Light bodybuilding for past few months is helping. I'm doing 30 min sessions, normally I do 45-60 min. Down to 1 point a day of drug use, it's really just refusing to let the habit go. O points a day is right in my sight.

This was good information to learn how to say no period

You broke this down so clearly. I didnt know there was a term for the autopilot feeling i had that eventually led me to relapsing. Thank you so much for this

I have CPTSD as a result of non-stop childhood abuse that lead to me being on the streets by the age of 13. I started taking part in illegal activities when I was 10. It's not as honorable but I've seen and taken part in violent acts that haunt me and always will. I know that feeling of not being able to go to a restaurant without my back to the wall and my eyes towards the door. I'm still like that. I walk around constantly with lighters in my fists. I size up every male that I walk past and perceive them as a potential enemy. I spent a lot of my youth in and out of juvenile hall and group homes where unspeakable abuse happened. That lead to me ending up in prison for 3 years. I got out and continued with my violent lifestyle and illegal activities..... People don't understand this. They just don't..

Now I want to try crack!

I tell my Daughter if she wants AB orC she can come home and get clean and she can have those things i.e. pizza

I’m blahhh while seeing this video…😮

Grateful for the practical instruction

I liked this video. Humble, simple, straight to the point.

The brain never "gets done" producing dopamine, that would look like severe Parkinson's Disease whereby half for Substantia Nigra which produces both central and peripheral dopamine is destroyed. Anhedonia was first coined by my mentor Dr Mark Gold,MD, who theorized the dopamine Depletion Hypothesis in the early 1980s while working with cocaine addicts. Anhedonia is the inability to experience natural rewards. In the case of addictive disease, in a paper I published 20 years ago I likened anhedonia as experiencing life as watching a 12 " B&W TV But when the addicted uses again suddenly their world looks like a High Def 65 in Color LED TV. Intoxicant use will produce a bolus doses in proportion to the bio availability of Dopamine, Norepinephrine and Serotonin, which as produce and release in cascade Blum, Gold et al developed the tern Reward Deficiency Syndrome. I have been fortunate be coauthor on several papers and a chapter in Cambridge University''s Text book on Substance and behavior Addictions www.cambridge.org/core/books/cambridge-handbook-of-substance-and-behavioral-addictions/BCC5E21F274B1F7F986ED8DA7E3D68C3

These seems nothing to me

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I can’t believe you know exactly what happens!

I know it’s been two years since you posted this but I can’t tell you how much it has helped me. Thank you so so much. I’m a librarian and have noone who knows the struggle. Your words are priceless to me❤

Thank you so much for sharing. I’m going through this with my 27 yr old son. It’s soul crushing. He has no idea how much I love him. Just to hear a story like ours gives me comfort and hope. Thank you.

One of my joys of being sober is 4 am workouts....it sets me into a state of gratitude for the day

14th week is that early?

I find it most interesting that the feelings, fears and reactions are very much like those in a relationship of any kind with a narcissist.

Your mom is a piece of shit in the men's restroom.

Your mom's a five peckered Billy goat old man. 😆😎🥰❤

I can't get up on my own if I lay on the ground camping. Sucks. I'm strength limited for now.

The pain of watching a child struggle with addiction is indescribable. As mothers we have such a deep connection to our child, and it’s natural to want to help them. It takes a lot of courage and strength to put up strong boundaries, the only thing that has helped me is God. Surrendering to His plan. Trusting that it will all be ok, sending love to ALL addicts and the families as well.

Thank you 💝

My advice. Stop listening to videos and just do stuff. That's it.

so im killing myself

This was so helpful and exactly what I needed to hear!!!!! Thank you so much and my heart goes out to you as well. I know I have to break my co-dependency. and I want to!!! They don’t like the word no… lol! I haven’t said it very much, but I’m going to. Thank you again!!!!

