God is not the solution to hating yourself. I'm sorry, it's true. God loves us, but in the wise words of Bo Burnham, "God's love is the kind of thing that when you earn it, you don't need it." God might be there encouraging us, loving us, and driving us forward, showing us the right path and shining light on our dark world, but the only way to stop hating yourself is to become a person you can respect. Personally, I loathe myself. I am unfit, I am unlikable, I have very few achievements I consider worthwhile, I am stuck in a terrible relationship that is most likely toxic and I have no direction. While I do choose to believe God has a plan for me, like he does everyone else, that path he has planned is for me to walk. Only I can change how I feel about myself. Only I have the power to become someone I can like, that I can respect, that I can be proud of. God can't do that, he can only guide me on my path.
@user-MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP3 күн бұрын
Amen brother. Thank you father for saving an innocent life ❤
@itsflow18783 күн бұрын
Thank you and it is beautiful you stayed with us
@theuchihagod14 күн бұрын
Im done with life im 16 i get mentally tortured by my grandmother and she gets backing from everyone in the family, i only had bad luck in life at 6 years my mother left me 4 years later she tries to kidnap me, when she called me she would verbally abuse my btw she used to abuse me physically too, my dad is barely at home hes a blue colar worker but he has 3 kids with diff moms , at 11 i started having immense fatigue everyday to this day i cant walk 100m wothout being tried at this year 27 april my father been in an accident and broke both legs and only im taking care of him because no one like him hes straightforward and ive been missing school because of my fatigue i want to be a doctor but i believe its too impossible im in my last year in high-school but nothing matters i get bad luck everyday i have no real friends they betray me no girlfriend nothing im lonely truly lonely i dont know why god is bullying me i did nothing but get crap
@natalieparks983 күн бұрын
If you want to become a doctor, strive for it! There are counselors at school who can help you with college-related questions. I regret not taking advantage of talking to them. I can partially understand where you're coming from. My grandmother was hit by a school bus and spent months in the hospital, during which I helped take care of her. I have seven siblings. When I was 16, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer, and my dad was in prison. It was a rough time and still is, to some extent. However, I choose to believe that things will get better because I deserve a better life. (so do you) I know I have to put in the effort to improve myself and my situation. Now I'm 21. There were times when I didn't think I would graduate, but I did, and you can too! I know it's hard and incredibly frustrating, but try to believe that life can get better! Relationships may come and go, but you’re young and have plenty of time to meet someone and find love. Focus on yourself and work towards achieving a better mindset. You got this!!!!! 🎉🫶🏼🙏🏼 I hope this helped in some way!
@BoIsDyslexic064 күн бұрын
Amen brother I’m glad you’re still here
@theassente4 күн бұрын
You're strong
@Speaker2644 күн бұрын
Sorry man, but you didn't convince me. I don't believe in god and I probably never will. I always tried to be a good person. I'm still trying but I'm just done. I hope that in a year I would be dead, that's the only thing that I hope for at this point. I don't know why am I even typing this. Guess it's like some sort of proof for myself that I existed. Anyway have a nice day, morning or evening.
@AlkuranZak4 күн бұрын
I would have said the same exact thing you did, 3 years ago. Like, word for word. I really want you to be better bro, you deserve that. You don't deserve the darkness and the suffering, and even if you just cannot bring yourself to believing in God, there is a natural order to this life and when we follow it, we feel SO much better. It's very black and white and makes sense when you understand it. But 'm sorry you're going through whatever you're going through, you CAN make it out, but you have to fix your life and be intentional, day by day, on a long enough timeframe. Believing in God won't solve your problems in of itself, but it will help a lot, and you'll experience what the absolute other side of that darkness is like; that peace, love, joy, beyond comprehension. A creator that you now understand made this objective natural order, and actually does love you; because you literally feel it. That peace, happiness, just contentment with your life and joy, that is possible for you man. It really is.
@Speaker2643 күн бұрын
@AlkuranZak nah, bro, I'm over it. I just don't care, and nobody cares. You may say that you care, but you really don't. In a week you will forget about this conversation, in a month you will forget that this profile even existed. In a year you may be even forget about this video that you made.
