What a beautiful painting

This video should have a million views I’ve never had this perspective on death and grief although I haven’t lost a loved one yet I’ll be favouriting this video I can’t imagine how it must feel but I am inspired by your resilience and capability to come to this understanding

Sorry for your loss

Thinking of you Antonia , after seeing you have lost both of your sons to addiction 😢. Sending hugs to you 🤍🤍😔💔

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I watched this and it's so sad to see our parents pass away, but this was a beautiful way to go . She was at home with her family and wa taken care of by her daughter and wanted it that way. My sister did the same thing but deep down if I had lived not so far away I would've done the same thing . My Dad lived longer than my Mom but he was so lost without her he died of a broken 💔. Death is inevitable nobody walks away ! So while you r still on this earth be happy tell the people in your life you love them there's no turning back live each day like it's your last! Thanks for sharing I hope my kids take care of me when I'm dying I do not want to be put in a nursing home never thanks for sharing very lovely video!

Wow. Goes to show how varied karma can be.

I'm so thankful I'll never have this shed load of death and sadness in my life. Makes me grateful to be me. When I think on how I'll be doing a giant road trip around New Zealand this year, and that young man had no life at all.

Wow! I have no words. Recently dx w C I just want this dignity! Don’t know I want to fight it!!

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Such a beautiful lady going back home to the mother ship where she will be welcomed by all of God's Heavenly host! May peace be upon her forever🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤❤❤😢😢😢

So peaceful ❤ I lost my mom nearly 5 years ago and not a day goes by when I don’t think of her 💜🌸. Many blessings for continued warm and peace until you see her again 🌸🌺

Phew! That was tough too watch. My mother just passed recently. Thank you

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I love so much this video

I was by the side of my 31 year old little girl and watched her pass away. The loss, broke my heart............. A parent should near see their sibling die.........

This video is incredible. This video needs an award of some sort, beautifully, and tastefully done. I am so sorry for your loss.

this is more than sick

how can one do THAT??? shame on you, disgusting family!!!

DID SHE KNOW THE LORD GOD JESUS CHRIST THE ONLY CREATOR AND SAVIOR OF THE WORLD AND DO YOU ALSO? - JOHN 3: 1-21 KJV

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I was with my mother, in hospital, when she passed. Still hv nightmares about it. Wish I wasnt there.

Did you open the window to allow her exit to the other side

Such a beautiful lady. Such a sad moment when this video came up, but what a celebration of her life with you and her beautiful family. God bless you all and thanks for sharing her happy life x

❤so beautiful. I lost my mom Feb 2023. I wish I could have been with her in her last moments. Was with her every day but not her last breath. She knew how much I loved her I miss her so much😢

You gave your mother what anyone could dream of. Peace , love and dignity.

So tender & Beautiful Thank you 🌹

Having lost my beloved husband, I would never ever have filmed or posted his last moments, absolutely unbelievable to me, this is not dignity in death. I lay on his bed with him all day in the hospice and to take a photo would never have crossed my mind, I know we are all different, but to see your mum being strapped to a stretcher was to much for me. Would your mum want this posted? Sorry but just so shocking even the song was completely off, did you listen to the words?

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I like the music

My husband died at home from cancer it was what he wanted and I know he felt at peace. It is always good robe able to die in the comfort of your own home.

Me english is not the best, but i read as she was die, a wind came trough the window. as my girlfriend die i feelt an fresh wind on an windcalm day and in this moment i knew that my girl is on the way in heaven, 50 minutes later i heard that me feeling was right. i can feel with you.

Your words never fail to amaze me ❤

I used to see my mom being a bunch of bones & suffering a lot. May GOD have mercy on their soul. It is sad. Reallybsad.

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Cared for my dad during end of life me mum brother and sister, learned a lot of things during palliative care i knew nothing about,watching dad die slowly changed me as a person, he educated me in life then in death, miss him so much he passed aug 14th 2023, never experienced anything quite so traumatic yet peaceful he slipped away comfortably and peacefully with us all around him .death terrified me not anymore, dad had lymph node advanced cancer

Hello Antonia, i knew Costya many years ago, when i too was in a very dark place or drugs. I just wanted to say that i am deeply sorry that he has passed. Also from a awakened spiritual perspective Costya really was a earth angel as i am and most of us do suffer in our lifetimes. Sending love xxx

Thank you This is beautiful and again, just what I needed

Thank you for sharing what many of us know as one of the most difficult experiences one can have. We lost Mom in March 2020 to Glioblastoma a form of brain cancer. As a nurse for 40 years, she understood her terminal diagnosis and knew there was no cure. Radiation and chemotherapy were the only options to extend her life by a few weeks but at the cost of her quality of life which would decline dramatically. She knew that she had the support of her whole family no matter which way she decided to approach her diagnosis. She gracefully chose a beautiful death. One that she encouraged us, her family to embrace. What resistance she had through the process, like your mother, was short-lived and then suddenly acceptance. She drifted off into a beautiful death, as I lay on her chest to hear that final heartbeat and breath. Once I realized she had gone, my words to her were similar to yours. " You did good, thank you for making it ok to let you go!" I will carry this with me forever, and I pray that when my day comes, I too will have the strength and grace to go softly.

You are the most Soulfull orator and writer. ❤

I hope you reach even more people that need to hear your story. It’s deep and painful but I think your going to help so many

Antonia. I am watching you from afar (California), and I signed up for KZbin so I could communicate with you. You dear Antonia radiate pure love and light. What a gift you must have been to Costya. The fact that he was able to express his true feelings with you speaks to that. As a gay woman myself I can only guess the relief he must have felt to finally introduce his partner and live his true life. I am a psychology professor and if it fine with you I would love to share your videos with my students. Through Costya you are able to educate about addiction, grief, death and unconditional love. I will forever think of you and Costya 💙🙏

We have to forgive ourselves first I think … we made mistakes we are human … sending you mahooosive hugs as always 🤗

When I came to your channel, I did not know what to expect; however, I am captivated... I work in a Substance Use Disorder treatment facility in Ohio. I just purchased your book, and I am starting at your first video and will work my way through them all. I typically do not subscribe without watching a handful of videos first, but your channel struck me as something powerful. Something that I really need. From reading through the titles of your videos, I can tell I will be able to relate to many of them.

Sadly our lives are never linear ... nor are they promised to any of us. I think we all make choices based on our personalities. I cannot function if there is chaos or drama. As soon as a situation escalates out of control my instinct is to leave, or give in and agree so I can feel safe and comfortable again. Addiction in any form is a beast to overcome. Unfortunately not everyone can be helped or wants help. I am sorry for your loss! I wish you peace of mind in knowing that you did the best you could given the situation.

Such a beautiful boy. ❤ So much sadness. Words are hard at such times, but just wanted to say I am thinking of you. xxx

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This is one of the most beautiful videos I have ever seen and it resonates very deeply with myself

this suck there is no way i couls sit there and watch my mom go period i wouldnt let them take her couldnt see myself having to let her go

Antonia. This is gorgeous you… heartful always and sharing so openly. Thank you. My dear friends son recently died in similar circumstances at 29. I believe this will comfort her. You are an amazing Soul. I love you dearly. Thank you. And I am so sorry for the loss of amazing Costya. He was a very special young man and I’m so glad I got to spend time in his presence. ❤Love always