"I am neurodivergent, but I am not neurodivergence". Wise words.

It’s really good that you are and have been sharing your journey. I’m on the waiting list, the time whilst waiting is very hard, there are many times I feel like I’m lost, lonely and loosing the plot. Being married with kids I struggle with those comments…everyone’s a little autistic, everyone’s different an individual and neurodivergent, I’m being lazy, why aren’t you joining in with the family (when it’s noisy), why are you sitting in the shade away from everyone (oh yes I love being baked in the sun, why aren’t you listening (yes been for a hearing test). Why aren’t I contributing to a conversation or replying. Yes I’m always a conversation behind. Good videos, do you have a video on friendships?

So, out of the blue, this evening I decided to "check in" on this channel. When I was in my late teens/early twenties, I somehow stumbled across these videos. I have no idea how, or why, but they came at a perfect time. As a young adult, I was dealing with many of the same things Rebecca was - trying to find my place in the world, dealing with a form of depression, and even Trichotillomania. I don't think I found the videos educational or entertaining. Perhaps a bit inspiring, but really it was more a form of comfort - knowing that I was not alone in what I was dealing with. Going out into the world for the first time after graduating high school is like jumping into the deep end of the pool without first learning how to swim. I won't say this channel was the only one, but it was certainly one of the many that kept me "afloat" during that time. Looking back today and seeing Rebecca doing so well, looking healthy, wise, and continuing to speak encouragement to anyone who will listen really warms my heart. YOU MATTER, and are definitely the kind of person who makes the world worth living in. Be well!

I've watched a bunch of your videos now, and honestly it just hurts how relatable it all is. Nearly everything you say could have or has come from my own mouth at some point. I was diagnosed with autism a few years ago (at 31) and told I met the criteria for ADHD as well (though that would've cost an extra £750 to make official). My whole life I've felt like an outsider. An observer. Like I was learning lessons in this life that would be used to make the next life successful. Now I'm just tired, and there's no life to look forward to. Since my diagnosis I've been working harder to enjoy life in the ways that make me happy. I hope this finds you well.

So many people in this common section are saying similar things, so I'm sorry if I sound like a broken record. I've been a subscriber for more than a decade, originally because of BFRB (yep, turns out it's a stim for me too). I can relate to almost everything you said in this video, and I feel seen and like somebody else gets it, so thank you for sharing your vulnerability. I'm not formally diagnosed yet but I know that I'm autistic and am seeking a diagnosis this year. I've been misdiagnosed with various things. I've always been really averse to medication so I vehemently refused it every time it was suggested (so many times); I think that somewhere deep down I knew that it wouldn't get to the core of why I felt the way I did/do. I'm kind of rambling now, but I see you, and I empathise on what it's like to try so hard for so many years and to only get worse because we've been viewed and treated through the lens of neurotypicality. I hope your diagnosis helps you figure out how to craft a life for yourself that is tender to your needs ❤

How about informative? You're a voice for generations who have come*before* you who for many, have finally figured out the great mystery of their lives up to this point. As a "voice from your future," I would say you must prioritize connecting (in person if possible) with other NDs. Greater chance of people connecting to your success because they already know what you're experiencing. I'm 100% positive that this is the one thing I "should've done differently" instead of trying harder to impress the NT mindset.

I wondered why you went bald for a period in your montage. Now I've read up on it a little bit, I understand. I hope you're doing well in 2024. Best regards from Nottingham.

Your first visit to Edinburgh is pretty similar to mine (though mine was in 2010). I didn't know I was autistic then and found the Fringe festival absolutely overwhelming. I've been several times since at quieter times and really love the city.

Ahhh I found you! I’m not surprised you were diagnosed with autism actually I was diagnosed with autism in 2022 and after a three year wait I was diagnosed with adhd in March this year but horrendously I can’t get medication yet because there is an issue care share in my area and I really really just desperately need to at least be able to try this medication to see if it can finally help my lack of focus and concentration and inattention It’s such a long journey I hope you get your adhd assessment soon

I like videos of the first ppl on youtube :)

Do we give up? No And what do we do when we fall? stand up proud! You go girl, booyah!

