I get terrible headaches from my jaw tension, the thing that’s worked best for me has been lidocaine trigger point injections :-) it doesn’t last forever though
@salamalmudarris50325 күн бұрын
Bleuler was not describing the autism we know today. He used the term autism to describe a state of being detached from reality and living inward, with oneself, with one's own thoughts and fantasies. This state is found in schizophrenics. Therefore, Bleuler was not wrong in describing the state of autism in schizophrenics (but sharing Freud's ideas about auto eroticism are meaningless here). The mistake occurred when the term autism was borrowed from Bleuler (while describing schizophrenia) to describe cases of autism as a type of infantile schizophrenia. But actually the autistic person also lives with himself and may drown in his own thoughts, but they are not hallucinations or delusions, but rather rational thoughts, even if they are sometimes imaginary.
@hjbit9 күн бұрын
I'm the opposite.....my muscles are SOOOOO relaxed! that it takes a sickening amount of effort to do anything!......I have a video of me doing barbell curls, and I look like I should be able to manhandle the weight because I'm a big guy!......but the absolutely sickeningly strained expression on my face where I'm pulling with everything I've got, I look my my soul is leaving my body......and my muscles are just chillin out!! ......like they aren't even firing!!.....I workout everyday, and feel NOTHING in my muscles!.....it's all in my bones and joints!!.....I do have bigger muscles but they look sleepy!.....I have very sleepy muscles!....big but sleepy and soft! ......and if I try to sit with good posture, my heart pounds I start sweating and it becomes excruciating!......I have to slouch!.......I absolutely hate being like this!!
@oliverhawthorne343411 күн бұрын
This is the most profound explanation of the autist's existential condition that I have ever come across, particularly @4:40 "autism is a fear of energy flow". This resonates more than I can express in words. For example, I had an extreme fear of vomiting for years. Why? Because it is one particularly unpleasant and violent manifestation of the uncontrollable free flow of energy. I could provide multiple examples of this fear of energy flow that has itself caused immense suffering in my life and has also stifled life. Beyond that, I have often felt that my battle is a battle against time, against entropy. Everything I do is an attempt to control reality with my mind against the onslaught of time - an exhausting and losing proposition. I have often felt like I am in a time warp, a time loop, a war against time. So a question: assuming there is no cure currently available for autism, what is the best "management" strategy or technique to mitigate or adapt to this tendency to fight the free flow of energy (because we can't control it)? How should an autist respond to his autism in order to ease the friction that is otherwise caused by the confrontation of his autism with the world, reality-as-we-know-it?
@fabienne318911 күн бұрын
I have wanted to watch this for months, but I was watching the same stuff on loop so I put it off🫡
@nonsequitor16 күн бұрын
Deeply insightful. And yes, I'm terrified of entropy.
@Laylaflowerbewick17 күн бұрын
Viscose material always helps me
@xaisthoj20 күн бұрын
There goes my theory that all hyperlexics are going to also be verbal thinkers.
@rosemorrissey667122 күн бұрын
I think it’s important to prepare people by guiding them to sit or lie in a comfortable position first
@JiadaVlogs23 күн бұрын
I am not autistic, I just wanted to know more about it and the way you presented your opinion is fascinating, really.
@vanesadelvalle412925 күн бұрын
Thanks! ❤
@N1TROАй бұрын
Damn dude, i wonder if this would mean adhd is not all i have. Ive always been rediculously tense, and i guess i just became my norm. Now if i relax an area its almost like an instant panic as if something is wrong. Its entirely subconcious and my inability to relax antagonistic muscles, has always been a real irritation. I fully relate to what you are saying about how no sensory feedback causes a feeling of discomfort and slight panic. I dont know what you would define this as, i always atteibuted it to adhd, but i feel like im 24/7 thinking 200 mile an hour, i get bored of all the stimulus around me as it just doesnt interest me enough to maintain any moderate term attention. I feel like because of this, im always questioning everything and the combo of always being hyper aware and tense anyway, plus the lack of general stimulus, starts me subconciously questioning why i feel so little, why my muscles dont feel well much at all. Theres certainly nothing wrong in the moment but i may talk myself into it and begin the process of becoming more and more tense and too aware of what im physically doing. I toe walked till the age of 12 or so. I realised whilst recording my gait that my heels really smushed into the floor, i just thought maybe my ankles were collapsing in, but now after hearing you say that, i think its because i also have no callouses on my heels at all, they are all around the foorefoot and big toe. Im guessing in normal walkers that this area becomes much harder and doesn't just smush 😆. I will say i dont mind the feeling of my heel on the floor at all, i enfact kindof enjoy it, i dont currently know exactly why ive always toe walked, but it may be an issue ive had long term in the hips.
@theworldtome7962Ай бұрын
About sixth sent ... do you have a stront sixth sent ... my perception about energy , places and people is very strong :/
@tanyakuzmichАй бұрын
Brilliant insights! Really glad I've found your channel.
