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''...i will not cite my source. It came to me in a dream.'' marvellous

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

I was born normal. Its the world around me that is crazy.

love the videoo, the way you put things is wonderful... that editing is so unique and so cool... inspiring

Taking down an atheist consists of pointing out how "scientists" can be bought and/or bullied into lying and their beloved government is corrupt in ways that are easily observable & underreported (but yet available) and once you get that far you can start to reveal they are cheating us in ways our imaginations arent prepared for (at the moment). Inevitably, Stars are alive Stars farm planets A planet is a fraction of life, an inside-out upside-down fraction of life After earth is scorched bone dry, The Sun will reel in another planet into that temperate sweet spot and put on another grand production of farming & harvesting entertainment.

I'm happy for you for reaching -whatever this stage of being is. This is the first video of yours I come across and I must say I wish there was someone in my life I could discuss these things with. Love your wit. Keep exploring.

Not gonna lie. You sound like an amazing date. Yes, I would like to take you on a date.

I'm having a huge ego death experience while stoned and this is going hard

Fuck, this is me. I'm almost crying

So, I’ve been aware of your content for quite some time now, but I’ve never been able to finish a video until this one. Not because I didn’t like the content, but because I always felt unsettled? Uneasy? That sounds bad let me explain. It’s not because you’re unsettling it’s about perception. I don’t normally comment on vidoes, so bear with me here. A lot of what you’ve described has been very similar to my own experience The fear of there being nothing under the mask I made for myself. The idea that the falsehood I created had become real or rather, that it might be better to live as this falsehood than to find out who I truly was. Because what if the truth was so broken that I could never recover from seeing it? Feeling like a passenger, waylaid by myself and the world, with no way of changing course. Trapping myself in a cage of my own making, not realizing I could exit at any time. Too afraid to take control, too afraid to take accountability, because it was easier to blame the world or some intrinsic defect in the way I was born than to acknowledge that it was me all along. I could have taken control all along. Reaching my absolute limit only to find that I was so much more. I unknowingly created a world and wrote all the characters that inhabited it in a way that deeply resembled my own inner world. Through therapy, I learned to psychoanalyze myself through that creation, it’s how I explored my own shadow. In my own experience, it was Carl Jung and the exploration of the shadow that finally gave me the agency to be real. I fought tooth and nail for the right to be myself, and now I can finally own it. I can finally look at myself and untangle my past, my sorrow, my bitterness, my disconnection, and all the reasons I became who I am. I’ve realized that who I’ve become, as a result of all these awful things, is actually beautiful and meaningful to me and to others. I can use all this to help people in ways only I can. Ah, but back to the bit about being unsettled. I got a bit sidetracked there. Basically, something about the way you spoke of things, the way you carried yourself, I can’t really explain it. It’s not as though I truly know you in any way, but in hindsight, trying to make sense of the uneasiness, it felt reflective. Like I saw something in you that I saw in myself, or at the very least, my perception of you reflected this back. But not long ago, I finally went through all this character development, and now seeing this video felt like some sort of acknowledgment of the changes I’ve made. Not acknowledgment from you, but I guess the fact that I could finish one of your videos felt like I had moved forward in some way. Especially one that went over so many experiences I related to. This was very messy and possibly odd comment, I don’t know if you’ll get anything from this. I’m not wholly sure what the message here was. Maybe some cliché along the lines of: "You’re not alone in being lost and having to find yourself again." or maybe its just about acknowledging a connection I felt But, uh, TL;DR: You’re relatable to me, and that rattled me for a bit. But now it’s all good your content is very insightful. if anyone did sit through this whole yap session, I truly appreciate your time.

i needed this... i think

"whatever part of the trip you're on I'm just happy we found each other" 😂❤

We're all here to awaken each other and you're doing your part in this internal journey of yours and sharing it serves something beautiful, as long as its feeling its serving you! appreciate you, we're in this together from far away

i wonder if you tried holding it in your heart, instead of your hands, if that might help.

Wow!

wow, how brilliant! "Hold on I'm dreaming, I'm waking up in a dream of my shame!" This can work with any judgement and everything and anything in life!

I mean, if you can't say raison d'etre, what even is the point?

You reasonate with or around the frequency of Megyn Markle think of yourself as great as she no matter your situation in life. ✌ Pisces

thank you for helping me unpack my shame, to name it, to see it, and to start paving the road to my authentic self again -- brave again

I really needed to hear this today! Thank you for being brave enough to do the processing necessary for your own healing. Secondly thank you for sharing with such raw honesty. Truely beautiful! Hopefully some day before I transition in to what ever shape or non shape awaits, I''ll be able to forgive and surrentder into my own inevitability with a similar llevle of grace.

I feel.

Just came here from your video about shame. I related to it so much and needed to see where you started. It’s so cool to see so much excitement about big questions and big feelings in such a young person. Thank you for sharing yourself with us <3

we may be in separate bodies yet we share the same consciousness awareness within

Thank you for making this. I relate a lot to the struggles that you share and your words express a lot of what I have felt, but could not articulate. I come back to this video frequently and I am sure I will more as I too process my own shame. It also came out on my Dad's birthday, who passed away last year. You really are making special work.

