thank you for making this, i needed to hear this. and if my mindset slips back into thinking i’ll be stuck here forever i can come back to this video. thank you for always being vulnerable sharing where you’re at too, there’s a lot of power in that
@nikitaashok381820 күн бұрын
Came to your channel from a trans reddit and this was one of the first videos on your page that immediately called to me. Hard to admit but it's true, and it resonated. Thank you so much for being so real and honest about this. I don't see it talked about much, and understandably so when there's already so much negative attention and all the myriad petty perceptions by cis people that trans folk have to deal with, who's going to mention something that only gives them more ammunition? But it's so real, and like you said, it's all the shame and embarrassment that other people feel and project on us that we end up carrying. Like lmfao we wouldn't have to feel shame about it if cis people didn't shame us for it! But that's how it goes if you gotta enforce this fragile cisheteropatriarchal construct you've created your entire systems and world around. Anyway thank you so much, and really appreciate what you said about how you're coaching and guiding yourself when you make these videos, and giving yourself all these talks on this journey. Think it's all we can do right? Hold our own hands and have our own backs and love ourselves into leading the confident lives we deserve to. You're doing vital work <3
@SodaCola7222 күн бұрын
Hi Im late to the party, but Ik what you’re talking about, Im constantly being dismissed when I refer to myself as a guy, not just at home but anywhere , Im pretty feminine presenting and therefore do not pass well despite being a trans man, and everyday my parents have a conversation about trans people saying how trans men are women and they’ll always be that way, because vagina and I can give birth, I especially get this from my mother, and made me insecure and unsure of myself, because she always somehow finds a way to feminize me, and make me insecure about myself and my gender, it made me upset, and now I have grown a hatred towards anything feminine and because Im afraid I look too feminine or that my behavior is somehow too feminine and I’ll get dismissed and people will somehow think less of me even though it doesn’t make a difference either way because of how I look…but yeah I get it….sorry for the rant good video by the way 👍
@moezzy_bby293723 күн бұрын
I feel like what you’re feeling. Is the spirit of Conviction, or whether or Not you made the right decision, transitioning. And it worries you, morally, and Spiritually. This feeling causes you to overthink, where your flesh and spirit is waring. Looking into your eyes I see a sense of Emptiness , searching for Peace and understanding. And I’m here to tell you the good news which is Jesus, he is the one who can remove thoses feelings and replace it with his love and peace, surpassing all understanding. He wants you and loves you , he sees what you’re going through and he wants to help. Simply call his name Jesus and he will answer you. Confess to him how/what you’re battling within self. I promise you won’t regret it. Love you 💙
@honchokzeetv15694 күн бұрын
The worse decision I had made was caring about what other people thought of me I know that I am trans & I love that I decided to put myself in a shadow of myself so that my family in friends would & the world would accept me when in reality I just wanted to live free I know I made the right decision for as my transtion I just went about it being scared to be open about it out of fear
@honchokzeetv15694 күн бұрын
Clearly you didn't watch the video ,😂
@flamingo682823 күн бұрын
I've struggled with that feeling too. For me, it developed after a fear I was living with about being trans. Seeing discriminatory news headlines every day and stereotypes being formed as I was figuring out myself was pretty scarring, plus my family did not accept me when I came out, they still don't, and chose to believe those stereotypes over me. That's traumatizing to go through for anyone, and once I finally transitioned and was able to pass I felt safe, and that fear went away. But it changed into embarrassment and an internal shame. What I've learned through my transition and gaining confidence in myself though, Is I'm not responsible for anyone else's feeling, I can only be truly responsible for my own, and the choices I make in my life. I think the more I embrace that the more free I feel and confident I feel in myself, and less afraid to face someone's judgment.
@nndi607527 күн бұрын
❤❤❤You
@nndi6075Ай бұрын
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
@thebookofgloryАй бұрын
In the setting section there's an option to put the words that haters usually use and you will never see those comments come through ;)
@thebookofgloryАй бұрын
Yep, I don't know if anybody wants to be trans lol... at the end of the day - what the heck is trans anyways? I feel like we transitioned to be affirmed in our male or female-ness, not our transness lol But that's just me hey...
@PicassosSister-rj5zpАй бұрын
Off topic, but dude you're beautiful and handsome
@Hello-jw1puАй бұрын
No, it's not your time it's God's time . This is not your life it's God's life he did not plan this for you, and you know that.
@honchokzeetv1569Ай бұрын
@@Hello-jw1pu I got different plans 😎
@Hello-jw1puАй бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 Good luck with that. You poor soul.