@superfacil369Ай бұрын
46 years. I continue walking on tiptoe, it's my natural way of walking, I feel super light and the balance is perfect. I often walk and run barefoot in the woods, it's the natural way of doing it. No diagnosis.
@misterbulgerАй бұрын
Tensing up leading to relaxation is exactly how dry needles work
@misterbulgerАй бұрын
Maybe this is why I've had an unexplainable back/hip ache for 25 yrs. Been to every doctor.
@corsai7506Ай бұрын
What wonderful poetic thoughts and there words 💙
@corsai7506Ай бұрын
Obviously, I'm 3 years late to the party, but you Christian are a great thinker and asset to Autism thinking, well done!
@corsai7506Ай бұрын
Great vid, but the big words scattered in your sentences required me to get the dictionary out?!
@williamtheautisticguy1996Ай бұрын
I'm autistic myself, but I don't have muscle tension. In fact, I'm glad I'm built like Ving Rhames, Arnold Schwarzneggar, Mike Tyson, and Dwayne The Rock Johnson.
@Idontknowanything000Ай бұрын
This is ultimately why I developed an interest in religion and spirituality - it proposes the idea of a soul or consciousness that is not defined by the physical body. Versus the purely biological view that we are our bodies.
@myimperfectlife2023Ай бұрын
Clothing sets off sensory issues very badly for me ... can't have shirt collars that are too close to my neck, no tags, no rough seams, no nylon, not too much polyester in a blend.....omg. when I find something that works for me i just buy several pairs 😏🤷
@higurashikai09Ай бұрын
I'm not autistic but I started toe walking when I was a kid because heel strikes gave me headaches. The toe walk is way more springy and absorbs a lot of impact in the muscles of the legs rather than the heel. The way I toe walk is more understated than how I've seen some autistic people toe walk though. If you look at me walk, you might not even notice that I'm toe walking because my heels are low but my weight is all in the front of the foot. Anyway, I think toe walking is superior to the heel-toe walk or heel strike even in running.
@JezebelSteffen2 ай бұрын
Thank you so so so much for this.
@shanedbunting2 ай бұрын
Atlas calves , I got'em , I also have so many different walks, I once took a 32+mile walk, took 12 hours .
@Adri-coversyasmr2 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for this, i feel so much better now after a exhausting day with a lot of overwhelming stress bcs of noises from outside (bus,metro,people) sending you a lot of hugs and positive energy ❤
@johnhoover89522 ай бұрын
I was diagnosed with ADHD as a child but it wasn't called ADHD I was coined a Slow Learner only later in my adult life (I am 50 years old) did I learn the name of the name of my slow learning condition. I do remember as a child though I would walk on my toes, I did not realize I was doing it but one of my grandmothers would notice when I would do it and she would ask "Why are you walking tippy toe" than she would point it out to my parents and ask them "Why is my grandbaby walking tippy toed like that, look" and she would point at me and tell my parents they needed to get me checked cause that isn't normal.
@jonmustang2 ай бұрын
Hey, this was fantastic! You're right, some of these states you're describing are similar to the liberated blissfulness that meditators have sought for millennia. The "I am this body, I am this person" is the ego sense and in advanced states of consciousness of great yogis, they've realized that the thoughts of "I am this body, I am these thoughts, I am this person" will fade away in deepest meditation. The "real I" one might say is the being or pure consciousness, no self, no other. Could it be that some autistic folks have less of the "false I" ego sense than most other folks? Fascinating theory.
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@wambuirk2 ай бұрын
As an adult I walk with the sides .feels uncomfortable to have my foot flat
@danielimmortuos6662 ай бұрын
Honestly whenever I'm going to school I'm always sweating so much even when it's 5 degrees celsius and that's why I always avoid layers and people ask me why I'm a not wearing this or that
@ellaboobella87702 ай бұрын
I’m sad. Toe walking has always been something I did regularly, and I did this into adulthood. But I had to stop because I fell and damaged my Achilles tendons, and I now can’t toe walk at all now. 😢
@michaelacobb12093 ай бұрын
I am in this exact position right now and have been here before. I have been stuck in my car for 50 minutes, waiting for something to compel me to open the car door and get out.
@michaelacobb12093 ай бұрын
also, for context, no i am not diagnosed, but autism and neurodivergency make so much sense- they explain nearly my entire existence
@AsAmsterdam3 ай бұрын
Hooo… wow. I needed to hear this. Thank you for reading to me. And thank you, Donna, for writing to me.
@ninaneshich3 ай бұрын
I have an autistic son. He is 5 years old and when the winter comes he neither wants to wear winter clothes nor let me use it. He keeps asking me to remove. So I found this video. I am trying to understand. Curious to know why he doesn’t like others to wear it too.
