Feeling much better since yesterday when I left the comment. Picking myself back up and enjoying being on my own again. Somewhat used to socializing/always on call with friends on my free time but coming home late from class on Wednesdays means that everyone is asleep. Its a somber mood but quite relaxing actually.
@cassp3645Ай бұрын
My day is much better now that I got to watch the new video :) thank you, Zakariyah
@magic_man24Ай бұрын
I don't mind sharing how life's been... will probably be a bit long though. (18y/o m btw) It's been very interesting, I already am quite aware of many things around me and within me. The only conclusion I've come to is that my energy flow has been a bit blocked off... My heart, my love, my clarity... Just been a bit stale at the moment. I remember what it used to be like, being in the flow state. I've seemed to have put myself in certain scenarios that, overtime, has slowly caused me to lose myself again. I'm constantly trying my best, despite the lack of energy I get. I know what's possible, I know I'll get there. I'm accepting where I'm at and trying to make the most of it when and where I can. but yeah, it's been an interesting journey. Trying my best, still not sure what's going on with anything, especially due to my lack of clarity and flow. I do journal a lot, pages upon pages I have. So just kinda letting it happen, learning as much as I can with what's around me. Being as aware as possible, though I have been coping a lot more than living. But it's okay, I'll get there.
@scarecrowlingАй бұрын
Honestly? Overall, I've been feeling somewhat suicidal. Not that I'm actually going to do anything, but it's moreso wishing I wasn't here. Wishing I had never been born. Today, I've been horribly anxious. And despite how anxious I am, I still can't get myself to do my college coursework. I guess it just feels... pointless, y'know? What am I actually working towards? Someday getting a miserable job, working for abusive employers, having no time for anything but meaningless toil? It just all seems so hopeless. There's no future for me. Thank you for making this video and holding this space, Zak. I wish you my very best.
@magic_man24Ай бұрын
Can you think of what your passion is? And perhaps following that instead? Doing what you want to do despite what others tell you? I understand where you're at, been there many times. I hope you manage to find the light again ma bro. Love & light
@AlkuranZakАй бұрын
I feel that heavily. But it doesn't have to be meaningless. Dedicate yourself to finding your true purpose; not what your parents tell you to do, or your friends, or any outside voices other than yourself -- isolate yourself and think deeply and intently about this. Once you find it, work towards that purpose every single day. Work on smaller purposes or goals that give you some sense of accomplishment or service to the world. Much love
@rexraptor20883Ай бұрын
Wow, never thought I’d see such a great video come from Minecraft. My mental health is good right now- I’m just trying to keep moving- with every day, how are you?
@AlkuranZakАй бұрын
Thanks :) I've been in a really rough period, and been feeling guilty for struggling as someone who preaches about all these things, but I'm getting back on track with everything. Life isn't simple, things happen and unique situations come up that we may not be ready to handle. Much love
@rexraptor2088329 күн бұрын
@@AlkuranZak Yeah, I get that. It’s hard when those situations arise since it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I do hope that what you’re going through gets better- much love to you as well.