His lecture Dualism, Monism, and Nihilism on this channel as well as The Serpent and the Egg at Horizon Lodge cover those topics really well

this one is good - kzbin.info/www/bejne/qofYkJ9_paaDY9Esi=znCbQV1kxy8zkcAo - but check out the others on the foundational concepts playlist, too

"It is not true to say either that we are separate Stars, or One Star. Each Star is individual, yet each is bound to the others by Law. This Freedom under Law is one of the most difficult yet important doctrines of this Book. So too the ritual -- our lives -- must be unto Nuith; for She is the Ultimate to which we tend, the asymptote of our curve. Failure in this one-pointedness sets up the illusion of duality, which leads to excision and destruction." (New Comment on AL I.52)

@@Entelecheia Fair enough, you're right that the concept of one consciousness would be in fact be incorrect as there are a plurality of Monads. But is it not also true that every Star is a totality in of itself and contains everything, including other Stars, within it? This is is more the idea I was getting at in my original comment, that while every Star is individual and unique, it is a monistic consciousness, and that includes people outside of the ego we are incarnated into and currently experiencing. I'm reminded of your article on Indra's Net and the idea of Panta-en-pasin, or all things are in all things. And further, there is again the ethical injunction to not interfere with the will of another, at least in part because they make up a portion of the self: "Abstain from all interferences with other wills. “Beware lest any force another, King against King!” [AL II:24] (The love and war in the previous injunctions are of the nature of sport, where one respects, and learns from the opponent, but never interferes with him, outside the actual game.) To seek to dominate or influence another is to seek to deform or to destroy him; and he is a necessary part of one's own Universe, that is, of one's self." (Duty A.3)

Nice.

I've done a few videos about what makes Thelema distinct as a spiritual path. You might want to start with this one: kzbin.info/www/bejne/qofYkJ9_paaDY9E

@Entelecheia I'm just in my feelings right now I feel like burning the heavens and shaking the foundation of creation and screaming wth is the point and why was there no clear road map to this horrible existence?

No, maybe something more like the Witness from Buddhist tradition? Meta-okayness is not complete and total aloofness from life but rather the ability to hold all of our experiences in luminous, unbounded awareness.

In my experience it takes you out of your POV which is often overrun with emotions. With that different POV I am able to see everything clearer. I am able to ask questions like: what's the problem, what triggered the emotions, can I find a solution to the problem, does this situation really need these emotions or can I transmute them. And then I can go on to sort the problem or sometimes accept that there is nothing I can do right now. Jordan Peterson has a similar approach: treat yourself like someone you are responsible helping for.

You may want to start with meditations where you learn to identify (name) emotions as they arise in the body. With that foundation in place, you would then learn to track thoughts as they arise and to see the connections between those thoughts and the emotions as they arise. This will help expand your awareness of feelings and desires in real-time.

Jesus hates fun. 😓

If I recall Jung talked in the Red Book about meeting an inner figure like this and I think it's basic point was "you are so serious and intellectual you suck all joy out of life" (not an actual quote). I also found it interesting that in the dialogue the devil figure seemed to be starting to understand him (his ego at least) as much as he was getting to know it.