It's neurological damage. Takes a while for the brain to heal. Some have no symptoms, some suffer hell. I'm unlucky I guess. I used for a month and never used them previously.

We all need hope. I keep thinking it's over and it comes back. I used for a month and still here after 21 months. I cold turkeyed. The waves are milder but still horrible and scary. I thought coming off antidepressants was bad but there's no comparison!! This is HELL. For anyone tempted to use this POISON don't do it, EVER!! For me, the dark depression has more or less gone. Anxiety usually just mornings but it varies. Over the last 21 months I've had about 40 plus symptoms. I'm now left with about 10 and usually have clusters of 5 or 6 symptoms at a time. Symptoms eased a little since giving up the caffeine and most artificial sugar but it's still hard. I want my life back . I've paid my price 😢😢😢😢

Hi all. This is a good site. I'm glad I've found it. It gives me some hope when I sometimes think this torture is never ending and I think the only way out of this hell is in a coffin. Sorry to hear about your friend. SMS (Substance misuse service) Tried to get me off diazepam and dihydrocodeine in just 3 months which is crazy. I've been on Diazepam for over a decade and dhc for 3 years. I couldn't keep up with the 2mg weekly reduction of diazepam cos it was too fast. I was struggling right from the beginning. It got worse on month 2. That's when my key worker suggested that I go back on antidepressants. I said no way am I starting them again while im already struggling daily tapering off benzos and opiods pain killers. It took me years to get off the antidepressant. They give you anxiety when you start taking them which would be crazy. I tell my key worker this taper is too fast. Im gonna relapse but tbh he hasn't got a clue what I'm going through. When I got down to just 4 mgs of diazepam I insisted that they dont drop me down to 2mg and hold me on 4 mgs for at least a month. But i should have told him to hold me on a higher dosage. Because now i can't cope with anything. I can't drive. So i can't go shopping and I'm going through this alone. This morning i woke up in the dark with deafening tinnitus. Palpitations and weird intrusive thoughts. Last week i thought i was having a stroke when i had pins and needles and numbness around my mouth. It felt like I'd just had an injection by the dentist. My nerves in my arms felt like burning wires coming up out of my skin. My body is constantly flooded with andrenaline and cortisol which is taking a toll on my body. I've already had one heart attack. I'm terrified of having another cos of the strain. I keep texting my key worker but he has no idea what it's like. I have an appointment with him next week. My 3 month taper was supposed to finish a week ago but it hasn't worked so now i don't know where we go from here. I don't want to relapse cos the last 3 months have been hell and I've put so much effort into it. SMS don't want to up my dose or reinstate so i think im truely screwed.

Search before a bigger tapering drop. Always. Im at the end now but it surged. And tinnitus is constant , head pressure and depressed mood...maybe thats it after that that I can drop off the last little bit.

Gps deny long term benzo withdrawal for the most part. They diagnose you with other things and try give you more medications They're drug pushers for big pharma IMO

Watching this just reminded me of a friend who regularly used to say he hated men and if he had a gun he'd shoot them all. He'd say it regularly but I obviously didn't think he was truly serious. Later on I realised he was using some medication, I cannot remember what it was now bit it is banned now in UK. I do not trust ANY pharmaceuticals anymore. I take virtually none and I'm terrified of benzos especially. Stay vigilant people. There's very little profit in healthy people, keep that in mind.

I used for a month . I felt terrible on them. I used between 2 and 6 mg valium every other day or so. Twenty months I'm still suffering. It's not as bad but like you say it's incessant, it feels like im being held hostage by this poison I used for a brief time

Did you ever get brain/head sensations? Like dizziness, brain tingling, headaches and head pressure?

Every wave has been a fight for my life and most people don't get it, not even doctors. I'm 20 months into my CT

Alost 3 years clean and I still have damage. Spasms and twitching and shaking in my calves/torso. Pinched nerve pain in my neck and left shoulder blade. I also have feelings of doom and dread. Feelings of hopelessness. Anxiety is not as bad but it's still there. Depersonalization is bad but it has made me see life in a new way. It's hard to explain. This planet is truly one big torture chamber for all lifeforms. I can just see and feel it more clearly now. I feel like a God who feels all the pain of its creation.

Do you have any thoughts on antibiotics with this journey?

Hi, I found your videos so helpful and hope that I would get some answers for my strange weird symptoms. I am now 10. 5 months off xanax, my physical symptoms are less, but I have intense mental issues, they were not as severe as now in earlier months. These mental feelings keep on changing, like today I felt like my brain is disconnected from surroundings and people around. I was just present, but couldn't feel or relate, like I don't exist, it' was so horrible and terrifying. Is this common in benzo withdrawal? Did you feel these types of mental stuff, where you are totally disconnected? I have heavy, weird , screwed feeling in head also. Please help.

So so so so very difficult.

