Yes to what you’re describing here. Experiencing a post-journey tightening of the ego’s grip, an insistent loop of negative thoughts about “my” life. And this insidious ego steals from me any ability to do anything to improve my situation. It’s unbearable. The only way to dissolve this madness, is to trick myself by doing something very small, simple and easy. Simply lying down and making myself do slow deep conscious rhythmic breathing. In for 4, hold for 4, out for 4, hold for 4, repeat. It works. Surrender to the breath. Focus on the rhythm. This simple thing quietens and liberates the mind.

the 5th dimension is satans heaven. it's not good. it's not bad. this lady gets it. good to experience now instead of dealing with it after death. understand the 6th and make 7th heaven here on earth. then study, and prepare to cross the river.

In the spirit of a constructive dialogue, I offer my reflection after watching the video a number of times. I can appreciate your perspective on the use of 5-MeO-DMT, highlighting potential risks associated with quick and unintegrated experiences with the substance, often in what they describe as a "drive-by" style, where individuals don't have sufficient preparation or integration. The video's message seems to push for a more structured, prolonged, and facilitated experience, particularly in the context of an expensive retreat environment, while subtly criticizing less extensive and possibly less costly approaches. Here’s my breakdown of the situation: The message is both valid and concerning. On the one hand, they’re right to emphasize the importance of preparation, integration, and a supportive environment, especially when dealing with a powerful substance like 5-MeO-DMT. Quick, poorly integrated experiences can indeed lead to psychological distress, unresolved trauma, or confusion. However, it’s important that this cautionary advice doesn’t morph into fear-mongering, creating the impression that only high-cost retreats are “safe” or “valid” spaces for using these medicines. There seems to be an underlying marketing tactic here that uses a passive-aggressive tone-perhaps to instill fear about alternative (often cheaper) methods-while promoting their retreat as the ideal or only safe environment. This approach can create a false sense of exclusivity, where those without financial means may feel discouraged from seeking alternative avenues for healing or experiencing the medicine. Healing, especially with psychedelics, is not one-size-fits-all. While the structure and support of a retreat might be invaluable for some people, others may have profound and successful experiences in less formal settings, guided by trusted individuals or in more accessible formats. The affordability and accessibility of these experiences should not be gatekept, though the need for preparation and integration is universal.

Great garden. Do you have any animals also?

love these trip reports! keep them coming

Hi, i have 5 meo dmt at home. Tried it couple of times on minimal doses. Its too much for me now, i am terrified and not feel ready. I had couple of intense expierences with lsd, but th 5 meo its so fast. Do you recommend making the doses higher gradually, or using lsd more until trying normal dose of 5 meo? Thank so much❤❤

Great. Didnt hear it from anybody else yet. Its so good.

Love it! ❤

Your breathworks are the best I've ever done. You truly create inner journeys. These should have million of views. Will more sessions like this come?

What do you recommend to keep this energy from the expierence? After lsd, the glow lasted for couple months, i wasnt doing much meditation and stuff like that, but the expierence was so intense, i couldnt throw it away. Thanks ❤

This was something else. Thank you!

man stand up to the government or there ain’t going to be no home

I've had 4 full realeases with 5 which was life changing but, i do question if it can be somewhat of a hinderance as we really should be connecting to god naturally via absloute stilling of the mind but its taken about a year for this realisation since my experience with 5! I love to know your thoughts on this ?

I didn't watch the video because your question is obvious. The answer is: As often as possible. Try to create as much free time as possible so that you are always in a different world.

After 5-meo-dmt, even though I don't often meditate, if I did, for weeks afterwards I would almost go back to the peak unity experience which scared me. The original experience was actually traumatic as I just wasn't ready physiologically or psychologically to let go to that degree. Now a few years later I have started to meditate again and the same thing is happening. It seems this 'after effect' is unusual and I *really* blasted myself open. I'm not sure what to do about it, other than try to get over the fear of dissolution somehow.

Great stuff !!! my country of Australia has started work with the dying, and Psilocybin. Good to see others at work on this vital tryptamine class of molecules and their amazing properties for healing, and managing mental suffering !!!

