I will pray for your life. I suffered hostility from ill‐parents all my life, >they never repented, >& have aged & gone to their eternal reward. Siblings also hated me & were moved by the dev against me =when i came to faith in our GOOD Father & Saviour (1975) & persecuted me. (Told anyone who would listen that i had become mentally ill, plus other lies to convince people that the first lie was true.) [★See 1st John 3:1+ John 15: 18+] My 2 sons also suffered great harm by their evil, & the youngest has since passed away, at age 36, 11/'16= from drug addiction. I have known the pain of suffering childhood trauma, & beyond. I will pray for you Indonesia Bahasa. Please believe that our GOD IS GOOD & KIND as He says in his word. He loves us & he surely had reason/s for ALL He planned to permit into our lives. He uses the heart‐ ache he permitted to continually draw us to His loving side, & heals thru the shared pain, in our intimate relationship with Him. He receives our lament & our tears & sobs into his breast. We are truly loved by Him. We are perplexed as to why he permitted us to be hurt as we were. But that i do not comprehend, or do not understand =why the good He intended to bring about (eventually) by the great pain i suffered, does not mean that He did not do good to allow it. HE KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING/accomplishing by my pain, WHEN I DON'T. (I am assuming you have access to a Bible.) REMEMBER THE STORY OF JOSEPH'S LIFE in Genesis. READ IT & MEMORIZE IT. ★Joseph COULD SEE GOD'S WISDOM & FAITHFULNESS IN ALL THAT HE PERMITTED & DID. <<< Genesis 37+++, >many chapters devoted to his story ★ >>for a reason<★<<. (Proverbs 21:30=) God knew exactly what he was doing, allowing (faithful) Jo to be born into that toxic family: then see Gen.59:19<<. A man of faith & church pastor/ Bible scholar, named Adrian Rogers, said that perplexity is a normal state of mind for the Christian (i.e. believer/ Christ-follower). SEE ★2nd Corinthians 4, especially verses 7-18. Also ★Lament. 3:18-26. < Tho addressed to Israel after God's judgment, this truth applies to all God's children. Also see Philippians 1:12-14 tells us that our afflictions, if we trust God with them, in them, can be used by Him to bring other people to Christ. +Proverbs 22:19-21 ( i think King James Version (KJV) says it best. Also see Psalm 27: especially verse 10 <★ & 13-14<★ : again, i think KJV says it best. +Psalm 42+43. + Proverbs 13: ALL, but note particularly v.12. + Isaiah 40, espec. verse: 27-31. Isaiah 43:1-5a. +Psalm 23, +37, (espec. 1-4) +34, +★62, 71, 91, 73, 78 =Israeli history WITH GOD; ★138, +118> note partic. verse 17. 2nd Corinth. 1:1-12. Ephesians 2:1-10 + 3:14-21. 2nd Timothy 2:3 + 2nd Chronicles 16:9. Deuter. 30:11-20; + 31: espec. 7-8. Proverbs 18:10. ★☆★i have referred you to many bible texts, too many to study in 1 day. ★★Most, if not all, of these texts our Lord and Father turned me to specially in answer to prayers for his help at times i was heartbroken & unable to cope with the pain of my life, or despairing, or near to despair. Psalm 34:18+6-10. This sentence can help you> ★ I AM PRECIOUS TO GOD.<< I AM LOVED BY THE CREATOR & GOD OF THIS UNIVERSE. Tell yourself this precious truth of our Father's word oft. GOD HAD >★Isaiah 46:10 purpose when He brought you out (alive) from your mother's womb. Your life is not merely incidental ! YOU & YOUR TIME OF LIFE WAS PLANNED BY OUR MUTUAL CREATOR. Even the details were planned for his glory. Psalm 119:11, 15-16. 1st John 4:7-8.= GOD >IS< LOVE. PRACTICE prayerful forgiveness toward those who have violated you. (Matt.5:43- 48) ★Pray for Father to help you to forgive them for Jesus sake, for his pleasure (in you) & for his glory. The injustice & pain you suffer ~& have~ is going to take you >your life< some where GOOD >eventually< IF YOU TRUST GOD WITH what he has permitted. See Romans 8 espec. v.28. + Philippians 1:6 + Ephesians 1:11, + Psalm 108:4-6. Psalm 138: note specially v.8. Jerem.29:10-14. < this spoken to Children of Israel in Babylonian captivity (for unrepented of sin) but shows our God to be A GOD OF HOPE TO/FOR HIS LOVED PEOPLE. Romans 15:13. 2nd Corinth. 10:3-5 + Eph.6:10-24.

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