I get terrible headaches from my jaw tension, the thing that’s worked best for me has been lidocaine trigger point injections :-) it doesn’t last forever though

Bleuler was not describing the autism we know today. He used the term autism to describe a state of being detached from reality and living inward, with oneself, with one's own thoughts and fantasies. This state is found in schizophrenics. Therefore, Bleuler was not wrong in describing the state of autism in schizophrenics (but sharing Freud's ideas about auto eroticism are meaningless here). The mistake occurred when the term autism was borrowed from Bleuler (while describing schizophrenia) to describe cases of autism as a type of infantile schizophrenia. But actually the autistic person also lives with himself and may drown in his own thoughts, but they are not hallucinations or delusions, but rather rational thoughts, even if they are sometimes imaginary.

I'm the opposite.....my muscles are SOOOOO relaxed! that it takes a sickening amount of effort to do anything!......I have a video of me doing barbell curls, and I look like I should be able to manhandle the weight because I'm a big guy!......but the absolutely sickeningly strained expression on my face where I'm pulling with everything I've got, I look my my soul is leaving my body......and my muscles are just chillin out!! ......like they aren't even firing!!.....I workout everyday, and feel NOTHING in my muscles!.....it's all in my bones and joints!!.....I do have bigger muscles but they look sleepy!.....I have very sleepy muscles!....big but sleepy and soft! ......and if I try to sit with good posture, my heart pounds I start sweating and it becomes excruciating!......I have to slouch!.......I absolutely hate being like this!!

This is the most profound explanation of the autist's existential condition that I have ever come across, particularly @4:40 "autism is a fear of energy flow". This resonates more than I can express in words. For example, I had an extreme fear of vomiting for years. Why? Because it is one particularly unpleasant and violent manifestation of the uncontrollable free flow of energy. I could provide multiple examples of this fear of energy flow that has itself caused immense suffering in my life and has also stifled life. Beyond that, I have often felt that my battle is a battle against time, against entropy. Everything I do is an attempt to control reality with my mind against the onslaught of time - an exhausting and losing proposition. I have often felt like I am in a time warp, a time loop, a war against time. So a question: assuming there is no cure currently available for autism, what is the best "management" strategy or technique to mitigate or adapt to this tendency to fight the free flow of energy (because we can't control it)? How should an autist respond to his autism in order to ease the friction that is otherwise caused by the confrontation of his autism with the world, reality-as-we-know-it?

I have wanted to watch this for months, but I was watching the same stuff on loop so I put it off🫡

Deeply insightful. And yes, I'm terrified of entropy.

Viscose material always helps me

There goes my theory that all hyperlexics are going to also be verbal thinkers.

I think it’s important to prepare people by guiding them to sit or lie in a comfortable position first

I am not autistic, I just wanted to know more about it and the way you presented your opinion is fascinating, really.

Thanks! ❤

Damn dude, i wonder if this would mean adhd is not all i have. Ive always been rediculously tense, and i guess i just became my norm. Now if i relax an area its almost like an instant panic as if something is wrong. Its entirely subconcious and my inability to relax antagonistic muscles, has always been a real irritation. I fully relate to what you are saying about how no sensory feedback causes a feeling of discomfort and slight panic. I dont know what you would define this as, i always atteibuted it to adhd, but i feel like im 24/7 thinking 200 mile an hour, i get bored of all the stimulus around me as it just doesnt interest me enough to maintain any moderate term attention. I feel like because of this, im always questioning everything and the combo of always being hyper aware and tense anyway, plus the lack of general stimulus, starts me subconciously questioning why i feel so little, why my muscles dont feel well much at all. Theres certainly nothing wrong in the moment but i may talk myself into it and begin the process of becoming more and more tense and too aware of what im physically doing. I toe walked till the age of 12 or so. I realised whilst recording my gait that my heels really smushed into the floor, i just thought maybe my ankles were collapsing in, but now after hearing you say that, i think its because i also have no callouses on my heels at all, they are all around the foorefoot and big toe. Im guessing in normal walkers that this area becomes much harder and doesn't just smush 😆. I will say i dont mind the feeling of my heel on the floor at all, i enfact kindof enjoy it, i dont currently know exactly why ive always toe walked, but it may be an issue ive had long term in the hips.

About sixth sent ... do you have a stront sixth sent ... my perception about energy , places and people is very strong :/

Brilliant insights! Really glad I've found your channel.

46 years. I continue walking on tiptoe, it's my natural way of walking, I feel super light and the balance is perfect. I often walk and run barefoot in the woods, it's the natural way of doing it. No diagnosis.

Tensing up leading to relaxation is exactly how dry needles work

Maybe this is why I've had an unexplainable back/hip ache for 25 yrs. Been to every doctor.

What wonderful poetic thoughts and there words 💙

Obviously, I'm 3 years late to the party, but you Christian are a great thinker and asset to Autism thinking, well done!

Great vid, but the big words scattered in your sentences required me to get the dictionary out?!

I'm autistic myself, but I don't have muscle tension. In fact, I'm glad I'm built like Ving Rhames, Arnold Schwarzneggar, Mike Tyson, and Dwayne The Rock Johnson.

This is ultimately why I developed an interest in religion and spirituality - it proposes the idea of a soul or consciousness that is not defined by the physical body. Versus the purely biological view that we are our bodies.

Clothing sets off sensory issues very badly for me ... can't have shirt collars that are too close to my neck, no tags, no rough seams, no nylon, not too much polyester in a blend.....omg. when I find something that works for me i just buy several pairs 😏🤷

I'm not autistic but I started toe walking when I was a kid because heel strikes gave me headaches. The toe walk is way more springy and absorbs a lot of impact in the muscles of the legs rather than the heel. The way I toe walk is more understated than how I've seen some autistic people toe walk though. If you look at me walk, you might not even notice that I'm toe walking because my heels are low but my weight is all in the front of the foot. Anyway, I think toe walking is superior to the heel-toe walk or heel strike even in running.