This is amazing. Thank you

7 years sober and still drowning in anhedonia. Never felt so alone. Still better than being waisted every day...or is it 🤔

Thankyou so much. I'm so glad to have stumbled upon you. I've had 20 years with a son who is an alcoholic ❤❤❤

Do you do private counseling ? Everything your talking about is exactly what Im going through with my 32 year old son who is addicted to alcohol, meth and weed. In 2019 he jumped off the Coronado Bridge in San Diego CA. He survived but ended up with a severe spinal cord injury and a crushed hand. After 4 months in the trauma unit he was released. I brought him home. And my life has been a living hell ever since. Countless rehabs where he just walks away. Numerous apartments left in shambles or calls from management not wanting him there anymore. We have sent him on so many fresh starts out of state out of pure desperation of wanting peace. Every single time within a couple weeks or maybe a month and then the cycle begins again. He uses my fear of him killing himself as a weapon to manipulate me. That part you said about when your phone rings is a trigger is so true for me too, but you gave me a few ideas about how to handle those situations that Im going to try. You gave me a different way to think about it like Im not giving him the opportunity to experience the consequences of his actions and grow. I like that. Any other advice I will surely appreciate. Thanks for giving me a place to vent. Best regards Janice

Do you do private counseling ? Everything your talking about is exactly what Im going through with my 32 year old son who is addicted to alcohol, meth and weed. In 2019 he jumped off the Coronado Bridge in San Diego CA. He survived but ended up with a severe spinal cord injury and a crushed hand. After 4 months in the trauma unit he was released. I brought him home. And my life has been a living hell ever since. Countless rehabs where he just walks away. Numerous apartments left in shambles or calls from management not wanting him there anymore. We have sent him on so many fresh starts out of state out of pure desperation of wanting peace. Every single time within a couple weeks or maybe a month and then the cycle begins again. He uses my fear of him killing himself as a weapon to manipulate me. That part you said about when your phone rings is a trigger is so true for me too, but you gave me a few ideas about how to handle those situations that Im going to try. You gave me a different way to think about it like Im not giving him the opportunity to experience the consequences of his actions and grow. I like that. Any other advice I will surely appreciate. Thanks for giving me a place to vent. Best regards Janice

Thank you sir for this video on the familiar anhedonia after addiction, this is very therapeutic and supportive also a pleasure to find support and inspiration and understanding in the comment section! Greetings from the Netherlands

26 years old. 98 days alcohol free. I told a few people recently that this is the first time I’ve been mentally “clocked-in” in over a decade. It took 3 months sober for me to finally become present again. But I feel so blah and depressed (because the state of my life as it is IS depressing, that’s why I started using in the first place.) Living in chronic stress in childhood and escaping through dissociation or suicidal ideation, then growing older & gaining access to alcohol and other substances and escaping that way.. it means I wasn’t *really here* for a long time. Now I’m sober and watching my family age and seeing life run its course as it does. It’s fucking painful. But I remind myself that in active addiction I would only be prolonging the pain. I will continue to choose sobriety instead. ❤

26 years old. 98 days alcohol free. I told a few people recently that this is the first time I’ve been mentally “clocked-in” in over a decade. It took 3 months sober for me to finally become present again. But I feel so blah and depressed (because the state of my life as it is IS depressing, that’s why I started using in the first place.) Living in chronic stress in childhood and escaping through dissociation or suicidal ideation, then growing older & gaining access to alcohol and other substances and escaping that way.. it means I wasn’t *really here* for a long time. Now I’m sober and watching my family age and seeing life run its course as it does. It’s fucking painful. But I remind myself that in active addiction I would only be prolonging the pain. I will continue to choose sobriety instead. ❤

I have hit rock bottom ! My 40 yr old daughter is addicted to drugs she has 2 young children and is a complete mess ! She has 4 cats that keep having kittens. The house is a mess she's always asking for money! I'm done ! But she badgers me constantly.😥

I’m happy to have found your videos . I had 2 kids both addicts , my daughter died of an overdose at 28 , my son is in early forties now and has been in and out of treatment most of his life . I need to get healthy now ❤

I’m trying not to cry. I needed to hear this. My son drinks everyday and refuses to stop. My heart breaks seeing him like this. I’m hoping he will get the help he needs and stop.

this is literally inaccurate as dr's do prescribe meth in the form of Desoxyn....

32 days clean off fent

This woman outed her sons. Not cool.

My sibling eats and sleeps. Still hasn’t hit bottom after losing job and an arrest. & that’s only what I know about. He was a brilliant businessman.

Your mom is a warrior and so are you. One of the hardest things to do. Thank you for sharing this journey and your perspective. ❤❤❤

Just like wrestlers😂

The Fatherless. The Cult of No. He wants to hear it. -King Stupid

Why is it this problem seems to affect men more?

Sounds to me like you have no clue how to address this. Thanks.

MP had this, he mentioned in his memoir

This is the best talk I ever heard for Mother’s of addicts. Bless you a million times for your work ❤

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Great video. I'm approaching 5 months sober and I'm getting days we're i just feel empty and it's a joyless existence. Never knew there was a word for this condition.