@honchokzeetv1569Ай бұрын
@@Hello-jw1pu thanks for watching & pushing the algorithm also by commenting your helping me spread my videos on KZbin thanks 🙏🏽 🥳
@franny5295Ай бұрын
Honey, always listen to that little voice that says stop or wait. When something doesn't feel right, there's a reason. Your cells are female. Not gender, strictly biology. Female cells are preprogrammed to respond to hormones in certain ways. When female cells are exposed to low estrogen and high testosterone levels, there are serious consequences. Heart disease and osteoporosis being two very serious ones. The prostate being exposed to high estrogen levels causes cancer. I would never go out of my way to hurt anybody, that's just not my jam. People I "hate" I wash my hands of. I'm only offering a perspective that you have a right to know about and I know they probably didn't tell you that. There may be things you can do to mitigate those risks if you at least know.
@honchokzeetv1569Ай бұрын
I was aware of the side effects that’s possible I had to sign a long form with all that different information I was also informed on how some female to male trans men have been on hormones 30 years & have not had any major health issues because of the simple fact of eating a healthy stress free lifestyle
@franny5295Ай бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 Good luck to you! I hope it all works out for your good 😊
@honchokzeetv1569Ай бұрын
@@franny5295 Thank You God Is On My Side So It Will 🙌🏽
@franny5295Ай бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 Don't ever forget Who's you are. I'll tell you a secret. We are not what we appear to be. We are spirits wrapped in flesh made in the image of God whom is spirit and kind of like how Messiah is the word of God wrapped in human flesh. This is just a realm we're passing through and there really is no male or female where we are from. You're gonna be ok. Just take care of the vessel that you're traveling in so it'll serve you well on your journey.
@honchokzeetv1569Ай бұрын
@@franny5295 that’s what I’m about none of this matters to me not even being trans or any of those roles they really don’t mean to much but to get through life socially in society you gotta pick a role 🤷🏽♂️
@eggisfun4217Ай бұрын
clickbait title but i feel like this will be a good video
@honchokzeetv1569Ай бұрын
It’s not click bait when a lot of trans people feel that way & I stayed on topic
@eggisfun4217Ай бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 Fair, but I immediately thought it was gonna be somebody talking about being trans is bad but it was a good video. Not clickbait more just how I viewed it so it makes your point even more correct.
@terreplowell4691Ай бұрын
I'm also trans FTM. Over the past year or two, I went thru a type of self-hating dysphoria where I'd feel green with envy at cis men cause they were what I wish I was and I would be constantly comparing myself to other men (cis or trans). While I don't think I could ever eliminate my dysphoria I'd definitely wanna work on more posiitve affirmations, self-love, enjoying the journey and stop comparing myself to other guys.
@danir.eАй бұрын
thank u for this video
@MrAxhtonАй бұрын
Have you tried to use a binder?
@honchokzeetv1569Ай бұрын
Yes I had one from underworks I think that’s what it’s called but it would hurt my ribs someone told me to try a different brand I might do that
@MrAxhtonАй бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 I use gc2b binders.
@gpc101Ай бұрын
Thanks for sharing family!!!
@iwatchDVDsonXbox360Ай бұрын
You actually more convincing than most FTMs i've seen. In pretty much any other case when you meet FTM, you think "man, this dude is gay af" in like first 3 seconds. Maybe, because all of them were white. Haven't realized it up until this moment, but despite "gansta" stereotype black men are more "feminine" than white men, because they are more emotional and maybe, because of that when you do what white FTMs do, it seems more organic. Now i start to think when man or a woman say they want to date a man, what they actually mean is "i want to date a stereotypical anglo-saxon", because when i think about stereotypical man and woman from England, Germany, Sweden and Estonia, they are both(men and women) have traditionally male qualities. Good news for me, i guess, even though i am not one of them (at least i know 0 estonian relatives), but in terms of personality i am stereotypical estonian. When i was a kid my sister joked around my estonian qualities and when i've read about stereotypes about estonians recently i was shocked how similar are we. Maybe, i do have some estonian blood in me.
@shawn_papi2 ай бұрын
😮 2:04 what is your job?
@honchokzeetv15692 ай бұрын
Structural welder
@richardwhite46362 ай бұрын
Sometimes even being gay can be embarrassing for gay men at times when they are around straight men and women. It’s not straight people fault. Sometimes some gay people want to be straight (so called normal).
@-divinetragedy2 ай бұрын
hehe obligatory joke abt donating excess chest to trans girls like me lmao
@honchokzeetv15692 ай бұрын
U can have them right now today
@davidemerald76902 ай бұрын
You got nothing to feel embarrassed about boo❤live in your truth and might I add you look good af 🔥🔥
@wavyboy4772 ай бұрын
When do you plan on gettin surgery?