The first time I tried 5MEO I took more than I probably should have but I overall enjoyed the experience and felt like I gained some amount appreciation from it. I took 3 big hits, held each about 8 or so seconds, laid back, and let the experience happen. I consciously remember all of it and it's the only psychedelic that has let me experience a degree of ego death - something I am normally resistant to. The second time I tried 5MEO, about a week after the first, I made a serious mistake. For one, I took about 2.5 grams of shrooms about 90 minutes before hand. I often do this with normal DMT since I find it lowers the breakthrough threshold, slightly calms the chaotic energy of the DMT experience, and also prolongs the duration while making me feel more conscious and aware of the minutiae and details of the trip. With 5MEO it did largely the same thing. Having some shrooms in my system when I did 5MEO was wonderful and is genuinely one of the most blissful and euphoric experiences in my life. The visuals I got on the shrooms + 5MEO combo are some of the most beautiful I have ever seen in my entire life, which is incredible since they largely lacked form or shape. I don't regret doing this and I very much going to make a ritual of this - albeit one not to do often. But. I did not know about 5MEO reactivations or about the lingering side effects that it can have, as normal DMT does not have these side effects. I also did a lot more 5MEO. I did three cycles of three hits of 5MEO, taking five or so minutes after each experience ended to access my mental state and safety before redosing for the next. In total this would have been nine hits of 5MEO over about thirty minutes. But the effects of the 5MEO lasted much longer than thirty minutes. If a normal 5MEO trip has an intensity of 100%, after about an hour after I had taken my last hit, it felt like the 5MEO was still at around 10% intensity. It's like I was stuck in a minor 5MEO experience that just wouldn't end. I couldn't sleep and while lying down and trying to relax and meditate I would find myself drawn back into 5MEO reactivations at about 70% intensity (which I did not know about so it freaked me out as I had no idea what was happening). I also made the mistake of doing this at around 5PM. Five hours after my last hit I wanted to go to sleep and I could not. It took 14 hours for that lingering 10% 5MEO trip to gradually reduce in intensity to about 2% such that I could fall asleep at all. I would continue to be wakened by 5MEO reactivations until about 18 hours after the trip, and I still noticed lingering visual phenomena and effects for a few days after. That was, by far, the worst psychedelic experience of my life. I was genuinely afraid that I had fried my brain and was never going to be able to sleep again. I was earnestly worried that I would never feel normal because what was supposed to be a 10 minute trip ended up lingering for almost an entire day. It made me take a full, two-week break from any psychedelics whatsoever and when I went back into it I did so carefully and gradually. Despite that, I actually really appreciate 5MEO. I don't know what it is about me but I don't think I've ever had a "bad trip" and rarely do I experience what people describe as ego death. The highest dose I've tried of shrooms was 13 grams in one dose after a two break to reset tolerance, and as wild and insane as that experience was I remained in good control of myself and was self-aware of myself. There's a certain, "to control your trip you must let go of control," mindset I think I find easy to adopt. Part of the reason I wanted to try 5MEO is that I was worried that I was starting to not respect these substances. I've seen people have horrible trips and experience complete self-dissolution. I respect these substances a great deal and do put in work both before and after my trips to ensure I have recovered and integrated them, but I wanted to experience a challenging trip for no other reason than I wanted to know what they were like. If I didn't, I was worried my respect for these substances would fade over time. The actual 5MEO experience did not change this. 5MEO is intense and it really does make you feel the boundaries of your personal self-dissolve. But the immediate effects of the trip were largely positive - terrifying, but beautiful. What I appreciate more than the trip itself is actually that horrible 18 hours afterward. It's the first time I've taken a psychedelic and finally at long last been personally humbled. I still use 5MEO - though I absolutely no more than once per day, three days at max in a row, with a break of several weeks if not months between. If I rejected it wholly after my bad experience then I would have gained nothing from it. But I respect it and other psychedelics so much more now. When I do use 5MEO, I go into it after a period of self-reflection and preparation, and I take it in the mornings so I have time to let these lingering reactivations fade before I sleep later that night. Like with all psychedelics, if you can, the best way to recover from a bad experience is to see if you can learn something from it. Ideally though, you should be better than I was, and try as much as you can not to have a bad experience to begin with.