@AlkuranZakКүн бұрын
@@Speaker264 Well I do actually care, I feel extremely burdened to help people. You're right, I will forget you, because you're just another youtube comment. But I would do anything to help even one stranger in my lifetime, regardless of who they are. If there's anything I can do, if you'd like a chat, or whatever, i'm more than willing
@hopeless54014 күн бұрын
Amen man God bless
@alluring_alchemy114 күн бұрын
❤❤❤
@Hckfire4 күн бұрын
Ts kinda inspiring 🙏😭
@Ludoki4 күн бұрын
I'm grateful I have brothers to live for. I would definitely have ended it by now if it wasn't for them. I'm glad you found something to live for, too.
@quaryn4 күн бұрын
Glad you stayed.
@Grandmaslittlerizzler4 күн бұрын
Great video
@mthighs4 күн бұрын
Inspiring video man, keep it up. Proud of you.
@derruckkehrer73834 күн бұрын
Boy thinks life is so terrible that he sent letters to his ex and best friend. Ha. Try not having those to send letters to. Yeah, that’s real depression.
@mthighs4 күн бұрын
This ain’t a competition lil bro
@bcscorch27864 күн бұрын
Not a competition bro
@collinwright44064 күн бұрын
His worst is incomparable to yours. Everyone’s worst is the limit of pain they’ve experienced at that time. Your worst is incomparable to someone else’s who objectively has it worse than you. What you’re going through is real and hard. I hope you keep going
@AlkuranZak4 күн бұрын
I've been through periods like that too bro, I understand what it's like having absolutely nobody. You can truly make it out of that darkness, please try.
@derruckkehrer73832 күн бұрын
@ Oh, it isn’t? I didn’t know that, bro.
@ll-had3x-ll1054 күн бұрын
See my question there is, in the bible Im pretty sure Jesus talks to his "father", God, while he's crucified (before he dies from it obviously) asking him to forgive Men because then don't know what they have done. Its always been so confusing for me
@heroes08444 күн бұрын
He is just calming himself down (/j) "OK, calm down, they are just REALLY dumb... no need to get so angry at them........"
@AdonisGaming934 күн бұрын
Glad you're still with us <3
@sHorz4 күн бұрын
Hey bro, it’s good to see that you’ve found a path, I’m genuinely happy for you, I want to share my story for those who can’t believe in something else. Around 2017 (I was 19), I tried to end it all as well, I got to 170~175 km/h in my car and just didn’t try to do a curve, I let it all go and waited for the end. As you can see, the end didn’t come, not because I found god, not because some bigger force found me, it just didn’t happened… Sometimes life just keeps going, and day after day, it gets easier, you don’t really have a choice…. I remember going to the hospital with my dad in the ambulance, I remember him by my side and even tho it was me who wanted to end it all, it is him who’s gone now. At some point I’ve found a girl that I love, I’ve finished college and got a job that I like. It’s not a perfect life by any means, but it is a life worth living, believing in something else or not, it is YOUR life and the only one you will EVER know. Life will go on, you being here or not, try to do your best with your brief existence in this tiny rock floating in the space and remember that by the end it doesn’t really matter that much, thank you for reading this incoherent drunken comment. I hope y’all are good!
@hannahborchert42184 күн бұрын
God is so so good, all the time. I pray deeply for everyone who is in that same darkness that they will feel His comfort, love, and peace. We are not deserving, and yet God chose us to send His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die for us and our sins so we can have eternity with Him. His love for us is unmatched, and once you begin to feel His love and follow His direction, all else seems to fall into place. I struggle to find the words, but just having a relationship with the one true God and praying to him daily, practicing gratitude, and diving into His Word brings such an indescribable peace. Nothing in this world can compare. Thank you so much for this video, Zak. It's made me pause to reflect when I was in the same darkness for years and how God pulled me out. I would have never imagined how great my life was going to turn out just listening to Him and following Him.
@AlkuranZak4 күн бұрын
Couldn't have described it better, thank you. Following God is so amazing, I really do wish everyone could understand that. Even if it was a fairytale, it's a fairytale that changes our life.
