never been to the er or psych ward for anything (er for braking my arm rolersckating and schoter)i dont think its to suver cause im not gonna die cause friends THANK GOSH FOR THEM

1:33 oh wow, so haunting now😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

GUYS IM AT 50 DAYS!!! :)

When I last went maily because of my cuts were deep the nurse just seemed like she didnt care at all an after i got transferred to a different hospital and staywd there till 3 am without getting tole how long we would have to wait for the mental health team tk come turns out it wouldbt have beeen till morning.

Our second Christmas (Christmas 2024), without Marie, oh boy, this is gonna be tough

Will be thinking of you all tomorrow 🎄

There is a massive difference between being genuinely shocked/upset/scared by seeing that someone has scars and i sympathise because as someone who has them, i know it isn't anatomically "normal" to see self harm scars on someones body. But experiencing a stranger getting genuinely angry at someone just because they have scars or shouting an abusive comment at someone across the street because you can see that they have scars, is completely unnecessary and not justified by any means

How old were u the first time?

Why are people more cherished when dead?

unlike some of the beatiful people in these comments I have not known your videos long, less than an hour actually. I watched one video that came up on my fyp and was so thankful of how openly you talked about sh. I clicked on your profile to watch more videos and came upon hundreds of comments talking about your death. I can't believe how much grief I am feeling for someone I didn't know existed until half an hour ago. but marie, If you somehow can see this I want you to understand how amazing you are, the fact that I don't even know you and are crying like a baby just shows how beautiul your personality is. You were, and still are, so incredibly loved. I hope you are at peace now brave angel.

relapsed 10 min ago ironic how this came up on my fyp

the world has been without you for over a year now. i still think about you every day. you didn't realize the impact you made when you were here, I hope in heaven, you are looking down and can see the light you brought even when you couldn't see any. it will always be Maries moon

How do you guys not she took her life?

UM WHAT HAPPENED TO HER

Oh Marie, my heart still hearts. You are so so so missed. You beautiful amazing soul, I hope you are at peace 🤍🪽

Im not clean at all😢 i sh everyday without Even knoting. Itd the simple things like pisking at diin

I'm scared that if I don't hide them it will people trigger people into relapsing. :(

I am currently that 14 year old struggling with sh and scars. This really gave me some perspective. Hope you're alright gorgeous ❤

What i would give to have my friend back, tragedy is an underatamenr i dont deserve life she does. R.i.p see you soon ❤❤❤

rest in peace angel 🕊🕊

i love you rest in peace gorgeous x

how does staying at a hospital affect your school experience?

I was maybe 1 month clean from sh but my friend sent me her fresh sh and it just triggered me and I found myself in my lowest point and hating life again i will never understand why she had to send that espically when she knew I wasn't doing so well (we aren't friends anymore)

For anyone confused, Marie passed away, that is why they have not uploaded for 1 year. Marie took her own life. We will forever miss you Marie, and we are proud you were clean for so long while you were here. Rest in peace our lovely angel.

they dont do anything about sh if you want to get out you will get out they only actually make you go if you are on the brink of death from a sui attempt

Self harm is so deep and it coreses blood lose

Ive been four days clean :3 yippee

Its not fair god took. My chance to go . Ive hurt noone. I just wannns be at peace and hurt no longer i suffer . Everyone that loves me is gone . I have nothing but pain and misery .

How do I make sure my cuts don’t get infected? I wash it out with soap and water and use neosporin and make sure to replace the bandaids, but is that enough?

I keep coming back to your videos. You still help me and give me comfort on days I feel alone ❤ Fly high 🕊️

oh marie i am so so terribly sorry. there is lite without you when there is not the biggest i can’t find find without you is hole. dear good i miss you marie more than anything and i am so so sorry this is the way job meft the way you left this earth. there is truly no one i love or protect more than her

6 months clean💕

Rest in peace, Marie. You're so missed.

2 months clean ❤

Im 1 year clean LETS GOOOO

Guys what happened to her?

Okay I'll leave my own experience in the comments I suck End of the story

My mom just found out last night and I’m still really scared that I’ll get sent there

Just wanted to ask anyone here for advice I guess…you don’t have to answer, it doesn’t really matter much :P Basically, there’s a deadline for a bunch of work (the deadline is just before Christmas, but that’s not really relevant) in my school that I’ll fail the classes if they’re not done..and I wouldn’t really be mentioning them if I had them done (or if I was able to do them, but I struggle even getting up in the mornings let alone actually doing anything else). Genuinely, I know my parents are gonna shout at me and take away my phone (big problem, because I need the escapism so I don’t actually end it) when I fail, and I’d have to redo the year (big problem, being set back an entire year…well it’s obvious why thats a problem) so I genuinely just been thinking it’s better to end it than have to deal with failure. The reason I mentioned it here was because I just kinda been doing SH to cope, like I don’t think it’s that serious since I only cut one arm with a glass piece all the time (plus, it makes my anxiety less bad when I have the glass shard with me yk?) and I figured if I was sent to the hospital they wouldn’t make me go to school, meaning I wouldn’t fail, meaning I wouldn’t have to die. Idk if it’s worth it though, I’d probably still have to redo the year (meaning failure, meaning I would just die anyway) plus if the SH isn’t severe enough then I’d have to just go back to school right? (I guess I could just cut more though…) Yeah idk, I just wanted an answer, like should I go to the hospital or nah (You don’t have to waste your time worrying about me btw, I’m too much a coward to actually kill myself [at least now anyway] and there’s other people who have it worse than me who need help more).

