygamy is a well resourced mans game. Its also functional in a well resourced family set up. I am so moved by your share as i am shedding some 'truths' and gaining massive clarity. Thank you for your heart. I just had my second one and deep in post partum .... so thank you for validating my current season. We love you so much. Bless you and your beautiful babies ❤❤

WHATS THE POINT OF KNOWING IF YOURE NOT DOING???? 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

Ouuuweeee the traumaaa 😭 it’s so wild how I’ve seen so many varying experiences of the same story. From the conscious community shit, the vegan shit, these men with their polygamy and “nation building”, and the trauma postpartum. Likeee mama …. 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 mannnnn I resonate with this deeeeeeply. I was so bold in “my truths” ughhh thank you for sharing. Genuinely.

The way I felt this 🤍 I was judged for eating ritz crackers during my pregnancy and ended up SNEAKING to eat fish bc I needed it. Smh. I was 109lbs and so malnourished when I got pregnant due to the “vegan lifestyle” I was living. Ended up having my daughter at 32 weeks. My heart goes out to you mama. Thank you for sharing your journey. I feel seen. 🤍 Ps; I left his ass when she was 1 and a half. Attracted a man that 5 years later allowed me a pregnancy/delivery/and postpartum era that healed my soul and regulated my nervous system. Good men are out here. 🤍

10month postpartum mama here. My midwife just disappeared 2 days before my first birth, i was so confused and im living abroad. I ended up improvising and having birth birth with 2 doctors in a birth center. Felt disconnected from my body, rushed and traumatized at the end. I thought that if i have a child again it would be at home for sure, but youre so true, this a trauma response. We romanticize so much having birth, seeing these people on the internet and when you are on the table, ready to be cooked, thats a different story 😅 Thanks for your honesty and raw feeling that you shared.

Continue to protect your spirit and peace as best you can. I'm definitely looking to go deeper and encourage my sisters to go deeper this year. Take time to think about what you want your next chapter to look like and who you want in it. Be more intentional. Write that ish dwn in great detail. It will come! Commanding love, peace, prosperity & protection for you & the family. Amen❤❤❤🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

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Never feel embarrassed for growing and going through life. She’s unfair, unexpected, good, and full of surprises. And you my girl, are so brave for paving the way for so many others to be vulnerable and open about real life. We seriously need more of this in the world. Too many fake and perfect people out here, and it’s doing a huge disservice to the world… leaving little to no positive valuable impact. I hope these and all of your videos, reach who it is supposed to.

Now this, this is why we miss you. The raw and authentic story telling. I really love how you opened up this topic with the many truths we experience and live through. We really do go through life not really knowing a damn thing😂, until we go through it and see things from multiple perspectives for ourselves. I can hear the pain and relief through this conversation. And I just want to say, I’m happy to see you here and I can’t wait to see where life takes you from here.

Wow. I see you Mama. Sending you love and healing, your heart needs to be nurtured. I hope you are being love on these days. Being nurtured and taken care of now that you’re surrounded by family. Thank you for releasing your truth ❤️

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I have been following you and your family journey from day one. I love you and your kids. Glad y’all back. Keep your head ❤❤❤

It’s not your fault, he would’ve still slept with other people even if you said you were uncomfortable with polygamy

sis. you probably have no idea how many of us can truly truly relate to you in realizing that what we may have got drawn into within this “conscious” movement was actually a bunch of shit that most of us truly aren’t even ready for! i INNER and OVERstand ALL of your recent public reflections of how you’ve grown to feel different about things. there is absolutely nothing for you to feel embarrassed about. you deciding to DO different is an act of wisdom and strength and you sharing this journey with us is a huge act of courage. your accountability is refreshing, and yet it also saddens me that many of us feel like we are not allowed to loudly and proudly have the human experience of evolution, because people CHOOSE to make us “influencers”. to be honest, you have inspired me to share more of my journey and where i may have shifted in my perspective and beliefs. from a sister to sister, mother to mother, grower to grower, I AM SOOOOO PROUD OF YOU FOR THE MANY WAYS THAT YOU ARE SHOWING UP AND BEING YOUR BEST FOR YOU AND YOUR CHILDREN! while some folks on here can get nasty because of their own internal conflicts, i want you remember us who are truly loving you, supporting you, and hugging you through this journey. may all your sacrifices and efforts not be in vain. and may you continue to be blessed with the love and support you (and your children) truly deserve. ❤

I fucking love you, Jordan.

Also, I think the father roll is to sacrifice himself for the mother of his children during early child hood. He should sacrifice, sleep, food, time and enjoyment so that mother has ample time to heal. It’s hard to know which men will make this sacrifice until after you have their child. *sigh.

During my pregnancy I fought so hard to remain vegan as well. My midwife looked me deep in my eyeballs and said you need a steak. 😂 I was pale, weak and skinny so I gave in and wound up at an In and Out. I felt so much better afterward. Like my body sighed in relief. My midwife told me to get Beef Liver supplements and I began to flourish with meat on top all of my veggies and coconut water. ❤

Yes, make sure those babies know each other…not for him but for them. Your transparency will always be “the thing” the spark, the light, the main attraction. Being so raw in a world that is so fake, is everything. And yes you cute (loved that disclaimer) but the video is definitely raw as it should be…let’s bring back 2014 KZbin when we could just roll outta bed and be bout it bout it. ❤