@bonkers-bk7hc4 күн бұрын
I'm still in that darkness
@bonkers-bk7hc4 күн бұрын
I don't know how to get out
@bate96774 күн бұрын
@@bonkers-bk7hc I dont know how to explain it, but just keep going. It really does get better. It helped me a lot to just talk to someone about it. Start with something you do everyday, that annoys you. Continue with everything that has bothered you that week, that month, genuinly try to remember what made you feel bad in the first place. At some point some of the barriers you build up unintentionally break and you keep on finding stuff that annoyed you / seemed heartbreaking at that time, etc. In my personal experience, when you find someone to talk to and just talk and talk and talk about it, you start approach what really makes you feel bad and if you dont, at least someone knows how you`re feeling. Additionally, what helped me, is just showing up. I know how much comfort lies in the dark or your spiral of hate but showing up is most of the time all it takes to make new connections, experience new things and break that daily cycle of hate. It really does get better. You just have to believe it. I know it may sound impossible or stupid. But giving up is not an option. Never again. Like Alexander the Great once said: "There is nothing impossible to him who will try." Sry English isnt my first language
@AlkuranZak4 күн бұрын
First of all, I love you man. I really want better for you bro. The unfortunate truth is, more often than not, it doesn't get better unless you make it better, or a miracle happens. Just put into practice the habits or things of God; gratitude, patience, get innature/outdoors, be more self-reflective and journal, meditate to clear your mind and lessen feelings of being overwhelmed and anxious, journal your worries or thoughts, reject any intrusive/negative thoughts you get and force positive thoughts; they'll eventually become natural. Build discipline by consistent exercise, eat clean to avoid brain fog and lethargy -- and most of all following God will transform your life and everything you ever knew. He is the way out, and has been for so many people, so working towards belief and understanding will really help in spiritual ways, and is the only reason I'm still alive honestly.
@rorymax4 күн бұрын
tw
@CaramelCraft4 күн бұрын
I feel the exact same way you felt right now
@Racc-Kun_YT5 күн бұрын
"God created a world that allows you to suffer and only he can save you but he won't if you don't tell him you need him" Some Stockholm sounding shit to me. Theres gotta be a better way to help people find God. This kind of description of God has always made him sounds antagonistic to me.
@SnufflySpy5 күн бұрын
Incoupdnt care less
@AlkuranZak5 күн бұрын
and that's why you are miserable
@JamesMcCormick-m6j5 күн бұрын
Amen brother 🙏
@alexburns16005 күн бұрын
Dont listen to that guy. Jesus is Lord I got baptized 11 days ago
@AlkuranZak5 күн бұрын
Jesus is King
@Yoooofy5 күн бұрын
Why do you turn on shaders only for you to turn off smooth lighting?😂 Looks good though.
@AlkuranZak5 күн бұрын
It was meant for one episode for nostalgia purposes, but I forgot to turn it back on lol.
@cheesusabidas776 күн бұрын
well hello random youtube short
@KeloRogue5 күн бұрын
What a weird short to stumble across randomly, over a minecraft video
@PhoenixBoyPVT6 күн бұрын
Why would you unalive yourself that is sad
@rejeanarochleau74287 күн бұрын
Amen.
@SlickAp4che7 күн бұрын
Beautiful testimony. Glad you found Him when you did.
@oswalddrakefamine13687 күн бұрын
god is bullshit, get a gf
@AlkuranZak7 күн бұрын
I'm engaged, wbu bro
@jboss73767 күн бұрын
Nah im good id rather not be grouped into the religion known for being entitled, arrogant asses. Its a wonder why they believe theyll enter heavens gates, just because you accept him doesnt mean you can be a cunt. Yes it is said that you can accept him at death nd enter heaven. But this entry is most likely fake as there are well over 900 US english versions of the bible all different as their written by emotions. Then you have the 80,000 made outside the US also all written by emotion. So of all this i ask which fake book are you following?
@tylercarson20827 күн бұрын
I'm glad i got to see this video, thank you for spreading the good news of Jesus Christ.
@tylercarson20827 күн бұрын
I'm sorry for what you have gone through.