Thank you so so so much for this.

Atlas calves , I got'em , I also have so many different walks, I once took a 32+mile walk, took 12 hours .

Thank you so much for this, i feel so much better now after a exhausting day with a lot of overwhelming stress bcs of noises from outside (bus,metro,people) sending you a lot of hugs and positive energy ❤

I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child but it wasn't called ADHD I was coined a Slow Learner only later in my adult life (I am 50 years old) did I learn the name of the name of my slow learning condition. I do remember as a child though I would walk on my toes, I did not realize I was doing it but one of my grandmothers would notice when I would do it and she would ask "Why are you walking tippy toe" than she would point it out to my parents and ask them "Why is my grandbaby walking tippy toed like that, look" and she would point at me and tell my parents they needed to get me checked cause that isn't normal.

Hey, this was fantastic! You're right, some of these states you're describing are similar to the liberated blissfulness that meditators have sought for millennia. The "I am this body, I am this person" is the ego sense and in advanced states of consciousness of great yogis, they've realized that the thoughts of "I am this body, I am these thoughts, I am this person" will fade away in deepest meditation. The "real I" one might say is the being or pure consciousness, no self, no other. Could it be that some autistic folks have less of the "false I" ego sense than most other folks? Fascinating theory.

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As an adult I walk with the sides .feels uncomfortable to have my foot flat

Honestly whenever I'm going to school I'm always sweating so much even when it's 5 degrees celsius and that's why I always avoid layers and people ask me why I'm a not wearing this or that

I’m sad. Toe walking has always been something I did regularly, and I did this into adulthood. But I had to stop because I fell and damaged my Achilles tendons, and I now can’t toe walk at all now. 😢

I am in this exact position right now and have been here before. I have been stuck in my car for 50 minutes, waiting for something to compel me to open the car door and get out.

Hooo… wow. I needed to hear this. Thank you for reading to me. And thank you, Donna, for writing to me.

I have an autistic son. He is 5 years old and when the winter comes he neither wants to wear winter clothes nor let me use it. He keeps asking me to remove. So I found this video. I am trying to understand. Curious to know why he doesn’t like others to wear it too.

Isn't this the natural way to walk? Every other animal walks like this.

this is very interesting. I struggle (really struggle. I've been on sick leave because of it) with fatigue and muscle tension/exhaustion/pain. like my muscles are working all the time but I'm not doing anything. I don't have an official diagnosis but I strongly suspect I a bit of an auDHDer... from what I can relate to from hearing people with a diagnosis describing it... this is a fresh path to go down. just tried the self hugging and automaticly did a deep in- and exhale before he even mentioned it. so there is definetly some value for me in it.

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Thank u sm, this was REALLY helpful actually

You now have another subscriber! ✌️ You might not hear this enough, so I guess I'll let you know, I think you're kinda cute.

A Buddhist go into a pizza place and says, "make me one with everything" When his pizza comes out he give the cashier a $20 bill. He patiently waits for a while and then asks, "Where is my change?" The cashier responds, "Change must come from within."

I often say I was raised by cats. We had 3 cats and I would follow them and squeeze into their hiding spots with them and they would cuddle up with me for naps. Often no one could find me because I had gone into a cat hole they thought would be too small for me to get into.

As a pre-teen I literally lived in a closet for 4 years. It was only 4x5 so I could not lie down with my legs straight.

My youngest daughter has always walked on her toes.

As an undiagnosed autistic person this makes a lot of sense for the way I saw things growing up and to this day.

Im an autistic woman who of course never knew until I was 37. I toe walked as a child. Thing is my son who is so obviously autistic everyone knows immediately just looking at him was NOT a toe walker until he hit age 10 or 11. I have all the home videos to show it. Now hes 15 and is high up on those toes and you cant tell him anything against it. Now people see him and immediately assume hes incapable of most things and they think hes got the mind of a much younger child. He doesnt like that people that hes incapable of things his age boys should be able to do but he refuses to even try re learning to walk heel toe. Its going to negatively effect his life if he doesn't make an effort to modify this.

I'm a little late here, but I wanted to share my experience with toe walking regardless. I've been toe walking since I can remember and I find, that it is a whole combination of things that make me do it. 1. Sensory issues I hate wearing shoes in the house or on particular outdoor surfaces like sand and grass, because I kind of need to feel the surface that I'm walking/standing on. But whenever I am barefoot, my soles stick to the ground or I get small stuff stuck to the soles like crumbs, tiny stones, leaves etc. or there's a wet patch that i step into and I instantaneously shudder and get overwhelmed. So one of my instincts is, to minimize the surface area that can come into contact with icky ground. Hence the toe walk. 2. Pain Walking heel-toe does quite often cause me physical pain. The pressure on the heel starts to really hurt after a while and the entire "flat-foot-posture" starts to cause tension and pain in my legs, (causes actual cramping) and my back right up to my neck which can cause really bad tension headaches. So when I walk on my toes (or high heels) there is less pain than with regular flat shoes or barefoot. Also the impact vibrations of the heel hitting the ground while walking hurts and is quite disconcerting to me. 3. Ease of motion I find that toe walking is more "springy" than heel-toe. It takes less energy for me to "propel" myself forward when I'm not involving the heel. So I can walk/run faster and not get tired as quickly as when I go heel-toe. Toe walking also allows for a more quiet step, which is nice because it ties into Nr. 1 sensory issues. If I'm not stomping around like a drunk rhino, there is less noise I have to deal with.