GUYS IM 5 WEEKS CLEAN TODAY❤❤

Rest in peace. BC of U i have been able to stay. I have thought about ending things but Ur videos poped up and I started watching them. I've watched all. Thank you. U have saved me. Rest in peace U will forever be missed. Love you ❤❤. U r an angel. God wanted U back xx I love you ❤❤😢❤

I hope have better days 🎀

Im not clean and im scared bc people are starting to notice

No one’s gonna see my comment but my online friend killed himself on my birthday and instead of thinking that he could have faked it idk if he’s dead or not I tried to I woke up and felt selfish (he texted me saying he was gonna khs)

ive been clean for a bit, but sadly relapsed again.

Earlier this year I was picking at scabs on my scalp a lot, until they bleed a lot. My mom saw. And she took my to the doctors for it. And I lied to both of them, saying I picked at them because they were itching. I never told anyone the real reason. I never thought that it was ‘real SH’, so I didn’t feel valid for it.

for anyomn who needs to hear this: i love your hair (if you have any) i love your forehead (no matter how big it is) i love your eyebrows (if you have them) i love your eyelashes (if you have any) i love your eyes(if you have any) i love your ears (if you have any) i love your nose (if you have one) i love your cheeks i love your laugh i love your mouth (if you have one) i love your teeth (if you have any) i love your chin i love your neck (if you have one) i love your smile i love your shoulders i love your chest i love your arms (if u have any) i love your hands (if you have any) i love your tummy i love your hips i love your thighs (if you have any) i love knees (if you have any) i love your shins (if you have any) i love your feet (if you have any) i love your moles/marks (if you have any) i love your scars (if you have any) i love your voice (if you have one) I love your braces (if you have them) i love what you do i love your personality i love you on your good days i love you on your bad days i love you when you wear makeup (if you do) i love you when you don't wear makeup i love your skin i love you when you get emotional i love when your mad i love when your sad i love when your happy i love you when you hate me i love you when you love me i love when you forget me i love your disabilities (if you have them) i love your wheelchair/crutches/walker/hearing aid/guide dog etc. (if you have one) I'm proud of you for getting some sleep I'm proud of you for trying to sleep I'm proud of you for waking up I'm proud of you for getting up (if you have) I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth (if you have) I'm proud of you for brushing your hair (if you have) I'm proud of you for washing your face (if you have I'm proud of you for doing your skincare (if you do any) I'm proud of you for doing your makeup (if you wear it) I'm proud of you for spending time to Yourself (if you have) I'm proud of you for getting out of your room (if you have a room) I'm proud of you for getting dressed (if you have) I'm proud of you for TRYING to eat (if you have) I'm proud of you for trying to be clean (if you have) I'm proud of you for being alive I'm proud of you for trying to be a good friend (if you have) i wont judge you for your looks i wont judge you for your past i wont judge you for your race I won’t judge you for being trans (if you are) I won’t judge you for being a furry/therian (if you are one) i love your glasses (if you wear them) i love your room (if you have one) i love your house(if you have one) i love your family (if you have one) i wont judge you for your life i wont judge you for your family (if you have one) i wont judge you for your body i wont judge you for your age (your age is beautiful) i wont judge you for your sexuality i wont judge you if you read books i wont judge you if your different i wont judge you for your gender i wont judge you for your money i wont judge you for your tears i wont judge you for your ethnicity i wont judge you for your religion i wont judge you if you pray i wont judge you if you dont eat i wont judge you if you do eat i wont judge you for where you come from i wont judge you for your language you aren't ugly you aren't too fat you aren't too skinny you aren't annoying you aren't mean you aren't evil (unless you are) you aren't crazy you aren't weird you aren't worthless you aren't scary you aren't too selfish you aren't too feminine you aren't too masculine you aren't too old you aren't too young you aren't disgusting you aren't a doormat you aren't a toy you aren't a monster i hope you overcome your bad thoughts i hope you overcome your depression (if you have it) i hope you treat yourself well your skin isn't paper so dont cut it your life isn't a movie so dont end it your neck isn't a coat so dont hang it your face isn't a mask so dont hide it your heart isn't a door so dont lock it you aren't perfect, nobody is, but your perfect in my eyes you are beautiful you are pretty you are handsome you are kind you are cool you are everything you want to be i wont judge you for anything I'm so proud of you. So keep being you and keep moving on because even Albert Einstein said ‘life is like a bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep moving.’ So keep riding your bicycle. ‘Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about.’-(I don’t remember who said this). i love you. now its time for you to share this message Be Happy❤️Be Kind❤️Be You❤️

kinda want advice. i didnt want anyone to know. my parents found out. i felt guilty but how they responded made me do it more. my mom said that God gave me this beautiful body and i chose to destroy it. she said i wasnt normal and that people like me are insane and dont deserve to live. but she also cried and found help for me at the same time. she said more nasty shit that im not going to say, but seriously im confused. did anyone else have a somewhat similar experience to this? also i do want to get better but im just wondering what to say to my new therapist. we just sit in silence everyday because im not sure what to say.. I know this video is old but knowing will help.

new sub

thanks for the video