Great to see you're still around old girl! I recently read Fern Brady's book on her autism and meltdowns, and saw some (not many or as extreme) parallels to my life. Trying to be kinder to myself and thus in the end be more enjoyable (consumable?) to others. Also: "not supported by the NHS" - that's a tautology, eh? 😅

I still remember first discovering your channel maybe 8 or 9 years ago, and you were just a normal person willing to share about their struggles in life. Every once in a while I would check in and see your change and my change. We have all experienced a lot, and I am sure 1000s of us are grateful for having been included in your journey over all of these years.

You are an actress

I’ve been following your KZbin for like 15 years give or take. I need you to know that I adore you!! My heart breaks that people suck. You’re far from mediocre. You educated me to help my clients. You educated me so much on mental health. Never doubt yourself ❤ you’re beautiful on the inside and outside. Your videos make me feel less alone. Be kind to yourself 💜💙

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If you enjoy castles, you will love Wales

I doubt I could wear contacts, I'm just use to wearing glasses now, also I very talking with hands person

I find that coffee doesn't really do much for me, its more of a routine thing now

Why on earth after 20 years are you still posting on the internet. When will you grow up. I expected you have been further by now. The moment I hear nothing anymore from you on the internet, I will be happy knowing your life has become better.Seeing this video I am more worried then ever before. You just talk faster but you seem further away from yourself then i have ever seen.

I watched your videos as a teenager and I just remembered you. I literally searched for your page. You were always so real and free and calm. I hope you are well and you have found your peace.

The first time I saw your channel was around spring 2015, back when i was 19. Since then i have been looking foward to your updates because your "presence" in my life felt like having a friend who is experiencing life together with me since our age difference is not big. Up to this day tour videos are a form of comfort to me. Thank you for still being here in all aspects and i wish you to be safe and content as much as possible ✨️

Lots of love. Glad you're here. I feel proud of you. Thanks for catching me up with what's going on with you. Take care. Ellie Robinson x

10 years later and it’d be awesome to get a updated version. You are such a beautiful woman Beckie!

I've watched your videos for years Rebecca, more than 10 at least. I don't use any social media whatsoever, unless a comment a year on a KZbin video counts. I relate to feeling inadequate whilst others perceive me as being cold or snooty. Im insecure, im average and i am blatantly aware of my short comings. But i am so ok with that now, with each year that passes i just realise im so ok with being content. Being content is a privilege. I've been reckless, I've been depressed, I've felt hopeless. So now I'm ok, good things happen, bad things happen. All i can do is control what i can and that includes the opinions of those around me. Your happiness always made me smile from the inside. Like a comforting warmth of seeing an old friend in little moments of joy. Your home tour, your op shop videos, the trips with your mum, your old bedroom tour. Good times,rotten times and the really hard moments, i didn't have an opinion, why should i? I was just sharing in a portion of your life you felt comfortable sharing. My son is autistic. He is young and innocent and lovely, but the world is not always so, and i hope he encounters more people who celebrate him than those who will criticise. I tell my kids - Misery really does crave company - And Comparison is the theif of joy.

Excellent, entertaining, as far from Gordon Ramsey as you could get. More please😮

getting excited about eating a waffle in Brussels in 2017

I can relate to your comment about cats vs people. I have ferrets and could not live without their playful mischievous natures.😊

I have watched you on trich journal since before 2010 (can’t really remember the date), because I had trichotillomania in high school. Later I was diagnosed 10 years later with ADHD. I don’t think I have autism but I relate to your neurodivergence, and I always have! Thank you for updating and posting. I’ve always loved your vulnerability. I hope that you find more neurodivergent people to surround yourself with, because you are valuable and deserve as much support as you can get. Other neurospicy people can really help.

Wow I haven’t been to your channel for such a long time. It’s crazy… I think I first saw you in 2014 on the bbc website talking about trilochtimia I definitely spelt it wrong haha

What lipstick are you wearing in the video?

I understand that it's very difficult to disclose a job, but I would be very curious to know what type of job you're currently doing because I've been struggling finding something sustainable that hasnt destroyed me and am getting closer to my 30s. I wish I could do remote work like I see a lot of autistic people doing since it's the best option for our neurotype but I can't do it in my own country. UK definitely seems more advanced in this sense and I might try to find work there in the future! Love your videos and the content you make that has helped me throughout my own struggles! ❤

no ur not

Love your vids.

