24th June 2020 || Vlog || Quick chat, not managing to film much

[@beckyann8502]

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[@VisitWithNanaAndPapa]

I live in that same space most of the time. Grateful for what I have but battling the darkness and the stuff running around in my head. Just know you are not alone. I am extraordinarily grateful for you! Your videos have really helped keep the darkness out. I wish I could share the joy you bring back to you.

[@lynnesmith6827]

Valorie Fischer - So eloquently spoken! That’s exactly what I’m feeling too and it’s driving me nuts. I am so upset with the people here in certain states that think it’s unnecessary to wear masks and practice physical distancing which puts everything we’ve gone through at risk of being repeated. Can’t understand the “us vs. them” mentality and making it political. So ignorant but then so is our so-called leader! I just wanted to thank you for your expression of what I’m feeling. Gayna is such a joy and delight; don’t know how but she manages to do it all! Have a good weekend! 😊

[@heatherwiltshire646]

Ahh Gayna your vlogs are so helpful to me more than you know ,I love to follow your daily family life I appreciate how much effort you put into them ,they keep me living right now,my life has been turned up side down with covid my husband has been diagnosed with a brain tumor and its been a struggle to see doctor's etc, were now in complete isolation so he can be operated on mid july all being well,this is so tough no contact with my children or my grandchildren and having to sit waiting for an operation where the out come is unknown, so I am truly grateful for any contact ,sharing your stories,looking through boxes your flowers growing your veg all of it ,takecare of yourself and Thankyou 💕

[@FlorenceFrazier2002]

Your gardens are looking so lovely! Everyone is feeling stressed and frazzled right now, me included and I haven't been in lockdown, I have worked throughout. I am in need of a break. I find taking a step back and taking time for just me and ignoring everything for a day helps. Give yourself permission to take a break and breathe. Hugs!

[@talesfromcuckooland]

I hope you got your break 🤩

[@FlorenceFrazier2002]

Not yet. Hubby and I will be empty nester starting next week and we are going to run away next weekend for a few days.

[@christinewhiting8126]

Hi Gayna, we are all beginning to suffer with lockdown fatigue, but anxiety is rumbling around in the background every day, never far from our thoughts. Your videos are very much appreciated and they have kept us going in these difficult times, take some time for yourself and your lovely family. We will be here whatever. Chris from Kent xx

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Yeah, it is wearing thin but we have to keep plodding along and sticking to the guidelines to get through this. Wahhhh 😩😩🥴

[@catallsopp]

Oh lovely, I finally caught up after a wonderful marathon of snatching moments to myself during a very busy time and what a special treat it is to sit with you and knit & sip my tea. You're such a love, Cuckoo! These are such strange times, which are particularly demanding for young families, and oh my goodness, you have such a fabulous attitude and sense of humour, you are doing so brilliantly with all of this. Hang in there on the rough seas, knowing the weather will pass and all will be well. Thank you sooooo much for your vlogs - I love them all!! Take care xoxox

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Home straight now with the home schooling. Thank heavens. The sea will be calm then.

[@storyandstone]

Oh Gayna, you’re doing so well, coping with your boys being home for school and all that. I too feel a low level anxiousness all the time. Here in Perth we are in Phase 4 of lockdown where basically everything is nearly back to normal, which is good but not good. I’m sure you know what I mean. To add to my anxiousness I have just started a job that I did not want to take and I have gone from living a life I enjoyed to just existing to go to this god awful job (I travel about an hour and a half to get there). I want you to know that your videos are the little ray of sunshine in what has turned out to be a crap time in my life and I think you and the family are gorgeous! I send you much love and blessings. 💐💖🧶🧵🍰

[@lorijakuc5719]

🥰 (all of my son’s homeschool is on-line but that did not start until @8th grade! Before that there was more one on one teaching and manual work. Miss that!)

[@mirielle20]

Right where you are, Gayna. I actually started having sudden, “unexplained” (I thought) anxiety attacks this past week - a first for me. A virtual doc visit later, she told me the state of the world is causing a massive amount of stress that women, in particular, aren’t even aware is affecting us. We’re internalizing so much for the sake of our families’ sanity and in the process, not taking care of our own. Moving forward, I’m going to have to shift some things mentally and physically to become healthy again and at the moment, it all feels like such an up-hill climb. Sending you gentle hugs from Kentucky.