@ZhovtoBlakytniy2 ай бұрын
When I was that age I insisted on going out in the snow in my T-shirt and cotton shorts, barefoot. My parents let me do it for a short time just because I was so insisting and I loved it. Of course, I had to come back in after just a few minutes because that can be dangerous, but it wasn't a bone chilling winter day- just cold enough to snow and stick. The reason I hate winter clothes is not only do I hate heat, but winter clothes are hardly ever made from natural material but some plastic fibers. They can be itchy especially on the cuffs because of the way the elastic bunches the stiff polyester and vinyl material, the waterproof fabrics make weird noises when they rub (like a textured screen) and that can be overwhelming even for others nearby to wear. The sherpa polyester fluffy fabric sticks to dry winter skin. Some materials like fleece or flannel can pill and make bumps that have to be picked off. The winter boots are heavy and trap heat. The jacket or coat zipped to the throat and the scarves feels constricting. Mittens and gloves make our hands more useless. Thick socks with seams touching the toes is uncomfortable. Also, putting on all those layers feels like a workout sometimes. Hopefully those examples are giving some insight.
@nomoresunforever36953 ай бұрын
Isn't this the natural way to walk? Every other animal walks like this.
@junfaa2 ай бұрын
Not other species of apes.
@karowolkenschaufler76593 ай бұрын
this is very interesting. I struggle (really struggle. I've been on sick leave because of it) with fatigue and muscle tension/exhaustion/pain. like my muscles are working all the time but I'm not doing anything. I don't have an official diagnosis but I strongly suspect I a bit of an auDHDer... from what I can relate to from hearing people with a diagnosis describing it... this is a fresh path to go down. just tried the self hugging and automaticly did a deep in- and exhale before he even mentioned it. so there is definetly some value for me in it.
Sharing this explanation as well. Neuromuscular explanation. Hope that helps. I was a toe walker as a toddler.
@lunaisawitch3 ай бұрын
Thank u sm, this was REALLY helpful actually
@heathertoomey70683 ай бұрын
You now have another subscriber! ✌️ You might not hear this enough, so I guess I'll let you know, I think you're kinda cute.
@PurpleRhymesWithOrange3 ай бұрын
A Buddhist go into a pizza place and says, "make me one with everything" When his pizza comes out he give the cashier a $20 bill. He patiently waits for a while and then asks, "Where is my change?" The cashier responds, "Change must come from within."
@PurpleRhymesWithOrange3 ай бұрын
I often say I was raised by cats. We had 3 cats and I would follow them and squeeze into their hiding spots with them and they would cuddle up with me for naps. Often no one could find me because I had gone into a cat hole they thought would be too small for me to get into.
@PurpleRhymesWithOrange3 ай бұрын
As a pre-teen I literally lived in a closet for 4 years. It was only 4x5 so I could not lie down with my legs straight.
@troymccullagh3 ай бұрын
My youngest daughter has always walked on her toes.
@Nsayles3 ай бұрын
As an undiagnosed autistic person this makes a lot of sense for the way I saw things growing up and to this day.
@ClaireGreen-wd2gm3 ай бұрын
Im an autistic woman who of course never knew until I was 37. I toe walked as a child. Thing is my son who is so obviously autistic everyone knows immediately just looking at him was NOT a toe walker until he hit age 10 or 11. I have all the home videos to show it. Now hes 15 and is high up on those toes and you cant tell him anything against it. Now people see him and immediately assume hes incapable of most things and they think hes got the mind of a much younger child. He doesnt like that people that hes incapable of things his age boys should be able to do but he refuses to even try re learning to walk heel toe. Its going to negatively effect his life if he doesn't make an effort to modify this.
@sashasaettele3 ай бұрын
I'm a little late here, but I wanted to share my experience with toe walking regardless. I've been toe walking since I can remember and I find, that it is a whole combination of things that make me do it. 1. Sensory issues I hate wearing shoes in the house or on particular outdoor surfaces like sand and grass, because I kind of need to feel the surface that I'm walking/standing on. But whenever I am barefoot, my soles stick to the ground or I get small stuff stuck to the soles like crumbs, tiny stones, leaves etc. or there's a wet patch that i step into and I instantaneously shudder and get overwhelmed. So one of my instincts is, to minimize the surface area that can come into contact with icky ground. Hence the toe walk. 2. Pain Walking heel-toe does quite often cause me physical pain. The pressure on the heel starts to really hurt after a while and the entire "flat-foot-posture" starts to cause tension and pain in my legs, (causes actual cramping) and my back right up to my neck which can cause really bad tension headaches. So when I walk on my toes (or high heels) there is less pain than with regular flat shoes or barefoot. Also the impact vibrations of the heel hitting the ground while walking hurts and is quite disconcerting to me. 3. Ease of motion I find that toe walking is more "springy" than heel-toe. It takes less energy for me to "propel" myself forward when I'm not involving the heel. So I can walk/run faster and not get tired as quickly as when I go heel-toe. Toe walking also allows for a more quiet step, which is nice because it ties into Nr. 1 sensory issues. If I'm not stomping around like a drunk rhino, there is less noise I have to deal with.