I don't think I often see 5MEO described as a purely blissful experience, but it is a very good idea to make sure people be aware that even more so than all other psychedelics, 5MEO must be respected and approached with caution. A bad trip on any other psychedelic (shrooms, LSD, N,N DMT, etc) can be unpleasant, but I think the odds of people genuinely being harmed by them are enormously low even after horrible trips. 5MEO on the other hand... yeah I think it has more potential for harm mentally, physically, and if you buy into it spiritually. The sheer sense of self-dissolution on 5MEO can be exhilarating and and terrifying at once. It feels like your entire sense of self and your perception of all existence gets shattered into infinite fractal pieces that meld together into a single whole. You can feel a profound connection with the universe and with eternity but also a sense of horrible emptiness and dread. The euphoria I feel taking 5MEO is unmatched by anything else but no 5MEO experience has been without its sheer and panic and fear. You cannot get one without the other. I do think that 5MEO is an incredible substance, and I think experience, confident, and humble psychonauts can benefit from it immensely. Integrating 5MEO experiences has (by my perception, to which it is possible that everything I say is complete funk) let me move on from incredible hardships. It's like it resets your personal held values and beliefs to nothing and then lets you pick and choose what things you want or don't want to continue believing in. Just don't fall into the trap of having 5MEO dissolve away your the values and believes in your life that you normally find appreciation in.

Its great to discover this in your life❤

Great description, i got 5 meo while ago and tried it couple times. Its so strong and starts in seconds. I need to slowly get to higher dose i am not ready yet. Your channel is great. Good luck man.❤

I am one of the ones who has ended up worse than before... its been over a year. Can you help me?

I have been really destabilized by 5meo... its been over a year... I really need help😢

Wow❤

There's nothing wrong with being isolated.

As someone who only smokes weed I think that this was a good introduction for explaining and preparing someone. Obviously one should know all the signs and risk of taking a psychedelic drug because it could go wrong at any moment depending on your mental. This was a good and clean video 🤎👏🏾 also love the minimalistic aesthetic

The A B C of the base of psychology of the mind of humans is often neglected because of pride and vanity, because a lot of people think they are too smart to consider the possibility of a need to readjust the basics (at least some parts of the basics) of the psychology of the mind of humans. Levels of intelligence can, and do decrease at some point, at some moments, to levels of idiocy in this society. I will just mention flattening, in the sense of being stuck on the surface, being stuck with artificiality, being stuck with superficiality, in other words not being able to reach a real level, not being able to reach a level that's real basically. Turning inward is our goal in the sense that our goal is creating depth in the mind. As we all know (not all of us, but...) we strive to create depth in the mind, and beauty in the depth, we try to balance the mind, and we try to balance the mind like the natural well-balanced cycles that occur in nature in healthy environments. Don't let it get you down when you observe the state that mankind is in. It's just not true that we cannot open our eyes and observe painful things and testify to the world if we have a greater calling, a greater purpose, which is basically showing the problems to avoid that they keep stuck in vicious circles. As you may know, some authorities, some influential people will do everything they can to avoid the world getting to know the real problems that really narrow the base of the psychology of the mind of humans. Smart observers have a clear view on the lack of width in the base of the spirit. The lack of width in the base of the spirit is the first obstacle to remove in order to open the door that leads to the possibility of removing the lack of depth in the spirit. God is a teacher, and teaches people to find their own way to understand this. If you're asked to communicate a perfect microscopic documentation of life and the world, don't replace things that you're not 100% really sure of with how you would like the world to be, don't synchronize what you really see with how you would like the world to be. It's like this, like this , like this, like this, don't turn it, don't change it, because all the devils are on the other side. Light is the enemy of obscurity, solutions are the enemies of the problems, no matter from what angle you're looking at it, it's like that.

Well damn...