[@talesfromcuckooland]

It is certainly a crazy world. So bananas. No one knows how to feel or how to react to anything. The pressures are often subtle and silent because they are all small and unusual things that no one has had any preparation for. We just have to crack on with stuff. 😫

[@darlacreekmore9641]

Low grade anxiety....excellent description.....like a slow drip that hits you on the nose.....continuously. I really appreciated you naming the current state of mind many of us are struggling with presently. So you help us get through but you need your own resources to aid you....dear friend. But your dear family and precious doggies....beautiful garden and wonderful escape room.....just hang in there💓

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Vlogging really helps me. It defines my day, ensures I focus on the funny, fun, pretty etc..... it’s like a gratitude diary for me.

[@sophieballard8611]

Sending you a big hug Gayna, I’m sorry that you’ve been feeling lower than usual. We are living through such strange times. But it’s so nice that you’ve been open and honest about it, I know that will help others feel as if it’s ok to have the off days. And how important it is to look after our mental health. Xx

[@talesfromcuckooland]

You don’t get the rainbow with out the rain so we have to go with it, don’t we 🥴

[@ericallerton809]

Sweet doggies playing,,,, Not a fan of heat,,,either,,, Going to be 30 again here too,,, Yucky! You are doing great JOB! Elaine🏘🏘🏠🏠 Thank you for doing these,,,, Hope UR arm feels better,,,be good to get that scarf done,,not fun,,,

[@Sandra-pm3it]

I am sorry you are still having pain in your elbow. I love watching you knit. ❤️

[@sarahrowe7322]

Love all the flowers!

[@Barneysma]

Thank you for this vlog Gayna. I think we are all feeling strange in different ways at the moment. Thank you for sharing tour world with us. Xxx

[@flourchylde]

Hugs to you, dear Gayna. My mantra is "Every day above ground is a good day".

[@heathertucker7056]

I think home schooling for you guys must have been a nightmare! Lovely to see Bunny and Margot playing so happily! X

[@talesfromcuckooland]

It’s not been our favourite! I doubt the boys will moan about going to school in September!

[@suelongview9925]

You know Wilf the best, if you think he needs less time on the computer then he does. Schooling should not be set in stone. My daughter utilises fun things for her son and he is coming on in leaps and bounds. Remember, you know best...

[@debbiestuckey6599]

Beautiful roses! I could practically smell them! Mmmm. I feel for you...I don't like summer weather. I do hope and pray your elbow heals quickly! and that the scarf gets done on time. Take care! 💞

[@wendyware9738]

That rose is gorgeous. Thanks for sharing your concerns it helps me to understand and appreciate anxiety

[@talesfromcuckooland]

It’s a horrible and ridiculous infliction. Anxiety is sometimes inexplicable and debilitating. Grrrrrr but we just plough on through it.

[@elizstitches]

Hello, enjoying all your videos! Seems like the mopping and hoovering would be great jobs for the boys to help you with :D

[@talesfromcuckooland]

They do help but they do it so badly 😂😂😂

[@christycochran4591]

It's ok to feel overwhelmed, that's life. Just don't let it define you. All my best

[@juliadroy1179]

Hang in there Gayna, you're doing great stuff, beautiful garden xx

[@Shelly.Norris]

You have such an amazingly gorgeous home! Thank you for sharing it with us!

[@talesfromcuckooland]

I LoVe my home 🤩

[@elainebuckley4984]

Gayna, you achieve so much each day. Your days are so full & sometimes you need to take credit for how much work a family is, especially under these circumstances 🤗 So nice to see Margo & Bunny playing together. The garden looks beautiful.

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Awww yeah but some people do everything i do AND have a job. Incredible!

[@cathyfleming9544]

Awh Gayna sending hugs, you've helped so many people through these strange times , it must be a huge undertaking to keep going , just know we love spending time with you and you lift us up! Ps good luck with the scarf!