@honchokzeetv15692 ай бұрын
Once I have the money for it so I’m not really sure
@wavyboy4772 ай бұрын
You can finance most of it, that's what I did
@Nyc.SkenzoАй бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569you can use insurance
@wavyboy4772 ай бұрын
Bro my dysphoria was gettin so bad while at the gym since I couldn't bind, I stopped goin completely. Luckily I just got surgery a few weeks ago, best decision I ever made bro. Keep hangin in there gang 🤞🏾 it gets better
@honchokzeetv15692 ай бұрын
Congrats 🍾 thanks for the support also
@gpc1012 ай бұрын
Thinking about you
@gravydorito98562 ай бұрын
Thankyou my guy💜
@-divinetragedy2 ай бұрын
omggg haii hi 😍😍😍
@MiloSteinhauer2 ай бұрын
I'm a trans guy and a marathon runner/trail runner and I compete in men's division. And that's where I like competing too. When it comes to prizes and such they already have criteria you have to meet (such as certain amount of time on hormones). There's not enough trans people to have a trans division, and honestly as a trans athlete I'd feel othered. Competing with the men is where I'm meant to be. It did take some time getting used too, mainly in the confidence area though. Maybe I will have to work harder than the cis men. But I love a good challenge. That's just how I feel though. Edit: There's also some trans men out here killing it in sports! One example is Chris Mossier!
@Tweetch9112 ай бұрын
omggg youre so hot i trans also hereee
@JCO.10002 ай бұрын
I really needed this video bro I been going thru the same thing with marijuana and this video really gave me the motivation to stop smoking
@Monalisawithjesus2 ай бұрын
I enjoy your channel very much I don't really watch videos to the full ❤ I enjoy listening to what u gotta say
@Monalisawithjesus2 ай бұрын
Love u khari ❤
@provocativeinpink2 ай бұрын
I understand the point you're making. I can tell you after living 33 years Trans though we may no other choice but to deal the degree that people accept us. However, it doesn't benefit us in the end because they use that to rationalize why they don't want to help us at a time when we need them most. It took me at least this long, and I learned it in the worst way. That just because people say they accept you, break bread with you, do favors for you, and are nice to you doesn't mean they will advocate for who you are. Which low key means they don't speak life into the new person you are!
@terreplowell46912 ай бұрын
Unrelated to what's being discussed, but htis man fine af
@zacharymalone38802 ай бұрын
Bro you had a wonderful transition 😳 you look more like a boy than me 😂 and act more masculine than a lot of men.
@Chasbelieves2 ай бұрын
Sorry about your losses. Stay focused keep praying God will keep you strong! 😊
@brendahendrick29643 ай бұрын
People love you, who have always loved you! But don’t want to be part of the sin.
@honchokzeetv15693 ай бұрын
But they can be apart of plenty other sins
@honchokzeetv15693 ай бұрын
Life be fr that shit is a joke to me 😂 it’s the only sin they care about they can sin cuss fuck drink lie but can’t support me yea a joke 😂
@kariiifilms6 күн бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 they always cherry pick the bible
@honchokzeetv15696 күн бұрын
@@kariiifilms & I pick & choose what I want to honor & believe out there to 😂
@kariiifilms6 күн бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 fair but they use it for hate...
@Quealberta3 ай бұрын
I think transwomen got the lowest success rates.
@BeverlyPrice-b7q3 ай бұрын
I have a outward eye...it sucks ..had it all my life.
@honchokzeetv15693 ай бұрын
Yup definitely something hard to get use to most time I forget I have it until I’m reminded
@iamqueenredd3 ай бұрын
Trans women?
@Ahmed.2002.23 ай бұрын
You hands are soft and your body language are female
@treasureyoung62163 ай бұрын
Be an asshole bro !!! Don’t be scared to step on they toes!! Because they aren’t scared to step on yours!! Your smart bro keep going and keep your head up! 💪🏾 I’m going trans soon in a month! I will be a trans man ! Would love to connect with you as homies
@corrina81253 ай бұрын
well can you blame the men for being attracted to you? youre a very attractive dude if i do say so myself
@TheDikHeadVegan3 ай бұрын
I have big breast i walked outside many times out side not caring. It’s my body I don’t care how others feel. It’s sad people project soooo hard-.- just do you bro. And I know what you’re talking about haha. They said we choose this life. I made a mistake. I should of choose not to be created the humans on this planet is trash😂
@honchokzeetv15693 ай бұрын
That part like a to be a human of all things thanks ☺️
@SurTrailDoesAll3 ай бұрын
@@honchokzeetv1569 all our bodies are beautiful. It helps us navigate this world. Never stop being a free sprit. Don’t let these demonic people bring you down. You are loved and wanted. 🙏🏿
@dianKay0013 ай бұрын
The best thing is knowing your emotions, You would ask yourself ...being embarrassed, where it comes from, is it from inside or other people? Remember when you are being yourself ,walking with love and being love then it's not your work to make people comfortable taking space.