Jack Kornfield: “After the Ecstasy The Laundry” Very helpful on this particular. He talks about deep meditators but also about those who’ve reached high levels of awakening via psychedelics

interesting conversation, but way too many 'likes' though

Im trying to heal chronic fatigue syndrome, can this help? I feel like I lost control over my body

The way he calmly expresses rather difficult personal processes is wonderfull. Such a delight to listen to. As wel as the thoughtful questions and the way she responds. Hope this channel will get more reach!

Sorry We are not God we are a infinitesimal part of God…..God does not need medicine , we do! …..God , Govinda is The Supreme controller , we are not…. Think about!

I went a bit hard on lsd bc of electronic festivals, house gatherings. Always good to give yourself a brk

Amazing conversation. 🙌

I'm so glad you made this video! I've so rarely encountered someone who's done these psychedelics dozens or hundreds of times who seems "enlightened." They more often seem like people from the first category who are pretending to be in the second. The people I know who've really changed their lives are the people who use them sparingly and really think about and integrate the experiences.

This video was at 999 views. I'm the 1,000 viewer!

Words of wisdom

Well said 👍❤ Maybe we could use the two concepts « awakening » and « enlightenment » to make a distinction between the experience and the spiritual path you need put effort in? I would say the 5-meo-dmt peak experience is an awakening. The start or trigger of the spiritual journey with a moment of realization, or an epiphany that reveals the interconnectedness of all things or the illusory nature of the self. Then the integration process afterwards, walking the spiritual path that involves not only recognizing deeper truths of the awakening but fully embodying and living them culminates to enlightenment. A profound shift in one’s way of being.

Ive never met anyone that actually benefited from it. they'll always claim to, and act like they have some secrets from the universe. But the truth is, they are just avoiding emotional issues and now entity infested.

I can resonate completely with your explanation. Thank you for this information . After 1 week the pressure on my brain is gone. My sleep was terrible with hot flashes and going back to the void of my trip. But like you said if you've had past trauma's you need to work deeper on yourself. What I experience as well is that my body seems to be disconnected as soon as I lie in bed. I have the fear of getting an out of body experience. Is this a common thing? Like a door has been opened and my meditation sessions are completely changed in a deeper state. It frightens me as I lose a grip on myself.

This video is great

I saw 666 subs, so I unsubscribed (665) and subscribed again (666). Now I am the 666th subscriber of this channel. Having taken 5meodmt 15 times in 5 sessions, I still need to open up to it fully grasp it. I am not ready yet again. But when time comes, medicine will call for me.

Thanks for getting this out there. This a very usual misconception of the process, 👏 Thanks again

So glad to watch this. I had an absolutely terrifying experience with this a week ago. I now feel scared and confused and trying to make sense of things. My anxiety is through the roof. I've also been waking up screaming and talking in my sleep. I've been unable to meditate as its too noisy and my heart is racing. I resisted the medicine during my ceremony and was asking no no no stop to the shaman. I know I.wasnt in this place for a few minutes as I don't remember the first few minutes after the pipe but after that I was afraid, I was sobbing and crying hard. I did feel relaxed after the ceremony but I wanted to leave the space I was in quickly. My issues in life have been around addiction, trauma, abuse. I wanted a quick fix solution. But now I feel confused. I thought I would not wish to drink after my ceremony but I then proceeded to drink for a fee days. Yesterday and today are the first days i have not drank since the ceremony and I feel a desire to want to integrate my experience now and try and do the necessary work I need to do. In the last week there have been experiences that I have handled differently to how I would normally handle things. So wanted to be away from certain toxic people and a desire to be at home with my family rather than alone in my apartment so I have come home to my mother's home. A longing to be with my family and a strong desire to feel safe has come over me. It was good to watch this video as I had so much Confusion and fear around my experience as it felt terrifying and not beautiful as so many describe it. I wondered if I had done something wrong.

I've never heard anyone describe 5meoDMT as just a simple beautiful process (?)

Your vids are awesome bro!

Such an important step, no expectations, leads to better results, ironically.

Thank you for your clarity. It helped me understand more about the process and variety of experience with this medicine. I am open to explore the healing process with the medicine. You answered a lot of questions!

Just listened on Spotify, this guy offers so much insight and teaches so many valuable lessons. Great listen!!!

Love your podcast!