[@talesfromcuckooland]

No! I love to vlog. They lift me up and keep me pressing on 🥳

[@suedale1865]

Thank you Gayna for even vlogging on a hot busy day but a special thanks for the cool of the day look at the garden I sat out till 10 pm swing seat would like to say cooling off but two fur babies wanted a swing with me 🐾🐾

[@Foxy807]

Both times you’ve been suffering it’s been Mercury in Retrograde. My moods change a lot in this time . I only realised when I looked in to it as was desperately sad . Xx maybe look in to it 😊. Aw Bunny and Margo playing so cute !

[@talesfromcuckooland]

That’s interesting. I’ll look to see when the next retrograde Mercury is and see if I feel pants then too.

[@jetlagen]

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[@celestegarcia486]

Hola Señorita Cuckcoo! Hope your elbow feels better, Bunny is so CUTE!!! Margo having doggy dreams was sweet. Thanks you for sharing. Stay cool and take care.

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Bless the little fluff balls!

[@teresayoung4145]

So sorry it's so hot there. I know it must feel 100 with the humidity. I much prefer the winter also(without feet of snow that we get) I love how positive you are. It really helps me to see this. You're an awesome mom, and wife. I love all you do for your family. Hope the scarf knitting speeds by so you can rest your arm. Not sure what I'd do if I couldn't knit. Hope it'll get cooler soon for you. Take care.

[@talesfromcuckooland]

I finished the scarf and the weather is cooler! Whoop! I’m trying hard to stay positive, it’s the only way forward. 😆

[@teresayoung4145]

I'm happy its cooler for you. We actually had close to freezing temps this morning. I love it but my garden doesn't. It wasn't supposed to freeze. Your positivity is very appreciated. I suffer from depression and anxiety and the times are very hard.

[@robinmccamont]

Hi, Gayna (aka Cuckoo!). Thanks for the vlog. I admire your devotion to putting out your daily vlogs, but please don’t let that be a source of stress for you. We can get by with a few less vlogs if it gives you additional time in your schedule to focus more on the higher priorities in your life (e.g. your family!). Once you get the PayPal and Kofi features launched, I’m sure that will more than help to offset any loss in KZbin ad revenue! Loved seeing the dogs running around! So nice that they get along so well...! By the way, I don’t know if you have thought of this, but on really hot days, the dogs might enjoy being sprayed with water from your garden hose. That’s what we did with our dogs when I was growing up, anyway. Not a hard spray, of course. Just gently letting the water run over their coats while holding their collars. Then they have fun shaking off the water (all over you, of course!) and running around to get dry. It’s pretty funny to watch! Anyway, take care!

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Wet dogs are a hoot! I love vlogging. Honestly it’s part of my self care, this vlogging lark. I love it. It helps me have a structure to the day and to focus on the good bits of the day. X

[@mcarthurpark6655]

Your garden is so lovely Gayna. It really lifts me to watch your vlogs. I too am feeling a bit....it’s hard to put a finger on it exactly....weird and flat and glum even though I have a lovely life and no real reason to feel down. 🤷🏼‍♀️ thank you for keeping on vlogging, I love getting a peek into your life ☺️

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Weird times certainly. It’s like I don’t know what I am allowed to feel. It’s all so confusing.

[@OllieandBella]

💓 You are amazing 💓

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Shut ittttt!!!!

[@roslynmitchell9147]

❤️👍🙏

[@shirleyflavell5705]

Fabulous lot of veges and gorgeous flowers. So look forward to our early summer to come back. When does it get dark in your area Gayna in the summer. I was amazed when you said it was 9 0clock and it was so light. We have got covid come back here in NZ. bought in by travellers coming back and not being checked properly, so disappointing. Hugs.

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Oh that is disappointing. It’s July 1st now and sunset is around 9.30 so it’s dark shortly after that x

[@TheSabinewalkden]

You have been so busy of late with home schooling and the commitment to doing a scarf despite suffering with your elbow. I am not surprised you may be feeling as you do. The school holidays will soon be with you, then THAT scarf can be completed and you will be able to have more time to relax I hope. Sometimes life can feel like a treadmill and you do not know how to jump off! Why don't you take a little time away from vlogging once this scarf is done and indulge in some well deserved time for yourself? We will understand as the editing is time consuming and you will be refreshed afterwards. Sending you virtual hugs from the other side of the country here in Norwich. XXX

[@julielines3281]

Hi sorry to hear your struggling try and rest in between doing things your doing too much thank you for sharing and take care x 😊