TAKE AT LEAST 100mg of Vitamin B1(Thiamine)

I've messed around with benzos on and off for a few years and everytime I quit I have a seizure. Recently, I tried to taper off myself because I wasn't getting them the legal way after almost 2 years of 4-6 mg a day and by day 3 I had a seizure which caused me to faceplant and needed 9 stitches. I know I can get off them once I get passed the danger zone because I've done it multiple times. I really can't afford to lose my job over this so I've already made some doctors appointments to get off them the right way. I don't care about the mental stuff, I can deal with that, I just don't ever want to have another seizure again because it may be the last one. I ride a motorcycle to get to work too so the thought of seizing up while riding scares the shit out of me. I've got a 2 and a half year old and wife to care for. They got me through some rough times, but at this point in my life I know I don't need them anymore. I'll get through it.

Sounds like you didn’t get hit with the brutal chemical depression that many get. Drug withdrawals creates severe imbalances in brain chemistry that can leave people horribly depressed. Telling them to just shake it off and stop complaining is crazy. Not great advice man when people can’t even help they feel that way from drug dependency

33 months my dpdr qnd emotional blunting is so bad it doesnt ho

Wow! I have said this to myself sooo many times. As in, "Wow, this is just so relentless! Why? What did I do to deserve this?"

Thanks neighbour bob glad I found your channel.

Thanks

Water fast, thanks.

Did you slow taper or cold turkey? Did you switch to a longer acting benzodiazepine if you did taper?

Any scientific base mate?

Thank you so much for your reply. I looked on the Therabulb site and it recommended protective glasses but other sites say it’s good for your eyes just like you said. I so appreciate everything you do for others dealing with recovery. We are on our own to figure out how to cope. I’m still in the just stay alive phase unfortunately. Hoping this red light might help. Thanks again ❤️

Neighbor Bob, did you wear eye goggles with your Therabulbs? Thank you

Very helpful video! During my taper, the feeling of unreality was a constant symptom with other frightening ones. Now when I am almost 6 months off xanax, dpdr is the most severe and terrifying symptom. Thanks for the list , that shows the manifestations of dpdr, I can exactly relate. Please help, will it go away as time passes?

I have gone through the worst wave at month 16-20 and I couldn’t for the life of me understand why I was just getting worse and worse. For the last 2-3 days there has been genuine improvement that feels different to the previous windows, my obsessive thoughts and burning brain really reduced. I have a number of symptoms and it’s still not right but I’m hoping this might be it, that it could be the last surge before I really start healing. Was your healing after the last wave instant or did things just gradually get better over days/weeks following that last wave until one day you were like everything is normal again? And is it usually around this 20-24 month mark that the last wave happens?

Thank you for this video as I’m walking through hell still at 2.5 years.

How are you doing today?

Can you write to me, I'm begging you endlessly, I'm already dying, please help

he is totally awesome!!

What is your thoughts about cryotherapy ?

How about burning brain and SI?

Hi there but I wanted to seek some insight on the encephalopathy that you were experiencing. What was your main symptom? And do you still struggle?

Hey Bob. I've been trying to message you on what's app but it's not working.

How are you now? I have a infrared sauna. At what degree and how long do I stay in there?

I was put on Klonopin 30 years ago. Have finished my 14 month taper. I’m 31 days off. I know that’s early but now I’m worse than when I was tapering. I’m 62. There are days I don’t think I’m going to make it! So thankful you’re video popped up this morning!!! So helpful

You’re video just popped up. Thank you for sharing

Loser.

Disgusting Kalergist.

Two racist trolls....vacate ly(f)fe soon. So goddamn tired of you trolls and bigots . (F) da racist...

Hi Neighbor Bob-Thanks for all of your work. Did you ever see a doctor to get diagnosed for the burning skin symptom that you experienced that you have mentioned in your videos? I was just diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy and erythromelalgia. I have horrible burning in my feet and hands...bright red skin...veins bulging. I am hoping that this burning pain ends up going away.

Today is my 2 year Clean from klonipin. Still sucks can't sleep well and social anxiety but my mind is getting healthier and so is a good thing I suppose. Still think i want to take them again sometimes.

I just got my bulb this morning (the clamp lamp came first), and It is incredible how potent it is. I can't use it for more than 30 seconds, and I have felt it's effects for the past five hours. I'm definitely going to be using this and say thank you for bringing it to my attention. Definitely a worthwhile $30.

I cant take it anymore. It just getting worse and worse. I cant be positibe about this feelings..I have so much existencial dread 😢😢😢😢

I’m sorry for your loss of your father🌹🌹Did you have the inner vibration restless feeling? I think it’s akathisia it’s the worst symptom for me I’ve got that bad every morning it mind fucks me bad with bad thoughts doom wanting to escape it. . Love you so much thank you for taking your time to make these videos.

I have since long ago changed my mind on recommending nutritional yeast "fortified or unfortified". As it seems to have the same basic nutritional profile as MSG or "monosodium glutamate". Which is something in most processed foods to be avoided at all costs. I have spoken to a couple thousand people over the last five years, and they have taught me a lot more than I used to know about it. Neighbor Bob

Bob how you doing? I'd love to have you on my channel. How long should you shine the light on your head?