@thatdumbguy262116 күн бұрын
thanks for the advice PLEASE EAT THE FUCKING FOOD
@nekoplayz150117 күн бұрын
Motivational
@abyssalnothingness18 күн бұрын
Going through a break and thanks man. I really needed something
@megababa823419 күн бұрын
Thats cool, but i would hop off mc if i were you 💀
@pskompas19 күн бұрын
stop hating dude he just giving us good advice
@ultimateredstone20 күн бұрын
I appreciate your honest thoughts and your kindness in wanting to help other people! I agree with most things you're saying, although I don't view them through the Christian lense. I think it's interesting how you categorise all these positive/natural things as "of God", even though some don't have an obvious religious connection. I'm an atheist, but this might be a powerful way to think about things, maybe defining God in your own way. I think there's also an evolutionary component to all this. We evolved in a world which no longer exists. Many of our technological advances are incredible, but they've damaged us spiritually because we're engaging so much less in things that we evolved to make us feel fulfilled. I think there's a big overlap between these issues and what you're talking about, although some of what we can define as "good" of course goes beyond our evolved needs or instincts. I guess you look to the Bible for some of those, whereas I might look elsewhere. Thanks for your videos! I can feel your genuine kindness, and I'm sure you're having a positive impact on people.
@Roen53321 күн бұрын
I reflect on stuff at night while I’m watching KZbin. Like now. Nobody can interrupt me because they’re asleep, the only person who could disturb me is my brother who stays up just as late as I do when he farts.
@a1e92021 күн бұрын
Bro just motivated me with a Minecraft gameplay
@billboardbomber901625 күн бұрын
Let me fuckin fall. I get back up like i always do.
@abduladeniyi23426 күн бұрын
This video struck a cord in me, man. I'm not a religious person growing up I had a hard time believing in religion as a whole for a while now. I just couldn't understand what other people around me where seeing. All the negative actions and thoughts, you've been saying in the video I've been thinking and doing sadly. I genuenly feel like I'm going in a downward spiral of just sin regret sin again regret forget, why I regret what I've done only to sin again over and over. How do I start believing in god?
@AlkuranZak26 күн бұрын
Hey man, thank you so much for the comment, I'm so glad this video made an impact. Is there any way I can get in touch with you 1on1?
@818sosa326 күн бұрын
Wow Jesus continues to blow my mind even when I stray from him. I’ve been ignoring him lately. Not making enough time for him I mean. And as a result, falling back into my sinful nature, regretting it, then doing it again, all while feeling exactly what the topic of this video is increase more and more day by day. I’ve been back sliding. Failing all the tests that have been put in front of me. And each day I know I’m being tested but it’s almost like I’m too lazy or tired to even make time for God. Which is so bad. I’m fully aware. Making the wrong choices. And dealing with the consequences. I’m tired of being all talk. I’m tired of my self. The flesh is strong. But I know God is stronger. But I’m not strong. And I haven’t seemed to grasp onto Gods strength yet. Thank you for the video, I said Jesus blows my mind even as I stray because I just randomly put this video for watch later like a few days ago. Then I came back to it right now because I’m feeling burdened. And I didn’t expect it to be a video about God from a Christian. Thank you for the motivation, you’re God’s vessel and he’s going to use you for amazing things for the glory of God. God bless you.
@AlkuranZak26 күн бұрын
That's amazing man, wow. God works in amazing ways and I'm so grateful to see the fruit of my efforts to reach souls and help people, genuinely. I debated talking about God so bluntly for a while on this channel but I really think it's what people need to hear, even if it may be too polarizing; it changed my life. Admittedly I'm still learning too. It's important to take care of ourselves physically, mentally, and spiritually, because those ways lead us closer to God and subsequently makes us feel sooo much better. And that helps us have the relationship with Him, which is all He wants. Thank you for the comment, God bless. <3
@chd848727 күн бұрын
Beautiful video man, I think this is what I needed to hear. I am a muslim and still I agree with every single thing you said. Going astray from the path of God is truly the catalyst of suffering. Not a lot of people do talk about these sensitive issues, because a lot of people simply don't want to face the truth, and even when people do talk about these they rarely get any recognition. I think the self improvement space very often overlooks the importance of "existential happiness" like you said Wicked world we live in, but the good news is each one of us can protect his own light❤ Great video man, really like the vibe and the Minecraft background, keep going 🙏