[@talesfromcuckooland]

I’m ok! I think every one is up and down at the mo. It’s a funny old time, that’s for sure. I hope you’re ok, Julie x

[@cherylcarlson3315]

You are doing great in the garden. Makes me want lavender hedge...have 70 lb and 40 lb dogs play like that in very small house as was hot here.wish for big garden

[@glendabathgate4036]

Yip too hot I ve just finished cleaning conservatory of webs dust etc and am so weary but family comin for tea tonight takeaway first time since lockdown baby Leah six months and hasn’t been here since March and has a tooth 😍thank you for your uplifting chat xxx

[@steamingiron]

Overwhelmed Is the word your looking for Gayna...............Quite normal all things considered! Stay strong xx

[@talesfromcuckooland]

We all have funny days like that but I’m a lucky one because I get people like you to hold my hand xxx

[@marionlamont8548]

Bless you. I spoke to a friend today as I have developed a phobia about being near people & very anxious fear filled thoughts . One thing he suggested was are your thoughts truth ? Is it rational? Is it helpful ? Can I do anything-about this ? If it’s not any of these thing start to think of your blessings not easy but really helpful . You are coping so well just think of you for a few days x

[@talesfromcuckooland]

What brilliant advice. Those are the gateways we need to assess our feelings by. X

[@MsSpiffer1]

I absolutely love your yellow dress. Did you make it? Please rest your elbow so you don't end up needing surgery.

[@talesfromcuckooland]

No! I bought it on holiday in France two years ago. I love it!!

[@barbarawatkins6364]

but I love your waffling :-) Take care x

[@MokkiLife]

Banana Bread is on my agenda to tomorrow! (3 ripe ones sitting on the counter) Also putting a pork roast in the crockpot EARLY tomorrow morning so it will be done shortly after noon time (when it will really starts getting HOT 🥵) It is currently 6:49pm and 92*F ALL those boy need to be introduced to a “Kaper Chart” to assist you with the chores! OH MY the rose looks beautiful 🌹

[@talesfromcuckooland]

They do their chores but they are shoddy workers. Little rat bags!

[@MokkiLife]

@@talesfromcuckooland LOL!

[@Floralee2020]

I have to say , you are an beautiful , amazing, warmhearted talenter And positive Women & mother , i love to follow you, the sweet family dogs , and the rest of your lovely family , You are doing an amazing job keeping it all together , You deserve coffee and sweet served on bed 😃 take Care and Thank you for Sharing ❤️. Im about to watch all the episode 🤗🌞

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Wow thank you but honestly I am just a regular person. Honestly! Please don’t be impressed by me, I only show the good boys remember. Xxx

[@Floralee2020]

Yes , i know there Can be much not to share with strangers ,And life I is not all perfect , but you share also Your personality , the Way you Think and Many of your Feelings and by that I’m sure all can tell you are a wonderful caring women with many talent , Only to like , and I think it is great your are making this for your sons ❤️ Thank you for letting us follow 😍

[@Floralee2020]

Your sons are good boys 👍🏻😃❤️❤️❤️

[@sandiking1584]

There is a lot of different energy about and we are being bombarded with extremely high spikes from this....... 'The Schumann resonances are a set of spectrum peaks in the extremely low frequency portion of the Earth's electromagnetic field spectrum' its making people all over the world feel 'all over the place' 31 is very hot for you, however your garden is still looking lovely and green, that sort of heat here makes everything look very tired and limp and brown, even with watering....wouldn't it be nice if we had less extremes, I know I would love it if 31 was our highest instead of 45....phew! Bless Margo, she is so little, but so cute playing with Bunny.....love how Bunny is so at home with you all xxx

[@talesfromcuckooland]

45! How do you cope? I really feel there is a lot of stuff to do with how the world revolves that effects us in ways we can never understand.

[@sandiking1584]

@@talesfromcuckooland 45 is horrible, it is so hot and lifeless, you just sit in a pool of sweat, it's hard to breathe sometimes...I have had to open the freezer door just to be able to breathe some 'fresh' air hehe, but its not funny really, so taxing on everyone xxx

[@micheleellis3338]

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[@Hide_and_silk]

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[@phoebepaxford7184]

You need that infared lamp for your elbow! I understand, I have horrors in my past and need to make an effort to see all the beauty that surrounds me. Most of the time I succeed. Hugs to you for the tough days xx

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Yep. Focus on the good. Don’t ignore the bad but don’t dwell on it, hey?