The garden is amazing

I like the softness of your video. Thanks for your words.

As above⬆️, so below ⬇️

uhhh strangely very relatabe... thanks for sharing, seriously, it almost validates my own existence and my suffering as I've come to understand my own suffering, pain whatnot, it's a choice to continue to do so; it has a tendency to perpetuate itself, think programming of behavior. Hopefully that means I can choose not to then behave in ways that perpetuates it, and make choices (when given) that instead reinforce a better relationship with the world (and my own) as a result. Hopefully this makes sense to those that it resonates to Thank you, and much love Happy Existing!

How is it that you have articulated so many experiences & processes that I thought were mine alone 🤔

o there real, its nots whether or not there real or if i believe, i know there real, they just dont wanna blow there cover.....beacuse well the government and people suck will probally shoot them down or put them in prison or something , they even say they walk among us and there is evidence on every continent and culture all through time and history...if they were evil or bad, they could have easiliy wiped us all out thousands of years ago, they have been watching over us , but dont want to blow their cover, they mite even be in Hollywood today, or the whitehouse wearin masks like the Simpsons tv show

Thank you for being vulnerable with us and sharing your usual brand of brilliance. Well wishes.

I can't read writing in dreams either, BUT: I've kind of forced it where I could. Do you know what happened? Writing looks just like how AI generated images look when you ask them to write! It's the stupidest thing. What I can almost never see, is faces. I know who's there but I can't see their face.

I feel like you posted all of my internal thoughts over the last year. Ty for this !!

beautiful processing. i name you my favourite cpu. i too am learning how shame directs my life and that of my mother, especially.

5:41 I can tell you why.

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AI?

The song in the outroo pls pls pls ❤❤❤❤❤❤

This is beautiful and I almost cried.

Thank you for you neautiful poetic honesty. Listening to you is like hearing my thoughts spoken outlaid every so often.

Just discovered your insightful, beautiful soul. You radiate some good energy I can’t quite explain, from inside out and it’s very palpable. Happy we’ve found each other as well. I’m going to pay attention whenever I see your notification pop up from now on. Watched the whole thing and love loads of what you’ve brought up. I can also appreciate your vulnerability and finding strength in it and also sharing your piece of mind on a public platform, which at times can be cruel, overly judgmental and outright immoral, but you did it anyway. It must feel a bit cathartic. I’m certain I’ll come back to this video again and give it a listen with a set of fresh ears! Been going through some existential dread and I’m guessing my KZbin knows me more than I know myself at times lol or so it seems. I very much enjoyed listening to you speak. Sending my warmest regards and all the love from Florida!

I'm 19 and autistic and a lifetime of masking, anxiety and shame has been my existence for a while now. I've had this video saved since it came out, which is crazy its only been three weeks. This has been a long video to watch because I have to keep pausing to process what you're saying and I haven't had the heart to finish it until right now because of a recent breakdown but god I really relate to what you're saying. I want to get to where you are right now, about speaking and doing things you used to be ashamed of (and still might be a little bit) to not betray yourself, and molding a truer version of yourself without a mask and without gnawing shame. That existence feels really far away right now, but its nice to see someone like me find it.

Oi. Sav, fuck. Its good to know im not the only one. 😂 Your life its like a copy paste of mine. Even the method of thinking. And im male, easteuropean and orthodox. Im 30. You have around the same age for sure. Incredible. The situations how we dealt with them then, how we are wakin up now. Everything. Anyway, I just wanted to tell you, good luck, you're a good woman and a wonderful human being, take good care of you, you deserve it.

Thank you for this. I’ve been grappling with similar feelings and I wasn’t sure what was happening or if I was alone. I had no idea why I clicked on this video, literally no idea. I will remember this for a long time to come, I think.

Every single thing atually every single word said were things I have felt and still feel, this video was like looking in a mirror. Ive had that realization and I want it again, to understand whats wrong with me. But things havent slowed down enough for me to processes it. I want to cry an endless river but I have to be okay at this moment hold it together. Im now 18 and none if it feels real, I want to go back to watching cartoons and escaping reality. This video its want I needed, Thank you for understanding me.

This is fascinating and a profound gift to anyone who finds this video, and something I needed to hear right now and lots of other folks probably do too - thank you for sharing yourself, wishing you the best in your future explorations

"How can I keep this anger? It's incompatible with life." Show me a better question... anywhere, ever!!!

Welcome to the jungle.

It's so fascinating to hear about the awakening you've been having. It can be overwhelming to become aware of so much at once, especially things we can't see with our eyes. I've been going through my own similar experiences learning about myself and understanding my power. It can feel isolating at times when people don't understand what you are going through. I really appreciate you sharing your experiences. Best of luck on your journey.