Just thought of you and came back to see what's up just to find this out. I was diagnosed as AuDHD in September!

Migraines could be a link to a deep sinus infection,it happened to me and I had an MRI and that's what they found and now I don't have them anymore

what a brilliant video...my life exactly.

I have to 3 years old daughter who has trichotillomania.. she’s been having it for the last year when she was just 2 years old and just came to know of this today 😢

Andrew Cooper, having breached his restraining order, was arrested and bailed on conditions that he is banned from the internet. The police are now conducting an investigation into his operations and who were his fake female employees

I think you might be very interested in “Byron Katie” and her introspection process she calls “The Work”. It changed my life in that it provided me with so much clarity.

Hermoso trabajo! Felicidades y un abrazo fuerte.

I see a lot of positive comments on here. Anything other than that is noise. You are amazing, Beckie. Some of us watch you to learn and be inspired💜

A job I'm unwell in 😄 I can relate so much 😊

Wow that artwork is amazing! 😮 only a dysfunctional brain can create such originality and creativeness, neurotypicals can't create like adhd/autistic people can, one gift I'd never change even it meant fixing the negatives of the nuerodivergent brain, I'd be soulless without creativity 🤩

I've been looking for your old "They're Coming To Take Me Away, Ha​-​Haaa!" video, but it looks like you've deleted a lot of your old videos, it's a shame. I think they'd be handy for the younger views coming to terms with trich.

It blows my mind how expert some people think they are on who someone is without even being a part of their real life. They think because they see someone sometimes in contained and highly controlled settings, they are qualified to make judgments. I'm so sorry to hear you've had to deal with this on the heels of your self-awareness journey. It is interesting how some people decide what others feel and think and what our thoughts and feelings or things we say "really" mean as if they know us well enough. Last time I checked, no one can read minds. Frankly, anyone who deserves to know someone well enough to make assertions about their inner workings wouldn't dare. Also, haters and harrassers should get a life. But alas, they lurk on the internet, feeling brave to talk judgemental nonsense from behind a screen. The internet makes everyone brazen experts, but I'd like to see them try one minute of the level of vulnerability you share with your face before the world. They'd buckle under their own self-hatred they insist on projecting on you. They take the coward's way. But not you. You have real courage and strength, which is tested again and again, and here you still are! Amazing. I found your channel because of the stim toy sharing on your other channel, and I was refreshed to find your Autism content and authenticity on the mental-health fallout from late diagnosis (I was diagnosed 6 years ago at age 38). I assure you, I'm not entertained by your suffering. It's just a gift to be able to relate. I celebrate your unmasking journey and your unfolding self-acceptance, whatever it looks like. I stand with you in being yourself, whether others like it or not. I'm feeling for you in the joy, sadness, and in-betweens. You deserve love and respect, no matter how you feel.

Your life is eerily similar to mine. I'm going into my thirties having been diagnosed first with ADHD, then ASD, kind of wanting a relationship, kind of not, and just generally wondering what's going to happen next. Feeling decades behind is something that's taken me a while to deal with as well. I had the exact same feeling after my ADHD diagnosis of something being missing and then post-ASD diagnosis dealing with skill regression. It's a lot to process. I have found ultimately it's better to have the diagnoses to at the very least have a vocabulary and more tailored advice to draw from (I wouldn't have found this channel without it). Being off antidepressants for the first time in nine years and having to come back into the office again after four years without that numbing effect certainly doesn't help, especially with the constant noise. It's hard to be patient with yourself. All of this to say you're by no means alone. I hope that's a comfort

I followed you over the years, your style of narration and editing appealed to me, felt close to you somehow. I also dealed my entire life with depression, anxiety, OCD among other diagnoses. Last year, at 28 years old, was diagnosed as Autistic. Such mixed feeling. Love to see you back. ❤hugs

You are brilliant. I am 58. Thank you.

Know exactly how you feel, every word. 50 and waiting in line for diagnosis.