[@phoebepaxford7184]

@@talesfromcuckooland exactly!

[@renatekuhn9810]

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[@ritaking8827]

I can understand how your feeling. I’m feeling put upon, and resentful, and angry a little bit! But today, is not any different from yesterday, last week, and last month, and the month before. So I’m thinking it might be because I’m being made to do things differently than my usual routine... example, I love getting mail! Love it, and packages... but, now I have to open them up outside, spray them with alcohol, let them dry, than I get to bring them in... than I look at the books I’ve ordered, and I think, did I for certain get them clean? What if I get sick? What if I make My husband sick? So I put them away for days until I feel comfortable looking at them. This stupid virus! Than I think well I’m doing a really good job keeping this thing away from my husband and I’m really doing ok,... I think it comes down to my wanting to throw myself onto the floor and start kicking and screaming NO NO NO! Like a two year old! Than I think about that and laugh because that’s not me at all! I don’t like letting myself feel helpless because really I’m not. Doing what I need to do works... I keep thinking that my ancestors had smallpox, no antibiotics, TB, the Black Death and still managed to insure that I made it to 2020! I refuse to let SARS coV2 beat me! I have to go out and get my post... roll on Sunday! No Post on Sunday! Small victories and chocolate, and no post on Sunday❤️YES We can do this!

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Yes! I know what you mean! Sometimes it all seems a bit much even though sometimes it’s no different to regular life.

[@maricami62]

To quote Bilbo Baggins. You sound like butter spread too thinly on too much bread. Your Covid life is so full on with home schooling feeding the family without moments of calm and stillness for you to collect yourself. Self care is so important right now and as much as I love your blogs I don’t think anybody wants you to put yourself under too much pressure putting out daily vlogs. Sending lots of love. Take care of you 💕💕💕

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Butter spread too thinly! Yes. That heavens I don’t have a job too!!!

[@maricami62]

You have the most important job in the world. Being a mama to three boys, one of whom has additional needs is a very important and significant job. Please never diminish what you do because you don’t work outside the home. What you are doing is vital. As a mama to two beautiful daughters of 25 and 28 I am reminded frequently of how much I never realised the lessons they learned and the significance of the smallest things. Sending love

[@janeengoodacre3117]

No need to buy pegs Gayner tie the string to the base of the tomatoe plant weave the plant round the string as it grows I do that every year, keep smiling petal there’s alway light at the end of the tunnel

[@talesfromcuckooland]

I was worried the tomato stalk would be restricted if I did that. The tent pegs have arrived 🤩

[@fleurday9438]

I want to kiss Margo's woolly little feeeeeeeet!!!!! Chasing rabbits in her dreams 💛🧡💚💙💜

[@glorimarcruz7824]

Oh Margo oh Bunny just want to eat them to pieces and hug them and squeeze them love them God bless them ,Gayna i have five girls of my very own ,an american short hair Kitty,a mix like Bunny and a salchicha i mean a dachshund mom and her two babies , my grandaughters 🌺💐🌷🌹 GBYALL, watching the adds they are back again hey ho😊😘😘😘😘😂

[@annieoannie]

Sounds like today was very productive. Hurray for Holidays! I know the Corona Virus and the BLM issues are a lot to take in and deal with, but Margo and Bunny keep you laughing. They are like little therapy animals. Keep laughing my dear even if it is just at the absurdity of our current lives! At least Trump is not running your country!

[@kayruse9965]

Have you ever tried meditation, I know alot of people find it helps, I've tried but my mind wanders off. I love that little ball of fluff twitching away fast asleep.

[@talesfromcuckooland]

I struggle to clear my mind too so I try to practise being in the moment instead. It does seem to help a bit. Most of the time o don’t suffer with anxiety but sometimes it bites me on the bum.

[@helenoreillylong9497]

Mind yourself too.

[@MarilynPhillips]

9:00 pm?? What time does it get dark where you live?

[@talesfromcuckooland]

Sunset is at 9.30 on the 1st July in Bristol, Uk so it gets dark shortly after that. X